ah. i must post about my spastic terp interview.. 1st of all.. spent like 10mins+ looking for the place.. get there.. queue for like 1/2hr.. for wat? temperature taking! woohoo!! so fun!!! =sarcastic= i sppose it was necessary, but honestly, like someone frm church said.. by the time you take ur temperature and realise ur temperature's higher than allowed for and u realli do have sars, everyone wud already have gotten it.. wats the point.. -shrug-
so. for the interview. anna and her classmate finished and came out saying that the 2 interviewers sitting at the desk = jokers.. crazy and useless.. all they did was to talk and talk and talk and promote ntu.. saying that's its such a wonderful place.. and the bio facilities are v gd.. and asked anna wat she thought of ntu.. so she sed "erm.. v few pple?" so they sed "all the better! no SARS!" [erps.. wat has tt got to do with her project..] anyways.. hers was something to do with slag and purifiying industrial waste.. so they were saying.. u have to work with furnaces! so whenever u come.. u must be prepared to sweat! [erps again..]
yeah. so i went in, expecting them to be doing most of the talking as reported by anna and her classmate. but no! i went in, greeted them, sat down. they stared at me. i stared back at them.. like hello.. its an interview maybe?? interviewers are spposed to start asking questions so i can answer?? so the guy who came into the room to call me [he was sitting at the side] started off.. asked me to talk abt the subjects i'm currently studying. okay.. so i finished with tt.
=silence= [while we had a little bit of staring again]
one of the interviewers decides to ask me if i like experimental work. crap a bit abt practicals and how they're fun and everyth.. finished.
=more silence=
[clar feels very uneasy] so the guy sitting at the side tells me abt the proj i chose [haha actually i forgot]
then asks if i noe anyth abt building structures or watever.. the proj was abt monitoring health conditions of building structures. sth like tt. so i sed sth spastic abt how its lucky we're not in an earthquake prone zone [aah i noe this sounds realli realli stupid but realli.. hadn't the faintest idea wat to talk abt] and sth else abt architecture and safety and blah blah blah
=more silence= asked me if i was nervous [like duh rite.. i have never ever sat in an interview where the interviewers can't find anything to ask u about] and if i had any questions.. so i asked wat kind of equipment they use to check the structure.. and tt was it.
the best is yet to come.. after that.. at like 12.30+ one of them called me up and sed they needed to ask me more qns! oh wow.. even queerer.. i go for the interview and they don't wanna ask me anything and then end up calling me.. hmmm.. anyhow was asking me abt my 1st choice and "do u noe wat ur proj is abt?" me"uh.. plasma?" the prof/whoever"do u noe wat plasma is?" me"isn't it spposed to be the 4th state of matter?" prof"yeah.. not blood plasma ah yar.. just in case.." 8| honestly. realli weird.
but anyway.. hopefully i can get in;) and maybe they'll even send me overseas! whee:)
i'm convinced my conductor doesn't like me.. he had this very unhappy [pissed? disgusted? i dunno] look on his face when he was looking at me.. but maybe it was just me.. i dunno. hopefully nothing's wrong n i'm just being oversensitive.
overdosage of choir. today i wasn't feeling particularly gd either. really need to do warmups b4 singing..
haha super shuang! today ended at 12.10 and actually got to slack!:) whee:) when usually we're the ones having super late prac.. ahahaha.. thanks to gala dinner.. but i guess tmr makes up for it.. 8-10 fringe 10 - 4.30 choir. ah well. i tink it'll be fun anyway:) enjoyed last nite's prac when he was actually happy w us and didn't stop us..
and candice's dalmatian puppy is so cute!!:) hahaha. it was galloping around in circles [and realli resembled a horse] and then started jumping around dementedly and also was snapping all over the place as well as worrying candice's socks.. [and our hands too for that matter] but i tink it was kinda thin.. ah well.. maybe i used to feed my dog [had one a long long looong time ago] too much;p
anyhow.. i wanna go for dance nite! -wails- but this fri i hafta leave french early to go for vch rehearsal.. then nxt mon = last prac b4 syf so i can't miss it.. even pple are missing chem s for tt.. and then the nxt fri will be dance nite. augh. plus the new choir concert is the nxt nxt fri. means another french lesson either totally/half-missed. groan. and we're going to be having another test soon.. aaahhh
the only thing good so far is tt i passed tt horrible qualifying test for DELF2!:) yay.. [its this france-recognised exam for the standard of ur french.. they don't recognise o/ao/a levels] yeah. even after the disastrous and unexpected listening compre + summary + "application question" yup. =happy enuff=:) and i tink i will actually have some time today to play piano [for the 1st time in like a fortnight.. terrible]
hafta catch up w work tho.. everyday i just come back and decide oh i'm so tired i'm going to sleep and don't get a single bit of work done.. plus tests coming up nxt wk! aughs. choir elections will be soon enuff i tink.
