haha. 2nd day i have dinner at home. lala. i'm wondering if i shud go kayak tmr. mmm.
anyway. yeah let's complain about work a bit more. it's so stupid! haha. k i dunno why i suddenly became so anti-work.. but after i drew like 10 graphs manually i had enough. oh no! i drew 11! yes. got so angry and irritated. grumpy clar. but really.. temps do all the stupid things. like kahli told me today she had to "carry boxes. or key in millions of small data for them. i should sue them for eyesight damage". haha good old glad. anyway my sentiments exactly! bleah. as quoted frm her sms in the morning.
oh yes i had enough and i walked to bras basah to buy sth and took half an hour:D as it is i was in a bad enough mood. i wonder why. maybe it was cos i cudn't decide wat cd to buy haha (and still haven't decided even now heh). or it was bcos of lunch!
ah yes. lunch. they tried to cheat me lar! give promotion and then charge me the usual price.. i mean okay lar the usual price one is when u get green tea as well but how was i supposed to noe.. and then the guy making sushi kept bothering me when i was flipping thru the menu.. i was like i'll look at it myself already and he -still- asked "do u want udon? or rice? or .." i was super pissed off lar. partly because b4 he asked, the waitress already asked me the same qn and i sed i'll look at the menu. like hi, if i say something, maybe i actually mean it? man. anyway, apparently the waitress didn't write down the food number correctly so cashier made a mistake. ah yes and they were all looking very sulky. don't like to serve pple then go do sth else lar! ah i seem to complain a lot today. but it's friday lar, i've survived a full work week so can't blame me haha.
i was going to talk about something else.. oh! yes. i spend my mornings thinking about where i'm going to eat lunch and what i'm going to eat. mornings as in train ride plus some part of working time haha. it's actually quite fun lar. like i was telling candice, lunch = eat nice food of own choice + go nice place also of ur own choice + shop (in an attempt to justify myself because she accused me of "succumbing to serene's witchery"). and like ting sed, the highlight of the day haha. oh and today i walked into delifrance and bought myself a mushroom quiche. so yummy! they usually slice up the mushrooms so there're only bits left? but this one was like big juicy chunks.. mm.. and creamy haha. oops. but delicious!:D
ah yes and then my boss (e guy in charge of me), upon seeing my completed graphs, decided i had a bright future. because i can plot graphs? right. and then i spent the rest of the day (actually less than 2 hours cos i went for my short shopping trip wahaha) typing out pple's names. and cutting paper. haha actually cutting paper was fun lar just that it's quite dumb. i actually think working is just another way to torture oneself. for the money. but i think i've said that before so nvm..
alrite. so i'm going kayaking after all. let's hope i still can perform normal functions with my arms on sunday. nevermind, it's a sort of exercise anyway. and i hope i dun get those fibreglass thingies:s remember claire got some splinters during obs n it was terrible:
yeah k given that i'm probably going to have to wake up at 7 (wails! my only free day and i can't wake up late! i'm going to take leave on monday man..) to get to pasir ris. sigh.
right. 4th day of work and i'm finally home for dinner (just in time to catch last episode of double happiness. haha.)
anyway, i hope they don't think i spend too much time on the phone at work haha. like i called chris yesterday n talked for some time. and today was calling up to find out abt stuff. but that didn't take v long lar. just that i had to make quite a few calls:p oh well. let's hope they gimme a pay raise. everyone else seems to be earning more than i do! grr. oh quite funky they had three galettes des rois today. i found out the big boss is an englishman! weird. i always thought the french guy was the boss oops. cos he had his own secretary. if that's what she is.
and i think temps have v sad jobs. all the boring tedious stuff gets dumped at them. but i can't imagine without a temp, they hafta do it themselves?? augh. i must really find a job that i'll like. i wonder why pple have to torture themselves like that. haha. self-inflicted misery. but again that's probably my pessimistic view. since my aunt actually enjoys her job cos she likes organising stuff.
oh actually my office has quite a good location:) btwn city hall and bugis! yeah. very convenient to buy stuff haha. just that i dun think raffles city is particularly gd for buying stuff sometimes. anyhow.. yeah.. everything's beginning.. hope my lessons are fun! and coaches are good of cos:) tho i still haven't gotten round to scholarship apps:s somehow i dunno how i'm going to get myself a scholarship. and uni apps how? :s better not to think liao ergh.
