hakuna matata

finally i have time to upload photos! but not all of them, this is as much as i can take at one shot. i took a 1hr nap frm 12.30 - 1.30 and slept frm 4.30 - 8.00 in an effort to finish my very last minute econ problem set and ihum paper. i promise myself NEVER to let this happen again. man.

stanford has THE prettiest campus around.. these photos don't do it enough justice though.

entrance to the main quad



walkway in the main quad



inside the main quad



clock tower and hoover tower in the background



the claw!



pigott hall or something, engineering building, part of main quad



one of the entrances to the main quad



my side of the room again (sorry kiat i haven't figured out where to put the bear haha)


roommate's side of room before she arrived



my room a few days ago



my roommate's side of the room before she arrived



the corkboard a day (or so) after i arrived



the corkboard on my room door when i arrived

college is crazy. these past few days i've been feeling so tired i fall asleep without intending to (and therefore do not finish my work). for once i'm thankful my roommate wakes up early so i get the choice of getting up to do my work.

i wonder if it's cos i've been wasting time doing things i shouldn't be doing. it's crazy! i have to figure out a (sensible) question to ask later during ihum lecture and send it to my TF.. and my ihum paper is due friday (i've hardly started, only have some vague ideas) and we're supposed to bring the opening paragraph to class today to share.. i suppose at least that forces me to get started, since one can't write an opening paragraph without knowing what one is going to say in the rest of the paper, but ... i have 1.5hrs to do all of the above

and then i've hardly started on my math problem set, haven't even looked at econ (not to mention still being behind on econ reading) and i have to read two articles for introsem tomorrow. !! and the entire cycle is going to repeat itself next week unless i magically find extra days during the weekend to catch up on everything. groan. math midterm next week.

i need to review what i've been doing with my time.

okay i'm having a REALLY hard time trying to find "a person who has reached a high level of achievement in an area i value" so i shall give it up for a while. i suppose this essay shouldn't be that hard to write since it's more about facts than opinions. although that means extensive research, i mean, who's going to tell you how much effort they put in/how much natural talent they had?? ugh.

so anyway, happy birthday to me! haha. thanks to everyone who remembered my bday:)
sporean juniors/seniors who came to my room last night.. it was so weird cos i hadn't seen half of them before, but it was really sweet:)
got up for church (not without being annoyed by roommate's alarm clock, she changed the alarm to radio so it blasts like rock/rap music.. but i think it's more effective cos she switches it off faster, but still)
dennis came by to get me, thankfully, then i didn't have to walk to escondido turn-about. haha.
church was interesting. it was rather touching, i wonder why. anyway i'm going back to campbell next week to see if i really prefer them.
and max called! haha. that was sweet too:) i was rather amused.. he thought i was his mom! man.. and by his tag on my facebook..
back to room, agonised over hero to write about for introsem (am still agonising)
decided to take a nap, kept waking up cos i was afraid i'd wake up late for dinner.

so at 6.25 i went to tresidder and was wondering where in the world jesley was. (haha, where in the world is carmen san diego). and i thought we'd missed the bus but it was in the other direction, thankfully:)
caught the bus to palo alto transit centre (hah, they refused to believe me yest when i said midnight express didn't stop there) and walked to university ave. looked quite cool.
then jesley walked into this restaurant which didn't even look like a jap restaurant, i thought it was like american or something. but then there was jap food on the tables so hmm. and i was still wondering why she walked straight in, then i saw everyone and realised haha. it was a great surprise though. and huge bear! haha. which yf said was as big as me. hmm. i wish wang ning n daryl weren't videoing me though, i must've looked v idiotic.
had a HUGE dinner. oh in the middle the lights went out and some guys got up on their chairs and drank some sake bomb or sth.
and then after dinner, lights dimmed again and kiat came out with a cake! which jesley bought from le boulanger at stanford shopping centre.. that shop is awesome.. haha. and i guessed as much those were trick candles.. the sparks were crazy.. so yf blew them out for me but they relit themselves after a while.. was quite hilarious:p
and the waiters made me stand on the chair and drink 7-up! haha. i was quite sure it was sprite or sth but the rest were speculating whether it was sake haha. thankfully not, wat if i end up drunk -horror- but anyway they gave me a photo of it! so funny:)
definitely a very memorable evening.

and then when i got back, jamie knocked on the door. tomi refused to open the door and stared at me so i was like, weird, okay, and i opened the door. and it was just jamie, which was even weirder haha. but anyway in a while they flung open the door so hard it hit the recycling bin haha. and more cake! man.. i'm SO full now i feel like a ball.
philip's poem was hilarious.. but anyway it was really sweet too.. pple gathered in the hallway singing. haha.

it was a very nice bday! yay:)

and now i better go figure out the rest of my week, can't believe i have an IHUM paper due fri, it's crazy

in econ lect just now i was wondering if i'd bitten off more than i can chew.
disregarding the need to digest the stuff after every lect, my current workload per week:
1 problem set for math
1 problem set for econ
1 essay for introsem
1 chapter of prof's book for introsem
variable number of articles (with varying number of pages) for introsem
2 stories (on average) for ihum
that's also disregarding time needed for other activities, which i still haven't decided on. as it was last night i went to try out chi alpha and it was like.. almost 2hrs.

am i complaining too much? hmm. introsem is supposed to be the lightest/most fun course but it can rival ihum. they're kinda similar; reading and responding. but i think ihum's harder, i'm out of practice with analysing texts.

and now that i have to read research papers i'm so thankful i did smp/terp in sec sch/JC cos at least i know what a research paper looks like and don't have -that- much problems reading it (as compared to if i were reading it for the first time)

i probably shouldn't have slept at 2.30 yesterday. so sleepy now. argh. back to reading the 12pg paper for introsem later.

went for aikido today. it's really different from back home. i kinda (as usual) miss alvin's teaching haha. i must email and tell him that.. and miss training w deborah/melvyn. anyway, the arrillaga family sports centre was so freaking far away (okay it wasn't that bad, but compared to where my classes were, it definitely was) plus i had to do TB test at vaden before that, so i had to skip lunch (poor me)
lots of brackets

anyway, i dunno if i'll go train with them, it's quite a tight fit trying to rush from there to math section in Gesb unless the bus decides to come on time (which it normally doesn't, in general cases) and well.. i don't know.

dance class was also different. she didn't focus on perfecting the basics as much as they did back home either. and went way faster.. which is good in a way cos we get exposed to more stuff, but well, working on basics is good too.

suddenly (as usual) i don't have as much to say as i thought i did.

there is so much work it's like the start of j2 all over again.. it's the 2nd week and i'm already behind on econ reading (which never seems to end) and i spent 4 hrs reading 40pgs for ihum. how sad is that! i didn't even realise it was 11pm already. groan. oh wait.. then that's 3 hours.. see i can't count somemore. ...

i'm still wondering wat to join. i think i always assumed i would end up in acappella. and even though stanford has a lot of grps, a lot of them don't appeal to me. on another note, i guess when it comes to college, CCAs are really different from what they used to be in pri/sec sch/JC. or maybe that's just my perception.

i can't remember if i said it before but i think what serene said to me on the night before i left was true. the sadness one feels is worth it for what you get to experience here. although actually what chris said is also right; there's so much work there isn't much time left to enjoy the non-academic parts of college life here (or there, in her case, in cornell. heh.) maybe it's the question of knowing how to balance. which i definitely haven't achieved, given that i feel really like a hermit.

ah. i am going to take my shower soon. but i decided i'd better blog before i forget wat i wanted to say (as usual).
i don't know why i find it so hard to read the econ txtbk. really very unused to reading the WHOLE chapter. usually i think i just skim and pick out more important stuff cos i've already read very-good-lecture-notes-frm-rj. haha. anyway, here's hoping i manage to finish everything i have to tonight, although that seems a tad impossible given that it's like 10pm. unless i sleep late (again). which isn't a very good idea cos i'll fall asleep during classes tmr again. sigh.

i don't remember exactly when it started appearing into my head, but i think at one time or other jesley's blog title was "an awfully great adventure" (frm peter pan!) and that phrase has just stuck for now. it comes to mind when i'm walking around white plaza in the morning, when i'm finding my way to classes/other places using the map (and i don't get lost k! yay for me! hah), when i first took the marguerite with jackie to stanford shopping center/walmart, and most recently, yesterday, on the way and in san francisco.

so yeah, i never saw myself spending the first weekend of school in SF frm 9.30am - 12midnight. nor did i foresee myself being rolled out of bed by the sophomores.
scenario:
-soft knock on door-
clar wakes up with a start and wonders if she's overslept and the rest have come to get her (reminiscent of last last thurs or sth)
clar checks watch. 7am !! !!!
clar closes eyes and hopes the knock wasn't on her door, and that the pple will go away
no such luck
clar vaguely hears someone telling another to wake me up while he went to get someone else. or something like that.
then, loud hammering on the door
clar vacates the bed with great haste and opens the door and complains
poor roommate is awakened
clar, daryl, jiun haur, shin eik walk over to alondra to roll out the next victim seihout.

and we had bfast at the oval. which was kinda weird. but well. it was nice seeing all the sophomores:)
alright i suddenly don't feel like saying watever it was that i had to say cos i can't really remember wat point i wanted to make. so that shall have to wait.

it's so hot in the afternoons! man. i think i may go do my laundry later.. oh wait jackie wants to go shopping. we shall see. so sad, no call backs. kind of expected though, sigh. so i shall have to go find something else to join tmr at activities fair. should be fun though!

i'm happily munching on krispies tt julie dropped by on monday.. so yummy. haha. they're really nice but i'm not sure i want to join them. oops. and she gave me grapes! which i have just discovered. munch munch munch.
come to think of it, i feel kinda isolated here cos we don't have much shopping here and i think everything on campus rips us poor students off. but again there's always the marguerite, which i haven't taken and may take later. okay, i am taking it later, thanks to jackie's determination.

oh yes, i get to stay in my introsem so that's gd.. i didn't bother going for the sociology class. and i went for greek mythology and disappeared half way cos it was so boring.. oh well.

