ah. somehow i just got to thinking about what kevin said about friends and drifting apart. actually i thought about it on and off after i met him last sat, but i guess i just never got round to posting on it:)
anyway so i realized this time round, coming back, i'm waiting for people to organize outings rather than doing it myself. man, blogger is really slow. anyway.. yeah. i used to be the one always msging pple to meet up and stuff. but i think it's kind of changed now. so far, most of the times i've gone out = someone else organizing it. haha. which is nice, cos it's really tiring to coordinate with like 10 different schedules. but it also makes me wonder.. actually at stanford it's kind of similar. which is bad! maybe i'm getting too lazy. but for sg, i realized i'll just msg the pple i really do want to meet. the last 3 times i came back i was still trying to meet as many pple as possible.. now it's just like. mehh. will see what happens. good and bad i guess. sometimes it's nice to meet up with pple i haven't seen in quite a while.
so kevin was telling me about this friend he used to be really really close to, but somehow they drifted apart and can't really connect anymore. and some people he didn't use to know too well, he connected really well with for some reason or other. i was thinking about it.. can't really think of pple i've drifted away from. unless you count the primary school crowd. used to hang out with jo, steph, michelle, emily, hon a lot. and now i hardly see them at all.. which is kind of sad really.
but at least i do still keep in touch with chris n junwan. n emilyn sometimes. etc. jieying i relief-taught with, which was kind of interesting cos i never was that close to her but we had lunch together sometimes and all.
serene asked me if i found that it was harder to make good friends as we get older. i don't really know, exactly. sometimes you just find friends where you never thought you would. like. haha. this is still one of my prime examples. rachel, whom i worked with at the learning lab (super-enriched tuition center) before going to stanford. my first impression was like hmmmmm i don't know if we could get along. cos the first time i met her was in the library and she was rather unhelpful about where i could find 'the lion, the witch, and the wardrobe' cos i had to write about it for some cloze/compre passage. but somehow along the way i found out she's such a silly squid! haha. and we still have lots of fun when we go out.
she's hilarious la.. she wanted to go to spotlight to get decoration stuff for harry potter day (ie saturday) and she wanted gold and silver ribbon thingys. and at first i didn't think twice about it, then i said she ought to make it red and gold for gryffindor colors (and i actually remembered correctly! i'm amazed:p) and she was like huh? wat's gryffindor.. and i'm like.. win already..
and then of course my dearest jackie:) man i'm going to miss her a lot in storey next year.. boo. it sort of took me a while to get used to the fact that i can't just turn to her and tell her something hilarious/whatever cos she's not rooming with me now! (and she's not even in sg, -_-). oh well. yeah, it was kinda funny cos i somehow found her on facebook before orientation, and we also somehow bonded thru the fact that we were very sick and tired of introducing ourselves at int'l orientation cos nobody remembered anybody's name/hometown after a while.
there you go, my prime two examples i guess. and my batchmates at stanford are always a great source of comfort. all the times we had random dinners during freshman year.. hm should try to do that a lil more often next year huh. this year was all comm meetings, haha kinda sad. random note. i can't believe cs n jon are gonna graduate next year! and daryl's going to be gone after dec! man. at least he should be around in the area i hope. augh. he is so amusing. man.
ooh deb fung's songs are so nice. she's not super well known though. yay for adelene who lent me the cd!:)
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sigh! i am now feeling out of sorts. why is my internship stuff so hard to settle.. today we were having revival meeting in church and the guest preacher from klang was talking about faith in God and how leaving it up to him gives him more space to work in our lives.. and i was thinking yeah, trusting somehow that I'd have a good internship since march when my first round of apps weren't successful and i thought i was pretty much settled with the hedge fund.. but then the guy replied to my email and said they're still thinking! augh. i am so frustrated right now.
and it's so hard to type this stupid entry, dunno wat's wrong with my computer. ah i gave up on downloading the korean show. slow connection. man i don't even know why i'm in such a foul mood >< actually maybe i do know but i'm in denial or something, hm. that might be it. UGH. i think i shall go read a book or something. probably more calming.