today's dinner was fun! haha haven't seen kahli and yingling in ages.. silly pple:) and the food was good of cos:D and then i instigated them to eat gelato. k maybe not instigated, but i wandered over there to look:) and then kahli first accused me of making her fat, then accused poor yingling.
and working w leeting is funny. i mean, when i'm spouting nonsense. haha. haven't laughed so hard in many moons. which reminds me, i saw lots of stars tonight! so lovely:)
life's like a flower, needs sunshine, water, air, and a little butterfly. wat a cute quote! anyway, am a little tired. went rj to visit ser. i hate the way you can't walk into the staffroom and look for teachers anymore.. it's like back to the rg system which i didn't like in the first place cos u couldn't go in either.. but now u don't even do the calling urself, gotta ask the receptionist. ah watever. it's a new building but it doesn't have the cosiness of the old one. or maybe i'm just being green. haha.
and then went to meet ting at orchard library. oh yippee i found 2 more gerald durrell books!:D ahh anyway i feel rather slack, should be researching on stuff for the business thing but a bit sian of it after discussing almost the whole afternoon. it's like work. doing excel and graphs in the day is quite enough without having to do it at night. but i'll probably do my researching tmr morning. ahh.
but i had loads of fun spouting rubbish at leeting:) -smug- and i finally got ser's bday present (and therefore feel broke now) and i saw a cute square bag, maybe i'll go buy it tmr! haha.
i think i'm burnt. which is not good. actually being tanned is quite nice.. maybe i should get out in the sun more haha. anyway, wild wild wet was quite fun.. brought back the excitement of fantasy island days.. run around in the sun and stay wet the whole day.. it's really v refreshing.. hot sun and cool water! whee~
was just a pity i had to rush off to gao dim my missing sec sch report (augh i hope everything reached if not i'll hafta go bother poor mrs cheong again) and couldn't stay to meet jane.. oh! it was a pleasant surprise meeting yingheng at pasir ris mrt.. so unexpected! and very coincidental. and pam was actually early! well done pam (altho she won't read this but nvm) for having been early for 5 days.. it's a start.. haha.
i find reunion dinner excessively tedious. so so boring. but again that happens every year. esp since there is no one of my age at reunion dinner. and the pathetic state of reunion struck me most forcefully today when we started eating, silently. only sounds to be heard: the click of chopsticks and spoons against the ricebowls. i was just thinking to myself and pitying my family? i don't know who i was pitying actually.
and i never knew that particular uncle was so old. at first i thought he was late twenties, then i realised my bro's early twenties already so cannot be. so fine, late thirties? n ends up he's early forties. okay. maybe wat my nice french guy said was true, asians show their age later.
i foresee another boring day tmr. with any stretch of the imagination, one could never describe the relationship between me and my cousins (on dad's side) as being close. or even vaguely familial. i blame it partially on my dad cos he hardly ever keeps in touch with his siblings, so how'd u expect me to be close to my cousins? anyway, sometimes i don't really care either so whatever. and of cos the rest of it is probably my fault for not keeping in touch with them too.
at least it isn't so bad with mom's side. i'm not so close to them anymore but still. i hear about them and stuff.. i think we meet up a teeny bit more regularly. when i was young (i was about to write small, but decided against it cos some pple will probably tell me "u're still small") i remember visiting cousins a lot more. sigh. the days of childhood. anyway, at least i still can ask my cousin abt her orientation and piano and all that, hopefully she has nice funny stories to tell. it's quite sad how children's innocence is lost though. she used to say the silliest things but now getting more serious already. or maybe less talkative. dunno.
let me see. ah yes. and visiting church fren's house. as usual, probably no one my age will be around so i'll be bored stiff again. i don't even think she has nice interesting magazines around so watch me perfect the art of stoning tomorrow. :) .
actually the idea of chinese new year as a renewing old ties festival and all that is quite appealing.. i was watching cars during the long journey from my house to simei and saw a lot of families.. n my mom was saying cny is to us wat xmas is to usa/uk/australia/etc.. but still, i don't like cny for the most part. the only things i appreciate at the moment are the food, money (even then i don't feel particularly comfortable accepting money frm pple i hardly know. actually i don't like accepting money frm people. fullstop.)
this is also partly why i wouldn't mind being overseas next year and escaping all this. i'll probably feel quite different if i end up overseas but the grass elsewhere always seems greener. k i sound quite pathetic. but those are the inevitable thoughts that pop up.
something i found while clearing out mail. picked out the funnier ones:)
A clear conscience usually signifies a bad memory
If you think no one cares about you, try missing a couple of payments
Bills travel through the mail at twice the speed of checks
Borrow money from pessimists-they don't expect it back
To steal ideas from one person is "plagiarism"-to steal from many is "research"
Don't steal. The government hates competition
Don't suffer from insanity-enjoy every minute of it
Lead me not into temptation, I can find it myself
Few women admit their age, few men act it
Some people are alive only because it's illegal to kill them
He who laughs last thinks slowest
Madness takes its toll-please have exact change ready
Friend help you move. Real friends help you move bodies.