i miss real japanese food. but jesley says we'll eat at a jap restaurant sometime! yay:) although i think i'm going to be quite poor after that. i already feel poor all the time cos i'm not working. weird huh. funny what 2 months of work can do to you. and given that that's my longest job so far.. haha.

right i probably should go read some econs, it's so hard to plough through the chapters.

yay i finally got a decent ihum section. such a nice surprise cos i thought they only posted changes at 8am and 8pm. but it worked out fine.. so now i just have to see about introsem.. i figured if she doesn't let me stay, i'll go take a socio class which looks quite interesting. will check it out tmr!

but first, i have to write that psych essay. bleah. and yay! i'm done with 1st-round auditions. now we have to see if anyone calls me back. sigh. i didn't realise tmr's thursday already.

oh something i wanted to say, during orientation when they (faculty) were talking to us, i felt so old. like. 25 or sth. rofl. i don't know why. i mean, in JC i never felt 17 or 18, nor do i really feel 18 (or going-to-be 19) now. i guess it's just that college is so new and on-your-own that it has such an adult feeling. i should really be writing that essay for tmr but nvm, just a few mins to blog this won't kill me.

so, i think it was just because of all the research and talking to faculty is good and drink responsibly and make full use of the opportunities stuff.. but well. i realised college is quite different frm JC. like, haha, no notes? i never used to read textbooks.. now.. i find myself having to plough through 1 chapter of econ each night (i'm already backlogged, what are the odds) and there are NO notes for math (or even slides). ihum is a bit like lit class but i've only been for lecture so it's like, lit lecture.

right, i just realised i missed my ihum section today cos i didn't know about the change until like 4plus. anyway.. i guess i'm pretty much done blogging since my train of thought derailed.

right, since kiat says he'll post it if i don't, here goes: my bank of america visa card got sent to singapore. yeah. i must have written the wrong address. i think these things only happen to me huh. oh well.

and !! everyone's been telling me that oh, if you go for introsems and stay and talk to the prof, they'll usually let you stay.. not in my case.. this prof is like, if the 2 pple who didn't come today don't come on thurs then u get to stay.. sigh. being no. 2 on the waitlist is not all that fantastic. she said there were 104 applications for that introsem though, heh. but now i have to go find backup class just in case

and i hope they give me a good ihum section cos i just petitioned to change it again (they gave me a 6pm one ! !!) sigh. hope it works out..

just came back from everyday people auditions, i'm wondering if i'll get called back for any group, really. there're so many people auditioning! sigh.

and i have quite a bit of homework to do, and no inclination to do it. serene where are you when i need you? haha. i've been slacking for too long..

okay this sounds quite melancholic, but start of sch isn't exactly very happy, i realised. heh.

oh i was going to blog about the first party i went to. tonight was kinda cold, dunno why.
anyway, there was O-show. I'm rather confused about which acapella group i prefer, actually. and i thought mixed company was good cos of the recordings i heard from their website, but today they certainly didn't sound that good.. maybe i thought they were the best cos they're the oldest co-ed acapella grp, but well. hmm. guess i'll do wat tomi suggested (that's my roommate), just audition and see who takes me. maybe i won't have to make a choice as usual! rofl. don't know if that'll be gd or bad. oh well.

uh, yeah. i finally finished class enrollment. sort of. the introsem app was such a headache. like, 2.5hrs, how'd u expect me to come up with something decent? okay i probably should've started thinking before coming, but well. oops. and there was this guy blasting music a few doors down. wanted to decapitate him. i don't mind, normally, if i'm not doing anything, but hi, i'm trying to write something here.

ah. then, the party. haha. my dorm mates claim that all the party-deprived people are there. anyway, there were people talking inside, people dancing (or trying to) outside. and the dancing outside.. was like pple rubbing against each other and watever.. your typical american tv scene? watever you call it. oh well. mom called so i disappeared inside to get some peace and quiet.

yeah.. tmr's quite free, which is gd, but also bad cos i don't know what to do with myself! well done. anyway yay i'm finally going shopping on sunday, meaning i hopefully get a kettle n comforter (yes, i will have survived a week without a comforter) and a bike. although it is a pain shopping for stuff sometimes, like how to get the best deal and blah blah blah.

i like my dorm pple though.. the seniors are really nice.. i went to disturb melissa just now, and complain about the height of the bed. (we're both short, and the bed's kinda higher than is normal in spore). so she was like, in her freshman year, she lofted the bed so the drawers could go underneath, so she had to practice jumping into bed.. like high jump? run a semi circle and leap into bed. rofl.

yeah. but i kinda miss the sporeans sometimes. and wanna meet up with the seniors again! it's different when we're all here.

like my PHE (peer health educator) said, it's when you listen to the dean/provost/whoever talk, that you remember how fortunate you are to be at stanford. if not it's just so easy to forget. and in the day when i'm walking around, it's just such a nice feeling to look around and say wow, this is such a pretty campus and i belong here! haha. and all the tourists with hats and such hiking around. hah.

oh and they really have a big thing about alcohol.. like a complete briefing on it and very detailed. stanford wants you to drink responsibly! but i think they got the point across. hopefully. and last night there was this play about drinking/sex/... rather explicit as compared to wat pple wud've done in spore i think. but just as propagandistic in a way.

today larry page (google founder) came to talk to us! way cool man.. i was just sitting there gaping. haha. he's quite funny.. and there was this music prof who created his own instrument out of various things.. and with the help of an amplifier or some other music equipment, he improvised this piece of music for us. and he tapdanced while playing the piano! i have NEVER seen that before.. a one-man show. so cute. but also so difficult.

yay!!! i finally set up my own computer, thanks to shuyee who dropped off my mac mini, and to my RCC who lent me a monitor! although i kind of need an extension cord for the monitor power cord, everything's great!
i shouldn't have stayed up trying to get the internet going though, it was SO slow and today it was so fast. heh. alright gotta run for orientation stuff soon

oh, i forgot, for pictures of the famous beautiful stanford campus, look at kiat chuan's blog.. you won't regret it! go look for his name under my links. since my monitor hasn't arrived, i still can't set up my comp so no photos yet. not that i've taken many to begin with.

yeah, i'm like always rather tired just after dinner. was falling asleep today during the meet-the-authors-of-the-summer-reading-books thing.

and nothing seems to end early! sigh. like today we ended book discussion at 10pm, yesterday the band run ended at 12midnight, the day before i think was still normal, can't remember wat's happening tmr. ahh. right i need to go check out other things.

cell phone: 650 796 6107
dorm phone: 650 497 3949
mailing address (USPS):
P.O. Box 15277
Stanford, CA 94309

mailing address (courier):
436 Mayfield Avenue
Loro 301
Stanford, CA 94305

wow, it's only been a couple of days and i remember everything so well. why? multiple bank accounts and telling family and ... oh well.

okay, i finally am blogging. this is only because i'm waiting for the rescomp website to load, hoping that somehow, i'll be able to register my stupid laptop for internet connection so it'll stop hanging on me. it's actually almost 1am, normally i'd be asleep by now, but we had some late night follow-the-infamous-marching-band-and-go-disturb-all-the-freshman-dorms thing and we only got back around midnight.

it rained today! ugh. i bitterly regretted wearing flip flops. haha. and i met my roommate. she's a black from boston, MA. and i met all the other freshmen in my dorm.. i don't know why but i get this feeling they don't like asians very much. or maybe i'm just paranoid. and it's so weird, all the other asians i'm meeting have american accents (or something like it), even though they're from asia. i guess they were from international dorms.

oh right i finally got my cell phone, but when the guy emailed me the numbers he didn't tell me which was whose number (we signed up for a grp plan) so i'm rather clueless now. oh well. will figure it out sometime.

uh. yeah. i haven't gotten a bike or comforter yet so i'm quite screwed. i REALLY need that comforter. why is stuff so hard to buy here? or maybe i'm just picky.

okay this doesn't sound like a very happy entry but it's just to let off stress. all this stuff is driving me nuts.. deciding which bank account to get.. blah blah blah. there're so many things to do i kind of regret not getting my parents to come along. haha. sigh.

somehow, when you're here, (dunno how many) miles from home, you don't think about home as much. the night before leaving i woke up in the middle of the night and was suddenly gripped by the horror of not being at home for so long and wanted to cancel my flight. quite crazy right. but that's me, capable of being totally obsessed about something for a while.

ooh i had a very good day today:)
unfortunately i have taken to the habit of leaving the house late. which makes me late for appointments: oops. but that was partly cos i was regaling melvyn with tales of my escapades in the heartland shops/wet-market.

i must detail my adventures at the above-mentioned places another time.. it's really quite amusing. although, of course, it wasn't exactly very amusing on monday, but the rest of the days when i was in a better mood, i could laugh at myself.

anyway.. today! lunch w lyd pam tinky kahli. in order of arrival, sort of. this is like the 2nd time i've done this.. walk into a restaurant telling the waiters/waitresses i'm looking for friends, wander around in search of them, realise with a start that they're not there yet! (or i've gone blind or sth, choy) and back out of the restaurant to call the pple who're supposed to be there. the first time it was with church pple for the twins' farewell dinner.

okay so we had a fun time.. pam's forever full of nonsense.. she and lyd were just itching to eat up kahli's share (kahli was rather late). there were a number of quotable quotes, but i'm lazy to go check my notebk.
ohh!! kahli and her pink beads!! haha. she didn't want to give lyd her "bubble things" cos -ahem- "these are taoist beads! i went to the temple to get them!"
when questioned on why they were pink, "i dropped them into a bucket of pink paint"
later, elaborating on the pains which she took to get these oh-so-precious beads, "i queued for 2 days on my knees at the temple"
pam "why not on your nephew? so biased!"

sigh.. but it was funny cos it was so silly:)

went to get my shower gel.. and marks n spencers to get stuff for tll pple. and birkenstocks to look at shoes! they're prettier than other comfort shoe brands, but more expensive.. like twice the price! sigh.
then to toa payoh to look for stuff.. was quite tired by then actually. wanted to sleep. haha. and it didn't help that the things i was carrying were all so heavy.. poor me.

