wow. god is really great. i can't remember at the moment who else's testimony i heard.. but it's just stories like that which remind me how in power he is. and the power of prayer. okay that probably didn't come out sounding too right since i'm not particularly coherent but well.
crazy event of the day: so me n jackie were trying to figure out about going to paris for spring break.. and i was like oh i have the calendar i'll check the dates of spring break. so i came over to my table.. and i picked up my calculator instead of my calendar.
it was quite a classic moment, really. but i must say in defence of myself that usually my calendar and calculator are like next to each other/one's on top of the other so i'm slightly justifed..
i decided to post a pic of my pretty snowboard! here it is:)
it unfortunately looks much worse now. but plus cute traction bits that jon pasted for me! whee~
and all the people i met!
the girls: liana (jr), joon (soph), me
the guys: jon (jr), yongji (frosh), andrew (frosh), zhixiu (jr), yf 
more of the guys: nick (on exchange), ryan (he's really like the uiuc-version-of-daryl haha), dominic (soph), josh (soph)
random pics of my room
forever friends bedspread!
yay forever friends poster from ser!:)
my slightly messy desk
front part is jackie's half
i should really do my work. and it was so tragic, chris decided to nominate me for akpsi secretary and i'm like. oh. oops. i don't have a laptop! but anyway i don't think i could handle an ecomm position this year. hopefully i'll be something next year though. will see what god has in store for me.
simps playdate thing today was kind of awkward.. i don't know why. i thought it would be somewhat like a regular class, just go in and play games. but somehow the connection was missing (like kenneth said). things weren't very funny.. maybe energy not thre? or just awkward cos it was like.. simps vs 103ers. oh well.. reiterate last sentence of last para. if it's meant to be it will happen, i believe. i tried my best.
dead week and it doesn't feel like it at all. or i'm still slacking around.. i don't understand why i need food so much when i'm here. like during thanksgiving i wasn't very hungry or thinking about food all that much. didn't really snack. or maybe cos snacks were so easily at hand it didn't matter that much. but when i'm back in my dorm room.. it's just. food. food. food. ! so bad:(
man today is one crazy day.. but yay! i have my license! which just prompted me to call my mom and say happy bday, thanks to the wonders of the chi alpha calling card. she's so cute, she sent me this encouragement card sort of thing with my airticket home.
so yeah, i wasn't sure if i got my driving test time right.. and then yinnah's car malfunction light came on and i wasn't sure if the driving test pple were going to be okay with that.. and then we had to wait so long for the test. but phew, thanks for God's grace, everything went fine. and i passed! woohoo~ i saw the examiner who failed me last time, thankfully this time it was a guy and he was much nicer.
oh and while waiting for my test jh calls me and says that they decided i'm part of the team for the JPMorgan competition thing and i'm like !! i haven't done anything for it! man. feel kinda bad about it also but it'll be great experience if we get through.. so then i have to think about looking at resumes/personal statements/writing my own.
and the concerto thing was such a fiasco! man. that was seriously one of my worst nightmares. like i knew i wasn't particularly prepared.. but that was just terrible. the tempo was so much faster than i'd expected and my fingers can't move that fast.. lack of practice/skill. i guess i should've just called jon (aow) up earlier and admitted defeat.. but i still thought i could manage it but i practised like mad tonight/tmr. and then after like 50mins i could tell they thought i was hopeless and i also knew it was hopeless.. really thank God that jon was free/can manage it.. actually i was pretty sure he'd be able to, am just so grateful though. cos i already wasted the guy's and his teacher's time.. don't wanna ruin his performance as well. so phew.
anyway, am feeling so much better. yay for being online haha i sound like i'm addicted. oh well. time to do silly econ pset. and it's so freaking cold nowadays!:( i forgot how depressing winter is =sulks=
aaahh. i'm so tired. or at least my eyes are, i think. i don't actually think i got more sleep during thanksgiving break cos the place i was staying at (with junwan & frens, no less) had skylight-ish panels which allow morning sun to shine right into the room and wake me up! so i got up at like 7ish almost all the time. oh well. gotta make up for that soon.. after tonight's black friday shopping heh. and i also need to figure out my driving test:| augh. i wish i'd passed the first time, it would've made my life so much easier!
