haha.. was just looking at all the photos pple uploaded.. feel happier somehow:) oh kudos to jan the gown looks really good:) but hope my photos turn out man.. stupid screwy camera:( and then i was looking at the photos chernise took for concert programme.. feels so weird to see choir pple in sch u after seeing them in long sleeves/jackets for the past week.
okay i kind of revived after sleeping a bit in the car on the way home. i have become v good at sleeping on moving vehicles [excluding planes] after going to italy. on boring bus journeys just end up sleeping. [and that happens quite a bit]
rather sad about everything. like. haha. coming home is supposed to be a happy thing n we ended up coming home crying. hais. that journal is really heartrending. esp when reading all the memories. n personal notes. so on the flight frm hongkong to spore when i read the book i started crying. n finally realised how everything is over. guess it didn't really seem that real until the last flight. and even though i kept telling myself that life is kind of full of meetings n partings n still has to go on it didn't work v well. just was wallowing in misery i guess.
just feels so weird to not have choir pple around anymore. that week didn't seem like a week at all.. more like a month. i don't know why though. maybe bcos each day was so packed full of stuff:) the 1st 4 days full of late night concerts when we were all falling asleep [but luckily not for the last night!] and the rome extension days when we took horrible public transport n the late nights in room 234:)
wish we had this trip in the early part of the year.. i think it did a whole lot for bonding that nothing else could have done.. so then i was thinking oh next time when we're having break outside lt4 it'll be more fun.. and then i realised.. those days are over. i've just grown so used to lt4 and choir it seems so weird that it's all over. i guess at least now's holidays.. so it won't be much of a difference.. but when sch reopens.
yeah. and i got to noe kaiping n darryl my dearest buddy whom i'm "super bad" to haha. n jinjie with his primary-coloured caterpillar with 2 heads:p they really provided a lot of amusement in rome:) spent a lot of time w tiff chris jan candice jiahui ben.. v amusing time:)
really hope my photos turn out fine. and we must make sure we bring photos to j2 farewell to order frm each other.. i'm quite sure there're quite a few photos tt i din bother taking with my lousy camera..
okay this is like a really mopey entry but can't help it. there's this sense of inevitability.. everything's over. and all we [j2s] have left is to mug the rest of the year.
oh i wanted to add something. which i suddenly forgot. bah. nvm. another time will do. oh i think our food is infinitely nicer than italian haha. everything is pasta/pizza. or maybe cos of wat we chose but o well. ohh! i remember now. it was like a retreat.. no internet n hardly any smsing.. okay. i shall finally bathe n sleep.
haha woo~ rugby won! well done! haha i don't think i've ever felt that happy.. was trying not to overdo the screaming though but i think everyone's going to end up not being able to sing properly tmr:p am really happy for them anyway:)
yeah. finally we're flying off tmr. seems like i've been waiting forever. anyway hope we've a good time there.. hope it'll be as fun as immersion [actually i already kind of have my doubts about that heh think immersion was quite different] nvm.. still can be fun. better go pack soon.
haha i'm quite happy i'm missing the qa test tmr;p seems like everyone's studying for it now. it sounds quite crazy.. 100 marks in dunno how many minutes. good luck to u pple heh.
i love the troy song.. remember me by josh groban. and the shrek song holding out for a hero. i think they illustrate wats happening in the movie v well.. somehow when i listen to them i think of achilles and shrek on mungo.
ooh. feel funky:) have watched 2 shows on the day they opened! wahaha:) troy n shrek 2. anyway.. shrek 2 was hilarious! i don't think i've ever laughed that much. though somehow i can't remember wat i was laughing about anymore.. anyway it was v enjoyable:) i mite be tempted to buy the shrek 2 dvd when it comes out:D though i wish the ogres weren't so ugly. not particularly nice to look at ugly kters throughout most of the movie:p
i think the soundtrack was quite cool.. must go check it out.
and grr the troy soundtrack! i want the last track by josh groban but somehow my downloaded versions don't seem to work and the cd isn't in spore yet:(
anyway it was good going out w lijia today:) always nice to catch up with old frens:) and eating and eating and eating. haha. feel so gluttonish. met siewjin at ps! haha:) it was quite unexpected.. i suddenly thought someone calling "clar" [or maybe lijia alerted me too] and then turned around n saw tricey waving madly at me:)
yes and i finally bought some of the v belated bday presents:S still got chris to shop for though. i hope i din forget anyone else hums.
