man. it's been almost a month since i've been home and finally.. i see something like a confirmed job in sight. which isn't even by my own work, which is quite pathetic. but i think i've grown to accept the need for connections and using them. and it's not necessarily a bad thing. even though i thought things should be done on pure merit and ... idealistic. and yeah, i suppose colin's right, i don't like people helping me very much. haha. but then it's a reciprocal thing too huh. like if you like offering help people have to accept it. anyway, praise God! yay!
anyway, this sealnet thing is rather exciting. i'm kind of glad i get to be in charge of this thing with ryan cos i'm free and i'm around! yayy. i suppose it carries on my post PV07 euphoria, as JH calls it.
my hair is really getting out of hand. sooo long and annoying! time to cut. hmm. maybe i'll do red streaks again, that was kind of fun.
i'm quite sure i had a lot more to say but somehow i forgot it all! here is my quote of the day. more like quote of yesterday. so colin was trying to find this rooftop place in NUS (the view was pretty cool) but really, it didn't seem like he knew where the place was at first and i was wondering if we were ever going to find it. and then i was also thinking of my various conversations with tuan involving my fascination with animals and duck/swan-feeding. so i was like "where's the wild goose?" [and i did really think it would be quite amusing if there had been a real goose we were chasing] colin turned around, looked at me and started laughing.
anyway, i have since decided it's one of my better lines. haha.
ohh meeting up with sean n jia'en was fun. although i wish joel could've gone!:( i think it'll be even funnier if bert comes along next time.. oh and jon should be back by then. and ruixiong'll be there too! lots of good times. anyway so apparently bert's scholarship officer said sean's resume had 5 pages (and when i heard that i was like uhhh good resumes should be like 1 page? haha) anyway sean was like "wat.. maybe she counted the appendix of "best places to eat in the bay area" and we couldn't stop laughing. man i miss our SLSes! bro wat and bro goh. they are so comic..
and i'm so glad PV07 is having a mini-reunion tmr! hope it'll be fun! miss them lots. miss a lot of pple. where is jackie... sigh. everytime i see tu's msn pic i miss her too! even though she's really good at googlechat haha. its a cute pic. i can't believe chris is going back to cornell 11 aug. it's too soon! humph. and i need to decide what to do for winter break. europe? hm. east coast? (again). now i have more ppl to visit there though:)
really can't believe i'm going to be a junior! ahhh.
ah. somehow i just got to thinking about what kevin said about friends and drifting apart. actually i thought about it on and off after i met him last sat, but i guess i just never got round to posting on it:)
anyway so i realized this time round, coming back, i'm waiting for people to organize outings rather than doing it myself. man, blogger is really slow. anyway.. yeah. i used to be the one always msging pple to meet up and stuff. but i think it's kind of changed now. so far, most of the times i've gone out = someone else organizing it. haha. which is nice, cos it's really tiring to coordinate with like 10 different schedules. but it also makes me wonder.. actually at stanford it's kind of similar. which is bad! maybe i'm getting too lazy. but for sg, i realized i'll just msg the pple i really do want to meet. the last 3 times i came back i was still trying to meet as many pple as possible.. now it's just like. mehh. will see what happens. good and bad i guess. sometimes it's nice to meet up with pple i haven't seen in quite a while.
so kevin was telling me about this friend he used to be really really close to, but somehow they drifted apart and can't really connect anymore. and some people he didn't use to know too well, he connected really well with for some reason or other. i was thinking about it.. can't really think of pple i've drifted away from. unless you count the primary school crowd. used to hang out with jo, steph, michelle, emily, hon a lot. and now i hardly see them at all.. which is kind of sad really.
but at least i do still keep in touch with chris n junwan. n emilyn sometimes. etc. jieying i relief-taught with, which was kind of interesting cos i never was that close to her but we had lunch together sometimes and all.
serene asked me if i found that it was harder to make good friends as we get older. i don't really know, exactly. sometimes you just find friends where you never thought you would. like. haha. this is still one of my prime examples. rachel, whom i worked with at the learning lab (super-enriched tuition center) before going to stanford. my first impression was like hmmmmm i don't know if we could get along. cos the first time i met her was in the library and she was rather unhelpful about where i could find 'the lion, the witch, and the wardrobe' cos i had to write about it for some cloze/compre passage. but somehow along the way i found out she's such a silly squid! haha. and we still have lots of fun when we go out.
