it's a pity that when i finally decide to blog again, it's cos i'm in a bad mood. i suppose if i'm in a good mood there isn't much to rant about huh? or it goes into my written diary... e.g. praises for what God has done. the irony. anyway i can't figure out if i'm being PMSy or tired or what it is, but really, I was in such a bad mood today! I think working late last week + on Saturday really made me feel like I'm so done with this stupid report so Monday was kind of unproductive (plus my manager told me I could go home at a decent hour, so I kind of assumed the worst was over - not true). Today at 6:30 he stops by and pretty much tells me I've to stay late (or was assuming that I was going to, whereas I was actually intending on leaving already. More irony). I guess that's why we didn't have to work too much on the weekend.
He was really nice about it though, said to make up for it, if we get an extension I can go home earlier on Friday. I'm like haha... I just got arrowed to audit this other huge report due next Fri, fat chance about leaving at decent hours for the next week or so, it seems. Anyway, was just not very gracious about it in general. Maybe I'm just tired.
God has been good, nevertheless. I did get a nice brunch on Sat and Bobby McFerrin! and hanging out with Selene! and different yummy Vietnamese food + pandan waffle/improv on Fri/finding the hill! But I guess that came with sleep deprivation too so not the most ideal... Ah well, at least there're more waffles coming up this Sat :p and SF Symphony on Sat night! Yeah... maybe that'll motivate me. and I also have to stop stress-eating..
i was just remarking to ser this morning that it's been such a long time since i blogged and she was like ya, you shd blog!
alright that was yesterday as in wed, jan 13.
i have realized that when i don't have deadlines, i tend to slack. a LOT. and be very unmotivated. basically i just wrapped up a case, and the reports were due monday. so the week before i worked late on tues, wed, fri (manager let me off on thurs cos i had tickets to go watch cirque [yay!]), came in on sat and sun. i calculated it was a 70-hr week and have NO idea how i-bankers survive... it really wasn't very fun. anyhow, thankfully the CEO gave us tuesday off :):) i was very happy, it felt like time for the ACTUAL weekend on monday night. and then when i came in on wed i was curious to find out what case i'd be staffed on cos jem's like "20march! tahoe!" and i'm like well... depends on when my next report is due. anyhow. came in for 1.5 hrs with nothing to do (again! gosh, you can't imagine how useless one feels).
and then my first proj mgr gave me a case to work on. but it's pretty far on out and there aren't even that many documents to work with [i guess that's good, better than overload] so i'm just summarizing patent license agreements now. but i'm back to being slack, that i can feel... i guess i need to set my own deadlines else i just float along.
yesterday i was so tempted to go to sushi with my coworkers! but i brought lunch. ah well. and it would've been kind of ex... but i also realized that it's a trade-off between spending $ and getting to know them better. so i guess maybe half the time i should eat out and the other half i can bring stuff. it's also slightly annoying that we STILL don't have a kitchen cos there's no fridge and i can't leave stuff lying around. although today's lunch (portobello mushroom panini) is going to have to sit around until i leave, at least sandwiches are less problematic in that sense i think. anyway it was hilarious, when steve (my 2nd proj mgr) saw that i was going to get lunch with them his jaw dropped and he gave me this utterly SHOCKED look and held it for a while cos i didn't notice at first. rofl.
the funny thing is that i think the staying late thing helped me bond with the rest a bit. like, i'm more comfortable with stopping by offices and asking how things are going. and there was something else but i forget.
mmm. i think i shall try to make pan de sal tonight. :D am excited. and matt gave me his banana bread recipe! also excited about that, but probably not making that just yet... we shall see. he said the measurements aren't exact cos the recipe's at home in minnesota.
anyway the whole getting tuesday off threw me off kilter a little cos it felt so much like a weekend that i thought today is tuesday when it's really thursday... ah well. next weekend! woohoo. and moving. haha. time to unpack in the new house for real! yayyy.