hakuna matata

it's been another week! ahh. i still haven't gotten round to doing much math or preparing for french much. this is very bad.

today was 413 (plus jane) lunch. we're missing so many people! i wish peiying n jiahui were back. and chim. and ting. and lijia. and horrible lyd who pang seh-ed us. okay i'm sure there're somemore pple i missed out.. not thinking all that clearly, it's past my bedtime:p but anyhow it was still good.. we got a round table! round tables are my favourite:)

i think there must be something rather wrong with me, i always feel like i'm waiting around for people to shop cos nothing in the shops interest me very much (even though i am in quite dire need of clothes). maybe i'm just too picky huh. i have also discovered that pam likes very happy-coloured clothes. and she is very loathe to spend money on clothes. haha.

pam's sister had very good timing too. so i wasn't left alone waiting for yingheng to come. food republic is quite cool.. but i guess all these high-traffic area food court places are more expensive than normal. anyway. the balcony is quite a cool place! besides the smoking and watever. and yay i got to eat my oreo cheesecake at tcc! lalala. i think tcc is a nice place. the only problem being that it closed at 10.45, but i guess at least that's a reminder not to miss the last bus/train. oh and we saw zhuanghui and someone else there. hmm.

anyhow i had a good day, surprisingly my feet didn't hurt that much:) now, to persuade myself to do what i came back to do, amidst all the activities coming up, half of which do not have a confirmed date yet. ahh i can't believe i only have a week left. i don't want to go back to horrible dorm food. and the feeling of being cooped up. which reminds me i haven't really confirmed my courses. and my pwr!! how?? wat if i don't get my satire:(

nvm, first weekend is ski trip, i shall be happy:) albeit probably rather broke. ooh ser paid me today, i am rich(er). i'm proudly announcing to everyone about how i arrived home with 55cents (US) in my wallet and a debt of $2:)

it's been a week since i've been back! man, two more weeks and i've to go back and study. groan. i'm too slack here for my own good. but i thank god that my results for this term were alright. hopefully next quarter i can manage my time better.

anyway, so on monday i met fiona (who was half an hour late grr) who also claims she's in the bottom half of medicine. heh i'm sure i don't envy her having to remember all the bone names and wat not. though she'll probably have a more meaningful career hmm. i need to figure out my life.

tuesday met darryl n kaiping. my five year old buddy will never grow up. or maybe NS will make a difference. but well it's always good to keep the kid side of you. if not you forget how to imagine, how to laugh, how to be silly. perhaps love was the first chinese musical i've seen. and i didn't really like it that much. i somehow don't think chinese songs are suited to musicals. or i might just be biased. besides that the story was kinda complicated, and not very developed plot. i think i can be very critical when i don't like little things. very much prefer my innocent steps show.

wednesday met rachel. woah, she can really shop. awfully picky about what shirt to get for her bf. so cute, must get the perfect present. but i guess i can empathise with that since i'm so picky too, just not about buying bfs presents. haha. ooh and we had sashimi. yumyumyum.

thursday met pam! she hugged me so hard i had problems breathing. she went bungee jumping in NZ! so cool! and she was so enamoured with NZ scenery her phone was full of pics of trees and flowers and such. oh, she was also squealing over her baby niece (or someone) while i remained relatively unaffected. but again pam has always been so mommy-ish, even to me.
and we watched narnia! that was good. although lucy didn't even seem the least bit startled when she backed out of the wardrobe into narnia for the first time. i think i didn't picture anything in my head when i read the book cos for once when i saw a screen adaptation of a book i wasn't thinking "i didn't imagine it that way". or maybe i've just learnt to accept a movie for wat it is.

so today was the first day in days that i stayed home. not that i accomplished very much. and i should really get down to writing york's appeal letter but i'm feeling so lazy. i should also be revising french for the placement test but... i miss my playlist. maybe i should've brought my mac mini back heh.

ohh! on wednesday i bought my dvd and was very happy (although not so happy when i watched it and realised they didn't have the deleted scenes, sigh:( director's cut!! which costs like $60 including shipping! argh and i don't even know if it'll have eng subtitles for extra features, sigh somemore)

anyway my dad decided that it was a good show too, so the nxt day (thurs) he called me during lunch to ask if i wanted "april snow. it's a korean show! original dvd only $20!" and i'm like yeah, i saw it in the shops, but i have no idea wat it's about. it's funny cos 1. my dad suddenly became so enthusiastic about korean shows 2. he usually doesn't buy original dvds

now i can understand why candice was infatuated w korean dramas, namely autumn in my heart & winter sonata. i think korean shows in general are addictive. esp cos they know to put good looking young pple on screen. man, i sound so shallow. but like chim says (but in an entirely different context), works of art eh?

so now my dad is busy watching some korean vcd series he bought on thurs. this is so funny. like how pam was telling me about her parents getting hooked on some 70-episode korean drama and feeling so out of sorts after they finished watching the entire series. haha.

oh! i have also finally finished class quotes. very amazing achievement, all thanks to my extreme boredom during the weekend. unfortunately i think if i send it to the teachers everyone is going to kill me (with the possible exception of serene)

either there's still something wrong with my sleep cycle or i slept too much on the friday i came back. woke up at 7 yesterday, 6.30 today (also partly thanks to ser's 5 smses, leaving me wondering why someone was sending me so many msgs at such a weird time).

church was certainly interesting, the first two adults I saw didn't even realise I was back even though I greeted them, until my mom told them. I don't know what it is about Campbell COC singing.. maybe cos ken the songleader is good. -shrugs- bible class was actually better than expected heh, cos I seem to remember most bible classes being not particularly useful, but it was otherwise.

it's a weird feeling. it's so easy to get used to being back, i don't seem to have a real craving for any type of food, i'm just like, okay, we can eat something else today, and slip back into the old routine. maybe that's thanks to sean & co. who save us from lousy dorm food once a week.

well anyway gonna meet fiona later yay! that should be fun. hopefully I can find the stuff I wanna buy.. oh and it's so nice to not have to convert and think, man, this is so expensive. haha.

oh and suddenly it feel so slow driving on expressways here. 80km/h vs 80miles/h. oh!! yesterday when we were going for lunch, there was this pathetic poseur in a sports car trying to show off his speed and zoom around, but kept getting stopped at traffic lights. haha. sports cars are useless here la.. where're you going to speed to? my dad was saying mahathir said if you drive for too long (or sth like that) you'll end up in the sea. haha. rather true.

my dormmate is getting kicked out cos 1. he saw someone setting stuff on fire and didn't stop him, 2. staff don't think he's a gd member of the dorm. that's kind of harsh though.. hm. and the guy who set the stuff on fire (a junior i think) is getting kicked out too. hmm. it's amazing the things which happen..

on another note I was so bored (and lazy, didn't feel like preparing for french placement) that I decided to finally finish compiling class quotes (i'm still not done, but there's definitely progress made) and I kept laughing so much. I realised I hadn't had so many laughs in a while. besides the dinner/lunch with the council (of the wise) the weekend before finals. anyway actually lack of laughter happens quite often, but i think it's only with good friends that i really laugh. cos we're so comfortable with each other we can say the most ridiculous things and it doesn't matter.

i'm home! ahh. i got out of the airport and was like.. wahh.. hot. haha. it's nice to be home though, although i miss my mac and my screen rofl. but i'm glad i no longer have to jump into bed. and i can wear shorts without freezing! but i need the fan instead if not i think i'll melt. ahaha.

didn't sleep much on the flight back cos there wasn't any need to. (vs going to stanford, international orientation started almost immediately) so i spent most of today sleeping. touched down at 12.35am, got to the gate at around 12.50, got out around 1.10am and then went to report baggage damage. they're so much better than SFO SIA la.. there they just shoved a piece of paper at me telling me that they're not responsible for dents.. here they said they'll come pick up the luggage later to fix it.

oh and i watched this show about dance on the plane (innocent steps) and i'm so addicted to it now. and i found out that the actress acted in autumn in my heart! no wonder. she's quite cute though. the good thing is that the main actor n actress are good looking! haha. watching shows without eye candy is very sad. well of cos they have to be able to act too la. i am going to buy the dvd. hope it won't be too ex:| and apparently it came out in spore in aug! ahh. i should've watched it. oh well.

i got the german ihum, wasn't too sure if that's a good choice but in the end i decided i shall stick with it.. but i dunno about section. now i have a 5.15pm one which is not very good in a way. hmm.

alright time to go back to sleep.. haha i came home and pottered around until 3.30am then i got up at 7am and went back to sleep at 9.30am until 7pm or so. unless my watch was wrong, which is quite possible cos it keeps slowing down which is really weird.

yay! i finished econ. ladida. and i had a nice lunch:) i wonder how come the food's better today.. either 1. it's finals week or 2. the pple who're cooking today are better. workers are on strike today to demand better retirement benefits/other benefits today. apparently it's more for the hospital workers, but they're just showing solidarity so dining workers are on strike too. oh well. and then it was so funny, cos we were eating lunch and one of my dormmates was like, the pple today are so polite! we should keep these guys man. haha. oops. i was thinking the same thing when i saw the better food today. but of cos maybe it's just better cos it's finals week.

yesterday's lunch and friday's dinner were hilarious, but i'll recall the quotes another time. oh and last night i had such a terrible night.. apparently it's not just me cos my roommate felt the same way. i tried to sleep at 10.30 cos i wasn't thinking anymore (this happens oh so often) and then i kept having the feeling that i wasn't really asleep, but i refused to look at my watch cos i knew i'd panic if i saw the time and think "oh crap, its (watever time) already and i'm still not asleep". and then i woke up at 12, then 2.45, then i can't remember if there were any other times. and it was so hot, which was weird. normally i'm quite comfy under my comforter but last night it was HOT. oh well.

