mm. for once i actually can come back straight after class ends.. no french today! haha:)
but of course i need to find some motivation to mug for sats.. don't know what possessed me to go sign up.. guess it was my brother's bright idea.. bah.. hopefully i'll do fine. groan.
saturday was a pretty bad day for me though.. dunno why. wasn't particularly happy during combined prac.. and it got worse because after that my parents were telling me about parent-tcher meeting.. typical comments.. watever.. here's one.. classic one.. frm my bio tcher "she looks lost and dazed in class". my initial amusement turned to anger. in a way. like.. what kind of crap is that..
then i got a whole lot of more crap about how i must pay attention more during class and lectures [somehow for the last dunno how many weeks nothing from lectures really stays in my head] and must revise my work more often and must do consistent studying, blah blah blah..
at least there was rumours to cheer me up:) it was really hilarious.. and i really admire the way zhuanghui could go up there and act even though he wasn't well.. and put up a really gd show.. though chris sed friday's performance was better.. was still a side-splitting performance:) it was nice being with lijia n peiying again.. like in rg.. and silly ole chim:) and jolie. and chris.
anyhows, with my dismal results for this term's lecture tests i'm getting pretty worried about common test.. my june hols are practically non-existent, as i have ranted about.. 2 weeks of TERP.. choir on 4 days? [which is pretty gd already] but still it leaves me with like.. 1/2 a week to study? my dad told my CT that my only real free time was sunday afternoon.. left her rather appalled apparently. how queer. i thot it was pretty normal. well i guess u could count weekday nights.
frm 4A's in 1st term to ADOF in 2nd term. hopefully its partly cos i didn't study properly. and cos the topics are newer. if not i'm in deep trouble. and i don't buy the idea that oh it's normal to fail/do badly for rj tests.. honestly i couldn't care less wat the "norm" is.. if i'm not happy with my performance that's that. i guess wat andrew sed the other day represents part of what i believe.. that if you take failing tests to be normal, u'll just not bother about it and fail and think everything's fine.
i'm not sure i'm happy doing TERP but i know if i do it properly it'll probably yield nice results and all. hope that my mentor and my partner can accomodate my choir pracs and stuff. groan. i hate this sometimes. really.
haha on re-reading this i think i should try and stay happy more of the time.. i should get mrs kwan to counsel me haha;p kind of miss her.. and ms tan too. sigh. and the always-happily-beaming chen lao shi. alrites. better go get my stuff done. blah.
ah i just remembered.. a few more grouses about reloaded.. all trinity and neo can do when they're alone is to have sex.. like how pathetic is that.. its so.. watever.. and then the thing about them kissing each other when one of them is apparently dead is overused lah.. once in each film so "both are equal" is quite dumb.. sheesh.
ahahaha it was hilarious watching aud's reaction when she got her present.. too bad for pple who didn't go.. hahaha.. i laughed till i got a stomachache [which is pretty rare now].. anyhow.. must thank chris for her brilliant idea!:) haha.. tho tt horrible gal fell asleep!! then couldn't hear aud scold her.. hmph..
luckily i didn't get into v deep trouble for terp n choir today.. bah.. i really didn't want to leave one early/go for the other one late but was forced into the 2nd option in the end.. at least i was in time for the last part of sectionals and wasn't late for combined.. if i had to explain another time to mr toh why i couldn't email him in advance to say i'd be late again [and for the same reason..] i think he'd come after me.
hope we can get the style of the jazz piece!:) its super fun:) and somehow pseudo-yoik is super tiring on my voice.. n i dun tink its just me.. candice agreed too.. like actually f# isn't really that high.. but when we're doing the hai nan nama nou [or sth] part its very painful. i dunno. or maybe technique's wrong. bah. but its still a nice piece too
hmms.. at last i've had time to catch up on sch work.. but then the determination kind of sapped off:p so it kind of piled up slightly again.. no fear i guess i'll work at it this weekend.. am kind of worried abt common test tho.. bah.. n june hols will be pretty much packed w choir n terp.. hope i can juggle:|
and yes! i got to watch reloaded and x2!:) yay yay yay;) tho i must say somehow reloaded was a rather disappointing show.. can't believe it was given 4 stars in life.. i guess the effects are pretty cool.. but i thought it was quite anticlimatic and the fight scenes were drawn out too long [and were really quite unbelievable.. to the point of .. uh.. non-coolness? haha.. watever.. my vocab has deteriorated largely and i'm taking sats in june! gd luck to me. groan]
yup i preferred x2.. much.. at least there was a climax.. though i thought it was pretty gory the way wolverine kept plunging his claws into other people with these melodramatic ripping noises.. kelly hu was cool too!:) she has this sleek look.. i dunno if tt makes sense.. hmm.. i like mystique! think her power = one of the more useful ones.. and storm.. and jean grey:) n nightcrawler but he looks quite ugly actually. haha. thought it was nice tt the 2 sides combined to fight against william stryker..