anyway, had lots of fun in colorado, am very glad i decided to go join joon! yayyy:) her friends are all so nice.. actually jon (goh)somewhat reminds me of sean, i guess its the way they interact with/care about people. and i really wish i had sean's knee pads. haha. arrgh! poor knees. actually poor snowboard, it definitely got chipped by ice/rocks/something. -sob- oh well.
pics on facebook..
http://stanford.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2046548&l=da600&id=213134
okay i don't actually know if the link works but we'll see. maybe i'll dump them in shutterfly when the rest send the other photos along or something.
sigh! 86 emails to plough through and i have to return to reality (i.e. having to think about classes/work/jobs/.... moooo.) laundry calls soon. and practising for this bass trombone concerto accompaniment! man i really hope it turns out fine.. help.
i think the hot tub does help. or at any rate, me n joon n liana were trying to figure out how come we didn't ache as much yesterday.. as compared to the days before. alright. need to get stuff done! its nice to just slack around.. hm.
boohoo. clar is like half sick. i guess i just refuse to admit i'm fully sick. but i'm not! okay, in denial. but anyway i kept hiccuping yesterday cos my throat was dry and everytime i coughed that kinda triggered it. 0_0 . oh well.. at least today should be better.. i wish i was completely well though, how to go snowboarding otherwise?? and i wish we'd booked a later ticket so i can go to the burton sale and get a snowboard. :( . i guess god will provide..
so yesterday's chi alpha worship was quite magical. sicheng was telling esther 'i think we brought back something from that trip!' [they drove 4 hrs to redding over the weekend, i dunno wat was happening at the church but that's interesting]. i still have a tiny suspicion about whether my experience was partly because of my sleep deprived state.. philo paper due yesterday, that is. and bio midterm today and i haven't read anything for econ essay, die!! gotta rush that during lunch or something :|
but wat colin said was good and timely. god will give you exactly what you need. i like the phrasing too. somehow that just reminded me of sean, i wonder why. maybe the big-bro-christian-encouragement thing. which is good. haha man this is like a spillover from my philo paper about "the human good". aahh!
it was so uncanny yesterday cos during improv there was this static scene involving a bicycle, a squirrel and a nut (i.e. the bike was about to run the squirrel over). and then while i was furiously biking (like the wind, no less, as jackie likes to advise me when i'm hard pressed for time/late in handing up stuff which unfortunately happens rather often) to turn in my phil paper, this stupid black squirrel (with a brown nut! augh!) ran directly across my oncoming path!! i was like wth!! wat's ur problem! outraged. haha. i wish i had a picture of that though. i really thought i might've run over the stupid squirrel. :p
sigh i feel so stupid. so jackie's taking a nap and so i was working with just my desk lamp.. and then i turned it off and attempted to make my way to the door to go for dinner. and -taadaa- i tripped over her suitcase or something and hit my head on the fridge corner. very very painful. my first thought was like i want my mommy haha and then after that i got paranoid that this knock has addled my brains. cos i'm doing this bio course on intro to brain and behavior and there're lots of stories about how if certain parts of your brain are damaged then it'll effect some behavioral effect and i was thinking wat if i knocked this part which unblocks all the childhood inhibition thingys and i start behaving like a kid. 0_0.
i hope i'm being paranoid at any rate. and it somewhat reminds me of bertram's story earlier about how some SJI kid got knocked by a shot putt (imagine that! poor guy) and apparently became a genius after that. haha. oh well. thankfully for peling my poor RA who walked to wilbur to get ice for me.
it also doesn't help that i'm not feeling too great.. nose clogging up and swallowing hurts. augh! i will not get sick! more smoothies. yay for jamba juice and late nite.
jekyll pup and hyde pup. i was so amused by this i sent it out to the improv class list (and found out that the list is moderated. !! not like it's that likely that pple will spam the list, but oh well..) cos it reminded me of a warm-up exercise that we do sometimes.
jekyll pup [RAWWWWWWWWWWWR!!!!!!!]
hyde pup [awwww]
it's soooo cute. haha. hasn't failed to cheer me up/amuse me when it's late at night and i'm feeling so battered that it's so easy to let depressing thoughts overcome me. i am definitely more susceptible to feeling awful at night when i'm tired and it's been a long day. talk about rollercoasters.