and i finally decided to get my butt down to novena. was still looking around trying to find earrings for rachel/something whaley for christine. unfortunately it was to no avail, so they shall have to wait.

treading the familiar way that i've traced and retraced the past 2 months. comfortable in a way. but no, i didn't feel like pulling out the timesheet to ask fernn to sign haha. i was just kinda afraid it'd rain and then i wouldn't be able to walk to newton, but in the end i was late anyway so had no time to walk.

was anticipating shocked/surprised looks at my reappearance. no one at inner recept. pushed open the staff door.. ohh only debbie's there.. ey having class and wtc doing cover class. oh well. nvm at least i got to see zee later for a while heh. haha poor debbie's left all alone writing! maybe the choc biscuits will cheer her (and the rest) up though:)

oh phyllis' shocked look when she walked past and saw me was v funny:) then i popped into tlu to give rachel her pigs and tim-tam (which i had to go to cold storage for cos ntuc didn't have). eng seng was still around. when i look at him i think luohan. hahaha. christine's fault.
followed rachel to library. i'm kinda glad i don't have to tidy it up anymore. it got a bit boring after a bit. after returning the books, rachel decided that they were too lan4 to leave in the library so time to dump it in the lousy books box! ahaha.

pushed past the mirror door.. it was fun to see christine's and shang tyng's shocked looks:) and christine shout "have you packed?" at me thru the door. haha. so charlene opened the door for me and i gave them their choc rolls.

i really don't know how i managed to spend like 50mins there and not realise it. maybe cos of the interruptions of my phone (sms alert) and call from kai-lyn (whereby christine yelled "7pm!" and "newton!" and "dress nicely cos u're going out later!" at her when i was answering kai's qns). and call frm charlene upstairs (i can remember her extension by now, haha).
actually, i only realised i was late when christine and shang tyng asked me wat time i was supposed to go and !!! it was 6.55pm!! ahh. well done, clar. oh and i probably inconvenienced poor shang tyng quite a bit by koping her chair haha. oops.

anyway, time to go.. christine said she was going to trail me, i have no idea why. so i said byebye to debbie n phyllis and went out to paris 4 w cc to find wtc to take her dinner order. n after that byebye to christine and then to rachel.

and dinner! yumyumyum my stingray. haha. i was late. oops. a lot of hilarity, cheukka always says the funniest things. "are there cartwheels in ballet?"
kai-lyn hums part of waltz of flowers tune and -gestures- "cartwheel!"
rofl
oh and cheukka doesn't like chicken cos it comes with bones. something to that effect.

okay now i'm lazy to elaborate, shall go write my own diary.

this is very bad. i can't remember if it happened every night (okay maybe i'm in denial) but i know for certain, last night i was panicking about how many days are left and how my packing is still half-past six. at least today i got down to a little more packing since i stayed at home. and i started reading old school! i think i'm terrible at lit hmm, can't seem to analyse poems very well. or maybe i'm just too lazy (over-used excuse).

like i was telling darryl last night, sometimes i still wish i'd chosen to stay here, but actually i think once i get there i'll have a whale of a time (haha, whale). at least i certainly hope so. have so far remained blissfully ignorant with regard to career choices in the past few months after the state of no-scholarship-ness. weird to have to try to start thinking about it again. or start thinking about anything to do with school, actually.

i was going to visit rg and rj this week before leaving but well. inertia got the better of me? i know i'm too lazy to walk frm bishan mrt to rj. haha, this is why i need a gd pair of walking shoes which i have yet to get. and rg.. bit weird, i don't think i'll have anything much to talk about also except "how're u prepared? excited?". i guess i'll go back during first week of sch nxt year.

and i thought my nick was supposed to inform pple of my flight and all so i wouldn't have to keep telling pple 9.15am!! sometimes it still doesn't work. oh well.

yay i hope tomorrow will be a fun day:) seems quite promising anyway.

went out with rachel today! was good to see her:) there's nothing like seeing people in person. as compared to talking online or emailing or watever. i think i shall visit tll on thurs. though that also means i have to buy stuff before that.. maybe i'll buy after lunch w lyd pam tinky~

march of the penguins is cute! but the soundtrack is really annoying. esp the singer singing english songs! man. i wanted to get up and bash the speakers. anyway.. slightly-grown baby emperor penguins are cute! haha. so downy and fluffy. and they waddle around looking like puffs of fur. and penguins sliding around on their tummies and clumsily falling over and all.. haha. so amusing.
oh the penguins smacking each other with their flippers reminded me of the madagascar penguins! i love the madagascar penguins! they're hilarious. i want ALL the penguin clips. heh. not that i've bothered going to look for them, but nvm.

uh. lemme see. tcc is so lovely! but very expensive. sigh. the real food, that is. i guess one can go there and splurge once in a while.
and pool! rachel's actually not as bad as she claimed. i haven't played pool in a long time i think. the last time was probably with ser.

and last monday class today.. i think bruises are definitely going to appear tmr. i also think deborah's right (i -think- she was the one who said so), sufian is a bit hard on poor white belts like me. but he does teach quite well.

alright i guess i should go and do something constructive. oh introsem mailing came today! there's nothing like receiving mail frm stanford to make you feel more excited.. if not it kinda feels like you've been forgotten. haha. maybe i just like getting mail/sending mail.

I HATE PACKING!!!!!!!! ugh. i want to whine and whine and whine and whine but everyone's overseas already:( poor clar.

haha. anyway, i'm so tired, and it's not like i haven't slept enough. last night was like 0030 - 0700 (i'm still hoping by this week i can wake up later and enjoy extra sleep). then i took a nap just now 1700 - 1900. and now i'm very tired. this thing is taking a toll on me man.

had a really lovely surprise at church, bible class teacher(s) organised a sort of farewell party for me. suddenly i'm so dua pai haha. and the scrapbook was so sweet! even though i wasn't supposed to open it until on the plane, hmm. too bad. haha. i think i really don't see leaving as such a big deal until other people make a big deal out of it. then i start to realise.

maybe hk's right, i tend to be a buffer and make things less serious than they seem. gd and bad pts, of course.

well anyway, off to sim lim for MORE shopping. i realised the inadequacy of my previous research, given that i didn't know built-in mic doesn't equal to mic output coming out thru webcam cable, there usually is another extra cable. so we tramped all over trying to look for either 1. usb-sound stereo plug/jack-in/watever you call it converter or 2. usb headset+ mic or 3. webcam + inbuilt mic with all usb plugs.
bah in the end didn't buy anything, cos not sure if they're mac-compatible. i didn't know apple was so annoying. but bro says the trade-off for virus-free and crash-free computers is worth it. i guess so.

and later when we got home and i did more research, found out:
1. mac messenger doesn't support webcamming
2. iChat doesn't support usb webcam (i.e. must buy the iSight, which is US$149)
3. iChat uses AIM
4. basically, webcamming with macs is a whole lot more problematic than with pcs
so luckily we didn't get anything. i shall just get that logitech desktop mic.

okay i hope i'm still making sense.
then, i finally lugged my suitcase out. and started packing. i understand why siewjin and sarah didn't start packing that early. anyway, and to my horror! there is NO way i'm going to fit everything into one suitcase. that's the first problem. i suppose desperation will give me the ability to handle 2 suitcases of probably more than 50kg (combined weight).
2nd problem, jiunhaur has informed me there are NO lifts in the dorms! i'm dead. i'm hoping there'll be some very strong guys around to help me if not i'll probably be stuck sleeping on the grass. and i'm also hoping some nice singaporean can come fetch us from the airport. haha.

and i'm really so tired.

sleep.

i'm quite tired so just a short post to complain about unfair service:p
dinner w reggie! haha. it was fun:) one of the waitresses was so biased.. man.. not that i really minded or anything but it was rather amusing.. the water in our glasses would be at the same level, but the waitress only filled his glass and happily ignored mine.. actually i thought it was just a one-time oversight, but constant observation proved otherwise. so i was laughing while pointing it out to reggie and promptly collapsed into more laughter when it happened again for the 4th time the entire course of our dinner (and the 1st time after i informed reggie of this rather interesting fact).

oh we had a nice time browsing cds. so tempted to buy david lanz/latin or flamenco guitar but i don't know if i'll like it. even though i liked david lanz's finding paradise, i think his other cds might be along different lines. and i'm actually rather sick of shopping: bah. okie off to sleep.

okay, i woke up at 8 today. marginally better. i suppose it's gd to wake up early in that it gives me more time to do stuff (as compared to waking up at 11 and half the day is gone) but maybe i should sleep earlier then heh. would like to get nice 10hrs before i end up not-sleeping-at-stanford.

and i had a rather amusing time looking at photos of poor eng seng in the library and rachel scolding him. haha. christine is so funny.. but it made me miss everything, kind of. although i'm happy not being cooped up in a workplace, i miss annoying rachel in the library! aah. well.

anyway.. dropped by weiying's house to return her chem txtbk. then i went to nus and stoned for like 20mins waiting for M1 dna lect to end. finally fiona n candice appeared. n monmon n raphael! yay:) mini-class gathering. haha. lunch at coffee grounds. and met hweeying aft that. oh listening to raphael reminds me of all the bio lects when i wanted to strangle him due to the plethora of lousy jokes.

shuttle bus to visit candice's room.. it really looks like a condo la.. from the outside anyway.. i always liked those type of bricks.



it also has the most gorgeous view. candice says drunk international students go and wade in the fountain sometimes.

well yeah. her room was full of ikea stuff.. and not very full of stuff like my brother's. but i guess it's diff cos she gets to go home every weekend/anytime she wants.

