i suddenly decided to read other ppl's blogs. after this crazy quarter.. not that it's ended, but it's definitely winding down (in terms of pledge anyway) and i have a little more time to do my own stuff (i suspect i should be doing pledge stuff but i really need my own time for a while).
and then wat daryl was saying to sean on sunday came back to me. and when i saw hk's blog entry (quite some time ago actually) abt his experience. everyone's journey is so different. daryl was saying he was so uptight about grades and things, related to parents' expectations which actually aren't there. and i was thinking mine was so different, i don't have a problem with working but with getting involved in other stuff (i.e. extracurricular - yup, here they don't call it co-curricular haha). but actually i did still have some of the i-can't-go-out-and-do-fun-stuff-if-not-i-can't-do-my-work mentality.. largely in RGS, then less so in RJ after i got into choir, and then less so in fall quarter, and so it progresses.
i guess we'll have to see for my grades this quarter.. pray that god helps me to prepare well for watever i have left to do.. to salvage my psych, particularly. and ihum. augh. this quarter has been the craziest, yet when i thought about depledging i realized i'll probably stay in my room and not do anything if i didn't have all that stuff to do. we shall see wat happens on saturday though. i have no idea wat i'm going to wear to that party, augh.