even while i am desperately (and i repeat, DESPERATELY) studying for my psych midterm...
"In humans, compared with other mammals, the larynx is low. Although this feature is good for producing speech sounds, it comes at a cost. Because our larynx is low, food from our mouths can fall into the trachea, and we run the risk of choking to death. (...) Changes in the shape of the mouth that go along with the lower larynx also account for the frequent human problem of overcrowded teeth and impacted wisdom teeth (Lieberman, 1991). These life-threatening disadvantages that come with a vocal tract that is good for speech suggest that speech must have been very useful to the first hominids who had it. It must have given them a survival advantage that more than compensated for the risk of death from infected teeth and choking on food." - one of my psych readings.
isn't it classic? haha.
Excerpt from my psych reading:
At the level of the sentence, our knowledge of the rules of grammar tells us that "There is no time to question" is a permissible English sentence, but "Question, no time there is" is not permissible or, at best, is extremely awkward (unless you are Yoda, who says this in Star Wars, Episode III: Revenge of the Sith).
got to love it. haha.
crazy week! i seem to have forgotten how hard i've to work to keep up with 20 units. like really... maybe this just happens all the time and i take it as status quo. quite possible, really.
birthday wasn't particularly exciting i think, esp cos i had a midterm and a pset to do (which i frankly hadn't much of an idea how to do either, i hope it was alright though:|) ah. since i procrastinated on finishing this post, i got my midterm back and praise God! did pretty well:)
oh, my birthday stuff all came at different times! diffused happiness. haha.
so first it was dinner..
then poor sealnet pple singing me a bday song twice (once at mon night meeting and once at midnight! so sweet :)).
i think serene's present came on time (yay! pretty bag:) although it wasn't as exciting cos i chose it anyway haha:p) hmm.
oh! yah, dayoung gave me a mini cake and yellow victory roses which seem to be slowly dying, unfortunately.
tuan's present was a little late.. but so sweet. at first i was like wat?! why is he sending me vietnamese cds? and then i saw the rest of the package and i was like ohhhhhh. aw.
then my bday card from my family arrived just this monday.. which amused me so much but made me miss home a little. the envelope was bright pink and then when i opened it the first thing i saw was the back of the card which said "princess and pony", and the front is SO cute :)
and yesterday, chris' present came! such pretty earrings from the art institute in chicago! :) which was nice cos i had a slightly crappy morning yesterday, what with professors standing me up and dvds not being where they were supposed to be -_-
yeah. i need to muster up the motivation to do my work. ack! ohh! sicheng gave me speakers! yayyy. :) i was getting rather annoyed with the pathetic-ness of the mac mini's internal ones (even though actually my bro says he's going to buy me a macbook for my bday! :)) but yeah, it makes watching stuff on my computer really hard. not anymore yay!
planning this europe trip is such a headache. i wish we had more time :( and i've been to paris/rome so i don't particularly wanna go, but other people wanna go... and i really wanna go to nice/florence/venice! we'll see i guess. maybe i'll just disappear off for a bit and meet back later.
as usual, i'm blogging to procrastinate. well, i'm trying to start the paper but it's starting off sounding kinda weird so i don't know... aiyah. anyway. bday dinner today! i have now learnt that ming's honey walnut prawns aren't that fantastic. oh well. they are right though, i think normally pple's bday dinners don't have 2 tables' worth. actually, three this time cos we couldn't fit everyone! i'm glad everyone came:) other than those horrible ppl who couldn't make it! haha.
anyway. i'm a pledge parent this quarter. which means i can't be mean to pledges! how tragic. i guess it's good to get another side of the experience. and to see my pledge bros in action as MOR/AMOR! haha it's great. and aw, di and andrew are pledging.
suddenly i don't know if i'm overdoing it by doing 21 units. it's not just the homework but the class time and all.. i guess my timetable isn't that bad - i only have class on fridays 3 times a quarter! and one of those fridays has passed. :) but my mon wed is practically class straight from 10am to 5pm without much of a break. and tues thurs is 1 to 6pm. my nights aren't very productive i think. dunno leh. arghhh. it's like 3rd week of quarter already, don't know what i've been doing! i think i need to be more hardcore.
looks like i really am supposed to be an empress.