uh. lemme see. sat around chatting. then went off to orchard to do my shopping. as usual, didn't accomplish everything i set out to do. i seriously underestimate the time needed for me to make decisions. this is why i go shopping alone. haha. even the most patient person would find it a sore trial to put up with me. the worst thing was the shoes actually. i think i spent at least 1 hr in total trying on all sorts of shoes. the salesgirl was very nice though. she got me a basket and asked if i was frm poly haha. and "isn't it boring to shop alone?" so i was like no, i take very long to decide (not that she couldn't tell that frm my indecisiveness/pickyness)

so, i figured if i'm not satisfied i shan't waste $$. at least i got the shorts n track pants at a gd price. but now i need waterproof track pants. also at a gd price. hmm. and gd cut. haha. oh and i found vacuum packed pillows! yippee. unfortunately my vacuum packed bolster has already expanded:( hopefully i can stuff it into the vacuum pack bags without much problem/deformation. and i couldn't decide which pillow was better, even though i surreptitiously glanced around before dumping them on the bed and trying them out. haha.

and i need a new wallet. i shall attempt to find one tmr or something. although i wish i'd found nice comfy walking shoes sigh. i am really too picky. i have this tendency to want to buy a lot of things which i may/may not use when i see 20% discount. haha.

anyway, then i walked (very quickly) down to borders to look for old school, but it was not to be! ugh. i can't believe it.. kiat went down to buy last week or sth, and this week they tell me they don't carry the book anymore.. saves me $$ i suppose. but really..

dinner at venezia with lijia and pam who was like 1hr late cos she severely underestimated the journey time for 67 from tampines and then ended up stopping 2 stops late, bcos i didn't tell her it was guthrie house. oops. that poor girl, i can totally empathise given that i took 67 frm bedok home. and lyd who was 2.5hrs late bcos she went to get her phone (so she could return me mine) and eat dinner w her mom. but it was fun.. and it reminded me of mugging days with lijia (and occasionally joon). they revamped the decorations though. so black now. hmm.

alright. now to think about what to do tmr. i am so not ready to go. haven't started packing, haven't finished buying stuff, haven't read my books, haven't packed my room, haven't haven't haven't. i had better make all those things "hads" soon, if not i'm done for.

i was in a very horrible mood because of all the wrong things i did today. (and the unbelievable amount of time needed to choose a new school bag/books to buy which i didn't buy in the end).

but i checked the mail and surprise! mag sent me a letter! so heartwarming:) cheered me up quite a bit at any rate. and the quote was so sweet. thank you dearie!:)

and my bill has finally arrived so dad can stop bugging me about it. it's not my fault stanford is full of idiotic things which drain money. i suppose they have the luxury of that as well as sending stuff late and pple will still go there cos of who they are. argh.

uh. oh.. something i forgot to say. i look around my room, think about the days left. so i'm supposed to leave in 11 days' time, live a different life for 4 years, and come back.

sigh mac mini is giving me problems. why does it not have an audio in??? i am so annoyed

oh i have remembered something else. on sunday i was at sim lim with my dad and bro trying to find keyboard/mouse/webcam.. it was rather surreal. now i'm drawn into the world of computer specifications and hunting down the best bargains in sim lim (which my dad totally adores) . and thanks to the mac mini not having an audio-in i'm trying to find out if there's a webcam with usb mic. all this i wouldn't be doing on my own in normal circumstances.

another transcript

cosmos - 18th sept, 0915. T2, SQ16. says:
oh!
cosmos - 18th sept, 0915. T2, SQ16. says:
it's 1am.
clar:] 2 weeks says:
well done
cosmos - 18th sept, 0915. T2, SQ16. says:
i thought it was still midnight
clar:] 2 weeks says:
you can tell time
clar:] 2 weeks says:
oh wait
clar:] 2 weeks says:
you can't
clar:] 2 weeks says:
oops
cosmos - 18th sept, 0915. T2, SQ16. says:
haha
cosmos - 18th sept, 0915. T2, SQ16. says:
i'm set on GMT +7
cosmos - 18th sept, 0915. T2, SQ16. says:
that's why...
clar:] 2 weeks says:
for wat??
clar:] 2 weeks says:
that's so silly
cosmos - 18th sept, 0915. T2, SQ16. says:
i'm just joking...

i'm too gullible. haha. anyway, that was an interesting conversation. who here thinks i act like a kid? rofl. i suppose i do sometimes, that's why rachel n christine are so amused. hmm. maybe it's a way of keeping the child within.

shopping tmr! oh i must go and check my bank account for my pay! yippeee haha

ahh. i just remembered something i forgot to say. on sunday bible class teacher was just asking the other girls how many guys will be left next year and then i just realised that we'll be moving out of the class cos we've been there 3 years already. and i still thought i just finished jc. it is rather unnerving how the year is almost over and i don't seem to realise it. maybe that is why we need to be more aware. instead of rushing along all the time. esp those working. "no time!" is the most common complaint. but so much has been said on that already anyway.

i shall go finish reading my books so i don't have to pay library fine:p

bah i still woke up at 7.30 today:( this is not gd. at least i finished writing my diary stuff and have started getting my act together. it's not very nice to look around my comfy room and think, 2 weeks left. oh well.

melvyn who likes to annoy me. and then claim that it brightens up my day. he says he is not photogenic and prefers to be photographed in a hakama and a bokken (so a more impressive image is created).

deborah the all-things-jap girl. we ate so much at sakae sushi today! it's a wonder we could still roll. haha. and i'm sure she must be a really gd hostess.. can just talk and talk and talk.. chatter-box deborah.

okay i'm too lazy to post all the pics from yest (not that there were a lot to begin with, sadly)
i am so so tired, i shall crawl under my covers soon and hope tmr i wake up with a clear head. sleeping at 2am and waking up at 7.30 is doing nothing for my sanity. not to mention spending most of the day out. groan. tmr's gonna be another long day.

debbie the deejay! haha. she won some competition so she's going to seattle in nov to represent spore! cool huh..

christine the crazy whale who insists on calling me a goldfish.. oh she predicts that i'll come back with 5 boyfriends, one for each weekday (during the weekends i'll accompany my parents and pretend to be guai..) she's hilarious:) so full of nonsense..

rachel the librarian/squishy squid 2/octopus who keeps on saying i'm mad and wanting to squish me (ser, she bears an uncanny resemblance to you in this aspect) she was also trying to coax me to buy earrings yesterday, but her efforts weren't particularly successful cos 1. i'm lazy to change earrings 2. i'm v picky

wah. i'm quite zoned out. actually i've been quite zoned out since 10 or so, rachel will attest to that. but i revived while transferring my photos. but now i'm beginning to get woozy again.

anyway. last day of work. as usual, in the morning got nothing to do.. so went to pack library and wait for either rachel/debbie to come so can ask if they need help. well and also pack up my own stuff.

and i was wondering when either one of them was going to come in cos both of them were late.. haha.. well done. =shakes head= but for diff reasons. so debbie passed me this magical creatures book.. do cloze based on the creatures inside. the stories were hilarious.. i was summarising it to amuse melvyn.. okay my brain is really non-functional now.. maybe tmr.

then lunch at genki sushi w debbie n ey. haha i didn't know they pissed off national geographic pple. and ey treated me.. so nice. i must really go and get something for them. but i'm so lousy at presents.. sigh.

hum. oh T-notes. haha. by a very happy coincidence, the L2 CW that debbie did included a beached whale. hahaha. i shan't say anymore. and it wasn't my idea.. really..

and later christine came in and dumped a package on my head. the card was so cute.. i think she draws better than i do. haha. and i actually wasn't feeling that sad before that.

so hilarious. i'm glad i have the photos anyway. tho maybe i should've taken a video.. sharks.. wat a waste. nvm i think i shall go back n say byebye before i fly off. we shall see.

2nd last day of work. rather queer in a way. and i didn't really like the ending of my 2nd SR.. but i have no idea how to keep to the length and put a moral in and ...
oh but on the bright side zee said yest during gen t meeting the teachers said my SR for the L2 topic was good! (the topic was a house burglary) cos it's a difficult topic since there isn't much action.. haha. yay.

when i listen to phyllis n rachel talk about how TLU doesn't allow them to eat together (and times them for lunch -horror-) i feel very fortunate. the trouble is that i don't know what to get for ERU. it's not like i'm very close to them to begin with (a far cry from how johann was, at any rate), i'm just glad they're easygoing and everyth, even with all the crap that jc rains on them sometimes.

oh well.. yay rachel's going to treat me tmr!:) i think. anyway, dinner should be good. and very filling.. oh i'm so happy i finally found the battery charger for the digicam.. although i should've just switched on the light in the first place then wudn't hafta msg my bro to ask. ah well. but the thing is, i found it!:):):)

anyway i'm happier. as compared to just now when i was glowering because the IMM place cheated me, i thought the scholls were supposed to be cheaper there but they were the same price! in fact, they marked up the price and told me it was 10% off.. ridiculous.. okay i shan't work myself up.

rather sleepy. maybe it's the effects of contacts in two consecutive days haha.

haha. i had my free lunch today! i must admit it was quite boring half the time, given that we had to wait sooo long for food to come. like. appetizers were instant. but then the main course took 45mins!! !!!. bah. but globetrotters was really full.. i think there were like 70 pple heh. wonder how much jc has to pay for us. oh well. it was really filling though, i had maybe 4 or 5 slabs of fish on my plate and potatoes and veges and i ate everything up. haha. so fat. grilled fish provencale!
so we were all happy, full and sleepy at 2.45pm. haha. i think i might have liked the cheesecake but i don't think i could have finished/enjoyed it in my very full state so well.

and we took almost 2 hours over lunch. or maybe more:p i enjoyed going over to annoy rachel n phyllis. haha. apparently rachel was "throwing a tantrum" cos her food took a real long time to come.. ah well. i think christine was amused w my cartoons:) she says i'm still a kid. oh well. i think so too.

man there's something very wrong with me nowadays.. i think i've been doing too much writing, when i want to use a certain word i can't find the correct word.. it just sticks in my head and refuses to form into a word. blah. feel like an idiot sometimes.

