sigh bro left this morning poor clar is sad. miss tt silly pig lots.
besides that, today was a terrible day. lousy. watever. my rage has subsided anyhow.. after reading jane's blog:D jane be honoured!:) haha. and listening to music. at least something helps.
anyways.. it was just a handful of little things which didn't really matter very much but put together just got me so annoyed. stuff like intelligently remembering to bring a long ruler for phys prac test and forgetting my calculator which usually resides in my bag but somehow made its way on to my table even though i have another calculator on my table just so i won't forget to bring it. if that was coherent. watever. it isn't really supposed to make sense, i'm just ranting and raving then i'll feel better.
so. after that. placed ser's med fac badge on my file, intending to finally remember to bring it. but no, somehow i disregarded it and forgot yet again. let me see what else was there. i guess phys lect was quite amusing [with a SOMEONE getting "jealous" of me cos someone else think i'm cute. well. what can i say..] and chem was alrite.. gp was hilarious as usual.. am thankful for mrs lim.. she's really cartoon:p melodramatic... fun!:) haha
phys prac. hah. sucked as usual. didn't help that it was a test. i'm fervently praying it has nothing to do with any sort of grades which are going to be recorded on paper or watever cos i noe i failed. poor time management [even that goes for ordinary days not just prac tests] and getting horribly muddled up over the graph scales and the points and wat not. absolute horror. actually it was also the fact that i didn't realise my watch was 5mins slower than the one in the lab so i thought i had extra time left. so.
though i guess i can't complain as much as poor fiona.. sitting right in front of mrs cheong. ugh. pressurising + stressful to have her staring at u all the time. i hate it when pple stare at me when i'm trying to do something. esp in the case of pracs. and tests. just annoys me. and its been that way since pri sch so watever.
remembering all my past pathetic failed physics pracs [esp the one where we had the tcher-observation thingy] didn't really help much. and if that wasn't enough, i suddenly realised i had to come to sch again tomorrow. which didn't make my mood any better. so went to ask candice wat time prac was. 10 to 4pm. haha. got even more pissed off. what the crap la.. we're not even preparing for anything very soon and prac is so long already.. no competition no concert nothing..
maybe i have better things to do la.. maybe i need to catch up on my work and get my french oral presentation together [due before nxt sat so at least my french tcher can vet it] and my terp report [which my prof expects to be 20pgs long and is due by end of august] and pw.. my pw is seriously screwed.. CRAP.
1st prac after syf finals and its 5 hours. i think its quite unreasonable. but please tell me if i'm the one being unreasonable. honestly. okay so fine we had quite a long break.. 2 1/2 weeks is not bad i guess. really enjoyed being able to come back early on wednesdays:)
besides that i kind of dread tomorrow's prac. no j2s!! augh. maybe that would justify needing 5 hours but heh. i'm not in a very good mood at the moment so watever.
i want to go and watch a comedy! or some movie. watever. hope something nice that i want to watch comes out soon:)
ladida so everyone's back!
haha it was quite weird.. my house was a "hive of activity" last night at like 1am. bro just got home, parents were still awake and they were sitting around in the living room making loads of noise. and i was awake too having slept 3+hrs in the afternoon. ah well. i was being ridiculous n playing around w my bro's bday present [this huge white shirt]. lapses into childishness. at least it gave me some sort of temporary relief from being a homework-churning machine. quite pleased with wat i've done lately, though i'm not sure its quality work heh.
but after that spurt of dilligence i feel terribly lazy and apathetic and don't feel like doing anymore work. aah:(
looking forward to tmr!:) finally i'll get my yrbk haha. after eons. i wanna see medicine cheerleading too!:) whee~ i kind of resent having missed the cheerleading for IFG grumbles. couldn't support my frens n all. anyhow there's also getting my luvly fat envelope of a very long letter from chris:) =beams at prospects of reading long letter= haha:D and being around everyone again. but i've said that many times.
of that conversation last night. it was really very interesting. and really, i didn't think i would have such problems either *shrugs* and like i said of jm's comment i thought it was rather disturbing to hear my thoughts coming from someone else. kind of makes the problem/situation/watever more real.
