i'm so freaking annoyed.. i forgot to hand up my econ problem set and only realised it after the solutions were posted, so they aren't going to accept it and i have to drop the grade.. which totally sucks cos this was probably one of my better ones since i went for office hours and got most of the stuff explained. and it also doesn't help that i got the median score for econ midterm, even though i'm relieved it wasn't any worse. and i have so much stuff on this weekend i haven't studied, nor do i feel like studying at all.
okay i think part of the annoyance is cos i'm sleepy, and i can't even figure out why. i think i'll give up and go sleep. i'm very glad for my new stanford sweater though its nice and furry inside and warm. thanks to wangning's discount coupon. oh and i'm also glad jane's gonna come over and stay the night before big game! yay!! okay. i have cheered myself up slightly. but i'm still tired.
crap la i just tore part of a page of my econ txt cos my hair dripped water on it and i rubbed too hard at the page trying to dry it. i really need to sleep before i start destroying more things and getting even more pissed off.
i think chuan sheng is right. it all depends on my attitude. anyway, i was blog surfing, sort of, and came across some stuff in judith's blog which is so true. so i koped some phrases from her. replace H with stanford and you have it. my sentiments exactly.
||One of the hardest things about college is having to start from scratch. Then, the fact that you're starting from scratch at H, where you -are- scratch, also doesn't make things any easier.||
it's so easy to forget that though. like when i talk to pple i don't realise that these are like super-smart pple or anything.. the way i forget age differences and all. and i didn't realise like everyone who's here was valedictorian of their class. haha.
||My time here feels so precious and so tedious at the same time (...) And I'm not even bonded to any particular job when I get back. It's like the whole account is accountable to myself, and that makes it all the more frightening. If I don't make good, it'll really be my own fault.||
i don't really think about it (like many many other things) when i'm swamped in work. but sometimes the realisation just comes and hits you. i really should be doing my work. okay nvm, lemme finish this. so yeah, as with many other things, sometimes i just suddenly remember that its my parents who are paying for all this (hell lot of money too, i might add) and i don't even think i'm living up to their expectations at the moment. which of course they don't know, but that makes it even worse.
i'm not driven the way so many people i know are. although actually i'm quite sure that's a defining characteristic of any student in a university like stanford. i haven't the foggiest idea what i want to do.
i'm really glad i'm here though. i realised it is really different. my time is entirely my own; there's no mom to nag me to stop playing around/wasting time and study. not that i really needed that much nagging but sometimes i do tend to not do my work. heh. anyway i guess i'm getting more used to the reading textbook thing..which is gd.
alright, ranting over. yay i have understood my math. i feel better:) oh. i think cs & ser are right too, nxt quarter i better find courses that i actually like.. although given that pwr n ihum are compulsory.. hmm. must find some way to make them appealing (haha)
bah. i'm so sleepy. but i haven't done much work today:| last night was frosh formal! we were SO late, haha. but dressing up is fun. and i don't really think i would have wanted to stay very long. this partying thing is really not me. then we went to jonathan's room to eat ice cream! yay. pity the ice cream was sort of melted though haha the sorbet became a (rather thick) smoothie. but it was still good:) and i only remembered jackie was sick after we finished most of it. but nvm, i'm not going to get sick.
uh. yeah. so we left jon's room at 2.30 (and therefore no more midnight express/shuttle, horror of horrors, had to walk!) thankfully it wasn't that cold.. but of course there wasn't much choice. and i ended up sleeping at 4. !! i don't think i've ever slept at 4 in spore. maybe that night when my sleep cycle was screwed up cos of being sick/trying to study for bio a level prelim mcq, but that's about it. and i've already done that 3 times (sleeping past 4) and it's only been 1.5months. man.
so i happily woke up at 11.30! actually i wasn't that happy, cos i got woken up at 8sth by my roommate talking to her family on the phone. why can't she get out of the room and talk? ... although maybe she thought i was still fast asleep and wouldn't hear. given that chuan sheng can spend 2 hrs on the phone outside his room cos his roommate was sleeping.. later she saiid they forgot about the time difference. and assume that she's awake. since they're always awake after 7 at home. but really, college is so different. how can one expect to keep the "go to bed early and wake up early" routine? forget it man..