yay melvyn came today.. i think the saying that everything which goes around comes around is true. bcos i annoy rachel, and he annoys me. okay i don't know if rachel annoys anyone (maybe phyllis) or if anyone annoys melvyn. oh well. and i still haven't seen deborah in ages, she must be too caught up with her cute french manager:(

so.. 2 more days left at work. oh it was so funny, one of the teachers came back frm maternity leave and was telling us abt how she shocked pple with her huge stomach (apparently larger than is normal for pregnant women). one day she walked past mcdonalds and a malay woman nearly dropped her burger upon seeing her, and exclaimed "so big!" (in malay). rofl.

bittersweet. although today i was bored even while alternating btwn doing a compo on something that happened at the beach and shelving books. oh well.

ooh sarah's pics look nice.. also a reminder of how everyth'll be new. hmm.

ah. i actually think i enjoyed my job at tll the most. which is quite queer, considering how everyone else apparently has a lot to bitch about. i'm just glad i ended up in ERU, even though i don't talk to them that much, cos TLU doesn't sound like a very nice place to work in heh. they seem to have so much more stuff on their hands (and subsequently are more ngiao about stuff)

so, back to why i liked this job the best. i think it has to do with them relying on interns quite a bit, and so it's quite normal to be an intern and everyone just fits in. or slips in. whichever. and colleagues are mostly quite young and fun. haha. and of course the job's interesting. though i think i may cross-eyed from staring at dictionary.com for like 50% of the time i was there.

okay i'm speaking like i've already left. but only 3 more days, it's gd to reflect just before the end. ohhh yes rachel calls me squishy squid (doesn't it roll off the tongue nicely? haha) so i decided i shall be squishy squid one and she can be squishy squid two. haha. like bananas in pyjamas (tho i never watched the show) "B1, are you thinking what i'm thinking?" and so on. and i drew my cartoon garfield fish for her today and she started squealing about how cute they were. i must go dig out the garfield paper again.. i only can draw the fish facing the left.

and i went to look at sherman's lagoon yest, as usual, and found that the cartoon had to do w whales! so i printed it out for christine. let's see what she has to say tmr. haha. hopefully she'll be amused.

and free lunch tmr! wahahah. and no minutes to type, yeah.. but i'll probably end up inktrailing stuff again. inktrailing is quite mindless, poor zee. ok not really mindless, but tedious. well. bleah. i don't feel like typing anymore.. time to disappear

hahaha. i can't believe myself.
transcript of msn conversation btwn me n kiat:

cosmos says:
in exactly 21 days from today
cosmos says:
we'll be sitting in the plane
clar:] 3 weeks says:
bleah
clar:] 3 weeks says:
don't remind me..
clar:] 3 weeks says:
i think i might cry at the airport. u'd better bring tissue for me. rofl.
cosmos says:
haha okay
cosmos says:
how many boxes do you think u'll need?
cosmos says:
3 or 4?
clar:] 3 weeks says:
boxes?
clar:] 3 weeks says:
we're only allowed 2 pieces of luggage leh how to box
cosmos says:
i meant tissue boxes

[unrelated stuff has been edited out.]
i couldn't stop laughing at myself. but really! luggages are related to airport too wat..
and now the mad hatter's diaoing me about dino tears are being large so i said maybe i'll cause a flood and everyone'll die. in which now, we have seemingly discovered why i'm the last dino around. everyone else drowned. although the question remains: did i float because i was the smallest/the fattest?

how thought-provoking.

more like how nonsensical. i must have read too much bagthorpe/gerald durrell. but i'm still going back to read more, given that i must return the bagthorpe book soon. haha.

i may be making excuses, but i think it's because i get injured so often i don't take it particularly seriously anymore. and i heal fast cos i'm young. oh well.

blading today! daryl's blades are really horrible, i have no idea how she can blade in them.. i was totally suffering during the first 45mins or so and wondering how my blading could have deteriorated so much in a few weeks.. then charm very nicely offered to exchange with me cos she says she usually wears daryl's ones anyway so its okay.. thus i discovered the joy of blading in good blades. haha. although i think that poor gal may have gotten a blister:( -feels guilty again- groan. but charm's blades were so much smoother. which is gd and bad. gd cos it's easier to fall if it gets out of control.. and the slopes, although scary at first, were super fun! haha. just roll down.

and i got my vacuum pack bags from parkway. heh thanks to passerby who asked val where she got hers from.. and it's such a coincidence i read it last night (i think?) and then was going to ecp today. ladida. am rather tired again though, yesterday i just plopped on my bed and fell asleep with the lights on and woke up at 3sth to realise i fell asleep.

i think part of the reason why i'm reluctant to leave is that i've made new friends in these very short eight months. which i don't really want to lose so soon, but hopefully that won't happen. and what's gd abt going off is that i get to shop for a whole lot of things haha. fun but tiring. and i'm so glad i'm going to a pretty place (so everyone says), cos i think i'd be quite miserable if i were stuck in an ugly place.
i think i'll have fun while i'm there, but while i'm here, inertia sets in.

i hope i haven't been repeating myself online. cos i can never remember whether i said it to people in person (and can't remember whom i said certain things to, for that matter) or whether i blogged it. so confusing.

sigh i was actually quite happy until i got home and got scolded by my bro:( but i think he's right really, i'm too absorbed in myself sometimes. therefore now i am feeling guilty. maybe it's just another of my -ignore-it-and-hopefully-everyth-will-be-right- tendencies.
i think i'm trying to do that now anyway.

and i'm quite tired. want to sleep. and sleep and sleep and sleep. i brought my tendertails whale to work today to show christine. actually i realised when i thought of whale i didn't think of the real one. cos the real one's really quite ugly haha. oops. tend not to think of animals the way they look in real life. usually think of cartoon/stuffed toy ones haha:p oh well.

i'm going to retire to the sanctuary of my room. and clear up my desk. haha.

i don't know why i wasn't in a very happy mood this morning. even annoying rachel didn't help. rofl. luckily it improved nearing lunchtime:p and i also don't know why christine keeps laughing when she sees me. apparently something about me is very amusing. anyway, i printed a whale tag for her today. rofl. it was most amusing.. she was sitting at the reception doing computer stuff and then the whole world saw it.. and when they asked her why, she pursed up her lips, pointed at me and said "ask the goldfish". i so do not look like a goldfish.

and i'm rather tired now. finally, my specs are made. but i have a sneaking suspicion that they didn't check my eyesight properly. i mean, my left eye is sufficiently blurry for me not to believe that my degrees increased by 25 only.. i must go find the prescription for my old pair of specs. and as it is, this pair is quite old cos i'm sure my contacts were of higher degree.. argh. and i don't like doing eye exams cos it merely serves to remind me how bad my eyesight is:(

i have increasingly less stuff to do at work, weirdly. not that i mind, because after a while writing articles continually does take a toll on me. so i go out and help rachel stick barcodes (and talk nonsense).

i want work to end, yet i don't.
want it to end so i don't have to get up at 7.45 every morning, spend my day in the office, ... and i'll get to go shopping! woohoo~
don't because i'll miss rachel and christine and listening on tchers' amusing conversations (esp ml & lcn together) and it also means i have only 2 weeks left.

so, while i was stoning this morning, i made out a list of things to do and people to meet. i have trouble visualising how i'm going to meet so many people when my weekday nights are very unfree. hopefully i can catch them for lunch. and my brother's still confined during the week!
:( very angry me:( i still haven't shown him the ipod flea movie. oh well. i'm sure he'll have a good laugh, since he was the one who told me about how apple's success is partly thanks to the sale of accesories for their main products.

at least i think i'm going blading this week:) let's hope i don't fall down anymore. haha.
i'm really too tired. and i need to finish clearing my table/getting ready to return the books i've been hogging haha:p oops

lemme see.. i was uber-bored in the morning.. oh wait. mom woke me up, but bcos i slept at 1sth last night i went back to sleep in my slothfulness.. luckily 5 mins later mom checked on me "not going to work ah?" that never fails to work heh.. except on 10 aug:D
and somehow, i put my phone in the pouch, and forgot to put it in my bag. so i was phoneless today. it isn't such a big deal actually, just that i was supposed to meet hk for lunch, and without a phone it's not as convenient la.

oh and before that i was trying to haggle my last 2 days' pay.. so i can work less.. but it doesn't seem like that's gonna happen.. i feel kind of bad when i'm bargaining with charlene.. maybe i'm just too nice. rofl. self-confessed.

it's nice to have mutual friends sometimes. but other times it's nice to have friends who're totally unconnected.

let me see.. i forgot wat i was going to say. nvm i shall just skip on to the next thing i wanted to say. read val wong's blog.. frankly, i don't know how she can feel so optimistic about leaving. maybe it's cos i'm just being contrary and not wanting to leave when i am going to (and if i weren't, i'd wish i were). maybe cos i still have 3 weeks to go. maybe i have just too much and i haven't come to the point to let go.

in a way i'm afraid i'll change and some relationships won't be wat they used to be. but again that has already happened in the many transitions frm pri to sec sch then to jc and now to the interim btwn jc and uni. sigh. and hk asking me how often i'm going to come back.. just brings home the point that although i'll come back this dec and nxt june, probably, after that i probably won't be coming back that often. and i won't see a lot of people. and a lot of things will change.

okay i think i worry too much. and i'm a very.. of-the-moment person. which may or may not be good, really. hmm.

haha so now we're on the subject of nicknames. i have just christened kiat "mad hatter". don't you think it fits him? i do:) now i need to wait to be inspired as to wat animal melvyn looks like.

it's funny how you just click better with some than with others huh. speaking of which, i frequently pop into the library to annoy rachel and be my crazy self.. so fun:D it's a way of stress relief. and requires the correct settings. haha.

i've kind of realised next week will be my last week of work. i don't know why i'm thinking more about it today.. guess once i stop work i must start to prepare to leave. : anyway, i realised when i'm working, i don't really think about how fast time flies. although it seems like for this job, there're less times when i feel like i don't want to go to work. maybe it's cos i have rachel to bully rofl:D and christine to make weird faces at me haha. or maybe cos it does encompass things i like doing. hmm.