arrh. haven't posted for long time. just don't have the time.. ah well.. wat with all the chorale pracs.. but watever it is i still wanna get into finals.. even tho we're gonna be practising like mad.. and yeah i guess the music does make up for it but sometimes [okay.. that single one time:] i really wanted to like give up, say i'm sick and go home. haha. but at least tt wore off.. i guess it was just me tt day;)
anyways one time during the week i was feeling really down and thinking abt wat my gp tcher sed.. it is so true.. in, say, america, u can be urself and still succeed [cos we were talking about american idol] but here in spore its so fixed.. u have to excel academically if not u're like a failure.. blah blah blah.. and ur cca record must be gd.. etc. sometimes i'm so tired of it. yeah. anyway. so much for that.
at least i did okay for french:) tho of cos cud have done better but with the super last min mugging i guess it was alrite.. but when i look at liangsi's essay.. i'm like.. woah.. how in the world am i gonna learn to write like tt. sigh... ah well. i noe i ought to be reading "le point" [aka time magazine in french hahahaha] but i don't even read my economist! i tink i'm in deep trouble man.. ah.
something else.. i don't seem to be concentrating very well. mm. esp physics.. which isn't exactly one of my best subjects [in fact i dun even noe wat my best subj is haha] n keep getting maths qns which i dunno how to do [or am not sure]. i sppose tts education. and i also don't think i'm making sense anymore so i shall go off.
ah. pore tired clar. i'm kind of in trouble cos i spent practically the whole of fri out and sat too.. it was nice meeting up w ex-classmates:) and the ice cream! haha.. yums:) and at least i've gotten chris n puee their presents:p hilarious tho.. puee trying on her shirt on sat when we went to her house and complaining its tight.. well its just more body-hugging than wat she usually wears hahaha.. i tink i must haf put on tons of weight with all the stuff i ate on friday:p ice cream and then late lunch at nydc.. ahaha.. oops
and choir on sat.. hais.. i guess i wasn't in a particularly gd mood.. therefore i didn't find it very fun/fulfilling like other pple did hmm.. i was ready to like give up and say i'm not feeling well or sth.. which i wasn't lah but not to tt extent.. was just so so tired.. and mr toh the slave driver just kept going on and on.. i guess i'm not used to long tiring pracs haha:p unlike the other ex-choir pple.
oh well. and if i didn't try hard enuff n sing properly it wud be letting down everyone else cos its a grp thing.. quote conductor: with our size of choir.. everyone matters.. etc.. therefore i was totally tired after tt and my throat was aching so much.. or maybe it was my neck.. watever.. at least i feel a little better today:)
BUT i haven't done any hw over the long weekend yet therefore i shall hafta spend the rest of the night doing hw. sigh. including maths tutorial 8 which a certain serene lee finished during the hols [bah:p] and my french hw due tmr! freak. and due to syf the pracs are gonna be stepped up.. does extra prac on tues 7.30 to 10pm sound v appealing to u? haha. GROAN. nvm i shud stop complaining.. i chose to do this anyway.. and i wanna go for syf! wanna get into finals!:D
hallo. hmms haven't posted for quite a while [yes serene i NOE:p] haven't had much to say.. or rather.. just too lazy:)
arghs i miss my old maths tutor! sigh.. the new one's kind of weird.. and i guess i kind of got used to the old one's style.. quite gd.. hais. not like i have a choice
anyways today's art club was so.. heavy.. like.. information overload or sth.. actually not really information overload.. just plain overload:p cos we were talking abt elections and then dearest ollie made us talk abt wat we want for the art club.. wat we wud do for it, blah blah blah.. cos elections are nxt week.. so it was like.. yeah..
and then after that the dearest art tcher spent 45mins talking while i stoned down there and listened 1/2 the time.. well.. at least i tried:p
and yesterday's choir was also so tiring.. that i slept at 10.30pm.. that's like quite rare.. i tink:p spent close to 3 hrs singing impressions the horrid syf song and memorising it.. tt was really a horror.. like dang deng ding dong dung all the time made me [and my throat] very tired AND i really felt like i morphed into a percussion instrument..
