hmm. colorgenics is uncannily spot-on w.r.t. [haha diffn?] mood analysis. www.colorgenics.com! go try it! heh. though it kind of describes the whole week not so much just today. heh. like the way i feel cooped up. n how tired i feel. and the stress! the source of which i've no idea. bit scary the way its so accurate. more the last 3 paragraphs.
Results:
You are longing for some love and affection at this time - not that you have been deprived of tender loving care - but there are times when everyone needs to try something new or to go 'somewhere' else to perhaps experience that little extra 'understanding'.
You are feeling very vulnerable at this time. Nothing seems to be going in the right direction - business wise, private-life wise, everything. You need some emotional security and an environment which could possibly provide fewer problems, but the way you are feeling you can't be bothered even to make the effort.
You feel tired - worn out and listless. The last thing that you want to do is to be in an open conflict with those around you that are forever tormenting you. What to do? That's the rub. You are feeling that you are being choked - unable to breathe.
Unacceptable restrictions have been forced upon you and this is resulting in severe frustration and stress. You are looking for independence and consequently you shy away from any restriction and avoid obligations of anything which might prove hampering. You are being subjected to considerable pressure and want to escape from it so that you can obtain what you need, but unfortunately at this particular moment in time you lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this.
Trying to cope with conditions which you think are beyond your capabilities has led to considerable anxiety and stress. You now feel that you are not capable of coping with this situation and indeed any situation which could arise from what you consider to be your personal inadequacy.
woah. very relieved:) and happy:) haha. after worrying. anyways it was quite funny mrs cheong was saying they can get it by 11.. then raphael n serene were like "clarissa's dying already" so she should go get it now.. so mrs cheong was like "huh?? really ah?! okay okay i'll go n get now" n she ran off:p so nice:)
yup congrats to all those who did well!:) n a level results.. like woah.. weiying!! haha.. and kelvin n sicheng n all..
quite scared. we'll be like them next year.. hopefully will be as happy haha. i think i'm kind of struggling at the moment.
anyways i forgot to mention something on monday during math s poor val was stuck between serene [who had her bf with her] and me.. and i was like raining insults on serene half the time and val was quite amused. n then i realised i only do that to serene haha quite poor thing.
rather tired now. don't know why. off to rest. quite worried about ssef.. poster is undone, haven't practised presentation since last nov.. i still hafta go back to sch for choir.. dunno how also. n i think my mom has got something on in the morning.
sigh. suddenly yesterday after all the tests i felt so drained [like peiying says, though i'm not sure its the same reason] and very fatigued. and so. cooped up. like i was complaining to fiona/hk.. i'm either at home/in school. and its always the same route home, blah blah blah. its so tiringly routine and boring. study for tests.. oh yay they're over.. time to catch up on tutorials.. i want a holiday.. a real holiday like french immersion/vegas/sth to just play. and relax.
haha. this is actually quite funny. i think i only felt this way occasionally after june [?] but definitely not 1st term. quite sad that it actually happens now and then. tho actually during syf period i was feeling quite desperate about lagging work. but that's different. from feeling sick and tired of everything.
anyways.. at least i think i've nice dinner on saturday to look forward to:) hopefully. might have to go to ntu in the morning to do ssef stuff though. means i might miss sectionals. hmm. speaking of which ssef means i'll miss 1 1/2days of school. not very good actually. sigh.
and ao results are out tmr too i think. i'm quite worried really. don't know why. maybe cos i din like the compre passage? can't remember already. and i noe i was one of the few who did the passe simple compo topic. hopefully am being paranoid and i'll get the grade i want. then can go out n celebrate:D heh. but the way i'm feeling u'd think i already know i didn't get wat i want. aaugh. help me. somehow seems like i don't care about it anymore though. cared much more about o level french than ao level.
anyways all the best to pple getting back chinese!:) hope u all do fine:)
o yeah and today's pe was. well. can't find a word to describe it. ms chan was making us doing some pilate [sp?] exercises or something like that and it was like choir breathing exercises. man. candice n me n jiahui were like. okay.
haha i looked at my previous post starting with "well well well" n reminded me of fiona's very pathetic joke. anyhow. band concert was gd! would have been better at a diff venue definitely.. couldn't see most of the players.. bah.. haha.. eunice as the newest member of the softball team was quite funny:p pity they didn't have ensembles though hmm. last yr's percussion one was good:)
and yesterday's mugging was hilarious.. i never knew tiff could be that mad:D rather amazing really haha. self-sufficiency by sleeping on ur own shoulder? and singing all sorts of songs n going crazy.. heh:p and jan was hilarious too.. she's really one for dropping food:) (and chairs haha) n when she scolded ben!! haha.. mingze's chipmunk imitation was v funny too:p can really imagine her when she's a mom getting all flustered over her little kids haha;p n alvin imitating mingze "guys... [followed by grammatically incorrect sentence]" n ben telling jiahui "u've done 7 GOOD qns!! 7 SOLID qns!" the look on jiahui's face was priceless:D haven't laughed that much in a long time. it was fun:).. even tho i don't noe any of them particularly well