but i am so thankful for the guys to help out with the sporean stuff though.. why nygh and dhs have to come visit in the same week is a HUGE mystery to me.. it's so tiring. i used to think it'd be fun but once is more than enough.. after rj came last year i had enough already. maybe also cos we did jc visits during summer.
haha this is hilarious, my econ 52 prof (the useless one who doesn't teach anything in class - okay i'm being so mean here, he's not all that bad) writing on how phillips was a crocodile hunter.. and i was commenting that he's probably getting in touch with his australian roots (see the first page of the paper: http://www.jstor.org/view/00130133/di983528/98p0011i/0) and then i skim the other pages and it's like a biography of phillips! i'm like.. hm.. why are they publishing this, i bet he blackmailed them or something haha.
i really come up with the most nonsensical stuff at night when i'm tired i think. last night i was rather pissed off with the whole NYGH tour stuff (they coordinated their trip with some grad student and i had no idea wat was going on and blah blah blah) so i was complaining to poor long-suffering jackie about having to "do my civic duty as a singaporean here" and bring them on a tour.. so just before i fell asleep i was spouting some nonsense about how i should bring a whip and make them stand in line or something like that. must really ask jackie later wat she remembers of my ridiculous suggestions last night..
oh yes. jackie is awake. first it was me being snappy and snapping at them. jackie's examples of things i would snap:
kids "oh.. it's so pretty"
me, snapping "of cos it's pretty! it's stanford!"
kids "where's the library"
me, snapping "they're both libraries! this is stanford! there's more than one library!"
next, because i was complaining about having better things to do rather than doing a tour (i.e. my econ pset, which at this moment i still have not completed) so i don't know how we came out with me making them do a military march to make them hurry up and march around campus so i can hurry up and come back and do my work. (and this is where the whip comes in)
sigh. i am currently so confused about everything. :( but i think it's just been a long (albeit fun-filled) day and i need to sleep.
it's so unbelievably nice to feel free. after those two midterms on tuesday.. i really have not been doing any work. not that it's a good thing (okay it's good to relax for a bit) but it's lots of fun! whee. feel so much better. and improv is amazing, i wasn't feeling very well starting sun afternoon and then i was contemplating asking the teacher to just let me observe the class instead on monday but i decided otherwise (plus i was a bit late:|) and i felt so much better after the class it was ridiculous.. i mean i'd been drinking fruit smoothies/soup/etc to prevent myself from feeling worse and stuff but after class it was just great. gave me the energy to study for my midterms.
and wednesday was so interesting, we weren't allowed to speak for the full 1h50 and had to keep in constant motion.. so the teacher (dan) brought us into the room one by one and there were these periods of time where we were doing something like stomp.. but with clapping and stamping. rhythm beats! quite fun. and then there was a lot of miming (we call it 'space objects')
so this guy was pretending to reel in a huge fish.. and i pretended to be the fish, and after that i apparently was skewered, roasted, cut in half. (all this i couldn't see cos i was on my side pretending to be dead). then later one guy grabbed my legs and another one grabbed my arms and they started swinging me (like when you're going to dunk ppl?) and i was like ooh, this is interesting. and later this other girl was telling me that dan was so horrified when he saw them doing that cos he was afraid i'd get hurt and his eyes opened SO wide and he kept motioning for them to put me down.
anyway. lasertag tonight! ryan and alex dominated again.. those guys are crazy man.. last year they dominated too. haha. lots of fun! whee.
it's been almost a week! man. kind of a busy start of week.. philo paper due monday which was slightly disastrous:| really should've started earlier and such but hopefully i'll learn from that. and the econ 52 pset due tues. i hate having econ psets due tuesday.. there're never any office hours on friday and at earliest they post the problem set wed/thurs.. okay i shouldn't complain and just do my work earlier. ah well.
was kind of annoyed at not having checked last week's econ 102a pset cos i got some silly things wrong! sigh. must prioritize. and last night.. aiyoh. should've checked answers before hanging out and all that. oh well.. hope it'll be alright. anyway so i felt very free after having finished my 102a pset (half of it was done during class, haha.. reminds me of how i'd get influenced by serene and do other work during lectures.. just that now its wang ning who was doing that) so i went wandering around talking to people.