she's hilarious la.. she wanted to go to spotlight to get decoration stuff for harry potter day (ie saturday) and she wanted gold and silver ribbon thingys. and at first i didn't think twice about it, then i said she ought to make it red and gold for gryffindor colors (and i actually remembered correctly! i'm amazed:p) and she was like huh? wat's gryffindor.. and i'm like.. win already..
and then of course my dearest jackie:) man i'm going to miss her a lot in storey next year.. boo. it sort of took me a while to get used to the fact that i can't just turn to her and tell her something hilarious/whatever cos she's not rooming with me now! (and she's not even in sg, -_-). oh well. yeah, it was kinda funny cos i somehow found her on facebook before orientation, and we also somehow bonded thru the fact that we were very sick and tired of introducing ourselves at int'l orientation cos nobody remembered anybody's name/hometown after a while.
there you go, my prime two examples i guess. and my batchmates at stanford are always a great source of comfort. all the times we had random dinners during freshman year.. hm should try to do that a lil more often next year huh. this year was all comm meetings, haha kinda sad. random note. i can't believe cs n jon are gonna graduate next year! and daryl's going to be gone after dec! man. at least he should be around in the area i hope. augh. he is so amusing. man.
ooh deb fung's songs are so nice. she's not super well known though. yay for adelene who lent me the cd!:)
sigh! i am now feeling out of sorts. why is my internship stuff so hard to settle.. today we were having revival meeting in church and the guest preacher from klang was talking about faith in God and how leaving it up to him gives him more space to work in our lives.. and i was thinking yeah, trusting somehow that I'd have a good internship since march when my first round of apps weren't successful and i thought i was pretty much settled with the hedge fund.. but then the guy replied to my email and said they're still thinking! augh. i am so frustrated right now.
and it's so hard to type this stupid entry, dunno wat's wrong with my computer. ah i gave up on downloading the korean show. slow connection. man i don't even know why i'm in such a foul mood >< actually maybe i do know but i'm in denial or something, hm. that might be it. UGH. i think i shall go read a book or something. probably more calming.
it's been practically a month since i updated.. crazy times!'
my grades this quarter were slightly abysmal i think. but i don't care anymore. actually maybe it's cos it's the last quarter and it's hard to stay motivated.. dunno. will try harder next year.
anyway, last days of the school year were as usual crazily busy. meeting people, TRYING to pack, not sleeping as usual. next year i need to figure out my packing better.. and i have a ridiculous amount of stuff. oh i so did miss blogging. anyhow. props to all those who helped me move - i really appreciated your help:) philbert whom i called at the last min, colin who got up early to help me even though he hates getting up.
and then PV07 (SEALNet Project Vietnam). as usual i didn't really feel like getting on another plane (after SFO-NRT-SIN, and a 4 hour delay for the last leg) to go to Vietnam, but our lovely team changed that. i have to say, i was probably most surprised by our two MIT guys, just cos i guess they were very different and very endearing. not that the rest of the team wasn't, but something about the two of them.. or maybe i'm just biased cos my bro went there haha.
it was so horribly depressing just now, people leaving one by one until there were like 5 of us left for lunch.. but i guess going to tu's house helped, new environment so it doesn't matter if there aren't 20 of us. whereas being in the hotel and there being only 4 of us left to clean up... oww.
from being a very-last-minute trip member last year to a hybrid between a co-leader and the leadership i/c this year. the experience has been so different yet slightly similar. in that i'm sure we had just as much fun (or maybe more, hm) but now PT06 seems like such a distant memory. which kind of makes me sad, cos I think I would like to remember exactly what it was like. ah. luckily last year I compiled notes, kind of.
anyway, i'm not sure my mom would be exactly pleased about what i achieved in leadership though, most of our members wrote about how they see that leaders don't have to be loud and chatty to be effective leaders. and my mom's always going on and on about how i should talk, which i should, but well. i try... or i will have to try harder hm.
and i'm glad i pushed for the autograph book (or yearbook, as americans call it) thing. only problem being we gave it to people too late cos they had trouble finishing writing everyone's. and tu was apparently very surprised that people were so concerned with writing for everyone cos people stayed up until ridiculous times of the night yesterday to write before they flew off.
alright daniel came back so i shall chat w him and finish this later.
i love this.