You are The Empress
Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.
The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.
The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.
What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.
it's time to leave again. no matter how many times i come back and leave it's always the same. would rather stay, don't want to go. but i guess when i get past customs and stuff i'll be looking forward. but before that! ack. so much for my telling tuan that i was trying to get used to saying goodbye cos it's so inevitable and it always happens. bleah. should try to think less. but it always happens, looking at luggage and trying to think of what else i need to bring back. i think i did pick well, when someone asked me during spotlight on: "if you could destroy one of your possessions, what would it be?" it was really quite hard.. i mean, if you HAVE stuff it's likely that you actually LIKE the stuff that's why you have it right. although i suppose that's not always the case. anyway after prolonged thought, i said luggage, cos i hate packing. so much for liking to travel! like young people should. -_- i wish i wouldn't get so attached to things sometimes.
it's been a week! and i'm so tired. i guess the combination of a crazy night + not enough sleep + hectic day is getting to me. and being sad. haha. sigh. i thought i'd gotten used to leaving but i guess i never really do. and things like last day at work are terrible cos there's the whole DAY worth of pple reminding you that it's your last day! bleah.
and i have to admit i was quite annoyed with kelly! he was like okay, i'll be around later to say bye and stuff but he DISAPPEARED. hmph. i don't even know why i was so annoyed actually. i suppose cos everyone else whom i wrote notes to was still around for me to say bye to. luckily i delivered the notes early though. just in case pple disappear.
kind of weird. throughout the week i was a little regretful i was leaving so soon, then i was suddenly ready to leave (and go back to school). even then i kept thinking of leng's point about needing "closure". which pretty much equalled my brownie-making/bringing and note/card-giving. oh well. i think as long as i was able to be a blessing to their lives while i was there, i'm glad. sometimes i wonder if that's me being selfish/proud in a way though. like it's a bit like me wanting to feel like i've been able to do something for them. it's a little complicated. the mere christianity book by cs lewis has been very interesting, although not something one can read at one shot, i think. takes time to digest.
anyway. it's junior year. not really looking forward to the unpacking and all that, but i hope i have a good year.
sigh i can't sleep! maybe the excitement hasn't worn off. anyway I feel so blessed. just one night (more like afternoon + night i guess) and God has given me so much. I'm almost tempted to say "all I ever hoped for", but of course that's not really the case. it's so weird though, He works in such mysterious ways. and I don't even know why I'm so happy about it. I suppose somehow or other, after all the people I've gotten to know, Citibank has come to mean something to me. kind of weird huh?
anyway.. so originally when my boss asked HR they said i couldn't go. even though, in his words, he fought very hard for me. so I was kind of disappointed but resigned to it -shrug- it's really funny cos at first i was like nope, why would i want to go.. it'd just be weird. then i gradually got more amenable to it cos pple were all talking about it and what they were going to dress up as.. but then I found out I couldn't go so I was like sigh, whatever then..
And then today I decided to go to the costume shop with my boss and his fellow management associates, one of them is a relationship manager(RM) in training [rahul], another one is a full fledged (well, sort of) RM [EC]. since they were leaving early and i had nothing else to do anyway.. not until dinnertime when i was supposed to meet jiahui and adeline.
so we got there, and i was sort of advising them on costumes and such.. and then rahul kept asking me why i wasn't going! anyhow in the end he just called up the organizers and asked if there was space.. and there was! and i was like serious???? so i called up poor jiahui to cancel on them.. for like the dunno how many-ieth time. felt kinda bad about it. but luckily they were meeting pam yeo so it wasn't so bad i guess:p
oh and i got to wear a fun costume (egyptian queen!:p). although it got rather scratchy/hot after a while -_- haha. actually i don't think it looks THAT good on me. anyhow. yes, i also got to see everyone I wanted to see (which was quite amazing cos different departments were at different tables). anyhow hopefully everyone sends photos to me cos I didn't have my camera -sob-
and then kelvin drove me home too. so, very blessed today I feel!:) it's not even such a big deal I think. oh well. just happy anyway:) two weeks left.. hardly. I'm so glad I got to intern here though. Although it seems like what I'm taking from it is more about my style of interaction/getting to know people/work more than the financey stuff. Even though I'm sure there's that stuff too.. not as impactful. it's the interactions with people I'll remember.