we also got our new costumes.. which look SO terrible!!! augh... for more info i'll complain to u personally if u want haha:p $60 for tt.. sheesh..
i foresee myself being super busy the nxt few weeks until syf.. -shrugs-.. my days will be packed frm mon to sat.. leaving me with sunday [which is like 1/2day cos of church] to do work/study/watever.. bah.. new timetable isn't fantastic either.. my only free day is a 5.10 day.. sigh..
ah well at least i have the long weekend to look forward to:) more outings!:) yay:)
oh! comments abt council. yeah.. i tink the campaigns and speeches are quite useless actually.. i mean.. pple won't really vote for pple they don't noe rite?? and not like u can tell a person's kter frm the speeches/watever.. i tink most pple already noe who they want to vote for.. -shrugs- i don't have enough votes!!! argh.. i tink i need around 20 or sth haha..
actually its rather worrying.. i was talking to lyd abt it just now.. a lot of pple are saying oh so-and-so is so popular.. he/she'll probably be voted in by everyone else so i can sacrifice him/her for someone else.. and then if everyone thinks tt way the best pple won't get in! but maybe they're just groundless fears.. i hope.
ughs today's the last day of the so-called holidays and i find tt it has been the most unproductive break i've ever had.. blah.. it's like.. i feel so unmotivated.. do work for a very short stretch of time [if i even get any work done haha] and then its either radio/computer/piano/books/sth.. sigh. at least tmr's back to sch and hopefully i'll get back into my normal state haha
mm! got back frm the concert 1 hr ago.. was really good! tho i must say i didn't really like the 1st "third" of the performance.. all the goh toh chai songs.. hrms.. i guess i mite be a leetle bit biased cos he's the one who composed the syf set piece for choir this yr.. called "impressions".. which is spposed to sound like a gamelan orchestra therefore contains "dang deng ding dong dung" as the lyrics..
anyways.. then this person called nellie seng played.. she = hilarious.. took off the whole stand [for scores?] frm the grand piano n made a whole lot of noise.. and cos i was sitting in the 2nd row, cud see her grimace.. haha.. then she put it on the =floor=!! and then after tt held up this pen/pencil/sth and showed it to us n dumped it somewhere else too. hilarious:)
but her performance was awesome.. i guess her style's like really good.. you can see how expressive she is.. even better than my ex-piano tcher and that's saying sth.. i thot my ex-piano tcher was v zai already.. yeah. extremely moving. i really feel so pathetic when i watch pple like them play. *sigh*
4-piano and 6-piano pieces were really fun!:) tho i tink we shud have gone up to the circle seats for tt one.. cudn't really see anything frm 2nd row.. hais.. rather a pity.. but i only realised after the 1st piece started. win some lose some i guess. tho i tink i heard the 4-piano piece b4 in the last NAFA concert.. it was fun seeing mingjing n florrine n diane play anyhow:) and tt song was so familiar! mm.
but the best surprise was tt leeting was sitting nxt to me!:) i saw her when we were going to check out the circle seats but had no idea she wud be sitting there.. so cool:) and was really gd.. miss her lots. sigh.
anyhow i'm so glad sch's starting.. have been soo bored at home u can't imagine.. but at least i get to go out occasionally unlike lots of poor ppl who're stuck at home. okies i shall go sleep. tiring day.
ohh!! i forgot about this.. yesterday i was out w jane shopping;) assuage boredom yeah? anyways so after everything [including eating crepes and feeling guilty about the pounds put on haha:p] i went to music essentials at meridien and was browsing.. so happened that the bks i was looking at were nxt to the counter.. this british woman stepped up to the counter and asked in this posh british accent for the theory syllabus for this yr [i tink? i forgot.. but it was some kind of a syllabus:]
anyway the person at the counter informed her tt it was only available at music schools such as cristofori, kawaii, yamaha, etc.. and then she got super-pissed and went on in a rather ungracious manner about how "i'm not going to trek around the whole of singapore looking for theory syllabuses!" and "in london, -every- music shop has the theory syllabus.." and basically being totally annoying.. talk about snobbish.. sheesh. her voice was absolutely grating on my nerves.