We are born naked, wet, and hungry. Then things get worse.
Hard work pays off in the future. Laziness pays off now
I used to have a handle on life, then it broke
Change is inevitable, except from a vending machine
Don't take life too seriously-none of us get out of it alive
Time is what keeps everything from happening at once
Laugh alone and the world thinks you're an idiot
There are 3 kinds of people, those who can count and those who can't
As long as there are exams, there will be prayer in public schools
On the other hand, you have different fingers
If at first you do succeed, try not to look astonished
last day of work. time to reminisce. one month only and i felt sad enough at the end of the day.. i think i should only take up one-week jobs or sth haha.
anyway, finally finished deleting vice pres's emails.. it was so funny.. cos secretary sed he'd be back aft lunch so i just headed straight for his office when i got in in the morning. and stopped short. upon seeing him inside. and she laughed at me. so bad! hmph. and while i was deleting emails, mr nice french guy happened to notice me on second look and said "new boss eh?"
ah yes, latest update on mr nice guy.. i managed to talk to him! waha:) i think he was slightly taken aback when i appeared in his office and asked for his card. as did the rest of the pple i've never talked to. and i realised his looks are definitely not of very high calibre. but he is really nice. and he's the only one who thinks i look older than i am! rofl. he asked me if i was doing my bachelors. cos according to him, asians look younger than they are. (and so does he, that's why he's here. well.) and he was born in western africa! i can't remember why he told me that, but that is so fascinating.. exactly the kind of pple i'd like to meet in uni.. exotic. or so i think? haha. right i'd better stop talking abt my nice guy if not pple like ser n aud will accuse me of gushing.
i wish i'd gotten a chance to chat better w mr lawyer though.. he didn't seem particularly inclined to chatting today cos he's going off to france tonight for holiday.. but he's quite nice too.. i think he's the only one who apologised for giving me boring work haha. so cute. and so.. different. nobody would apologise for that. then he said it's cos he knows, he's done the same thing not too long ago or sth like that.
i think i'm going to do a person-by-person-description like wat i did in my diary. secretary! she's actually quite fun.. seems a bit like a da jie to me, dunno why. maybe cos she likes calling me xiao mei mei. yesterday's gossip session was v amusing:p but today she was kind of serious. maybe cos boss is back la haha.
p. lea. regional tech service manager. long name. so i shall just use her abbreviation. she's funny.. a bit blur one. haha. and kept accusing me of not being able to finish her work.
aiyah i'm too lazy to write the rest. actually not that much stuff to say also. just felt v sad when they were all so nice and wishing me all the best cos it's my last day. well. first job is done.. now to slack around a bit.
was just feeling so so blue. let me be melodramatic and say something about "life stripped of all its illusions". yesterday and today i guess. i can't remember what i was doing on monday but monday seemed alright.. oh! monday was lunch w lyd then neverland w fiona. alrite i think it started after the show then. i think colorgenics is only accurate when i'm not happy. am not going to cut and paste the whole thing cos it would bore anyone who's still reading this to bits. haha. or maybe i just believe in it cos of my current mood.
anyway. nevermind about that. haha! spent the morning sitting in the vice president's office deleting more of his emails. (there're like 5 vice presidents in all, of the different divisions. it's actually quite weird cos i don't think there're any presidents of the divisions. haha. senseless names. like chris said.) so when pple happened to notice me sitting there, they'd make remarks to the secretary outside such as "(v/p) has shrunk" and "!! how come (v/p) became so small!" haha. i was most amused. so fun to surprise pple.
and then my direct boss (the guy whom i report to most of the time) took mc for the afternoon so i ended up in his office to write cds. haha. spend my last days occupying others' offices. but it's quite fun! haha:p anyway, after writing like 40 cds and spending 2.5hrs on that, i decided to manufacture an errand down to the 22nd floor to ask the computer technician if there was any way to speed up the writing and she was SO horrified when she heard i'd been writing the cds one by one. i felt silly. and cheated. oh well. secretary didn't know that there was a cd-writing machine downstairs which could do 5 at a time..
and then comp tech said i mite have spoilt my boss's computer/cd drive/watever oops. actually, i just realised something. once i started the 2nd batch (secretary started the 1st batch of 20 off for me, and said i could do 40 the next time and finish it off) i felt this nagging unease when the 1st cd took so long to burn. so i checked it on my own comp, but didn't think to open the files to check. sigh. how stupid can clar get. i thought as long as the files appeared they should be working. evidently my brain has atrophied. anyway, so i ended up wasting 20 cds (can't open the powerpoint files on some computers, queerly). yeah.
