i may be making excuses, but i think it's because i get injured so often i don't take it particularly seriously anymore. and i heal fast cos i'm young. oh well.
blading today! daryl's blades are really horrible, i have no idea how she can blade in them.. i was totally suffering during the first 45mins or so and wondering how my blading could have deteriorated so much in a few weeks.. then charm very nicely offered to exchange with me cos she says she usually wears daryl's ones anyway so its okay.. thus i discovered the joy of blading in good blades. haha. although i think that poor gal may have gotten a blister:( -feels guilty again- groan. but charm's blades were so much smoother. which is gd and bad. gd cos it's easier to fall if it gets out of control.. and the slopes, although scary at first, were super fun! haha. just roll down.
and i got my vacuum pack bags from parkway. heh thanks to passerby who asked val where she got hers from.. and it's such a coincidence i read it last night (i think?) and then was going to ecp today. ladida. am rather tired again though, yesterday i just plopped on my bed and fell asleep with the lights on and woke up at 3sth to realise i fell asleep.
i think part of the reason why i'm reluctant to leave is that i've made new friends in these very short eight months. which i don't really want to lose so soon, but hopefully that won't happen. and what's gd abt going off is that i get to shop for a whole lot of things haha. fun but tiring. and i'm so glad i'm going to a pretty place (so everyone says), cos i think i'd be quite miserable if i were stuck in an ugly place.
i think i'll have fun while i'm there, but while i'm here, inertia sets in.
i hope i haven't been repeating myself online. cos i can never remember whether i said it to people in person (and can't remember whom i said certain things to, for that matter) or whether i blogged it. so confusing.
sigh i was actually quite happy until i got home and got scolded by my bro:( but i think he's right really, i'm too absorbed in myself sometimes. therefore now i am feeling guilty. maybe it's just another of my -ignore-it-and-hopefully-everyth-will-be-right- tendencies.
i think i'm trying to do that now anyway.
and i'm quite tired. want to sleep. and sleep and sleep and sleep. i brought my tendertails whale to work today to show christine. actually i realised when i thought of whale i didn't think of the real one. cos the real one's really quite ugly haha. oops. tend not to think of animals the way they look in real life. usually think of cartoon/stuffed toy ones haha:p oh well.
i'm going to retire to the sanctuary of my room. and clear up my desk. haha.
i don't know why i wasn't in a very happy mood this morning. even annoying rachel didn't help. rofl. luckily it improved nearing lunchtime:p and i also don't know why christine keeps laughing when she sees me. apparently something about me is very amusing. anyway, i printed a whale tag for her today. rofl. it was most amusing.. she was sitting at the reception doing computer stuff and then the whole world saw it.. and when they asked her why, she pursed up her lips, pointed at me and said "ask the goldfish". i so do not look like a goldfish.
and i'm rather tired now. finally, my specs are made. but i have a sneaking suspicion that they didn't check my eyesight properly. i mean, my left eye is sufficiently blurry for me not to believe that my degrees increased by 25 only.. i must go find the prescription for my old pair of specs. and as it is, this pair is quite old cos i'm sure my contacts were of higher degree.. argh. and i don't like doing eye exams cos it merely serves to remind me how bad my eyesight is:(
i have increasingly less stuff to do at work, weirdly. not that i mind, because after a while writing articles continually does take a toll on me. so i go out and help rachel stick barcodes (and talk nonsense).
i want work to end, yet i don't.
want it to end so i don't have to get up at 7.45 every morning, spend my day in the office, ... and i'll get to go shopping! woohoo~
don't because i'll miss rachel and christine and listening on tchers' amusing conversations (esp ml & lcn together) and it also means i have only 2 weeks left.
so, while i was stoning this morning, i made out a list of things to do and people to meet. i have trouble visualising how i'm going to meet so many people when my weekday nights are very unfree. hopefully i can catch them for lunch. and my brother's still confined during the week!