anyhow.. i spent 1/2 of today listening to the radio! normally i dun listen unless i'm in the car and its usually on classical/news/french on the really rare occasions
to think most teenagers are spposed to listen to the radio all the time or sth. ah well. guess its cos there's only one compo/combo? watever. and its in my bro's room and he listens to it all the time when he's home and i can't be bothered to move it over to my room. also my room's in such a mess i don't think i'd have space for it. was just in a musicky mood today:) haha i have just invented an adjective! yay:)
hmm i tink the concert on sun nite will be interesting.. 6 pianos! can't imagine how much practise it took.
lalala i'm so glad i figured out all this crap
but its time for lunch
haha i'm so lazy i woke up at 11 and therefore didn't have breakfast
:):):)
oops
well
tts clar for u
haha!
its working
but rather weirdly
comments box at the top of each post? hmm.. i dunno.. heck.. at least i got it up.. ha! to chris!:P
argh i have no idea how to add in the comments thing
has been annoying me for quite sometime!
i shall have to ask chris to help [haha fine chris i give up:p]
can't believe this.. even after a 2 yr crap comp course [aka cift] at spore poly.. bah..
yay i got into choir! -happy happy happy-
and relieved
it was so freaky.. had to wait for almost an hour cos the 1st batch started late and took quite some time..
and then when my batch finally went in.. i was the one sitting nearest to the conductor therefore i had to start first.. aaah..
continued with tt for everyone.. and he asked everyone [except 4 of us, including me] about whether they had choir/music bkgrd.. so it was quite worrying.. also how much stuff he wrote beside ur name.. duno whether writing more/less is better.. hmm..
it also didn't help tt the conductor [mr toh] called us all into the LT and went "oh we're looking for a certain quality of voice for the choir.. so if u don't get chosen, don't completely go off music okay.. just take it as u have other talents.." talk about nervous.. i was practically shaking in the chair okay. of course the LT was cold too but yeah. therefore i was absolutely elated when he sed i was in sop2 and heaved a huge sigh of relief.. i've learnt to not let it show though, isn't always very nice esp when other pple didn't get in.
okay after one year at diary-x i decided to move back! haha:) well
mms i'm attempting to sing properly rite now cos i haf 2nd round of chorale auditions later! sigh. and i feel like i've got a sore throat. aaaaah. crap. and i thought it was okay yesterday. hmph.
haha after looking at my winamp playlist i realised just how few songs with lyrics i have on my playlist. just goes to show how pathetic songs-with-lyrics are.. or maybe it's just cos i usually can't make out the lyrics unless i go download them *rofl*
sigh i'm feeling so slack, everyday i get back and i hardly do any work.. i usually do my tutorials during boring lectures:p ah. i have to stop this crap. altho its just 1st 3 months but still. hm. must be the effect of my super-mugger class -shakes head- oh well
sighs why can't life ever be easy
i don't know what to do
in fact, i never ever know what to do
why why why why
what am i going to do?
it's so hard
everything's always so hard
sigh
this sucks. big time..
and if i weigh both sides.. i still don't know..
groans
moans
whines
:( =( 8(
feeling a lil out of sorts..
why can't pple be individual? is it so hard? why must pple compete? why must pple have what others have? why?
it doesn't seem all that appealing does it? wonder if that's called materialism.. i couldn't really care what others have.. i just want what i want.. why can't others be the same? okay i guess tts individualism.. not being the same
shrugs
i'm really confused here
is it all that hard to send one email?
that busy?
can't care less?
gah i'm being piggish
i shouldn't care so much
its not worth my caring is it
u should really just go do ur work and not bother anymore
hell, its not worth bothering.
yeah i'm going mad
don't mind me
aaargh so irritating yesterday i typed out this whole long thing abt the harry potter movie which i just watched..
shall hafta redo it *sighs*
okays.. was kinda disappointed in the movie.. metinks one should read the book after u've watched the movie.. i guess when u read the book u imagine for urself wat the characters and settings and all that are... and when the movie doesn't match up to ur ideals u get disappointed.. especially with all the publicity and hype abt the movie..
hmms 1st the casting.. harry potter was pretty gd.. just tt he's kinda tall for a midget as described by J.K. Rowling.. but he does look like harry potter.. hermione was gd too.. like her face:) quite pretty n sweet n cute.. but doesn't really look like a mugger *laffs*
ron looks kinda weird to me tho.. something abt his eyes. i'm kinda particular abt pple's eyes i guess:þ
and he doesn't seem to talk very much.. and for a lanky guy he's kinda short..