sometimes i think my mom's right about how i should listen to my intuition. and then sometimes i'll suspect everything's a farce. sounds schizophrenic huh. but again this not-checking-the-files-thing is an example of my own stupidity. i almost always open up the files to check.. don't know why i didn't do it this time.. thus my conclusion that my brain is gone. haha.
anyway, so i spent the last 2 hours checking the previously-burnt cds and doing the rest. but still have 10 left, so i'll finish them up tmr and go look for the lawyer to do his photocopying. oh! today i found out the name of the french guy who sits near the pantry. actually, he's the best looking one around (k i know i sound terribly desperate here, but one has to rely on one's own devices for amusement at work), probably he's the youngest i think? haha. anyway he's a trainee from france! i was rather surprised they'll send pple here to train. evidently i don't think much of my own country, this is terrible: but at least i think his name suits him haha.
alright i'm in a better mood now yay. blogging is cathartic. and also thanks to lijia for cheering me up:) it's really nice to know someone actually misses me. i think like lyd (and lijia too, just now) said, one gets very lonely at work unless u're working w friends like pying/joon/jiahui. and i just complained about being lonely last week i think. luckily i'm finishing work, will take lijia's place as the go-find-working-pple-to-lunch-with person. :) hope my headache goes away...
haha i think chris is right, working makes u get weird dreams. or maybe i'm over-worrying as usual about stuff. anyway, i was really really restless in the morning, luckily i found a way to direct my energy somewhere else! went to orchard library to find gerald durrell books.. and at first i didn't see any! then the librarian came past with the trolley and -taadaa- gerald durrell. so i grabbed it and then suddenly found a few more books on the shelf i didn't notice earlier. crazy clar.
ah anyway i had a good time laughing, haven't finished the book yet though. i had to work to keep from laughing out really loud in office:p at least it made me in a better mood yeah. in between scanning stuff. it's really amazing how mind-numbing/boring anything can get if you repeat it enough times. anyway, then i got to go to the vice president's office to delete emails! hahaha:D felt v powerful sitting in his room (and chair) haha. like. super dua pai. -gleeful- then one lady passed by and remarked "(v/p) changed ah? better looking eh" i couldn't stop laughing.
yay.. i shall do my work slowly tomorrow so i can xiang shou his office for a bit longer:p before he returns on thurs. as it is, in 2 hours i think i finished more than 1/3 of the stack already. sadly in a way:p oops. and yes, my work ends on friday. it depends on how i want to look at it, whether it's a gd thing or a bad thing. good: i get to do something else. different job lar. and, i get to spend some time doing my own stuff like visiting rg/rj (and also finally getting round to scholarship apps). bad part is i'll miss the place and the pple. for a while. it doesn't do to get too attached to things, i've learnt. like i said, depends on the individual.
okies i shall go enjoy my book! whee~
ah. got back frm watching neverland w fiona around 1/2h ago. the ending is so sad. i wish it wasn't so sad. but anyway, i don't really like kate winslet haha. and i think johnny depp's better as a pirate although his acting here is quite gd too.. it was like during the pirate ship scene.. totally reminded me of caribbean.. i think he's in his element there.. the best pirate i've ever seen! and the child actor is so cute:) and says the funniest things.. to burst barrie's bubble. haha. i think i shudn't have watched all the clips before watching the movie though. kind of takes away the fun. anyway, it was a good show:) tho bit short i think? at least it's not draggy like aviator. i couldn't believe it [aviator] was ~3hrs.
yeah.. next johnny depp show: willy wonka. k i sound like a groupie, as jan calls it. and my racing stripes movie. but i don't think that one will be worth $6.50. looks a bit frivolous/slapstick. i don't know. just an impression.
i also have this feeling my work won't be extended, therefore i'll be jobless by next week. oh well. means i can go back to rj and disturb aud n ser. and also disturb fiona one day:) and visit tchers in rg. haven't seen mrs kwan in ages. i hope she's at rg.
okay i don't know why i'm feeling blue. maybe cos it's monday. feeling rather pessimistic about results/unis at the moment. sigh. rather worrying, no interviews yet. okay this is like self pity time, i'd better stop it and go do something else. tmr will be a better day.
oh! lunch w lyd was fun:) haven't talked to her alone in ages. if that makes sense. i should meet pple more often. horrible kahli still hasn't confirmed dinner. grr.