tomorrow i'll be a happy me! lalala

hmm, so now it seems that primal scream happens every night. last night i came back from the shower to see my phe (peer health educator) and a couple of guys leaning out on the balcony shrieking. haha. i didn't hear it on tues night though, maybe i was in the shower or something. i'm using up all my plasters, there must be something wrong with my hands cos they keep getting cut.

and it's so odd that suddenly fall quarter classes are all ending. like for jc and the last two years of sec sch, we had two years before we had to say goodbye. and i just realised there's no more ihum lect (yes!! ahaha) or section (yess!!! even though my section's rather amusing). and no more introsem (okay, i shall stop typing the same thing; basically all the classes are finishing up). i guess it's less sad, but no bond. although my introsem prof says we're going to have reunion nxt quarter haha.

ahh. i suddenly thought of gerald durrell. i need one of his books! bah. stupid math is driving me nuts. and i suddenly thought of how it's so weird to live two types of lives. one at home with family, one here in dorm with friends. anyway. i wish i had hello panda. but i'd just gobble it all up. and maybe it isn't such a bad thing having all finals on one day, then i can hurry up and go home! ahaha. and laugh at the rest. hopefully every quarter's this good, but i wouldn't count on it. (there are bad points too though, like having to cram everything this week).

i'm falling into exactly the trap i know i shouldn't be falling into. it's so true the way the other pple in my introsem say that they start analyzing things as being fixed/growth mindset heh. and they know wat's the wrong/right response and try to change it. but it doesn't always work.

and something i realised during bible study. it's kind of weird how i just seem to realise things during church/bible study. but anyway. it is the same thing. i can't blame it on the fact that our culture is different or whatever, it was just the same back at home. it's just that i momentarily forgot about what happened in rj/at church. or maybe it was just an easy excuse. the same feeling of having nothing to say, feeling awkward, ... and it of course doesn't help that my mom was asking me just now how, has my personality changed? and i'm like, haha, no. which reminded me of the whole point why my parents agreed to send me here in the first place even though it's costing them a hell lot of money. maybe i'm just being impatient or something, i don't know. sometimes i think it depends on my mood. but i always have the feeling that something isn't as it should be.
maybe that's why music is so good. immerse myself in it and forget (or try to) everything else. nothing else matters at that moment.

there're always two sides to a problem. when i'm unhappy, i see the bad side. when i'm neutral/happy, i see the better side. that just goes so much for religion too actually.

oh dr dement came to talk at westflo. he says that the ONLY cause of fatigue is sleep debt. i find that curious. okay, like dennis said, i guess it is intuitive, in a way. but on the other hand it doesn't seem possible that there can be only ONE cause. still very interesting though. and he says sleep is sleep, it doesn't matter when you take it! that just goes against everything i've ever heard. weird. i mean, he did say sleep should coordinate with circadian rhythms, which is probably a big part. right i don't even think i'm making sense anymore.

back to preparing for introsem presentation.

oh.. a few of my favourite things from www.demotivator.com. first seen on sean's computer! haha. this is one of the times when i wish i were using windows then i can d/l their free trial screensaver. but this was to cheer myself up while feeling blue just now. there're a few more i like, but can't be bothered to upload. one can't have too much of a good thing. haha.

hahaha there was so much noise outside and i was wondering what in the world was happening when I realised it was midnight and it's dead week. primal scream! rofl. darn. i think i should have shrieked somemore. i'm the one who has to spend the week studying cos all my finals/papers are on the first day. but anyway it was still hilarious:D sometimes i still can't believe i'm here.

let me quote from some website or other
"The Primal Scream takes place every quarter at Stanford during the week of intense studying that precedes final exams. On Sunday, at the stroke of midnight, hundreds of undergraduates all across campus lean out the windows of dorms and libraries to vent their anxieties in one enormous, collective yell."

anyway. i went for this musical called "into the woods"! it was really lucky cos my dormmate had extra tickets and were giving them away (!!) wow. and the theatre isn't even a huge one or anything.. I mean I guess the cast wasn't the original broadway one but still. they're pretty good. even though I feel guilty for not doing work:| and had to leave int'l dinner early.

and then saw the nutcracker on saturday.. at the war memorial opera house. man i didn't know it was going to be so posh..
http://sfwmpac.org/gallery/gallery.html#wmoh
forgot to bring my camera sigh. how was i supposed to know that there'll be anything worth taking!! ahh. and there was this pastry confection thing made by fairmont - a model of a huge house and a nutcracker doll and polar bears and various other animals.. all made out of chocolate/biscuit/sth! it was awesome.. okay not that it was really pretty or anything but it was definitely cool. I can't find a picture of it though:( darn. maybe i should ask the rest if they took a photo of it.

pity that the seats that we got as a dorm (okay, more like as a hall since it was the whole of westflo) were kinda pathetic.. very very near the top of the entire opera house, which is really far up. I guess one can't expect too much for paying $5 haha. it was still fun though.

can't believe the quarter's almost over.. a's seem so far behind but it still doesn't feel like december. pple were saying that they don't feel like it's dec cos there's no snow, but i think for me it's the idea of having started school in late sept that is just weird.

yay! we vacuumed our room today, it's so nice and clean:)

oh for the first time (i've been resisting this as long as possible) i wore three layers (instead of two). at least i didn't freeze in church. and also for the first time in the long time i had brunch at my dorm (and poor jon had to walk back to wilbur haha:p) cos sean was busy so we didn't go for lunch (which is also fine, since i'm still quite broke)

ooh my roommate just played mariah carey's "all i want for christmas is you".. it's so nice. anyway. one of my dormmates just knocked on the door and said, "i'm collecting donations for alcohol on friday". [friday there's this huge party at west-flo] and i just stared at him and was like "wat?" and he laughed at me n said that was the cutest look he'd ever seen. uh. okay. i certainly didn't know looks of stupefaction could be cute. but anyway i was quite puzzled as to why he was going around asking for donations when they're already using $500 out of dorm funds for the party!

i can't listen to christmas music now or i won't do my work! sigh. but i think christmas music is very happy and nice:) and christmas is my favourite time of the year! the whole atmosphere anyway. bells and cheer and pretty decorations and ... ahh. it reminds me of chorale xmas songs too though haha. have yourself a merry little xmas and oh.. i've just forgotten the name of that other song. ugh. when i remember i will put it in. it's so annoying!! i can see the score in my head, and the notes, but i just can't remember the lyrics.. gah.

and it reminds me of bellagio! and 'O'! ahh. and hearing "carol of the bells" at the famous fountains of bellagio which also reminded me of ri/rj xmas concert. i wish i could watch "O" again without having to pay more insane amts of money. i think it cost US$150 that time as it was. ugh. best seats though.

okay better get back to work. dunno why i'm suddenly feeling stressed. maybe cos all my finals are on the first day, meaning everything has to be done by then. ahh!

i'm awfully awfully awfully sleepy! waking up at 4.30am for shopping is no joke. thanksgiving sales galore! haha. i think the grad students went crazy at gilroy.. i'm happy with what i got! yay. even though i didn't buy that much stuff. was happily wearing my new jacket (okay, having to wear it in my room cos i'm cold is not happy, but having it at all is happy:) wahaha. and i'll have to wash the jeans before wearing. but well. yay!

i'm happy tonight cos i've sort of finished math hw (finally!) okay i only had a couple of questions but it's done. except for a few questions which i shall have to ask chuansheng haha. and pam emailed! yay! haha. i should really email more people so i can be happier more often.

anyway while waiting for the grad students to finish their shopping me n kiat were stoning at the cafe.. I don't know why I suddenly want to go home so much. I guess it's cos it's thanksgiving week and everyone else gets to go home and we can't. I mean it's good to stay around and have some peace and quiet but it's different. and I wonder what I'll think when I'm back home.. maybe I'll wish that I was back here. the grass is always greener on the other side eh. but no doubt it'll be interesting.

although, like i was telling kiat, i can foresee myself having to answer tons of "how's stanford?" and etc.. i think i should like prepare a speech and just press replay whenever the question comes up. but actually I don't even know what to say. I can't say things like "it's really great!" cos well, yeah it is great sometimes but other times it isn't great at all. and I hate saying things I don't mean. actually sometimes it's really contradictory. this is the -strive-for-balance-side of me coming out. i can even analyse myself now, this has got to be chuansheng's fault. he always does that.

so, i think it'll definitely be interesting. going home for a while with a new perspective. and also increased mobility and good FOOD!! ahh. and CHEAPER prices!! okay. clar is becoming very aware of money after realising she is very low on funds, which wasn't (and isn't) supposed to happen so soon.

but once i go home i think i won't want to come back cos it means i have to do work. but again if i do take my fun courses then it shouldn't be so bad, hopefully. i am unbelievably lazy. i don't want to study, don't want to work, ... and i won't want to leave my comfy room! (with no alarm clocks!) although actually i believe i've heard my mom's / bro's alarm clocks before. it's been a nice week with a temporary-single room, but i guess it'll be nice to have everyone back nxt week.

actually i'm so sleepy. but i decided i must wax lyrical for a while on the joys of cirque du soleil. watched corteo today! sorry jane for ditching you but well.. since i had a ride back and a ticket with sporeans.. heh. it really seems like providence that i decided to ask if any of the others wanted to watch cirque du soleil today and then daryl happened to remember that zhihui said they were going down this week and they happened to be going today! if that makes sense.

i was soo happy while watching the show. unfortunately it only lasted during the show. i guess when it ends, it ends. but anyway.. the first act reaffirmed the feeling i had when watching O.. that they have so many characters on stage/things going on that it's hard to decide where to look. i suppose one learns to ignore the periphery. i think they made wonderful use of the theme.. like turning beds into trampoline-ish things! okay maybe that isn't so original but it was still great anyhow:) and the performer on the aerial straps was one of the strongest i've ever seen.. awesome!

