met cheukka yesterday! such a silly girl:D haha and she's so unashamed of being vain.. okay let's hope she never reads this. reminds me a bit of lydia somehow. actually it is good.. not to be afraid of being yourself. yes. that is what i meant. i think sometimes i'm afraid to do something. and sometimes i'll just be like don't-care attitude and do whatever i want. mood swings huh.
anyway watched a v long engagement. it was also a v long show, come to that. 2h14mins i think. the actor's quite cute! haha. gaspard ulliel. but face a bit long or sth. don't know. and his name reminded me of ravel's gaspard de la nuit.
in any case it's quite a gd show.. just that i wish they hadn't spent so much time showing us her travelling. it got quite boring looking at the car winding thru the roads/the train screaming. but there were so many twists in the storyline! and i never knew trenches looked like that. evidently descriptions in books aren't particularly accurate. or maybe i didn't read the descriptions properly. and the explosions and no man's land. it must have been cos i haven't watched war movies before. or maybe it's cos i've read a bit on world war 1 and nothing like that ever entered my imagination.
really brought home the horror of war. esp when my batchmates are in ns. -remembers serene telling me abt her poor beh digging trenches-
let me see.. yeah we had a nice dinner at swensens.
on a side note i just remembered something to do with meeting up. it's funny sometimes how i want to see my friends for a long time, and when i finally see them i feel like i have nothing to say. there must be something very wrong with me.
and today aside from slacking at home and reading, i went to china square central for this job interview. well, looks like i'll be trying out sales. i think my heels are too high, both the guys who interviewed me were shorter than me. haha. oops. anyway. yes i was going to say.. it's such an irony.. let me list all the things i thought i didn't want/wouldn't do but want/ended up doing anyway.. here goes..
1. last yr when peiying asked me if i wanted to do accounting for 6 months i said no cos i didn't want to be tied down for so long, wanted to try more things. now i kind of wish i had a "permanent" job cos it saves me a huge lot of trouble looking for internships/jobs (and getting rejected/no replies).
2. last yr when ser asked me if i wanted to do relief teaching at rj i said no cos i didn't want to teach, thought it was super boring (and was sick of anything to do with education) when i was at work it was boring too and now i'm wondering if i should have taken that up, ended up registering with moe anyway..
3. this yr when i was thinking about jobs i didn't want to do data entry cos it sounded so boring. now i realise it's one of the few things a level students can do so i haven't much of a choice anyway
4. just a few weeks/days ago i was convinced i wasn't going to do sales and persuade pple to buy stuff cos 1 i hate being bugged by pple therefore 2 i hate bugging pple too, but now it seems like i'm going to do that anyway.
yeah. that's just for the moment, i'm sure there'll be more coming up. my mom marvels at my cynicism about working cos i told her it's just a way to torture oneself cos i can't think of anything i'll really want to do, everyth'll be boring. and she was like "but u're so young! everything should be exciting!" which is right i suppose. i should learn from ever-cheerful pple. sometimes i'm so lazy i can't stand myself. haha.
anyway.. lunch w lijia n pam on monday! yay:D
gah. i think i'm probably going to end up looking for a job until i go to rj to teach for that one week, and then go on looking for another job. this is why 6-month-long jobs are good. which i didn't realise until now. o well. it's v tiresome looking for jobs, signing up all over the place and going for "interviews" interminably.
anyway besides that.. haha i was frantically trying to decide if my bio or phys was worse yest cos aud asked if i wanted to do j1 bio (as compared to j2 physics) but i didn't defect over in the end. hopefully i survive alright. am mortally afraid of a physics shen (like a yz) asking me stuff i don't know.
ohhh and i got to go jurong library:) besides the fact that my feet were hurting quite a bit by that time from walking all over the place. and i lugged 5 books home! whee~ fortunate enough to find a new gerald durrell book! haha. much as i like reading them i still really hate insects. don't know how he can play with them and enjoy it.
and i ended up borrowing gone with the wind! haha. rather unlike me actually i don't think i read romance novels much. but since it's supposed to be the greatest love story. i'm not sure i liked it very much though. why was scarlett so stupid? oh she reminded me a little of emily of emerald hill though. the striving after power part and losing almost everything in the end.
i hate filling up forms. yay it's finally done. and i have another crappy "interview" to go for.
was in a terrible terrible mood in the morning. woke up late, cancelled interview. arranged for another one, realised the place was super ulu, cancelled it again. realised i wouldn't be able to make it for another job, cancelled that too. blah. full of crap. and mom kept going on abt choosing something meaningful or at least worthwhile to do. it's not like i don't want to find something, it just isn't that easy. or maybe i haven't been trying hard enough. but nvm, hopefully jane's contact will get me something good:)
anyway, went for the lunchtime concert. quite cool lar but i think last week was slightly more fun.. i like drums a lot! but then i think they only sound good as an accompaniment to the music.. nxt time if my cousin gets a drum set i'll ask her to play for me and see how it sounds heh:p
and had a v v yummy lunch w candice. and we met sarah by coincidence at suntec nydc! so qiao:) but haven't seen her in ages so it was good:) i don't know how we managed to while so much time away but i got home quite late oops
had a nice time! yay:) suddenly i feel like taking up tennis w fiona. but 1st must wait for her to come back frm korea so i can ask. and our dance classes which i forgot when they were supposed to start. hmm. or if they're still on, for that matter.
i wonder what it's like to be really really good at something. a feeling i'll never be able to experience, so it seems. i guess there're always pple better than u. o well. reality of life.
oh speaking of which i may actually finish compiling my quotes soon!:D then i'll hafta type them out. and i don't think i should send -all- of them to everyone. i'll think about that.
heh yesterday i went to help invigilate for srp aptitude test. was quite interesting actually it was just 2 years ago that i was in their place and then now i'm invigilating. and met chanty n dr chan. it's been a long time... and i recognised one junior.. she is so different from when i was psl of her class.. i remember she had quite short hair and etc.. now her hair is so long.. and rebonded i think.
i'm glad the deadline is tmr. chiong tonight and submit tmr.. yeah..
aiyah i wonder what happens if i can't get a job soon. and i also realised anew there're only 2 weeks left to results. groan. of cos it'll be nice to see everyone again, but in what circumstances is another thing.
i also have yet to buy myself new shoes and new bag. maybe i'm too picky.
oh! today i was at j8 and saw this pool "tournament" thing going on. some of them are actually quite lousy haha. or maybe i'm overcritical. but o well.