was trying to be a good mentor and went to find my mentees at okada but they were all not around! well like half of them weren't there so i was too lazy to go up to the third floor:p ohwell will just send them an email. then i wandered over to kimball to find yf but he wasn't there so i ended up talking to ian for a bit.. then wenqi and her roommate.. then came back and was talking to jackie for a bit then yf n jh came to look for me to talk about sealnet singapore. well also about thanksgiving cos after i found out from joon that she and her UIUC frens were going colorado we're both tempted to go too.. i need to decide quick quick quick! augh.
anyway so we ended up at yf's room and watched "whose line is it anyway" for a hour or so. some parts were really funny.. like there's this game where one person is having a party and then three people have to play specific roles (assigned beforehand) with some weird characteristic and the host has to guess wat they're playing. so, one of the guys had to pretend to be "an increasingly annoyed french pig looking for truffles" which totally cracked me up.. i think i really love animals. i think trying to act like an animal is hilarious. but i still prefer theatresports i think. dunno. i would say traditional improv, but i don't even know what that is! haha
woww praise god apparently i'm like 3rd highest for bio midterm.. which is pretty amazing given that i hadn't really been reading and stuff, but also thank god for a level bio which ensures that a lot of stuff is there in my brain already.. haha. whee!
ahh i don't know how to do this app. why are internships so hard to get:(
alright, that definitely took me longer than i expected, esp when i should've been writing my philosophy paper. okok i will do it now. the writing tutor was so taken aback yesterday upon discovering i hadn't started yet and it's due monady. oh well. :| i really hate the way i do things sometimes. actually, many times. bleah.
yesterday's natalie macmaster concert was lots of fun! although i don't really know my dormmates so that was a little tough. but anyway she and her band are SO energetic! it's crazy.. they're really good too.
our RFs are really nice, they paid for all our tickets.. aww. i think that's a much better job than last year, i don't think patrick ever did anything for us except friday night movies. and the only time i got emails from him was when like there was some trouble in flomo. but i guess he was the RF for the entire westflo whereas brent and barbara are RFs for just lantana (i think). maybe castano too? hm. anyhow and their dog stogey is sooo cute!! it so reminds me of boxer (my illegal unlicensed labrador-cocker spaniel fr 1992-1997 or something like that, i forget the dates). anyway i also guess it's easier to do stuff when you've a family to support you? or something.
philo paper philo paper! aahh. i guess if i don't finish i won't go for sealnet beach retreat tomorrow. and it'll allow me to do my tutoring too.
i am really going to change my template, but jackie as usual has her very encouraging comments about my stuff.. i'm like watever, i'm gonna do wat i like. but anyway, besides that, i need to get past this crazy week first. actually it isn't all that bad, it's just that having econ pset due on tues afternoon is a HORRIBLE time. well okay, i didn't start on the pset that early but there aren't office hours on fri and he only sent out the qns on thursday.
and today was a mad rush. from lunch to improv class (yay!) to philo class to swc (which kinda forces me to start on my philo paper, thankfully) to leadership workshop to tutor observations. and then i somehow ended up going for bible study (very very late though) even i wasn't really planning on going cos i was so late and i have so much work to do. okay i guess i don't really, but some things are just overwhelming when they're not done and they all come crashing down like a LOAD.
but i'm glad to say while i was at lunch (meeting pledges, wat a weird feeling!) and in improv i could forget all that and enjoy the moment(s). the only highlights of my day, really. oh and seeing nathan at casa was nice.
unfortunately, now i think i've worked myself into a lather (i.e. nervous wreck) trying to finish this stupid econ pset (i had to drop the first one cos i didn't finish in time) and it doesn't help that the TAs are refusing to answer questions specifically about the questions. and also that ahhh! forget it. i shall stop this.
i'm such a bad person. so much work to do and i'm blogging. (and i also spent like 4 hours at chi alpha b/c i was playing keyboard and helping to pack up). anyway.. just had to mini-document my bday celebrations.. heh.
so sunday i went to memchu w the guys instead of my own church cos david (the guy who's giving me a ride) was gonna go for late service and they'd arranged bday lunch for me already. memchu was interesting.. and listening to the choir (and the reverberations in memchu) reminded me of choir italy trip.. also reminded me of why i love(d) singing in a choir. it's so weird to remember something that happened a while ago and all the feelings come back. kind of.