oh and there were two "horses"!! haha. i was also very happy when i saw them. like, i was meant to see this show. anyway this show was really quite different from the rest.. when i walked in and saw the screen with the rich opulent setting i was like wow.. i've never seen this before.. and the costumes were very different too. prettier, in my opinion:) the other cirque shows i've watched tend to have kinda more garish costumes (except O)

there was this fantastic flamenco-rhythmic gym act.. okay it wasn't really flamenco but they had red spanish-looking dresses so well. anyway they're fabulous! when i saw them i was thinking how lijia would've loved it.. and peiying too.. actually i was just thinking everyone should have come with me, they would have enjoyed it. oh and i realised cat 3 seats, if you get the front few rows, aren't so bad, but the problem is watching the performance from the side.. i don't know if it looks just as good as it should from a different angle. and as it was our seats were slightly blocked by the light-post.. so at the beginning i was kind of annoyed by it, but wat to do.

i can't remember if i said this before but i know why i like cirque du soleil! when they have more than one person doing the same routine/watever, they're always perfectly synchronised (okay it doesn't always happen all the time, but the large majority is gd enough) and that is just wonderful. i think i like perfection too much. enough to pay insane amounts of money for it. blah. i need to be rich.

and the juggling acts.. the pple dropped the stuff once but they tried again and did it perfectly.. i don't know if they staged it or it really happened, but i think we clapped all the more louder when they succeeded. reminds me of introsem heh. it means more when they didn't get it right the first time but managed to the second. maybe it shows that they're still human, contrary to what we may think:p

i just remembered. my two complaints: 1. not long enough (1.5hrs with 30min intermission) 2. soundtrack not out yet

alright i'm too sleepy to say anymore.. alcatraz was certainly interesting.. and i'm quite sure there were no woman prisoners, haha. and then when we heard christmas songs being played in mac's.. i'm like.. why're they playing that?? it just puts me in a holiday mood such that 1. i don't feel like doing work 2. i want to go home and slack. okay i guess they're about the same, but well. and then wandering into borders to browse around.. the feeling of actually being in town as compared to confined to palo alto/stanford.. that was really good. i think i complain too much. time to sleep.

i am now feeling very poor. i shall revise my outlook on life and become a miser. (well, starting from after tomorrow since i'm going to watch cirque du soleil yay!:)

anyway i visited woonteng's blog and found this horoscope-thing. think it's partially accurate. ser will agree with the high standards part eh? haha. oh speaking of which the new harry potter show.. i think i'm learning not to judge shows by their books but for what they are. even though while i was watching the show i kept remembering details that they left out. i'm just prone to nitpicking. the actors have really grown up.. kinda interesting.

horoscope from: http://www.alabe.com/freechart/

Rising Sign is in 20 Degrees Capricorn
You are practical and reserved but very ambitious. An achiever and a hard worker, you respect success. Older looking and very serious as a youth, things lighten up and you relax more as you mature. You have a serious view of the world as being a difficult place to be in. Very envious of those who seem to have an easier life than you have, relaxation and play do not come easily. It is important that you had abundant parental support as a child so that you do not feel lonely and isolated as an adult. Generally, you have a good, earthy sense of humor that can carry you through when times really do get tough. You are purposeful, self-willed, industrious, realistic and responsible.

Sun is in 15 Degrees Libra.
Very sociable, you enjoy being with others and definitely prefer not be alone. Warm and affectionate, you go out of your way to make others like you. You despise ugliness, for you being surrounded by beauty and harmony is a necessity of life. You prefer fine clothing, an attractive home and pleasant surroundings wherever you are. Your refined tastes apply to music and to art as well. At times, you are very indecisive you waver and falter when forced to make a choice because you have the ability to see both sides of any question. The positive part of this is that you are very fair-minded and can be trusted to settle disputes. Your greatest challenge is to take any one- on-one encounter and make the most of it.

Moon is in 27 Degrees Sagittarius.
An idealist, you prefer the grand, the beautiful, the good and the noble. You get very disappointed when your high expectations in life are not met. Very curious by nature, you enjoy traveling and learning about other peoples and cultures. Try to avoid your tendency to ignore the small but important details of living. You are independent and free, and you want others to be that way, too. Optimistic, buoyant and cheerful, others like to have you around. You have an incessant desire to learn as much as possible about metaphysics, religion, philosophy and any other broad, deep subject. Your life tends to be punctuated by bursts of energy and frenetic activity.

Mercury is in 07 Degrees Scorpio.
You are a born investigator. You are fascinated by secrets and mysteries and unanswered questions of any kind. When you become upset or angry, your emotional reactions are overpowering -- reason and logic disappear in an uncontrollable passionate outburst. You tend to keep your thoughts secret and bottled up and this makes others regard you with suspicion. It is not that you are trying purposely to be evasive, it is just that you would rather not deal with the explosions and hassles that often occur when you reveal your true feelings and opinions. Your sense of humor tends toward sarcasm and irony.

Venus is in 19 Degrees Scorpio.
Your feelings about others are deep, powerful, intense and complex. When you like someone, you do so totally and obsessively if you do not like someone, they do not exist. Your faithfulness and loyalty to your lover is unquestioned, indeed at times it is too much so -- you get so possessive that you almost smother your partner. At times, your feelings are kept deep within you and, because they are so complex and intense, they frighten you -- this is the way that you try to ignore them. But the more you try to do this, the more explosive things get when you eventually do express them.

Mars is in 00 Degrees Aquarius.
Your ideas and opinions are usually inventive and original, but sometimes they are merely eccentric and offbeat. You are altruistic -- you will work hard for the attainment of group goals, as long as they meet your high standards. You tend to resent traditional authority figures because you think that your ideas are better thought out and more valuable than theirs. Very idealistic, you are a rebel WITH a cause!

Jupiter is in 14 Degrees Pisces.
You are at your best when you give of yourself and what you have -- try to avoid being a martyr about it, though. You're a true idealist, but you must learn not to be upset when life does not cooperate with the way you think things should be. Very concerned with spiritual truth and growth, when you practice what you preach, you make an excellent role model for others. You are so devoted to altruistic ventures and concerns that you tire easily at times. It then becomes necessary for you to go off by yourself to recharge your batteries.

Saturn is in 06 Degrees Sagittarius.
Basically quite conservative, you respect traditional authority figures and are very thankful and supportive of the laws and institutions which govern your life. You learn and accept new ideas only after having very thoroughly examined them. Ideals and abstract concepts are important to you only if they can be used in some practical fashion. You are so practical and so orderly that you have natural skills in planning, administrating and organizing.

Uranus is in 19 Degrees Sagittarius.
You, and most of your peers, have the tendency to think that all ideas, customs and traditions from the past are outmoded and irrelevant. You are attracted to radically new ideas, philosophies and religions that will, hopefully, cause sweeping changes throughout the world.

Neptune is in 03 Degrees Capricorn.
You, and your entire generation, will idealize work, practicality and the ability to attain reasonable goals. But, because you will also stress the need to be selfless and giving, you may find it difficult to attain your goals unless you have lowered your expectations on all fronts.

Pluto is in 06 Degrees Scorpio.
For your entire generation, this is a period of intense research and discovery in areas that were heretofore considered mysterious, remote or taboo. The root causes for many complex occurrences will be unearthed due to the intensity and thoroughness of the search.

N. Node is in 20 Degrees Aries.
You're at your most comfortable when involved in group activities outside of your immediate family circle. You delight in getting involved with others in neighborhood civic or political activities, especially if you can be a part of the leadership of the group. Your zeal and overabundant energy bring out your real creativity when you can work toward tangible results -- things that will immediately benefit those around you. You have a real gift for getting the most out of charity drives and community benefits. Take time out between projects though, because you tire out easily and your effectiveness becomes greatly diminished when your energy is depleted. Also, don't even think of trying to get involved at a peripheral level -- you need a total commitment to feel personally fulfilled. Let others bake the cookies and set up the chairs -- you should be the one to tell everyone what to do and when to do it!

after a hectic week.. i'm suddenly feeling very free. just came back from gaieties.. it wasn't really that centred around cal-bashing. plus i didn't think it was very funny/impressive. but the lead singers were quite good. the girls anyway, i didn't really like the guy. reminded me of chicago on broadway though.. that was awesome!:) want to watch more broadways! haha. but i need $$ man. sigh. i'm so tempted to buy cat 1 seats for corteo with jane but i don't know if i should.. or whether cat 3 seats are that bad. blah.

the irony of it all; after the last (which also happens to be the first) ihum paper, i vowed to start earlier so i wouldn't have to stay up till 4.30am on thursday night (or friday morning) to write it, but no.. the same thing happened. i really don't get it.. maybe it's my tendency to procrastinate. or the idea that i can just keep thinking.. and thinking.. and thinking.. until it's too late and there's no more choice! ugh. anyway i'm surprisingly awake given that i slept at 3.45 and woke up around 7.40 (not by choice, i was planning to wake up at 8.40 but i woke up anyway, maybe cos my subconscious mind was telling me i needed to get that paper done) and when i tried to take a nap just now i didn't succeed. but now i'm a bit tired. time to sleep 10hrs!! yeahh..

uh. well. oh.. i've downloaded like half the soundtracks for kA.. i really like love dance! maybe cos of the harp. and the cello. i think those are my two favourite instruments. i want the CD though. US$19.50:| hmm. okay i think i shall go bathe and sleep.