i'm so tempted to shop somemore. bleah. oh yes going to work leaves u with rather little time to do much else. rush rush rush. today's work was terrible lar. mind-numbing. at least that's done. and now i have i/o to do.. which will be worse cos there're more categories.. pray for my sanity please. and those graphs! i can't believe u've to do it manually? i must make sure i think of sth better. grr. manual graph-plotting is quite a waste of time. but maybe it's faster than thinking of alternative methods. bah. n i dun understand they refuse to gimme a log scale. none of my numbers are negative or zero! :(
oh!! yeah went back to rj to visit choir yesterday.. haha we spent like 15mins trying to find lt4! and it's really pathetic.. nobody knew where lt4 was lar. not even j2 councillors. haha. quite funny actually. ah well. anyway, talk about nostalgia. first, i remembered the music. then, i remembered the times when we had drilling and i got so sick of it. but i guess to reach the standard u hafta drill huh. hmm. i don't think i can sing anymore! no more abs:( haha.
anyway, was good to see juniors again:) silly darryl n kp.. one could video them and send it to america's funniest videos and perhaps win.. and jinjie, trying to look tanned?? i realised i hadn't seen chernise in ages.. like open house i saw most of them i think..
alrite.. let's hope tmr is a better day.. and thurs i'll get to see pam finally.. long time since i talked to that girl. and oh dear i think i was spposed to msg lyd abt dinner! oops. and i wonder when joon will decide to have dinner. heh.
woah. wat a week. or rather, end-of-week. friday's work was better i guess, but i suspect he's giving me extra stuff to do cos i'm so fast. haha. self-praise. k nvm maybe he just thought of the extra stuff that he forgot previously. but anyway, my supervisor, or watever u call him, is actually quite nice i guess. found out he has a son my age! wah. talk about coincidence.
then budak concert.. quite funny lar. and like i predicted, we saw mingze. with -someone-. haha. oh before that, i was going to look for some gift shop near the mrt entrance in plaza sing, and met chris n tiff! so didn't hafta call them after all:) yeah and jan gushing about her guitarist. well he is the best looking one in the bunch (which actually isn't saying much, but nvm:p) i managed to catch the bus! haha. luckily i was wearing flatter heels (actually my mom's) so could run. and the nice bus-driver kindly waited for me:) and met pingying! another coincidence! so cool:)
saturday.. i think i slept 12 hrs out of sheer lethargy. haha. i wud've woken up earlier just that i decided i deserved more rest and went back to sleep for another hour:p
and now sunday. haha i think i spent like $260 shopping in the evening. wat a record.. but i need work clothes. plus i hardly go shopping. quite funny actually, just grab stuff off the racks and try, try, try. well at least i think i'm settled for the next few months. i don't think i've ever bought so much stuff at one go. not bad! i must congratulate myself. and now i'm super tired again haha. back to work tmr. oh i got a pair of really comfy shoes!:D yay
i can well understand why pple who work don't exercise. i mean, stuck in office mon - fri, 9 - 6. who wud feel like exercising in the wee hours of the morning/at night when the sun has set? i mean like sch usually ends earlier and there's actually a track around and all that. now i wish i'd treasured sch life more, i think working life is much worse. no sch holidays! augh. whole year stuck in the office lar. i was trying to think of work which didn't involve being stuck in front of a computer/in an aircon office the whole day and pays well but nothing much came to mind. maybe i need more brainstorming sessions haha.
well.. 1st day of work.. haha i think i shud try and not yawn so much. maybe cos i'm not v used to waking up at 8 and a 45min journey to work bleargh. and some of the oil stuff was really boring.. and finance stuff was really boring.. but i'm quite thankful he explained it to me lar. he's quite a nice guy actually.. or maybe he's just nice cos i'm going to be around for a month haha. k i shudn't be so mean but i've learnt (from experience, sadly, or maybe luckily?) that one should always suspect the worst sometimes.
and actually i dun think i shud be staring at the computer somemore when i was staring at it for the whole of the afternoon (besides running off at 2.30 to pay a surprise visit to my aunt working 18 floors below me and running off again at 3.40 to get myself ice cream/fresh air.. i really felt sick k! stale aircon. bah.) and i got an extra long lunch break today haha cos my computer wasn't set up. but really, u cudn't expect me to sit around and do nothing and wait for an hour + for lunch break rite.. i could be doing more productive stuff like shopping. rofl. i need to find ser her bday present. and i still owe darryl his. oh dear.
