the realization of graduation
i think i'm over this for the moment, but mommy asking me about wacky walk and papa telling me to make sure i've finished my university requirements and my logging onto stanford epay and seeing the following notice:
"ATTENTION UNDERGRADUATE SENIORS: You have reached the stage in your Undergraduate career at which you must carefully review your University Requirements (GERs, PWR, Language) in Axess in order to prepare for graduation. Please be aware that you must review your course, grade, and GER history in Axess and resolve any outstanding, unreported, and /or incomplete grades no later than April 12, 2009 (or March 1, 2009 if you are graduating Winter quarter). You must complete your remaining University and department requirements during your final quarters at Stanford."
it has such a final ring to it that is so depressing. it's like pearline's song. "(x & y place) will be so empty without you". it has the same kind of feeling. i guess graduation is supposed to be a happy occasion, that i survived (not yet, but soon, hopefully:p) and got a college degree and made friends and all that.
and then it brings me back to my brother's graduation. when i was wondering why all his friends were asian/asian american (now, i think i kind of know why), and wondering how he felt to be leaving a place after spending 4 years there, and wondering what sort of sadness it was. now that it's the year of my graduation, i'm beginning to wonder. but the reality of not living at stanford anymore won't set in until packing, i think.
and i still don't know what path lies ahead for me. although, jackie did tell me about this very interesting live-on-an-island-for-6-months thing which sounds very exotic! hahaha. it's weird though, i really don't feel the urge to make sure i stay in the US anymore. i'm not quite sure why either. maybe i'm just taking life in the US for granted now.
alright, back to my 60-notebook-page dschool assignment, of which i've completed about 1/2 of and spent at least 5 hours on so far.. ahhh. help me! limited time and so much stuff to do.
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