yawn. i'm tired. actually i've been tired the whole day. and i wonder how i'm going to finish everything and produce good quality stuff. these essays are driving me nuts, it's like uni apps all over again. (and it also doesn't help that now even nus needs 3 essays. idiotic pple. oops k i better hope they never see this.) and now it's kind of worse cos i'm being so last minute. gah. really, some things never change.
anyway here's the lowdown on my last 2 classes on friday.. kp's n fenglin's class.. and jinjie came to crash.. i bet he was bored stiff haha. and i caught him taking photo of me. right? *glares* and i had to look for questions in my own tuts cos it seemed slightly pointless to go thru the common test qns when they all had the answers and were just copying off sometimes. yeah well i didn't go thru the last qn.. but that was just showing that the charge was redistributed wat.. plus the hint was so obvious. anyway after explaining the complicated kirchhoff's laws thingy i had to go down to s12a already so too bad.
so.. at least for s12a it was back to the normal routine.. which actually makes life easier although boring. go thru lect test.. etc. and oh, someone wanted to call me clarissa la so i was like "no, u hafta call me ma'am at least" haha. and then junming's junior was sitting in front. they were quite cute though, at 10.15 i think? they were like "ma'am can we go now? want to go for eye check-up.."
" got free gift! first come first serve!"
"if you let us go now we'll let you go in front and get the free gift first.."
and complained that i gave them 2 questions to do somemore. haiyoh.
anyway later i accompanied sarah to bio lab to kaypoh while her student did make-up spa.. it's really not such a good idea to have the bio and physics lab benches in that weird arrangment. like sarah said.. "can make eyes across the table" rofl.
yeah oh! i met xinmin at like 1+ while waiting to pass time so i could leave haha. talked for a while.. she knows the 3i pple! esp guy1 who's her chamber junior. ah-hah. speaking of which i met him in the lift and he was like oops. and i met denise c n yujia in the canteen.. n yujia said "u want to teach our class again today?" haha don't dare already.
mm then talked to mr chan (math). he says i'm v unsure of everything. to do with career. and that i have a lot of restrictions. but well, at least i know what i don't want? haha don't know lah. i'm just a confused 18 yr old.
heh i was blog surfing for a while and so many pple were saying how they prefer the old rj campus cos it's cosy and nice and you meet pple along the corridors. totally agree. new rj is so huge it takes ages to get anywhere. i felt like stealing the security guard's bike quite a few times. and the walk to j8 is SO long too. not to mention hot. oh and new rj has many many floors. lifts are frequently crowded.
i was going to reflect on teaching but i shall do that another time cos i feel slightly hard pressed for time. suddenly so busy all over again. all these scholarship things. i don't even know if i really want to join those companies and how'm i going to convince them if i'm not even sure myself? bah. let's pray i come up with something fast.
well.. mixed day. 3 classes today, each rather different from the other. maybe i'm too serious or fierce or something. anyway.. first up.. 3j.. recognised christina yek. anyway queerly enough mr raufie came in to say something.. i thought they were busy that's why we're relief teaching but oh well. umm a few of the guys didn't wanna listen to me at first and kept talking.. i realised how annoying that is. nearly lost it and wanted to snap "shut up" at them. oops. anyway later on when i was going thru tut they were mostly quite attentive so okay lor
and then 3i. haha. well.... no warning at all! i mean for 3b mr tan did say they're a bit naughty.. so i happily went in, said hi to denise, started.. there was this guy sitting at the far end of the class who didn't seem to be listening and annoyed me slightly but i've learnt to just ignore as best as i can. little did i know what was going to happen.
after i finished going thru lecture test.. (somehow i'm never sure whether they all understand cos sometimes nobody has any questions *shrug*) one of the guys (bio rep i guess??) asked for permission to ask the class when they want their bio make-up lesson.. so i sat there and waited for them to decide.. it was so funny.. after arguing for a while the rep was like "if we have the bio tut u all must come k.." other guy "then u ask us whether we want the tut for wat?" anyway they finally settled on tues..
oh and 3 of them went off for ssef..
so i told them to take out tuts. hmm. they already had the answers and a few pple didn't want to go thru answers. so these 2 guys decided to waste time for the rest of the class..