am listening to jay chou's kai1 bu4 liao2 kou3 and it starts off with this airplane noise thingy.. reminded me of 17th sept.. the day before flying here. the day at sentosa, and ending up reaching home so late and going out for dinner and rushing to pack when i was SO tired. haha. and getting scolded for not packing earlier/going out even though i hadn't packed. and now i'm here already it seems almost comic (heh, wolff's favourite word when lecturing ihum) that i was so worried about forgetting to bring stuff.

and then not being able to sleep even though i was so tired (maybe the fatigue wore off) and then waking up with a horror of leaving my home. of not being around, even though it's only for 3 months. actually now that i think about it i still don't like the idea, especially when i'm not going home next winter, hmm. but anyway. it's easy to look back and shrug it off. but that terror was very real. ah well.

also reminded me of the tea/watever at marche with church pple.. when jason came back and was telling us about british slang and the oxbridge rivalry. i wonder wat i'll have to say about stanford-cal rivalry haha. today someone in my ihum section was trying to sell a shirt. it said "cal" in front. and at the back "stanford was too hard to spell" or sth to that effect.

anyway.. i was so amused (and bemused) by the appearance of this email entitled "our humble contribution" in my inbox, with 2 pictures of freezers. one with joel grinning from ear to ear. so, here is the much-loved, well-stocked freezer of the occupants of 2094 yale street. i must make sure i mention that this fantastic freezer of theirs contains "20 lbs of meat!" (not to mention guo1 tie1s and i assume, at one point in time, pineapple tarts)
this is the reason i was at their house yesterday. hahaha. oh.. should have sent me a pic of the shrine too. haha.

ahaha! i have just introduced my roommate to the wonders of hello panda. haha. she agrees it's addictive. i think i finished off 3 packets today. :| oh well. at least i'm not daryl who bought like 5 (rather huge) packets of bin bin. and then when we were at ranch99 yesterday daryl was like "i heard from sean you told him to go outside and wait cos u were going to take a long time" and i'm like !!! that guy.. i'm sure daryl heard something else too but i forgot wat.

lunch was good! haha. i have discovered the joys of honey walnut prawns thanks to sean too. joel was like "his three favourites: honey, walnut, prawns". and then i don't know how come they served us bubble tea, but then daryl was drinking his bubble tea and sucked too hard or sth cos suddenly a pearl shot out of the straw and ricocheted to the back of his throat and then he jumped slightly and looked very shocked. it was so funny la he's forever so ridiculous..

oh here's a pic frm yesterday's dinner

back (l - r): zhihui (i'm v sure she was tarbet mass dance capt or sth.. anyone find her familiar? i know she was an spsl though), sean, daryl, wenzheng, kevin, kevin's gf (i'm not sure how to spell her name), me!
front (l - r): xianyi with the two birthday boys joel and ruixiong

okay i really should be doing work not doing this but ahh.. i listed out the stuff i have to do. it doesn't seem like that much, but i know it's a lot. ugh. too unstressed for my own good

ohhh i just remembered sth else that happened yesterday/today thanks to kiat.
yesterday during dinner sean was in ecstasies over this bak chor mee place, and decided that we were going to lunch there today. so we went there and then found joel and daryl standing outside. cos the place closed down and there was another restaurant in place of it!
they (sean n joel) were so disappointed..
sean "brother.. the sun has set.."
joel "yes brother.. it is a dark day.."
and they went on in that line for a while.

then when we went to their house to visit and ailin came along with the most fabulous egg tarts i've eaten.. (from chinatown in SF! 1029 grant street! haha) and apparently she knew that place closed down but didn't tell them so they were complaining. and saying they should go into mourning; rend their clothes and put on ashes and sackcloth. it was SO funny.. oh and their freezer is very full of meat.
yesterday joel defined chicken and fish as vegetables, i don't know why.

ruixiong "do you think you'll be okay?" (walking back to my dorm from his, which is like 50m away)
me "no, i'll get mugged on the way"
ruixiong "that's okay"
me: !!!
i was being sarcastic, but still. haha.

oh, one from sean last sunday i think.
zhongjie (hopefully that's the way his name is spelt, hmm) was talking about going to the gym and sean was saying he had to do reps as a swimmer. and i can't remember if it was zj/jon who said "oh you were a swimmer?" and sean said "yeah but now i'm a blobber"
it kind of reminded me of lydia though. the word "blob". maybe cos it used to be her msn nick.

daryl, yesterday, on his phone which wouldn't receive/make phone calls. "my phone is incognito" (he meant to say incommunicado)
i couldn't stop laughing even in math after that.. cos the image of a emperor riding in a sedan (or on a horse) to the countryside appeared in my mind. and i was wondering what daryl's phone was pretending to be.

and i thought this nonsense with the alarm clock was over. if i didn't have to wake up early to go for melody i'd be severely annoyed. 7am, 7.40am, 8.20am (and this one went on for like 15mins cos she refused to get up) and then 8.40am.. i think i'm going to be deaf by next fall. unless by some happy chance my classes start earlier than hers.

ah. i see. she has just informed me that she intended to wake up at 7 (!!) to do work but she couldn't get up. cos she wants to do work so she can go out and do other stuff. hmm. anyway, its kind of weird she doesn't seem to feel bad. maybe i expect too much.

i think i'm very capable of just holing myself up in my room given there's so much work to do. bah. actually i know i thought i had a LOT of stuff to do yesterday night but now when I list it out I feel like I'm forgetting something.

oh. and dining hall food is quite sucky half the time. should go to wilbur more often haha. at least they have chinese food. and at least i get to eat something nice every sunday:D

chim's coming over today! haha. but that horrible girl didn't tell me, i had to hear it frm wang ning.

ooh okay i saw chim already:) anyway she mite be coming over with jane nxt week! how fun! haha. wish the rest could be here too though. bleah. if i had my way i'll probably wish for half my sec 4 class to be around.

and i was telling jon just now.. it's so sad.. when teaching lil kids piano you feel SO happy when they manage to get through a page of sheet music. at least i didn't have to figure out how to teach her about time signatures haha. i really wonder how my teacher managed to teach me last time.

ah i forgot to add something else. just now during math section i was telling chuansheng that during ihum, when we were analysing joyce's dubliners, one guy was like saying that american kids feel stifled by the education system - follow the prepared path through grade school then college then get a job.. and that is exactly wat everyone says in spore. looks like it really applies universally.. the notion of "once you get out of your country (or state or hometown) everything'll be fine".

definitely there's a difference in perspective and all, but after a while it does become the same situation. it's the mindset you have to escape from. like my feeling of wanting to go for a holiday.. it's the same as it was in rj. so what has changed, really?

this is partly why ihum is depressing sometimes. it points out things one is normally in denial about. like the stuff we read from tolstoy was about how people're obsessed with material stuff and only realise they ought to have lived otherwise when they were at the brink of death. okay baldwin wasn't so depressing, possibly cos i still don't really understand/like it. and joyce's dubliners is about paralysis/epiphanies and actually tolstoy n joyce write a little about social convention too.

okay i'm going to think about nxt quarter courses and sleep cos i can feel myself zoning out already

moderately eventful week. actually. no. the only event was getting sick. on monday night i decided i desperately needed sleep and therefore purposed to sleep before 10. unfortunately, after happily thinking i had no more work to do/..., i suddenly realised i hadn't written my introsem essay yet. freak. so i wrote 2 pages worth and then it was 11pm so i decided it was time to sleep.

woke up at 4.30 with the feeling of inevitability. throat/nose/watever felt weird. 37.6degrees! yay.. go back to sleep. wake up, still around there. toyed with idea of skipping introsem later (while editing/finishing my essay). went down to breakfast, ate fruits and padded along to econ lect. in no condition for running so better leave earlier. econ lect was okay, not particularly illuminating that i remember of. back to nice warm dorm.

during lunch had to go look for all the nonheaty stuff (not that there's alot to begin with). oh before that i finally decided i was going to skip introsem and dance and come back and sleep. i decided i couldn't survive 1h15 of pointless discussion and 1h30 of moderate exercise. thankfully no midterms this week.
came back after math, which was also only slightly useful. and slept. roommate was like "are you taking a nap?" and i'm like "i'm sick! i have the right to sleep!" and she's like "watever roomie.." cos she's forever taking naps (and most of the time she's not sick)

anyway thankfully by wed i was quite alright and today even better yay~ my toes were cold on mon/tues night though. random comment. haha. and i had this really weird dream on monday that i was back in spore and i forgot to pack anything (i.e. no luggage or sth) so all my stuff was still here. and feeling an acute sense of annoyance/despondency cos i'd left all my stuff behind and i wasn't about to get on a plane back here to get all my stuff. crazy stuff that dreams are made of.

have to choose classes for next quarter soon and i am torn between so many things! rather equates to being totally clueless. am seeing my advisor tmr, but i'm not sure he'll be of much help. all he's going to say is to advise me not to take 20 units again. actually when i went to see him i said i was gonna take 18 and he was already advising me against that. ahh.

not in a very good mood tonight.. don't feel like doing my work especially cos i know i have so much stuff to do. bah. tmr there's the performance, then sat morning there's melody (i almost regret doing this) sat night dinner out, sunday church, ihum thesis and introsem outline due monday, ...... how depressing. and i desperately need to practice math. ahh!!! i want to skip next week and go straight to thanksgiving. "like monopoly", chuan sheng says. haha.

man. i'm so glad that midterm is over. i'm not so sure how i did though, sigh. hopefully it'll be good to make up for all the nonsense i've been handing in for econ. it was a rather terrible realisation that there're only a few more problem sets to boost my grade. and i was so zoned out after it i didn't even recognise xianyi when he biked past haha oops. until he called me and i looked properly and was like oh.. haha.