ooh.. i found out his name! haha. by chance. and the lady whom i poured questions upon told me he's the -senior- manager of business dvpt. why the emphasis on "senior", i have no idea. but he was on leave today, how tragic haha:p and this other french guy talked to me! actually i also dunno how come he suddenly decided to talk to me but anyway. i asked him wat it was that he did and then he said he's a lawyer and i was stunned for a while. guess i just assumed everyone who sat in a room (or cubicle, as chris calls it? but cubicle sounds tiny) was either a manager or vice president of some division haha. but it was a nice and interesting albeit short conversation.
so, i'm now left wondering where the 3 weeks have gone. at first i thought short jobs were good, couldn't see how pple could tie themselves down for 6 months even before starting. but i guess long jobs are good as in u familiarise urself with everyth and all that. cos now, just as i'm getting into the rhythm of stuff and noticing other stuff, it's almost time to go! sigh. unless i get lucky and they extend it to end feb and i get to learn/do other stuff. but the thing is, once i leave, i probably won't think about it much unless i compare with my next job. well we'll see wat happens.
ah and as i was telling chris just now, somehow foreigners seem more interesting. probably cos they're different. it's interesting to observe all the different pple who come in. maybe only cos it's a regional office though. but still, i think a normal french company would be fun too. oh chris, if u happen to read this, thanks for calling, it was fun!:D haven't talked on the phone for quite a long time i think.
and i was so so so annoyed with the bus today. took like practically 20+mins for a horrible 171 to come la! grr. my feet were dying as it was. and i still have no idea wat bag to buy for serene. blah. but artiris is a really nice shop!:) i love the shirt designs.. but they're quite ex. but i suppose that's wat u pay for handpainted stuff. v pretty! but no dragonflies!:(
song stuck in my head today: all i know of love - barbra streisand & josh groban
usually it's yanni's for all seasons. it's such a fun upbeat song:)
anyway that's all for today. i have noticed something. i daydream a lot. and spin the most curious fantasies until night time before i collapse on my bed. then i sleep (and dream of the weirdest things sometimes) and wake up all sane again. and then the cycle repeats. but what would life be if one is always planted firmly in reality? i think i'm reading too much. haha.
ah. forgot to say that yesterday after lunch, at around 2, i finished all my graphs and was left with nothing to do! haha. i was most amused. (okay today i found out i forgot to put in one country but well, that's besides the point). so i walked around 23rd floor asking pple if they needed help, and none of them did! wahaha. so i went down to 22nd floor. (where my cute french guy is! haha) and this lady decided to give me a handphone to input phone numbers into. it's actually more tiring than computer i think. cos u only use ur thumbs. (quote lydia "this was a rather long sms conversation. my thumbs are tired")
anyway so i finished (had to rush a bit cos had to reach rj before 5 to get my stuff frm general office, luckily got a lift frm parents). and reached rj at like 4.50 or 55 haha. the person in the office was like "u come at the eleventh hour". that is so true. sigh. i always do things super last minute. but it wud be a bit too slack to ask to leave at 3 rite.. even if i have nothing to do.
wanted to visit frens in staffroom but they went home already (and i din noe aud was training! bah.) so went to visit choir juniors. and saw the j1s! suddenly everything's a bit more alien. i guess it's always like that. luckily reggie was there haha. fellow j3. decided i cudn't wait 1.5h for them to finish. and i think it wud've been quite awkward too anyway. went j8, attempted to find ser's present. rather unsuccessful, but it's alright. i think there's just sth with me.. it's like i can shop forever and not buy anything, but one day i'll just see sth and *snaps fingers* that's it! of course that doesn't always happen all the time so i'll just settle for second best.
lemme see, today everyone came back! haha so bustling again. i guess it's more fun having more pple around. but can't slack so much either. and i ended with more graphs and excel stuff to finish:s price to pay. oh well. and more pple come so i can look around more haha. it's more interesting when more pple appear. then can evaluate their looks. haha. making life more fun for myself, it's inevitable when you don't wish to stare at the comp all the time.
and i also figured that work is more about the pple than wat u're doing. i think. cos i think i'll miss my colleagues quite a bit.. even though i don't talk to them much lar but well. they're nice pple. like e french guy! haha. he's so cheerful and greets everyone. yeah. i guess it's cos he actually bothers to say hi to me sometimes. and he looks quite pleasant. haha. there's this other french guy who sits straight in line of the pantry so everytime i go to get my tea i'll have to open the door and will make some noise and end up disturbing him in a way. and the vice pres, who actually somehow reminds me of a bear. must be the deep growly voice.
and the secretary's so cute, in the morning she came in carrying a pot and i was like huh? is that a plant? and she proudly informed me how it's been 2 years ago or sth and the plant's thriving! it was from a fundraising event. and then there was this other time when 2 of the managers were "squabbling" about cutting queues cos 1st they both wanted to talk to the secretary about something, then they (again) both wanted to talk to another manager about something, and one of them accused the other of cutting queue twice.
