hakuna matata

sigh maybe i should just take some medicine. my nose is so blocked and i sound like a frog! but i think i just need to sleep. which i can hardly afford given i took a 2-hr nap just now (it was supposed to be 1/2hr but i decided heck i'm too tired) and when i got up, it was so dark i thought it must be past 6 but it was 5:50pm.

so frustrating, why do these things happen to me? stupid soc class, 91 is A- and 92 is A. guess what i got -_- now i have to take that stupid final. i'm tempted to just let it go but it was SUPPOSED to be an easy A. i guess jackie's right, either we should've listened in class or done the reading. but seriously, lectures are so boring... whatever, i shouldn't have taken this class cos i'm going to fulfill the GER next quarter anyway, but that's too late...

psych study guide qns are hard. or at least, i can't do more than one at a time, which slightly screws up my crazy timetable... how to do 4 qns a day?! augh. it's so mentally taxing. maybe i'm just being lazy.

i wonder how europe will turn out. i hope it'll be good... and not TOO expensive. eek.

i hate time value of money.

somehow i was reminded of this verse (which I've read in one of the Anne of Green Gables books before, coincidentally. such a kiddy book but i don't care! whee). "weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning" - Psalms 30:5

not that i was in tears last night (although jackie's ra-ra speech was rather touching, but it really seemed quite hopeless. in which i couldn't sleep and sat up for 1/2hr drawing out this ridiculous timetable for the next week and a half, which i actually think is going to work. :) He has blessed me so richly and direct my path. Praise Him! anyway, i guess it helped that i went for econ 111 office hours today, and really, I feel, by God's grace, there was just one other guy there who was just talking about stuff so i pretty much got personal tutoring for 45mins. SWEET. :)

and it also helped that i started studying for psych earlier so i finished going thru lectures and can SLEEP. YAY. i thought i t\was going to die in econ 153 today. don't know how come time passed SO slowly, sheesh.

anyway, i believe. now, i believe i can do it. yesss! inspirational speech to self. ahaha.

so... after the initial relief at finishing my soc paper (which I really hope, by God's grace, will go well so I don't have to take the stupid final), I am now DEAD!!! whee. with a thump i fall back on the ground of reality. from soaring in the clouds. wheee.

here is what the rest of my "quarter" (more like week and a half) looks like:

tmr: econ 153 pset due (which is like 5% of my grade and i spent >4hrs trying to write up the analysis on facebook.... how inefficient is that)
thurs: psych 60 quiz. i NEED to ace this one, at least i started reading earlier so this shouldn't be such a problem, i hope and pray
fri: econ 111 pset due. this is driving me UP THE WALL. i am going to be a bat soon, hanging from the ceiling. what sort of noises i'll be making, i don't know.

mon: optional soc final (which i really pray i won't have to do)
tues: econ 111 take home essay due (1500 words, yippee!)
wed: psych 137 final (i have no idea how to integrate lectures on "models" and "concepts" and various other abstract things, our study guide has 19 qns, we're supposed to look at the midterm study guide which had about 15 qns which may be on the final)
thurs: econ 111 final (so, i'm currently below the mean for this class i.e. i NEED TO ACE THIS FINAL ELSE I'M DONE FOR)
fri: econ 153 final (also think i'm around the mean for this one, and i have no idea how to answer his qns to the point, so that's going to be interesting)

... basically, i need a miracle. or actually, LOTS of them.

yay for primal scream. enough said. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH. stupid dead week with classes.

sigh. it seems i blog only when at the extremes. anyway, this is so sad. everyone thinks i'm hardworking (or so it seems, at first) and i guess i used to be, since i think my grades actually used to be decent. and now they're down the drain! augh. maybe this is motivation for me to start disciplining myself better. :( what have i done to myself?? how puzzling.

i have a couple more hours, a paper to write - it is so unformulated at this point.. i mean i did think about it but the structure is just not coming to me. a case to prepare for, problem sets to do, ... i have to stop thinking it's overwhelming and just DO something. :( procrastination. maybe i need serene here to motivate me. haha. i wonder how that used to work.. she'd finish her problem sets really really early. i was gonna say dayoung does do her work pretty fast too... but still a little different somehow. i always tell myself i'm going to get my stuff done on time. i don't think it normally happens though... and it's already my 3rd year. actually scrap that, i think i was a lot more motivated last time hmm. weird.

yay for good music though. even if it's kind of addictive. O.O