anyhow.. more choir and terp tmr.. and also candice's hse! yay!:) can see nottie prince again.. haha.. so fun:) i'd better stay away from the pool.. and wear full body armour.. aud's bound to kill me [and chris] when she sees her present:p
actually i have tons of work [okay not that bad but i gotta prep for maths lecture test.. dun wanna not feel gd abt another test again]
but i'll just post for fun..
new choir comm's out!:) i'm quite happy with everyth.. though i'm not sure pple actually noe why they created public relations n welfare for me n jan.. split votes btwn 3 pple for 1 post is kinda rare [if i got my facts rite?] but anyways i'm happy!:) though it can't be compared to jan.. who goes round beaming all the time.. so cute:) and i think its a leetle bit unfair tt sam n conrad have double posts but i think they're gd for both so *shrug* gd for everyone!:) but of cos trust mr toh to only bother abt how the music sounds..
haha while the tchers were asking me n jan abt the post thing it was so funny.. they kept piling us with comments such that i was rather overwhelmed..
besides choir n concert.. [and hoping i can do blackbird properly on sat.. esp singing with val the power sop!! :| a bit freaky haha]
arrh dad's waiting for the comp.. i just realised my "5 mins" stretched to 10 so i'd better go do my work n finish updating another time
oh well
yes!! gold!! finals!!!
such an exciting experience:) coming to sch at like 7+am.. in costume [and court shoes and having a whole lot of problems walking in that very-fitting long skirt] with make-up and everyth on.. and then the warm-ups.. and also mr hodge coming in to wish us all the best.. and apologising for his not being able to go watch us. then being at vch.. singing on stage.. watching the other choirs..
rather magical:) although somehow i felt [when we started off with impressions] that we were going realli sharp.. but cudn't do anyth.. and thought we were realli nervous and tense and going too fast. dunno. tt was my "impression" haha. but i guess it was alrite.. since according to the pple who went back to get the results, mr toh sed tt the composer liked our impressions:) so tt was fine
mate saule.. hmm.. i thot tt was quite okay too:) and it was really wonderful.. the end part aft we did the sunrise thingy.. the sound realli floated up! so cool!!! aahh!!:) like mr toh sed..
iddem-dem. thot tt was pretty okay too.. mr toh was looking so sorrowful throughout the whole middle section so we'd copy his expression.. i tink it worked.. i'm not so sure.. other than tt during practise i had to work very hard to refrain frm laffing all the time.. cos our singing wasn't intense enuff.. and i thot the last passage was pretty gd!:) the fierce one.. and the "ai!" i thot tt brought down the concert hall haha.
anyhow according to sam for impressions at the end we were a whole tone off.. oops:| so seems like my feeling was correct. hais. so pore val was v demoralised cos she thot we did quite well.. then mr toh sed impressions wasn't our best.. mate saule was alrite.. iddem-dem was gd.. haha. well. i guess it helped tt aft every song he'd smile and mouth gd.. even tho it wasn't particularly true for everyth. ah. watever.
watching the other choirs were interesting.. tho i wud have liked to watch the other gd choirs.. i tink the way nelson kwei conducts is so.. hmm.. showy.. not in a v gd way. but maybe we're all prejudiced. ah well. had fun poking fun at the other conductor.. of the SAJC choir.. hehe:p
so we came back, changed [and i survived 5 hrs in sch w/o socks haha.. forgot to bring.. and dearest lyd who was in class didn't check her phone]. but didn't really matter since i ponned pe:p actually alex sed ms tan told him he cud miss pe. -shrugs-
anyways it was great having lunch at holland v nydc.. tho the way we got there was hilarious.. to "avoid walking up a small hill" [quote rumin] we ended up walking thru a field of knee-length-high grass.. so itchy.. after tt we kept scratching our legs.. and had to cross 2 canals.. haha.. jiahui kept going on abt how it's so "obs"-ish.. and we've become "leaders pioneers and thinkers" hilarious:p
i was sitting there sharing brownie w candice and gloating over the pore pple slogging over physics test back in LT1. haha:p then got back to find that we were actually early for maths tutorial! hilarious:p 5-10 mins late and still earlier than the rest of our class.. oh.. i'm so glad mrs cheong is so nice.. she allowed us to take the physics test tmr.. unlike ms gong [the 3A tcher] who forced aaron and wingyee to do it.. sed it was their responsibility to take it.. bah! pore them
anyways later was sitting in the canteen worrying.. together w candice n alex n christine n tiffany.. then shumin got the news 1st then she came to the canteen and told all of us and we shrieked:p bwaha:) in pure joy! hahaha;) and went around hugging pple n shaking hands. whee~ fun happy day:)
i think choir pple are realli nice! starting to bond pretty well aft syf n everyth.. i guess going thru all the stuff really helped.. but anyhow ms tan sed elections mite be tmr.. tts pretty quick.. but i guess since we're like behind everyone else.. haha..