i think i'm a terrible person to room with:| i'm very picky about sleep. if that's the way to put it. like, when my sleep is disturbed, depending on my mood, i can really feel like screaming my head off.
anyway. sigh my neighbour opposite threw a birthday party and the music's been going on for 3 hrs and it's giving me a headache. actually maybe the headache is also due to fatigue, but i prefer to complain. seems like people are more vulgar though, f*** seems to form a rather large part of conversations sometimes. and i also frequently hear "goddammit!" in the hallways.. maybe i was too sheltered before though
i hope there's nothing wrong with my computer anymore, it's so tedious to bring the whole freaking thing down to stanford shopping center and have to back up the hard drive.. thankfully ruixiong had an external hard drive to lend me.. yay for sporeans! haha.
oh wait i haven't explained why i haven't done any work. after waking up, went for brunch/lunch at lag (and met wang ning on the way, how coincidental) he was busy eating yoghurt or something and only looked up when i stepped into his path haha. then i decided to go visit chuan sheng since i'd never seen his room before. and he just woke up! well done man.. haha. it was rather amusing. then i figured since i was at lag i may as well walk over to frosoco n visit kiat (also cos his roommate isn't around for the weekend, like jon's). since if i were in my dorm i'd never trek over to either of their dorms. haha. killed two birds with one stone! then aft tt i decided i'd visit jesley too since i'd never seen her dorm either.. and i caught her just when she came back frm movie! lucky day:)
then i finally came back to my room. and did two weeks' worth of laundry. (this is what two midterms on the same day at the end of the week does to you). messed around a bit, decided to go shopping. alone. i think there's something rather wrong with me. find it tiring to have to create/continue conversation for long periods of time. i guess i just wanted some time alone. which is weird cos i'm mostly alone anyway. i must be becoming a hermit.
yay!! my midterms (well, first round anyway) are over. finally i get like two weeks before its midterm week again. not that two weeks is a lot but one becomes thankful for small mercies.
i walked out of psych introsem midterm into the quad and drank in the sunshine n cool air. that sounds cliched but really, such a blessed relief. now i know why time management is so impt. and "if you don't have it now, u'll have it by the end of (first quarter/freshman year - i forgot which)"
well anyway. now there's less work there's time to think about other stuff like ccas/socialising. both which are in a very sad state. and skype is driving me nuts with the lag.. my mom keeps repeating herself. and repetition really annoys me.
i still want to go to the zoo/disneyland. i think disneyland is more fun.
ooh i'm very happy:) went w sean to cupertino village and found khong guan biscuits! haha. okay. nvm. i already have too many snack as it is.. but anyway we had an interesting chat. as it was on friday night with jackie. speaking of which it's thanks to going shopping w jackie that i realised my SUID was missing, and thankfully daryl was nice enough to go over to stern and help me get it back:D
and i'm also very glad that i get to get off campus at least once a week. thanks to sean haha. and he was saying we're very lucky cos when he was a freshman it was either "lag or stern today ah?" haha. but yeah, i think because our campus is so huge, it's kinda hard to get out and everything. and like they were saying yesterday on the way to lunch, california public transport system is quite pathetic. this is when one appreciates spore. (and its size, in a way)
okay even though i was like "sharks" when my alarm went off at 0730. didn't wanna get up. but i guess the fatigue wears off after a while. although i think in spore i'd never wake up at 0730 to go to church. i shall try and sleep earlier on saturday nights
i don't think i had a very productive day but i'm so so SO glad jane came over. it's been so long since i've seen one of my girl friends. i mean okay here i have jackie and other pple but it's just different. this is why i know i can't stay here this winter and let my family come over. i need to go home. and of cos i have to bring stuff over which i thought i didn't need but now i know i want. like my multiple coloured pens haha. now that sounds superficial (i forgot the other better word for it) but well.
