back from concert. rather tired and i have to wake up by 8 tmr.. well. hopefully nxt week sat i'll get to wake up late. haha. anyway.. concert was good.. i think their blending has improved. haha. just an impression, maybe the recordings will sound different though. or maybe acoustics were better. or maybe they just got better:) i enjoyed the last few songs most though.. probably cos they were my favourites to begin with..
while i was watching them a lot of thoughts came to my mind. some memories, not all of which are pleasant. and wondering about things i'll never know. or never want to know, for that matter. anyway, on a lighter note, what they said about mingze's english and his freestyling was hilarious.. cos it's absolutely true! haha..
oh! i forgot to say something about audry's photo in college day report. she was in this hot pink shirt. so i was like "audry!!" and she claims it's red. really in denial -shakes head-
mooo:( had to wake up at 7.30am again today. groan. poor clar. tmr i can't wake up late either if not i'll be late for church. and then the work week starts again. hai.. anyway, it was fun going back and seeing pple:) although didn't see that many pple.. i think i'll see more tonight:)
rachel! long-lost friend from LDS! haha. LDS is fantastic.. first chris n estelle end up in the same class.. then i found out rachel and alex chia are twins.. 
my silly pig brother:)
mommy.. people like to say she looks like she's my sister.
dearest fiona.. disclaimer: she normally wear skirts much shorter than this, apparently her mom decided on her outfit. i hope she doesn't kill me for this:p
yingheng and wang ning (mr incredible who's gonna be flying w me n kiat chuan)
mr chan, aud and lu bo! haha. mini 3c gathering.. ohh.. i forgot to take photo with sarah, darn.
me and audry:) the student of the year.. woohoo!~ haha. can u believe this girl got 3 awards.. hais.. she and jireh.
kaicheng, val lau, me, yuxian. val said i'd gotten thinner (yay! haha)
oh mr math chan, upon hearing about my new job, remarked that "everytime i hear from u u're doing something completely different". i wouldn't say completely, but well. mr bio chan is leaving nxt week.. btw serene, mrs lim says she misses u, u're actually quite funny. haha. quick, be honoured! which reminds me, i had better finish that compilation of quotes fast.. heh.
yay.. friday!:) and i finished one cloze passage today for p3 n 4s.. yeah.. 9 more to go for pri 1s. haha. suddenly i have so many things to do. and i only sound happier cos i'm at home now. anyway, for the record, yesterday lesley set me 3 sets of 3 cloze passages, 1 compre and 1 compo. so, i am quite occupied until wednesday. given that i can finish all that. i think at most i can churn out one or two articles per day, it's amazing how johann can finish things in 2 hours. maybe i'm just too perfectionistic. or like i said, low boredom threshold so i have to do bit by bit.
oh, and starting next week i have library duty because the wonderful boss (with another one of his fabulous ideas) has decided that librarians must do the returning of books (instead of letting teachers do it although they're perfectly capable of it). i shall read books there! hah. i mean, while taking breaks from my work, of course:)
and i wish they'll tell me my confirmed pay. then i can decide on how long i should stay. haha.
and i also think i'm not very easy to get to know. which is, hopefully, supposed to change soon. at first i wasn't sure i want that to change, but now i think it should. how confusing.
ah just for everyone's amusement, more accounts of how i never look my age. various staff, on seeing me for the first time, "are you a student?" me "no, i'm working here." staff looks puzzled. me "i'm the new intern". ah.
to top it off, on wed, christine, who interviewed me, walked past me without realising it was me at first then she turned around "so small!! i thought u were a student!" and then yest she called me a sec 3 gal who can't look thru the boston classroom windows (cos i'm too short). nyam nyam nyam.
oh also on wed i was asking this guy "how old are u?" and he said "9. u? 14 ah?"
i think i shall just be thankful i haven't been relegated back to p6.
shall just enjoy my weekend.. i'm going to feel even more broke though, dischordant concert tmr and pam's play on sun. but i'm sure it'll be well worth it, and i'll be happy! whee~ i wish my pay was here.. haha.
hum. today was a very forgetful day. first, when i was seated in the bus, i realised i forgot to bring my timesheet. !#%. then, when i was going into newton mrt, i thought i was in novena and had to take the marina bay line to get to my destination. so, i was wondering why the train was so crowded, then i realised i was headed for orchard. $%^ again. had to run to catch the other train back. i'm quite sure i made some more spastic mistakes but i can't remember them at the moment so we shall leave it as that.
lousy joon woke up late so didn't lunch w me. nvm, i have lyd for company tmr (i think) and ser on mon. and i'm going to feel even more broke: unless we eat at a foodcourt/hawker centre. i'm quite sure lyd wun do that tho haha.