yeah. somehow i think today made up for all the crap this week. dun think i had a v nice week. but today was great:) yay!
plus i realised tt i have hardly time left to get stuff done.. monday is 5.10 day plus nite prac, tues is 2.30 day plus sectionals plus chem s plus nite prac, wed is gp common test, thurs flying off. help! aah. well. hope trip will be fun.
okay. i finally have my sat 2 scores. so i can stop checking the collegeboard website. yeah. scores are decent but percentiles are not satisfying at all. nvm. anyway the website says its compared to last yr. clar the perfectionist here. and considering i was doing tt together with prep for concert. well. guess its quite gd:)
feel quite weird. like half tense half relaxed. partly cos of choir partly cos of scores. wat to think? ah nvm thinking is too tiring [haha u can quote me on that] watching shrek2 tmr!:) 8 days gave it 5 stars whee~
ooh happy day:) was actually quite worried about the booking thingy in the morning but turned out fine:) in fact the seats were really good!:) haha. considering i booked at like 1pm which i thought wasn't v early but well.
anyway. yes. troy was good. though some parts of the battles reminded me of lotr. but i guess there's a limit to how much difference one can have in battles. well. let me quote chris "no hot babes though" and "cinematography was good". the beach is so pretty. white sand and pure blue sea. and troy is gorgeous. somehow i like their architecture or something. oh yar and some parts are so explicit i thought they wud censor it b4 rating pg but hmm watever.
and saw trailers for harry potter 3! its quite terrible actually.. like a horror movie instead.. i didn't think the 3rd book was that sinister.. n differs frm wat i imagined dementors to look like. and a lot of other stuff. by the time they do book 4 n 5 it'll probably be way worse. and i thought the books were dark enough.
yeah tinky was telling us hilarious stories all the way.. i think we really noe how to smoke during bio tests.. its really funny actually heh. even though mr chan sed he wanted to vomit blood when catching a glimpse of some of our answers:p anyway yeah realised i really haven't seen tinky since like last yr or sth. missed u!:)
and then lyd came all dressed up as usual. the classy lydia:) and pam who was late as usual. but actually had enough money for once haha. and with her usual assortment of corny jokes. i think i've had an overdose though. tt gal is amazing.
yes. quite tired. tmr probably will be another long day. -stretches- time to sleep
yay! for a long while i haven't felt so relaxed. actually can go out n eat haha. sound seriously deprived. but the past few weeks have been crazy.
yeah bio test was hilarious. i've never felt this unprepared. and last night i was just so tired.. couldn't get anything much in.. and now i really understand why mr chan says one cannot chiong biotech last minute. but well. i think if i were marking the scripts i'll be laughing endlessly. esp the bacteriophage qn. like. haha. benzene ring n spaceship control centre n laser gun turrets? rofl. and i wrote down the grape name for wine instead of the microoorganism. man.
tumdeedum. although i've to do analogue tut by tmr. but feels good to not to be so busy. yeah. and i have concluded i've become a rather good stoner nowadays [fossil rite haha] i really must go watch land before time.. and see sarah the spoilt triceratops haha.
oh yes and nice movies are coming out:) like troy n shrek 2 n harry potter heh. oh yes and i must go eat icecream with lijia sometime:) and joon too! though i dun think either of them reads my blog hmm. but nvm. note to myself.
anyway. yay! no night prac on friday either. yeah. am in quite a happy state of mind cos tests for this week are over and i've a bit of time to chill. really need it:)
haha for once i think this is going to be a slightly more sane entry. anyway. yeah. kind of sad about yesterday. last concert! and the worst part was that now i look back at it i wasn't really feeling anything. which is quite pathetic. i think i just totally zoned out. oh yeah and on thurs nite/fri morn i was just thinking i'm like this balloon full of air. almost to bursting point. then once it pops there's only the 'skin' left.
anyway. yes. i was kind of sad that i didn't feel as much for the concert as i think i wud have if i hadn't sat 2 today. yeah. cos after the concert my one track mind immediately switched to sat 2 mode. like. okay. hurry up and get home n sleep/prep. yeah. so. just felt that it was rather a pity tt i chose to take sats today. but it's over.
yup was v glad to see all e pple at the concert:) thanks for coming! hope u all had a great time:)
now to whine about sat2. i think i was still like half awake. cos maybe i had to wake up at like 7. which is like normal school day. totally sucky. and then the writing topic was horrendous. "the twentieth century will be known as the ____ century." like. yay i have no idea wat big thing happened in the 1990's? so i wrote some rubbish. n i din realise how long it takes to write one paragraph. and i don't think my vocab was very varied.
