hahaha again YAY chinese o's are over! :)
wasn't worth all the worrying :รพ but oh well.. how wud anyone noe wat the paper was gonna be like..
heh tink those pple who skipped OBS to study for chinese find it even more a pity now?
dunno.. but i wud tink so
hmms and i actually feel bored now that i don't have to study chinese.. *shakes head* that's very very sad..
there's actually nothing to do
maybe i should go on with my letter-writing spree/marathon..
but somehow it doesn't sound as appealing as it did before the exams.. talk about wanting to do things when u can't..
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ah last day of school :) happy day :)
laffs
anyhow.. can't believe our school screwed up so badly.. i mean.. who calculates the whole sec 3 level's combined humanities marks wrongly *groan* waited from 10.30 to 12.45 can.. actually we were spposed to have recess at 10.30 [which we did in the end 'cos our form tcher sed the report books can only be given out when the principal says so] so fine.. recess until 11.15..
then happy waiting *gosh*
eek.
so glad i'm home :)
and i can't believe their criteria for taking 9/10 subjs nxt yr..
to take 9 subjs, must get 4 distinctions..
to take 10 subjs, must get 7 distinctions..
such a big diff!! gosh so unfair.. not like taking 10 subjs is v much different from taking 9. hmph.
luckily i scrapped through.. really v heng can.. if not i wud haf die-ded. plooh
boohoo i'm so sick and tired of doing chinese.. not that i'm all that well-prepared either. actually i don't ever remember feeling well-prepared for chinese *laffs* hmm.. i wonder how u manage to be well-prepared..
after all, u can't exactly prepare for close and compre.. besides practising i sppose.. argh i also sppose i should have read more chinese *hehe a bit late* 'cos my vocab is like really limited and i never noe wat ci2 yu3s go with wat.. sad huh
aah and still missing obs.. maybe i shud stash the photo somewhere else.. rite now its on the top right hand corner of my table and everytime i catch a glimpse of it i get distracted n can't do my work.
actually i can't do my work anyway *laffs* not much of a diff eh
somehow hafta get back into the exam-mode. bah not looking forward to nxt yr :( imagine.. 11 subjs! 'cos of combined humans as well. and i thot my ss wud pull up my lit. but maybe it was 'cos i chose the wrong qn.. well.. learn from mistakes.. wat to do
aargh.. chinese o's.. can somebody please tell me why i can't get down to doing anything..
obs withdrawal symptoms eh *groan*
wat'm i gonna do *groan somemore*
and tmr's getting back exam papers day
sigh. wat *can* we actually do for chinese anyway?
maybe i'm just being lazy
i tink i need to go back to sch if not i probably wun feel the urgency to study or watever
aah
had so so so much fun at obs :)
couldn't bear to leave
our watch was wonderful.. instructor was fantastic..
but the 5 days wasn't enuff! *boohoo*
and our sleeping hours weren't enuff either! *grumble*
so evil.. lights out by 11pm [its quite hard to achieve that]
and then hafta wake up by 5.30.. brush teeth and all that stuff.. meet for morning exercise at 5.55am.. eek
hate having so little sleep
and everyday is so crammed full of activities.. so tired.. so little sleep..
but our expedition was wonderful too :)
stay up and look at stars and frolick around.. and don't sleep
and hiking.. even tho it was total hell carrying such heavy stuff and we're so weak *laffs*
but ended up walking zombies.. friday everybody was so tired.. couldn't do anything much
eyes half closed and all that
hehe
woohoo all exams over ! yay! :)
spent most of the day out :)
but actually got pretty boring.. i dunno why i don't really take to shopping
just got v sian. and din feel like doing anything
man. my french results are really really REALLY pathetic. and disappointing. *grumbles* but i sppose that would have to be my fault..
plooh. so sad! aaargh
i hope my sch results are better
hoho yay yay yay! *three cheers*! english, ss, lit, hcl, a maths, bio, chem, physics all over!! :) :) :)
happy clar :)
hahaha :)
and there's only e maths paper left on monday and geog MCQ *sigh* on tuesday then i'm freee! but again rite now i'm already feeling bored 'cos i dont feel like doing anything
oh wells ;) wat to do ;)
at least i have 3 days to prepare for e maths. and geog mcq. haha. not like u need to study very much for 30 mcq questions when 12 of them are on map reading somemore..