snape was quite okay.. but he didn't look all that cold.. mcgonagall was gd.. the strict tcher n all.. dumbledore was okay but he didn't seem to be very endearing or watever u call it.. din smile enuff or sth..
setting.. the inside of the castle was great! din look very majestic at night when the 1st years were sailing towards it on boats tho.. but besides that everything abt the castle was so british and so cool:) the train as well.. n the moving pple in the portraits! was really nice:) great effects..
music.. that was the most fantastic part:) tho the soundtracks i downloaded all seem to be pretty much the same.. but the way one can use *classical* music to create that magical effect is wonderful:) especially the harp! i luv the harp sound:) rather unfortunate that its kinda normal for the harp to be used when every other instrument is playing at its loudest, can't really hear much of the harp..
props.. the sorting hat was so cute! :) but i guess i was nitpicking or something or i've read the book so many times [yeah out of boredom] tt i noe the details too well.. it -was- spposed to slip over the eyes of the 1st years cos it was too big..
oh the quidditch match was cool :) like wow! on broomsticks they're like speeding blurs, i have absolutely =no= idea how they manage to play at all!! but something irked me as well.. when harry caught the snitch.. he seemed to have fallen off his broomstick and the broomstick disappeared.. *poof* just like that.. a bit queer don't u think..
the troll was interesting. my mind didn't conjure up an image of a troll *shrugs*
kinda think they left out quite a lot of stuff.. but it was pretty gd the way most of the stuff was the same as in the book.. i guess if they'd stuck to *everything*, the movie wud haf turned out 1 day long.. but funny how it didn't seem like 2 n 1/2 hrs to me.. sppose time always passes faster when u're absorbed in something.. in fact it actually seemed pretty short to me!
well tts everything i can remember at the moment..
hais and i thot i could get out of getting sick for one year.. so sad!
hmph shall try harder nxt yr *grins*
being sick is so terrible.. pure torture.. feel terrible, can't do anything to get well besides waiting for the next day and taking medication or watever other crap
and why oh why can't my diploma results hurry up and appear in my mailbox..
can't believe i dreamt i got 77.. hahaha.. distinction.. hmm... i wonder.. i just wish they'd hurry up.. *grumbles* or let me quote claire.. *sulk* *pouts*..
sighs. its been like practically .. hmm.. practically 3 months!! *ready to tear my hair out*
speaking of which my hair desperately needs cutting. and a new hairstyle.
hmms i don't seem to have much discipline to keep a daily blog huh.. *laffs* oh well..
yay went swimming again! i shall go swimming every 2 days.. exercise n keep my weight down n helps my spine n i like playing in ze water! ladida..
can't imagine how boring hols get.. luckily for now i haf something to do every week :) if not i'd probably die of boredom *laffs*
gd to go out a few times... before nxt yr comes *shudder* this yr was actually hell enuff.. not all that bad, but quite bad.. and i started revision for exams kinda late too.. again no discipline
tsktsk
should learn self-discipline better
hahaha again YAY chinese o's are over! :)
wasn't worth all the worrying :þ but oh well.. how wud anyone noe wat the paper was gonna be like..
heh tink those pple who skipped OBS to study for chinese find it even more a pity now?
dunno.. but i wud tink so
hmms and i actually feel bored now that i don't have to study chinese.. *shakes head* that's very very sad..
there's actually nothing to do
maybe i should go on with my letter-writing spree/marathon..
but somehow it doesn't sound as appealing as it did before the exams.. talk about wanting to do things when u can't..
blah
ah last day of school :) happy day :)
laffs
anyhow.. can't believe our school screwed up so badly.. i mean.. who calculates the whole sec 3 level's combined humanities marks wrongly *groan* waited from 10.30 to 12.45 can.. actually we were spposed to have recess at 10.30 [which we did in the end 'cos our form tcher sed the report books can only be given out when the principal says so] so fine.. recess until 11.15..
then happy waiting *gosh*
eek.
so glad i'm home :)
and i can't believe their criteria for taking 9/10 subjs nxt yr..
to take 9 subjs, must get 4 distinctions..
to take 10 subjs, must get 7 distinctions..
such a big diff!! gosh so unfair.. not like taking 10 subjs is v much different from taking 9. hmph.
luckily i scrapped through.. really v heng can.. if not i wud haf die-ded. plooh