i just remembered something and got really annoyed. there's that saying about elephants have long memories huh.. i shud be more forgiving and less like an elephant. but it's not that i didn't forgive or anyth, it's just a fact wat. its just. the injustice of someone saying something when the opposite is true. very indignant. but nevermind. hopefully it never repeats because that's something that really irked me. which hasn't happened for quite long, thankfully.
anyway, besides that. i'm kinda glad it's going to be saturday soon, i can wake up late again!:D i dunno how my dad can sleep at 2+ and still wake up at 8 in the morning and continue the cycle the next day.
i'm so tempted to bring a discman (ok, not that i possess one) to work and listen while i compile datasheets. better than getting distracted by pple talking on the phone. and tempted to buy more cds. sembawang music centre is really quite cheap, i realised. at least i think so unless hmv has a huge sale now
ow. poor feet. and eyes. my contacts don't seem to agree with my eyes v well. or maybe cos an eyelash dropped in just now.
anyway. long day tmr! sigh. actually, for the next month. i don't know why i'm getting myself into this.. i guess i feel too poor for my own comfort haha. i guess it wasn't good to be late on the 1st meeting. but at least i called up to inform them earlier rite?? augh. k. my fault. anyway, the guy in charge of me looks so stone. and looked so disapproving/sulky when i sed i was frm both raffles schs. e.g. of scenario:
guy: so.. just to understand ur situation.. u're waiting for a level results rite.. where were u from?
me: rj
guy looks slightly sulky and continues: and.. before that?
me: rgs
guy looks even more sulky
okay lar maybe i may have miscontrued his facial expressions. but he didn't look v friendly to me aft hearing those two schools. and then later when i was requesting a higher pay. but seriously! i looked at the adds and heard frm pple and all n they mostly seem to get like 6 per hour at least? ah watever.. he looked even more displeased when i was asking about it haha. too bad. it really seems bit unfair wat.
and really, i can't believe they paid poly students only $400 for the same job.. that is like exploitation. or abuse of workers. or cruelty to workers. watever. almost wanted to tell the HR manager that but luckily i shut up in time. will not do to be impolite. but my mom said i shud've told them off. haha. but that's my mom so nvm..
owch there's really sth wrong w my nose, keeps running and i keep sneezing. phantom was not bad i guess but i think musical wud be better w live music.. now it sounds a tad tweaked by the computer.. voice editing or sth? i dunno. and i also thought they exploited the sensual part a bit but maybe that's just me too.
anyway i had better get to sleep soon. foresee a super tired clar for the next month. plus i've to figure out weird powerpt graphs and dunno wat else. working doesn't seem v appealing after all. have to contend w all sorts of problems. nvm.. shall see what happens.
wow. long time since i blogged. but didn't feel like writing anything much. anyway sigh! for one glorious moment i thought i could live my dream. but that doesn't seem so possible now huh. bleah. not that i could have done anything else actually. maybe i'll still get to live it for 6 months? haha. i gave up the idea a long time ago, but when the opportunity resurfaced.. woah.. but now dunno how.
and am sadly unemployed! i figured whatever i apply for, i'll still end up doing teaching/data-entry/waitressing or something equally mundane. so what was i expecting anyway...
i think i learn too much from my brother. have started to feel very poor now. partly thanks to his influence, partly cos everyone else is working, partly cos now have to pay adult fare (groan). well at least i foresee myself being less spendthrift, hopefully. why can't i just fly? haha. dream on girl..
but on a brighter note, i think i'll get to learn loads of things in these 8 months. also hopefully. (and end up spending a lot too actually but nvm haha)
and yesterday was absolutely depressing, realised just how inept i am, maybe i was just wasting a whole lot of money applying.. how? :(
now i also don't think i have any chance of a scholarship either. what an absolutely wonderful state to be in..
ah yes sleeping beauty on ice was so good.. set, costumes, performance, music. everything! but of cos after a (long) while the routines get a teeny bit repetitive. BUT the guy playing catalabutte is superb.. i've never seen a gymnast like that! (okay maybe cirque du soleil's acrobats can rival him) and i wish they could take photos of the production on the spot and dump them in the program but i guess that's asking for the impossible. i always do. anyway the reason for that's cos the pictures in the program -never- look like what you see on stage.. the same way the mamma mia cd didn't sound like what i heard on stage either. blah.
