hakuna matata

there's nothing like a hug from a friend when you need one! i'm so glad lorra came by.. for some reason i was feeling so blah after ski trip, even though it was SO nice to be on slopes again. despite, you know, snow/wind/amazingly limited visibility of about 10 feet (decreased to about 2-3 feet at certain points). it was rather enlightening to find out how it's like without being able to see.. i think all steepness of slopes became somewhat inconsequential because i couldn't see where the heck i was going so i was going pretty slowly, first of all, and i was just trying to carve my way down somehow or other, slowly.

although the powder was quite amazing, i kept telling rachael i'd never seen so much powder before! actually that may not be true, memories are always warped. but it was really quite wonderful. haha. although the sheer volume of powder made it a little harder to manage too. okay as usual my command of the english language seems to be leaving me as my powers of expression diminish... i probably need to hang out with jackie more. maybe her creative writing flair will inspire me.

anyway on hindsight i think i somewhat know why i was so blah, but it's terribly confusing. and it doesn't really matter for now anyhow... i almost feel like God sent Lorra over to remind me that He always cares. and some things are more important than whatever my mind is caught up with. but really, lorra is such an amazing bundle of joy (even though that makes her sound like a newborn child.. hm.)

amazing grace! ok, i feel better. gnite

aaaahhhhh

okay, i have no idea how this happened. so i actually kind of finished my 280 assignment early (well it's not completely done, but almost) on monday and joseph was so amazed, but somehow right now i'm struggling to finish my stuff and sleep enough! boo :( and my 280 group is somewhat dysfunctional, the irony. it's so awkward when people don't engage in discussion when they're supposed to. it's like one person says something, then there's silence. then someone else tries to say something, followed by silence. i don't even understand WHY that's happening.. now i know why sometimes people just volunteer to do most of the work cos they're not sure what'll happen if they don't. alright i should stop sounding like a martyr, it's actually kind of fun doing the organizing and somewhat fulfilling to have it in a nice structure. i am starting to sound crazy...

dsch proj takes up an amazing amount of time. i think i've spent at least 2hrs per day for the past 3 or 4 days working on it. it IS fun though, but it's just that it really does sap time like nobody's business! blah.

and then i start eating and eating and eating. and of course it doesn't help that i have restocked my snack supply thanks to lisa's car... so much for self control. devouring seems to be the order of the day. i almost wish i was like my roommate, she doesn't eat when she's stressed! i can't imagine how she functions, if i'm hungry i can't do anything. i bet ser & jackie'd agree.. that's probably why they're my good friends. ahah.

on another note, i am now hooked on israel houghton & new breed. i don't know why i like their rhythm/beat so much! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ty0SO7IvtXM

just now i was thinking about the next couple of days and felt so reluctant to go to class and do presentations and take midterms. eek. fast-forward to tahoe pleaseeee.