ah. very busy last few days. and next week i'm slack and free again. well well. and chem tuition ah.. wah.. so tiring got to sit there like doing tutorials all over again. which reminds me i must ask ser some stuff haha. to confirm.
anyway yeah went for caas interview and met loads of people.. rj pple and hc pple i.e. chris' classmates.. all nice pple! wah and now jiahui says she met jo selene and others today. i didn't really realise how many people applied until i saw 18 other pple in the room yesterday. oh well. anyway, the group thing was really chaotic and annoying.. i actually thought pple would go one by one to present views but haha. loud and interrupt here and there.. it's so.. dunno la.. because everyone knows he/she has to prove him/herself and say something and all that. don't like these group thingies.
and the summary was crazy.. 7 pgs or sth i think? into 300 words.
ah well it's over. and i was worried i wudn't be able to get to tuition in time (which i didn't). bleah. and then got home, spent around 1 hr at home, then time to go to ting's house. i'm really last minute. it's terrible.
and today.. i think the most interesting part was getting my personality analysed by this guy we met at the presentation.. haha. but now the novelty's worn off so i'm quite bored. trying to think of nice place to go to eat dinner! aiyah i wonder if they went to eat swensen's yesterday.. lucky pple. nevermind.. i'm eating at venezia w lijia n joon on monday! haha.
aiyah i'm not very happy today either. partly cos i'm so tired and i have so many things to do. and i don't know what to think. the turnover rate is so high and i'm feeling so so lazy at the moment. and tired. still tired. in fact, tired the whole day. the mere thought of having to exert myself tires me. imagine that. no one can beat me at being lazy.
anyway i also don't know why my lower back (or lower part of spine) is aching. oww. poor clar. haha self-sympathy.
feel absolutely shitty. i'm better off a hermit or something. i hope i didnt get my bro into trouble. (and please don't ask what i said) why'm i so stupid? i'm over honest, over trusting, over innocent, the list goes on. maybe they'll just forget i went for their interview or lose all my info or sth and everyth'll be fine. anyway i totally screwed up mas interview, and i also hate their questions cos they're so freaking hard to answer. i think this is the first time i've been faced with at least one question that i really can't answer. luckily i don't really want to join them so it doesn't matter so much. at least now i know what NOT to say. hate myself sometimes.
the only good thing is that i'm going to the zoo tmr. at least i hope it'll be nice, if not i'll be even sadder. or angrier, depending? haha.
and i still have that caas speech to write. it doesn't even sound interesting to me, how'm i going to present it so people don't fall asleep and i sound sufficiently enthusiastic about myself? i should just forget about stupid scholarships and stay here.
alright evidently i'm in quite a foul mood so i shall stop. and go and eat something that will make me happier. though the cloud hangs above, full of menace. i probably over-worry but still.