"[mexican] bus drivers may engage in an impromptu race down the boulevard, even as their passengers are shouting that they want to be let off at their stop"
from my psych reading on mexican american cultural models. oh and that was to illustrate the concept that they really prize relationships over abstract concepts. if that makes sense. the other example was of a mexican taxi driver stopping to pick up a friend he sees walking down the road, even if he has a paying customer in the back.
i can just imagine the two buses zooming down the road while the poor passengers are flailing their arms trying to get the driver's attention. kind of reminds me of chunkai & jon racing down el camino at 80mph. also, that we just missed the bus coming back from stanford shopping center and had to WALK. but i'm quite proud that i estimated the time correctly - 30mins!
at least there can still be some joy found during finals week.
oh and we were at andronico's and the cashier (this nice old man) remembered us! so crazy. i think the last time i was there with jackie was like a month ago.. and then he was playing around and pretending the counter was closed and then telling me i couldn't buy chocs cos they were reserved for mother's day.. and then he asked for our names and said we had very nice names or something. and he remembered it today! rather surprising.. i wasn't sure it was the same guy but i guess so, hm. yay for sat night shopping at andronico's.
heh i just spent like 2.5 hrs talking to colin. i really can't believe it's the end of the year and people are graduating! i suppose this year i didn't hang out with seniors very much so it wasn't like with sean and joel - the acute realization that they're leaving and won't be around next year to have fun with:(
and yeah, thinking from the time i first met daryl to how he's walking this june and graduating next quarter. daryl if you read this, i really hope you get a job here so you can hang out with us for another year! :p
anyway yes i've been rather slack concerning pwr cos rushing work since sunday has just taken a bit of a toll on me. and i have until 5pm tomorrow to do pwr so i THINK i should be fine.. pray pray pray.
oh also very thankful for jap dinner + ice cream :p quite sick of going to the dining hall and seeing sucky food. isn't finals weeks supposed to be better food!!! :(
i thought i had excessive-paper-writing syndrome, after spending the entire night (and early morning) on my psych paper, and i really did NOT want to start revising my pwr paper (urgent though it may be) but then i finally did (yay) and i realized how sucky it is.. haha. my psych paper paragraphs are so much longer and more substantial. i think i know why he gave me a B. thank goodness for rewrites..
on another note. i was listening to daryl's song (again), and then it suddenly reminded me of how 2 years ago, i was sitting in the US embassy in Singapore and upon "eavesdropping" on a conversation next to me, discovered that daryl was coming to stanford and met him. so very interesting. and then the gathering, where i met cs & jon for the first time. they still look like a pair of Ent-like giants to me, although they aren't THAT giant (as compared to the guy whom I catch a ride to church with). i suppose compared to me they are though. and flying over here with kiat n wang ning (both of whom which i hardly see as compared to cs & jon, interestingly enough).
first times are so interesting. i mean, first meetings. or like, roots - there are SO many pple from nyps here (or coming here, at any rate), it's rather uncanny sometimes.
reminds me of something else jon was saying yesterday, about how next year me cs & wangning will return to our freshman-dorm-areas. well for wangning it IS his frosh dorm. for cs its like west campus. and for me it's central (storey is, thankfully, nearer to campus than flomo) :)
anyhow i guess i was in a somewhat reminiscient mood cos seniors are graduating! it's crazy. i can't believe i'm going to be a junior :|
ahhh! stupid PWR has destroyed my ability to write a proper paper. after writing my script for the past two weeks now i keep wanting to write informally and that is so not going to work! -tears hair out- okay. shh. it'll be okay. just a bit frustrating..
Something I just randomly remembered while thinking of church. Last night, Leng was speaking (he's one of the professionals who helped to found SEALNet) and he told us to remember 3 things when we were on our projects this summer: commitment to faith, commitment to hope, commitment to love.
Ididn't realize it at first, but when he repeated them at the end of his speech, I recognized it.
1 Cor 13:13 "And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love."
the universal truth.