yeah. not sure about some of the tenses and stuff. i tend to blame it on the spore system cos until like sec 1 or sth when i started learning french then i really knew wat a noun/object/adjective and all those words were. as in before that i'd just be using it and not knowing wat it was. and the name of the tenses. stuff like that. anyway. math was okay but i wasn't sure about 2 logic qns [i'm illogical yes] and one other qn.
ah. enough of that. can't get down to doing work. so unappealing. eeks. i want to watch my cirque du soleil dvds but doesn't seem like i'll get to until june hols or sth. welll..
and i can't believe u all went to fullerton last night! life is unfair. growl.
hums. yay! for the 1st time in like 2 weeks i'm actually home before 8. whee~ at least i can finally do some proper prepping for sats. anyway. like i was saying to lots of pple. my life currently consists of sleeping, singing and -trying- to prep for sats. the keyword there is trying. so being a student is part time. heh. haven't done tutorials for wat seems like ages.
i don't think i've ever gone to sleep with the intention of doing so for the past 2 weeks either. and then on tues nite i fell asleep with the lights on.. and then halfway somehow i thought it was day cos it seemed like it was quite bright so i woke up. to find tt it was 4am.
anyhow. yah. during assembly candice was flipping thru my diary. and we came to italy trip! mm. makes me remember all the french immersion stuff. hope it'll be as fun:) though i don't think we'll get as much free time as we did in france. the grp's like 3 times the size. but its a long long time till then. sprinkled with a few lecture tests/bio prac test in the weeks in between.
right. i think i'll go take a nap. the luxury of which i haven't had a for a long time! haha i wonder who'll get dunked on ora. quite funny. were trying to persuade mr chan today. who sed he had to go home n discuss with his wife. oh and raphael's corny jokes.. man.. well at least i stayed awake thruout chem lect. maybe also cos of the cold. heh.
very frustrated at the moment. headaches plus not being able to do math/chem s is not very comforting. and i haven't done sat 2 yet either. okay this sounds like a reiteration of the last post. but really. am feeling immensely pressurised somehow or other. lots of little things. please let my life improve after this week. heh. or during the week would be fine too. heh.
really. spent like 1/2hr trying to figure out some trigo crap thing. and then the stupid buffer thing and was getting negative values for concentration till i wanted to fling/hurl sth out of the window and was banging the table. i think i shall go back n bang somemore rofl.
am terrified of sat 2 essay writing component. its crazy to give u one quotation/statement n ask u to comment in 20mins. esp when the topics are so broad. n i haven't even tried. probably cos i'm scared of it. aarghhhh.
heh. its only been 3 late nights n i feel half dead. how i'm going to survive till nxt friday [and saturday] is a mystery to me. so mon was band concert.. was good:) but wat irked me was the cloakroom crap.. take so freaking long to get flowers n stuff. spastic rules. anyway. and then we were running all over the place.. rush frm math s to esplanade.. was joking in the cab tt sj [who just got 10.3 for shuttle run] should go sprint to the doors first.. then later during intermission we were looking for dinner [and didn't find it]
and tuesday.. comm meeting.. i don't really want to say much about it here. yeah. but anyway. when i got home i ended up falling asleep on the floor for a while. n aft waking up was doing sat 2 paper half asleep. but i guess the score wasn't too bad, considering. haha.
and today. fringe prac n choir prac. well. wat can i say. finished around 9, got back and also ended up falling asleep [but on the bed] haha at least i woke up. n managed to get some work done. though i think its quite sloppy. sigh. feel so jaded i can't be bothered for now. which is bad.
n i feel like my temper's getting shorter n shorter. which happens once in a while i guess. general malaise? heh. annoyed with anything n everything. watever. freaking scared for sats II cos i do not want to end up retaking. like. should do it once and do it well then it'll save me lots of trouble.
these days i wake up not wanting to go to school. interminable school days. but i shouldn't complain.. my timetable is actually quite okay except for mondays.
hmm. yay dad's back:) haha. have lots of nice things. though i wonder when i'll find time to watch my dvds. but at least i have them! actually i wonder wat i'll do if the real show comes to town. if i go watch it live as well it mite be like wasting money. o well. nvm. tt can come later:p
today's lunch was hilarious. kinda pitied the waiter.. was his 2nd day and he was so apologetic about everyth n kept saying "that's a gd question.." and went to ask his boss. anyway. first my dad ordered a pot of tea [share with mom] and then later the waiter came back saying "i'm v sorry but my boss has just informed me that they broke all the teapots" found it really funny.. either the pple there are v clumsy or the shelf collapsed or sth..