tinky came to visit! it was really nice to see her, hadn't seen her in ages.. and she was actually telling me stuff about tll which i didn't know (nobody having bothered to tell me). so pathetic. oh well.
feeling rather sleepy really. i can't believe another week has passed so quickly. and i really don't enjoy 9 to 5 jobs. or 9 to 6. oh well.
grrr. i was originally in quite a good mood cos i got a pay raise today (amazingly, given that the only thing i've handed up in since last wed is a cloze passage on cloning). and then now i find out that my name, on my new krisflyer card, is "wen juan clarissa". this is the sole fault of that guy with the very strong indian accent at the other end of the line, when i called the sia krisflyer hotline. i am incensed. okay, after eating twisties i have calmed down. but i am still rather annoyed. i think i like eating too much for my own good. at least i hope i still possess this little thing called self control.
ahh.. woke up today and it was such a lovely cool morning i didn't wanna get up. as usual. i realised i kind of like rain. so if it's going to rain in san fran during winter it doesn't sound that bad! heh. or maybe i just like rain cos it's cooling.
anyway, got to work, no one was around. and i quickly got that stupid timesheet signed so i wouldn't have any trouble later. talk about idiotic rules.. drive me nuts. yesterday i brought candice into the centre (where the students normally wait for classes) cos i was gonna get water for her and then someone came out and was like "sorry, you have to wait outside".. like.. problem la there's no one around, i'm just trying to get water and we can go..
but that was yesterday. today i happily spent the morning reading books. since no one from my dept was around, and i couldn't think of anything else related to "civic consciousness" and "a brave deed" (for compo topics). by tomorrow i shall have to find something else to do. library-tidying only presents itself as a job at certain times of the day.
i think i shall quit by end-aug (unless i feel sufficiently poor) haha then can go buy my stuff and clear my room. it is in a horrific state.
oh, and like i was telling hk last night, blogging is cathartic. therefore when i blog, it'll more likely be unhappy. also i don't think i feel happy very often. three main states: not happy, neutral, slightly happy for a while.
my mom wanted me to bring my comforter along. (they don't provide comforters and pillows, ugh) she appears to think that i possess a magical suitcase which will never be fully-filled, and even when laden with a large amount of stuff, will remain feather-light.
i think i didn't blog for a while. oh. it was only one day. oops. yesterday was good! the little mermaid ballet under the stars! i'm glad it didn't rain.. but really, lines like "here is a knife. see, it is sharp" are really too much. luckily that was the worst. the stuffed shark was so cute:p and the crab and the lobster.. and the oysters! hahaha. so cute.
and gd old cheukka.. "can we eat during the performance?" (when sabrina mentioned the floats that they were going to dance on for some nus thing) "float as in the sea one?" and it was great seeing sya! i haven't seen her in ages.. she's so funny n practical:) (and scathing of silly remarks) and of cos lijia who's so tanned now..
anyway, as usual i didn't wanna wake up today. there's nothing like appreciating days of slacking when one has to get up to work. and no one was in my unit at 9am. ... time to slack! haha. i finished reading my book. happily. and i've finished my 2nd cloze passage.
i think i have a very low boredom threshold. i can't sit there and stare at the computer screen for very long, trying to craft something to my satisfaction. i have to walk around. and in that pathetic place, there is no where to walk to. basically, i need to have breaks in between, if not i'll just stare and get tired and accomplish nothing. somehow, putting aside stuff and coming back to it gives me new ideas. which are frequently better.
okay i'm just in quite a bad mood wrt work today.. luckily candice came down for lunch:) and a very good lunch it was! though i'm feeling kinda poor now hmm. and i got to waste extra time. haha. i'm probably one of the best examples of skivers you can find.
yeah and then i decided to go help out at the library and tidy up. and read some books at the same time haha. i think i'm anti-social. i have nothing to say to my colleagues. and there're so many times when i have nothing to say to a lot of people. including my friends. i somehow seem to remember not being this way when i was in sec sch but maybe i was just in self-denial or something.
anyway, i hate working in general. why do people torture themselves this way. okay i'm repeating wat i said in january. the only reason why i'm there, is so that i won't feel poor. but to not feel poor, i have to be unhappy. isn't that sad? clar is just cranky today.
i am further disillusioned. i think peiying is right, i am very unsuspecting. i.e. not cut out for this world. tinky says maybe i just look on the good side. thanks for cheering me up anyhow:)
yeah and i realised every mon n wed i'll have to rush. i think mon's more worth it though haha. and if you really do read this, which i don't think you will, thanks for trying to make me feel better:)