just watched chocolat. i love the music! and johnny depp! haha. my all-time favourite actor. actually more like the only one. anyway, the town reminded me of italy! the basilica and the statue outside. i can see loreto in my mind. was that the townsquare? ah just checked the postcard. it's called virgin square. why, i can't imagine. but i remember me n candice sitting at the fountain eating pizza:) although it started getting kind of cold in the evening. ohhh i totally remember freezing on the first night we went to perform! (and falling asleep in the basilica thanks to jet lag) rofl. ahh. where are all my choirmates? suddenly miss them. okay i think i'm very capricious sometimes.
anyway the town reminded me of italy. because of the ancient architecture and what not. and then also of french/france. i wish it had been in french though haha. i'm so so rusty it's terrible. and my chinese is in a worse state i think. esp cos i haven't written in chinese for so long. ugh. i keep intending to go read some book to stem the decline but haven't gotten round to it. as usual.
and today i saw caneles! at bakerzin. (as lyd says, what a poseurish name) anyway, reminded me of immersion too. i think cheukka agrees with me that it's horrible:p although it's supposed to be an acquired taste. which i evidently have not acquired. oh it's a bordeaux speciality. ohh ser if you read this, do you remember the almond-shaped thing monsieur yong let us try? i think it was almond paste with some marzipan/icing on top. so yummy. i forgot the name though:(
alright. very reminiscient-ish time tonight. okay and i also need to go sleep soon
one of my other favourite quotes:
Voici mon secret. Il est très simple : on ne voit bien qu'avec le coeur. L'essentiel est invisible pour les yeux.
(It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; What is essential is invisible to the eye.)
I prefer the french version. anyway, it's by Antoine de St. Exupery. from The Little Prince.
suddenly, i'm very scared. after talking to one of my seniors just now about courses and rooming and blah, the enormity of it has just dawned on me. and it's overwhelming. i'll definitely have a roommate. not that it's a bad thing exactly but it's just different. like i was telling serene it's so different from everything we've gone through so far.. it's like everything has been planned out, just follow the system without thinking - the "default" path (like they said during my med interview)
and then now i have to plan 4 years' worth of courses (which don't even stay constant, which makes it even harder) and i have no friends going with me. actually, i suppose most people don't, but still.. i like solitude sometimes but it still seems rather daunting to be alone to face so much new stuff. i know seniors who're already there and some of the people who'll be matriculating this year but.. okay i have a lot of "buts" today. fitting in alone may or may not be easier. and how americans are all so confident. (and loud). stereotypically.
and then arranging with my bro to get some of his stuff n etc.. i'll probably have to go and buy a bike if not i'll never get to classes on time. and make sure it doesn't get stolen haha.
i guess it's just a very huge transition. luckily i leave later than most people.. still have time heh.
well well well.. looks like the decision has been made for me anyway. rather relieved in a sense although there's this sneaking feeling of laziness. i mean, if they'd accepted me i probably wouldn't have stayed, but i would still have to spend a little more time deliberating. so, stanford here i come! haha. woohoo~ finally i can concentrate.
anyway star wars was quite cool.. although i really cannot remember what the first episode was about (it was the only one i watched, way back in sec 1 or sth.. with yingling n chris i think?) and it's so tragic that anakin became so ugly (as darth vader). totally gross.
i wonder if my parents/brother are unhappy with what happened. oh well.
ah, i suddenly remembered i forgot to talk about class outing haha. saw pple i haven't seen in quite some time.. and mrs kwan came! yay. i was telling her how we missed her in jc cos there was nobody to care about us haha. she doesn't look any different actually. oh yes agree with chris that the calamari rings were v nice. so was the ice cream haha. audry horrified at shiqin's green fingernails and berating jiahui for her taste in food was funny.
and i'm so tired. oh wait something lijia said is so true, when you stay at home all day you feel even more lethargic. day is filled with eating and sleeping. haha. and i kinda wish i didn't buy the quidam dvd cos now i don't think i want to spend extra $$ watching it live but still!! aahh.
yesterday my brother told me i ought to be thinking about the nus-stanford thing every day, and i was like "wat?? do you want me to go mad?" and he said "no you won't.. and you need to uless you're going to make the decision in a day". which is true i suppose. but of course if i don't get in here there's nothing to think about haha. anyway, that's why my description has been changed to "currently very confused clar". alliteration!
i think i'm a little out of sorts today.
right i never posted about my last day. oh well. i spent the afternoon+evening reading gerald durrell bks in the library:p didn't manage to finish the last one though! (i.e. i only finished one and half of the other one) wat to do, couldn't read fast enough .haha.
played taboo with b10, one of them was like "satay is ___" and another one said "fried". i was trying to mark this essay which was handed up late and choked when i heard that.
oh and i met one of my students at cine today! haha. fiona was v amused. and said i'm shorter than them -grr- not my fault lah.. aiyah. anyway usually they're sitting down and i'm standing up so there..
oh yes i bought a v nice shirt yesterday at a gd price so i'm v happy:) think heartlands are better for shopping.. and i have a new pair of shoes! they feel a bit funny though somehow.. even though they're nice and comfortable. hmm.
tomorrow i have nothing to do. mom wants me to find a job until next thurs.. how possible is that? aiyah. i don't know what i want to do also. everything has its gd n bad points.