and then later dad's cup of tea came along.. first came the cup [with the tea] and the saucer.. then the spoon.. then the milk.. so my dad was like "why's it coming in bits n pieces" . i guess i was in quite an amused mood. was thinking "bits and pieces" was a v interesting way to describe it.
anyway.. dance night was good!:) albeit kind of short actually. but i guess they can't keep up dancing for that long hmm. wat else. there's band+chamber on monday.. am sure they'll be good too:)
k am getting chased off as usual. well. at least i cleared up my table today.. no longer relegated to the v sad state of having only a rectangle of space [where my foolscap is] to do my work while the rest of the table is piled up with stuff. heh.
yay. bio prac test and 2.4 = over! woohoo~ haha:) am totally going to flunk bio prac.. i dunno how i managed to take so much time doing the expt till i had no time to finish. well. am hoping to get double digits haha seems bit impossible though.
yeah. that's quite a load off my mind. given that i woke up on sunday morning with this sinking feeling that i'd have to run 2.4 the next day. and today was hilarious.. talk about moodswings. i was rather grumpy in the morning. then halfway thru chem tut i started making my ridiculous comments [haha] and the worst of it was that me ser n raphael are right in front in full sight so ms tan kept asking us wat was so funny..
phys i was trying to figure out some quantum thingy which i understood wrongly during the lect growl. and for once i sort of paid attention during bio lect. well at least i wasn't doing something else but somehow i don't remember much of wat she said. besides her "don't marinate 60 pieces of pork with 2 bowls of pineapple juice".
math was quite funny too. somehow dasheng started calling siewjin a goldfish. and making weird noises all the way. i really think he was suffering from junming withdrawal symptoms. but it was v funny;p *gloop gloop* haha. and i think we totally tried mrs lim's patience during gp until she had to bribe us with lollipops if we kept quiet. but later she changed it to a threat of doing a summary [somehow tt always works] and she looked so smug that she'd thought of a solution to shut us up;p
yeah. had a really good laugh today after all. probably cos i was crazy. but still. very amusing:)
oh rite and during bio prac we could hear dr chan shouting at 3g in the lab directly below.. he kept diaoing andrew fang [i think] and was like "good boy!" when he did something correctly. i think the one of the funny things abt bio prac is when everyone's quietly doing their work and then we can all hear dr chan really clearly.. n then we'll all start laughing and if mr chan happens to be around then he'll be like "chem speaks very loudly but bio is very soft" or sth like tt. the original context being that usually we mug more for chem than bio or sth n then bio will give u unexpected results.
yah. and jan was saying.. 8 pracs for concert [fringe item].. is tt enough? n i'm like hmm.. doesn't sound like it'll be.. sigh. super busy. and i still haven't started on sat 2 math. help:s
hmm. not entirely happy with pw but i guess i kinda expected it. heck. anyway had a great lunch with lyd:) miss her lots. and got to talk to joon today! on the way to bluemoo. yup. haha joon the rabbit. she says the most hilarious things. she and pingying are such an amusing pair.
i guess it is true that once u move on u don't have that much in common with yr old frens and u naturally grow apart. but like lyd sed at least u actually realise that u haven't seen each other for sometime and try to meet up. yeah. keeps it going anyway. better than just letting it go. though it happens v often. life consists of a lot of meetings and partings. hmm. something like that.
anyway just now i was thinking about it and decided i have very high expectations for all sorts of things and therefore get easily annoyed when things do not match up to wat i expect. which is bad.. kind of like a short temper. should just take it as a learning experience. my mood swings are really erratic. candice can probably testify to tt:p find that i only go mad with pple i'm really comfortable with. if not pple'll probably just look at me askance.
yeah. jan just reminded me its 2 weeks to ve and fringe is quite unready. means that i'm going to be super busy the nxt 2 weeks. sigh. wats new. hope we can put up a gd show:) we had better anyway.
