hakuna matata

augh. i'm terrified of tomorrow. somehow this is way way worse than o's. wait. i feel a sense of deja-va aka i've already said this yesterday. i wish for tomorrow to bring me a pleasant surprise. or pleasant surprises in the plural would be good too. but it doesn't seem like i'd had a pleasant surprise for a long while. o level results were definitely not pleasant, although my english grade was sufficiently surprising, although i felt slightly uneasy after the compo paper.

and i also hope for pleasant surprises for us uni apps. and scholarship apps too for that matter but anyway, uni's more on my mind at the moment. yeah but it doesn't seem like that will happen either. right so i'm terribly blue now. more like looking thru black-tinted glasses? haha. help.

anyway, i got "sacked" cos they didn't want me to take 3 days leave nxt week. or if you want a euphemism (given by my mom), they decided to "terminate my services". i don't really care actually, i don't foresee doing very interesting/useful stuff in that dept. and i'd much rather go back to rj nxt week to teach. so there. at least i got a week in the bank. haha. i suppose if i stayed on i'll probably learn more in time to come.. but nevermind.

besides that, i don't really see what's so indispensable about someone who sorts forms in numerical order/staples fax confirmations to forms. esp for only 3 days. but there, i'm in no position to comment, maybe they wud have given me more important stuff to do when the pregnant lady disappears. no use speculating, i shall just enjoy myself next week, if "enjoy" be the correct word.

haha poor serene still hasn't gotten her bday present. but i think i can promise to bring it on monday:) and mr chan's wedding video! haha i'm so glad his hair is short now. and i didn't finish watching it cos mrs tan came looking for me (oops). he told me good luck (or bao3 zhong4? i forgot) when i told him i was teaching j2s. oh and mr chan ty told me "u'll see sarah next week" actually ser already told me but anyway. it'll be fun! haha. 4 of us frm the same class.. and then there's hon florrine hanyan liangsi christine sarah-hiong. at least i think they're still around.

i have just counted and realised there're at least 4 choir juniors whom i will be teaching. erps. s12a, so1b, so3b, so3i, so3j, so6a, so6f. if any of you read this, you'd better not call me clar when i'm teaching! i'm ms lin for the week! -stares- speaking of which we saw mr hodge when we went down to general office to register some stuff and mrs tan told him we were relief-teaching. he stared at us for a while and went "u all look too young to be teaching! -pause- go and get yourselves a shawl or something!" haha. tt'll never work for me tho. i can't look old (or mature, whichever) no matter how i try to dress up.

luckily i have only brainless work (as usual) to do tomorrow if not i'll be making mistakes all over the place while i wait for ser to call me:s augh

haha. it turned out to be quite a happy day after all! i was rather disgruntled in the morning though. had no idea where the shuttle bus was supposed to stop (and therefore missed the first one without knowing, how was i supposed to know that bus went to carrefour when its covering was "amazing thailand" or watever their punchline is?) and had to walk in the rain to try and figure out where in the world the singapore explorer bus/trolley stopped.

anyway, upon walking back to near the mrt i saw this long line of pple queueing and asked and yeah.. suntec bus. the woman i asked was like "u need a pass". wat rot. the HR person told me yesterday that those 2 shuttles didn't need a pass. and anyway for the bus that goes directly to millenia walk, you don't need to show ur pass either. who's so wu liao to check? when everyone's either rushing to work or rushing to go home. i didn't bother anyway.

and yes, i finally got my access card. yeah! no more prisoner-clar. haha. so, i was again late for work (what's new) glad is hilarious.. when i was telling her abt how i have been late the 1st 2 days, she msged back and said "oh i'm late every day. it don matter la you have to test the limits of your boss!" rofl. that girl is really.. cos i was asking her why she said (a long time ago) that her lunch break can be for any length of time..

anyway i took a shorter lunch to make up, not that it mattered cos nobody gave me work until i decided to go and ask around. and today, -taadaa- i did more stapling and even more sorting! i must be very good at looking at numbers and arranging them. actually on the contrary, i think i'm getting worse cos i start mixing up numbers cos i'm seeing too many.