and i also think the choir tchers are nice!:) yay..
ah. i'd better go mug for tests and do my research for ipw .. groan.. shudn't have been so last min. bah.
ah. i must post about my spastic terp interview.. 1st of all.. spent like 10mins+ looking for the place.. get there.. queue for like 1/2hr.. for wat? temperature taking! woohoo!! so fun!!! =sarcastic= i sppose it was necessary, but honestly, like someone frm church said.. by the time you take ur temperature and realise ur temperature's higher than allowed for and u realli do have sars, everyone wud already have gotten it.. wats the point.. -shrug-
so. for the interview. anna and her classmate finished and came out saying that the 2 interviewers sitting at the desk = jokers.. crazy and useless.. all they did was to talk and talk and talk and promote ntu.. saying that's its such a wonderful place.. and the bio facilities are v gd.. and asked anna wat she thought of ntu.. so she sed "erm.. v few pple?" so they sed "all the better! no SARS!" [erps.. wat has tt got to do with her project..] anyways.. hers was something to do with slag and purifiying industrial waste.. so they were saying.. u have to work with furnaces! so whenever u come.. u must be prepared to sweat! [erps again..]
yeah. so i went in, expecting them to be doing most of the talking as reported by anna and her classmate. but no! i went in, greeted them, sat down. they stared at me. i stared back at them.. like hello.. its an interview maybe?? interviewers are spposed to start asking questions so i can answer?? so the guy who came into the room to call me [he was sitting at the side] started off.. asked me to talk abt the subjects i'm currently studying. okay.. so i finished with tt.
=silence= [while we had a little bit of staring again]
one of the interviewers decides to ask me if i like experimental work. crap a bit abt practicals and how they're fun and everyth.. finished.
=more silence=
[clar feels very uneasy] so the guy sitting at the side tells me abt the proj i chose [haha actually i forgot]
then asks if i noe anyth abt building structures or watever.. the proj was abt monitoring health conditions of building structures. sth like tt. so i sed sth spastic abt how its lucky we're not in an earthquake prone zone [aah i noe this sounds realli realli stupid but realli.. hadn't the faintest idea wat to talk abt] and sth else abt architecture and safety and blah blah blah
=more silence= asked me if i was nervous [like duh rite.. i have never ever sat in an interview where the interviewers can't find anything to ask u about] and if i had any questions.. so i asked wat kind of equipment they use to check the structure.. and tt was it.
the best is yet to come.. after that.. at like 12.30+ one of them called me up and sed they needed to ask me more qns! oh wow.. even queerer.. i go for the interview and they don't wanna ask me anything and then end up calling me.. hmmm.. anyhow was asking me abt my 1st choice and "do u noe wat ur proj is abt?" me"uh.. plasma?" the prof/whoever"do u noe wat plasma is?" me"isn't it spposed to be the 4th state of matter?" prof"yeah.. not blood plasma ah yar.. just in case.." 8| honestly. realli weird.
but anyway.. hopefully i can get in;) and maybe they'll even send me overseas! whee:)
i'm convinced my conductor doesn't like me.. he had this very unhappy [pissed? disgusted? i dunno] look on his face when he was looking at me.. but maybe it was just me.. i dunno. hopefully nothing's wrong n i'm just being oversensitive.
overdosage of choir. today i wasn't feeling particularly gd either. really need to do warmups b4 singing..
haha super shuang! today ended at 12.10 and actually got to slack!:) whee:) when usually we're the ones having super late prac.. ahahaha.. thanks to gala dinner.. but i guess tmr makes up for it.. 8-10 fringe 10 - 4.30 choir. ah well. i tink it'll be fun anyway:) enjoyed last nite's prac when he was actually happy w us and didn't stop us..
