clar's verdict on herself: she is very unfit.
i just spent ~1h40mins playing squash. oh wait let me rephrase that. -attempting- to play would be more accurate, haven't the foggiest idea how it's spposed to be played so just whacked e ball around btwn e 2 lines on e wall. now i can hardly type properly. and i must admit i spent half the time picking up the ball haha:p
plus e racket's kinda old so the grip's falling apart n i ended up with black hands *big sigh* don't think i can hold a pen for a while haha this sounds like when we were doing tennis for pe module. i wonder how effective this "exercising" was hmm must try more often n hope for results.
besides that. last day of attachment. kinda sad la won't go to the clinic anymore. i hope they liked e presents tho:S or their kids for tt matter haha. and i finally realised that one of the nurses' name was hooi nee not winnie. cos i kept wondering who hooi nee was and whether she quit or sth then i finally realised aft like 5 days *shakes head* v pathetic clar.
anyways. the op was quite gross. didn't noe had to cut thru so many layers of flesh [more like fat.. could see the yellow and stuff gross huh bet candice will love this] and muscles [?] and wat not. and used so many pieces of gauze to mop up the blood [okay it wasn't that much i think caesarian probably wud have more since its a baby and all]
took out e woman's uterus bcos she had adenomyosis. [forgot wat it is shall hafta go check it out.. but i noe it resembles a fibroid. man i was going to type ressembler as in french -groan-]
anyhow for once i was looking at e real thing instead of at the screen w e help of e laparoscope. very interesting. his sewing is so neat haha. quite cool actually. i always wonder how he figures out wat is wat. and then he pulled out a bit of the large intestine to show me haha. gross huh. and stuffed it back in. okay so this description really doesn't do justice to wat he was doing but ah tts the essence of it:p
the uterus looks really tiny. like maybe just slightly bigger than the huge fibroid frm e german lady on wednesday. anyway surprisingly it wasn't so cold in e op theatre today dunno why.
i figured anasthetists have a lot to say during ops to doctors. and they seem quite slack. just sit around and be "back-seat drivers" as on monday. quite amusing. but conversation is interesting. today they were complaining abt sumiko tan. and the anasthetist was saying tt tomatoes are gd for the prostate. and one of them was thinking maybe that's why italians are so horny.
another day they were talking abt finding nemo. and the anasthetist was saying in e tearoom tt she likes watching spongebob squarepants. with no trace of embarrassment or anyth. admirable!:D hardly find adults saying such stuff i think.
hmm i seem to have ready fingers when i start typing. [variation of the "have a ready pen when i start writing"] okies time for dinner soon yay sushi!:)
totally zoned out today dunno why either. like walking in a dream. [not tt it was a very gd dream/bad dream just didn't noe wat i was doing] and i hate standing in front cos i keep getting picked on and i miss weiying! [quick be honoured if u read this] hahahaha. rite.
surprisingly enough i now prefer "have urself a merry lil xmas" to "what sweeter music" when at 1st it was the other way round. bleargh. well.
don't know what to say. thus am eating honeydew. doesn't make sense as usual. oh i was just thinking socialising is so tiring. wat a lazy clar.
hrms. this is 3rd day of work attachment.
3 major things. 1st abortion. hmm. quite horrifying.. he just sucked everyth out with this vacuum curette thingy. and then at the end all tt was left of the 5-week-old [i dunno wat u call it.. embryo?] was this jar of red liquidish stuff.
2nd yay i got to see a delivery! haha. there wasn't that much blood. i thought the whole floor was going to be full of it or sth cos he was wearing sth like wellingtons but well it was quite under control. interesting seeing the way he stitches tho. amazing how he can see wat he's doing cos i'd no idea wat was happening until the end-product was in sight n it was really neat and looked v normal. and the baby was so tiny:) happy parents tho.
3rd operation. the theatre was freezing cold. and had to change into the green garb [as candice calls it] which was freaking thin. so yeah i was standing around freezing for 1/2hr+ at least it wasn't too long.
laproscopy i think it was called? hmm website spells it as laparoscopy anyways for sure its keyhole surgery. and got to see everyth inside like intestines [i think:] e uterus n ovaries n stuff.
tho the cyst was quite gross. lemme try remember e name.. ah just checked. dermoid cyst. like it had hair and pus and stuff. ugh. was quite surprised that the doc just had to tear it frm the ovary.. only one part had to be cut with this instrument [forgot e name] and this woman kept standing rite in front of me n blocking my view.
afternoon. hmm. saw a 134.5kg pregnant lady. she's like.. 3 times my weight or sth. this little boy was so cute he was fascinated with me n offered me a sweet that the nurse gave him. and there was one cancer case which was very depressing.
came home in a rather bad mood dunno why mom is trying to pry some reason out of me so i told her i was hungry [true to an extent] wonder if i shud have decided to go RDA tmr. hmm. or go on fri for the leader workshop. but on fri so many pple signed up! i think they have an excess of volunteers. and they still welcome somemore. sigh.
i want to buy a horse and a dog [preferably a golden retriever/lab or a mix or anyth tt i like haha] but 1st i'd have to be rich. hais. feel jaded. don't feel like doing anyth. n i hate the way half the books i bought have to have vulgarities. maybe i shud get desensitised. sucky crap.
oh. last fri. this couple came in. doc "how long have u been married for?" [femme was 3 mths pregnant] couple "we're getting married tmr" i was so shocked esp when the doc cud just calmly go on with his questioning/congratulating/watever.
k dinner. hopefully i'll be happier aft eating haha:D