oh and then today they were talking about the pirated vcds or dvds they brought back frm penang.. so funny:p one of them was saying she was so scared cos they do random checks and a few pple in front of her got singled out.. and then someone else was saying she got ocean's twelve! all the cute guys in there! haha. sth like jiahui saying her seniors (at work) were talking about movies today and then before meetings they'll be like "i sit w u k?" and go round asking who wants to sit with them.
yup. so my conclusion is that work is more about the people. unless u end up with some very technical/research-orientated job or sth. and all the managers are forever on the phone or discussing stuff w other pple and the doors are mostly open, so i've picked up the habit of just listening to the tone instead of the content. rather interesting. but sometimes i make wrong assumptions abt them since i don't know them v well.
i think it's v nice to have teachers who're likeable. in general. i mean, imagine having to learn stuff from someone u didn't (or couldn't) like. how sad. i think that happened for quite a few of my piano teachers previously. i remember going thru like 10 potential teachers before i settled on one for grade 8. and that was partly only cos i liked the studio:p picky clar huh. yeah i know.
anyway, wow, tmr's friday again. time flies when your days are packed. good and bad lar.
oh! wait. today i went for this lunchtime concert thingy at vch.. they played such showy pieces.. like wow. i've never seen a violin played like that. but again i don't go for that many concerts so haha. but still. rather amazing! n met wuiming and krishna, pleasant surprise! i had to rush back to work though:s was already late as it was.
so, hope i have a great day tmr! haha i have a new outlook on work so don't have to sympathise w me so much anymore. i shall make life interesting for myself. but that's probably cos the worst of the graph-excel-stuff is over. which is good. i need different things to do. i wouldn't mind continuing for a while if they'd give me a variety of stuff to do.. it's quite nice to have a half-french envt haha. and i think the office is in a superb location. but maybe i've said all that already. oh well.
wahaha today is really slacker fest cos next to nobody's around on my side of the office plus i've kind of finished my stuff. i mean, i guess i could draw more graphs but i'm not sure she wants them. haha. i'll do them later. must leave some work lar.
and i just walked around my office. for the first time. luckily no one else much was around.. seems like the whole 23rd floor houses managers! k that sounds weird but nvm. i shall go down to 22nd floor and walk around later haha. this is fun.
and yay! if the papers are correct chow yun fat will be in the sequel for pirates.. 2 fav actors in there whee! ok i'm going a bit mad. time for lunchy lunch soon:D and i shall go buy my stuff frm bras basah too.
ooh. just watched the thomas crown affair. cool show. rather exciting! haha. the way he confused all the police at the end was quite amusing.
anyway. i took a super long lunch break today oops:s and then i left 10mins early haha:p oops. but if i rush everyth today i'll have nothing to do tmr! not that i mind lar but well. have to leave =some= stuff to do;D maybe i'll sew my handphone pouch rofl. then i'm sure to get work from the rest. but well, the luxury of having all the managers off at the seminar. haha:D
and they changed my laptop to a huge computer today! i mean a normal pc but it's huge compared to the laptop. ah well. the only problem is that it obstructs my view. and i think the whole world can see my screen even more clearly now. not that i care.
oh! there's this cute french guy in my company haha. not cute as in good-looking but boy-cute. he's always so happy and cheerful and polite. but i've no idea wat his name is. ah well.
okies i better go finish my forms and get more sleep. today i felt like sleeping at 3pm again. it must be inborn instinct. and i shall go design my pouch! whee~ making stuff is fun. haha. i think i must be a maniac. all the mood swings.
haha i think i must've complained too much on my blog. but thanks to everyone who sympathised with me abt hating my job lar haha. i feel loads better now! it must be the disney movie. i think disney movies have a feel good factor. k this sounds suspiciously like mr chan ty on our bio prelim paper but shuddup clar, no more things abt exams.
lala. k i have been asking pple to eat lunch/dinner w me. so i won't feel lonely anymore! k i sound super deprived. but anyway yeah miss pple loads.
this stupid lizard keeps coming out everyday and making me scream. it's as if it owns the house!grr. whack it. anyway, hopefully my good mood persists. or prolongs itself. whichever. lalala.
oh! i forgot to write about the eating-at-mrt station incident. actually there were 2 lar. once at eunos.. was waiting for aud ting pam to come and for jiahui to change.. and was eating dinner (bread) while looking at the map to figure out where the cc was so we'd noe how to walk there. then this attendant or watever u call him came up to me and said "no eating in the station" and told me to move to the entrance of the mrt (which was like maybe 3 metres away). super spastic. i'm sure i'm going to pluck off bits of bread and fling them around.
