hakuna matata

sigh! i am now feeling out of sorts. why is my internship stuff so hard to settle.. today we were having revival meeting in church and the guest preacher from klang was talking about faith in God and how leaving it up to him gives him more space to work in our lives.. and i was thinking yeah, trusting somehow that I'd have a good internship since march when my first round of apps weren't successful and i thought i was pretty much settled with the hedge fund.. but then the guy replied to my email and said they're still thinking! augh. i am so frustrated right now.

and it's so hard to type this stupid entry, dunno wat's wrong with my computer. ah i gave up on downloading the korean show. slow connection. man i don't even know why i'm in such a foul mood >< actually maybe i do know but i'm in denial or something, hm. that might be it. UGH. i think i shall go read a book or something. probably more calming.