and then it was so funny, cos we met at tresidder for jh and shineik to drive us to my lunch place (some peking duck place recommended by cs) and then when almost everyone arrived (except for the late sheep wangning cs n jeslyn) there was this rather-large circle and then i acutely realized how i was the ONLY girl there. it was actually kind of funny though. like. one girl at her bday lunch and like 10+ other guys. maybe that's why i have more non-sporean girl frens (also since there aren't many sporean girls to begin with). dunno. gd n bad.
it was so sweet though, they got me a cake (with my name! haha) on it and everything. aw. and we took up two tables.. kind of sad though cos didn't get to mix with everyone. oh lisa and isaac (grad students) biked over. n yf was like u're like bai3 jiu3 xi2 like that.. haha.
um. well then skip the rest of the day.. till midnight and then there's a knock on my door and sealnet pple are outside! awww. haha. reminded me of sean and co. last year.. really acutely too. cos it was sort of the same and i was almost expecting to see a crowd of pple i didn't know! which is really really weird cos there's no reason why that would happen this year but yeah. the thai scholars (minus mod, i don't know where that boy goes! he's never with the rest of them) jh yf tu viet gina etc. and ryan n dian came later.. oh and tu got me a cake and strawberries.. so cute. she is so sweet. & jh was like i've seen you 3 times to celebrate ur bday already. haha.
and soo many facebook posts! and emails frm pam n yh aw:) ecards frm peiying n ser.. calls from jane n megan n my ex-roomie.. feel the love!
i guess there isn't anything i really want to talk about.. other than a sudden influx of chinese pop songs is making me happy:) haha. need to do work! and i'm so scared for consulting interview:| and that i'm not doing enough for akpsi. and oh.. i don't know. so many things i don't know if i can cope. so lost in philo, feel like dropping the class but i kinda want to learn the whole logic stuff.. don't like econ 52 (macroecon) and also feel like dropping it (tcher is so weird!). rather sad state of affairs huh. but i went to gym today and i think i got quite a bit of bio read (or maybe that's cos i knew much of it frm a levels, thankfully)
weirdly i'm not as tired as i thought i might be.. maybe i'm still on an adrenaline high or something. but just now i really was quite tired. anyhow. i'm so glad the bbq went so well.. at least i think it did:) and yf & jh said it did. haha. and i'm sure a lot more people just that i can't remember at the moment. it was so surprising to see so many families though.. i'm wondering if they just came to stanford, or if they just decided to come cos of the national day msg emphasis on connecting back to singapore. but maybe i'm being too pessimistic and they came cos we did a good job of publicising. haha. ie daryl's flyer was very memorable:p
and it was so funny.. i guess i kind of suspected that they wanted to do something cos daryl was talking to viet n jh and i dunno who else and wanting me to go up on the balcony to thank pple for coming and stuff. but then after a while then i realized it was something to do with my bday cos they were being rather suspicious about it. so i refused to go up but daryl went up anyway and announced to the entire crowd of like 70+ppl that my bday's on monday.. slightly embarrassing to have the whole crowd singing happy bday to me but definitely memorable. haha.
i also know realize wat it's like to meet a TON of pple and then totally forget their names/faces a moment later cos i've met so many.. and then i feel bad about it too cos i wouldn't like pple to forget my name.. but there's only so much my poor brain can take. but i'm really glad so many pple came.. and organizing it with berkeley was cool. the guys and wenqi were all really sweet though, carrying stuff around and clearing up and getting everything done. am glad we've such a good team:) and the pple who crashed (tu and her roommate misha, daniel, yf's roommate ian, jh's roommate michael) were really nice and helped out with stuff too.. yay!
rush interviews in the morning were interesting. i had no idea wat to ask for the first interview.. and with kisha next to me asking all these really gd qns i was just like erh... haha. oh well. to learn. and then sitting in on the voting session later. makes me wonder wat they said about me last year. but again i also don't think i really want to know.. i heard tapiwa was really pushing for me, which i'm really grateful for too.
crepes at douce france were sooo yummy:) made me happy:) even with the driving-lesson-fiasco in the morning, which i shall not recount because it's nothing that i care to remember. i really really should sleep. i hope the berkeley guy took nice photos.. didn't get to talk to chim/other people too much, though.