i guess nowadays i just can't be bothered to find the energy to find common topics/stuff to talk abt/watever. which is actually quite bad. my social ability appears to have disappeared somehow. bad bad bad. oh well. hopefully it'll like magically reappear or something.
anyhow here's an excerpt from sth some ex-rj student wrote in the new paper. "JC has a way of sapping your energy for life, by making you focus too much on short-term goals. By making you fail to realise that life continues after JC. But when you're a JC student, school's often the only thing you've got. It fills up your day - everyday for two years - but leaves the spirit empty" and "It's about watching what you say and do in school to gain acceptance in a group. It's about countless things that won't matter at all in the end."
in my negative moods i tend to agree but at the same time something tells me that it isn't entirely true. with all the scholarship talks and stuff there's no way u can escape from the idea that life continues after jc but yeah i tink it does make one's life consist of purely school.
actually now i think about it i tink this student is really exaggerating things. it doesn't "sap your energy for life" but just for those 2 years or less. and sometimes i tink that "gaining acceptance in a group" thingy goes for people you don't really noe that well. like pying sed with close frens u can just let urself go and say/do watever u want.
but again like my mom said just now its something like in sec 1 n 2.. didnt' really noe everyone that well yet so wasn't really that happy/watever.. i really think sec 3 n 4 were the best:) so it was something about jc being too short. bah i tink i'm becoming incoherent. that's probably enough.
yay! i'm deranged today!:) n i'm happy! yay!:):):)
haha
okay
french oral presentation was pretty much of a fiasco but after that i got home n i became happy! cos everyone's coming back on sunday!:) yay. [btw serene that wasn't referring to just u, don't get all puffed up;p] dad n bro too. and the funniest thing is tt dad comes home in morning, bro in evening n ser late at night. haha. to ser if u read this b4 i see u in sch: i demand a treat for keeping all ur hw! grr
ladida. n i've found my recipes for french cheese online! don't have to go library! yay!:) happy happy clar for tonight. wasn't particularly happy during the day though oh well. maybe my little nap did some good:)
sigh. talk about unearthly hours. with a tissue box to accompany me. groan. i really think i didn't drink enough water today if not i wouldn't be feeling so terrible. lessons to learn -shakes head- and with a sunburnt nose haha:p it was really one of the most tiring days.. even worse than full days of choir and that's saying something.. i guess they're tiring in different ways.. and now i'm awfully hot thanks to running around in the sun the whole day
and really i wouldn't choose to be awake and on the comp if not for such a horror called PW. somehow i wonder if we can finish the file by tomorrow.. will everyone remember their stuff? and there's still the interview questions not done.. and the file due on wed.. someone help me. i'd really prefer to just heck care about it and leave all the typing and annotating and summarising to tomorrow/tues but if i don't care, who will?
still tons of tutorials undone and not much time foreseeable to do it and my terp is so screwed.. paper due by end of august, partner and prof not free nxt sat, yesterday i cudn't make it due to college day [unless i wanted a white slip] and 23/8 i have french ao prelim orals. that effectively leaves us with 2 saturdays. wow. wonderful. not like my french is in very good shape either, stupidly forgot to photostat how provencale cheeses are used in cooking therefore have to make a visit to the moelc library again tomorrow. i dread orals.
okays. long time since last post. today's news was shocking. and terribly so. i always saw her as a happy cheerful sunshiney sort of person who wouldn't let things get her down so easily but i guess maybe i didn't noe her well enough to judge. maybe it was just a brave front or sth. i have no idea. whole sch was so solemn today. hushed. sorrow. and it was terrible seeing how people felt so bad about it but no one could do anything about it.
and last night's finals. once i stepped off the stage i just felt relaxed i think. can't really pinpoint the feeling anymore. i thought we might have been able to win on repertoire but i guess maybe that wasn't enough. o well i really don't know. felt kind of disappointed but not totally crushed. was just thinking we've done wat we could already, no point worrying or watever. mom had a lot of interesting comments, some of which i suppose i would agree with but the others, hmm..
still worrying. hope everyth is and will be plain fine.