woah.. just back from french end yr exam.. hope i did fine.. so relieved its over anyhow :) but nxt week = hell
AND i realised how long i haven't added anything *laffs* exams wat to do..
oh no.. i'm busy worrying abt nxt yrs french class.. bah.. hope everything works out.. how the heck was i spposed to noe that rg's gonna have remedial on fridays nxt yr?!! gosh.. crap.. anyway i'm only free tues wed fri.. and i hate having mon-wed/tues-thurs/wed-fri 'cos there's only one day in btwn.. argh.. i hope everything works out fine *groan* n i get nice classmates n tchers ;)
aaaargh. dunno why i'm so bothered abt this 3rd lang class thingy but i just am so *shrug* wat to do
only thing to do is to vent it on this page ! hoho :)
yay ;) soo happy i'm actually keeping to what i'm spposed to do.. finished a maths a little fast so shall "rest" a little before continuing :) i decided that maybe having a specific time slot works better.. but again i don't know how accurate my answers are since i did them pretty fast. *hmm* well hope they're correct if not i'd have wasted my time. maybe shall call pple up to check :)
feeling so sian still.. wanna get out of the house but can't anyway. pathetic. but the weather's soo nice! cool n rainy :) ladida.. so boring. i actually don't mind going back to school. but the problem is.. two weeks after school starts, exams! *horror* freaking me out..
sick of doing chinese *laffs* and feeling v sian. i wonder why actually.
went to school today.. give sec 1s extra lessons for science.
i hope they understood. if not we die ;)
lalala. weird feelings come sometimes. like i want to do something but i don't even know what that something is! queer me *shakes head*
holidays, nothing much interesting.
hmm i accomplished around half the things i planned to do today
maybe i should aim to do more things so when i only accomplish half of what i intended to, it won't be that bad
wonder when bao will email. sigh maybe i should write. but writing takes quite long too. sigh somemore. wonder if she'll have icq over there (ah-huh!) guess i shouldn't keep fretting if pple don't reply email huh.. not worth me worrying over for the moment i guess
whatever's meant to be will be
i hope :)
now time to worry about hol homework. and how i'm gonna finish
gahgahgah
wow i wonder how i survived. 1 n 1/2 hrs of physics. well i guess it's almost as normal.. so wasn't that bad
then THREE hours of a maths. wowwee... and it didnt' help with the whole noisy grp around me.. and then mrs kwan kept going on and on abt basic angles when we all knew that from e maths.. i sppose the revision would help drive it in.. but repeating like soo many times *groan* and as it is, we were so hungry cos no recess and all.. boohoo
but we survived *proudly* :)
and then ss.. wasn't too bad either i guess.. less pple, not so noisy.. cos most pple went off for lunch and all
and it was only an hour :)
i'm so glad we got pam something :) i noe she'll appreciate it v much :)
after all that pore ole pound puppy we got her still sits in her bag everyday or something..
woah so tired
whole day taking care of kids
oh today we went for community service at a child care centre... and then the kids were so amusing.. and it so happened that me n serene went together (plus one more gal who left earlier cos she was busy)
so during the tea break one of the kids was going "i know u all have boyfriends rite?" so we asked "why?" and so the kid said "dunno leh.." *after prolonged thinking* "i know! the 2 of u have a lot of charm!"
hahahahah ;) amusing rite
gah have so many mosquito bites from yesterday
and have homework to do, exams to mug for, but my holidays (like normal students') are hardly holidays
holidays.. the irony of them..
gah hate going airport ;(
but i guess i'll have to learn how to sooner or later..
oh wells
but at least this time i didn't like start weeping or something.. *grimace*
but it was almost as bad. as usual. really pathetic.
...
and that silly bao.. i could have sent her off! *growls* but nooo she mistook her flight timing and told us 1am instead of 10am
*sighsighsigh* but china's a whole lot nearer than canada..
but it doesn't matter how far, it matters that they aren't here.. i'll miss them and miss them and miss them..
this blog thingy is quite useful actually :)
aaaaaah
just back from piano exam
i am so dead
i don't even know if i can pass
*big groan* die already..
grumble grumble grumble
first of all my playing wasn't that great
missed notes, blah blah blah.
and then the quick study wasn't so gd either.. missed notes too, wrong notes, etc
and then viva voce
aaacck. b4 everything the woman looked v happy, ...