oh.. housing package (not really a package, envelope) came today.. stanford really loves forms man.. now i have another 11-qn form to fill up.. anyone wanna listen to me whine? rofl. but like kiat says this form is actually much easier to fill.. as compared to the academic advisor one -cough-

and it's nice to have teachers that you can like. i think i've said it before actually. but somehow, things i think i will do, i don't really end up doing. i also realised after emailing ppl for a while i'll get bored/busy (or the other party will) and it'll just stagnate. but i guess meeting once in a long while is better than never. heh. at least they still remember me, i think.

okay i think i need to sleep soon. ladida. at least today virtually no back pain haha. and deborah keeps telling me about her new cute colleagues (and a cute french manager!) i'm so jealous:( hmph. haha.

oooh i'm very happy now cos daryl sent me the apple ipod flea movie! it's hilarious! haha. i shall show it to my bro when he gets back. sooo funny:D totally made my day:):):)

anyway, met stanford pple today, quite a huge gathering i must say. and actually when i went there and just saw clusters of pple i felt slightly disconcerted. heh. but i guess that's what the gathering's for, just go round and get to know pple. met lots of nice pple, although there was a lack of things to talk about now and then. oh well, looking forward to getting to know everyone better:)

but i don't want to leave again. aiyah. i think i'm forever ambivalent abt stuff. and when the numbers start diminishing.. that's when the compulsion to stay grows.

wah i'm so tired. i think it must be the vaccine. haha. anyway, i slept at 3 last night, got up at 10.30. ate mango cake yay!!:) haha. and finally went to get meningitis vaccine done. (yay!)

then down to toa payoh to look for specs. again. yes. visited like 6 shops i think. very sick of trying frames. decided on one final one, but wanted to check out sth else i saw last week before i made my decision. arm starts feeling sore from vaccination like chris said.

home. sleep!! yeah..
then out to westmall for dinner. supposed to eat thai food but ended up mostly indonesian food haha. oh well. oh i saw my other pair of frames that i was considering and finally am almost decided. happily. and saw nice comfy shoes! yay. keds sneakers. am thinking abt whether to get those/scholl/track shoes i.e. nike.

k sentences are quite short n snappy and not formulated properly today cos i can feel my head going round and round already, telling me i desperately need sleep. gnite.

i think i was actually quite happy today until i came back and discovered my housing assignment. (yes, finally). maybe i should've checked my mail while at work. but again that would have made me lose even more concentration heh. anyway, christine gave me a very-pink-watch! hmm. i'm afraid i'm never going to wear it. it is really, really pink. i mean i like pink, but there are limits. oh well. i shall stand it on my desk so it can replace my mini clock which broke down a few months ago haha.

and then the up-pitching.. wah.. i think i'm too accustomed to summaries/down-pitching things for p1s, cos it was quite difficult to cheemify the clozes.. man. so didn't finish that much of it. or rather, not satisfied. maybe i'm too perfectionistic.

there was this baby crawling contest at united sq which was quite hilarious cos the babies refused to crawl to the finishing line, mostly, and had to be coaxed there with jangling of keys/food/etc.

then selene's farewell party.. rather surprising there weren't very many rg pple.. and i didn't even realise it was shan i was talking to on the phone haha oops:p but it was nice to see/talk to people i normally don't see (yingling, shan, hwying, anna, claire, emtok) and hadn't seen lijia in so long! and serene t. sigh. chris joon ser jane all gone. feels weird. even though i don't always see them.. but still. at least there was pam:)

and i don't know why i'm still awake. ohh.. right i don't have to wake up early anymore yay:)
anyway yes.. so i came home and found that i got posted to loro. which i didn't even know where it was.. so i had to frantically search for housing websites (and almost wanted to curse that i didn't bookmark the pages bcos it'd been such a long time since i surfed the housing websites)
and realised it was florence moore hall, which i thought was supposed to be sle-dominant.

in any case, i was at first rather annoyed i didn't get frosoco (even after writing that idiotic essay! !!! !!!!!). i mean, it does have a lot of perks. but i guess i didn't even pray specifically that i'll get it, because i wasn't sure it would be best for me (e.g. given the distance frm main campus). so well, shouldn't be complaining. i think i'm a terrible person. when i'm unhappy i just flare up at any little thing and usually my family gets the flak: sigh. actually i think it's mostly my mom. poor mommy:(

anyway, i hope everything else goes fine. i think i really need to sleep.

when i read blogs of people who're going away soon/have left, i'm profoundly grateful that it's not time for me to leave yet. it just heralds the start of a totally new phase. leaving a lot of things behind. a lot of things will change whether i want them to or not. and keeping in touch. can i do that? more like, can i do tt succesfully? can i make the most of uni? can i handle all that plus other various newfound responsibilities? i'm totally not ready for this.

heh. so much for wanting to experience all the independence and wat not. i think studying overseas held such allure for me because when i was small i used to love those boarding school books. like mallory towers, chalet school, etc. i also liked nancy drew and famous five and etc but that's another thing. read for the story. anyway.. so yes, these boarding school thingies sounded really fun and all.. i think that must be partly why i wanted to go overseas. and also cos my brother went. i think i'm very influenced by him, actually. mac-convert and all. actually i think windows seems easier to use, mac is just prettier (and virus-free).

anyway. yeah. i haven't packed, i don't want to, i haven't bought a lot of stuff, ... haven't done the meningitis vaccination! aah. ahh. and then i'll have farewell notes to write soon. which is good in a way because these notes will express something that i normally wouldn't say. not in a day-to-day conversation anyway. it's kind of like the end-of-X-years-of-sch appreciation-of-friendship note. to put it very bluntly.

today lesley was wondering at how i could write in such a young manner. (at least, i think that was what she said.) she said she can write but it takes time and her writing's quite dry. she was commenting on my oral reading passages, one of which was on a gal visiting the zoo, another one of a guy getting scolded by the discipline mistress for a crumpled shirt. i'm not sure if sounding young is such a good thing heh. for one, it might be that my writing's becoming juvenile. but again, maybe i just managed to slip into the what-p1s-would-like mode in these past few weeks.

and i was rather surprised when the teacher said she wouldn't give the p3s my cloze cos the language was trickier. i mean yeah there's also time constraint.. but i was still quite surprised. cos of all the 3 clozes, mine had the least hard words. as in, least number of difficult vocab words. ah well. and rachel's so fun to bully haha. miss her on mondays. today she was squishing my arm and telling me -i'm- nice to bully. hmph. it felt like the blood pressure machine, u noe, the one that squashes ur arm until you can't feel your arm. although she didn't squash me that hard. but still.

i think i must go and read some oscar wilde. or saki. suddenly miss their style of humour.

okay my blog entry doesn't sound particularly happy, i realised. but i had quite an okay day today.. was actually doing work most of the time rofl. and nowadays i do work until the last min b4 i leave. rather amazing. but i guess it's cos i'm the only intern in eru left so all the little things get dumped to me. ah well.

today's class was funny. melvyn's always so nonsensical. though i think not so ridiculous today la. and the first time i see him wearing hakama! hahaha so amusing. nvm. i wish deborah would come though, miss training with her. anyway, at least i think i didn't roll as badly as last mon: if not tmr cannot work again haha:p the other day i was reading some horoscope book and it said librans have an aggressive streak and thus will take to judo very well. i wonder... haha.

hais 9 - 7 tmr to make up for friday so i can go for selene's party! oh no.. friday ser n jane will be leaving. blah. anyway, it'll be gd to see selene n anna n hwying n etc:)
oh i met tiff in the morning at the mrt today! so coincidental:) it was nice to see her.. tt silly gal says she keeps falling asleep during briefings haha:)

i think i'm a conditioned pessimist, tend to think the worst then realise reality isn't so bad. which may or may not be gd, since i feel happier when things end up better than expected. haha. wat a weird way to think. just me.

this is so uncanny. suddenly, the lines+melody of "It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right. I hope you had the time of your life." became stuck in my mind. and i couldn't remember wat song it was.. so i yahooed it. and found that it was the song that chris quoted on her blog and i actually have the song! haha. i like the song. but when i saw the entire chunk of lyrics (okay not that it was that substantial to begin with), i felt very sad. chris this is all your fault. because it's all true for our rg class. at any rate, it is, for me.

was reading some books (koped frm tll library as usual:D) about americans writing about france and french customs. some of it's so true (even after 8 years) and even if the rest isn't (i think), it's still hilarious. maybe i should have gone to france to study. it'll save a whole lot of $$ at any rate. but there's no use thinking about "maybes". maybe i'll just spend a quarter in paris:) oops. i just said maybe again. nvm.

surprisingly enough i did quite a bit work at work today haha. in the morning, that is. maybe cos i had deadlines to meet so i actually did my stuff. but by the end of the day i was quite sleepy/tired/sian already. this is called burn out:p

and sleepy because i slept maybe 5 hrs last night. not good. which is partly cos of a loong phone conversation. i shall try my best to forget the contents. just rather horrifying to find out some things i suppose. and to dwell on them is even worse. please don't ask me wat i'm talking about. this paragraph is meant to be cryptic.

suddenly i can't decide wat sort of mood i'm in. so confusing. sad that everyone's starting to leave? unhappy/dissatisfied in general? not wanting to leave? knowing that uni life is not going to be easy? aargh. i wish they'd hurry up and send my housing stuff. grr. not even a confirmed date yet, and i'll still have to add 5 days to that date unless they fedex it.

oh, i just remembered something. while trying to write that oral reading passage this morning, i realised wat's gd abt my current job. it's kind of like interning at sph, you get to write stuff and it's printed, and you get recognition (in the form of your name printed as author). just that i think it's better here cos i don't have to do surveys:p and i get to write any sort of stuff i like as long as i stick to lesley's theme. yeah, and i get more authority cos i'm the only intern left in eru/helping out with library. so, in that sense, one feels more important/valued. i bet tinky felt even more powerful cos she was there for the longest time and dabbled in the most things:)
but well, that only goes when everyone (including myself) is satisfied with my work. which may not necessarily always be the case.

i think i shall refrain from making funny faces at cameras.