i thought it would be better coming here without people i knew. i thought it would force me to make friends. it doesn't turn out to be that simple after all. at least i'm not the only one feeling that way. but now i miss jane!:( boohoo. that means i ought to make a trip down to berkeley soon heh. oh well.
you can choose to make yourself miserable. or you can choose to be happy. but again that isn't that easy either.. maybe i'm just saying that cos i'm already here, and like jane said, a lot of people romanticise the whole overseas study thing. oh well. maybe i'll figure out wat to say tmr or another time.
hmm i wonder if i have too many things going on this weekend. there's lunch in a bit, then concert at night. and jane's coming over. and tmr there's church. and dinner at prof's hse/sas bbq. and my econ is in a mess n there's a midterm nxt week. and i also have introsem midterm nxt week. it also doesn't help that i don't think my econ problem sets have been done very well. and it's going to be week 5! crap.
anyway i just suddenly felt like going to disneyland. haha. sigh.
heh i just realised something. people are telling me college isn't all about studying, and my mom last night was telling me u better make sure you do your work.. didn't come to college to play. i guess she's afraid i'll spend all my time doing things other than work.
when the work piles up it's when you miss home. i wonder if it's because pple told me that, or i just happened to feel it. at night, when i'm in my bed reading ihum stuff and then i suddenly think of places at home. i don't know if that counts as missing home. which brings me to another point. last time, when pple (relatives/church) asked me if i missed my bro, i'd usually say no and then feel guilty. maybe i adapt too well in that sense heh. i know i just got used to not having him around quite quickly.
and my dormmates just went off to late night. amazing.. i wouldn't walk all the way there to eat at night unless i'm like really energetic/hungry.. usually i just bear with the hunger (if any) or eat snacks. oh well.
anyway today was a better day.. although last night i fell asleep and got up to find that it was 5.30 and my roommate was working on her ihum paper.. so i tried to read baldwin for ihum. but after 10 pgs i was like, forget it, i'm too sleepy to make any sense out of the book. decided i could go back to sleep and get up at like 8plus and still have time to finish reading.
so i got up. and didn't, after all, have time to read. so ended up reading it during breakfast and lunch and finally finished it at like 1pm b4 i had to go for math and then ihum. and i had things to say during ihum today! yay! haha. this is so silly. maybe it's cos i complained to more pple and they're like, you're sporean, sure can crap. but i think hk's suggestion of discussing the book b4hand is gd too. if i do get round to it.
the econ-math thingy was quite interesting. although i reaally really really have to go read the textbook.. sigh. midterm tmr and two nxt week. ah well at least there's concert on sat, should be gd!
i forgot to say something. it was kinda weird at lunch on sunday. cos everyone else there besides daryl was a grad student (or co-term) and they know pretty much the same people and all that.. suddenly was feeling young (as compared to feeling old cos i'm in college) but anyway the food was fantastic:p not as gd as yumcha (i'm probably biased though) but still
okay back to math. i really must go shopping. clothes-wise and snacks-wise. friday! we've to find somewhere to go though.
okay after that momentary lapse into abject misery/pessimism, i am now feeling better. at least, i have just thought about how it'll be interesting to go home during winter break and see things differently. and then i realised there are so many things here that i wouldn't get to experience at home. it isn't so bad after all. i guess music and mr white bear helped too. but besides that it's still really easy to push things aside (i.e. remain in denial) and go on with life. kinda related to church yesterday actually.
i'm in such a terrible mood today.. i can't imagine why. maybe it was my roommate talking to someone on the phone at 6.30am, and the someone couldn't hear her so she kept repeating herself, which totally drove me NUTS. i was ready to get up and clobber her. okay i wasn't, but well. that was annoying enough. ah. apparently it's her ex-boyfriend whom she was talking to. and she assures me that as much as it annoys me, it annoys her to have to hold the conversation too. at least that's cleared up.
econ lect was okay i think.