hmm freedom! i feel like my hols have been the long weekend only.. sat sun mon! ahh *stretches* just slacked my days away and totally enjoyed myself.. meeting exclassmates @esplanade.. then going for pam's n selene's dance concert.. and monday going icecreaming w lijia and then watching charlie's angels.. spending as much time as i want on e comp [tho tts not really a very big part] listening to radio or watever at any time w/o feeling guilty tt i shud be mugging for common tests
anyhow i guess its back to some work soon at least. french oral. someone tell me about cheese frm provence please.. haha.. i dread controle on monday.. my past tenses are terrible:| how liangsi manages to be such a genius is beyond me..
was attempting to play e scores i borrowed frm esplanade. don't appeal very much to me hmm. i seem to be very fussy or something. or just tt i'm too lazy to figure out complicated rhythms. *tsktsk*
hoho. physics today. was almost as bad [or was it worse?] than chem yesterday. i can't tell which was worse, seeing that yest i left 10m blank out of 75m, and today it was 20m out of 120m. haha =hollow laffs= & i honestly thought i prepared better for physics. maybe i should cut the habit of napping and then not being able to sleep at 2am. bleah.
i'm gonna be stuck in jc for the rest of my life if i continue like tt.. can't pass anyth besides maybe math.
and i foresee all the tchers having a field day scolding us when papers come back.
bio tomorrow. how much better can it get? haha.
haha chem was such a nightmare.. but i guess i kinda expected it with the amt of preparation i did.. *sigh* my stress yesterday wasn't unfounded. which is bad in a way:p oh well. in a way i'd prefer my worries to be unfounded.
dr chan will have a wonderful time scolding us.. except his dearest yaozong of cos who said the paper was "okay"
at least i tink i practised better for physics. hopefully. and bio!!groan. quite bad too. better do sth abt them during term :S ughs. haha. this is so pathetic. the only thing i think i don't have so much problem with is math. and i don't even noe whether i did maths common test properly.. aahh.. crap. i tink i need a bout of mrs kwan-counselling haha..
its weird how i actually miss her over-concerned-ness.. guess at least she bothered about me huh. even though it went overboard:D
and now i'm totally freaked abt french oral presentation bcos i haven't done very much and then saw someone's blog where jireh asked if he could use a comp for presentation???aahhh.. unless my eyes were deceiving me. oh no... tt means i'll hafta find a day to go down to alliance francais and see if i can find books on cheese heh. and also check out my qualification test thing. aahh. it had better be valid forever or sth.. i'm not retaking that horrible thing..
argh. SAT scores.. can't believe myself! verbal score higher than maths?! wat the.. @$##$&($%(#@_!@ augh
and its not like SATmath is hard.. careless also careless till like tt.. aaahh. but i guess i'm quite happy w overall score.. >1500 at least.
and luckily i didn't get the scores last nite.. if not todays math ct sure screw up one. hopefully i did alright
now to mug bio. sigh. i'm taking so freaking long to do my own notes.. so inefficient.. i'll be so glad on fri at 10.30am:) whee~ -looking forward to freedom- for a while anyway.
lalala. clar is bored. just [well almost just] got back from ndp recording.. it was so unbelievably crappy.. like hello.. recording a countdown.. hahaha.. everytime i looked at mr toh while we were doing it i wanted to laugh.. ah well
but like jiahui says i sppose if they play that b4 the real ndp everyone will think everyone else is shouting very loudly and therefore will shout loudly too.
ooh "you're unbelievable" is playing on my comp. reminds me of izayla all the time:)
anyway. sigh! i really wanted to watch finding nemo with choir pple. but i couldn't. waste of $$ and time. ah well i intend to buy the VCD anyway!:) yay. i tink the turtles are so cute! esp the older one.. didn't catch his name [haha now that reminds me of blackbird.. 'i didn't catch ur name']
[and instead i'm here online. haha] i'm way behind on my mugging schedule which is so terrible 'cos i'm on a super tight schedule thanks to terp [and i must say i don't even really like my topic.. it's just something my dad would like.. but i guess i went along cos he sed it'll be gd.. and i sppose it's gd.. ah watever..] n like i was telling jan i probably ought to have a more positive attitude then maybe it'll get better
hafta go for some talk on nuclear fusion later.. @HCJC. hopefully i don't get bored.. and then tmr i have to go ntu again.. it also doesn't help that the place is so freaking far away. and i have 4 papers to read! help! and it's like quite weird lah.. my partner says he [didn't] noe wat we were spposed to do but then when we're in the lab with the prof he asks all sorts of stuff n everyth.. so enthu.. nvm.. i dun tink i noe wat i'm talking about.