luckily i was talking to aud today. anyway, i will get to teach at rj after all.. haha:D am taking 3 days off from the bank nxt week! waha. but i figured since i'm taking off nxt week i'd better work half day on friday to appease the HR gal. who wasn't very pleased to start with but too bad, it's not my problem if they give me rubbishy things to do.. i mean, it's not like i'm really taking over the pregnant woman.. i'm just doing various odd jobs which other pple (mainly the 2 guys, hmm) don't want to do. i think the HR person has the wrong idea. she seems to think i'm learning a lot of stuff and therefore will be a replacement when mrs pregnant goes off.

my boss (okay, he's the manager of remittance dept so i suppose one could call him my boss) is so easy to talk to haha. i told him i wanted a week off at first and he was like sure, after results got stuff to settle, no problem, just go tell the HR dept. (who wasn't as amiable but nvm)

lala. the only dark cloud. or few clouds, including uni app results which actually don't come up till april but still. so the only dark cloud as of now is results on friday. wat if i screwed up phys? and then still go and teach j2s phys? that'll be a huge joke.

when aud msged me in the morning i started worrying all over again and wondered how/why i lulled myself into this false sense of security that everything'd be alright/perfect. bah. if a miracle occurs, maybe, remembering how many papers/questions i screwed up. groan. it's way worse than o's. given that it determines uni entry. in a way. and scholarships. and i don't even know if i still want dbs.

heh. 1st day at bank. well well well. prepare for the barrage of complaints. first of all i was late for work cos i couldn't figure out where the building was so had to walk extra distance. not that it mattered, since the HR person in charge of me came at 9.30 so i had to stone around for 10mins.

anyway. centennial tower has crazy security. you need a card to get into the lift lobby (and to get out of it). and then sumitomo itself has even crazier security. you need a card to get into many of the departments (and even to get out of the office, which i find is totally ridiculous).

and i'm so fortunate to be working in the remittance department which is enclosed because the management decided that since remittance includes payment of funds and stuff, they should be partitioned off from the other staff. so you need a card to get into the remittance room too. it's rather like a prison, esp when you don't have a card on the 1st day like me. i tried to go out as little as possible so i didn't have to bother my colleagues to open the door for me.

yes. so, when i first stepped into the remittance dept, nobody knew what i was supposed to do. so the gal who received me (called elene) decided to seat me in a corner. but the others said i'd be too cold, so i shifted 2 more times.

and, finally, my first assignment came. arrange fax confirmations in running order! how delightful. i think i got a little cross-eyed staring at the numbers and wondering if i saw the wrong thing.

next assignment, 2 stacks of stapled forms with a little sheet labelled "pending" - take out the little sheets and staple the forms back together! fabulously interesting. now i know why glad complained about "the stupid shits make me move boxes and type millions of small data". i shall just hope it improves, if not i shall quit.

alright i think that's all the complaining i shall do. my colleagues are actually quite nice, they're more predisposed to talking to me than my ex-colleagues somehow. maybe they're younger or something, i don't know. or maybe they're not managers. or maybe cos the concept is different, managers don't sit in a separate room.

anyway they were so cute, kept asking me if i brought a jacket/wanted one.. i think they suffered hugely yesterday cos the aircon was just diverted to their remittance room and it was super cold for the morning until the guys came to fix it in the afternoon. elene's hilarious, she had to bundle herself up to guard against the cold and complained when anyone asked her to do stuff that required moving from her seat cos she'd just arranged her shawl over her lap to her liking and felt warm n cosy.

yeah i finally got my gic app done and submitted. happily:) their office is SO gorgeous. the whole of capital tower actually, i should suppose. and calyon is there. french bank or something. sigh.

oh and my boss (as in the boss of the remittance dept) has a daughter my age. wat is it with my getting bosses with children my age? who aren't frm rj but that's besides the point. but it's gd too i guess heh. they'll understand what it's like.

alright i've let off enough steam. oh i haven't complained about the person who called me and scolded me for sounding lackadaisical/lacklustre/bored/unenthusiastic. man. just after just two sentences n i get scolded? what did she expect me to do? shout in joy?? i happen to be in an office for gdness' sakes. gah. after one hour of taking out staples and restapling i'm not really in the best of moods. but yeah it is true i probably should try to sound more lively on the phone.

i forgot to add that i have no computer!:( or rather i don't have a login and all. sigh. so tragic. and my current chair is not as comfy as the one in my last company! sigh. no headrest. actually that chair was koped frm my ex-boss' office so that's why it's nice and comfy. aiyah. i really only appreciate things when they're gone.

oh i think joss stone's voice is quite nice. her songs are growing on me. k that sounds like i've some funny disease but nvm.