SUCH a long day.. of akpsi and in-house draw and sealnet. and feeling very drained and feeling like i didn't want to be places. i'm glad i came back and caught sean online! improved my mood by a lot, definitely. googletalk is quite phenomenal. haha. althought really, it's because of sealnet pple that i'm using it that much now. the new IM...
anyway in house draw was so dramatic.. but i thank God for his blessings because we got a TERRIBLE in-house draw number so we were one of the last few rising juniors to draw. so the way in-house draw works is this: you're assigned to a house, right. then there's in-house draw to determine which room you get. and it's another lottery thing (ie the equivalent of picking a random number out of a hat) and the lowest number gets to choose first. but usually in-house draw goes by seniority then by draw number (i.e. rising seniors with the lowest numbers get to pick first and so on..)
yup so there're like 8 doubles in this house for us to pick from right. and i think 6 pairs went before us.. and dayoung (my nxt yr roommate) was totally freaking out about us getting a horrible room. and i'm like seriously, it's not like you can do anything about it at the moment.. plus i'd been praying for a good room so i was pretty sure God would give us the best, and He did give us our 1st choice!
it was pretty crazy.. cos we had quite a lot of criteria -
* 2nd floor (cos 3rd floor is too hot)
* on the non-frat side of the house (there's a rather loud frat next to my house so if we'd ended up on that side.. the music would be that much louder)
* decent-sized room (although i think we may have been slightly deceived about the room size because of the way the current occupants utilized the space)
and we got the room we wanted! really praise God for his faithfulness. it was rather interesting cos i was sitting there staring at the floor plan thing "seeing" our names written into the room we wanted and hoping that other people would choose other rooms, and they did! very amazing. and dayoung was so relieved. haha.
anyway yeah, that's my amazing story for the day. but also rather nerve-wrecking. cos even while i'm sure God will always give us the best, sometimes what He thinks best isn't what we think is best so i didn't know what the deal was.. but yay! haha.
at this point i just received my TA's comments on my psych paper due monday which i have not really started on. a bit freaked out. but i have faith.
The Tale of Three Vaden Visits (Thurs, May 31)
(vaden's the name of our health center, which is notoriously unhelpful to poor sick students)
background info: last thurs my right thigh started hurting mysteriously, followed by a long bruise stretching till my knee. and then i started limping. (reminiscent of when i hurt my left hip during winter cos of snowboarding...)
and this is the detailed timetable that i sent to my mom, updating her on my adventures for thursday. it was definitely too eventful for my liking, even though i got my wish of not going for 2 classes (be careful what you wish for!)
11am went to see doc about my leg. She says probably trauma, like lunging during tennis or something.. So take ibuprofen and ice my knee (to reduce swelling/pain)
So I got the ibuprofen from the pharmacy and took the tablets during lunch and then iced my knee after
1pm went for psych section, everyth’s fine, leg’s feeling a little better
2pm go to library, sitting around checking email and stuff..
2:30pm right eye suddenly starts itching
2:40pm itching increases, can feel some swelling
2:50pm swelling is getting QUITE bad (and at this point I was emailing jackie about being bored etc and she was replying pretty instantly so she was like go to vaden now, wat if it’s conjunctivitis! - but I said I must wait till my introsem starts so I can go tell the prof exactly why I can’t go to class)
3:10pm look for prof, he stares at my eye and says yes, I should go check it up
3:20pm ask for emergency appointment at vaden (at this point right eye is rather rather puffed up n I’m looking like a freak)
3:30pm nurse gives me benadril (sp??) and says it’s probably an allergic reaction, take the medicine and come back later to check up.. The antihistamine will make me a lil drowsy (and I’m thinking that’s just fine, I’m not going to class anyway)
3:40pm ice the eye, take the pill, fall asleep (leg’s feeling better but now my left eye starts itching a bit)
5:55pm get up (I don’t know how come I didn’t hear my alarm at 5:45 but oh well) go to vaden, see doctor, who says they don’t know what’s the cause but for now I’m allergic to ibuprofen.. Prescribes me some antihistamine which is non-drowsy and recommends that I go to longs drugs and get it asap (cos the vaden pharmacy is closed)
7:00pm reach town & country (where longs drugs is – took the marguerite shuttle) and go get the prescription.. They say it’ll take 10-20mins so I go get dinner
7:30pm the pharmacist tells me my insurance card is insufficient cos they dunno who to charge the medicine to.. And I have no idea what’s happening. And then she says they can only call them up tmr (since you know, it’s after office hours). And that it’s $88!!! When I see that I’m like okay.. I really don’t think I need the medicine that badly. And if I really need it I can just get it from Vaden tmr.. So I took back the prescription and skipped getting the drug. (and the pharmacist said claritine is ok too but I couldn’t be bothered..)