i think i'm too idealistic.
anyway, why isn't kA's CD out? not that i could buy it actually. unless i get them to ship to my bro and ... maybe one day i'll go back to vegas just to watch another one of cirque's resident shows:) but the static in LV is horrible. augh.
oh yes one last thought, i shouldn't get so many pple hooked on pool haha. my mom doesn't even approve of me pooling in the first place. or playing cards. oops. i wish i were as pro as dasheng/shaun.
alritey. am really rested. haha. almost 12 hrs!! ugh. can't believe myself. i woke up at 8.30 initially but thought i'll sleep 1 hour more and ended up waking up at 12.15. well well. wat to do.
anyway ahh i just forgot wat i was going to say. it was something about australia though. hums. ohh!! yes sydney opera house. it isn't that wonderful really, i think esplanade is more impressive. esp the concert hall. sydney opera hse's concert hall isn't very awe-inspiring. it was quite funny though when the 2nd half started and the orchestra players all came out wearing tinsel/attaching tinsel to various parts of their instruments, and the lady behind us exclaimed very loudly between chuckles "they're being rather silly!" haha. the soprano was awesome though. first time i've ever heard actually. but yeah. wow.
and i'm so sorry to admit to abusing one of the wombats at the featherdale wildlife park to make it come out. i felt quite bad about it lar. but i really wanted to see it walk around! gah. and it still didn't come out of its hole. so i guess we din do it much harm. fat lazy things. they're supposed to graze in the day quite often even though they're nocturnal. but the echidnas were really cute though haha waddle around like sea slugs on the seabed. okay that doesn't sound v nice but when my bro sends it over to me everyone will see wat i mean.
and the koala that had bad aiming! haha. it was feeding time so the koalas were scrambling towards the eucalyptus leaves.. and one of them, when jumping from one branch to another, almost fell over. quite funny:p
saw a lot of amazing things there. mostly animal-related though haha. i should go do something related to animals huh. my dad was saying last yr i was so enchanted by the dolphins at siegfried n roy's secret garden that i wanted to bring one home, and now i want to bring a wombat home. haha. but it's so cute and fat. wish i'd been able to see a platypus though. we did get to see it in the movie but it's different when it's right in front of your face i guess.
lemme see. yes. the cow which tricked me into walking into a cobweb. the farmstay! so i was standing on the verandah and then suddenly this cow which was grazing looked up and stared at me. so i wanted to walk closer and stare at it and then ended up walking into a cobweb. grr.
and feeding the farm animals! haha. hungry cows galloping was hilarious. my brother couldn't stop laughing at their greediness. and was so appalled when the big bull licked his hand. and then brucie the pig who put her two front feet into the food trough while eating. (and then this lady who was watching told her husband "don't talk to me abt table manners nxt time!") and then brucie somehow ended up losing her balance/decided to lie down and overturned the food trough (its round-bottomed, made up of a barrel cut longitudinally) so the food spilled onto the ground.
i saw alpacas! pity they were shaved the day before we arrived though. i have a pillow at home which is made from their wool/fur/watever u call it. bought frm vegas last yr.
umm. oh i really liked the house tt we stayed on at the farm. it's so tastefully decorated. maybe cos its new.. 1 yr old only. but i got the pink room! haha. took lots of photos of the rooms cos they're all colour-themed, really pretty:) and it so happens the pink room had a queen bed so i got the whole bed to myself. but the other rooms had queen beds too lar so not much diff anyway.
the only problem was the abundance of insects around. in the houses and outside. so many flies!! ugh. got so annoyed. dirty things. and i've gone off horse-riding a bit. maybe cos i forgot most of wat i learnt last time.. got to take lessons again maybe. or maybe need the correct footwear haha.
okay i better hurry up with my uni app forms.
alright. am back. and really tired. i woke up at the singapore equivalent of 5am. augh. and watched like 3 movies in a row on the plane. SIA movie selection is really good.. plus the music.. u'll never be bored.. but not good for eyes yeah.
