hakuna matata

ahh. i guess i'm calmer today. thank you god. i believe he will be with me and help me through this crazy crazy time. and yay for colin who was pretty calming. and for jon (who albeit went on and on about his crazy courseload last semester while i'm like okay.. i'm kind of half-resigned to my fate and want to sleep soon_ but he was still pretty encouraging). i guess reading shaowei's blog about drawing closer to god in times of trouble is kinda true.

and of cos for dearest jackie.. i was like 'wat do you do when you're totally freaking out?' and she made me close my eyes and described a 'happy place' for me, which was hilarious (stress-reliever yeahh:) because it started off with a forest (i just knew that was gonna be it!) and then i would've been pretty satisfied with a forest and cute cuddly animals but she went on with descriptions of money (and dulce de leche cheesecake) growing on trees and cities with goodness knows what else, i don't remember.. and the crowning glory of 'hot men' - at this point i was like okay, i think i was quite happy with the cute animals.

so.. i'm gonna rock this final! (and the next, and the next, and the next.) there. that covers all four.

but anyway.. the real point of my doing a quick blog (study break, haha - philosophy drains my mental faculties). it was kinda hilarious really, jackie went to sleep after i got up.. well done girl. yesterday she got up at ~6pm and i'm like. you do know you completely missed daylight? and she was like well actually i saw some of it before i went to bed. ... haha.

alright to the point! a package came for her (while i was figuring out the mysteries of life, no less. rofl) and i was just thinking i never really knew the joy of receiving packages until coming here! it is so fun.. like little presents. i mean, even if it's just online shopping.. when the stuff comes (like my camera :D yay) it's just great!

anyway. couple more hours and i'll be done with philo woohoo!

woahh. that just completely blew my mind.. i definitely did not know my bro's very good fren's now at goldman.. anyway. i really need to stop procrastinating so much. and i have also decided (after various mishaps) that i work better with a paper planner (as compared to electronic calendars) so i'm going shopping for one during the holidays! whee~
(typed that a couple of days back but never posted it)

this is today:
AUGHHH damn stressed. okay actually this is really my fault for not doing my studying earlier but yeah. still stressing out anyway. so i just whined at poor chuansheng. haha. so for philo at least i've looked at all the stuff (i am SO so SO thankful for the study grp if not i would never have gotten anything done) but thinking of objections and counter objections and reconstructing arguments all take time, of which i have a severe lack of.

bio should be fine i think. but econ 52 is going to take me a substantial amount of time given that i haven't read some of the chapters and i need to prep for the essay stuff. and econ 102a i really need to prac, of which that requires time TOO. help help help. it also does not help that i'm reading about stress stuff for bio (or i just finished doing that). at this point praying also does not help me very much, i'm just panicking too much at this point.