anyway, end of long story: eyes are pretty much back to normal (yay), leg still hurts a bit, been icing it, that should help. i should've taken chuansheng's advice n not taken ibuprofen -_- oh well. and colin asked me something interesting - 'do you not like to be taken care of/dependent on someone else?' (because i didn't want to ask anyone to drive me to longs to get the drug) i guess that's kind of true though, i probably have more to say about that but later.. too tired...
so anyhow, i had to blog about this before i forgot. SPEED DEMONS!!!! yesterday night, i was out with akpsi pple at a rather unearthly hour (in my opinion, on a schoolday night), and we were driving at 80mph down el camino real (which is really a 40-45mph road). haha. it was CRAZYYYYY. i also need to tell jackie about this later.
little explanation: my co-sib is chun kai - who happens to be from philippines/taiwan and is currently a senior who's taking very slack classes cos it's his last quarter. he drives RIDICULOUSLY. he hurtles around everywhere (in a manual car, no less) but still, surprisingly, manages to be quite safe.
oh, one of his ways to cut down driving time - when the light turns red and there's an intersecting road, turn right, do a quick U-turn and turn right again and you get out onto the road! this has to be seen to be believed.. he did this last night and my lil sib sabrina was like "u totally just wiggled!" (like off the main road and on again).
i still remember when we went to get gelato for our lil sib and he was eating with one hand while driving (A MANUAL CAR!!!) with one hand. man. and apparently last night he drove from castro to stanford in like 9 mins (the journey normally takes maybe 20mins at a normal speed i.e. keeping to the speed limit).
anyway, so his roommate jon chang (the two of them are really cute & funny) has this really powerful sports cars (its a subaru something or other with a turbocharger and dunno wat else haha reminds me somewhat of jon goh & his eclipse) anyway... so jon was driving last night as well and they decided to race along el camino!
apparently chun kai's car is quite lousy as compared to jon's car but we were racing anyway.. super thrilling. but of course, really not a very good thing to do. and i think they kept slowing down to check for cops. haha. it was ridiculously crazy though..
yeah so last night we had this akpsi big sib-lil sib thing, which i was at first really reluctant to go for cos i really have lots of work to do and all, but i went cos i felt it was my duty to. but it ended up a LOT of fun, we definitely need more social events like that. and so i'm happy:)
daryl's talent is amazing. http://www.upok.net/triskaidekaphobe/TheHeartbeatOfGod/
i really don't know how he managed to come up with the entire song - vocals, backup, the 16+ instruments (or even more? haha). well given it did take a few months to complete.. but still.
actually through fellowship i really see how amazing people's musical talents are.. christina, sicheng, colin, lindsey. i guess it just got brought back to me at chi alpha on wed nights and praise night and yesterday at adelene's house.
anyhow, very glad i got to meet silly ser today.. she definitely says a lot more silly things than i do. >< wish our school was over and i can chill! sigh. really i'm so slack it's shameful.. ser was like "it it were 2 weeks to finals i'd be freaking out already!" and i'm like nyah.. two weeks.. hm. well. they are on semester.. -shrug- i will survive. :p
yay for watching pirates yesterday! although i realized it is a VERY bad idea to have 3 groups of friends there cos obviously i won't get to talk to all of them. anyhow. i didn't even know it was 2h45! that was quite crazy.. stuffed so much into it. but yay for jack sparrow:) and the maelstrom scene was cool:p
my cultural psych class has destroyed the way i look at things now. everytime i see ads/listen to songs/something and it reflects the concept of individualism/believing in yourself/american dream-ish stuff, my mind automatically tells me that's the european-american cultural model playing out right there and i'm like ugh! no! i don't WANT to think about it! eek. right now it's christina aguilera's "voice within" and it says "when there's no one else, look inside yourself". anyway. yes, i feel like it has destroyed my worldview. ignorance is bliss sometimes, really.
anyway my housing for next year is going to be rather interesting. so since we got a pretty good number, we wanted to stay in a row house (better location, food, community feel, but coed bathrooms and less singles/2-room doubles unless you pick the correct places). to summarize: we ended up in this row house which has a GREAT location and great food and everything.. but has 1 room doubles only. sigh! haha. and we thought we weren't going to get in cos this is a bio-themed dorm, meaning a lot of pple can apply to be priority residents (and participaate in the bio-themed events) and most of the priority pple were girls.