and then another day in the morning i was eating pineapple tarts in the car.. so i was still eating when i reached the bukit batok mrt.. so i stuffed the rest of the tart into my mouth and fished my wallet out and went in. and then unless i heard wrongly or sth, the guy told me to eat slowly. was rather amused:p
i think i've become a horrible person. hmm. or maybe over-perfectionistic. or over-critical. or over-demanding. yeah that sounds about right. anyway. i was thinking about this last night. or maybe this morning. dunno lar. suddenly remembered the quote (i have no idea where it's from) : eyes are the window to one's soul. really? i don't seem to agree. or maybe i'm just not discerning enough.
it's so weird. i feel like i haven't seen my friends in ages when i just met them on monday. hmm. and suddenly feel lonely. like nobody wants to talk to me. or i don't want to talk to pple. funny huh. maybe staying at home and sleeping 11hrs on both days does something to you.
i also think my lethargy has reached new levels. my determination seems to be at an all-time low! either that or work saps all my energy (convenient excuse huh). all i end up doing is lie on the bed and read and read and read. and i haven't finished half the books i read last year. aiyoh. wat a real pig.
oh! and my mom told me that my aunt and her colleagues say my hair's v untidy! they work 18 floors below me, and apparently can recognise me even though I only went to her office once. weird pple. oh wait there was this other time when they said i'm always smsing or sth. i'm really most bemused. the way people gossip is scandalous. i hope i don't do that. like gossip about pple i don't even know and criticise all sorts of things.
wonder what cny will be like this year. same old boring stuff. i wonder how my lil cousin's finding nygh haha. that'll be interesting at least. maybe she'll have some funny things to tell me:) somehow i think my family's quite isolated. or maybe that's just what i think.
and i dunno why i'm suddenly getting worried about results all over again. sigh. maybe it's the time to wallow in self misery so everyth that comes to mind is nothing happy.
oh yes and one night i had this super weird dream that i suddenly had another sister (slightly older than me) whom i knew next to nothing about, and was typing in her income data or sth into the computer. result of combination of work & listening to frens' stories abt rich pple.
mixed-up me. nevermind, maybe tmr'll be better if i don't have some other weird dream. haha. oh! i forgot if i sed this, i want to watch finding neverland! i hope it wins lots of awards haha. (and johnny depp of cos). raving johnny depp fan here. k lar i only like pirates and probably this show too but well. oh and racing stripes looks cute, but the voicing over seems quite.. dunno. doesn't really fit what I thought it would be like. from the clips i watched. nvm, having the horse-racing in is probably good enough haha.
warning: do not read if you don't want to hear me whine. a lot.
i'm busy wallowing in self pity now cos i hate my job. it's undescribably monotonous. and unbelievable mind-numbing (and finger-numbing too i might add). i have 5 more graphs to draw manually. and 2 more to do w the computer. i hate the sight of computers now. wails. and i couldn't find myself any nice and cheap food to eat!:( the curry puff wasn't nice. i must go find nicer curry puffs. i miss the rj muslim stall one:(
anyway, yes, and i am totally sick of excel files, and anything remotely to do with lubricants, whether automotive or industrial. and the HR manager seems to have this knack of walking out when I'm doing something not work-related. oops. heck, they had better pay me my 1000 bucks. or more, if i work more than a month. grr.
let me see what else i can complain about. and sick of doing formulas for summing stuff and taking weighted averages. and oh! yes. i'm quite convinced i got the carpal tunnel syndrome (okay lar today my right hand doesn't hurt so maybe i'm well already haha) thanks to their work. feel like sueing them. click click click click. growl.
and they don't even have nice things in the pantry. ah. my train of thought has derailed cos ser came online to save me haha. the only thing vaguely interesting i got to do was to do name tags haha. the cutting's actually quite fun:p k yeah i'm deprived, i noe. but really, when u're stuck with excel and graphs on powerpoint, you start to appreciate little things a lot more.
ah! yesterday i was v sad cos there was no bed and i wanted a nap. (sleeping at 2 doesn't really make u feel v awake in the afternoon) and then when i told my parents that last night they were so amused. but really! i was so tired and wanted to sleep and there was nowhere comfy:(
i think my brain cells are being depleted by this. more damages to claim. haha. if only.
k well back to stupid graphs. i keep forgetting wat i was going to say.
oh wait i just remembered sth. this office is so freaking cold it's like winter. if i stayed here any longer i'd become a snowman. or ice queen. crazy lar. dunno why they need the aircon to be so cold. i mean like fine, performances like cirque du soleil, the performers might sweat and that's quite dangerous so they need lower temps but here?? ....
quotes of the day from peiying. cos they're the only 2 i remembered
lyd talks about her pay, and how she spends it on clothes and all that.
peiying: nxt time when pple ask u where's your pay? answer = "i'm wearing it"
chris: oh.. u noe.. shining and her boyfren are in paris!