to think i slept at 8.30 yesterday.. still feel lazy:| i suppose i ought to go do my work but my motivation has disappeared again.. so sian! groan. i wud much prefer having more free time. but i guess i'd probably slack more too. aah:(
[oh upon reading my last post i realised i'm lucky at least my terp n choir doesn't clash:] i really really hope my proj can hurry n yield results so we can go down less often and then i can have more time to relax [or mug haha *cynical*] and then my ears won't be like super traumatised.. bleah. i really hope it doesn't spoil my ears.. i bet that's the reason why my prof's hands are perpetually trembling:p from the shock of hearing "explosions" [which causes plasma to form]
mm. for once i actually can come back straight after class ends.. no french today! haha:)
but of course i need to find some motivation to mug for sats.. don't know what possessed me to go sign up.. guess it was my brother's bright idea.. bah.. hopefully i'll do fine. groan.
saturday was a pretty bad day for me though.. dunno why. wasn't particularly happy during combined prac.. and it got worse because after that my parents were telling me about parent-tcher meeting.. typical comments.. watever.. here's one.. classic one.. frm my bio tcher "she looks lost and dazed in class". my initial amusement turned to anger. in a way. like.. what kind of crap is that..
then i got a whole lot of more crap about how i must pay attention more during class and lectures [somehow for the last dunno how many weeks nothing from lectures really stays in my head] and must revise my work more often and must do consistent studying, blah blah blah..
at least there was rumours to cheer me up:) it was really hilarious.. and i really admire the way zhuanghui could go up there and act even though he wasn't well.. and put up a really gd show.. though chris sed friday's performance was better.. was still a side-splitting performance:) it was nice being with lijia n peiying again.. like in rg.. and silly ole chim:) and jolie. and chris.
anyhows, with my dismal results for this term's lecture tests i'm getting pretty worried about common test.. my june hols are practically non-existent, as i have ranted about.. 2 weeks of TERP.. choir on 4 days? [which is pretty gd already] but still it leaves me with like.. 1/2 a week to study? my dad told my CT that my only real free time was sunday afternoon.. left her rather appalled apparently. how queer. i thot it was pretty normal. well i guess u could count weekday nights.
frm 4A's in 1st term to ADOF in 2nd term. hopefully its partly cos i didn't study properly. and cos the topics are newer. if not i'm in deep trouble. and i don't buy the idea that oh it's normal to fail/do badly for rj tests.. honestly i couldn't care less wat the "norm" is.. if i'm not happy with my performance that's that. i guess wat andrew sed the other day represents part of what i believe.. that if you take failing tests to be normal, u'll just not bother about it and fail and think everything's fine.
i'm not sure i'm happy doing TERP but i know if i do it properly it'll probably yield nice results and all. hope that my mentor and my partner can accomodate my choir pracs and stuff. groan. i hate this sometimes. really.
haha on re-reading this i think i should try and stay happy more of the time.. i should get mrs kwan to counsel me haha;p kind of miss her.. and ms tan too. sigh. and the always-happily-beaming chen lao shi. alrites. better go get my stuff done. blah.
ah i just remembered.. a few more grouses about reloaded.. all trinity and neo can do when they're alone is to have sex.. like how pathetic is that.. its so.. watever.. and then the thing about them kissing each other when one of them is apparently dead is overused lah.. once in each film so "both are equal" is quite dumb.. sheesh.
ahahaha it was hilarious watching aud's reaction when she got her present.. too bad for pple who didn't go.. hahaha.. i laughed till i got a stomachache [which is pretty rare now].. anyhow.. must thank chris for her brilliant idea!:) haha.. tho tt horrible gal fell asleep!! then couldn't hear aud scold her.. hmph..
luckily i didn't get into v deep trouble for terp n choir today.. bah.. i really didn't want to leave one early/go for the other one late but was forced into the 2nd option in the end.. at least i was in time for the last part of sectionals and wasn't late for combined.. if i had to explain another time to mr toh why i couldn't email him in advance to say i'd be late again [and for the same reason..] i think he'd come after me.