actually my head is still a bit woozy right now. i better sleep early tonight, who cares if i finish reading introsem. haha. and thankfully i managed to get the dance tickets.. and i talked to my ihum tf about my paper.. it was very reassuring:) maybe i'm not so bad at ihum after all, given that that first paper was written in virtually two days or less. (although chuan sheng keeps saying that doesn't matter, hmph) but anyway i'm feeling proud of myself for now yay

oh i tried jamba juice for the first time today. it's.. interesting. and it was so funny.. i suddenly heard "clarissa lin!", whirled around, saw sean and wondered what he was doing there. "yeah.. monday morning right" (cos he watches webcast instead sometimes) anyway he started telling me all the good flavours.. haha he really is synonymous with good food. oh we went to coldstone creamery yesterday! it was fantastic.. it reminded me of the dairy queen thing last time at mobil petrol station where you can choose what you want to mix into the ice cream.. ahh. different, but still good! and i was late for econ review session but who cares. haha. food is more impt! oops.

i'm hungry! :( but i don't think i should be eating dry/heaty stuff. oh dear. guess i'll just starve.
ah i just remembered i had to do laundry.

i'm so freaking annoyed.. i forgot to hand up my econ problem set and only realised it after the solutions were posted, so they aren't going to accept it and i have to drop the grade.. which totally sucks cos this was probably one of my better ones since i went for office hours and got most of the stuff explained. and it also doesn't help that i got the median score for econ midterm, even though i'm relieved it wasn't any worse. and i have so much stuff on this weekend i haven't studied, nor do i feel like studying at all.

okay i think part of the annoyance is cos i'm sleepy, and i can't even figure out why. i think i'll give up and go sleep. i'm very glad for my new stanford sweater though its nice and furry inside and warm. thanks to wangning's discount coupon. oh and i'm also glad jane's gonna come over and stay the night before big game! yay!! okay. i have cheered myself up slightly. but i'm still tired.

crap la i just tore part of a page of my econ txt cos my hair dripped water on it and i rubbed too hard at the page trying to dry it. i really need to sleep before i start destroying more things and getting even more pissed off.

i think chuan sheng is right. it all depends on my attitude. anyway, i was blog surfing, sort of, and came across some stuff in judith's blog which is so true. so i koped some phrases from her. replace H with stanford and you have it. my sentiments exactly.

||One of the hardest things about college is having to start from scratch. Then, the fact that you're starting from scratch at H, where you -are- scratch, also doesn't make things any easier.||
it's so easy to forget that though. like when i talk to pple i don't realise that these are like super-smart pple or anything.. the way i forget age differences and all. and i didn't realise like everyone who's here was valedictorian of their class. haha.

||My time here feels so precious and so tedious at the same time (...) And I'm not even bonded to any particular job when I get back. It's like the whole account is accountable to myself, and that makes it all the more frightening. If I don't make good, it'll really be my own fault.||
i don't really think about it (like many many other things) when i'm swamped in work. but sometimes the realisation just comes and hits you. i really should be doing my work. okay nvm, lemme finish this. so yeah, as with many other things, sometimes i just suddenly remember that its my parents who are paying for all this (hell lot of money too, i might add) and i don't even think i'm living up to their expectations at the moment. which of course they don't know, but that makes it even worse.

i'm not driven the way so many people i know are. although actually i'm quite sure that's a defining characteristic of any student in a university like stanford. i haven't the foggiest idea what i want to do.

i'm really glad i'm here though. i realised it is really different. my time is entirely my own; there's no mom to nag me to stop playing around/wasting time and study. not that i really needed that much nagging but sometimes i do tend to not do my work. heh. anyway i guess i'm getting more used to the reading textbook thing..which is gd.

alright, ranting over. yay i have understood my math. i feel better:) oh. i think cs & ser are right too, nxt quarter i better find courses that i actually like.. although given that pwr n ihum are compulsory.. hmm. must find some way to make them appealing (haha)

bah. i'm so sleepy. but i haven't done much work today:| last night was frosh formal! we were SO late, haha. but dressing up is fun. and i don't really think i would have wanted to stay very long. this partying thing is really not me. then we went to jonathan's room to eat ice cream! yay. pity the ice cream was sort of melted though haha the sorbet became a (rather thick) smoothie. but it was still good:) and i only remembered jackie was sick after we finished most of it. but nvm, i'm not going to get sick.

uh. yeah. so we left jon's room at 2.30 (and therefore no more midnight express/shuttle, horror of horrors, had to walk!) thankfully it wasn't that cold.. but of course there wasn't much choice. and i ended up sleeping at 4. !! i don't think i've ever slept at 4 in spore. maybe that night when my sleep cycle was screwed up cos of being sick/trying to study for bio a level prelim mcq, but that's about it. and i've already done that 3 times (sleeping past 4) and it's only been 1.5months. man.

so i happily woke up at 11.30! actually i wasn't that happy, cos i got woken up at 8sth by my roommate talking to her family on the phone. why can't she get out of the room and talk? ... although maybe she thought i was still fast asleep and wouldn't hear. given that chuan sheng can spend 2 hrs on the phone outside his room cos his roommate was sleeping.. later she saiid they forgot about the time difference. and assume that she's awake. since they're always awake after 7 at home. but really, college is so different. how can one expect to keep the "go to bed early and wake up early" routine? forget it man..

i think i'm a terrible person to room with:| i'm very picky about sleep. if that's the way to put it. like, when my sleep is disturbed, depending on my mood, i can really feel like screaming my head off.

anyway. sigh my neighbour opposite threw a birthday party and the music's been going on for 3 hrs and it's giving me a headache. actually maybe the headache is also due to fatigue, but i prefer to complain. seems like people are more vulgar though, f*** seems to form a rather large part of conversations sometimes. and i also frequently hear "goddammit!" in the hallways.. maybe i was too sheltered before though

i hope there's nothing wrong with my computer anymore, it's so tedious to bring the whole freaking thing down to stanford shopping center and have to back up the hard drive.. thankfully ruixiong had an external hard drive to lend me.. yay for sporeans! haha.

oh wait i haven't explained why i haven't done any work. after waking up, went for brunch/lunch at lag (and met wang ning on the way, how coincidental) he was busy eating yoghurt or something and only looked up when i stepped into his path haha. then i decided to go visit chuan sheng since i'd never seen his room before. and he just woke up! well done man.. haha. it was rather amusing. then i figured since i was at lag i may as well walk over to frosoco n visit kiat (also cos his roommate isn't around for the weekend, like jon's). since if i were in my dorm i'd never trek over to either of their dorms. haha. killed two birds with one stone! then aft tt i decided i'd visit jesley too since i'd never seen her dorm either.. and i caught her just when she came back frm movie! lucky day:)

then i finally came back to my room. and did two weeks' worth of laundry. (this is what two midterms on the same day at the end of the week does to you). messed around a bit, decided to go shopping. alone. i think there's something rather wrong with me. find it tiring to have to create/continue conversation for long periods of time. i guess i just wanted some time alone. which is weird cos i'm mostly alone anyway. i must be becoming a hermit.

yay!! my midterms (well, first round anyway) are over. finally i get like two weeks before its midterm week again. not that two weeks is a lot but one becomes thankful for small mercies.
i walked out of psych introsem midterm into the quad and drank in the sunshine n cool air. that sounds cliched but really, such a blessed relief. now i know why time management is so impt. and "if you don't have it now, u'll have it by the end of (first quarter/freshman year - i forgot which)"

well anyway. now there's less work there's time to think about other stuff like ccas/socialising. both which are in a very sad state. and skype is driving me nuts with the lag.. my mom keeps repeating herself. and repetition really annoys me.

i still want to go to the zoo/disneyland. i think disneyland is more fun.

ooh i'm very happy:) went w sean to cupertino village and found khong guan biscuits! haha. okay. nvm. i already have too many snack as it is.. but anyway we had an interesting chat. as it was on friday night with jackie. speaking of which it's thanks to going shopping w jackie that i realised my SUID was missing, and thankfully daryl was nice enough to go over to stern and help me get it back:D

and i'm also very glad that i get to get off campus at least once a week. thanks to sean haha. and he was saying we're very lucky cos when he was a freshman it was either "lag or stern today ah?" haha. but yeah, i think because our campus is so huge, it's kinda hard to get out and everything. and like they were saying yesterday on the way to lunch, california public transport system is quite pathetic. this is when one appreciates spore. (and its size, in a way)

okay even though i was like "sharks" when my alarm went off at 0730. didn't wanna get up. but i guess the fatigue wears off after a while. although i think in spore i'd never wake up at 0730 to go to church. i shall try and sleep earlier on saturday nights

i don't think i had a very productive day but i'm so so SO glad jane came over. it's been so long since i've seen one of my girl friends. i mean okay here i have jackie and other pple but it's just different. this is why i know i can't stay here this winter and let my family come over. i need to go home. and of cos i have to bring stuff over which i thought i didn't need but now i know i want. like my multiple coloured pens haha. now that sounds superficial (i forgot the other better word for it) but well.

i thought it would be better coming here without people i knew. i thought it would force me to make friends. it doesn't turn out to be that simple after all. at least i'm not the only one feeling that way. but now i miss jane!:( boohoo. that means i ought to make a trip down to berkeley soon heh. oh well.

you can choose to make yourself miserable. or you can choose to be happy. but again that isn't that easy either.. maybe i'm just saying that cos i'm already here, and like jane said, a lot of people romanticise the whole overseas study thing. oh well. maybe i'll figure out wat to say tmr or another time.

hmm i wonder if i have too many things going on this weekend. there's lunch in a bit, then concert at night. and jane's coming over. and tmr there's church. and dinner at prof's hse/sas bbq. and my econ is in a mess n there's a midterm nxt week. and i also have introsem midterm nxt week. it also doesn't help that i don't think my econ problem sets have been done very well. and it's going to be week 5! crap.

