yes. well i remembered a few posts back serene [lee] said on her blog that something's missing in her life. and yesterday jm did too. and i realised i felt the same way. just tt, like they said. its just so easy to push it away when u're busy and have other stuff to do. like. oh i have sth else to finish forget it i'll think about it another time. and u never really go and figure out wat it is. which now come to think of it is actually quite important.
yes. well. anyways i figured something i'll enjoy doing and tts learning another language! haha. or doing sth abt my french anyway. quite rusty. but i still havent' figured out wat to do about the feeling-too-tired-to-talk-to-anybody part. today my excuse was tt after singing dravidian and suite de lorca my throat/voice = super tired. actually that happens quite a lot. like my mom will ask me stuff in the car n i wont' want to answer cos i'm really tired of using my voice haha.
oh yes. so i was sitting beside the pool thinking. and found sth i like to do! it was actually quite peaceful. nice windy night with the sound of running water. but i felt quite hermit-ish cos everyone else was in the clubhouse talking. well.
hmm. common tests are over. finally! i woke up feeling so happy:) but somehow after the paper i felt so sian. like. don't feel like doing anything. wat's there in the form of entertainment? movies? nothing nice that i really wanted to watch. though my girl was funny. but somehow i felt v sorry for the little guy. like being unhappy cos he was stuck with the gals. and not accepted into the gang. and having to hurt his best fren to get into the gang. maybe tts wats called heartwrenching.
anyways. to continue about my sianness. felt like tt even around my friends. and it wasn't just one particular group of pple. was just in general. which is really sad. maybe cos i was hot and sticky and tired. feel better after a bath anyway. maybe i need nice new songs. maybe i need sleep. or maybe like junming says, i need a vacation to go and find myself again. haha. sounds bit cheesy. but sounds like sth i need. and just aft lect tests i was thinking i needed a vacation but tts not v possible.
o yes and for anyone who hasn't heard about my screw-up.. realised at 9sth yesterday tt it was the deadline for registration for may sats.. so i rushed it.. and then after i registered they sed it'll be held on 8th may cos 1st may in spore is labour day. freak la. maybe tts the day after choir concert. how screwed. and then june sats is no better cos i'll come back frm italy on 3rd june and june sats are on 5th june. so basically quite screwed cos of choir. well. hope tmr will be a nice day.
oh i forgot to add. alvin's "feet jackets" [socks]; jiahui's weird dreams; hearing abt ben and his "why don't u put fren in the canal [kennel] n i think there's somemore. when i remember i'll add it in heh.
haha. today's mugging was quite funny. and as usual tiffy wasn't being sane. haha. i have this suspicion she only pretends to be sane normally:D and i also never realised how much jan gets diaoed by alvin. and vice versa. very interesting there. o yeah n jiahui started going crazy later on too.
hums. last nite of mugging! whee~ i was almost going to type the same thing as the end of the last post just that i realised in time. yes. tmr will be fun:) goody. seems like i've been stuck at home/mugging forever.
hums seems like math was okay after all. after checking numbers with serene. haha. hopefully we're both right. whee~ though i somehow felt tt i wasn't concentrating enough on the paper. maybe cos it was an afternoon paper. [and it was hot and humid and therefore annoying] then i freaked out after the paper when candice asked me about the volume thing but i think its correct after all! -whew-
ugh. i think i will go and sleep somemore. mom made me wake up at 8sth. and i was so groggy i couldn't do math properly anyway... got this p&c qn wrong n somehow couldn't think how the answer came about. but after napping i realised. so well.
and there were like 3 explanation questions! i didn't read the explanations as well as i thought i had so had to come up with some decent crap on the spot. hopefully it was correct. and the linear interpolation thing! cheat me. i thought it was in the notes but i forgot when actually the one in the notes is only for newton raphson. so had to formulate something on the spot anyway. o well. only 1 paper left! yay:) can almost taste freedom. some sort of freedom anyway haha.
heh. bio. wat can i say. oh well. i can't work up much enthusiasm to mug for bio somehow. shall have to rectify that. somehow. but tt can come later haha. now for math. at least math doesn't require mugging. as compared to chem/bio. ugh. anyways. agree with all of jireh's complaints about exams in the school hall. so so true. and i didn't realise there was drilling until today. but luckily it stopped after a while.
anyways. i was watching a bug's life taped from sunday. its so cute!:) haha. i like the circus bugs. but i don't like bugs in real life. and the bloopers were funny too. yay clar is happy:)
alrighty. poor clar is confused. was tt paper easy/ok/difficult? forget it. shouldn't bother thinking anymore its over. anyway its actually quite funny now tt i look back at it. but for C3 i stared at the first part n freaked out "how?? how to show its a weak acid??" and then looked down and realised "die if i can't do 1st part & the other 2 are linked then i'm dead" so i sat there n panicked until i squashed out an answer. and then the same thing happened for the pH thingy. thinks "i've seen that before! on saturday! in the notes! how come i can't do it now!" sat n panicked somemore until i realised. haha.
ah. okay. i just realised some mistakes thanks to hk haha. talk about rushing for time.. hopefully there aren't anymore.
anyways. i better go make sure i noe my stuff for bio. very scared of essays. n structured questions which i can't understand [as candice says]