i was going to start swearing about having an awful day but watching virginia's run on HBO made me happier. although the plot was too perfect and therefore rather ridiculous. like a fairytale sort of thing. hmm. how do i put it. the characters were over-stereotyped, the plot was.. too simple to be true. yeah. augh. my language ability is deserting me. my vocabulary has gone into a downward spiral. i would like to blame it on all the people whom i've been meeting lately who don't speak english very well but nevermind.

so let me describe my horrible day.
1. didn't think properly about my gic app and happily went to sleep after reading james herriot. so.. ended up having to postpone submission of my app (which is super late as it is), cos i didn't finish filling up the form nor did i photostat all the certs. actually i could've foregone lunch w pam n lijia (and gone to photostat the certs and submit my app) but decided i mite not end up working at china square central so better meet them today.

2. yeah so when i got to the mrt station i wasn't in a very angelic mood. and my mom had to point out that i was going to miss the train cos it was in plain sight at the platform n i hadn't gotten out of the car yet. fine. had a headache in the train.

3. guy frm [recruitment agency 1] called to tell me details of another job interview at [company 1]. and i didn't have a pen so i had to memorise everything he told me. which thankfully i managed to. and quickly typed it into my phone. although it didn't matter in the end anyway.

4. got to raffles place mrt, got out at the wrong exit. or maybe it was the correct one, just that i didn't know where china square central was thanks to all the tall buildings around obstructing my view. and i didn't recognise any of them. so i was frantically scurrying around (as fast as i could on heels)

5. found out both pam n lijia couldn't make it for lunch so was walking around.. met chris! how fun:) with laura and someone else..

6. returned to the china square central building, tried to call the [company 1] pple cos i was very sure i couldn't make it there (the company's at tuas) by 3pm but no one answered.

7. so heck, went up to surpasser pte ltd. and met lijia! another coincidence. she'd just come back frm buying her office supplies. haven't seen her in ages:) and then i finally continued my journey to surpasser.

8. was waiting to watch video at surpasser and then finally managed to watch it and then halfway gal frm [recruitment agency 2] called and offered me the bank job.. 3 months assignment. which started more problems

9. now i can't teach at rj.. i was kind of looking forward to it.. but e gal said they wouldn't let me disappear off for a week. and if i don't take it i don't know if i can get another job. and this is 3 months at least so i'm kind of settled for the moment. sigh.

10. anyway, so i went back and finished the video.. all the while i was frantically trying to think of names of pple who mite possibly be able to replace me for teaching. and msging them not-so-surreptitiously

11. after that, the guy who was supposed to tell me about working hours and pay if i joined surpasser was still not available so i had to talk to some other guy and hear about his experiences. all the while i was squirming and still wondering if anyone could replace me. which carried on even while i was listening to explanations about commission and such.

12. so finally i got myself out of the office and thankfully skittered off (and got a bit lost) and conveniently forgot about the [company 1] thing until later when the guy frm [recruitment agency 1]] called up to scold me. oops. but the way my mom put it last time when i was calling up to cancel interviews.. she said they'll normally have quite a few people to interview so missing one wouldn't matter. so i took her word for it and hardened my heart.

13. actually i also figured it was past 3 by the time i got out of surpasser so wat to do.. call up the guy and tell him sorry i can't make it for the interview? then i'll get scolded for calling late too wat. watever la. i don't care anymore. i actually felt quite bad for the moment when he was scolding me. "my client spent 3 hours waiting for u!" but after that my common sense returned and i decided nobody would sit there just waiting. but yeah i should have called la. it's also not my fault my phone happened to be low on battery today and i was constantly in fear of the unthinkable happening i.e. my phone switching off on me. maybe i should have bought the holster charger. gah.