anyway, my brother's hilarious. he suggested i buy a large sheet, dump my laundry in the middle of it and tie up the four ends into a bundle. then put it on a stick and march off to the laundry room. like a tramp or watever u call it.. u noe those u always see in books. haha.
and then when we saw this mini straw container he suggested i buy it.. so i asked "wat'm i gonna put inside?" and he said "u could keep a pet snake". rofl.

my shopping attempts today were rather unfruitful. ikea's fun to walk through though.. their bedrooms are always so nicely furnished. and makes you feel like getting a new house/redecorating ur room. i find that i like a lot of useless things. like moodlighting, which looks oh so pretty but is really quite impractical. so sad.

and queensway. man. i've never felt so clueless before. i wonder how i went shopping for shoes last time. oh well. i really feel like i need more time for shopping but with work.. how?? maybe i'll disappear off to orchard during lunch to walk around la. then i'll end up eating on the go again.. which isn't fantastic given that my dinners are usually not of the sit-down-and-eat variety due to time constraints.

decided to put up two examples of wat i wrote for the p1s.
no. 1: mad hatter suggests baking a huge biscuit for a table cloth so if they spill anything on it, they can just eat up the biscuit. march hare doesn't like the idea cos the table cloth will disappear in no time.
no. 2: in an abandoned garden, there are talking fruits and veges. one day the tomatoes roll out of bed to go to sch, and meet their strawberry fren on the way. she didn't eat her breakfast properly so had chocolate all over her (choc-coated strawberry haha:) and then at sch they bullied the dragonfruit cos it looks weird. so they got scolded. (i decided i must try to inculcate some values/educate them on wat a dragonfruit looks like)

so.. today's dinner didn't turn out to be rg gep farewell after all, sadly.. oh well. wat to do:( grr. but it was still fun anyway:) we had v gd food! waha:) love their stingray.. the chilli is fantastic.. esp with the lime.

joon lyd me
pam on top, frm left to right - me jane tinky

anyway, i don't know why but everyone at work had the mistaken impression that i injured my leg. hmm. oh well. it was nice they actually asked though. and i was very happy i made the correct decision to go to bugis to look for earrings! yeahh.. i didn't know i would find something which satisfied me so perfectly but i had the impression i would find what i was looking for:) yay.. but they were so pretty i almost couldn't bear to give them away.. but i think they're more chris than me la:)

yay and tmr's friday! yippee:D it's rather funny, when i don't work, i'll slack and wish i had something to do. when i work, i will want to slack and also will realise i actually have quite a number of things to do which i wish i had done when i was slacking. like wat ting was saying yesterday. ah well. humans.. reverse psychology.

i think powell's book is so right. at least, i think i read it frm powell's book. it said that a person is always changing, because that is growth. there is no static self. so you may have met your friend just a few weeks ago, and you meet the same friend again, but he/she is not the same person. and neither are you. interesting huh. i found it to be true today. or maybe it's a matter of perspective.

i remembered, when i was in sec 1, i used to avoid going out alone with someone else (and i'm not talking about guys). afraid that i wouldn't have things to talk about, afraid of awkward silences (which still happen now actually), afraid the other person would be really bored. but sometimes, not going out in a group is good. get to talk about more personal things.

anyway, watched charlie n choc factory! yay:) haha. oh, i didn't go to work today:D big grin. no minutes-taking today! wahahaha. so i decided i must take advantage of this one free weekday and go watch show.

now about the show. it's really quite twisted. i mean, willy wonka/johnny depp is so so sadistic. although i'm sure there's a better word to describe him. positively evil sometimes.. looking pleased when the children get disposed of one by one. and the guy who played the oompa loompa.. man.. i really wish they'd chosen a better-looking actor. it was quite painful having to look at ugly little men for the movie duration. this is why actors/actresses must look gd, one pays money to look at them for ~2hrs, evidently some quality is expected..

and i also thought that the oompa loompas' songs and dances were very commercialised. when i read the book, i kind of imagined simple singing and folk-dance-type of dance.. not rock and techno and mass-dance-type of dance. the edible grass field + waterfall thingy looked kind of fake. but maybe it was supposed to.

besides that i thought the child actors were very good.. charlie (freddie highmore).. mike teavee was funny.. although his sneering expression reminded me of draco malfoy haha. and the chocolate! wahh. i was telling chris i wanted to go eat choc instead of ice cream aft tt.. and i think tim burton has a fetish for patterns and precision. the factory, the trucks going out of the factory, the bikes delivering the posters, all had a perfect pattern. quite appealing in a way.

and although johnny depp's sadism was a tad freaky sometimes (and his annoying little giggle and hairstyle and makeup) he was still quite amusing at times. though i stand by my opinion that he makes a better pirate than anything else. ohh.. the way he clapped when the puppets caught fire was so funny/terrible.. the shocked looks on the kids' and parents' faces were hilarious..

three fav quotes frm him in the movie:
1. in the field/waterfall room:
"Everything in this room is eatable. In fact, even I am eatable. But that, my dear children, is called cannibalism which is in fact frowned upon in most societies."
2. when one of the kids asks wat the top/best prize is: "the best of prize is a .. surprise!"
3. upon discovering a silver hair during his semi-annual haircut: "And in that moment I realised; 'I must find a... hair (heir)'".

more funny quotes:
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0367594/quotes

and i had a very good time with chris today! yay:)

today's class gathering had the best turn out ever.. well not that we have had many to start with. but still, 17 out of 25 is fantastic. the only pple not there: prc scholars, ray, matthew, shaun, yonglai, candice. after reading that powell book, i find that with the class, we're like maybe at the fourth level of communication which is quite sad.

fifth level: cliched conversation e.g. how're you (and standard reply: fine)
fourth: talking about other people, wat they've been doing (reporting facts abt others)
third: sharing one's ideas/judgement
second: sharing one's emotions ("gut-level" communication)
first: peak communication (total honesty and openness)

so, u noe, we talk about wat's happening in our lives currently i.e. unis and etc.. it's just so superficial in a way. or maybe i expect too much. i find that anything less than maybe a level 3 is unfulfilling (and i get bored really easily, i need a change of attitude, and i seem to have said this before). but like andrew said, i guess we're not that gd enuff frens to progress to that level. oh well. it gets tedious after a while.

anyway, today i woke up to find that the state of my back hadn't improved much and i still felt the most exquisite pain if i twist in certain ways. luckily there's mommy to help massage and buy yoko-yoko haha. hopefully tmr it'll be fine if not i'll be even more unhappy at work.

i don't mind admitting that i'm in intense pain right now. when i shift from position to position. crap. i mean, i don't mind moderate aching but this is really too much! i should've stopped when i had to and not pretended everything was alright. bah. alvin was so helpful, one of his suggestions: "maybe you ought to gain some weight so you won't be so bony" he's such a hoot.. but that doesn't help when it's so painful! augh. and i think i'll have two "wristbands" tmr, just wait and see. and first time i've seen deborah in outside clothes. impressive:p and rather different, i must say.

anyway.. ml is hilarious.. she made them line up outside the library and wave at me.. and they had to file in and say "gd afternoon jie jie". rofl. then this guy was taking forever to choose a book to borrow so first she went "u have exactly 23 seconds left to borrow your book!" and later, exasperated "you're not choosing a wife u noe.. just a book!" rofl.

and i was quite annoyed when tst popped into the library and told me to -ahem- wear a jacket because parents could see the library from outside and one must always wear a jacket when in sight of parents. right. it happens to be like a sauna in the library, in case you didn't know.. of course i'm exaggerating, but stuffy air doesn't really go with jackets, unless your dearest wish is for me to suffocate. but there, i'm being uncharitable, she's not a bad person. i think. i wonder exactly which hr person told wtc that she ought to dye her hair back to black.. another ridiculous thing. at least she said jc hasn't said anything so she doesn't care.

ahh.. sharks. so painful. hope it subsides by tmr if not i'm done for.

haha yayyy i finally got to sleep a loooong time today:D let's see.. i think it was around 11hours. i was going to take a short nap last night and wake up to watch the arts central show at 10pm about smart animals but felt too tired. and actually i woke up at 7sth (i think for a moment, i thought it was a working day) then i realised it's saturday! if i wake up early today i won't get many chances to wake up late so i'd better make full use of it.. refused to get up and back to sleep i went:D yay. i haven't gotten the chance to sleep late in like.. at least 2 weeks.

and also the first saturday in a loong while that i get to laze around at home. whee~

ahh. i was clearing out msgs in my phone yest and realised i should really get down to finishing that quote compilation: haha. i am such a procrastinator. i think it's cos of the magnitude of the thing.. i'm so glad it's the weekend.. so sleepy every day. and working, no matter how, gets mundane.

though today we had a fun time laughing over oral pictures:D actually i didn't realise the train was heading towards the restaurant (with no tracks, i might add) until johann pointed it out. then we started looking for mistakes. and it was hilarious! haha.. got to amuse jane n lesley n rachel n debbie. and rachel is mad.. first she threatened to squeeze me (more like wring me) if i didn't shelve the books properly. then later she called me a pink piggie (or sth like that) cos i was wearing a red-pink shirt today. right. and she keeps accusing me of being v free/slacking. which i admit i do, but really, one doesn't have to point it out. anyway it's fun to annoy rachel:p

i think i figured out why i was a little scared of the eru pple. most of them are taller than me! bleah. i mean, it was an unconscious thing and i only thought about it and realised it just now. but i think that's just a small part of it. really depends.

looking foward to next week! two meet-ups:) and holidayyy!! haha.. i must watch charlie n the choc factory soon. i can't figure out what some parts of the reviews meant.. so johnny depp's acting was lousy? that's sad.. i think i shall have to wait and see for myself. time to go read my newly-koped books! i think tuesdays with morrie is much better than five pple in heaven.. maybe cos it deals with deeper issues wrt life and death.

ahh. i'm looking forward to nxt week.. got holiday! haha. and finally more time to sleep. i hope. today step groove/soul was fun:) the rhythm! nice beat..