I really think I forgot just how heavy a 20-unit courseload is. seriously. after last quarter. I mean I was recruiting and CS106A (java programming) was driving me nuts, but I think I had much less class time and quite a bit of time to slack around and read books. now it's a struggle to finish my work on time and juggle SEALNet stuff and be able to sleep enough and celebrate pple's bdays (i only mention the last cos the past two nights i've been over at wilbur to watch pple get thrown in the shower. haha.)
and I don't even know how come SEALNet takes up so much time. how do other people handle so many clubs n stuff? man. oh well. it's not other people we're talking about anyway, it's you. and i guess everything in SEALNet is a challenge. coming up with curriculums, getting people involved, evaluation matrices, ..... ahhh. anyhow I am so looking forward to this weekend.. long weekend and ser'll be here! haha i want her to meet so many people it's crazy. probably not going to happen but i guess we'll see..
stupid 9am classes. seriously, i think i'm going to pick classes such that i NEVER EVER AGAIN have to get up so frickin early to go to class.. hope that's possible. so much for being naive and idealistic and thinking yay! spring = nice weather so it won't be so hard to get up! somehow 9am class just gives very little leeway for doing last min work. haha. as bad as it sounds. though technically it shouldn't.. oh i don't know. weird. ok back to silly pwr. i really need a better attitude towards my classes, but 3 weeks ago i was already a little bored with them!
i really should go to bed cos i have to get up to go to church tomorrow. but i feel oddly pensive. maybe cos it's been a slightly crazy weekend so far and ...
i did NO work today. seriously, like, NO work AT ALL. ah well. got up at 930 cos i had to return the DVD for psych class (we had to watch this movie about native americans and it was on reserve at the library but they let me check it out overnight cos i checked it out 1.5hrs before closing and usually the limit is 3 hrs). and then i met grace & co and hannah & bf and gave them a tour (w wangning).
lunch at cheesecake - sooo full! i must really learn to eat less. and the apple crisp was too nutty for my liking, i thought it was going to be more ilke the crumbly stuff. ah well. and the two guys.. manjun (sp??) and timothy.. eat so much! pretty unbelievable.. they just kept on clearing plates. like stuff i/other pple couldn't finish, they'd just polish it off without much problem.
after lunch i decided i was too full and went to bed. and then i got up in time to prepare for jerry's special dinner which dayoung invited me to and had good food again.
preparing was fun though, jackie had this fantastic idea of getting me to bring a cardboard dog along (we were supposed to dress for the theme and the theme was fairytale so i was dorothy fr wizard of oz). but we didn't have cardboard so we printed out a pic of toto (the dog) from wikipedia and tied it onto jackie's stuffed moose/reindeer toy. it was hilarious:p had a lot of fun.. oh and i borrowed jackie's red shoes. sigh. wat will i do without jackie next year! -makes note to sleepover very often-
anyway after dinner (and i had this ice cream-cookie crumb dessert thing, fat fat fat) dayoung suggested going to the testimony show and i was like ok! (Testimony = christian a cappella grp). they were okay but talisman is so much better still.. i'm so biased. ah well.
and then we went straight to watch shrek. which was okay, i think the parodies weren't as funny. or maybe cos i heard beforehand that it wasn't that good so my perception was tainted (similarly for spiderman, but i never really cared for spiderman so that's probably not too valid). i hope pirates 3 is MUCH better. baaa.
ok now i think i shall sleep.
get up, bum around, walk around, eat, sleep, eat, watch acappella show, watch movie. such a bad example, please never do this.