14. anyway, whatever, made my way to raffles place mrt again, down to [recruitment agency 2] to get timesheets (wat a horrible system) and sign stuff. to top it off, by the time i came down, it was raining. really heavily. waited around for a bit, couldn't stand it anymore, plus decided rain was slightly lighter, so i walked in the rain to tanjong pagar mrt. cold wet and angry. not a very good combination. at least it was time to go home. but on the mrt i got the scolding-call so that didn't help much.

heck i'm finally home and there's the silly 9pm show to watch in a bit. i realised i really don't appreciate things i have when i have them. things always look better when you look back. but there were times at total when i felt like i could just burst with the boredom/not being able to talk? don't know. so, off to sumitomo bank tomorrow, i hope i get a good experience there and that giving up the teaching was well-worth-it. if not. well. nevermind, this is my 2nd job i'm sure i'll do a better job of learning stuff and talking to pple. hopefully there'll be nice french guys too? haha. i shouldn't hope for too much.

i also just remembered i met sya while i was frantically rushing back to raffles places mrt! such a nice surprise too:) met so many pple by accident today. and all pleasant:) that kind of makes up for all the rest of the horrible parts i guess.

okay main complaints of the day:
1. not finishing my gic app
2. no lunch w pam n lijia (and reaching there late too)
3. being stuck at surpasser while having to worry about so many things
4. multiple job offers which overwhelmed me
5. not being able to teach at rj anymore
6. phone on low batt
7. not being able to contact company 1 and recruitment agency 1 (and getting scolded later)
8. parents telling me conflicting things abt choosing btwn bank job and relief teaching

i think that's about it.

met cheukka yesterday! such a silly girl:D haha and she's so unashamed of being vain.. okay let's hope she never reads this. reminds me a bit of lydia somehow. actually it is good.. not to be afraid of being yourself. yes. that is what i meant. i think sometimes i'm afraid to do something. and sometimes i'll just be like don't-care attitude and do whatever i want. mood swings huh.

anyway watched a v long engagement. it was also a v long show, come to that. 2h14mins i think. the actor's quite cute! haha. gaspard ulliel. but face a bit long or sth. don't know. and his name reminded me of ravel's gaspard de la nuit.

in any case it's quite a gd show.. just that i wish they hadn't spent so much time showing us her travelling. it got quite boring looking at the car winding thru the roads/the train screaming. but there were so many twists in the storyline! and i never knew trenches looked like that. evidently descriptions in books aren't particularly accurate. or maybe i didn't read the descriptions properly. and the explosions and no man's land. it must have been cos i haven't watched war movies before. or maybe it's cos i've read a bit on world war 1 and nothing like that ever entered my imagination.
really brought home the horror of war. esp when my batchmates are in ns. -remembers serene telling me abt her poor beh digging trenches-
let me see.. yeah we had a nice dinner at swensens.

on a side note i just remembered something to do with meeting up. it's funny sometimes how i want to see my friends for a long time, and when i finally see them i feel like i have nothing to say. there must be something very wrong with me.

and today aside from slacking at home and reading, i went to china square central for this job interview. well, looks like i'll be trying out sales. i think my heels are too high, both the guys who interviewed me were shorter than me. haha. oops. anyway. yes i was going to say.. it's such an irony.. let me list all the things i thought i didn't want/wouldn't do but want/ended up doing anyway.. here goes..

1. last yr when peiying asked me if i wanted to do accounting for 6 months i said no cos i didn't want to be tied down for so long, wanted to try more things. now i kind of wish i had a "permanent" job cos it saves me a huge lot of trouble looking for internships/jobs (and getting rejected/no replies).

2. last yr when ser asked me if i wanted to do relief teaching at rj i said no cos i didn't want to teach, thought it was super boring (and was sick of anything to do with education) when i was at work it was boring too and now i'm wondering if i should have taken that up, ended up registering with moe anyway..

3. this yr when i was thinking about jobs i didn't want to do data entry cos it sounded so boring. now i realise it's one of the few things a level students can do so i haven't much of a choice anyway

4. just a few weeks/days ago i was convinced i wasn't going to do sales and persuade pple to buy stuff cos 1 i hate being bugged by pple therefore 2 i hate bugging pple too, but now it seems like i'm going to do that anyway.

yeah. that's just for the moment, i'm sure there'll be more coming up. my mom marvels at my cynicism about working cos i told her it's just a way to torture oneself cos i can't think of anything i'll really want to do, everyth'll be boring. and she was like "but u're so young! everything should be exciting!" which is right i suppose. i should learn from ever-cheerful pple. sometimes i'm so lazy i can't stand myself. haha.

anyway.. lunch w lijia n pam on monday! yay:D

gah. i think i'm probably going to end up looking for a job until i go to rj to teach for that one week, and then go on looking for another job. this is why 6-month-long jobs are good. which i didn't realise until now. o well. it's v tiresome looking for jobs, signing up all over the place and going for "interviews" interminably.