hope we can get the style of the jazz piece!:) its super fun:) and somehow pseudo-yoik is super tiring on my voice.. n i dun tink its just me.. candice agreed too.. like actually f# isn't really that high.. but when we're doing the hai nan nama nou [or sth] part its very painful. i dunno. or maybe technique's wrong. bah. but its still a nice piece too
hmms.. at last i've had time to catch up on sch work.. but then the determination kind of sapped off:p so it kind of piled up slightly again.. no fear i guess i'll work at it this weekend.. am kind of worried abt common test tho.. bah.. n june hols will be pretty much packed w choir n terp.. hope i can juggle:|
and yes! i got to watch reloaded and x2!:) yay yay yay;) tho i must say somehow reloaded was a rather disappointing show.. can't believe it was given 4 stars in life.. i guess the effects are pretty cool.. but i thought it was quite anticlimatic and the fight scenes were drawn out too long [and were really quite unbelievable.. to the point of .. uh.. non-coolness? haha.. watever.. my vocab has deteriorated largely and i'm taking sats in june! gd luck to me. groan]
yup i preferred x2.. much.. at least there was a climax.. though i thought it was pretty gory the way wolverine kept plunging his claws into other people with these melodramatic ripping noises.. kelly hu was cool too!:) she has this sleek look.. i dunno if tt makes sense.. hmm.. i like mystique! think her power = one of the more useful ones.. and storm.. and jean grey:) n nightcrawler but he looks quite ugly actually. haha. thought it was nice tt the 2 sides combined to fight against william stryker..
anyhow.. more choir and terp tmr.. and also candice's hse! yay!:) can see nottie prince again.. haha.. so fun:) i'd better stay away from the pool.. and wear full body armour.. aud's bound to kill me [and chris] when she sees her present:p
actually i have tons of work [okay not that bad but i gotta prep for maths lecture test.. dun wanna not feel gd abt another test again]
but i'll just post for fun..
new choir comm's out!:) i'm quite happy with everyth.. though i'm not sure pple actually noe why they created public relations n welfare for me n jan.. split votes btwn 3 pple for 1 post is kinda rare [if i got my facts rite?] but anyways i'm happy!:) though it can't be compared to jan.. who goes round beaming all the time.. so cute:) and i think its a leetle bit unfair tt sam n conrad have double posts but i think they're gd for both so *shrug* gd for everyone!:) but of cos trust mr toh to only bother abt how the music sounds..
haha while the tchers were asking me n jan abt the post thing it was so funny.. they kept piling us with comments such that i was rather overwhelmed..
besides choir n concert.. [and hoping i can do blackbird properly on sat.. esp singing with val the power sop!! :| a bit freaky haha]
arrh dad's waiting for the comp.. i just realised my "5 mins" stretched to 10 so i'd better go do my work n finish updating another time
oh well
yes!! gold!! finals!!!
such an exciting experience:) coming to sch at like 7+am.. in costume [and court shoes and having a whole lot of problems walking in that very-fitting long skirt] with make-up and everyth on.. and then the warm-ups.. and also mr hodge coming in to wish us all the best.. and apologising for his not being able to go watch us. then being at vch.. singing on stage.. watching the other choirs..
rather magical:) although somehow i felt [when we started off with impressions] that we were going realli sharp.. but cudn't do anyth.. and thought we were realli nervous and tense and going too fast. dunno. tt was my "impression" haha. but i guess it was alrite.. since according to the pple who went back to get the results, mr toh sed tt the composer liked our impressions:) so tt was fine
mate saule.. hmm.. i thot tt was quite okay too:) and it was really wonderful.. the end part aft we did the sunrise thingy.. the sound realli floated up! so cool!!! aahh!!:) like mr toh sed..
iddem-dem. thot tt was pretty okay too.. mr toh was looking so sorrowful throughout the whole middle section so we'd copy his expression.. i tink it worked.. i'm not so sure.. other than tt during practise i had to work very hard to refrain frm laffing all the time.. cos our singing wasn't intense enuff.. and i thot the last passage was pretty gd!:) the fierce one.. and the "ai!" i thot tt brought down the concert hall haha.
