yay! i went shopping today. and found some quite nice things. so i'm happy:)
i was, however, very very late in meeting poor lijia. apparently we woke up at the same time though haha. i think i probably woke up when she msged me, but i'm not so sure cos i don't clearly remember hearing my phone's msg tone. but anyway. she bought something frm zara while waiting for me so i guess that makes up for it, kind of:)
and nydc jazz brownie is SO good.. man. and i should really stop eating so much dessert all the time.. but it's so tempting. i also need to go to max brenners before going back to school heh.
now, to watch pirates. hmm. maybe i should drag someone to watch it with me on tues night or something.. -ponders-
oh and yesterday i was reading over some of my old autograph thingies.. i can't remember wat i was like! i'm quite sure i'm not the same though. descriptions include cheerful, smiley, patient (this, i suspect, only bcos of serene), nice to everyone (ditto).
yayyy phew yf just saved me from having to do the jc talk on stanford presentation from scratch.. anyway need to sleep soon. heh it was so weird, at 11 plus i was thinking hm maybe i should sleep now, gotta wake up at 7:30 tmr. and then i realized i'm home and i don't have to:p
so today rachel made my day.. we were having dinner at novena square (which i was, sadly, late for cos i was reading memoirs of a geisha at kino at liang court) and then after that were walking around. there were so many annoying california fitness promoters and they kept shoving flyers at us and asking if we wanted to join.
after the 3rd one, rachel told me "i'm fat and i'm happy!" and it sounded so funny.. so i was like really, you should tell them that. 2 more tried to flyer us (including this older lady who had already tried TWICE before.. man). after which we almost reached the escalator and this younger lady tried to talk to us and rachel really said "i'm fat and i'm happy!" and i started laughing cos i didn't expect her to do it.. so rachel turned towards me after saying it and i glanced at the promoter and she was SO stunned.. just stood there with the flyer in her hand and gaping after us. hahahaha. i haven't laughed that hard in a while.
after that rachel was still like, it's not that i didn't dare, i just didn't want to be mean. while i was still laughing away. i don't think it's mean though, i just think it's funny.. hopefully someone agrees with me. but anyway, yeah i have crazy times with rachel.. the only reason i would miss interning at the learning lab is when i annoy her in the library. should go back to those blog entries hm.
and i was also thinking about how to be a good intern at work today. besides the fact that i'm chronically late. i need new clothes too. but anyway, uh. yah! i feel like a hermit. and then my supervisor's leaving soon to go to MINDEF. and the bigger boss doesn't really know about my project, i think. so ridiculous.
i'm quite sure i had something to blog about. at any rate i think i felt that way at work but i hardly think blogging at work is a good idea. surprisingly i do draw the line at that. haha. even though my msn is on all the time ahaha. anyway.. aughh i'm soo tired. and sometimes i don't think i'm doing a very good job of being a leader. i guess i need to remember what ser said about it being what i define it to be..
and it's the same feeling in the morning when i really don't want to get up and go to work. such a sinking depressing feeling. even though i do tell myself to (quote someone) "psyche up" and do justice to myself and my background. sometimes it's hard though. i mean i can try and be happy/bubbly and things but if people just look at me like i'm being dumb then i do feel dumb.
but there're good things, i'm glad there're quite a few fellow interns so we can hang out together (i.e. slack together) and chat and all. kinda sad that a few of them are leaving pretty soon. i'm also glad i only have 4 weeks, i really don't like being cooped up in an office. four walls, stuffy aircon, huge lack of windows (and a view), it's so quiet and sleep inducing. ... okay i have a lot of complaints.
ahh. back from first day of work and class outing. really didn't turn out the way i expected.. i didn't know there were only 2 other interns besides me (but there're already 11 at MOF) and we were sitting in awkward silence while waiting for the HR person to come. it was kinda weird cos the 2 of them knew each other (and i was a bit late, thanks to my unwillingness to get up:p) and i just popped out from nowhere.
but on a slightly related note, i think that's partly why i hit it off with jackie, when we met at int'l orientation i was kinda sian of doing the -smile- "hi! i'm clarissa, i'm from singapore" routine and i said something to that effect to her and she was like YEAH.. it's nice when pple respond. maybe that's wat yf meant when he said it takes two to talk crap and it's hard to do that with his colleagues. dunno la. maybe i'm just being oversensitive. it happens.
um. anyway. oh.. so the morning was so slack cos they were setting up our computers (which are SO slow, man.. get macs! haa). and it took super long. oh i have my own MOF email add, very cool:) but then in the afternoon i had a information overload. 1.5hrs briefing on the "MOF Mission, Vision and Way". and i was asking all the questions too. whether they were intelligent or not is another thing. haha. and since there were only 3 of us we couldn't exactly fall asleep.. and after that i had a 1hr briefing by my supervisors.. woah. headache man.
class outing also turned out to be very unlike wat I thought it would be.. it wasn't the normal crowd anyway. but i must admit i'm kind of guilty of not inviting people half the time.. poor chim as the class chair (a loong time ago) ended up being blamed actually. but hey, i did all the organizing.
i felt so much more liberated with them though. at least i can be myself and not have to work my poor brain so hard thinking about policies and blah.. i mean i definitely appreciate that the briefings today gave me a glimpse into government that i would never get without this internship. but it's also tiring that i somehow or other have to be this motivated driven intern and etc. yeah, i'm just lazy. reminds me of lou.. too lazy to chew but still want to enjoy good food.
anyway, interestingly enough i think now i'm more able to appreciate opportunities. like, before, i'd have just been like augh, this is so boring, i don't like this, blah. but now even though it may not be the most interesting/inspiring thing to me, i still realize there's value. i was thinking about it and i decided that my attitude changed because of pledging. when i had to do so many things that were foreign to me (e.g. socializing on an extended scale, selling stuff for fundraising, ...) and possibly SEALNet, when we had to reflect on stuff every day.
alright. need to sleep. you'll probably see me online during the day, haha.