hakuna matata

okay so since serene's complaining, i will blog. given that i am, as usual, procrastinating. i really don't understand this. i'm taking 3 academic classes and 1 dance class (and hardly doing the reading for the academic classes) and still not really coping as usual... this ms&e class is hard. and i feel like i'm not even contributing very much to my group cos the guys are so talkative and dominate everything. and also, i have not yet said anything in class, which is kind of a problem... ack.

oh! i must tell my XA retreat story. so i originally was considering not going, cos with my flooded (now newly renovated) room and all that, i could've used the weekend to buy all my replacement stuff... and do internship apps. it's thursday 3am+ and i'm still not decided (and i got back late cos i had a meeting, and then ended up hanging out at jh's and seihout's place w di and tu. anyway i ended up asking kevin if i should go. and listed like four reasons that i'd be better off sticking around here. and then i was telling him that it's charismatic (but clare recommended that i go anyway) and ... in the end i realized i forgot why i signed up early in the first place. and "retreats are supposed to be good for you". i don't know why that stuck. anyway i decided to go, and it was a terribly unproductive long weekend in terms of schoolwork (i had such great ambitions), but God-wise it was great!

the first night the pastor delivered this message about hosea and his unfaithful wife. likened to God and us, his people, turning away from him again and again. i never thought of it in that light.. anyway, lots of questions. but renewed God-focus, which hopefully I am able to keep. the XA Stanislaus/UC Merced worship team was pretty awesome, even if they had slightly weird songs ("i have the best dad in the whole world" and "heaven meets earth with a sloppy wet kiss"). haha. and all the XA pastors are so gifted in the art of speaking! and very humorous. i sat there thinking.. if the pastoring thing doesn't work out, they can all go be standup comedians.

here're some links for fun... he is now one of my favorite comedic people.
http://www.the-ormes.com/cat.htm
http://www.the-ormes.com/oxygen.htm

yeah, now i have to go find myself a good pillow tomorrow. and decide if i should return my current comforter and body pillow. both of which i'm pretty happy with but my mom is convinced i should get a better one. sighhh.