then while 'interrogating' me, she didn't look so happy
and i made the stupidest mistakes of my life. like calling a time signature a key signature
gah and then i didn't even noe whether 6-4 was compound duple or triple. crap lah. soo pathetic..
ask me things i'm not sure.. so i was crapping out.. crap also she didn't look v convinced
esp when the things i'm not sure = abt bach.. which is her speciality.. and she plays for the queen and her students play for the queen too!
die die die.. hope i can pass
groan
i never want to go through that again.. so freakyfying.. ;(
aaaaaah.
my piano exam's tomorrow! *freaks out*
what if i can't play properly (esp. my bach cos the female examiner's a bach specialist!!!) what if i can't sightread properly what if i can't answer their questions properly
gah. pre-exam jitters.
aaaaaah.
and at this point in time, no one can help me. unless they can somehow assure me that i definitely will do fine tmr and pass well and watever other crap.
and i'm in no mood to do my h/w.. which includes like 6 n 1/2 jian3 bao4s and learning e maths... groan. all that i will have to do thursday (tmr) after 4:15pm. sighs
hmm just back from the last piano lesson i'll have, unless i fail. which i certainly hope not.
its quite sad isn't it..
kinda like wat she said.. *bittersweet*
sometimes she can be nice, sometimes she can be horrible..
sometimes i'm really glad i did my diploma, sometimes i'm not
it all really depends on what's happening at the moment
i don't know if i want to do LRSM. probably not actually. she doesn't seem all that keen on me continuing.
not that i should make my decision based on that. and she doesn't think i'm very interested in music. though i've improved since when i first went into the studio. i have enough trouble and stress and depression from doing dipabrsm.. hmm. i really don't know what to do. i never do know what to do, though. *sigh*
2 years in that studio really educated me though..
it was very interesting, very amusing and all.
but something i failed to grasp is that life goes on. and you can't hold on to anything for long.
which i can't accept very well. and i can't bear to let go. so i end up a mess. as usual.
sigh. somehow all the entries here are usually depressing. which is what this blog is for actually.. but not that nice for people to read i guess.
sometimes i think i'm in desperate need of a counsellor..
gah my pore eyes are so aching.. and its not like i din take a nice nap in the evening.. thinking i can work better at times like now which is.. 12.11am.. in which actually i do work better at night *or rather, unearthly hours of the day* like 12am 1am blah blah blah
but somehow i can't seem to take it
ah wells. nvm at least on thursday i can wake up at watever time i like :) but probably will be scared stiff tinking abt piano diploma exam in a few hours time.. *grimace* and believe it or not, i have to mug for that too. amazing huh..
the amount of homework which we have now (and tests) and u still have to mug for things like piano..*laffs*
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i think the teaching sec 1s physics thingy is really crap..
we sec 3s can't even consolidate our own knowledge and they expect us to teach sec 1s.. i'm betting the sec 1s will end up failing their test.. *groan* esp given the way ms tan marks.. it would be a miracle if any of those under our charge pass..
after seeing the look on ms tan's face when jiahui and huichu were demo-ing and explaining *haha* she looked ready to kill.. run after us brandishing a parang or something. *grin*
honestly i think prama, yap and blin can rival for "most boring teacher in the world".. its amazing the way they teach..
*shiver* just came back from young musician's society.
sooo cold inside.. and hafta stay there and play for one hour..
freezing..
i shall get a blanket and wrap myself round and round and round until i can't move.. like a mummy
laffs
anyway.. *gah* i wish my mom hadn't videotaped me.. its soo embarrassing to watch urself play
and then some parts sounded so terrible
but i guess i've improved a lot stylistically since last time.. :)
groan. its 12.43am and i can't sleep cos i postponed doing my programme notes for piano diploma exam too late.. so now i've gotta rush and finish it tonite or rush home tmr and finish it. but i decided since i somehow work better at nite when everyone's asleep and no one bothers me.. better try n finish tonite. sighs. even tho i have a headache now *groan somemore*
and i just finished ss .. around.. 1/2hr ago or sth? blah. editing programme notes.. tomorrow is kinda like "last lesson" and i haven't finalised my programme notes stuff! gah. excuse my obsession with programme notes.
my head seems to be controlling me. oh wait, of cos it would. wat'm i talking abt? gah becoming incoherent. *fatigue overcomes me*
but i struggle on. haha.. crappy.. anyway its back to wonderful programme notes for me! *laffs*