christine's house is so so so nice!! can compare with denise's liao. just that she doesn't have a pool table haha
i dun think my brain is working v well at the moment so i shan't attempt to say much abt my trip. besides the fact tt i'm sick of hot sun and looong drives. and that it's so fun seeing kangaroos on the road! haha. and i always appreciate spore much better aft holidays abroad heh. and it was hilarious with my crazy bro around. nobody'd believe he's 22 and i'm 18. even i don't believe it most of the time.
anyway, since serene so kindly reminded me, here is the story of the emergency lever. which i don't doubt she has told most of the world, seeing that I always find out about how she's told the whole world various events which I don't remember telling many pple.
check-in counter
guy asks my mom : how old is ur daughter?
mom : 18? why?
guy : oh.. its okay.. underaged children aren't supposed to sit next to the emergency door
mom starts getting worried : 18 isn't underage rite?
guy laughs : no.. its just that some stewardesses don't allow.. they're afraid they (children) will play with the lever..
i'm in a state of disbelief and shock. sarcastically : rite.. so i'm going to start playing with the lever later..
when i'm more free i will type more quotes. like how my bro was so fascinated by the accent that hong kong pple have when they speak english. esp the guy who was explaining opals to us.
alright. off to australia tonight.. back on 27th night. i don't suppose anyone will be writing xmas cards this year rite haha maybe i'll write new year cards or sth hmm.
heh i'm here doing last minute essays n my parents are doing last minute planning for holiday. yay.. the last minute lin family. anyway they keep talking about "coomba" which sounds so much like "kumar" haha. which reminds me he still owes me my 3 SAT books. i forgot this classic quote from the french movie on sunday.. may not be v accurate though i don't remember exactly wat happened
gal hears squeaking and scratching at night : what's tt?? -huddles in bed-
guy : i don't know, i'm not an expert on animal noises
squeaking resumes
gal gets more frightened : can u get up and see wat is it??
guy doesn't want to, wants to sleep : mouse, rat, giant roach, ...
gal shrieks in fright
guy sighs in resignation and gets up and checks under the bed : nothing. it's beneath the floorboards
gal, v agitated : but wat IS it??
guy, annoyed : bambi
gal is stunned : wat?
guy : bambi! since u want a name, i'm giving u a name..
so i was just thinking of a fawn in the floorboards. most amusing haha.
haha lunch was fun. cheukka and her "softshell crab isn't crab wat!" "oh. i thought it was something like crayfish" various other things which i forgot.. and kai with her silly jokes.. whereby the only thing that is funny about them is her laughter after every joke.
and the movie was.. well.. unexpected. i didn't know there was going to be singing in there but i was v happy haha:D opera singer! woah. so cool.. tho the actress was really fat. but that camille deveux or watever her name was looks really good.. plus good voice too.. unless that was dubbed. in which i'll feel so disillusioned.
ooh i like my new phone haha. tho i felt rather guilty buying it. hope it'll serve me (and my bro, i assume) well. explorer has conked out on me. grr. now for essays. esp stanford. aargh
ah. 5 hour sleep. but somehow it was a little fragmented. and woke up feeling a bit achey. anyway.. chalet was quite fun. though a lot of stuff could have been done better lar could've thought about food and etc beforehand? but really must thank andrew for coordinating everyth.. esp when u've a class which is as laidback as ours. maybe not laidback but hmm can't be bothered? think slightly more than half the class appeared which is not bad. now to wonder when to have that combined bbq.. aahh. maybe i'll call everyone and ask when they're free. quite difficult lar sigh
anyway ohh yeah pity the weather only cleared up today morning.. past two days was like light drizzle all the time.. quite cold. okay. cool. so ended up playing a lot of bridge. must get changmou to teach more card games.. just that i wun remember how to play them if he's not around haha. that sheepheads thing or watever was really confusing tho i dun blame siewjin for needing a calculator to keep track of points cos i needed one too haha:p maybe dinos are lousy at mental calculations oops
hmm let's see.. oh pool on monday night was rather sad haha kept fouling all over the place.. was really horrendous. at least i think i redeemed myself on tues. i suppose i've gd and bad days. anyway the charge was really crazy.. i wun have gone on monday actually but since everyone went then just go lar.. then second night dun care about the charge already. shud really learn to spend $$ more wisely. n i shud've learnt frm chorale camp that food always gets left over. ah well will try to remember nxt time.