and candice's dalmatian puppy is so cute!!:) hahaha. it was galloping around in circles [and realli resembled a horse] and then started jumping around dementedly and also was snapping all over the place as well as worrying candice's socks.. [and our hands too for that matter] but i tink it was kinda thin.. ah well.. maybe i used to feed my dog [had one a long long looong time ago] too much;p
anyhow.. i wanna go for dance nite! -wails- but this fri i hafta leave french early to go for vch rehearsal.. then nxt mon = last prac b4 syf so i can't miss it.. even pple are missing chem s for tt.. and then the nxt fri will be dance nite. augh. plus the new choir concert is the nxt nxt fri. means another french lesson either totally/half-missed. groan. and we're going to be having another test soon.. aaahhh
the only thing good so far is tt i passed tt horrible qualifying test for DELF2!:) yay.. [its this france-recognised exam for the standard of ur french.. they don't recognise o/ao/a levels] yeah. even after the disastrous and unexpected listening compre + summary + "application question" yup. =happy enuff=:) and i tink i will actually have some time today to play piano [for the 1st time in like a fortnight.. terrible]
hafta catch up w work tho.. everyday i just come back and decide oh i'm so tired i'm going to sleep and don't get a single bit of work done.. plus tests coming up nxt wk! aughs. choir elections will be soon enuff i tink.
arrh. haven't posted for long time. just don't have the time.. ah well.. wat with all the chorale pracs.. but watever it is i still wanna get into finals.. even tho we're gonna be practising like mad.. and yeah i guess the music does make up for it but sometimes [okay.. that single one time:] i really wanted to like give up, say i'm sick and go home. haha. but at least tt wore off.. i guess it was just me tt day;)
anyways one time during the week i was feeling really down and thinking abt wat my gp tcher sed.. it is so true.. in, say, america, u can be urself and still succeed [cos we were talking about american idol] but here in spore its so fixed.. u have to excel academically if not u're like a failure.. blah blah blah.. and ur cca record must be gd.. etc. sometimes i'm so tired of it. yeah. anyway. so much for that.
at least i did okay for french:) tho of cos cud have done better but with the super last min mugging i guess it was alrite.. but when i look at liangsi's essay.. i'm like.. woah.. how in the world am i gonna learn to write like tt. sigh... ah well. i noe i ought to be reading "le point" [aka time magazine in french hahahaha] but i don't even read my economist! i tink i'm in deep trouble man.. ah.
something else.. i don't seem to be concentrating very well. mm. esp physics.. which isn't exactly one of my best subjects [in fact i dun even noe wat my best subj is haha] n keep getting maths qns which i dunno how to do [or am not sure]. i sppose tts education. and i also don't think i'm making sense anymore so i shall go off.
ah. pore tired clar. i'm kind of in trouble cos i spent practically the whole of fri out and sat too.. it was nice meeting up w ex-classmates:) and the ice cream! haha.. yums:) and at least i've gotten chris n puee their presents:p hilarious tho.. puee trying on her shirt on sat when we went to her house and complaining its tight.. well its just more body-hugging than wat she usually wears hahaha.. i tink i must haf put on tons of weight with all the stuff i ate on friday:p ice cream and then late lunch at nydc.. ahaha.. oops
and choir on sat.. hais.. i guess i wasn't in a particularly gd mood.. therefore i didn't find it very fun/fulfilling like other pple did hmm.. i was ready to like give up and say i'm not feeling well or sth.. which i wasn't lah but not to tt extent.. was just so so tired.. and mr toh the slave driver just kept going on and on.. i guess i'm not used to long tiring pracs haha:p unlike the other ex-choir pple.