anyhow according to sam for impressions at the end we were a whole tone off.. oops:| so seems like my feeling was correct. hais. so pore val was v demoralised cos she thot we did quite well.. then mr toh sed impressions wasn't our best.. mate saule was alrite.. iddem-dem was gd.. haha. well. i guess it helped tt aft every song he'd smile and mouth gd.. even tho it wasn't particularly true for everyth. ah. watever.
watching the other choirs were interesting.. tho i wud have liked to watch the other gd choirs.. i tink the way nelson kwei conducts is so.. hmm.. showy.. not in a v gd way. but maybe we're all prejudiced. ah well. had fun poking fun at the other conductor.. of the SAJC choir.. hehe:p
so we came back, changed [and i survived 5 hrs in sch w/o socks haha.. forgot to bring.. and dearest lyd who was in class didn't check her phone]. but didn't really matter since i ponned pe:p actually alex sed ms tan told him he cud miss pe. -shrugs-
anyways it was great having lunch at holland v nydc.. tho the way we got there was hilarious.. to "avoid walking up a small hill" [quote rumin] we ended up walking thru a field of knee-length-high grass.. so itchy.. after tt we kept scratching our legs.. and had to cross 2 canals.. haha.. jiahui kept going on abt how it's so "obs"-ish.. and we've become "leaders pioneers and thinkers" hilarious:p
i was sitting there sharing brownie w candice and gloating over the pore pple slogging over physics test back in LT1. haha:p then got back to find that we were actually early for maths tutorial! hilarious:p 5-10 mins late and still earlier than the rest of our class.. oh.. i'm so glad mrs cheong is so nice.. she allowed us to take the physics test tmr.. unlike ms gong [the 3A tcher] who forced aaron and wingyee to do it.. sed it was their responsibility to take it.. bah! pore them
anyways later was sitting in the canteen worrying.. together w candice n alex n christine n tiffany.. then shumin got the news 1st then she came to the canteen and told all of us and we shrieked:p bwaha:) in pure joy! hahaha;) and went around hugging pple n shaking hands. whee~ fun happy day:)
i think choir pple are realli nice! starting to bond pretty well aft syf n everyth.. i guess going thru all the stuff really helped.. but anyhow ms tan sed elections mite be tmr.. tts pretty quick.. but i guess since we're like behind everyone else.. haha..
and i also think the choir tchers are nice!:) yay..
ah. i'd better go mug for tests and do my research for ipw .. groan.. shudn't have been so last min. bah.
ah. i must post about my spastic terp interview.. 1st of all.. spent like 10mins+ looking for the place.. get there.. queue for like 1/2hr.. for wat? temperature taking! woohoo!! so fun!!! =sarcastic= i sppose it was necessary, but honestly, like someone frm church said.. by the time you take ur temperature and realise ur temperature's higher than allowed for and u realli do have sars, everyone wud already have gotten it.. wats the point.. -shrug-
so. for the interview. anna and her classmate finished and came out saying that the 2 interviewers sitting at the desk = jokers.. crazy and useless.. all they did was to talk and talk and talk and promote ntu.. saying that's its such a wonderful place.. and the bio facilities are v gd.. and asked anna wat she thought of ntu.. so she sed "erm.. v few pple?" so they sed "all the better! no SARS!" [erps.. wat has tt got to do with her project..] anyways.. hers was something to do with slag and purifiying industrial waste.. so they were saying.. u have to work with furnaces! so whenever u come.. u must be prepared to sweat! [erps again..]
yeah. so i went in, expecting them to be doing most of the talking as reported by anna and her classmate. but no! i went in, greeted them, sat down. they stared at me. i stared back at them.. like hello.. its an interview maybe?? interviewers are spposed to start asking questions so i can answer?? so the guy who came into the room to call me [he was sitting at the side] started off.. asked me to talk abt the subjects i'm currently studying. okay.. so i finished with tt.
=silence= [while we had a little bit of staring again]
one of the interviewers decides to ask me if i like experimental work. crap a bit abt practicals and how they're fun and everyth.. finished.