pity didn't get to swim.. apparently the jacuzzi was v nice. and it was nice rooming with aud:) and funny when i woke siewjin up for her soccer match. she mumbled some stuff which i cudn't hear. and i was so puzzled. and ended up asking me " 4 1 2?" or sth like that. was most queer. and amusing.
wait i was going to say sth.. ohh yes really pity shaun haha come to chalet just to get diaoed by all the guys -and- ser. i think the latter is the worst. dasheng probably will agree haha. and we met ms jeanne tan in the downtown east carpark. her take on it? "i thought i saw familiar faces but the guys were acting so childishly so i wasn't sure.." haha.
various quotes. i can't remember other various funny things dasheng said tho.
ser "every morning i eat a piece of milk"
ser on m dremaux her sec 4 french tcher "ses oreilles bleues" [his blue ears. she meant to say his blue eyes]
dasheng, explaining why he was still quite awake at 2sth am even tho he only slept 2 hrs the night before "took a shower then okay already lor"
and apparently he wasn't supposed to sleep yesterday night
so candice suggested he take 40 minute interval showers
dasheng "wah then i'll become a prune lar"
oh and the cat invading our compound. i bet it thought we were trepassing on its territory. so dasheng threatened to strangle it. so when i told mrs cheong she sed "tell dasheng that he may not be able to pay for dead cat" haha. cos he has nets card and was supposed to pay for any damages. rather amusing.
ah i think this is long enough already. shall start worrying about essays again. it was nice to forget abt all that for a while and just slack:) days of mugging seem far behind. tho possibly unforgettable anyway.
i think i've less than an hour before i've to go off again. haha. and my eyes are still half closed. don't think i'll wear contacts today liao. so tired:s now i realise having stayovers consecutively isn't a v smart idea.. oh well. but was quite fun lar haha lots of amusement..
wah and yesterday full day frm 9am to almost 12 is really too much. and still went out walking around aft tt couldn't walk straight anymore. ohh the food at the tea session was the best yet haha. tho i'm still not v tempted to apply to join saf. it was good seeing cheukka tho:p although the hair was shocking. and found 2 nice shops at raffles city! tho i probably can't afford/bear to buy anyth frm there actually. but well. nice to look at.
then grad nite. haha i'm so glad pam was prom queen:) tho now she'd better treat me n chris for standing us up partly to sew her gown. and everyone looked so glad. i half wished i went to do my hair properly too but actually no time also.. i like tiff's curls! haha. but they've disappeared already so sad. and it was quite surprising i ended up taking photos w pple i haven't spoken to for the past 2 years but at least we did lar. quite nice after all. food was okay didn't really like it that much.. but i'm picky. and the deejay's not bad. albeit mean at times. quite happening..
ah i'm too tired to type anymore and i've to pack. and think of wat to get mrs cheong. i hope there's no more mascara left *frowns* although i think i've washed my face like 5 times. the trouble with make-up.
ohh! i forgot to talk about incredibles on .. saturday. haha jack jack is so funny. at the end of the show he scared the bad guy and the family all din noe wat was going on. i was saying violet's lucky cos she has 2 powers [and they seem to be the more useful ones] while the rest have only 1 but maybe tts to make up for her self-esteem heh. and it's somewhat like x-men. powers and fighting bad guys who have powers too. and the machine thingy is like the octavarian guy or watever his name is in spiderman 2. but besides tt it was quite fun:)
arrh i think i'll fall asleep in the car on the way there. gnite zzzzzzzzz.
wahh. poor tired clar. and i really should learn my lesson about doing last minute things. today ate dinner at like 10+ because had to do last minute shopping. at least i've finally gotten all my stuff. one day before the prom? haha. well done clar.
lunch was hilarious.. was really glad lyd came:) provided much amusement. and jane u've the funniest comments/actions. and i finally returned poor chris her saltimbanco vcd [thanks for being so patient:p] always comfortable to be around gd frens:) yayyy happy day. tho bad pam didn't come hmph i will scold her tmr.
anyway. i have to go dig out the quotes from my phone.. here're some i remember anyway
lyd wants bread
jane "u should go to olio dome"
lyd didn't hear her properly "wat?" -bread skids off the tray- "oops". -uses tongs to put bread back-
jane "u should go to olio dome"
lyd looks bemused "but i'm here!"