anyway besides that.. haha i was frantically trying to decide if my bio or phys was worse yest cos aud asked if i wanted to do j1 bio (as compared to j2 physics) but i didn't defect over in the end. hopefully i survive alright. am mortally afraid of a physics shen (like a yz) asking me stuff i don't know.

ohhh and i got to go jurong library:) besides the fact that my feet were hurting quite a bit by that time from walking all over the place. and i lugged 5 books home! whee~ fortunate enough to find a new gerald durrell book! haha. much as i like reading them i still really hate insects. don't know how he can play with them and enjoy it.

and i ended up borrowing gone with the wind! haha. rather unlike me actually i don't think i read romance novels much. but since it's supposed to be the greatest love story. i'm not sure i liked it very much though. why was scarlett so stupid? oh she reminded me a little of emily of emerald hill though. the striving after power part and losing almost everything in the end.

i hate filling up forms. yay it's finally done. and i have another crappy "interview" to go for.

was in a terrible terrible mood in the morning. woke up late, cancelled interview. arranged for another one, realised the place was super ulu, cancelled it again. realised i wouldn't be able to make it for another job, cancelled that too. blah. full of crap. and mom kept going on abt choosing something meaningful or at least worthwhile to do. it's not like i don't want to find something, it just isn't that easy. or maybe i haven't been trying hard enough. but nvm, hopefully jane's contact will get me something good:)

anyway, went for the lunchtime concert. quite cool lar but i think last week was slightly more fun.. i like drums a lot! but then i think they only sound good as an accompaniment to the music.. nxt time if my cousin gets a drum set i'll ask her to play for me and see how it sounds heh:p

and had a v v yummy lunch w candice. and we met sarah by coincidence at suntec nydc! so qiao:) but haven't seen her in ages so it was good:) i don't know how we managed to while so much time away but i got home quite late oops

had a nice time! yay:) suddenly i feel like taking up tennis w fiona. but 1st must wait for her to come back frm korea so i can ask. and our dance classes which i forgot when they were supposed to start. hmm. or if they're still on, for that matter.

i wonder what it's like to be really really good at something. a feeling i'll never be able to experience, so it seems. i guess there're always pple better than u. o well. reality of life.

oh speaking of which i may actually finish compiling my quotes soon!:D then i'll hafta type them out. and i don't think i should send -all- of them to everyone. i'll think about that.

heh yesterday i went to help invigilate for srp aptitude test. was quite interesting actually it was just 2 years ago that i was in their place and then now i'm invigilating. and met chanty n dr chan. it's been a long time... and i recognised one junior.. she is so different from when i was psl of her class.. i remember she had quite short hair and etc.. now her hair is so long.. and rebonded i think.

i'm glad the deadline is tmr. chiong tonight and submit tmr.. yeah..

aiyah i wonder what happens if i can't get a job soon. and i also realised anew there're only 2 weeks left to results. groan. of cos it'll be nice to see everyone again, but in what circumstances is another thing.

i also have yet to buy myself new shoes and new bag. maybe i'm too picky.

oh! today i was at j8 and saw this pool "tournament" thing going on. some of them are actually quite lousy haha. or maybe i'm overcritical. but o well.

i think it was a nice day after all:) okay not really after all. it was really nice meeting so many people today:) lemme see.. first jane then lyd came along (aft having spent $10 to cab cos she was late) then kahli then pam + mingjing then chris then met lynette + yingling. yep. lots of lovely pple! and met laura by accident too! maybe one day we should have a huge rg gep gathering! hmmm that's an idea. but we'll probably have to book the whole restaurant or sth. heh. maybe the next holiday or something.

ah yes and then contacted two other nice pple. at least my ideal of my nice french guy isn't shattered. i think. anyway, clar is feeling happy right now:)

it's quite stressful applying for all these jobs, keep having to worry about whether i can hear my handphone ring (and leeting laughed at me yest cos i held up my bag up to my ear to see if the ringing was frm my phone or other pple's phones). oh!! which reminds me, today when i was on the bus, there was this guy (i suspect he just bought the phone, that's why he was so fascinated with it. at least i hope so.) who tested out =all= the ringtones on the samsung e800c. which incidentally is the phone that i have. therefore i recognised all the ringtones. and it was getting rather annoying. reminded me of this article which said something about testing out all the ringtones on your phone in public. to do with phone etiquette. well. that certainly applied here.