=more silence=
[clar feels very uneasy] so the guy sitting at the side tells me abt the proj i chose [haha actually i forgot]
then asks if i noe anyth abt building structures or watever.. the proj was abt monitoring health conditions of building structures. sth like tt. so i sed sth spastic abt how its lucky we're not in an earthquake prone zone [aah i noe this sounds realli realli stupid but realli.. hadn't the faintest idea wat to talk abt] and sth else abt architecture and safety and blah blah blah
=more silence= asked me if i was nervous [like duh rite.. i have never ever sat in an interview where the interviewers can't find anything to ask u about] and if i had any questions.. so i asked wat kind of equipment they use to check the structure.. and tt was it.
the best is yet to come.. after that.. at like 12.30+ one of them called me up and sed they needed to ask me more qns! oh wow.. even queerer.. i go for the interview and they don't wanna ask me anything and then end up calling me.. hmmm.. anyhow was asking me abt my 1st choice and "do u noe wat ur proj is abt?" me"uh.. plasma?" the prof/whoever"do u noe wat plasma is?" me"isn't it spposed to be the 4th state of matter?" prof"yeah.. not blood plasma ah yar.. just in case.." 8| honestly. realli weird.
but anyway.. hopefully i can get in;) and maybe they'll even send me overseas! whee:)
i'm convinced my conductor doesn't like me.. he had this very unhappy [pissed? disgusted? i dunno] look on his face when he was looking at me.. but maybe it was just me.. i dunno. hopefully nothing's wrong n i'm just being oversensitive.
overdosage of choir. today i wasn't feeling particularly gd either. really need to do warmups b4 singing..
haha super shuang! today ended at 12.10 and actually got to slack!:) whee:) when usually we're the ones having super late prac.. ahahaha.. thanks to gala dinner.. but i guess tmr makes up for it.. 8-10 fringe 10 - 4.30 choir. ah well. i tink it'll be fun anyway:) enjoyed last nite's prac when he was actually happy w us and didn't stop us..
and candice's dalmatian puppy is so cute!!:) hahaha. it was galloping around in circles [and realli resembled a horse] and then started jumping around dementedly and also was snapping all over the place as well as worrying candice's socks.. [and our hands too for that matter] but i tink it was kinda thin.. ah well.. maybe i used to feed my dog [had one a long long looong time ago] too much;p
anyhow.. i wanna go for dance nite! -wails- but this fri i hafta leave french early to go for vch rehearsal.. then nxt mon = last prac b4 syf so i can't miss it.. even pple are missing chem s for tt.. and then the nxt fri will be dance nite. augh. plus the new choir concert is the nxt nxt fri. means another french lesson either totally/half-missed. groan. and we're going to be having another test soon.. aaahhh
the only thing good so far is tt i passed tt horrible qualifying test for DELF2!:) yay.. [its this france-recognised exam for the standard of ur french.. they don't recognise o/ao/a levels] yeah. even after the disastrous and unexpected listening compre + summary + "application question" yup. =happy enuff=:) and i tink i will actually have some time today to play piano [for the 1st time in like a fortnight.. terrible]
hafta catch up w work tho.. everyday i just come back and decide oh i'm so tired i'm going to sleep and don't get a single bit of work done.. plus tests coming up nxt wk! aughs. choir elections will be soon enuff i tink.
arrh. haven't posted for long time. just don't have the time.. ah well.. wat with all the chorale pracs.. but watever it is i still wanna get into finals.. even tho we're gonna be practising like mad.. and yeah i guess the music does make up for it but sometimes [okay.. that single one time:] i really wanted to like give up, say i'm sick and go home. haha. but at least tt wore off.. i guess it was just me tt day;)
anyways one time during the week i was feeling really down and thinking abt wat my gp tcher sed.. it is so true.. in, say, america, u can be urself and still succeed [cos we were talking about american idol] but here in spore its so fixed.. u have to excel academically if not u're like a failure.. blah blah blah.. and ur cca record must be gd.. etc. sometimes i'm so tired of it. yeah. anyway. so much for that.
at least i did okay for french:) tho of cos cud have done better but with the super last min mugging i guess it was alrite.. but when i look at liangsi's essay.. i'm like.. woah.. how in the world am i gonna learn to write like tt. sigh... ah well. i noe i ought to be reading "le point" [aka time magazine in french hahahaha] but i don't even read my economist! i tink i'm in deep trouble man.. ah.