it's been.. a week? i think. somewhere around there.
i guess this week wasn't so busy but i was doing random other things. like getting my specs done. FINALLY! that poor salesman. haha. i must have frustrated him so much. cos i took a total of two hours (one on each day, i went down twice cos i couldn't decide) to choose my frames.
and i met more people this week. oh i got to talk to my investment consultant person. and a couple other people.. including one girl whom i originally thought wasn't very friendly cos when she gave me the card she just gave me that sort of impression. or maybe i just caught her at a better time this time.. it's funny how first impressions are sometimes so wrong.
anyway my mind is more preoccupied with non-work stuff. i'm so sick of telling people what i do at work! it's such a horribly boring topic. i guess it really shouldn't be, but it sounds slightly lame somehow. same with MOF prison rehab thing last year. but you know, "website content" and "trusts presentation" just doesn't sound particularly impressive. i suppose in general things aren't as glamorous as they sound.
i drove to pam's house and back today! yay:) despite my mom's rather obvious doubts of my ability to drive the car safely >< couldn't really face a 1hr train ride, not after all the commuting i have to do during weekdays. anyway first she was trying to convince me to take MRT cos i'll have to find parking and etc.. then afterwards she was like oh, you better remember to take down the carplate and insurance number if anything happens. luckily nothing did! haha. praise God:) and my parking was quite good. although granted, there were two lots' worth of space.
and it was rather queer being the odd one out. cos the bunch at her house today was mostly 3G (her class) and RJ councillors/RI prefects. and there was me. well puee and jiahui came later. and poor lyd was sick. hope lyd feels better soon! but while i was sitting there it just struck me that the situation was somewhat similar to val's bday party last sat. actually i also dunno how come she invited me, but the groups of friends were like columbia/air rifle/3J/412. so i just hung around with the 412 girls.. was good to see them after so long but also so interesting to see their dynamic. and to find out that most of them aren't attached! i suppose cos it seems like half my class is attached. dunno la.
3 weeks left to leaving. hm. i think i need to make better friends at stanford. one of my colleagues was saying "your classmates are going to be future presidents (and wat not) so better start networking!" i just smiled. i didn't want to say anything cos i don't really think i'm that close to people there somehow. i guess i need to make an effort to hang out with people more, am so bad at doing that! so easy to get preoccupied and such.
it's really been a while! what with starting work and SEALNet people coming for the ASEAN celebrations to present our circle paintings and get the PM to paint on it.. That was definitely a crazy week. Entertaining SEALNet pple until 11+ everyday and taking a cab home. and then Top (from project thailand last year) randomly came to Singapore and I got his email on Friday night asking if I was free for Saturday lunch. I'm like.. well done. But anyway I managed to get a couple of people to come down. and then sean's bday dinner on Sunday.. which was quite fun even though i was the youngest. honored to be invited though. haha :)
yeah, lunch with yingheng and then dinner with lyd n pam on monday. i don't think i was very good company somehow. dinner with aud n changmou n shaun n hongking yesterday. reminiscing about rj days was rather enjoyable. and somehow all my conversations include an element of animal! maybe i only notice it now cos tuan kept telling me i was obsessed with animals. ohwell. anyway, it also struck me what a GEP group it was.. i don't know why only today though. maybe cos we really haven't met up in that group so it was a little different.
today was a rather eventful day i guess. meaning most of my time wasn't spent at the desk which made me very happy:) it felt a little like being in school and doing PWR research again though, haha. cos i was trying to find books on trusts to help me understand. rather than random googling. i'm glad my boss let me go though.. hopefully he didn't think i was slacking or something.
so i went to NLB from 11:30 to 3:30 and had lunch w jon in btwn.. that was nice too. rather amusing and i got to see his van! apparently one of his ex-gfs or something was very averse to him picking her up in a van. and he was like "why couldn't she see past the van!" which was just hilarious cos normally it's like see past the money or something.. oh i don't know, it was just funny.