got annoyed during ihum cos wolff was going on in all sorts of tangents and still talking about tolstoy when we're reading baldwin now. apparently he's supposed to link them, but somehow i find his lectures are so unstructured it's really irritating. and the problem with yearley is that he does say interesting things and he structures his stuff nicely, but he says it in such a boring voice that you fall asleep anyway. ugh.
so i had lunch w jackie (who's sick). misery loves company. so we sat around and complained together. she's still halfway through telling me about my imaginary boyfriend.. i bet ser would be amused at this.
math lect. i still get confused about stuff sometimes, and i was falling asleep at the end of it.
ihum section. i am in such trouble for ihum cos i can never think of things to say. i also neglected to finish reading the last 7 pages but i don't suppose that's such a big deal. i kind of wish the TF would say more instead of just letting all the others talk. or maybe that's not what ihum is supposed to be. but it doesn't really seem like i'm learning very much about the text. i mean, fine, people are sharing their intepretations about the thing but i would assume the TF knows more background stuff or watever.. i don't know what i'm talking about as usual.
last night i didn't finish what i planned to do, and i just couldn't be bothered to do it this morning cos i was in a bad mood, therefore now i have a lot of stuff to do. including reading for tmr, math problem set due tmr which i'm partway through.
i think jackie is right. it's about juggling the things one has to do (i.e. work) and the things one wants to do (everything else). not that it was/would be any different in spore.
it's depressing thinking about school/work/... today i didn't want to get up and go to school (i haven't felt that way about school since somewhere in the middle of the term for j2, but i have felt that way about going to work so that wasn't very long ago) esp when doing tolstoy in ihum, talking about how one should live life. life isn't exactly very fun at the moment, nor do i envision it to be when it's time to go out to work. so much for optimism.. just an off-day i guess.
i should really get back to math.
heh i'm suddenly feeling a bit weird. some of my dorm people are gathered outside in preparation to go for some party.. and my roommate was trying to tell people she didn't want to go cos she had to stay back and do her problem set but at the same time she wanted to go. and her friends from down the hall were forcing her to go. so after that she was like "why don't they ask YOU to party?" and i'm like, i don't party. which seems to be an anomaly here apparently. maybe it's just the freshmen, since my hpac happened to drop by and my roommate asked him to support her but he was like "go! freshmen should go out every week!" or maybe it's just my perception. but frankly, i see nothing very appealing about going to places packed with people either dancing/drinking/...
anyway for the first time in a month i can get up at 10.20am! haha. but man, chuan sheng woke up at 12.. oh well. but somehow today didn't feel particularly fruitful. or as i was telling kiat, "remarkably unproductive". i'm still puzzling over null spaces.
oh! i went to wilbur for dinner (on my own, cos every other sane person went to lag which is definitely nearer but it's so tiny!) and then went to daryl's room after that. his roommate was playing classical music. i think that's really rare. even i don't do that. haha. okay not that i'm a very classical person to begin with, but well. maybe he's one of those who really love it. anyway oh.. i just remembered i haven't listened to the mp3s wenyu sent. ooh. i love ravel. well anyway yeah it was a nice change to hear classical music, given my dormmates who like blasting rock/rap/watever you call that genre which they use at parties. it always conjures the image of some quiet high class carpeted luxurious place
finally i have time to upload photos! but not all of them, this is as much as i can take at one shot. i took a 1hr nap frm 12.30 - 1.30 and slept frm 4.30 - 8.00 in an effort to finish my very last minute econ problem set and ihum paper. i promise myself NEVER to let this happen again. man.
stanford has THE prettiest campus around.. these photos don't do it enough justice though.
entrance to the main quad
walkway in the main quad
inside the main quad
clock tower and hoover tower in the background
the claw!
pigott hall or something, engineering building, part of main quad
one of the entrances to the main quad
my side of the room again (sorry kiat i haven't figured out where to put the bear haha)
roommate's side of room before she arrived
my room a few days ago 
my roommate's side of the room before she arrived 
the corkboard a day (or so) after i arrived
the corkboard on my room door when i arrived
college is crazy. these past few days i've been feeling so tired i fall asleep without intending to (and therefore do not finish my work). for once i'm thankful my roommate wakes up early so i get the choice of getting up to do my work.