oh well. and if i didn't try hard enuff n sing properly it wud be letting down everyone else cos its a grp thing.. quote conductor: with our size of choir.. everyone matters.. etc.. therefore i was totally tired after tt and my throat was aching so much.. or maybe it was my neck.. watever.. at least i feel a little better today:)
BUT i haven't done any hw over the long weekend yet therefore i shall hafta spend the rest of the night doing hw. sigh. including maths tutorial 8 which a certain serene lee finished during the hols [bah:p] and my french hw due tmr! freak. and due to syf the pracs are gonna be stepped up.. does extra prac on tues 7.30 to 10pm sound v appealing to u? haha. GROAN. nvm i shud stop complaining.. i chose to do this anyway.. and i wanna go for syf! wanna get into finals!:D
hallo. hmms haven't posted for quite a while [yes serene i NOE:p] haven't had much to say.. or rather.. just too lazy:)
arghs i miss my old maths tutor! sigh.. the new one's kind of weird.. and i guess i kind of got used to the old one's style.. quite gd.. hais. not like i have a choice
anyways today's art club was so.. heavy.. like.. information overload or sth.. actually not really information overload.. just plain overload:p cos we were talking abt elections and then dearest ollie made us talk abt wat we want for the art club.. wat we wud do for it, blah blah blah.. cos elections are nxt week.. so it was like.. yeah..
and then after that the dearest art tcher spent 45mins talking while i stoned down there and listened 1/2 the time.. well.. at least i tried:p
and yesterday's choir was also so tiring.. that i slept at 10.30pm.. that's like quite rare.. i tink:p spent close to 3 hrs singing impressions the horrid syf song and memorising it.. tt was really a horror.. like dang deng ding dong dung all the time made me [and my throat] very tired AND i really felt like i morphed into a percussion instrument..
we also got our new costumes.. which look SO terrible!!! augh... for more info i'll complain to u personally if u want haha:p $60 for tt.. sheesh..
i foresee myself being super busy the nxt few weeks until syf.. -shrugs-.. my days will be packed frm mon to sat.. leaving me with sunday [which is like 1/2day cos of church] to do work/study/watever.. bah.. new timetable isn't fantastic either.. my only free day is a 5.10 day.. sigh..
ah well at least i have the long weekend to look forward to:) more outings!:) yay:)
oh! comments abt council. yeah.. i tink the campaigns and speeches are quite useless actually.. i mean.. pple won't really vote for pple they don't noe rite?? and not like u can tell a person's kter frm the speeches/watever.. i tink most pple already noe who they want to vote for.. -shrugs- i don't have enough votes!!! argh.. i tink i need around 20 or sth haha..
actually its rather worrying.. i was talking to lyd abt it just now.. a lot of pple are saying oh so-and-so is so popular.. he/she'll probably be voted in by everyone else so i can sacrifice him/her for someone else.. and then if everyone thinks tt way the best pple won't get in! but maybe they're just groundless fears.. i hope.
ughs today's the last day of the so-called holidays and i find tt it has been the most unproductive break i've ever had.. blah.. it's like.. i feel so unmotivated.. do work for a very short stretch of time [if i even get any work done haha] and then its either radio/computer/piano/books/sth.. sigh. at least tmr's back to sch and hopefully i'll get back into my normal state haha
mm! got back frm the concert 1 hr ago.. was really good! tho i must say i didn't really like the 1st "third" of the performance.. all the goh toh chai songs.. hrms.. i guess i mite be a leetle bit biased cos he's the one who composed the syf set piece for choir this yr.. called "impressions".. which is spposed to sound like a gamelan orchestra therefore contains "dang deng ding dong dung" as the lyrics..
anyways.. then this person called nellie seng played.. she = hilarious.. took off the whole stand [for scores?] frm the grand piano n made a whole lot of noise.. and cos i was sitting in the 2nd row, cud see her grimace.. haha.. then she put it on the =floor=!! and then after tt held up this pen/pencil/sth and showed it to us n dumped it somewhere else too. hilarious:)
but her performance was awesome.. i guess her style's like really good.. you can see how expressive she is.. even better than my ex-piano tcher and that's saying sth.. i thot my ex-piano tcher was v zai already.. yeah. extremely moving. i really feel so pathetic when i watch pple like them play. *sigh*
4-piano and 6-piano pieces were really fun!:) tho i tink we shud have gone up to the circle seats for tt one.. cudn't really see anything frm 2nd row.. hais.. rather a pity.. but i only realised after the 1st piece started. win some lose some i guess. tho i tink i heard the 4-piano piece b4 in the last NAFA concert.. it was fun seeing mingjing n florrine n diane play anyhow:) and tt song was so familiar! mm.
but the best surprise was tt leeting was sitting nxt to me!:) i saw her when we were going to check out the circle seats but had no idea she wud be sitting there.. so cool:) and was really gd.. miss her lots. sigh.
anyhow i'm so glad sch's starting.. have been soo bored at home u can't imagine.. but at least i get to go out occasionally unlike lots of poor ppl who're stuck at home. okies i shall go sleep. tiring day.