:( very angry me:( i still haven't shown him the ipod flea movie. oh well. i'm sure he'll have a good laugh, since he was the one who told me about how apple's success is partly thanks to the sale of accesories for their main products.
at least i think i'm going blading this week:) let's hope i don't fall down anymore. haha.
i'm really too tired. and i need to finish clearing my table/getting ready to return the books i've been hogging haha:p oops
lemme see.. i was uber-bored in the morning.. oh wait. mom woke me up, but bcos i slept at 1sth last night i went back to sleep in my slothfulness.. luckily 5 mins later mom checked on me "not going to work ah?" that never fails to work heh.. except on 10 aug:D
and somehow, i put my phone in the pouch, and forgot to put it in my bag. so i was phoneless today. it isn't such a big deal actually, just that i was supposed to meet hk for lunch, and without a phone it's not as convenient la.
oh and before that i was trying to haggle my last 2 days' pay.. so i can work less.. but it doesn't seem like that's gonna happen.. i feel kind of bad when i'm bargaining with charlene.. maybe i'm just too nice. rofl. self-confessed.
it's nice to have mutual friends sometimes. but other times it's nice to have friends who're totally unconnected.
let me see.. i forgot wat i was going to say. nvm i shall just skip on to the next thing i wanted to say. read val wong's blog.. frankly, i don't know how she can feel so optimistic about leaving. maybe it's cos i'm just being contrary and not wanting to leave when i am going to (and if i weren't, i'd wish i were). maybe cos i still have 3 weeks to go. maybe i have just too much and i haven't come to the point to let go.
in a way i'm afraid i'll change and some relationships won't be wat they used to be. but again that has already happened in the many transitions frm pri to sec sch then to jc and now to the interim btwn jc and uni. sigh. and hk asking me how often i'm going to come back.. just brings home the point that although i'll come back this dec and nxt june, probably, after that i probably won't be coming back that often. and i won't see a lot of people. and a lot of things will change.
okay i think i worry too much. and i'm a very.. of-the-moment person. which may or may not be good, really. hmm.
haha so now we're on the subject of nicknames. i have just christened kiat "mad hatter". don't you think it fits him? i do:) now i need to wait to be inspired as to wat animal melvyn looks like.
it's funny how you just click better with some than with others huh. speaking of which, i frequently pop into the library to annoy rachel and be my crazy self.. so fun:D it's a way of stress relief. and requires the correct settings. haha.
i've kind of realised next week will be my last week of work. i don't know why i'm thinking more about it today.. guess once i stop work i must start to prepare to leave. : anyway, i realised when i'm working, i don't really think about how fast time flies. although it seems like for this job, there're less times when i feel like i don't want to go to work. maybe it's cos i have rachel to bully rofl:D and christine to make weird faces at me haha. or maybe cos it does encompass things i like doing. hmm.
oh.. housing package (not really a package, envelope) came today.. stanford really loves forms man.. now i have another 11-qn form to fill up.. anyone wanna listen to me whine? rofl. but like kiat says this form is actually much easier to fill.. as compared to the academic advisor one -cough-
and it's nice to have teachers that you can like. i think i've said it before actually. but somehow, things i think i will do, i don't really end up doing. i also realised after emailing ppl for a while i'll get bored/busy (or the other party will) and it'll just stagnate. but i guess meeting once in a long while is better than never. heh. at least they still remember me, i think.
okay i think i need to sleep soon. ladida. at least today virtually no back pain haha. and deborah keeps telling me about her new cute colleagues (and a cute french manager!) i'm so jealous:( hmph. haha.
oooh i'm very happy now cos daryl sent me the apple ipod flea movie! it's hilarious! haha. i shall show it to my bro when he gets back. sooo funny:D totally made my day:):):)
anyway, met stanford pple today, quite a huge gathering i must say. and actually when i went there and just saw clusters of pple i felt slightly disconcerted. heh. but i guess that's what the gathering's for, just go round and get to know pple. met lots of nice pple, although there was a lack of things to talk about now and then. oh well, looking forward to getting to know everyone better:)
but i don't want to leave again. aiyah. i think i'm forever ambivalent abt stuff. and when the numbers start diminishing.. that's when the compulsion to stay grows.