peiying: i don't know shining. but i know paris!
anyway, dinner was funny.. trust chris to dump the ice cream in knowing that the chocolate'd overflow.. shud've taken a photo of that haha. and also trust lydia to refuse anyth with the slightest trace of ice cream inside:p and lijia's peas on the table, and attempts to cover them using the paper/plate (oh no! the waitress cleared the plate!) and tissue. and the great overturning pizza. it was really good seeing everyone again:) smaller groups work better.
although i must admit i was in a terrible mood while i was walking there. everyone knew my phone wasn't working. yet at 7.15 i called chris, no answer. called joon. "we were waiting for u to call" "ur phone really can't call ah?" & before that "ok 7 at giordanos so u wun have any problems later". after i msged everyone and set the time and place and everything and at 7pm, nobody is to be seen. k i'm probably over-reacting as usual but anyway, at that moment i was quite annoyed. but, at least everyone else decided where to eat earlier if not we'd waste more time deciding. and i didn't say anyth at dinner cos i didn't want to spoil everyth. figured it's quite stupid to organise something and ruin it. plus it's hard to stay mad at such lovely pple haha. anyway, it's over. and not a big thing.. just that i wasn't in a gd mood to begin with so got rather grumpy.
oh yes, my phone! i wanted to lodge a complaint but apparently it's not really their fault either so i can't. darn. anyway, yes. finally, on saturday, after visiting samsung shop at centrepoint to check out why i can't enable wap, we found out i have to change my sim card. (here i'm already wondering wat kind of service singtel is giving but apparently a few pple had to change card too, so watever). so, went to the hello shop at westmall and the guy says, tuesday the new sim card will be activated.. around noon u can't use the old card to call out. so, fine, i'll just remember to bring the card on tues to change. but taadaa! today, at 12-sth, when i try to msg ser to ask her abt her bag, my phone doesn't work. -alarm bells go off-. well done, singtel. congratulations on your efficiency. but you have also succeeded in inconveniencing me for the rest of the day. i wouldn't have really cared if i were at home, just switch the card. but u wudn't expect me to carry the card around w me everywhere when they said tuesday!
anyway, on a happier note, i got my cd! wahaha:) haven't had time to listen yet though. and i finally settled two very long-belated bday presents:s now for the next 2 haha. i feel poor. where's my pay?? aah. time to sleep. so so tired.
ah.i should've followed my instincts on friday night and not gone. but again, it wasn't really instincts. i think? anyway pity we din get to kayak aft all cos fuzzy din call them earlier to ask or sth like tt.. and jiahui was still sick, and pam cancelled for dunno wat reason.
so ended up watching aviator. wasn't exactly my cup of tea (plus it was super long). n we shud've read the synopsis before going haha was a bit lost there. i did feel like watching a movie but nothing really appealed yest.
nvm, i've found nice movies to watch: finding neverland and racing stripes! haha it looks super cute.. saw it in australia:) i hope it's nice! lala. and actually i'm only watching finding neverland cos there's johnny depp haha. i sound like a groupie. and the show's supposed to be good anyway. and i shall get my cd tmr. once i can decide which cd and where to buy it from haha.
and i made konnyaku jelly today! a bit too sweet and a bit too soft.. nvm still got 2 more packets to experiment with haha. and drove today. illegally i mite add. but well i think i'm getting the hang of it. there's an awful lot of things to remember. why's it so tedious.. it goes for everything lar. except for maybe piano or sth, i dunno.
*yawns* i took a 2 hr nap and am still tired. i shud stop being so lazy:( nvm tmr's dinner should be gd:) yumyumyum .but i foresee feeling rather poorer aft that.
haha. 2nd day i have dinner at home. lala. i'm wondering if i shud go kayak tmr. mmm.
anyway. yeah let's complain about work a bit more. it's so stupid! haha. k i dunno why i suddenly became so anti-work.. but after i drew like 10 graphs manually i had enough. oh no! i drew 11! yes. got so angry and irritated. grumpy clar. but really.. temps do all the stupid things. like kahli told me today she had to "carry boxes. or key in millions of small data for them. i should sue them for eyesight damage". haha good old glad. anyway my sentiments exactly! bleah. as quoted frm her sms in the morning.
oh yes i had enough and i walked to bras basah to buy sth and took half an hour:D as it is i was in a bad enough mood. i wonder why. maybe it was cos i cudn't decide wat cd to buy haha (and still haven't decided even now heh). or it was bcos of lunch!