work is fun when i can annoy rachel in the library.. haha.. just goes to show 1st impressions are sometimes erroneous. somehow i thought she wasn't that friendly but well.. proven wrong, happily:) on the other hand it's not gd to be proven wrong sometimes though (i.e. think someone's nice and find out otherwise)

today's lunch was gd! and then sitting in at johann's farewell lunch.. ml is really hilarious.. i think her classes must be loads of fun.. she has a very nice voice. and lcn too. and i still can't help laughing when i think abt jc telling tchers to warn their kids about large vans (bcos the compo for p2s was about this stranger tailing a lil girl, and large vans are usually involved in kidnapping cases). and then dg said, sarcastically and solemnly, (jc wasn't at meeting) "stay away from large vans.. even if your father drives one.." rofl

okay i just finished reading tuesdays with morrie. frankly, when I read the synopsis, I thought I wasn't going to like it because, why would I want to read a book about a dying prof and a student? okay, ex-student. in any case, I found that it was a rather powerful book. but when I was thinking about it, I couldn't really remember the things that morrie said? although when I was reading the book, they sounded sensible.

heh sometimes it's so hard to verbalise feelings. anyway, later i was thinking about what i could remember from the book that made a lot of sense to me. but it's mostly things like love and relationships are impt, our culture doesn't make us feel gd/help us to be more human. but it's humans who make up culture isn't it?

and things like, appreciating small things. when i think about it (and i read the bad reviews on amazon too, haha) a lot of the things there are really quite cliched, i think it's the story woven in that makes a difference.

or maybe it just meant more to me coming on the heels of reading that book about communication. and it does help one view death with less fear and more determination to do something about one's life. just that as usual, i think i'll forget everything.. something bad about me. i tend to gloss over things very fast. e.g. sleep and wake up and hey presto! all worries (and any other resolutions) gone.

but yes, there is much to be said about living a life that you believe in. which hitherto i doubt many people have been doing. the same way it's easier to stay here than go off to study, it's easier to just pretend everything's fine and do normal routine stuff than pursue wat you really want. again, that's been said so many times but hard to do.

i don't know why i'm so tired today. i kept yawning and yawning throughout the day.. and during meeting as well. although that happens once or so the past few meetings, today it was definitely more than that.

arrh i just opened another explorer window to do something and i forgot wat it was! bah.

i have decided one thing gd abt tll is that i get to kope bks frm the library. although that's not really allowed, but who cares. as i told ting, i am the self-professed worst employee. haha. i just do things my own way i think. and take lots of breaks. jane and kiat chuan and ting were so surprised at me. but joon wasn't. i guess it's who you work for.. ohwell.

ah. and i came across this book by john powell called "why i am afraid to tell you who i am". scanned thru it.. quite interesting. about how people behave around others. pple always say there is a "true self" as a core and many people put on masks, but really, ur true self is always changing, that's what growth is. i think i shall read that one day.. very interesting. and the different levels of communication. the lowest is the cliche sort e.g. "how was ur day?" and the typical answer "fine, thank you".

jane and joon came to lunch today! i must add that jane was rather late. grr. oh well. anyway talking to them (they have like 2.5 weeks left) made me realise something i actually wudn't realised until everyone's gone.. the feeling of not wanting to go. of missing everything here.

and i thought about it a little tonight.. it'll be a different style of teaching there and i'll miss it here.. ahh. rather inevitable though i guess. bleah. suddenly i'm scared all over again! bah.

and i think andrew is right, it's hard to find a job i won't be bored with. cos i told him i can't do things repeatedly cos the repetition makes me go mad. okay it doesn't really, but i get bored and don't feel like doing it anymore, must go do sth else.

oh wed i met ms hoo! she was so funny.. saying she decided to go enquire about learning lab cos the pple at the outside reception looked v free. and then i met her again later aft she was reunited w russell n grandma, and she accused me of slacking cos i take so many toilet breaks. in which i tried to defend myself by telling her the first time i saw her, i was looking for a teacher in the berlin wing. ah well.

ah.. okay.. thurs. i was talking to this p1 kid in the library cos her mom came late.. and asked her "how old do you think i am?" and she said "nine". (maybe cos before that she said something which sounded like nine, and i asked "nine?") anyway, it was quite funny.. i went back into eru to whine at johann who laughed at me.

fri. christine called me a goldfish and puckered her lips in an imitation of one. later on, in the library, i discovered two pages of some book lying on a shelf. so i brought them to rachel. i don't know why i couldnt' stop laughing, but there you are. went into tlu, waved the two pages at her, she stared at the pages+me. informed her that i found them on a shelf, and she was getting ready to whine, when her colleagues told her "don't cry lah.. got other things to cry about". so she complained "aiyah these kids.. why they like that..."
and i found that jane's from rj! wow. and all the pple in eru are arts pple. oh wait i think wtc said she did trip sci. well yeah.. it's so... dunno. stereotypical?

today! haha woke up late. oh well. my bed was v comfy, not nice to leave:( anyway, went sentosa, played beach vball. i'm really quite bad at it, my right thumb-where-it-joins-to-the-wrist is quite bruised now, and so is my inner right forearm. ahem ahem. then played touch rug. i don't remember wat sports i used to like, this is quite sad. not to mention alarming.
and then, it started raining and there were 7 of us stuck under that pathetic shelter, which wasn't of much help. luckily those china pple left their mats next to the shelter so we had extra protection.. ahaha. but still got rather cold. ah well.
rcs meeting. i think it was kinda pointless for the overseas pple to go since we can't join them.. i think? and that'll be like 4 years later.. =shrug=

oh and i got a little high after homezone.. first time in a long while too. just started laughing, probably bcos i was sandwiched btwn the twins and going mad. i mean, first, max "charmaine is fun to bully" and then immediately on the other side, martyn repeats the exact same thing. and then later it was sth abt daryl not liking them. and it was really, exactly the same thing! i don't know if they did it purposely or wat.. but it was quite funny somehow. just was in a crazy mood i guess. sometimes it's difficult to be in a crazy mood cos pple will look at you in a weird manner.. sometimes it's just good to go crazy and let go of everything.

ahh.. on a related line, i am totally sick of listening to star wars dialogue in the tll library.. i shall go mad soon, with the looping star wars trailer.. "the dark side.." "the dark side.." "the dark side.." -sound of light sabers flashing- (x3) and "do something R2!" (x3) u get the idea.. i forgot if rachel or johann very helpfully told me to go memorise the dialogue

heh haven't blogged the entire week.
so, mon.. qamarul n melvyn came for lunch. i wish deborah had come too so i wouldn't be outnumbered! gah. and i started library duty. and i didn't know that monday and tuesday were still part of the odd week cycle! sigh.. so i got mixed up. ah well. ohh.. and i faxed forte the wrong side of the timesheet (used recycled paper) so lorelle got oral pics instead of the timesheet. oops. haha. really pathetic.

tues ran off to esplanade to catch lunchtime concert. was kind of late. anyway they sang my fav song fly me to the moooonn.. haha. their bass is super powerful... man.. v cool:) and one of their tenors was very good.. as in has the jazzy feel. the other guy sounded like he was just singing words. or maybe it was the songs he was singing -shrug-

wed.. ser came for lunch. pizza hut! haha their lunch deal is really quite good. good value for money i mean. for once i ate faster than ser haha. but of cos that was partly cos she was doing more talking (as usual) and had an extra calamari to finish. ahh calamari reminds me of christine calling me clarmari on italy trip.
ah. oh yes so i went back up to help her photostat my ravel score (idiotic gal didn't tell me earlier so i could do it when no one was around.. man...) and ended up getting scolded by flora chan (i think) cos she wanted to use the machine. bah.
then time for meeting.. as usual i felt rather extra sitting in the middle of the path (cos the laptop had to be charged) but can look at the mirror and see who's coming! haha. anyway so christine arrived and tapped me on the head so i stuck my tongue out at her (the outraged expression on her face was quite hilarious) and she called me a horrible hamster! augh.
lesley on sick leave so i didn't hand up my work.

thurs. went in search of porridge for lunch.. lemme see.. i think i'll continue another time. too tired. and stupid sistic website..!$*&(^. freaking annoying. hopefully calling works tmr and we get gd seats. gahh.
anyway i really need sleep, i don't know why i'm going to wake up at 6sth tmr to go to sentosa.. i must be mad.

ouch. poor clar's feet are v painful! anyway, i had a fun time today:) although i felt rather extra at experiences fair, really. and met a few of my seniors. and met chris n ser n emilyn!:) and poor old max haha.. and jane. and johann. and wenyu. and then lyd finally arrived.. and we went off to planet fitness.

i've never gone into one of these gyms.. although i think i've possibly seen one of them (from the outside) in my dreams, weirdly. anyway it was quite cool.. although as usual felt extra cos lyd was the one wanting a tour and i wasn't intending to join them. and on the way to city hall, we stopped by some spectacle shop and lyd happily took down all the branded shades and tried them on me.

anyway we went pacific coffee to have a snack. since lyd didn't have lunch and was hungry. yummy apple strudel:D chunks of apple and raisins and icing sugar! haha. then jiahui msged to say she was going to be late. and lyd called junwan, only to realise joon just woke up (this gal is champion at sleeping) so lyd called them "silly donkeys" (haha somehow it sounds v cute) and threatened to make them pay for dinner. then lyd started telling me the story of pooh and his frens (which she's been hooked on cos apparently they're very amusing - this reminds me of teletubbies) and recommending that i should go read the stories too

shall skip forward to pam's play! haha it was really a mini-rj gathering again.. pam's class, yihan's class, yunlei, lou, aud, mj, engsiang, sengteck, jon chen, ... woah. lou's so funny.. complaining about how sucky smu camp was. anyway the play was quite funny.. although a bit mystifying when the pple changed identities.. and for some part of it i couldn't really make out wat moon n birdboot were talking about. maybe i shall go read the play..

oh before tt lyd suggested going to bugis to eat durians.. so we really did walk there (although jiahui thought it would take an hour to walk there frm old parliament house, haha) and yay! durians! haha but we were so obviously amateurish it was rather pathetic:p nvm, we shall improve.

4 is a nice number for a grp outing:) enjoyed myself lots today!