and then my boss forwarded me this email about RM (relationship manager) training.. so I got to sit in on this session where the RMs were taught about citi's house view, investing for long term, etc. and i found out that one of the guys i met was quite an important person. i THINK. anyway i shall go ask him what he actually does.. hopefully tmr. yeah, so that took up the rest of the day and i wasn't deskbound! ahaha. victory.
i'm also actually home for dinner, which hasn't happened since i don't know when.. oh wait it was last fri or something. and fireworks tmr! yay
anyway, i think that guy made such a big impression on me cos he was the only one to answer me at that first team huddle thing. but again i guess he didn't have much of a choice since after all of them stared at me like i was crazy when i was like "hello! what're you doing? i'm an intern and I heard a lot of noise so i came out to see what was going on" (this was Nat'l Day eve), and went back to doing whatever team activity it was that they were doing, i asked him specifically what was going on.
and later met him when i was going out in search of a hashbrown. haha. oh this reminds me of the French guy at Total in 05. he was so nice! and smiley! i suddenly randomly remember going into his office and finding out that he went to INSEAD.
the weird things i do.
i am so tired. why am i getting sick twice in a month?? :( and it's so hard to work on this ASEAN exhibition thing. okay i should just do something about it and stop complaining but i am somehow drained. i don't even know why i'm feeling so negative about it. i guess cos we're past the deadline and i feel bad about it. haha.
anyway yeah, i think i'll finish my complaining and then get down to finishing up. after all, that's what a blog's for anyway. so, like i was telling tu, a sick strawberry + an internetless ryan working on this is really quite sad! not to mention the difficulties of working across countries -_- i guess it's similar to the leadership curriculum time, but somehow that was easier. i guess we had more defined deadlines and roles. doesn't help that i've been sick since sat and couldn't stay at the computer for more than like half an hour or something.
i think i need to take a break. not that i've been doing very much since 10am. haha. what to do.. lack of energy.
man. it's been almost a month since i've been home and finally.. i see something like a confirmed job in sight. which isn't even by my own work, which is quite pathetic. but i think i've grown to accept the need for connections and using them. and it's not necessarily a bad thing. even though i thought things should be done on pure merit and ... idealistic. and yeah, i suppose colin's right, i don't like people helping me very much. haha. but then it's a reciprocal thing too huh. like if you like offering help people have to accept it. anyway, praise God! yay!
anyway, this sealnet thing is rather exciting. i'm kind of glad i get to be in charge of this thing with ryan cos i'm free and i'm around! yayy. i suppose it carries on my post PV07 euphoria, as JH calls it.
my hair is really getting out of hand. sooo long and annoying! time to cut. hmm. maybe i'll do red streaks again, that was kind of fun.
i'm quite sure i had a lot more to say but somehow i forgot it all! here is my quote of the day. more like quote of yesterday. so colin was trying to find this rooftop place in NUS (the view was pretty cool) but really, it didn't seem like he knew where the place was at first and i was wondering if we were ever going to find it. and then i was also thinking of my various conversations with tuan involving my fascination with animals and duck/swan-feeding. so i was like "where's the wild goose?" [and i did really think it would be quite amusing if there had been a real goose we were chasing] colin turned around, looked at me and started laughing.
anyway, i have since decided it's one of my better lines. haha.
ohh meeting up with sean n jia'en was fun. although i wish joel could've gone!:( i think it'll be even funnier if bert comes along next time.. oh and jon should be back by then. and ruixiong'll be there too! lots of good times. anyway so apparently bert's scholarship officer said sean's resume had 5 pages (and when i heard that i was like uhhh good resumes should be like 1 page? haha) anyway sean was like "wat.. maybe she counted the appendix of "best places to eat in the bay area" and we couldn't stop laughing. man i miss our SLSes! bro wat and bro goh. they are so comic..
and i'm so glad PV07 is having a mini-reunion tmr! hope it'll be fun! miss them lots. miss a lot of pple. where is jackie... sigh. everytime i see tu's msn pic i miss her too! even though she's really good at googlechat haha. its a cute pic. i can't believe chris is going back to cornell 11 aug. it's too soon! humph. and i need to decide what to do for winter break. europe? hm. east coast? (again). now i have more ppl to visit there though:)
really can't believe i'm going to be a junior! ahhh.
