ladida so everyone's back!
haha it was quite weird.. my house was a "hive of activity" last night at like 1am. bro just got home, parents were still awake and they were sitting around in the living room making loads of noise. and i was awake too having slept 3+hrs in the afternoon. ah well. i was being ridiculous n playing around w my bro's bday present [this huge white shirt]. lapses into childishness. at least it gave me some sort of temporary relief from being a homework-churning machine. quite pleased with wat i've done lately, though i'm not sure its quality work heh.
but after that spurt of dilligence i feel terribly lazy and apathetic and don't feel like doing anymore work. aah:(
looking forward to tmr!:) finally i'll get my yrbk haha. after eons. i wanna see medicine cheerleading too!:) whee~ i kind of resent having missed the cheerleading for IFG grumbles. couldn't support my frens n all. anyhow there's also getting my luvly fat envelope of a very long letter from chris:) =beams at prospects of reading long letter= haha:D and being around everyone again. but i've said that many times.
of that conversation last night. it was really very interesting. and really, i didn't think i would have such problems either *shrugs* and like i said of jm's comment i thought it was rather disturbing to hear my thoughts coming from someone else. kind of makes the problem/situation/watever more real.
i guess nowadays i just can't be bothered to find the energy to find common topics/stuff to talk abt/watever. which is actually quite bad. my social ability appears to have disappeared somehow. bad bad bad. oh well. hopefully it'll like magically reappear or something.
anyhow here's an excerpt from sth some ex-rj student wrote in the new paper. "JC has a way of sapping your energy for life, by making you focus too much on short-term goals. By making you fail to realise that life continues after JC. But when you're a JC student, school's often the only thing you've got. It fills up your day - everyday for two years - but leaves the spirit empty" and "It's about watching what you say and do in school to gain acceptance in a group. It's about countless things that won't matter at all in the end."
in my negative moods i tend to agree but at the same time something tells me that it isn't entirely true. with all the scholarship talks and stuff there's no way u can escape from the idea that life continues after jc but yeah i tink it does make one's life consist of purely school.
actually now i think about it i tink this student is really exaggerating things. it doesn't "sap your energy for life" but just for those 2 years or less. and sometimes i tink that "gaining acceptance in a group" thingy goes for people you don't really noe that well. like pying sed with close frens u can just let urself go and say/do watever u want.
but again like my mom said just now its something like in sec 1 n 2.. didnt' really noe everyone that well yet so wasn't really that happy/watever.. i really think sec 3 n 4 were the best:) so it was something about jc being too short. bah i tink i'm becoming incoherent. that's probably enough.