sigh so its just the second week of school and i am so so busy. and rather stressed at points. i guess it isn't all that bad.. just crazy deadlines now and then.. anyway so very belated photos are finally here:
chim's cool attic room!
cute black dog i saw at berkeley.. its homeless though. or its owner is, i believe.
my soco room sign! cool huh.. apparently the company is some colgate something or other. symbol:CL
my soco room! yay for singles. although it was admittedly kind of small
my hair. although i think the photo wasn't too well taken, maybe i'll try again one of these days
anyhow. yes. lots of gripes but too tired/lazy to put them into words. its such a chore to tell people, even. haha. i'm getting ridiculously lazy.. really haven't done any work. and it doesn't help when jh instigates me to go over to kimball and slack at yf's room! but it was quite funny la. jokers. but it was raining! augh. yes. i was indeed very whiney about the rain.. do not like tramping around without any sort of cover when its raining! rained pretty hard.
so i kind of need to start figuring out wat i want to do i guess. the kiasu sporean mentality, when starting earlier will give you an edge. actually i think quite a number of pple here do that so it isn't all that edge-giving. haha. but really. how?? shelve that for the more pressing pset of the moment. ha.
sometimes i wonder what i'm doing in uni. i'm not really very interested in doing research papers or reading them, even. like. intellectual curiosity? i'm not exactly thirsting for knowledge the way my econ 52 prof seems to think we should be. i guess i just wanna have fun. epicurean? oh dear. maybe i'm just saying all this cos its late.
improv class is lots of fun though.. i laughed so hard in class today. haven't done that in a while besides talking nonsense with jackie about roasting ducks a couple of days ago. it's so interesting though, you've to accept offers to keep things going and in order to enjoy..
i am so exhausted. my mental faculties are completely dehydrated. and jackie says she's never heard of that line, but i quite remember reading it somewhere so either i'm so tired i'm spouting that much nonsense or i really did read it somewhere just that i don't really remember where:) ah well.
tutor institute was sort of a chore, but there were definitely useful things. and i totally didn't recognize ian, oops. i guess its somewhat like ben not realizing it was me at the sealnet table that day, since i hardly wear contacts (or dye my hair, haha). anyway it was kind of hilarious, i really didn't wanna do roleplaying for tutor institute but was forced to in the end, cos there's a grand total of 5 econ tutors and 4 of them are new and singaporean (zhihao the gambling guru, me, kiat, wangning). kiat left early and zhihao already roleplayed something. so it was like down to me and wangning. with richard and cs unsurreptitiously poking me, the person in charge (amy) was like "i see someone being volunteered" and of cos wangning didn't twitch a muscle so i was like i'll do it.. oh and it was a situation involving an econ tutor and a potential econ major whose math is very bad. so. had to be an econ tutor. ah well. i got an oreo + milk (which was nice).
oh sumo wrestling was hilarious too.. actually i really was not intending to do it.. but tet was quite on about doing it and while watching it was soo amusing so i figured, heck, it's not like i'll get to do this every day so just do lah. and of cos cs had to go back and get his camera so daryl can have more incriminating photos of me on the next eflyer. sigh.
speaking of which, so i've been bugging poor daryl to get the eflyer for fall bbq/mooncake festival out. so yesterday he finally sent it, and i didn't even realize until i opened my blinking adium window and jon was like "OH MY GOSH. he's done it again. HAHAHAHA". at first i was rather puzzled and was like "who?" then i guessed in a second and went "oh dear". jackie couldn't stop cackling when she saw it.. and said she would buy daryl a drink if he were the drinking sort. sigh. so i'm not sure, but friday at activities fair some masters sporeans recognized me (from the flyer maybe???) so it seems like my face is going to become unforgettable. well done. i think sometimes i feel somewhat like poor ser getting diaoed when we were back in rg/rj. haha. but in a different way.
alright i better sleep before i really conk out tomorrow.. still have so many things to do! and jackie was so amused at the way i exclaimed in tragic tones (upon seeing this email from my econ 102A prof) "i have homework! nooooo" apparently i provide a lot of entertainment somehow (with my batchmates, anyway), jackie's recording this list of "clar-isms" and has informed me that it's always on the top 5 list of word docs that she opens. photos next time.