man. yay for staying up to do PWR, at least i have company online. haha. just now cs was up, kiat's up too (cos we're pretty much in the same boat, except that i'm not really rewriting my entire paper, which is nice). and also I really thank God for Jackie, she's probably saved my ass countless times (with regard to having to wake up to do work and not waking up cos I'm too tired/have no more willpower). haha. I can't remember if Tomi did that for me last year, if she didn't it's probably cos I had less trouble getting up I think. but I know I had to go over and poke her sometimes cos she'd have to get up to study and such. us poor college kids!
anyway i suddenly crave fishball noodles. the ones that we used to have wayy back in pri school. yellow noodles and fishball/fishcake! yum. sigh. anyway here's a pic, doesn't really look the same but it's the closest i guess. 
oh and zhixiu the silly giraffe is here! how fun. i think i should be able to get to see him on wed.. hopefully. tmr (or today, really) is ridiculously busy. after pwr i have to come back and work on my music introsem presentation, then my art midterm proj (i'm drawing llamas! haha)
okok my goal is to finish this at 7 (i.e. in 3.5 hrs time) so i can get another 2 hrs of sleep, we'll see. blaaah.
i don't really know what induced me to take on this happy mode of oh-i'm-not-going-to-sleep-on-mon-night-and-write-my-pwr-draft, but it was definitely a BAD idea. man. it was so torturous to sit in class on Tuesday I really wanted to die. Thankfully I came back after introsem and took a nap (which extended past what it was supposed to). My alarm rang at 6pm but I turned it off and only awoke when Jackie asked me "Aren't you supposed to be in class?" and it was 7:40pm. ah well. (my art class is from 7 to 9 pm). and then I was like crap! My longstanding fear of sleeping thru my phone alarm and missing class has come true! eek. but then I figured my body just wouldn't take it (and I really felt very weak, hence the 'flopping around like a jellyfish' part of my nickname on msn/googletalk.
so i gave up and slept 9 hrs last night. yay! but today somehow still kinda tired. and it's going to be a long night. well i guess not THAT bad but given that it's already 1am and I need to put together a decent introsem presentation in case I -do- have to present tomorrow, a peer review (which shouldn't be TOO bad since I've already read Janet's paper), figure out leadership curriculum stuff, response to my Psych reading. oh great. that's the list.
anyway I screwed up my econ midterm. but at least my draw number was good! 338! yayy! maybe we can go on a row house or something.. not sure yet. anyway the housing draw is like a lottery.
1. you form a group (of people you wanna live/room with)
2. you submit your application online
3. they assign you a number
4. according to your number you choose where you want to live
5. they assign you your residence
6. you go for in-house draw (to pick exactly which room you get)
you have 2 preferred years - meaning that you get lower numbers and hence better housing preferences. the numbers for draw range from 1 to 3000. 1 to 1999 = preferred, 2000 - 3000 = un-preferred. and if you get '1' you pretty much can choose to live anywhere.. of course there're more desirable residences depending on wat u're looking for. row houses are the party places but they have better food (but also smaller windows for mealtimes) other places are less social/more quiet (ie my current dorm) etc
anyway we got 338! which is pretty good:) and i was very happy cos i was praying that we'd get a good number, couldn't face having to live in horrible places. and comparing that with my lousy econ (which was really my fault anyway), i think God was trying to teach me that some things I still can make up for (i.e. i NEED to work on that financial econ class, the irony) and sometimes i need a wake-up call, but other things he'll bless me as he sees fit. like draw numbers which i have no power over! yay. well i suppose that might be stretching it a little but given the range of emotions i went thru (angry/annoyed/sad/despondent abt my econ to ecstatic about housing) it just came to mind.
okay. work. work work work.
why is it that i always feel bad after home calls. or certain sealnet meetings. i guess they remind me of things i want to forget but shouldn't be forgetting. hm. and then after that i'm rather unhappy with the state of things but i don't want to be. man this is complicated. nevermind.. go and study.
hmm. this is rather sad. just now jon was asking me whether i'd decided when i'm going home and that i should go home earlier. besides the obvious fact that i still have school, i suddenly had no inclination to go home! which is a little peculiar cos i think usually at least the food will be some sort of an incentive. or seeing my family or friends. (and you see how food comes first, i'm such a bad person). i wonder. if this is a start of being distanced from home. i was like right now 17 hr flights don't seem particularly desirable.