yay! for a long while i haven't felt so relaxed. actually can go out n eat haha. sound seriously deprived. but the past few weeks have been crazy.
yeah bio test was hilarious. i've never felt this unprepared. and last night i was just so tired.. couldn't get anything much in.. and now i really understand why mr chan says one cannot chiong biotech last minute. but well. i think if i were marking the scripts i'll be laughing endlessly. esp the bacteriophage qn. like. haha. benzene ring n spaceship control centre n laser gun turrets? rofl. and i wrote down the grape name for wine instead of the microoorganism. man.
tumdeedum. although i've to do analogue tut by tmr. but feels good to not to be so busy. yeah. and i have concluded i've become a rather good stoner nowadays [fossil rite haha] i really must go watch land before time.. and see sarah the spoilt triceratops haha.
oh yes and nice movies are coming out:) like troy n shrek 2 n harry potter heh. oh yes and i must go eat icecream with lijia sometime:) and joon too! though i dun think either of them reads my blog hmm. but nvm. note to myself.
anyway. yay! no night prac on friday either. yeah. am in quite a happy state of mind cos tests for this week are over and i've a bit of time to chill. really need it:)
haha for once i think this is going to be a slightly more sane entry. anyway. yeah. kind of sad about yesterday. last concert! and the worst part was that now i look back at it i wasn't really feeling anything. which is quite pathetic. i think i just totally zoned out. oh yeah and on thurs nite/fri morn i was just thinking i'm like this balloon full of air. almost to bursting point. then once it pops there's only the 'skin' left.
anyway. yes. i was kind of sad that i didn't feel as much for the concert as i think i wud have if i hadn't sat 2 today. yeah. cos after the concert my one track mind immediately switched to sat 2 mode. like. okay. hurry up and get home n sleep/prep. yeah. so. just felt that it was rather a pity tt i chose to take sats today. but it's over.
yup was v glad to see all e pple at the concert:) thanks for coming! hope u all had a great time:)
now to whine about sat2. i think i was still like half awake. cos maybe i had to wake up at like 7. which is like normal school day. totally sucky. and then the writing topic was horrendous. "the twentieth century will be known as the ____ century." like. yay i have no idea wat big thing happened in the 1990's? so i wrote some rubbish. n i din realise how long it takes to write one paragraph. and i don't think my vocab was very varied.
yeah. not sure about some of the tenses and stuff. i tend to blame it on the spore system cos until like sec 1 or sth when i started learning french then i really knew wat a noun/object/adjective and all those words were. as in before that i'd just be using it and not knowing wat it was. and the name of the tenses. stuff like that. anyway. math was okay but i wasn't sure about 2 logic qns [i'm illogical yes] and one other qn.
ah. enough of that. can't get down to doing work. so unappealing. eeks. i want to watch my cirque du soleil dvds but doesn't seem like i'll get to until june hols or sth. welll..
and i can't believe u all went to fullerton last night! life is unfair. growl.
hums. yay! for the 1st time in like 2 weeks i'm actually home before 8. whee~ at least i can finally do some proper prepping for sats. anyway. like i was saying to lots of pple. my life currently consists of sleeping, singing and -trying- to prep for sats. the keyword there is trying. so being a student is part time. heh. haven't done tutorials for wat seems like ages.
i don't think i've ever gone to sleep with the intention of doing so for the past 2 weeks either. and then on tues nite i fell asleep with the lights on.. and then halfway somehow i thought it was day cos it seemed like it was quite bright so i woke up. to find tt it was 4am.
anyhow. yah. during assembly candice was flipping thru my diary. and we came to italy trip! mm. makes me remember all the french immersion stuff. hope it'll be as fun:) though i don't think we'll get as much free time as we did in france. the grp's like 3 times the size. but its a long long time till then. sprinkled with a few lecture tests/bio prac test in the weeks in between.
right. i think i'll go take a nap. the luxury of which i haven't had a for a long time! haha i wonder who'll get dunked on ora. quite funny. were trying to persuade mr chan today. who sed he had to go home n discuss with his wife. oh and raphael's corny jokes.. man.. well at least i stayed awake thruout chem lect. maybe also cos of the cold. heh.