anyway i just suddenly felt like going to disneyland. haha. sigh.

heh i just realised something. people are telling me college isn't all about studying, and my mom last night was telling me u better make sure you do your work.. didn't come to college to play. i guess she's afraid i'll spend all my time doing things other than work.

when the work piles up it's when you miss home. i wonder if it's because pple told me that, or i just happened to feel it. at night, when i'm in my bed reading ihum stuff and then i suddenly think of places at home. i don't know if that counts as missing home. which brings me to another point. last time, when pple (relatives/church) asked me if i missed my bro, i'd usually say no and then feel guilty. maybe i adapt too well in that sense heh. i know i just got used to not having him around quite quickly.

and my dormmates just went off to late night. amazing.. i wouldn't walk all the way there to eat at night unless i'm like really energetic/hungry.. usually i just bear with the hunger (if any) or eat snacks. oh well.

anyway today was a better day.. although last night i fell asleep and got up to find that it was 5.30 and my roommate was working on her ihum paper.. so i tried to read baldwin for ihum. but after 10 pgs i was like, forget it, i'm too sleepy to make any sense out of the book. decided i could go back to sleep and get up at like 8plus and still have time to finish reading.

so i got up. and didn't, after all, have time to read. so ended up reading it during breakfast and lunch and finally finished it at like 1pm b4 i had to go for math and then ihum. and i had things to say during ihum today! yay! haha. this is so silly. maybe it's cos i complained to more pple and they're like, you're sporean, sure can crap. but i think hk's suggestion of discussing the book b4hand is gd too. if i do get round to it.

the econ-math thingy was quite interesting. although i reaally really really have to go read the textbook.. sigh. midterm tmr and two nxt week. ah well at least there's concert on sat, should be gd!

i forgot to say something. it was kinda weird at lunch on sunday. cos everyone else there besides daryl was a grad student (or co-term) and they know pretty much the same people and all that.. suddenly was feeling young (as compared to feeling old cos i'm in college) but anyway the food was fantastic:p not as gd as yumcha (i'm probably biased though) but still

okay back to math. i really must go shopping. clothes-wise and snacks-wise. friday! we've to find somewhere to go though.

okay after that momentary lapse into abject misery/pessimism, i am now feeling better. at least, i have just thought about how it'll be interesting to go home during winter break and see things differently. and then i realised there are so many things here that i wouldn't get to experience at home. it isn't so bad after all. i guess music and mr white bear helped too. but besides that it's still really easy to push things aside (i.e. remain in denial) and go on with life. kinda related to church yesterday actually.

i'm in such a terrible mood today.. i can't imagine why. maybe it was my roommate talking to someone on the phone at 6.30am, and the someone couldn't hear her so she kept repeating herself, which totally drove me NUTS. i was ready to get up and clobber her. okay i wasn't, but well. that was annoying enough. ah. apparently it's her ex-boyfriend whom she was talking to. and she assures me that as much as it annoys me, it annoys her to have to hold the conversation too. at least that's cleared up.

econ lect was okay i think.
got annoyed during ihum cos wolff was going on in all sorts of tangents and still talking about tolstoy when we're reading baldwin now. apparently he's supposed to link them, but somehow i find his lectures are so unstructured it's really irritating. and the problem with yearley is that he does say interesting things and he structures his stuff nicely, but he says it in such a boring voice that you fall asleep anyway. ugh.

so i had lunch w jackie (who's sick). misery loves company. so we sat around and complained together. she's still halfway through telling me about my imaginary boyfriend.. i bet ser would be amused at this.

math lect. i still get confused about stuff sometimes, and i was falling asleep at the end of it.
ihum section. i am in such trouble for ihum cos i can never think of things to say. i also neglected to finish reading the last 7 pages but i don't suppose that's such a big deal. i kind of wish the TF would say more instead of just letting all the others talk. or maybe that's not what ihum is supposed to be. but it doesn't really seem like i'm learning very much about the text. i mean, fine, people are sharing their intepretations about the thing but i would assume the TF knows more background stuff or watever.. i don't know what i'm talking about as usual.

last night i didn't finish what i planned to do, and i just couldn't be bothered to do it this morning cos i was in a bad mood, therefore now i have a lot of stuff to do. including reading for tmr, math problem set due tmr which i'm partway through.

i think jackie is right. it's about juggling the things one has to do (i.e. work) and the things one wants to do (everything else). not that it was/would be any different in spore.

it's depressing thinking about school/work/... today i didn't want to get up and go to school (i haven't felt that way about school since somewhere in the middle of the term for j2, but i have felt that way about going to work so that wasn't very long ago) esp when doing tolstoy in ihum, talking about how one should live life. life isn't exactly very fun at the moment, nor do i envision it to be when it's time to go out to work. so much for optimism.. just an off-day i guess.

i should really get back to math.

heh i'm suddenly feeling a bit weird. some of my dorm people are gathered outside in preparation to go for some party.. and my roommate was trying to tell people she didn't want to go cos she had to stay back and do her problem set but at the same time she wanted to go. and her friends from down the hall were forcing her to go. so after that she was like "why don't they ask YOU to party?" and i'm like, i don't party. which seems to be an anomaly here apparently. maybe it's just the freshmen, since my hpac happened to drop by and my roommate asked him to support her but he was like "go! freshmen should go out every week!" or maybe it's just my perception. but frankly, i see nothing very appealing about going to places packed with people either dancing/drinking/...

anyway for the first time in a month i can get up at 10.20am! haha. but man, chuan sheng woke up at 12.. oh well. but somehow today didn't feel particularly fruitful. or as i was telling kiat, "remarkably unproductive". i'm still puzzling over null spaces.

oh! i went to wilbur for dinner (on my own, cos every other sane person went to lag which is definitely nearer but it's so tiny!) and then went to daryl's room after that. his roommate was playing classical music. i think that's really rare. even i don't do that. haha. okay not that i'm a very classical person to begin with, but well. maybe he's one of those who really love it. anyway oh.. i just remembered i haven't listened to the mp3s wenyu sent. ooh. i love ravel. well anyway yeah it was a nice change to hear classical music, given my dormmates who like blasting rock/rap/watever you call that genre which they use at parties. it always conjures the image of some quiet high class carpeted luxurious place

finally i have time to upload photos! but not all of them, this is as much as i can take at one shot. i took a 1hr nap frm 12.30 - 1.30 and slept frm 4.30 - 8.00 in an effort to finish my very last minute econ problem set and ihum paper. i promise myself NEVER to let this happen again. man.

stanford has THE prettiest campus around.. these photos don't do it enough justice though.

entrance to the main quad



walkway in the main quad



inside the main quad



clock tower and hoover tower in the background



the claw!



pigott hall or something, engineering building, part of main quad



one of the entrances to the main quad



my side of the room again (sorry kiat i haven't figured out where to put the bear haha)


roommate's side of room before she arrived



my room a few days ago



my roommate's side of the room before she arrived



the corkboard a day (or so) after i arrived



the corkboard on my room door when i arrived

college is crazy. these past few days i've been feeling so tired i fall asleep without intending to (and therefore do not finish my work). for once i'm thankful my roommate wakes up early so i get the choice of getting up to do my work.

i wonder if it's cos i've been wasting time doing things i shouldn't be doing. it's crazy! i have to figure out a (sensible) question to ask later during ihum lecture and send it to my TF.. and my ihum paper is due friday (i've hardly started, only have some vague ideas) and we're supposed to bring the opening paragraph to class today to share.. i suppose at least that forces me to get started, since one can't write an opening paragraph without knowing what one is going to say in the rest of the paper, but ... i have 1.5hrs to do all of the above

and then i've hardly started on my math problem set, haven't even looked at econ (not to mention still being behind on econ reading) and i have to read two articles for introsem tomorrow. !! and the entire cycle is going to repeat itself next week unless i magically find extra days during the weekend to catch up on everything. groan. math midterm next week.

i need to review what i've been doing with my time.

okay i'm having a REALLY hard time trying to find "a person who has reached a high level of achievement in an area i value" so i shall give it up for a while. i suppose this essay shouldn't be that hard to write since it's more about facts than opinions. although that means extensive research, i mean, who's going to tell you how much effort they put in/how much natural talent they had?? ugh.

so anyway, happy birthday to me! haha. thanks to everyone who remembered my bday:)
sporean juniors/seniors who came to my room last night.. it was so weird cos i hadn't seen half of them before, but it was really sweet:)
got up for church (not without being annoyed by roommate's alarm clock, she changed the alarm to radio so it blasts like rock/rap music.. but i think it's more effective cos she switches it off faster, but still)
dennis came by to get me, thankfully, then i didn't have to walk to escondido turn-about. haha.
church was interesting. it was rather touching, i wonder why. anyway i'm going back to campbell next week to see if i really prefer them.
and max called! haha. that was sweet too:) i was rather amused.. he thought i was his mom! man.. and by his tag on my facebook..
back to room, agonised over hero to write about for introsem (am still agonising)
decided to take a nap, kept waking up cos i was afraid i'd wake up late for dinner.