i wonder if it's cos i've been wasting time doing things i shouldn't be doing. it's crazy! i have to figure out a (sensible) question to ask later during ihum lecture and send it to my TF.. and my ihum paper is due friday (i've hardly started, only have some vague ideas) and we're supposed to bring the opening paragraph to class today to share.. i suppose at least that forces me to get started, since one can't write an opening paragraph without knowing what one is going to say in the rest of the paper, but ... i have 1.5hrs to do all of the above
and then i've hardly started on my math problem set, haven't even looked at econ (not to mention still being behind on econ reading) and i have to read two articles for introsem tomorrow. !! and the entire cycle is going to repeat itself next week unless i magically find extra days during the weekend to catch up on everything. groan. math midterm next week.
i need to review what i've been doing with my time.
okay i'm having a REALLY hard time trying to find "a person who has reached a high level of achievement in an area i value" so i shall give it up for a while. i suppose this essay shouldn't be that hard to write since it's more about facts than opinions. although that means extensive research, i mean, who's going to tell you how much effort they put in/how much natural talent they had?? ugh.
so anyway, happy birthday to me! haha. thanks to everyone who remembered my bday:)
sporean juniors/seniors who came to my room last night.. it was so weird cos i hadn't seen half of them before, but it was really sweet:)
got up for church (not without being annoyed by roommate's alarm clock, she changed the alarm to radio so it blasts like rock/rap music.. but i think it's more effective cos she switches it off faster, but still)
dennis came by to get me, thankfully, then i didn't have to walk to escondido turn-about. haha.
church was interesting. it was rather touching, i wonder why. anyway i'm going back to campbell next week to see if i really prefer them.
and max called! haha. that was sweet too:) i was rather amused.. he thought i was his mom! man.. and by his tag on my facebook..
back to room, agonised over hero to write about for introsem (am still agonising)
decided to take a nap, kept waking up cos i was afraid i'd wake up late for dinner.
so at 6.25 i went to tresidder and was wondering where in the world jesley was. (haha, where in the world is carmen san diego). and i thought we'd missed the bus but it was in the other direction, thankfully:)
caught the bus to palo alto transit centre (hah, they refused to believe me yest when i said midnight express didn't stop there) and walked to university ave. looked quite cool.
then jesley walked into this restaurant which didn't even look like a jap restaurant, i thought it was like american or something. but then there was jap food on the tables so hmm. and i was still wondering why she walked straight in, then i saw everyone and realised haha. it was a great surprise though. and huge bear! haha. which yf said was as big as me. hmm. i wish wang ning n daryl weren't videoing me though, i must've looked v idiotic.
had a HUGE dinner. oh in the middle the lights went out and some guys got up on their chairs and drank some sake bomb or sth.
and then after dinner, lights dimmed again and kiat came out with a cake! which jesley bought from le boulanger at stanford shopping centre.. that shop is awesome.. haha. and i guessed as much those were trick candles.. the sparks were crazy.. so yf blew them out for me but they relit themselves after a while.. was quite hilarious:p
and the waiters made me stand on the chair and drink 7-up! haha. i was quite sure it was sprite or sth but the rest were speculating whether it was sake haha. thankfully not, wat if i end up drunk -horror- but anyway they gave me a photo of it! so funny:)
definitely a very memorable evening.
and then when i got back, jamie knocked on the door. tomi refused to open the door and stared at me so i was like, weird, okay, and i opened the door. and it was just jamie, which was even weirder haha. but anyway in a while they flung open the door so hard it hit the recycling bin haha. and more cake! man.. i'm SO full now i feel like a ball.
philip's poem was hilarious.. but anyway it was really sweet too.. pple gathered in the hallway singing. haha.
it was a very nice bday! yay:)
and now i better go figure out the rest of my week, can't believe i have an IHUM paper due fri, it's crazy
in econ lect just now i was wondering if i'd bitten off more than i can chew.