ah. somehow i just got to thinking about what kevin said about friends and drifting apart. actually i thought about it on and off after i met him last sat, but i guess i just never got round to posting on it:)
anyway so i realized this time round, coming back, i'm waiting for people to organize outings rather than doing it myself. man, blogger is really slow. anyway.. yeah. i used to be the one always msging pple to meet up and stuff. but i think it's kind of changed now. so far, most of the times i've gone out = someone else organizing it. haha. which is nice, cos it's really tiring to coordinate with like 10 different schedules. but it also makes me wonder.. actually at stanford it's kind of similar. which is bad! maybe i'm getting too lazy. but for sg, i realized i'll just msg the pple i really do want to meet. the last 3 times i came back i was still trying to meet as many pple as possible.. now it's just like. mehh. will see what happens. good and bad i guess. sometimes it's nice to meet up with pple i haven't seen in quite a while.
so kevin was telling me about this friend he used to be really really close to, but somehow they drifted apart and can't really connect anymore. and some people he didn't use to know too well, he connected really well with for some reason or other. i was thinking about it.. can't really think of pple i've drifted away from. unless you count the primary school crowd. used to hang out with jo, steph, michelle, emily, hon a lot. and now i hardly see them at all.. which is kind of sad really.
but at least i do still keep in touch with chris n junwan. n emilyn sometimes. etc. jieying i relief-taught with, which was kind of interesting cos i never was that close to her but we had lunch together sometimes and all.
serene asked me if i found that it was harder to make good friends as we get older. i don't really know, exactly. sometimes you just find friends where you never thought you would. like. haha. this is still one of my prime examples. rachel, whom i worked with at the learning lab (super-enriched tuition center) before going to stanford. my first impression was like hmmmmm i don't know if we could get along. cos the first time i met her was in the library and she was rather unhelpful about where i could find 'the lion, the witch, and the wardrobe' cos i had to write about it for some cloze/compre passage. but somehow along the way i found out she's such a silly squid! haha. and we still have lots of fun when we go out.
she's hilarious la.. she wanted to go to spotlight to get decoration stuff for harry potter day (ie saturday) and she wanted gold and silver ribbon thingys. and at first i didn't think twice about it, then i said she ought to make it red and gold for gryffindor colors (and i actually remembered correctly! i'm amazed:p) and she was like huh? wat's gryffindor.. and i'm like.. win already..
and then of course my dearest jackie:) man i'm going to miss her a lot in storey next year.. boo. it sort of took me a while to get used to the fact that i can't just turn to her and tell her something hilarious/whatever cos she's not rooming with me now! (and she's not even in sg, -_-). oh well. yeah, it was kinda funny cos i somehow found her on facebook before orientation, and we also somehow bonded thru the fact that we were very sick and tired of introducing ourselves at int'l orientation cos nobody remembered anybody's name/hometown after a while.
there you go, my prime two examples i guess. and my batchmates at stanford are always a great source of comfort. all the times we had random dinners during freshman year.. hm should try to do that a lil more often next year huh. this year was all comm meetings, haha kinda sad. random note. i can't believe cs n jon are gonna graduate next year! and daryl's going to be gone after dec! man. at least he should be around in the area i hope. augh. he is so amusing. man.
ooh deb fung's songs are so nice. she's not super well known though. yay for adelene who lent me the cd!:)
sigh! i am now feeling out of sorts. why is my internship stuff so hard to settle.. today we were having revival meeting in church and the guest preacher from klang was talking about faith in God and how leaving it up to him gives him more space to work in our lives.. and i was thinking yeah, trusting somehow that I'd have a good internship since march when my first round of apps weren't successful and i thought i was pretty much settled with the hedge fund.. but then the guy replied to my email and said they're still thinking! augh. i am so frustrated right now.
and it's so hard to type this stupid entry, dunno wat's wrong with my computer. ah i gave up on downloading the korean show. slow connection. man i don't even know why i'm in such a foul mood >< actually maybe i do know but i'm in denial or something, hm. that might be it. UGH. i think i shall go read a book or something. probably more calming.