lyd suggests giving chris an iron for her housewarming
chris "why?"
lyd "aren't u spposed to give useful things for the house at housewarmings?"
chris "oh. i thought u were u insinuating my clothes were crumpled"
haha. so cute. my dearest sec 4 classmates [okay fine jane's not a classmate but as good as lar]
i must organise another outing just for lydia before she whacks me again the next time i meet her.
alright better go pack and everyth. tmr's one busy day.. hope we'll have a fun time. and my uni essays are still half past six/not done.
haha i just browsed thru my blog archives and found that I wrote this on 16 June : “mugging is so tiresome and boring. how i'm going to last until november is a mystery to me.” and it's the start of december already. how time flies. it always seems like forever until it's over and then where has the time gone?
how do i find something unique about myself? sometimes i don't even feel like i know myself. okay these are quite useless questions haha time to think.
haha i just watched save um's on playhouse disney for fun and discovered the show was on a dirty baby dino! haha was most amused. baby dino played in mud and then got all dirty and unhappy.. so its baby sitters had to call the save um's for help. after some fruitless scrubbing, baby dino cried and its tears washed its face clean so yippee they realised water makes dirt turn to mud so its easier to clean off! haha. it was really funny lar. i think i'm deprived k nvm. light amusement.
aiyah. i feel so unoriginal and cliched when i'm writing my essays. i need a better brain. so much for instilling creativity i don't feel like i've any in me. grr. maybe if i buy myself an opal and stare at it the changing colours will inspire me haha. pathetic excuses.
ooh. finally got berkeley app done [terribly last minute i must say, like a lot of things i do:s] and got my gown! haha. i really have expensive taste *shakes head* but was quite funky lar the designer was there and advised on how to wear the gown and stuff like that.. for the moment i felt so rich and pampered haha got personal advisor.. anyway i still have to get necklace and i think i'm done! yay..
anyway. i must say i really don't like last minute thingys. i remember waking up and feeling this horror at the fact that i'd have to get up and face my essay [which is still unsatisfactory actually] AGAIN. oh well at least it's done.. hopefully it got in on time and everyth'll be fine n i didn't waste my money.
and i was the latest for a*star oops. at least i went. better late than never? i hope so anyway. and hardly saw many pple i knew.. looks like most pple are interested in firefly/psc rather than a*star huh. but they're really very sciencey. n tt gal ended up telling us abt illinois instead of a*star.. like trying to promote US education.. like anyone needs to do tt.. everyone wants to go already. i think i've said that b4. oh well. and then i was thinking they really don't bother much about leadership stuff.. some of their presenters were SO soft.. could hardly hear them speaking lar. which makes quite a change from the normal scholarship requirements.
ah i'm so glad taufik won:) he's really versatile. and his voice control is terrific! heh. i thought the show focussed too much on the 2 of them tho i was getting really bored of seeing them only.. wanted to see more of the final 11.. i mean like we've been seeing these 2 for 6 months and the rest for maybe 3 only or so? on average. was nice to see all 11 take to the stage though. miss jeassea and beverly and david. they're really good lar. besides the fact that beverly doesn't seem v gd with public relations heh. anyway i thought jeassea n bev did the independent woman song quite well..
owch. neckache. i shall do more essays tmr. and i shall break the cycle of sleeping past 1am tonight hopefully
ooh. tired. i've been out 3 consecutive days [well, half days?] and i'm quite tired. will be just glad to stay at home tomorrow n sort out my stuff.. and get rest.. haha..
anyway.. planning movie outings is so difficult!! sigh.. okay lar its prob cos i went to sign up for all manner of scholarship tea sessions n got stuff on n etc tts why. no lar actually the fri outing was quite okay. partly cos lijia helped me msg py n joon:) and nxt fri was quite easy too just call all 3. but now i dun even noe if the movie's showing aiyoh:s nvm lar we'll still have fun bumming around:) the good old french immersion days.. scotch-tape cutting skills anybody? ah but none of them read my blog so nvm..
today ah.. ooh i liked lunch loads haha:p it was good eating w everyone:) too bad aud, candice n chelsea weren't around.. wud've been more complete in a way. umm lemme see well pool was funny.. my aiming a bit off today tho heh must be the lack of practice. i wish i had a table like denise [choong]. haha. and her wonderful resort house. but that's out of point. fiona's so cute haha. and ser u're actually quite okay wat i dun see why u keep saying u're lousy.