disregarding the need to digest the stuff after every lect, my current workload per week:
1 problem set for math
1 problem set for econ
1 essay for introsem
1 chapter of prof's book for introsem
variable number of articles (with varying number of pages) for introsem
2 stories (on average) for ihum
that's also disregarding time needed for other activities, which i still haven't decided on. as it was last night i went to try out chi alpha and it was like.. almost 2hrs.
am i complaining too much? hmm. introsem is supposed to be the lightest/most fun course but it can rival ihum. they're kinda similar; reading and responding. but i think ihum's harder, i'm out of practice with analysing texts.
and now that i have to read research papers i'm so thankful i did smp/terp in sec sch/JC cos at least i know what a research paper looks like and don't have -that- much problems reading it (as compared to if i were reading it for the first time)
i probably shouldn't have slept at 2.30 yesterday. so sleepy now. argh. back to reading the 12pg paper for introsem later.
went for aikido today. it's really different from back home. i kinda (as usual) miss alvin's teaching haha. i must email and tell him that.. and miss training w deborah/melvyn. anyway, the arrillaga family sports centre was so freaking far away (okay it wasn't that bad, but compared to where my classes were, it definitely was) plus i had to do TB test at vaden before that, so i had to skip lunch (poor me)
lots of brackets
anyway, i dunno if i'll go train with them, it's quite a tight fit trying to rush from there to math section in Gesb unless the bus decides to come on time (which it normally doesn't, in general cases) and well.. i don't know.
dance class was also different. she didn't focus on perfecting the basics as much as they did back home either. and went way faster.. which is good in a way cos we get exposed to more stuff, but well, working on basics is good too.
suddenly (as usual) i don't have as much to say as i thought i did.
there is so much work it's like the start of j2 all over again.. it's the 2nd week and i'm already behind on econ reading (which never seems to end) and i spent 4 hrs reading 40pgs for ihum. how sad is that! i didn't even realise it was 11pm already. groan. oh wait.. then that's 3 hours.. see i can't count somemore. ...
i'm still wondering wat to join. i think i always assumed i would end up in acappella. and even though stanford has a lot of grps, a lot of them don't appeal to me. on another note, i guess when it comes to college, CCAs are really different from what they used to be in pri/sec sch/JC. or maybe that's just my perception.
i can't remember if i said it before but i think what serene said to me on the night before i left was true. the sadness one feels is worth it for what you get to experience here. although actually what chris said is also right; there's so much work there isn't much time left to enjoy the non-academic parts of college life here (or there, in her case, in cornell. heh.) maybe it's the question of knowing how to balance. which i definitely haven't achieved, given that i feel really like a hermit.
ah. i am going to take my shower soon. but i decided i'd better blog before i forget wat i wanted to say (as usual).
i don't know why i find it so hard to read the econ txtbk. really very unused to reading the WHOLE chapter. usually i think i just skim and pick out more important stuff cos i've already read very-good-lecture-notes-frm-rj. haha. anyway, here's hoping i manage to finish everything i have to tonight, although that seems a tad impossible given that it's like 10pm. unless i sleep late (again). which isn't a very good idea cos i'll fall asleep during classes tmr again. sigh.
i don't remember exactly when it started appearing into my head, but i think at one time or other jesley's blog title was "an awfully great adventure" (frm peter pan!) and that phrase has just stuck for now. it comes to mind when i'm walking around white plaza in the morning, when i'm finding my way to classes/other places using the map (and i don't get lost k! yay for me! hah), when i first took the marguerite with jackie to stanford shopping center/walmart, and most recently, yesterday, on the way and in san francisco.
so yeah, i never saw myself spending the first weekend of school in SF frm 9.30am - 12midnight. nor did i foresee myself being rolled out of bed by the sophomores.
scenario:
-soft knock on door-
clar wakes up with a start and wonders if she's overslept and the rest have come to get her (reminiscent of last last thurs or sth)
clar checks watch. 7am !! !!!
clar closes eyes and hopes the knock wasn't on her door, and that the pple will go away
no such luck
clar vaguely hears someone telling another to wake me up while he went to get someone else. or something like that.