something else.. i don't seem to be concentrating very well. mm. esp physics.. which isn't exactly one of my best subjects [in fact i dun even noe wat my best subj is haha] n keep getting maths qns which i dunno how to do [or am not sure]. i sppose tts education. and i also don't think i'm making sense anymore so i shall go off.
ah. pore tired clar. i'm kind of in trouble cos i spent practically the whole of fri out and sat too.. it was nice meeting up w ex-classmates:) and the ice cream! haha.. yums:) and at least i've gotten chris n puee their presents:p hilarious tho.. puee trying on her shirt on sat when we went to her house and complaining its tight.. well its just more body-hugging than wat she usually wears hahaha.. i tink i must haf put on tons of weight with all the stuff i ate on friday:p ice cream and then late lunch at nydc.. ahaha.. oops
and choir on sat.. hais.. i guess i wasn't in a particularly gd mood.. therefore i didn't find it very fun/fulfilling like other pple did hmm.. i was ready to like give up and say i'm not feeling well or sth.. which i wasn't lah but not to tt extent.. was just so so tired.. and mr toh the slave driver just kept going on and on.. i guess i'm not used to long tiring pracs haha:p unlike the other ex-choir pple.
oh well. and if i didn't try hard enuff n sing properly it wud be letting down everyone else cos its a grp thing.. quote conductor: with our size of choir.. everyone matters.. etc.. therefore i was totally tired after tt and my throat was aching so much.. or maybe it was my neck.. watever.. at least i feel a little better today:)
BUT i haven't done any hw over the long weekend yet therefore i shall hafta spend the rest of the night doing hw. sigh. including maths tutorial 8 which a certain serene lee finished during the hols [bah:p] and my french hw due tmr! freak. and due to syf the pracs are gonna be stepped up.. does extra prac on tues 7.30 to 10pm sound v appealing to u? haha. GROAN. nvm i shud stop complaining.. i chose to do this anyway.. and i wanna go for syf! wanna get into finals!:D
hallo. hmms haven't posted for quite a while [yes serene i NOE:p] haven't had much to say.. or rather.. just too lazy:)
arghs i miss my old maths tutor! sigh.. the new one's kind of weird.. and i guess i kind of got used to the old one's style.. quite gd.. hais. not like i have a choice
anyways today's art club was so.. heavy.. like.. information overload or sth.. actually not really information overload.. just plain overload:p cos we were talking abt elections and then dearest ollie made us talk abt wat we want for the art club.. wat we wud do for it, blah blah blah.. cos elections are nxt week.. so it was like.. yeah..
and then after that the dearest art tcher spent 45mins talking while i stoned down there and listened 1/2 the time.. well.. at least i tried:p
and yesterday's choir was also so tiring.. that i slept at 10.30pm.. that's like quite rare.. i tink:p spent close to 3 hrs singing impressions the horrid syf song and memorising it.. tt was really a horror.. like dang deng ding dong dung all the time made me [and my throat] very tired AND i really felt like i morphed into a percussion instrument..
we also got our new costumes.. which look SO terrible!!! augh... for more info i'll complain to u personally if u want haha:p $60 for tt.. sheesh..
i foresee myself being super busy the nxt few weeks until syf.. -shrugs-.. my days will be packed frm mon to sat.. leaving me with sunday [which is like 1/2day cos of church] to do work/study/watever.. bah.. new timetable isn't fantastic either.. my only free day is a 5.10 day.. sigh..
ah well at least i have the long weekend to look forward to:) more outings!:) yay:)
oh! comments abt council. yeah.. i tink the campaigns and speeches are quite useless actually.. i mean.. pple won't really vote for pple they don't noe rite?? and not like u can tell a person's kter frm the speeches/watever.. i tink most pple already noe who they want to vote for.. -shrugs- i don't have enough votes!!! argh.. i tink i need around 20 or sth haha..
actually its rather worrying.. i was talking to lyd abt it just now.. a lot of pple are saying oh so-and-so is so popular.. he/she'll probably be voted in by everyone else so i can sacrifice him/her for someone else.. and then if everyone thinks tt way the best pple won't get in! but maybe they're just groundless fears.. i hope.