very frustrated at the moment. headaches plus not being able to do math/chem s is not very comforting. and i haven't done sat 2 yet either. okay this sounds like a reiteration of the last post. but really. am feeling immensely pressurised somehow or other. lots of little things. please let my life improve after this week. heh. or during the week would be fine too. heh.
really. spent like 1/2hr trying to figure out some trigo crap thing. and then the stupid buffer thing and was getting negative values for concentration till i wanted to fling/hurl sth out of the window and was banging the table. i think i shall go back n bang somemore rofl.
am terrified of sat 2 essay writing component. its crazy to give u one quotation/statement n ask u to comment in 20mins. esp when the topics are so broad. n i haven't even tried. probably cos i'm scared of it. aarghhhh.
heh. its only been 3 late nights n i feel half dead. how i'm going to survive till nxt friday [and saturday] is a mystery to me. so mon was band concert.. was good:) but wat irked me was the cloakroom crap.. take so freaking long to get flowers n stuff. spastic rules. anyway. and then we were running all over the place.. rush frm math s to esplanade.. was joking in the cab tt sj [who just got 10.3 for shuttle run] should go sprint to the doors first.. then later during intermission we were looking for dinner [and didn't find it]
and tuesday.. comm meeting.. i don't really want to say much about it here. yeah. but anyway. when i got home i ended up falling asleep on the floor for a while. n aft waking up was doing sat 2 paper half asleep. but i guess the score wasn't too bad, considering. haha.
and today. fringe prac n choir prac. well. wat can i say. finished around 9, got back and also ended up falling asleep [but on the bed] haha at least i woke up. n managed to get some work done. though i think its quite sloppy. sigh. feel so jaded i can't be bothered for now. which is bad.
n i feel like my temper's getting shorter n shorter. which happens once in a while i guess. general malaise? heh. annoyed with anything n everything. watever. freaking scared for sats II cos i do not want to end up retaking. like. should do it once and do it well then it'll save me lots of trouble.
these days i wake up not wanting to go to school. interminable school days. but i shouldn't complain.. my timetable is actually quite okay except for mondays.
hmm. yay dad's back:) haha. have lots of nice things. though i wonder when i'll find time to watch my dvds. but at least i have them! actually i wonder wat i'll do if the real show comes to town. if i go watch it live as well it mite be like wasting money. o well. nvm. tt can come later:p
today's lunch was hilarious. kinda pitied the waiter.. was his 2nd day and he was so apologetic about everyth n kept saying "that's a gd question.." and went to ask his boss. anyway. first my dad ordered a pot of tea [share with mom] and then later the waiter came back saying "i'm v sorry but my boss has just informed me that they broke all the teapots" found it really funny.. either the pple there are v clumsy or the shelf collapsed or sth..
and then later dad's cup of tea came along.. first came the cup [with the tea] and the saucer.. then the spoon.. then the milk.. so my dad was like "why's it coming in bits n pieces" . i guess i was in quite an amused mood. was thinking "bits and pieces" was a v interesting way to describe it.
anyway.. dance night was good!:) albeit kind of short actually. but i guess they can't keep up dancing for that long hmm. wat else. there's band+chamber on monday.. am sure they'll be good too:)
k am getting chased off as usual. well. at least i cleared up my table today.. no longer relegated to the v sad state of having only a rectangle of space [where my foolscap is] to do my work while the rest of the table is piled up with stuff. heh.
yay. bio prac test and 2.4 = over! woohoo~ haha:) am totally going to flunk bio prac.. i dunno how i managed to take so much time doing the expt till i had no time to finish. well. am hoping to get double digits haha seems bit impossible though.
yeah. that's quite a load off my mind. given that i woke up on sunday morning with this sinking feeling that i'd have to run 2.4 the next day. and today was hilarious.. talk about moodswings. i was rather grumpy in the morning. then halfway thru chem tut i started making my ridiculous comments [haha] and the worst of it was that me ser n raphael are right in front in full sight so ms tan kept asking us wat was so funny..
phys i was trying to figure out some quantum thingy which i understood wrongly during the lect growl. and for once i sort of paid attention during bio lect. well at least i wasn't doing something else but somehow i don't remember much of wat she said. besides her "don't marinate 60 pieces of pork with 2 bowls of pineapple juice".
math was quite funny too. somehow dasheng started calling siewjin a goldfish. and making weird noises all the way. i really think he was suffering from junming withdrawal symptoms. but it was v funny;p *gloop gloop* haha. and i think we totally tried mrs lim's patience during gp until she had to bribe us with lollipops if we kept quiet. but later she changed it to a threat of doing a summary [somehow tt always works] and she looked so smug that she'd thought of a solution to shut us up;p
yeah. had a really good laugh today after all. probably cos i was crazy. but still. very amusing:)
oh rite and during bio prac we could hear dr chan shouting at 3g in the lab directly below.. he kept diaoing andrew fang [i think] and was like "good boy!" when he did something correctly. i think the one of the funny things abt bio prac is when everyone's quietly doing their work and then we can all hear dr chan really clearly.. n then we'll all start laughing and if mr chan happens to be around then he'll be like "chem speaks very loudly but bio is very soft" or sth like tt. the original context being that usually we mug more for chem than bio or sth n then bio will give u unexpected results.
yah. and jan was saying.. 8 pracs for concert [fringe item].. is tt enough? n i'm like hmm.. doesn't sound like it'll be.. sigh. super busy. and i still haven't started on sat 2 math. help:s
hmm. not entirely happy with pw but i guess i kinda expected it. heck. anyway had a great lunch with lyd:) miss her lots. and got to talk to joon today! on the way to bluemoo. yup. haha joon the rabbit. she says the most hilarious things. she and pingying are such an amusing pair.
i guess it is true that once u move on u don't have that much in common with yr old frens and u naturally grow apart. but like lyd sed at least u actually realise that u haven't seen each other for sometime and try to meet up. yeah. keeps it going anyway. better than just letting it go. though it happens v often. life consists of a lot of meetings and partings. hmm. something like that.
anyway just now i was thinking about it and decided i have very high expectations for all sorts of things and therefore get easily annoyed when things do not match up to wat i expect. which is bad.. kind of like a short temper. should just take it as a learning experience. my mood swings are really erratic. candice can probably testify to tt:p find that i only go mad with pple i'm really comfortable with. if not pple'll probably just look at me askance.
yeah. jan just reminded me its 2 weeks to ve and fringe is quite unready. means that i'm going to be super busy the nxt 2 weeks. sigh. wats new. hope we can put up a gd show:) we had better anyway.
listening to candice's sissel cd.. her voice is lovely:) i'm so glad i have my divine cd too haha:) and it was interesting finding out that jiahui likes enya and loreena mckennitt. the type i suddenly got interested in!:)
ugh. i've just spent like 4 hrs doing the programme stuff. the worst thing is that it just seems so easy. like. okay photos. cut out heads n stuff, dump them on the filmstrip, voila. u're done! yarrite. there's all the crap resizing and layers and stuff. i wonder if there's any better software besides adobe. and i'm not even halfway thru the individual strip. groan. 40 more heads to find. help. my head is spinning already frm staring at the comp and all the alignment. aargh.
anyway. don't noe why i was quite sian at the beginning of choir and was making all manner of spastic comments to candice:) haha. spouting nonsense would be more like it. and tiff can't count haha. she's hilarious:) glad she's nxt to me for competition arrangement! haha:) but i feel short. and got to watch dance night preview! so lovely:) makes me wish i'd taken ballet sometimes haha. anyway i foresee going broke soon. all the flowers to buy.
o yes and finally all the common test results are back. somehow after waiting for so long i feel kinda apathetic abt them already. well. i'm quite satisfied i guess. kind of kept to my goal since last yr haha. hopefully my end goal works out too:)
and there's this fri to look forward to! and nxt sat!:) yay.. happy time~ but 1st i've got to sort out this picture thingy groan. too tired to do anymore. even though i fell asleep on the floor for 2 hrs just now:) i guess a mattress would have been better. but was a gd rest:)
surprisingly i haven't fallen asleep [without intending to] this week. i think its reverse psychology. like when there's a lot of work due and stuff then i'll feel tired n end up sleeping. and when the stuff's not so pressing then more relaxed n less tired somehow. interesting huh.
o it was gd talking to lijia today:) should go venezia and mug with her n joon sometime again:)
ooh. tired. better make sure i don't get myself sick though. with serene n yonglai on either side of me coughing/sneezing/sniffing. its quite amazing how ser managed to pass her sickness to yonglai past me.
all our songs are so tiring.. i think i'm close to shouting half the time. like there's dravidian where me n poor candice have to sing running notes [the melody] for the whole song unlike the other parts cos they sometimes sing the notes which define the beat. and suite which is spposed to be fierce. and pseudo-yoik which requires high a. and solfeggio which has a super loud high f.
nvm. i shall be happy tt i've zhiyin n tiff beside me n candice in front of me during competition pracs:)
anyway. haha! i think choir gave me inspiration.. i did the 1st qn of chem s half before choir n half after it. hopefully its correct! whee~ o it was gd seeing chris on thurs n pam today:)
haha for the first time in a loong looong time i felt like getting up [frm bed] today:) yay! i think i slept 10hrs haha clar the pig. don't care already. anyways. there should be holidays every month. or every 3 weeks.
heh. the uni talk thing yesterday was actually quite interesting. just tt now i find myself wondering how i'm going to get into any us uni. ugh.
anyways can't think of anything else. i must go and plough on with complex numbers. i'm only here cos i got stuck on one of the first few qns bleargh.
yup still haven't figured out why i got so depressed just now. but nevermind. maybe its fine now. i don't know if its me being cranky but why do i keep flaring up suddenly. haha. maybe its stress huh. my impatience drives me nuts sometimes. n i can't do freaking complex numbers! ugh. very annoyed with it rowl growl. shall sleep soon enough. at least only monday is a long day for me. and thurs kind of.
well. somehow i was happier yesterday. so weird. though math was good:) v relieved. it was interesting sitting with aud too. fruitful discussion. yep. had another little run-in with my mom. i guess she's just worried for me sigh. but it blows over quite fast. like in the car i get annoyed. and after 1 or 2 hrs at home its okay again. well i guess tts good too. watever.
anyways i can't find v much to say. too full of thoughts [?] yeah. should go sort them out.
lalala. clar is on a high at the moment! very happy with physics. though considering the stupid mistakes i made.. or maybe if i see the percentage tmr i won't feel so wonderful but well.. feel like i redeemed myself from the terrible lect test haha. hope math will be fine. its so annoying having to wait so long for results. though if they're bad i dont' want them back heh.
ah anyways last night was hilarious:) poor poor jan haha. always the victim of everyone's diaoing huh.. nvm we still love u anyway:) wahaha:) though had a little run-in with parents over the dinner thing thanks to someone being 1.5hrs late heh. but it worked out fine i think. yup.
yeah. and it was nice talking to yunlei today:) sort of like catching up. haven't talked to lots of pple in a loong time. o yes n i find tt our math tutorials are hilarious.. mr chan never fails to say something funny..
haha yesterday when i was having dinner with my mom at al dente the menu had something called pizza primavera. very amusing. just after spending dunno how long singing io son la primavera. but its a lovely song:)
and its been so long since i had a full course [western] meal. like. since france. haha. just tt it didn't come course by course. and i don't think they drink soup very much. but i always feel super full after every meal. and remember kai-lyn n yunlei sharing their food. n cheukka with her silly comments:)
aargh. this part of a song is stuck in my head but i don't noe e rest of the song/title/artist! rar. yay!! i finally found it:)
anyway. we can still go for dance nite after all!:) *happy*
ooh. feel good. i sat down for 1h30 n did work. while listening to music. but i actually didn't get up for such a long time! haha. though it didn't seem like i did that much. but well. better than nothing i guess. and tmr's friday! yay:) and maybe i'll get to meet lyd n pam on sunday:) yay somemore:)
i think i can't put on the aircon straight away at night. if not i'll fall asleep [like the past 2 nights. bleargh. tues nite i fell asleep at 9 while studying chem prac n woke up at 4 to mug. yesterday i fell asleep at 10, heck cared, woke up n was almost late for sch].
yup. it was quite funny actually today during math lect aft the april fool's joke aud turned around n was like "do u remember last last yr when serene got us to hide in the toilet during a math" [i forgot exact words] and later i was telling chris tt i finally gave lyd her bday present n abt our april fool's joke.. then her reply "rmb in sec 4 where stupid ser choreographed tt toilet stunt to skip a math?" haha. fond memories huh rofl it was kinda spas but at least its sth funny to remember:p
n yeah. speaking of sec 4 class. quite impressed at 412's very successful class outing. hope we can have one too! haha. i want to see mrs kwan! blahh. maybe i can coax her into coming for choir concert:D plus ms ning n ms tan! wahaha:) it'll be fun.
i wish they'd hurry up with the rest of the common test results. somehow i don't like the waiting. like. the feeling of something unfinished. and i also hope i did fine. start feeling quite paranoid sometimes.
and sigh the fringe thingy. i think our songs are kind of boring. hmm. but for them to be more interesting need percut rite? aiyah. quite confused here. and i feel so tired everyday there doesn't seem to be any respite. feeling like i need my holiday again haha.
nvm i will go and sort myself out again.
oh! funny church thing heh. we were learning 1 Corinthians 15. so our tcher asked us to take 30 seconds to visualise wat our idea of heaven would be like. so the 1st person he picked to share with us was benjamin. who said his idea was a bed. can sleep. -amused- [so was the tcher]
so tcher went on to ask his sister jasmine who said "he wants a bed i want the pillows n the bolster" tt girl is always the joker:p
in which tcher sed tt we wake up just to go back to sleep [as in wake up on judgement day]
so amos said we must be watchful on earth wat so cannot sleep so go to heaven n sleep [or rest]
was quite hilarious:p we're all so lacking in sleep.
yes. well i remembered a few posts back serene [lee] said on her blog that something's missing in her life. and yesterday jm did too. and i realised i felt the same way. just tt, like they said. its just so easy to push it away when u're busy and have other stuff to do. like. oh i have sth else to finish forget it i'll think about it another time. and u never really go and figure out wat it is. which now come to think of it is actually quite important.
yes. well. anyways i figured something i'll enjoy doing and tts learning another language! haha. or doing sth abt my french anyway. quite rusty. but i still havent' figured out wat to do about the feeling-too-tired-to-talk-to-anybody part. today my excuse was tt after singing dravidian and suite de lorca my throat/voice = super tired. actually that happens quite a lot. like my mom will ask me stuff in the car n i wont' want to answer cos i'm really tired of using my voice haha.
oh yes. so i was sitting beside the pool thinking. and found sth i like to do! it was actually quite peaceful. nice windy night with the sound of running water. but i felt quite hermit-ish cos everyone else was in the clubhouse talking. well.
hmm. common tests are over. finally! i woke up feeling so happy:) but somehow after the paper i felt so sian. like. don't feel like doing anything. wat's there in the form of entertainment? movies? nothing nice that i really wanted to watch. though my girl was funny. but somehow i felt v sorry for the little guy. like being unhappy cos he was stuck with the gals. and not accepted into the gang. and having to hurt his best fren to get into the gang. maybe tts wats called heartwrenching.
anyways. to continue about my sianness. felt like tt even around my friends. and it wasn't just one particular group of pple. was just in general. which is really sad. maybe cos i was hot and sticky and tired. feel better after a bath anyway. maybe i need nice new songs. maybe i need sleep. or maybe like junming says, i need a vacation to go and find myself again. haha. sounds bit cheesy. but sounds like sth i need. and just aft lect tests i was thinking i needed a vacation but tts not v possible.
o yes and for anyone who hasn't heard about my screw-up.. realised at 9sth yesterday tt it was the deadline for registration for may sats.. so i rushed it.. and then after i registered they sed it'll be held on 8th may cos 1st may in spore is labour day. freak la. maybe tts the day after choir concert. how screwed. and then june sats is no better cos i'll come back frm italy on 3rd june and june sats are on 5th june. so basically quite screwed cos of choir. well. hope tmr will be a nice day.