guy 1 "ma'am.. bell rang already.. didn't u hear it?"
me "no.. it's 10.30 no bell don't try n trick me"
guy 1 "new system la ma'am.."
guy 2 "ma'am.. if you let us off now got 20mins.. enough time to go down and get a bowl of porridge before lecture.."
guy 1"ma'am.. can hear your stomach rumbling.. let's go and eat lah.. celebrate your good results"
me "any questions?"
guy 1 "can you write pi to 100 decimal places on the board for us?"
guy 2 "ma'am you can get angry at us now and walk out.."
guy 1 "yeah then we'll walk slowly and sadly out of class looking remorseful.."
and i refused to let them off because there were like 25mins left.. really cannot lor.. i already let the other classes off early somemore.. told them i'd let them off 10mins before time too but they still refused! wah.. really headache man.
guy 2 "ma'am you don't look very interested in teaching also.. so let us off early!" (waahh.. that is the ultimate)
"ma'am.. 3 mins more (to 10.45).. we can do this together!"
me to guy 1 "since u talk so much tell me ur name lah"
guy 1 "my name is winston. people call me hodge. my sibling's coming to visit later okay! (implying that he's the prince of brunei, ahem.)
so these 2 guys talked so much rubbish the rest of the class (and i, sadly) was in stitches. really funny.. anyway in the end i gave up n packed up and told them "u wanna go right? go lor" and none of them dared to move la.. all thought i was being sarcastic. haha.
guy 2 "ma'am u're v sneaky leh.. reverse psychology"
guy 1 "that -almost- worked"
but still no one got up
guy 1 "ma'am you must lead by example (and go out first).. leaders thinkers and pioneers!"
anyway so i did go off and denise was so sweet.. walked me back to staffroom haha. i think this is my worst failure.. cannot out-talk these 2 guys. no actually i did manage to start on q5 of tut but they informed me that mrs lim had already gone thru that qn.. and the rest of the qns are quite easy la so i also didn't insist on explaining.
right.. then later on 1b. wah. no ohp. so i had to go to the nxt room to get one. and then most of the class was so stone. or not listening to me. and then after going thru lecture test, same thing happened "we have the answers already.. she said u were only going thru lecture test"
and it was 12.15 la! means i had like 40mins more to go. man. talk about feeling helpless. nobody had any questions.. so after feeling helpless for a few minutes i decided to write out questions on the board.. which half the class didn't bother to do.. luckily i had my file with me and used one of the kirchhoff laws questions.
ah i suddenly feel too tired to type anymore. maybe later. oh despite 3i being so terrible it was really funny actually.. i just hope they really do understand the tut answers..
oh dear. i think i'm really sad. and i also think i am the only person this could happen to. i went to the fridge, intending to get a drink (mix of guava lime n water) and ended up pouring vinegar into my cup instead of cold water. i didn't even realise until i tasted it and was wondering how come the lime is suddenly so sour. my mom was so appalled "it's so pungent! how did you do your chemistry prac?" aiyah it's not my fault they both look the same wat.. my mom recycles bottles and i asked "there're two bottles of water issit?" and she sed yeah (actually the other bottle of water was on the other end of the shelf)
anyway so i had to pour it away and now my mom's even more convinced i won't be able to take care of myself if i go off to US alone. and i also realised there's rather little time left before uni starts again. should go look up more courses. hmm. but lazy leh.
wah. i slept 10hours. wat a pig. i think i'm too pampered now. totally unused to lack of sleep/using my brain. though i did get to use it for a while until yesterday. and now for yesterday..
i think my first class was a dismal failure. because it was my first class and i wasn't particularly prepared. or rather a bit nervous. and they were all so stoned and yes i shouldn't have given them the answer sheet before going through lecture test.. and the large majority of the class didn't finish their tutorial. but i learnt some things. ie they'd rather listen to their classmates explain than me. and it's useful to have a class list to call names when they don't want to answer my questions. oh and at least there were a few people who did answer me (and assured me their class was always like that & "ma'am relax lah") so i didn't feel so idiotic standing in front wondering which question of tut they'd finished and etc. and found it rather pointless going through answers to tut when they already had the printed answers. so i let them off early.