ohh!! i forgot about this.. yesterday i was out w jane shopping;) assuage boredom yeah? anyways so after everything [including eating crepes and feeling guilty about the pounds put on haha:p] i went to music essentials at meridien and was browsing.. so happened that the bks i was looking at were nxt to the counter.. this british woman stepped up to the counter and asked in this posh british accent for the theory syllabus for this yr [i tink? i forgot.. but it was some kind of a syllabus:]
anyway the person at the counter informed her tt it was only available at music schools such as cristofori, kawaii, yamaha, etc.. and then she got super-pissed and went on in a rather ungracious manner about how "i'm not going to trek around the whole of singapore looking for theory syllabuses!" and "in london, -every- music shop has the theory syllabus.." and basically being totally annoying.. talk about snobbish.. sheesh. her voice was absolutely grating on my nerves.
anyhow.. i spent 1/2 of today listening to the radio! normally i dun listen unless i'm in the car and its usually on classical/news/french on the really rare occasions
to think most teenagers are spposed to listen to the radio all the time or sth. ah well. guess its cos there's only one compo/combo? watever. and its in my bro's room and he listens to it all the time when he's home and i can't be bothered to move it over to my room. also my room's in such a mess i don't think i'd have space for it. was just in a musicky mood today:) haha i have just invented an adjective! yay:)
hmm i tink the concert on sun nite will be interesting.. 6 pianos! can't imagine how much practise it took.
lalala i'm so glad i figured out all this crap
but its time for lunch
haha i'm so lazy i woke up at 11 and therefore didn't have breakfast
:):):)
oops
well
tts clar for u
haha!
its working
but rather weirdly
comments box at the top of each post? hmm.. i dunno.. heck.. at least i got it up.. ha! to chris!:P
argh i have no idea how to add in the comments thing
has been annoying me for quite sometime!
i shall have to ask chris to help [haha fine chris i give up:p]
can't believe this.. even after a 2 yr crap comp course [aka cift] at spore poly.. bah..
yay i got into choir! -happy happy happy-
and relieved
it was so freaky.. had to wait for almost an hour cos the 1st batch started late and took quite some time..
and then when my batch finally went in.. i was the one sitting nearest to the conductor therefore i had to start first.. aaah..
continued with tt for everyone.. and he asked everyone [except 4 of us, including me] about whether they had choir/music bkgrd.. so it was quite worrying.. also how much stuff he wrote beside ur name.. duno whether writing more/less is better.. hmm..
it also didn't help tt the conductor [mr toh] called us all into the LT and went "oh we're looking for a certain quality of voice for the choir.. so if u don't get chosen, don't completely go off music okay.. just take it as u have other talents.." talk about nervous.. i was practically shaking in the chair okay. of course the LT was cold too but yeah. therefore i was absolutely elated when he sed i was in sop2 and heaved a huge sigh of relief.. i've learnt to not let it show though, isn't always very nice esp when other pple didn't get in.
okay after one year at diary-x i decided to move back! haha:) well
mms i'm attempting to sing properly rite now cos i haf 2nd round of chorale auditions later! sigh. and i feel like i've got a sore throat. aaaaah. crap. and i thought it was okay yesterday. hmph.
haha after looking at my winamp playlist i realised just how few songs with lyrics i have on my playlist. just goes to show how pathetic songs-with-lyrics are.. or maybe it's just cos i usually can't make out the lyrics unless i go download them *rofl*
sigh i'm feeling so slack, everyday i get back and i hardly do any work.. i usually do my tutorials during boring lectures:p ah. i have to stop this crap. altho its just 1st 3 months but still. hm. must be the effect of my super-mugger class -shakes head- oh well
sighs why can't life ever be easy
i don't know what to do
in fact, i never ever know what to do
why why why why
what am i going to do?
it's so hard
everything's always so hard
sigh
this sucks. big time..
and if i weigh both sides.. i still don't know..
groans
moans
whines
:( =( 8(
feeling a lil out of sorts..
why can't pple be individual? is it so hard? why must pple compete? why must pple have what others have? why?
it doesn't seem all that appealing does it? wonder if that's called materialism.. i couldn't really care what others have.. i just want what i want.. why can't others be the same? okay i guess tts individualism.. not being the same
shrugs
i'm really confused here
is it all that hard to send one email?
that busy?
can't care less?
gah i'm being piggish
i shouldn't care so much
its not worth my caring is it
u should really just go do ur work and not bother anymore
hell, its not worth bothering.
yeah i'm going mad
don't mind me