then, loud hammering on the door
clar vacates the bed with great haste and opens the door and complains
poor roommate is awakened
clar, daryl, jiun haur, shin eik walk over to alondra to roll out the next victim seihout.
and we had bfast at the oval. which was kinda weird. but well. it was nice seeing all the sophomores:)
alright i suddenly don't feel like saying watever it was that i had to say cos i can't really remember wat point i wanted to make. so that shall have to wait.
it's so hot in the afternoons! man. i think i may go do my laundry later.. oh wait jackie wants to go shopping. we shall see. so sad, no call backs. kind of expected though, sigh. so i shall have to go find something else to join tmr at activities fair. should be fun though!
i'm happily munching on krispies tt julie dropped by on monday.. so yummy. haha. they're really nice but i'm not sure i want to join them. oops. and she gave me grapes! which i have just discovered. munch munch munch.
come to think of it, i feel kinda isolated here cos we don't have much shopping here and i think everything on campus rips us poor students off. but again there's always the marguerite, which i haven't taken and may take later. okay, i am taking it later, thanks to jackie's determination.
oh yes, i get to stay in my introsem so that's gd.. i didn't bother going for the sociology class. and i went for greek mythology and disappeared half way cos it was so boring.. oh well.
i miss real japanese food. but jesley says we'll eat at a jap restaurant sometime! yay:) although i think i'm going to be quite poor after that. i already feel poor all the time cos i'm not working. weird huh. funny what 2 months of work can do to you. and given that that's my longest job so far.. haha.
right i probably should go read some econs, it's so hard to plough through the chapters.
yay i finally got a decent ihum section. such a nice surprise cos i thought they only posted changes at 8am and 8pm. but it worked out fine.. so now i just have to see about introsem.. i figured if she doesn't let me stay, i'll go take a socio class which looks quite interesting. will check it out tmr!
but first, i have to write that psych essay. bleah. and yay! i'm done with 1st-round auditions. now we have to see if anyone calls me back. sigh. i didn't realise tmr's thursday already.
oh something i wanted to say, during orientation when they (faculty) were talking to us, i felt so old. like. 25 or sth. rofl. i don't know why. i mean, in JC i never felt 17 or 18, nor do i really feel 18 (or going-to-be 19) now. i guess it's just that college is so new and on-your-own that it has such an adult feeling. i should really be writing that essay for tmr but nvm, just a few mins to blog this won't kill me.
so, i think it was just because of all the research and talking to faculty is good and drink responsibly and make full use of the opportunities stuff.. but well. i realised college is quite different frm JC. like, haha, no notes? i never used to read textbooks.. now.. i find myself having to plough through 1 chapter of econ each night (i'm already backlogged, what are the odds) and there are NO notes for math (or even slides). ihum is a bit like lit class but i've only been for lecture so it's like, lit lecture.
right, i just realised i missed my ihum section today cos i didn't know about the change until like 4plus. anyway.. i guess i'm pretty much done blogging since my train of thought derailed.
right, since kiat says he'll post it if i don't, here goes: my bank of america visa card got sent to singapore. yeah. i must have written the wrong address. i think these things only happen to me huh. oh well.
and !! everyone's been telling me that oh, if you go for introsems and stay and talk to the prof, they'll usually let you stay.. not in my case.. this prof is like, if the 2 pple who didn't come today don't come on thurs then u get to stay.. sigh. being no. 2 on the waitlist is not all that fantastic. she said there were 104 applications for that introsem though, heh. but now i have to go find backup class just in case
and i hope they give me a good ihum section cos i just petitioned to change it again (they gave me a 6pm one ! !!) sigh. hope it works out..
just came back from everyday people auditions, i'm wondering if i'll get called back for any group, really. there're so many people auditioning! sigh.
and i have quite a bit of homework to do, and no inclination to do it. serene where are you when i need you? haha. i've been slacking for too long..
okay this sounds quite melancholic, but start of sch isn't exactly very happy, i realised. heh.