i think i'm burnt. which is not good. actually being tanned is quite nice.. maybe i should get out in the sun more haha. anyway, wild wild wet was quite fun.. brought back the excitement of fantasy island days.. run around in the sun and stay wet the whole day.. it's really v refreshing.. hot sun and cool water! whee~
was just a pity i had to rush off to gao dim my missing sec sch report (augh i hope everything reached if not i'll hafta go bother poor mrs cheong again) and couldn't stay to meet jane.. oh! it was a pleasant surprise meeting yingheng at pasir ris mrt.. so unexpected! and very coincidental. and pam was actually early! well done pam (altho she won't read this but nvm) for having been early for 5 days.. it's a start.. haha.
i find reunion dinner excessively tedious. so so boring. but again that happens every year. esp since there is no one of my age at reunion dinner. and the pathetic state of reunion struck me most forcefully today when we started eating, silently. only sounds to be heard: the click of chopsticks and spoons against the ricebowls. i was just thinking to myself and pitying my family? i don't know who i was pitying actually.
and i never knew that particular uncle was so old. at first i thought he was late twenties, then i realised my bro's early twenties already so cannot be. so fine, late thirties? n ends up he's early forties. okay. maybe wat my nice french guy said was true, asians show their age later.
i foresee another boring day tmr. with any stretch of the imagination, one could never describe the relationship between me and my cousins (on dad's side) as being close. or even vaguely familial. i blame it partially on my dad cos he hardly ever keeps in touch with his siblings, so how'd u expect me to be close to my cousins? anyway, sometimes i don't really care either so whatever. and of cos the rest of it is probably my fault for not keeping in touch with them too.
at least it isn't so bad with mom's side. i'm not so close to them anymore but still. i hear about them and stuff.. i think we meet up a teeny bit more regularly. when i was young (i was about to write small, but decided against it cos some pple will probably tell me "u're still small") i remember visiting cousins a lot more. sigh. the days of childhood. anyway, at least i still can ask my cousin abt her orientation and piano and all that, hopefully she has nice funny stories to tell. it's quite sad how children's innocence is lost though. she used to say the silliest things but now getting more serious already. or maybe less talkative. dunno.
let me see. ah yes. and visiting church fren's house. as usual, probably no one my age will be around so i'll be bored stiff again. i don't even think she has nice interesting magazines around so watch me perfect the art of stoning tomorrow. :) .
actually the idea of chinese new year as a renewing old ties festival and all that is quite appealing.. i was watching cars during the long journey from my house to simei and saw a lot of families.. n my mom was saying cny is to us wat xmas is to usa/uk/australia/etc.. but still, i don't like cny for the most part. the only things i appreciate at the moment are the food, money (even then i don't feel particularly comfortable accepting money frm pple i hardly know. actually i don't like accepting money frm people. fullstop.)
this is also partly why i wouldn't mind being overseas next year and escaping all this. i'll probably feel quite different if i end up overseas but the grass elsewhere always seems greener. k i sound quite pathetic. but those are the inevitable thoughts that pop up.