hakuna matata

friday night!

so i watched confessions of a shopaholic with selene, which was fun!!! haha. there were so many *gasp* moments though. i felt like i was making so much noise. anyhow... on reflection it really is a little like 27 dresses. girl is in denial about (insert flaw), meets guy, falls in love, guy finds out about said flaw (and oh no, trust is broken, -dramatic drumroll-), they break up, girl steels self to address said flaw, they meet again as guy finds out that girl has changed for the better and happy ending! yippee... haha ok that sounds so cynical in a way. but it is somewhat formulaic... the green scarf thing was kinda sweet though.

oh, on another note with being cynical. today we had a guest speaker from IDEO for our organizational behavior class, and half the products she talked about i had already heard about from my dschool class where one of the IDEO founders is on the teaching team! and i was just sitting there being okay... been there, heard that. it's quite amazing how much they've achieved though, relatively small company and so much coverage! i guess they do have a tie to Stanford with the dschool so that helps. but the guest speaker (who incidentally was the marketing head) was right, you can't do a graduate course at Stanford without hearing about/watching the shopping cart video. haha. but again... lyd said she watched it at SMU so i guess it's not just masters!

and last note. i really never thought about the abraham-sacrificing-isaac story very much, but since i've come here (i don't know when was the first time i really thought about it thanks to chi alpha prodding or something or other), it seems to have come up so much! especially recently, i guess. since i'm reading it in hebrew for biblical hebrew class, and then today at clare's bible study thing it was the passage... it is good though. to think about idolizing things/people/ideas and having an almost warped sort of love (to do with the whole idolizing thing again). or obsessive. i don't know. but it is so easy to fall into.. for me anyhow. okies, bedtime!!! what a crazy day.

the return...

of the work monster!

so i thought i was being on task by finishing my 261 pset early (for once. maybe twice.) and then today after dschool stuff i realize i have TONS of stuff to do. it's amazing how much time dsch stuff takes, i must rethink whether i want to apply to do another dsch class next quarter, it being my last quarter. man, that sounds so sad to say. but i have determined to fill it with fun stuff! well ok i have to find people who want to do fun stuff too but hopefully that won't be a huge problem.. although one of those things does include doing pearline's otter kayaking thing.. hm.

and tonight's chi alpha was quite powerful. including the fact that the guest speaker (dick schroeder) repeated something that i remembered so clearly from highway during the summer. that we must learn to accept and let go with open palms, instead of clenching to hold on and not being able to let go. and that relates to selfishness. it's funny though, i always thought i wasn't selfish until i realized all the little things which demonstrate how incredibly self-centered i am sometimes. i learnt to care for other people by seeing how jackie cared for her friends (her boys, as she calls them), to genuinely care about how other pple's days went instead of just asking it for the sake of courtesy. chi alpha helped with that too, i saw that with esther & company as well.

anyway... he gave us this sheet of paper contrasting selflessness (the embodiment of God) and selfishness and how one spirals outwards like the sun radiating its light outwards and leads to heaven, while the other spirals inwards like a black hole and leads to hell. very thought-provoking. anyway, i decided i needed to stick it up on my wall to remind me to not be so self-centered. and just now i could share in my roommate's joy of rearranging her room (silly as it sounds) and it felt good! better than just being like oh, cool, good for you.. it was fun to really care about what makes her happy too. :)

alright. now i have to go back to finishing 22 pages of reading for a case. ahhhh. pooft.