it's been practically a month since i updated.. crazy times!'
my grades this quarter were slightly abysmal i think. but i don't care anymore. actually maybe it's cos it's the last quarter and it's hard to stay motivated.. dunno. will try harder next year.
anyway, last days of the school year were as usual crazily busy. meeting people, TRYING to pack, not sleeping as usual. next year i need to figure out my packing better.. and i have a ridiculous amount of stuff. oh i so did miss blogging. anyhow. props to all those who helped me move - i really appreciated your help:) philbert whom i called at the last min, colin who got up early to help me even though he hates getting up.
and then PV07 (SEALNet Project Vietnam). as usual i didn't really feel like getting on another plane (after SFO-NRT-SIN, and a 4 hour delay for the last leg) to go to Vietnam, but our lovely team changed that. i have to say, i was probably most surprised by our two MIT guys, just cos i guess they were very different and very endearing. not that the rest of the team wasn't, but something about the two of them.. or maybe i'm just biased cos my bro went there haha.
it was so horribly depressing just now, people leaving one by one until there were like 5 of us left for lunch.. but i guess going to tu's house helped, new environment so it doesn't matter if there aren't 20 of us. whereas being in the hotel and there being only 4 of us left to clean up... oww.
from being a very-last-minute trip member last year to a hybrid between a co-leader and the leadership i/c this year. the experience has been so different yet slightly similar. in that i'm sure we had just as much fun (or maybe more, hm) but now PT06 seems like such a distant memory. which kind of makes me sad, cos I think I would like to remember exactly what it was like. ah. luckily last year I compiled notes, kind of.
anyway, i'm not sure my mom would be exactly pleased about what i achieved in leadership though, most of our members wrote about how they see that leaders don't have to be loud and chatty to be effective leaders. and my mom's always going on and on about how i should talk, which i should, but well. i try... or i will have to try harder hm.
and i'm glad i pushed for the autograph book (or yearbook, as americans call it) thing. only problem being we gave it to people too late cos they had trouble finishing writing everyone's. and tu was apparently very surprised that people were so concerned with writing for everyone cos people stayed up until ridiculous times of the night yesterday to write before they flew off.
alright daniel came back so i shall chat w him and finish this later.
i love this.
"[mexican] bus drivers may engage in an impromptu race down the boulevard, even as their passengers are shouting that they want to be let off at their stop"
from my psych reading on mexican american cultural models. oh and that was to illustrate the concept that they really prize relationships over abstract concepts. if that makes sense. the other example was of a mexican taxi driver stopping to pick up a friend he sees walking down the road, even if he has a paying customer in the back.
i can just imagine the two buses zooming down the road while the poor passengers are flailing their arms trying to get the driver's attention. kind of reminds me of chunkai & jon racing down el camino at 80mph. also, that we just missed the bus coming back from stanford shopping center and had to WALK. but i'm quite proud that i estimated the time correctly - 30mins!
at least there can still be some joy found during finals week.
oh and we were at andronico's and the cashier (this nice old man) remembered us! so crazy. i think the last time i was there with jackie was like a month ago.. and then he was playing around and pretending the counter was closed and then telling me i couldn't buy chocs cos they were reserved for mother's day.. and then he asked for our names and said we had very nice names or something. and he remembered it today! rather surprising.. i wasn't sure it was the same guy but i guess so, hm. yay for sat night shopping at andronico's.
heh i just spent like 2.5 hrs talking to colin. i really can't believe it's the end of the year and people are graduating! i suppose this year i didn't hang out with seniors very much so it wasn't like with sean and joel - the acute realization that they're leaving and won't be around next year to have fun with:(
and yeah, thinking from the time i first met daryl to how he's walking this june and graduating next quarter. daryl if you read this, i really hope you get a job here so you can hang out with us for another year! :p
anyway yes i've been rather slack concerning pwr cos rushing work since sunday has just taken a bit of a toll on me. and i have until 5pm tomorrow to do pwr so i THINK i should be fine.. pray pray pray.