lala. i really hope i get the job i want. and hopefully it turns out to be as good as i think. aiyah but they might not even shortlist me so tragic. oh!! just now the employment agency called up to ask if i would be interested in working at BP. haha. well.. if i get it i can tell my ex-boss (and ex-colleagues) i'm now working for their rival. and clar will soon become an expert at oil. -does the queenly wave- but i tell u, if they make me compile sales data again i will really go mad.

anyway, will see what happens. now back to my mooncakes.

today's dinner was fun! haha haven't seen kahli and yingling in ages.. silly pple:) and the food was good of cos:D and then i instigated them to eat gelato. k maybe not instigated, but i wandered over there to look:) and then kahli first accused me of making her fat, then accused poor yingling.

and working w leeting is funny. i mean, when i'm spouting nonsense. haha. haven't laughed so hard in many moons. which reminds me, i saw lots of stars tonight! so lovely:)

life's like a flower, needs sunshine, water, air, and a little butterfly. wat a cute quote! anyway, am a little tired. went rj to visit ser. i hate the way you can't walk into the staffroom and look for teachers anymore.. it's like back to the rg system which i didn't like in the first place cos u couldn't go in either.. but now u don't even do the calling urself, gotta ask the receptionist. ah watever. it's a new building but it doesn't have the cosiness of the old one. or maybe i'm just being green. haha.

and then went to meet ting at orchard library. oh yippee i found 2 more gerald durrell books!:D ahh anyway i feel rather slack, should be researching on stuff for the business thing but a bit sian of it after discussing almost the whole afternoon. it's like work. doing excel and graphs in the day is quite enough without having to do it at night. but i'll probably do my researching tmr morning. ahh.

but i had loads of fun spouting rubbish at leeting:) -smug- and i finally got ser's bday present (and therefore feel broke now) and i saw a cute square bag, maybe i'll go buy it tmr! haha.

i think i'm burnt. which is not good. actually being tanned is quite nice.. maybe i should get out in the sun more haha. anyway, wild wild wet was quite fun.. brought back the excitement of fantasy island days.. run around in the sun and stay wet the whole day.. it's really v refreshing.. hot sun and cool water! whee~

was just a pity i had to rush off to gao dim my missing sec sch report (augh i hope everything reached if not i'll hafta go bother poor mrs cheong again) and couldn't stay to meet jane.. oh! it was a pleasant surprise meeting yingheng at pasir ris mrt.. so unexpected! and very coincidental. and pam was actually early! well done pam (altho she won't read this but nvm) for having been early for 5 days.. it's a start.. haha.

i find reunion dinner excessively tedious. so so boring. but again that happens every year. esp since there is no one of my age at reunion dinner. and the pathetic state of reunion struck me most forcefully today when we started eating, silently. only sounds to be heard: the click of chopsticks and spoons against the ricebowls. i was just thinking to myself and pitying my family? i don't know who i was pitying actually.

and i never knew that particular uncle was so old. at first i thought he was late twenties, then i realised my bro's early twenties already so cannot be. so fine, late thirties? n ends up he's early forties. okay. maybe wat my nice french guy said was true, asians show their age later.

i foresee another boring day tmr. with any stretch of the imagination, one could never describe the relationship between me and my cousins (on dad's side) as being close. or even vaguely familial. i blame it partially on my dad cos he hardly ever keeps in touch with his siblings, so how'd u expect me to be close to my cousins? anyway, sometimes i don't really care either so whatever. and of cos the rest of it is probably my fault for not keeping in touch with them too.

at least it isn't so bad with mom's side. i'm not so close to them anymore but still. i hear about them and stuff.. i think we meet up a teeny bit more regularly. when i was young (i was about to write small, but decided against it cos some pple will probably tell me "u're still small") i remember visiting cousins a lot more. sigh. the days of childhood. anyway, at least i still can ask my cousin abt her orientation and piano and all that, hopefully she has nice funny stories to tell. it's quite sad how children's innocence is lost though. she used to say the silliest things but now getting more serious already. or maybe less talkative. dunno.

let me see. ah yes. and visiting church fren's house. as usual, probably no one my age will be around so i'll be bored stiff again. i don't even think she has nice interesting magazines around so watch me perfect the art of stoning tomorrow. :) .

