i had the weirdest dream last night. and i am also quite sure that i've had a similar dream before. i.e. having to catch a flight to SF (i.e. go back to stanford) and having not packed in advance. maybe it's a phobia of packing now, after that crazy night before coming home for summer.
anyway.. so i think i was thinking about it before i fell asleep and realized that i conveniently forget the times when i felt unutterably lonely during the year (i.e. missing my girl friends). and then i was wondering why that happened there but not here, even though i don't see my friends all the time although i'm in spore too. so i decided that it's cos here i can still randomly msg pple and they'll reply. or something like that. maybe i need more better friends at stanford hm.
which leads me to my next point. i think i'm falling into the trap that i've tried so hard to avoid. i've always made it a point to mean what i say, instead of just saying something that sounds nice and accepted and blah.. but then when people keep asking me "how's stanford?" it's so easy to just smile and say it's fun, it's great, ... the formulaic answer that i trot out whenever the same question comes. but then again it's also kinda ridiculous to go into great detail about how some parts are good and some aren't. or maybe that's called making conversation. i don't know. i guess i'm just too lazy to say so much.
but it also tells me that i haven't really thought properly about my year. i am really glad for the month before i go back. work really leaves you with no time to do anything. at least if u go to school (i.e. college) u can arrange ur classe so u have free days or days which start at 11 or something. but man, i'm almost halfway thru my internship.. need to stop slacking. but there is a limit as to how much one can read at once.
so, i think today marks the first time for a lot of things. the first time i'm early for work (imagine that! that is seriously amazing, especially given the time i got back home last night). the first time i spent SO much time slacking at work (okay it's just the 2nd week but still). the first time i came home for dinner (also in two weeks). sigh i miss my 20inch screen.
anyway. yeah. while on the bus home i was a very hungry and angry pig. 15mins to wait for a stupid bus! 171 is the bane of my life. and then like 1h journey to get home cos its peak hour and etc! unbelievably torturous sitting in a slow-moving, crowded bus while getting rather hungry. at least i did have a seat though, if not i'd be in an even worse mood.
but then today was one of the very rare times my mom cooked. and she cooked stuff i like so i guess it was sort of worth it. oh and it was so funny, i wearily (due to the lack of food and a very long and boring day at work) plodded up the stairs to the carpark and then saw this car trying to park. and then i decided it looked like our car (my brother was driving today, thus the necessity for us all to take the bus back) so i stood and watched. hehe. that silly pig.
this is what we spent 1 hour doing last friday after lunch.. 
guys at the back (left to right): weiye (Imperial), beng kheng (nus), eng kheng (nus), samrat (upenn), anand (LSE)
girls: shamantha (nus), jiunwen (jh's sis! going northwestern for phd), xinying (Imperial), tianai (coming to stanford for masters!), liyuan (nus), me, zhijia (LSE)
right actually now i can't remember if they're all from LSE or just from UK.. oops. [ah, I realized that weiye n xinying are frm Imperial:] but yeah, i'm the youngest. leetle clarissa. all of them are either going on to 3rd/4th year. and why everyone thinks i look like a lost puppy is a mystery to me. but then if i can gain sympathy with that i guess it's not necessarily a bad thing either huh? hah.
yay i finally have my jacket.. and i think it looks good! i wonder wat jason has been up to in thailand.. my partner in crime. haha. yf n jh were really nice about taking 171 home w me yesterday! heh. poor yf took like twice the normal time to get home i think. n jh had to change bus. actually it was quite funny, so he had to get off at the stop before 6th ave and it was pretty dark and he was like i'm scared (or something to that effect) and yf said he didn't have the looks or the body (i think, and in chinese), no need to worry. haha how comforting. the two of them are hilarious la.. pair of clowns. interesting how i wouldn't have gotten to know them as well otherwise.
they decided to buy me this ice cream called a panda smiley at black canyon coffee at platinum shopping center. on the condition that i take a photo with it. and here it is: