oh i forgot to add. alvin's "feet jackets" [socks]; jiahui's weird dreams; hearing abt ben and his "why don't u put fren in the canal [kennel] n i think there's somemore. when i remember i'll add it in heh.
haha. today's mugging was quite funny. and as usual tiffy wasn't being sane. haha. i have this suspicion she only pretends to be sane normally:D and i also never realised how much jan gets diaoed by alvin. and vice versa. very interesting there. o yeah n jiahui started going crazy later on too.
hums. last nite of mugging! whee~ i was almost going to type the same thing as the end of the last post just that i realised in time. yes. tmr will be fun:) goody. seems like i've been stuck at home/mugging forever.
hums seems like math was okay after all. after checking numbers with serene. haha. hopefully we're both right. whee~ though i somehow felt tt i wasn't concentrating enough on the paper. maybe cos it was an afternoon paper. [and it was hot and humid and therefore annoying] then i freaked out after the paper when candice asked me about the volume thing but i think its correct after all! -whew-
ugh. i think i will go and sleep somemore. mom made me wake up at 8sth. and i was so groggy i couldn't do math properly anyway... got this p&c qn wrong n somehow couldn't think how the answer came about. but after napping i realised. so well.
and there were like 3 explanation questions! i didn't read the explanations as well as i thought i had so had to come up with some decent crap on the spot. hopefully it was correct. and the linear interpolation thing! cheat me. i thought it was in the notes but i forgot when actually the one in the notes is only for newton raphson. so had to formulate something on the spot anyway. o well. only 1 paper left! yay:) can almost taste freedom. some sort of freedom anyway haha.
heh. bio. wat can i say. oh well. i can't work up much enthusiasm to mug for bio somehow. shall have to rectify that. somehow. but tt can come later haha. now for math. at least math doesn't require mugging. as compared to chem/bio. ugh. anyways. agree with all of jireh's complaints about exams in the school hall. so so true. and i didn't realise there was drilling until today. but luckily it stopped after a while.
anyways. i was watching a bug's life taped from sunday. its so cute!:) haha. i like the circus bugs. but i don't like bugs in real life. and the bloopers were funny too. yay clar is happy:)
alrighty. poor clar is confused. was tt paper easy/ok/difficult? forget it. shouldn't bother thinking anymore its over. anyway its actually quite funny now tt i look back at it. but for C3 i stared at the first part n freaked out "how?? how to show its a weak acid??" and then looked down and realised "die if i can't do 1st part & the other 2 are linked then i'm dead" so i sat there n panicked until i squashed out an answer. and then the same thing happened for the pH thingy. thinks "i've seen that before! on saturday! in the notes! how come i can't do it now!" sat n panicked somemore until i realised. haha.
ah. okay. i just realised some mistakes thanks to hk haha. talk about rushing for time.. hopefully there aren't anymore.
anyways. i better go make sure i noe my stuff for bio. very scared of essays. n structured questions which i can't understand [as candice says]
bleah. sometimes i hate myself for sleeping in the afternoon. anyways. i realised i spent 5 hrs on homeostasis alone. maybe cos i was writing it out neatly and stuff. grrr. haven't done physics at all. freak. horrible studying.
anyways. i have rediscovered that instrumental music is nice! i don't really know wat its called actually cos i'm just koping soundtracks. new-age orchestra?? hmm. anyways. like frm pirates n lotr n finding nemo n anna n the king n monsters inc n x-men 2 haha. but each one is different. can't describe it somehow. elusive. or maybe my music vocab is just sucky haha. but i like tt type of music so i'm happy! whee~
oh i forgot to add the horse at disney on ice was so cute too:) cos its kinda hampered by the fact tt there're 2 people making up the horse [i think] so it has to move quite slowly.. very cute:D
back from disney on ice! the skating was lovely. am quite satisfied cos tts wat i went there to see. kind of. haha. tho i didn't like gaston so the parts centering around him were bit draggy. anyway yes. the skating. so fluid and graceful! like they never stop moving.. just slide round and round.. haha.. and then the pair skaters were so cool.. dunno how the guy can skate and hold up the gal at the same time..
yeah. i realised i only manage to appreciate such things now. cos my mom says she's been asking me to go n watch disney since time immemorial and i never wanted to.. then suddenly this yr i decide i want to. i guess its cos i don't like disney stories much.. but this yr i decided i wanted to go bcos i wanted to see the skating. cos like i think my dad asked us to go watch saltimbanco when it came in 99 but i didn't want.. then somehow i came to my senses in 01 n i went to watch alegria! yay:) and last yr 'o' in vegas:) somehow nowadays when i see any of those productions with showy music and dancing and stuff it reminds me of vegas:)
and then there's piano too.. i remember i really hated lessons when i was small [like 6 to 11 or so] and i'd hang around hoping that my tcher wud call and say she's not coming.. then i'd be so happy when the lesson was cancelled.. think i only really appreciated music when i went to jkms. and saw ms koh play. haha. talk about inspiration. yeah and then there's choir too. when i see all the zai music pple.
yeah. rather unproductive day though. maybe i should try to sleep less. haha. wat a lazy clar. shall go off n attempt to finish kidney.
ah. seem to feel rather productive today. but when i actually look at it maybe not. cos i've been awake since 8 and taking off like 1.5hrs for meals and 1/2h reading n 1/2h playing piano n 1/2h online. oh nevermind. feel sufficiently satisfied for now anyhow. at least i didn't feel sleepy in the afternoon like i usually do. maybe cos its hols. or cos i slept 10hrs at night. haha. i should stop falling asleep with the light on. which goes to show how lazy i am.
oh i just remembered something funny about last wed. someone [either one of the serenes i think. forgot] asked ms ning for her handphone number. and ms ning didn't noe. [typical blur ms ning haha:p] and so she scrolled down to "me" in her phone book where her number was stored. in which ms tan had nothing to say in her defence. quite amusing somehow. maybe its the way hannah informed us of the fact tt her number was stored under "ME" heh.
hmm. i don't think today was very productive either. for that matter i hardly ever seem to be productive! sigh. nothing seems to go in whether at home/in sch/outside. must think of new methods to study. hmm. and i was quite sleepy in the afternoon. i think if i'd been at home i'd have fallen asleep. as usual. but surprisingly as it got darker i got more awake. maybe its some reflex action heh.
bleah. i see long dreary hols in front of me. filled with mugging. hopefully it pays off man. horrible way to spend hols. feel like watching some movie but doesn't seem like there's anything much. oh i'm quite happy cos i bought 3 shirts at a go yesterday:D and given tt i'm so fussy its quite an accomplishment! haha.
man. tiring day yesterday. came to sch for 3h20 of physics [lect plus converted prac] and then gp was free block:) yay! lect was hilarious.. since i had pam behind me n raphael n candice on either side of me.. the amount of corny jokes pam n raphael came up with.. u couldn't imagine.. it was so painful.. anyway 2 samples here
on the mcq with the 4 diodes [for full-wave rectification]
courtesy of raphael
qn : why are the routes [taken by the current] like bus routes?
ans : because there're terminals
pam
qn : why are the routes dangerous for oats?
ans : because there are a lot of die-oats [diodes]
and raphael's winning joke for the board thingy was:
qn : why did the hot chocolate start to sing?
ans : because it was cocoa lee
yeah. well. oh yes and serene who is always so intelligent.
she was being annoying as usual and whining her head off. so i was saying "hmm.. i seem to hear a banshee around.." [obviously referring to her] and serene was like "really?? where?" tt was really classic
then our . ahem . learning journey to chinatown. haha. it was how sad. although a few pple weren't there. anyways we walked frm sch to mrt [in the hot sun at 2sth] frm mrt to chinatown. stood in the middle of the road deciding where to go. ended up at the food centre and ate and ate and ate. yes.
went to ben's house. haha i think his room door is very interesting.. it really looked like a wall to me.. then when mingze slid the panels apart i was like woah.. cool:) hehe. n now noe why ben's forever online.
bluemoo was good!:) =apologises for looking sian/bored/watever= it was really quite a tiring day for me.. not tt i was bored! haha somehow i thought nanu was nicer than budak pantai.. maybe cos they were doing pop songs and the lead singer sounded like one of those pop stars. but budak was funny:D they're like. comic genii.
anyways too lazy to go for open house today heh oops my house feels too comfy:p but yesterday was fun:) very amusing company:) btw jan somehow i never knew u squeaked so much haha:p u don't seem to get that agitated when its just the gals [or am i wrong?]
haha. finally ssef is over. didn't get anything. sigh. well. for the amount of effort we put in i guess that's kind of expected. and i guess our project wasn't good enough. o well.
anyways it was really quite horrible today.. so boring there.. luckily there was ting n ser n fiona n serene t around.. and lovely surprise! ms tan and ms ning came!:) haha so happy!:) made going there worth it man:D haha ms tan smacked me for not noticing them.. sed i was dao.. but i really didn't see them lar not my fault.. i think i was daoing ser n went back to my booth to do chem tut and then ms tan sed hi and -then- i realised. was really really good seeing them again;) ms tan's hilarious. and so cute!:) everyth she says she'll pat ms ning's shoulder n say "dui4 ma2?" n ms ning will nod. yeah. miss having them teach us.
yup. so me n serene coerced them into coming for choir concert. hopefully they'll keep 7th may night free:) haha i told ms tan it'll be her bday present then she stared at me and "its so far away!" n as usual was diaoing hannah abt putting chem s as 3rd choice for s papers. heh. o yeah n ms tan sed beh looks toot. and the poor guy sounded so pathetic when he told her "yeah i know lah her [serene's] classmates all think i'm ugly" haha:p
congrats to those who did well! and to those who're like me.. well.. it was a good experience:) quite interesting actually. and explaining it to pple is like quite challenging sometimes. wonder how choir went. haha.
gp common test was okay i guess. given tt i fell asleep at 9.30. sigh. getting too lazy. and tmr there's extra chem aft pe again. well. at least i'm almost done with my tut. but i can't stand her nitro notes. very messy.
right. so i've the night left to finish chem s tutorial n maths s [3 or 4 more questions] now why didnt' i finish them on friday.. sigh. seem to find chem s tutorials quite tedious. which is quite ridiculous because i chose to take it in the 1st place so i should be finding it interesting. which it is! but just being lazy i guess. as usual. don't seem to want to work for anything i want.
yesterday's dinner was fun fun fun! haha. even though -ahem- we spent 2 hrs waiting for pam. who, as usual, didn't have enough money. and lyd was so delighted with boxing gloves. and scolding pam for being unclassy when she herself wasn't being very classy;p and wistfully staring at all the sofa seats and was very satisfied when one table freed up and she finally got to sit on her darling sofa. yup. pity i couldn't stay longer... didn't have much time to catch up with them. lyd n pam together are hilarious. though we missed chris *glare* and jane *double glare*
ssef frm mon to wed. groan. hope it turns out fine. oh went to the career fair yesterday. wasn't particularly helpful to me like i told jan. except that i got to ask about the delf thingy. wonder if i'll actually go to france and study heh.
hmm. colorgenics is uncannily spot-on w.r.t. [haha diffn?] mood analysis. www.colorgenics.com! go try it! heh. though it kind of describes the whole week not so much just today. heh. like the way i feel cooped up. n how tired i feel. and the stress! the source of which i've no idea. bit scary the way its so accurate. more the last 3 paragraphs.
Results:
You are longing for some love and affection at this time - not that you have been deprived of tender loving care - but there are times when everyone needs to try something new or to go 'somewhere' else to perhaps experience that little extra 'understanding'.
You are feeling very vulnerable at this time. Nothing seems to be going in the right direction - business wise, private-life wise, everything. You need some emotional security and an environment which could possibly provide fewer problems, but the way you are feeling you can't be bothered even to make the effort.
You feel tired - worn out and listless. The last thing that you want to do is to be in an open conflict with those around you that are forever tormenting you. What to do? That's the rub. You are feeling that you are being choked - unable to breathe.
Unacceptable restrictions have been forced upon you and this is resulting in severe frustration and stress. You are looking for independence and consequently you shy away from any restriction and avoid obligations of anything which might prove hampering. You are being subjected to considerable pressure and want to escape from it so that you can obtain what you need, but unfortunately at this particular moment in time you lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this.
Trying to cope with conditions which you think are beyond your capabilities has led to considerable anxiety and stress. You now feel that you are not capable of coping with this situation and indeed any situation which could arise from what you consider to be your personal inadequacy.
woah. very relieved:) and happy:) haha. after worrying. anyways it was quite funny mrs cheong was saying they can get it by 11.. then raphael n serene were like "clarissa's dying already" so she should go get it now.. so mrs cheong was like "huh?? really ah?! okay okay i'll go n get now" n she ran off:p so nice:)
yup congrats to all those who did well!:) n a level results.. like woah.. weiying!! haha.. and kelvin n sicheng n all..
quite scared. we'll be like them next year.. hopefully will be as happy haha. i think i'm kind of struggling at the moment.
anyways i forgot to mention something on monday during math s poor val was stuck between serene [who had her bf with her] and me.. and i was like raining insults on serene half the time and val was quite amused. n then i realised i only do that to serene haha quite poor thing.
rather tired now. don't know why. off to rest. quite worried about ssef.. poster is undone, haven't practised presentation since last nov.. i still hafta go back to sch for choir.. dunno how also. n i think my mom has got something on in the morning.
sigh. suddenly yesterday after all the tests i felt so drained [like peiying says, though i'm not sure its the same reason] and very fatigued. and so. cooped up. like i was complaining to fiona/hk.. i'm either at home/in school. and its always the same route home, blah blah blah. its so tiringly routine and boring. study for tests.. oh yay they're over.. time to catch up on tutorials.. i want a holiday.. a real holiday like french immersion/vegas/sth to just play. and relax.
haha. this is actually quite funny. i think i only felt this way occasionally after june [?] but definitely not 1st term. quite sad that it actually happens now and then. tho actually during syf period i was feeling quite desperate about lagging work. but that's different. from feeling sick and tired of everything.
anyways.. at least i think i've nice dinner on saturday to look forward to:) hopefully. might have to go to ntu in the morning to do ssef stuff though. means i might miss sectionals. hmm. speaking of which ssef means i'll miss 1 1/2days of school. not very good actually. sigh.
and ao results are out tmr too i think. i'm quite worried really. don't know why. maybe cos i din like the compre passage? can't remember already. and i noe i was one of the few who did the passe simple compo topic. hopefully am being paranoid and i'll get the grade i want. then can go out n celebrate:D heh. but the way i'm feeling u'd think i already know i didn't get wat i want. aaugh. help me. somehow seems like i don't care about it anymore though. cared much more about o level french than ao level.
anyways all the best to pple getting back chinese!:) hope u all do fine:)
o yeah and today's pe was. well. can't find a word to describe it. ms chan was making us doing some pilate [sp?] exercises or something like that and it was like choir breathing exercises. man. candice n me n jiahui were like. okay.
haha i looked at my previous post starting with "well well well" n reminded me of fiona's very pathetic joke. anyhow. band concert was gd! would have been better at a diff venue definitely.. couldn't see most of the players.. bah.. haha.. eunice as the newest member of the softball team was quite funny:p pity they didn't have ensembles though hmm. last yr's percussion one was good:)
and yesterday's mugging was hilarious.. i never knew tiff could be that mad:D rather amazing really haha. self-sufficiency by sleeping on ur own shoulder? and singing all sorts of songs n going crazy.. heh:p and jan was hilarious too.. she's really one for dropping food:) (and chairs haha) n when she scolded ben!! haha.. mingze's chipmunk imitation was v funny too:p can really imagine her when she's a mom getting all flustered over her little kids haha;p n alvin imitating mingze "guys... [followed by grammatically incorrect sentence]" n ben telling jiahui "u've done 7 GOOD qns!! 7 SOLID qns!" the look on jiahui's face was priceless:D haven't laughed that much in a long time. it was fun:).. even tho i don't noe any of them particularly well
well well well. i'm still wondering who told dr chan. dunno felt quite weird. anyway. i shall just forget about it. but haha. well. today's chem lect test. supposed to have 2 more white slips. i wonder. wat does he have against our class.
anyways. yes. screwed up test. plus e long ago screwed up class test. plus a substandard chem s tut. not gd. nvm i shall redeem myself in common tests hopefully. better make sure i do anyhow. n nxt weeks tests!
at least tmr's the band concert.. 1812!! haha:) wanna see eunice hitting the bass drum heh:p i wonder if i've d/led the mp3 before hmm.
sitting here eating junk food. haha. rather unhealthy but havent done that for quite some time. and reaching home before its dark! i seem to say the same thing every week but sometimes every day just seem so long ( or maybe cos i always fall asleep in the evenings :p )
tumdeedum. miss lyd n chris suddenly. and i wanna find new songs! or nice new cds to play at night so i won't fall asleep. but actually sometimes i wonder if they really help me or i'm just playing them for the sake of it.
i'm quite pissed off at the moment. actually i'm not very sure why. can't pinpoint the exact reason. let me recount the story of my 1st white slip. how lovely. it wasn't even a real break.. just decided to go to canteen and get something to eat. and then i met sharon. who said "wow u still dare to use string ah" and then after that candice said "how come eunice and the rest disappeared" and then dr chan called me. and then i realised. quite slow huh. considering sarah was looking at how guai1 she looked in the reflection frm the notice board glass before we stepped into the canteen.
was kinda surprised he remembered my name. but not good. anyways. and then he was like telling mrs tan and this other tcher [dunno name] "this is amerson's sister.. u noe?? amerson??" and i was thinking.. so wat if i'm his sister.. trying to say that he's so smart n successful n watever other crap n here i am breaking sch rules? maybe i'm being oversensitive or sth but anyway pity i couldn't say it [e so wat part]. if not i'd probably get another white slip for like audacity or disrespect or some crap. [okay somehow i don't think that would have happened but nvm] i think i kind of understand why leslie wud get pissed off when tchers confuse him with his bro.
interesting huh so many thoughts flitting thru while i was standing there.
anyways. and then siewjin also kenaed white slip frm him. cos e back of her blouse came untucked. i don't think it was very obvious in the 1st place. how stupid is that. jane informed me that she has taken to wearing her sweater everywhere. which is quite smart actually. just that its a bit hot. haha. and kahli says she gets e guys to buy food for her haha:p i find it most unreasonable because i think i still looked presentable. but of cos maybe i'm wrong. i guess i was kind of asking for it by not abiding by the sch rules but still am quite disgruntled to say the least.
oh it was quite a difference seeing mag with black hair haha:p i mean yeah, should wear nice and neat uniform and stuff but u don't have to overdo it.. like there was the other time i think lyd was telling me that someone got booked cos the tcher sed her blouse was too tucked out. n i think she herself got booked for a skirt that was slightly too short. that's really quite ridiculous. k i think i've ranted enough. and there're more things which i don't care to mention here.
anyways it was interesting going for lunch:) jane n crys n kahli n lynette. realised all of them take econs. don't feel like writing much more.
stupid chem s which i don't know how to do and am guessing blindly. feeling half tired and frustrated cos i've been sleeping so much [5 hr nap yesterday, 9 hrs at night, 2.5hr nap today.. who can sleep that much? only me] and therefore have tons of stuff to do. giving me crap abt science stuff again. it's always the same thing somehow. really gets on my nerves. it's not like i wanted it to be this way. totally screwed up.
to top if off yahoo is annoying me again with the extra side searching thing which is freaking spastic and extra and unnecessary.
bah. k feeling better after letting all tt steam off. tmr will be a better day. at least there's no math s haha. oh on a side note now our math tutorials are quite hilarious somehow the things mr chan says are v amusing:D
okay. its been a week! i guess i didn't have much to say. anyways. i think i'm almost recovered frm lack of sleep the past 2 nights. 5 hr nap! ugh. and a pile of work waiting for me. ugh somemore.
anyways i think i was too zoned out during the whole camp to actually evaluate it. but guess it was quite good:) after all the planning n executing stuff n helping with the logistics n food n everyth. n preparing for bfast at 1am haha:)
everyone was quite enthu abt e games [slightly surprising haha:] and then i think the j1 batch seems quite bonded. which is good:) though we didn't talk to them much oops:s but it was fun sitting in the altos' room listening to everyone. albeit a bit antisocial heh:p while poor zhiyin n jiahui were sitting around like vagrants cos they let everyone bathe 1st:p o yeah really appreciated the stuff frm ben n alvin n mingze... it was rather unexpected heh and e stuff frm jan too:) n fiona. n sarah. :)
e boardwalk was nice! kind of scenic n stuff. and the chalet was quite huge too. just not very clean. haha. and very ulu. such that we spent $11.70 on cab to parkway. well. n met mingjing n her sis n mom! quite cool. yeah. n we were really fortunate to get seats together [10 pple!] in the foodcourt it being kinda crowded. yup. had a good time in all. now. dinner!