ahhhh. it's 2am!:( i was definitely intending to sleep earlier to make up for my 7am day today (thanks to driving, man) and my 9am day tomorrow, but i ended up talking to jh for like. quite long. it was nice to have a good conversation though. although as we were discussing, wonder if that sort of connection can be made with americans. ponders. but again some sporeans end up marrying nonsporeans anyway so i'm sure sometimes these things must work.. ah well. probably depends on the person, i know a couple of americans who really like hanging out with asians and vice versa too.
oh it was really amusing listening to de wen after chi alpha too. augh i shall continue this tmr.
so it's actually kind of late (well, not really, but since school hasn't started i hope to sleep early. haha) but just had something to say. i had my first driving lesson today! it was kind of freaky, really. got in and then he started asking me all sorts of things i didn't know and i was like. oops. okay. i suppose i must've appeared like i haven't driven before.. but i guess my dad teaching me illegally doesn't really count cos all i was doing was parking, mostly. it just is different.
anyway so the instructor started asking me all sorts of questions which i couldn't answer so he was like, u'd better go read the book properly. i guess he was wondering how i passed the theory test. haha. it is kind of different applying theory to practical though. and then i've never driven more than like 30km/h with my dad whereas the instructor was like faster!! faster!! 25mph/30mph/40mph/...!
it was good in a way though, made me try more stuff and be more confident since i didn't really have much of a choice. haha. funny how things work sometimes. he claims guys are better than girls at driving. maybe cos they're less scared/better coordination. weird theories, but watever.
and yay everyone's back! had dinner w yf n jh n shineik n jesley. as usual i'm like the only non-batchmate. makes me wonder if i'm being extra sometimes but oh well. isn't as bad as being the only undergrad among grad students though:p oh yes i must go visit tianai sometime.. and it was so funny, i was tabling with cs at bechtel and we met some of the grad students-who-came-from-cornell. in which i told yuanjun that christina said he's very funny so he should entertain me! i think they think i was mad. but i really was quite mad that day so hm. it would be justified.
so yeah jh was driving and i think shineik was slightly alarmed by the way he was driving sometimes, it was really funny.. cos he'd swerve while talking to us and stuff (okay not that often, but when he did..) and shineik'd be like "yeah, but not when u're driving" or something like that. rofl.
ahh. kinda miss having sean n joel around. or have i said that already? the happy-go-lucky seniors. well they did get stressed but they were still really chill mostly haha:p i guess after 3 years you tend to be like that.
oh and ser's poster (i.e. my bday present) arrived today!! haha its so pretty yay:) i shall stick it up on my wall soon.. i need to figure out where my bamboo-scroll-thing-from-chinatown (spore) will go though.
ahhhh! i'm in such a crazy mood (i.e. my senile moods i.e. those where i make weird noises and laugh at every single little thing) but there's no one here to be crazy with me! chuansheng just looks at me like i'm mad, which i am, but that doesn't help.. sigh. where's ser when i need her. i think jackie would also think i'm mad. hmm. sigh.
anyway i'm so excited! i think my birkis have arrived.. but i only got the email from the wilbur housing office AFTER they closed. :( cos i was sooo busy this afternoon if not i'd be happily wearing them by now! -sulks-. oh well.
ohhh!!! and i saw roomie today! ahaha. so funny.. she colored her hair too. but definitely more obviously than mine.. pretty funky. haha. she said she didn't recognize me. and also that she liked my hair. and that i looked more sprightly so summer break did me well! i'm like.. hahaha okay i'm super sleep deprived by now.. 3h45 on thursday night and 3h45 on sunday night.. and having to wake up at 7 today to go help freshmen move in.. oh! i met the people who're staying in my (last year) room! so exciting.. haha.
sometimes its so weird. i feel like i get my energy from other people. or actually, kind of mood-swingy. sometimes i'll be like taciturn and zoning out and watever.. and then sometimes i'll suddenly be (relatively) more chatty and smiley and etc. so after today morning's "speech" by dean julie and all i was like ooh, it's time to be nice and friendly to the freshmen. dunno if that's coherent, but it is something i noticed. and brings me back to last year's pledging.. social events, i get energy from seeing pple like vivian and christine so bubbly.