and in btwn classes i was so bored.. alternated btwn talking to florrine/ser/aud/sarah/christine siew & sarah hiong.. got to watch mr chan's wedding video again haha. he's really amusing.. sarah "ur wife is v pretty"
mr chan "i noe"
and aud was like "wat?!" haha.
and later on ser was strangling me and i was growling at her not to bully me and mr chan "came to my rescue"and told her don't bully me and told me "u can give her a white slip!" and ser sed she'll colour it black. haha. so crazy. i was saying luckily no students can enter staffroom bcos we were behaving totally unlike tchers. and ser sed i look younger than my students. bah.
so yeah.. visited library.. scanned list of names at the general office.. ate lunch.. ser was indignant that dr chan n mr chan ch were sitting at the other end of the table. though i must say more like he's her favourite person to talk to although she keeps denying it. haha. i think she's going to kill me for this but too bad. yeah.. and then ser coerced me into going for chem lect w her, telling me that it's always very funny cos dr chan'll make silly jokes at the beginning and at the end.. but i got so bored i left after like 20mins+ haha. reliving j1 days (or rather, chem lectures) is more than i can take. oh n ms tan's really quite slim now.
oh and mr tan warned me that 3b's quite a naughty class so i'll hafta be a bit fiercer with them.. i think i must be the slackest teacher around cos i let them off early too.. but wat to do when they all didn't bring tutorials? i mean i did write out part of the question on the board for them to do but i also don't know if they did it..
they're v nice and friendly though.. it's quite funny having juniors call me ma'am. haha. but also quite fun. anyway yeah they're hilarious.. i was trying to think of how to explain the capacitor thing (which gave both me n florrine a huge headache, luckily i got mrs tan to explain to me later on..) and a few of the guys packed their bags and stood up and i was staring at them in astonishment.. so the guys were like "isn't class over already?" and i gave them an incredulous look and said "NO!" so they sat down again. -shakes head-
(and i realised i forgot to bring the tys to class haha luckily could remember most of the question since it was mostly definitions) and another one of the guys was so cute.. asked which tut? emi issit? cmi la.. so i told him if don't go thru tut today ur common test will also be cmi.. so they were like cannot get 4a's issit? (cos they asked me earlier on wat i got for a's) and i sed no i didn't say that!
yeah and there was steph and my church junior in the class (she claims she nearly screamed when she saw me in class haha.. exactly why i didn't tell her yesterday i was going to teach her class;p) darn now that i think about it i shouldn't have told denise c/kp/fenglin either.. it wud've been funnier.. oh well. and now my dearest buddy wants to come and crash my tut on friday.. speaking of him.. haha.. when asked why he went to run yesterday he said he was fat. haha i've never heard anything like that from a guy.. and he also explained to me the difference btwn "fat" and "flab" (flab is unseen fat so it's worse). i've never been so amused.
so visited choir.. john's so funny too.. begging me to swop classes so i'll teach his class.. i'm so thankful i'm not teaching 3c/3f/1a/1c/whichever other class who has phys shens which i haven't heard of.. i think florrine's teaching them.. dunno. wonder who took over hon.
and kp if u read this u'd better return me my carboxylic acid notes on thurs/fri.. grr.
didn't stay for choir though. i realised despite my 2 years (okay, more like 1+year) i don't really know choir pple very very well. as in both the current j2s and j3s. quite sad lar. but come to think of it i don't know my classmates particularly well either. think i'm still closer to sec sch frens and even then, we've drifted apart somewhat too. okay this is getting too depressing i will not end up in the same state as i was on saturday.
o i saw ms low n she was asking me abt choir pple's results.. and whacked me when i said a lot of their names are on the board downstairs. haha. oops. anyway, now i truly realise how hard it was to teach our class when nobody wanted to say anything. more regrets.
aaargh. i wish i'd started revising earlier. haha. this is worse than lecture test/common test la. given that i haven't touched my stuff for like 3 FULL months. groan. when i go uni in july/sept the same thing will happen. augh. i'm appalled. i can literally hear the gears in my brain (or what's left of it) turning and grating against each other! so rusty and so slow. and everything's very very fuzzy. horrifying really. anyway i'd better go back to stimulating my brain to gain momentum if not i'll never get to sleep at this rate.