oh also very thankful for jap dinner + ice cream :p quite sick of going to the dining hall and seeing sucky food. isn't finals weeks supposed to be better food!!! :(
i thought i had excessive-paper-writing syndrome, after spending the entire night (and early morning) on my psych paper, and i really did NOT want to start revising my pwr paper (urgent though it may be) but then i finally did (yay) and i realized how sucky it is.. haha. my psych paper paragraphs are so much longer and more substantial. i think i know why he gave me a B. thank goodness for rewrites..
on another note. i was listening to daryl's song (again), and then it suddenly reminded me of how 2 years ago, i was sitting in the US embassy in Singapore and upon "eavesdropping" on a conversation next to me, discovered that daryl was coming to stanford and met him. so very interesting. and then the gathering, where i met cs & jon for the first time. they still look like a pair of Ent-like giants to me, although they aren't THAT giant (as compared to the guy whom I catch a ride to church with). i suppose compared to me they are though. and flying over here with kiat n wang ning (both of whom which i hardly see as compared to cs & jon, interestingly enough).
first times are so interesting. i mean, first meetings. or like, roots - there are SO many pple from nyps here (or coming here, at any rate), it's rather uncanny sometimes.
reminds me of something else jon was saying yesterday, about how next year me cs & wangning will return to our freshman-dorm-areas. well for wangning it IS his frosh dorm. for cs its like west campus. and for me it's central (storey is, thankfully, nearer to campus than flomo) :)
anyhow i guess i was in a somewhat reminiscient mood cos seniors are graduating! it's crazy. i can't believe i'm going to be a junior :|
ahhh! stupid PWR has destroyed my ability to write a proper paper. after writing my script for the past two weeks now i keep wanting to write informally and that is so not going to work! -tears hair out- okay. shh. it'll be okay. just a bit frustrating..
Something I just randomly remembered while thinking of church. Last night, Leng was speaking (he's one of the professionals who helped to found SEALNet) and he told us to remember 3 things when we were on our projects this summer: commitment to faith, commitment to hope, commitment to love.
Ididn't realize it at first, but when he repeated them at the end of his speech, I recognized it.
1 Cor 13:13 "And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love."
the universal truth.
SUCH a long day.. of akpsi and in-house draw and sealnet. and feeling very drained and feeling like i didn't want to be places. i'm glad i came back and caught sean online! improved my mood by a lot, definitely. googletalk is quite phenomenal. haha. althought really, it's because of sealnet pple that i'm using it that much now. the new IM...
anyway in house draw was so dramatic.. but i thank God for his blessings because we got a TERRIBLE in-house draw number so we were one of the last few rising juniors to draw. so the way in-house draw works is this: you're assigned to a house, right. then there's in-house draw to determine which room you get. and it's another lottery thing (ie the equivalent of picking a random number out of a hat) and the lowest number gets to choose first. but usually in-house draw goes by seniority then by draw number (i.e. rising seniors with the lowest numbers get to pick first and so on..)
yup so there're like 8 doubles in this house for us to pick from right. and i think 6 pairs went before us.. and dayoung (my nxt yr roommate) was totally freaking out about us getting a horrible room. and i'm like seriously, it's not like you can do anything about it at the moment.. plus i'd been praying for a good room so i was pretty sure God would give us the best, and He did give us our 1st choice!
it was pretty crazy.. cos we had quite a lot of criteria -
* 2nd floor (cos 3rd floor is too hot)
* on the non-frat side of the house (there's a rather loud frat next to my house so if we'd ended up on that side.. the music would be that much louder)
* decent-sized room (although i think we may have been slightly deceived about the room size because of the way the current occupants utilized the space)
and we got the room we wanted! really praise God for his faithfulness. it was rather interesting cos i was sitting there staring at the floor plan thing "seeing" our names written into the room we wanted and hoping that other people would choose other rooms, and they did! very amazing. and dayoung was so relieved. haha.
anyway yeah, that's my amazing story for the day. but also rather nerve-wrecking. cos even while i'm sure God will always give us the best, sometimes what He thinks best isn't what we think is best so i didn't know what the deal was.. but yay! haha.
at this point i just received my TA's comments on my psych paper due monday which i have not really started on. a bit freaked out. but i have faith.