so at 6.25 i went to tresidder and was wondering where in the world jesley was. (haha, where in the world is carmen san diego). and i thought we'd missed the bus but it was in the other direction, thankfully:)
caught the bus to palo alto transit centre (hah, they refused to believe me yest when i said midnight express didn't stop there) and walked to university ave. looked quite cool.
then jesley walked into this restaurant which didn't even look like a jap restaurant, i thought it was like american or something. but then there was jap food on the tables so hmm. and i was still wondering why she walked straight in, then i saw everyone and realised haha. it was a great surprise though. and huge bear! haha. which yf said was as big as me. hmm. i wish wang ning n daryl weren't videoing me though, i must've looked v idiotic.
had a HUGE dinner. oh in the middle the lights went out and some guys got up on their chairs and drank some sake bomb or sth.
and then after dinner, lights dimmed again and kiat came out with a cake! which jesley bought from le boulanger at stanford shopping centre.. that shop is awesome.. haha. and i guessed as much those were trick candles.. the sparks were crazy.. so yf blew them out for me but they relit themselves after a while.. was quite hilarious:p
and the waiters made me stand on the chair and drink 7-up! haha. i was quite sure it was sprite or sth but the rest were speculating whether it was sake haha. thankfully not, wat if i end up drunk -horror- but anyway they gave me a photo of it! so funny:)
definitely a very memorable evening.

and then when i got back, jamie knocked on the door. tomi refused to open the door and stared at me so i was like, weird, okay, and i opened the door. and it was just jamie, which was even weirder haha. but anyway in a while they flung open the door so hard it hit the recycling bin haha. and more cake! man.. i'm SO full now i feel like a ball.
philip's poem was hilarious.. but anyway it was really sweet too.. pple gathered in the hallway singing. haha.

it was a very nice bday! yay:)

and now i better go figure out the rest of my week, can't believe i have an IHUM paper due fri, it's crazy

in econ lect just now i was wondering if i'd bitten off more than i can chew.
disregarding the need to digest the stuff after every lect, my current workload per week:
1 problem set for math
1 problem set for econ
1 essay for introsem
1 chapter of prof's book for introsem
variable number of articles (with varying number of pages) for introsem
2 stories (on average) for ihum
that's also disregarding time needed for other activities, which i still haven't decided on. as it was last night i went to try out chi alpha and it was like.. almost 2hrs.

am i complaining too much? hmm. introsem is supposed to be the lightest/most fun course but it can rival ihum. they're kinda similar; reading and responding. but i think ihum's harder, i'm out of practice with analysing texts.

and now that i have to read research papers i'm so thankful i did smp/terp in sec sch/JC cos at least i know what a research paper looks like and don't have -that- much problems reading it (as compared to if i were reading it for the first time)

i probably shouldn't have slept at 2.30 yesterday. so sleepy now. argh. back to reading the 12pg paper for introsem later.

went for aikido today. it's really different from back home. i kinda (as usual) miss alvin's teaching haha. i must email and tell him that.. and miss training w deborah/melvyn. anyway, the arrillaga family sports centre was so freaking far away (okay it wasn't that bad, but compared to where my classes were, it definitely was) plus i had to do TB test at vaden before that, so i had to skip lunch (poor me)
lots of brackets

anyway, i dunno if i'll go train with them, it's quite a tight fit trying to rush from there to math section in Gesb unless the bus decides to come on time (which it normally doesn't, in general cases) and well.. i don't know.

dance class was also different. she didn't focus on perfecting the basics as much as they did back home either. and went way faster.. which is good in a way cos we get exposed to more stuff, but well, working on basics is good too.

suddenly (as usual) i don't have as much to say as i thought i did.

there is so much work it's like the start of j2 all over again.. it's the 2nd week and i'm already behind on econ reading (which never seems to end) and i spent 4 hrs reading 40pgs for ihum. how sad is that! i didn't even realise it was 11pm already. groan. oh wait.. then that's 3 hours.. see i can't count somemore. ...

i'm still wondering wat to join. i think i always assumed i would end up in acappella. and even though stanford has a lot of grps, a lot of them don't appeal to me. on another note, i guess when it comes to college, CCAs are really different from what they used to be in pri/sec sch/JC. or maybe that's just my perception.

i can't remember if i said it before but i think what serene said to me on the night before i left was true. the sadness one feels is worth it for what you get to experience here. although actually what chris said is also right; there's so much work there isn't much time left to enjoy the non-academic parts of college life here (or there, in her case, in cornell. heh.) maybe it's the question of knowing how to balance. which i definitely haven't achieved, given that i feel really like a hermit.

ah. i am going to take my shower soon. but i decided i'd better blog before i forget wat i wanted to say (as usual).
i don't know why i find it so hard to read the econ txtbk. really very unused to reading the WHOLE chapter. usually i think i just skim and pick out more important stuff cos i've already read very-good-lecture-notes-frm-rj. haha. anyway, here's hoping i manage to finish everything i have to tonight, although that seems a tad impossible given that it's like 10pm. unless i sleep late (again). which isn't a very good idea cos i'll fall asleep during classes tmr again. sigh.

i don't remember exactly when it started appearing into my head, but i think at one time or other jesley's blog title was "an awfully great adventure" (frm peter pan!) and that phrase has just stuck for now. it comes to mind when i'm walking around white plaza in the morning, when i'm finding my way to classes/other places using the map (and i don't get lost k! yay for me! hah), when i first took the marguerite with jackie to stanford shopping center/walmart, and most recently, yesterday, on the way and in san francisco.

so yeah, i never saw myself spending the first weekend of school in SF frm 9.30am - 12midnight. nor did i foresee myself being rolled out of bed by the sophomores.
scenario:
-soft knock on door-
clar wakes up with a start and wonders if she's overslept and the rest have come to get her (reminiscent of last last thurs or sth)
clar checks watch. 7am !! !!!
clar closes eyes and hopes the knock wasn't on her door, and that the pple will go away
no such luck
clar vaguely hears someone telling another to wake me up while he went to get someone else. or something like that.
then, loud hammering on the door
clar vacates the bed with great haste and opens the door and complains
poor roommate is awakened
clar, daryl, jiun haur, shin eik walk over to alondra to roll out the next victim seihout.

and we had bfast at the oval. which was kinda weird. but well. it was nice seeing all the sophomores:)
alright i suddenly don't feel like saying watever it was that i had to say cos i can't really remember wat point i wanted to make. so that shall have to wait.

it's so hot in the afternoons! man. i think i may go do my laundry later.. oh wait jackie wants to go shopping. we shall see. so sad, no call backs. kind of expected though, sigh. so i shall have to go find something else to join tmr at activities fair. should be fun though!

i'm happily munching on krispies tt julie dropped by on monday.. so yummy. haha. they're really nice but i'm not sure i want to join them. oops. and she gave me grapes! which i have just discovered. munch munch munch.
come to think of it, i feel kinda isolated here cos we don't have much shopping here and i think everything on campus rips us poor students off. but again there's always the marguerite, which i haven't taken and may take later. okay, i am taking it later, thanks to jackie's determination.

oh yes, i get to stay in my introsem so that's gd.. i didn't bother going for the sociology class. and i went for greek mythology and disappeared half way cos it was so boring.. oh well.

i miss real japanese food. but jesley says we'll eat at a jap restaurant sometime! yay:) although i think i'm going to be quite poor after that. i already feel poor all the time cos i'm not working. weird huh. funny what 2 months of work can do to you. and given that that's my longest job so far.. haha.

right i probably should go read some econs, it's so hard to plough through the chapters.

yay i finally got a decent ihum section. such a nice surprise cos i thought they only posted changes at 8am and 8pm. but it worked out fine.. so now i just have to see about introsem.. i figured if she doesn't let me stay, i'll go take a socio class which looks quite interesting. will check it out tmr!

but first, i have to write that psych essay. bleah. and yay! i'm done with 1st-round auditions. now we have to see if anyone calls me back. sigh. i didn't realise tmr's thursday already.

oh something i wanted to say, during orientation when they (faculty) were talking to us, i felt so old. like. 25 or sth. rofl. i don't know why. i mean, in JC i never felt 17 or 18, nor do i really feel 18 (or going-to-be 19) now. i guess it's just that college is so new and on-your-own that it has such an adult feeling. i should really be writing that essay for tmr but nvm, just a few mins to blog this won't kill me.

so, i think it was just because of all the research and talking to faculty is good and drink responsibly and make full use of the opportunities stuff.. but well. i realised college is quite different frm JC. like, haha, no notes? i never used to read textbooks.. now.. i find myself having to plough through 1 chapter of econ each night (i'm already backlogged, what are the odds) and there are NO notes for math (or even slides). ihum is a bit like lit class but i've only been for lecture so it's like, lit lecture.

right, i just realised i missed my ihum section today cos i didn't know about the change until like 4plus. anyway.. i guess i'm pretty much done blogging since my train of thought derailed.

right, since kiat says he'll post it if i don't, here goes: my bank of america visa card got sent to singapore. yeah. i must have written the wrong address. i think these things only happen to me huh. oh well.

and !! everyone's been telling me that oh, if you go for introsems and stay and talk to the prof, they'll usually let you stay.. not in my case.. this prof is like, if the 2 pple who didn't come today don't come on thurs then u get to stay.. sigh. being no. 2 on the waitlist is not all that fantastic. she said there were 104 applications for that introsem though, heh. but now i have to go find backup class just in case

and i hope they give me a good ihum section cos i just petitioned to change it again (they gave me a 6pm one ! !!) sigh. hope it works out..

just came back from everyday people auditions, i'm wondering if i'll get called back for any group, really. there're so many people auditioning! sigh.

and i have quite a bit of homework to do, and no inclination to do it. serene where are you when i need you? haha. i've been slacking for too long..

okay this sounds quite melancholic, but start of sch isn't exactly very happy, i realised. heh.

oh i was going to blog about the first party i went to. tonight was kinda cold, dunno why.
anyway, there was O-show. I'm rather confused about which acapella group i prefer, actually. and i thought mixed company was good cos of the recordings i heard from their website, but today they certainly didn't sound that good.. maybe i thought they were the best cos they're the oldest co-ed acapella grp, but well. hmm. guess i'll do wat tomi suggested (that's my roommate), just audition and see who takes me. maybe i won't have to make a choice as usual! rofl. don't know if that'll be gd or bad. oh well.

