so, it's been a year. actually not really a year, like.. 8 months. yeah it is shorter than a school year in singapore. i had to stop and count. cos it seems like everything went by so quickly. isn't it always the case. actually i think i'm going to do my end-of-freshman-year reflections later. have more pressing concerns.
i think i spent at least 4 hours not doing any studying yesterday! alright i think i sound deranged at this point. but because my finals are bunched up i need to prepare earlier but it's so easy to slack! augh.
how mildly disturbing. i'm so unmotivated:| and yet i know if i don't get my stuff done i'll crash and burn on tues/wed! aahh. :( at least i managed to stop myself from overeating during lunch today. haha i sound like i have a serious problem.
last night my roommate was like "let's watch a movie!" and i'm like -ponder-. uhhhh.... -ponder somemore-.. okayyy. haha. it was fun. i was telling her my theory about actors/actresses (good looks are necessary) and she was like roomie, the truth comes out. but we agreed that it is how the movie industry works. even though there are people who aren't that good looking.
hyperhyperhyper.
okay, so just to clarify: i did cross into my frat, no i did not get cut. heh. realized it wasn't clear after hk was like so u weren't affected by the cut? oops. anyhow. just spent like 2+hrs leading RJ kids on a tour. (heh i've also gotten into the habit of calling pple kids, it's so weird though). it's been a long time since i've seen so many asians. or singaporeans. or people of that age. watever.
it was kinda fun though, being a tour guide. and it was so funny.. we were next to the econ building and a marguerite was passing by so I decided to point it out. and another one came and they were like can we take the bus? so i was like.. oh.. okay sure! haha. and chuan sheng was like it's going to palo alto transit center u noe! but come on, if it's coming down towards the econ building we'll eventually end up back at tresidder.
and then they were clamoring to see my room. i think my roommate would've killed me if i'd let them in haha. but it was still fun.. brought them thru one of the floors of alondra. pity memchu was closed by the time we got there.
um. chi alpha was kind of a farewell. rather depressing. i thought we were done with farewells for a while. actually i don't even remember when was the last time.. maybe when i first came to stanford. or when i was at my brother's graduation. but wow, it's been a year. next year is going to be so different. it's like how devin amol and ed (dormmates) are off in paris/london this quarter. the 3rd floor is different without them. i mean i'm kinda used to it but it definitely isn't as fun as it was. not that i hung out with them that much, but still.
and so, wat it'll be like next year without sean and joel and ruixiong and kevin and wenzheng i don't know. not that i see the last 2 very often, but still.
we just had our last dorm meeting, sort of. they were giving everyone superlative-awards. and mine was "most likely to die by not waking up in an earthquake". cos apparently one time i managed to sleep thru my roommate's alarm clock (i -really- don't know when this was, i must go and ask my PHE). i was like no! the problem is that i can't! but apparently my PHE saw me happily curled up in bed. so i guess i must've been really knocked out.
i've had a pretty crazy week. okay, friday and saturday at any rate. but i'm so glad it's over. and i didn't manage to keep my cool this time, but watever. i still don't really know why i cried but well. and then i had to sit around alone for like 3 hours. thankfully pledge parents were around for a bit, but still. got rather lonely. and then later they transferred me to another room where one of my pledge brothers was, but then said we were still under a vow of silence (and my pledge bro was busy doing something) and i had no work with me so that was kind of bad too. and there were no windows in that room!
okay i don't think that was very coherent. but anyway. so finally we were done (and i must admit to watching mrbrown podcasts while being bored). i think i need a laptop or something man.. but i don't really like using laptops either. dunno. anyhow. um. yeah, then i had to run to the SEALNet thing and then for dinner w akpsi pple. oh it was so symbolic cos they accepted us in the same room where we had our pledge initiation. and everything was pretty similar (except for the missing people) and that 7 weeks have passed since. kind of sentimental.
and the party that night. man, it's the last time i'm doing anything like that.. i had so much trouble finding sosmething (i.e. borrowing from dormmates) something that would match "AKPsin city". ahh. i'm really thankful i managed to escape the drinking-a-shot-with-my-hpac thing, but then i felt like i had to dance instead, which was definitely not a good idea. something my mom is never going to hear about cos i think she'll flip. but i mean i think it was kind of the lesser of two evils since dancing at least i can control, if i'm drunk i wouldn't know wat's going on.
partway i had to go out and walk alone.. one of the sophomores drank so much she was crying and feeling awful and vomitting. i think i saw it before in my dormmate, and i'm just like, why do you want to do things like that to yourself? esp if you know it's going to happen.. and my hpac was so drunk it was scary. apparently took 15 shots in like 5-10mins. which is also why partly i was avoiding him. while some pple are hilarious when drunk (e.g. daniel, pledge bro, who kept hugging each pledge everytime he saw one of us) others are just plain freaky cos you dunno wat they're capable of.
anyway.. enough of that. i slept so much today. actually not really. 4 - 7:30am (had to stay back to clean up partly cos i came late n didn't help set up) and then 10:30 - 11:50am and then 3:45 - 5:45pm. i guess it all adds up to a decent amount of sleep haha. i had a hard decision to make when ruixiong called and said sean was coming to get us for lunch soon. friends n food or sleep? ah well. time to do IHUM paper.