listening to candice's sissel cd.. her voice is lovely:) i'm so glad i have my divine cd too haha:) and it was interesting finding out that jiahui likes enya and loreena mckennitt. the type i suddenly got interested in!:)
ugh. i've just spent like 4 hrs doing the programme stuff. the worst thing is that it just seems so easy. like. okay photos. cut out heads n stuff, dump them on the filmstrip, voila. u're done! yarrite. there's all the crap resizing and layers and stuff. i wonder if there's any better software besides adobe. and i'm not even halfway thru the individual strip. groan. 40 more heads to find. help. my head is spinning already frm staring at the comp and all the alignment. aargh.
anyway. don't noe why i was quite sian at the beginning of choir and was making all manner of spastic comments to candice:) haha. spouting nonsense would be more like it. and tiff can't count haha. she's hilarious:) glad she's nxt to me for competition arrangement! haha:) but i feel short. and got to watch dance night preview! so lovely:) makes me wish i'd taken ballet sometimes haha. anyway i foresee going broke soon. all the flowers to buy.
o yes and finally all the common test results are back. somehow after waiting for so long i feel kinda apathetic abt them already. well. i'm quite satisfied i guess. kind of kept to my goal since last yr haha. hopefully my end goal works out too:)
and there's this fri to look forward to! and nxt sat!:) yay.. happy time~ but 1st i've got to sort out this picture thingy groan. too tired to do anymore. even though i fell asleep on the floor for 2 hrs just now:) i guess a mattress would have been better. but was a gd rest:)
surprisingly i haven't fallen asleep [without intending to] this week. i think its reverse psychology. like when there's a lot of work due and stuff then i'll feel tired n end up sleeping. and when the stuff's not so pressing then more relaxed n less tired somehow. interesting huh.
o it was gd talking to lijia today:) should go venezia and mug with her n joon sometime again:)
ooh. tired. better make sure i don't get myself sick though. with serene n yonglai on either side of me coughing/sneezing/sniffing. its quite amazing how ser managed to pass her sickness to yonglai past me.
all our songs are so tiring.. i think i'm close to shouting half the time. like there's dravidian where me n poor candice have to sing running notes [the melody] for the whole song unlike the other parts cos they sometimes sing the notes which define the beat. and suite which is spposed to be fierce. and pseudo-yoik which requires high a. and solfeggio which has a super loud high f.
nvm. i shall be happy tt i've zhiyin n tiff beside me n candice in front of me during competition pracs:)
anyway. haha! i think choir gave me inspiration.. i did the 1st qn of chem s half before choir n half after it. hopefully its correct! whee~ o it was gd seeing chris on thurs n pam today:)
haha for the first time in a loong looong time i felt like getting up [frm bed] today:) yay! i think i slept 10hrs haha clar the pig. don't care already. anyways. there should be holidays every month. or every 3 weeks.
heh. the uni talk thing yesterday was actually quite interesting. just tt now i find myself wondering how i'm going to get into any us uni. ugh.
anyways can't think of anything else. i must go and plough on with complex numbers. i'm only here cos i got stuck on one of the first few qns bleargh.
yup still haven't figured out why i got so depressed just now. but nevermind. maybe its fine now. i don't know if its me being cranky but why do i keep flaring up suddenly. haha. maybe its stress huh. my impatience drives me nuts sometimes. n i can't do freaking complex numbers! ugh. very annoyed with it rowl growl. shall sleep soon enough. at least only monday is a long day for me. and thurs kind of.
well. somehow i was happier yesterday. so weird. though math was good:) v relieved. it was interesting sitting with aud too. fruitful discussion. yep. had another little run-in with my mom. i guess she's just worried for me sigh. but it blows over quite fast. like in the car i get annoyed. and after 1 or 2 hrs at home its okay again. well i guess tts good too. watever.
anyways i can't find v much to say. too full of thoughts [?] yeah. should go sort them out.
lalala. clar is on a high at the moment! very happy with physics. though considering the stupid mistakes i made.. or maybe if i see the percentage tmr i won't feel so wonderful but well.. feel like i redeemed myself from the terrible lect test haha. hope math will be fine. its so annoying having to wait so long for results. though if they're bad i dont' want them back heh.
ah anyways last night was hilarious:) poor poor jan haha. always the victim of everyone's diaoing huh.. nvm we still love u anyway:) wahaha:) though had a little run-in with parents over the dinner thing thanks to someone being 1.5hrs late heh. but it worked out fine i think. yup.
yeah. and it was nice talking to yunlei today:) sort of like catching up. haven't talked to lots of pple in a loong time. o yes n i find tt our math tutorials are hilarious.. mr chan never fails to say something funny..