ah yes. lunch. they tried to cheat me lar! give promotion and then charge me the usual price.. i mean okay lar the usual price one is when u get green tea as well but how was i supposed to noe.. and then the guy making sushi kept bothering me when i was flipping thru the menu.. i was like i'll look at it myself already and he -still- asked "do u want udon? or rice? or .." i was super pissed off lar. partly because b4 he asked, the waitress already asked me the same qn and i sed i'll look at the menu. like hi, if i say something, maybe i actually mean it? man. anyway, apparently the waitress didn't write down the food number correctly so cashier made a mistake. ah yes and they were all looking very sulky. don't like to serve pple then go do sth else lar! ah i seem to complain a lot today. but it's friday lar, i've survived a full work week so can't blame me haha.
i was going to talk about something else.. oh! yes. i spend my mornings thinking about where i'm going to eat lunch and what i'm going to eat. mornings as in train ride plus some part of working time haha. it's actually quite fun lar. like i was telling candice, lunch = eat nice food of own choice + go nice place also of ur own choice + shop (in an attempt to justify myself because she accused me of "succumbing to serene's witchery"). and like ting sed, the highlight of the day haha. oh and today i walked into delifrance and bought myself a mushroom quiche. so yummy! they usually slice up the mushrooms so there're only bits left? but this one was like big juicy chunks.. mm.. and creamy haha. oops. but delicious!:D
ah yes and then my boss (e guy in charge of me), upon seeing my completed graphs, decided i had a bright future. because i can plot graphs? right. and then i spent the rest of the day (actually less than 2 hours cos i went for my short shopping trip wahaha) typing out pple's names. and cutting paper. haha actually cutting paper was fun lar just that it's quite dumb. i actually think working is just another way to torture oneself. for the money. but i think i've said that before so nvm..
alrite. so i'm going kayaking after all. let's hope i still can perform normal functions with my arms on sunday. nevermind, it's a sort of exercise anyway. and i hope i dun get those fibreglass thingies:s remember claire got some splinters during obs n it was terrible:
yeah k given that i'm probably going to have to wake up at 7 (wails! my only free day and i can't wake up late! i'm going to take leave on monday man..) to get to pasir ris. sigh.
right. 4th day of work and i'm finally home for dinner (just in time to catch last episode of double happiness. haha.)
anyway, i hope they don't think i spend too much time on the phone at work haha. like i called chris yesterday n talked for some time. and today was calling up to find out abt stuff. but that didn't take v long lar. just that i had to make quite a few calls:p oh well. let's hope they gimme a pay raise. everyone else seems to be earning more than i do! grr. oh quite funky they had three galettes des rois today. i found out the big boss is an englishman! weird. i always thought the french guy was the boss oops. cos he had his own secretary. if that's what she is.
and i think temps have v sad jobs. all the boring tedious stuff gets dumped at them. but i can't imagine without a temp, they hafta do it themselves?? augh. i must really find a job that i'll like. i wonder why pple have to torture themselves like that. haha. self-inflicted misery. but again that's probably my pessimistic view. since my aunt actually enjoys her job cos she likes organising stuff.
oh actually my office has quite a good location:) btwn city hall and bugis! yeah. very convenient to buy stuff haha. just that i dun think raffles city is particularly gd for buying stuff sometimes. anyhow.. yeah.. everything's beginning.. hope my lessons are fun! and coaches are good of cos:) tho i still haven't gotten round to scholarship apps:s somehow i dunno how i'm going to get myself a scholarship. and uni apps how? :s better not to think liao ergh.
i'm so tempted to shop somemore. bleah. oh yes going to work leaves u with rather little time to do much else. rush rush rush. today's work was terrible lar. mind-numbing. at least that's done. and now i have i/o to do.. which will be worse cos there're more categories.. pray for my sanity please. and those graphs! i can't believe u've to do it manually? i must make sure i think of sth better. grr. manual graph-plotting is quite a waste of time. but maybe it's faster than thinking of alternative methods. bah. n i dun understand they refuse to gimme a log scale. none of my numbers are negative or zero! :(
oh!! yeah went back to rj to visit choir yesterday.. haha we spent like 15mins trying to find lt4! and it's really pathetic.. nobody knew where lt4 was lar. not even j2 councillors. haha. quite funny actually. ah well. anyway, talk about nostalgia. first, i remembered the music. then, i remembered the times when we had drilling and i got so sick of it. but i guess to reach the standard u hafta drill huh. hmm. i don't think i can sing anymore! no more abs:( haha.
anyway, was good to see juniors again:) silly darryl n kp.. one could video them and send it to america's funniest videos and perhaps win.. and jinjie, trying to look tanned?? i realised i hadn't seen chernise in ages.. like open house i saw most of them i think..
alrite.. let's hope tmr is a better day.. and thurs i'll get to see pam finally.. long time since i talked to that girl. and oh dear i think i was spposed to msg lyd abt dinner! oops. and i wonder when joon will decide to have dinner. heh.