anyway. yay. tmr is a day at home finally. so funny.. nvm i shall attempt to compile my quotes hopefully. and have a nice slackish time. aiyah am not thinking already.. somehow writing uni app thingies is interesting in a way but tedious in other ways.. i guess it's been a long time since i sat down and wrote non-gp essays haha.
wow. i'm free. it hasn't really set in fully but i'm so glad i don't have to come back and hit the books anymore. for a few months haha:D but chem s wasn't fantastic lar. i shouldn't have spent so much time vacillating about which qn to do and end up leaving so many marks blank. sigh. and i should have done organic 1st instead of panicking at physical cos mind wasn't v clear to start with. hope everyth goes fine tho *prays v hard*
anyway had a few interesting discussions with eunice today while walking around trying to find mom's present. [unsuccessfully i might add]. like how sometimes u don't know if things u remember are just the snapshots that u took, or that u really remember wat u saw there in ur mind. i don't really know how to explain it. and sometimes when you have dreams that are so real, u start to wonder.. what is reality anyway? or i do sometimes at any rate.
and i was telling her that i feel so sorry for children today.. it's like all those pre-school nurturing classes and wat not.. and have to cultivate entrepreneurial spirit so they've to start doing stuff and come up with business ideas and all sorts of rubbish.. there's no joy in being a child! where's the fun gone? do children still know how to play? i mean i remember things like my mom letting me go visit my neighbour and play at her house for a while then must come back n do work later.. or going to the cc with my brother n neighbours to play badminton and stuff like tt.. it doesn't seem like pple do tt nowadays. [okay these i really remember, nothing to do with photos] and they're all stuck to computer games and wat not. but again since i don't have a younger sibiling or anything i wouldn't really know wats happening generally but the impression i get is really sad.
anyway. feels good to be free. i can finally sleep without worrying [hopefully] and wake up anytime i like! woohoo!~ i have been forcing myself to sleep less for these past few weeks i think. out of desperation. i really hope it pays off. sometimes i really think wat emilyn said is right: here, mediocrity is a sin.
ok lar shouldn't be so melancholic. ka [new show by cirque du soleil] opens today! woohoo!~ maybe that's a good sign for me:) i shall order their cd. or maybe i should make my bro buy for me haha perhaps shipping within usa is easier. anyway. happiness! for now anyway;)
argh. horrible biotech paper yesterday - i was laughing while thinking of how to explain for 3 marks how one colouring is extracted from a named organism. i think the girl sitting nxt to me frm 3e i think? must have thought i'd gone berserk. anyway i ended up writing something really vague about crushing cochineal beetles so maybe they'll be kind and gimme 2 marks for that? haha. crazy cambridge lar how'd u expect us to know.. maybe if we write something halfway sensible they'll be satisfied.
now for math s. sigh. i can't believe how stupid i was.. not to realise how to do integration by substitution until time was up. and forgetting mr chan's nicely-stapled paper on my stats assignment! crumbs.. tt'd have cost me like 5 marks or sth. this is not a time when one can afford to forget things, given i didn't do that many marks in the 1st place. anyway. i'm just praying i get an m at least.. sigh. shattered dreams. there's only chem s left to dream about. and work for.
so i've 4 more papers. and then i'm finally free! but there's physics to get thru 1st, bio to pull up my so far horrendous papers. aahh. disillusioned. i think i'm going to get constant nightmares about horrible results. which hopefully won't materialise. i'd prefer my results to be a pleasant surprise thanks very much.
but it was nice to see yongjeng today, been ages since i met choir j1s.. tho i kinda pity them for 5 o'clock pracs during holidays heh. but again they've the whole day to slack so why'm i being sympathetic? haha. and can go for supper aft tt somemore. k it's not such a bad deal aft all.
ohh i had this weird dream about choir 2 days back i think. j2s went back to join j1s and then din memorise songs properly so the lyrics all disappeared. it was quite terrible actually. and i thought ms low/mr toh were going to start scolding and then i can't remember wat else happened. and yest's weird dream was connected to the 7o'clock ch8 show. and somehow there were labrador/golden retriever puppies featured haha. sth like quill. very queer.. must be my overstressed mind.