uh, yeah. i finally finished class enrollment. sort of. the introsem app was such a headache. like, 2.5hrs, how'd u expect me to come up with something decent? okay i probably should've started thinking before coming, but well. oops. and there was this guy blasting music a few doors down. wanted to decapitate him. i don't mind, normally, if i'm not doing anything, but hi, i'm trying to write something here.

ah. then, the party. haha. my dorm mates claim that all the party-deprived people are there. anyway, there were people talking inside, people dancing (or trying to) outside. and the dancing outside.. was like pple rubbing against each other and watever.. your typical american tv scene? watever you call it. oh well. mom called so i disappeared inside to get some peace and quiet.

yeah.. tmr's quite free, which is gd, but also bad cos i don't know what to do with myself! well done. anyway yay i'm finally going shopping on sunday, meaning i hopefully get a kettle n comforter (yes, i will have survived a week without a comforter) and a bike. although it is a pain shopping for stuff sometimes, like how to get the best deal and blah blah blah.

i like my dorm pple though.. the seniors are really nice.. i went to disturb melissa just now, and complain about the height of the bed. (we're both short, and the bed's kinda higher than is normal in spore). so she was like, in her freshman year, she lofted the bed so the drawers could go underneath, so she had to practice jumping into bed.. like high jump? run a semi circle and leap into bed. rofl.

yeah. but i kinda miss the sporeans sometimes. and wanna meet up with the seniors again! it's different when we're all here.

like my PHE (peer health educator) said, it's when you listen to the dean/provost/whoever talk, that you remember how fortunate you are to be at stanford. if not it's just so easy to forget. and in the day when i'm walking around, it's just such a nice feeling to look around and say wow, this is such a pretty campus and i belong here! haha. and all the tourists with hats and such hiking around. hah.

oh and they really have a big thing about alcohol.. like a complete briefing on it and very detailed. stanford wants you to drink responsibly! but i think they got the point across. hopefully. and last night there was this play about drinking/sex/... rather explicit as compared to wat pple wud've done in spore i think. but just as propagandistic in a way.

today larry page (google founder) came to talk to us! way cool man.. i was just sitting there gaping. haha. he's quite funny.. and there was this music prof who created his own instrument out of various things.. and with the help of an amplifier or some other music equipment, he improvised this piece of music for us. and he tapdanced while playing the piano! i have NEVER seen that before.. a one-man show. so cute. but also so difficult.

yay!!! i finally set up my own computer, thanks to shuyee who dropped off my mac mini, and to my RCC who lent me a monitor! although i kind of need an extension cord for the monitor power cord, everything's great!
i shouldn't have stayed up trying to get the internet going though, it was SO slow and today it was so fast. heh. alright gotta run for orientation stuff soon

oh, i forgot, for pictures of the famous beautiful stanford campus, look at kiat chuan's blog.. you won't regret it! go look for his name under my links. since my monitor hasn't arrived, i still can't set up my comp so no photos yet. not that i've taken many to begin with.

yeah, i'm like always rather tired just after dinner. was falling asleep today during the meet-the-authors-of-the-summer-reading-books thing.

and nothing seems to end early! sigh. like today we ended book discussion at 10pm, yesterday the band run ended at 12midnight, the day before i think was still normal, can't remember wat's happening tmr. ahh. right i need to go check out other things.

cell phone: 650 796 6107
dorm phone: 650 497 3949
mailing address (USPS):
P.O. Box 15277
Stanford, CA 94309

mailing address (courier):
436 Mayfield Avenue
Loro 301
Stanford, CA 94305

wow, it's only been a couple of days and i remember everything so well. why? multiple bank accounts and telling family and ... oh well.

okay, i finally am blogging. this is only because i'm waiting for the rescomp website to load, hoping that somehow, i'll be able to register my stupid laptop for internet connection so it'll stop hanging on me. it's actually almost 1am, normally i'd be asleep by now, but we had some late night follow-the-infamous-marching-band-and-go-disturb-all-the-freshman-dorms thing and we only got back around midnight.

it rained today! ugh. i bitterly regretted wearing flip flops. haha. and i met my roommate. she's a black from boston, MA. and i met all the other freshmen in my dorm.. i don't know why but i get this feeling they don't like asians very much. or maybe i'm just paranoid. and it's so weird, all the other asians i'm meeting have american accents (or something like it), even though they're from asia. i guess they were from international dorms.

oh right i finally got my cell phone, but when the guy emailed me the numbers he didn't tell me which was whose number (we signed up for a grp plan) so i'm rather clueless now. oh well. will figure it out sometime.

uh. yeah. i haven't gotten a bike or comforter yet so i'm quite screwed. i REALLY need that comforter. why is stuff so hard to buy here? or maybe i'm just picky.

okay this doesn't sound like a very happy entry but it's just to let off stress. all this stuff is driving me nuts.. deciding which bank account to get.. blah blah blah. there're so many things to do i kind of regret not getting my parents to come along. haha. sigh.

somehow, when you're here, (dunno how many) miles from home, you don't think about home as much. the night before leaving i woke up in the middle of the night and was suddenly gripped by the horror of not being at home for so long and wanted to cancel my flight. quite crazy right. but that's me, capable of being totally obsessed about something for a while.

ooh i had a very good day today:)
unfortunately i have taken to the habit of leaving the house late. which makes me late for appointments: oops. but that was partly cos i was regaling melvyn with tales of my escapades in the heartland shops/wet-market.

i must detail my adventures at the above-mentioned places another time.. it's really quite amusing. although, of course, it wasn't exactly very amusing on monday, but the rest of the days when i was in a better mood, i could laugh at myself.

anyway.. today! lunch w lyd pam tinky kahli. in order of arrival, sort of. this is like the 2nd time i've done this.. walk into a restaurant telling the waiters/waitresses i'm looking for friends, wander around in search of them, realise with a start that they're not there yet! (or i've gone blind or sth, choy) and back out of the restaurant to call the pple who're supposed to be there. the first time it was with church pple for the twins' farewell dinner.

okay so we had a fun time.. pam's forever full of nonsense.. she and lyd were just itching to eat up kahli's share (kahli was rather late). there were a number of quotable quotes, but i'm lazy to go check my notebk.
ohh!! kahli and her pink beads!! haha. she didn't want to give lyd her "bubble things" cos -ahem- "these are taoist beads! i went to the temple to get them!"
when questioned on why they were pink, "i dropped them into a bucket of pink paint"
later, elaborating on the pains which she took to get these oh-so-precious beads, "i queued for 2 days on my knees at the temple"
pam "why not on your nephew? so biased!"

sigh.. but it was funny cos it was so silly:)

went to get my shower gel.. and marks n spencers to get stuff for tll pple. and birkenstocks to look at shoes! they're prettier than other comfort shoe brands, but more expensive.. like twice the price! sigh.
then to toa payoh to look for stuff.. was quite tired by then actually. wanted to sleep. haha. and it didn't help that the things i was carrying were all so heavy.. poor me.

and i finally decided to get my butt down to novena. was still looking around trying to find earrings for rachel/something whaley for christine. unfortunately it was to no avail, so they shall have to wait.

treading the familiar way that i've traced and retraced the past 2 months. comfortable in a way. but no, i didn't feel like pulling out the timesheet to ask fernn to sign haha. i was just kinda afraid it'd rain and then i wouldn't be able to walk to newton, but in the end i was late anyway so had no time to walk.

was anticipating shocked/surprised looks at my reappearance. no one at inner recept. pushed open the staff door.. ohh only debbie's there.. ey having class and wtc doing cover class. oh well. nvm at least i got to see zee later for a while heh. haha poor debbie's left all alone writing! maybe the choc biscuits will cheer her (and the rest) up though:)

oh phyllis' shocked look when she walked past and saw me was v funny:) then i popped into tlu to give rachel her pigs and tim-tam (which i had to go to cold storage for cos ntuc didn't have). eng seng was still around. when i look at him i think luohan. hahaha. christine's fault.
followed rachel to library. i'm kinda glad i don't have to tidy it up anymore. it got a bit boring after a bit. after returning the books, rachel decided that they were too lan4 to leave in the library so time to dump it in the lousy books box! ahaha.

pushed past the mirror door.. it was fun to see christine's and shang tyng's shocked looks:) and christine shout "have you packed?" at me thru the door. haha. so charlene opened the door for me and i gave them their choc rolls.

i really don't know how i managed to spend like 50mins there and not realise it. maybe cos of the interruptions of my phone (sms alert) and call from kai-lyn (whereby christine yelled "7pm!" and "newton!" and "dress nicely cos u're going out later!" at her when i was answering kai's qns). and call frm charlene upstairs (i can remember her extension by now, haha).
actually, i only realised i was late when christine and shang tyng asked me wat time i was supposed to go and !!! it was 6.55pm!! ahh. well done, clar. oh and i probably inconvenienced poor shang tyng quite a bit by koping her chair haha. oops.

anyway, time to go.. christine said she was going to trail me, i have no idea why. so i said byebye to debbie n phyllis and went out to paris 4 w cc to find wtc to take her dinner order. n after that byebye to christine and then to rachel.

and dinner! yumyumyum my stingray. haha. i was late. oops. a lot of hilarity, cheukka always says the funniest things. "are there cartwheels in ballet?"
kai-lyn hums part of waltz of flowers tune and -gestures- "cartwheel!"
rofl
oh and cheukka doesn't like chicken cos it comes with bones. something to that effect.

okay now i'm lazy to elaborate, shall go write my own diary.