actually the idea of chinese new year as a renewing old ties festival and all that is quite appealing.. i was watching cars during the long journey from my house to simei and saw a lot of families.. n my mom was saying cny is to us wat xmas is to usa/uk/australia/etc.. but still, i don't like cny for the most part. the only things i appreciate at the moment are the food, money (even then i don't feel particularly comfortable accepting money frm pple i hardly know. actually i don't like accepting money frm people. fullstop.)

this is also partly why i wouldn't mind being overseas next year and escaping all this. i'll probably feel quite different if i end up overseas but the grass elsewhere always seems greener. k i sound quite pathetic. but those are the inevitable thoughts that pop up.

something i found while clearing out mail. picked out the funnier ones:)

A clear conscience usually signifies a bad memory
If you think no one cares about you, try missing a couple of payments
Bills travel through the mail at twice the speed of checks
Borrow money from pessimists-they don't expect it back
To steal ideas from one person is "plagiarism"-to steal from many is "research"
Don't steal. The government hates competition
Don't suffer from insanity-enjoy every minute of it
Lead me not into temptation, I can find it myself
Few women admit their age, few men act it
Some people are alive only because it's illegal to kill them
He who laughs last thinks slowest
Madness takes its toll-please have exact change ready
Friend help you move. Real friends help you move bodies.
We are born naked, wet, and hungry. Then things get worse.
Hard work pays off in the future. Laziness pays off now
I used to have a handle on life, then it broke
Change is inevitable, except from a vending machine
Don't take life too seriously-none of us get out of it alive
Time is what keeps everything from happening at once
Laugh alone and the world thinks you're an idiot
There are 3 kinds of people, those who can count and those who can't
As long as there are exams, there will be prayer in public schools
On the other hand, you have different fingers
If at first you do succeed, try not to look astonished

last day of work. time to reminisce. one month only and i felt sad enough at the end of the day.. i think i should only take up one-week jobs or sth haha.

anyway, finally finished deleting vice pres's emails.. it was so funny.. cos secretary sed he'd be back aft lunch so i just headed straight for his office when i got in in the morning. and stopped short. upon seeing him inside. and she laughed at me. so bad! hmph. and while i was deleting emails, mr nice french guy happened to notice me on second look and said "new boss eh?"

ah yes, latest update on mr nice guy.. i managed to talk to him! waha:) i think he was slightly taken aback when i appeared in his office and asked for his card. as did the rest of the pple i've never talked to. and i realised his looks are definitely not of very high calibre. but he is really nice. and he's the only one who thinks i look older than i am! rofl. he asked me if i was doing my bachelors. cos according to him, asians look younger than they are. (and so does he, that's why he's here. well.) and he was born in western africa! i can't remember why he told me that, but that is so fascinating.. exactly the kind of pple i'd like to meet in uni.. exotic. or so i think? haha. right i'd better stop talking abt my nice guy if not pple like ser n aud will accuse me of gushing.

i wish i'd gotten a chance to chat better w mr lawyer though.. he didn't seem particularly inclined to chatting today cos he's going off to france tonight for holiday.. but he's quite nice too.. i think he's the only one who apologised for giving me boring work haha. so cute. and so.. different. nobody would apologise for that. then he said it's cos he knows, he's done the same thing not too long ago or sth like that.

i think i'm going to do a person-by-person-description like wat i did in my diary. secretary! she's actually quite fun.. seems a bit like a da jie to me, dunno why. maybe cos she likes calling me xiao mei mei. yesterday's gossip session was v amusing:p but today she was kind of serious. maybe cos boss is back la haha.

p. lea. regional tech service manager. long name. so i shall just use her abbreviation. she's funny.. a bit blur one. haha. and kept accusing me of not being able to finish her work.

aiyah i'm too lazy to write the rest. actually not that much stuff to say also. just felt v sad when they were all so nice and wishing me all the best cos it's my last day. well. first job is done.. now to slack around a bit.

was just feeling so so blue. let me be melodramatic and say something about "life stripped of all its illusions". yesterday and today i guess. i can't remember what i was doing on monday but monday seemed alright.. oh! monday was lunch w lyd then neverland w fiona. alrite i think it started after the show then. i think colorgenics is only accurate when i'm not happy. am not going to cut and paste the whole thing cos it would bore anyone who's still reading this to bits. haha. or maybe i just believe in it cos of my current mood.

anyway. nevermind about that. haha! spent the morning sitting in the vice president's office deleting more of his emails. (there're like 5 vice presidents in all, of the different divisions. it's actually quite weird cos i don't think there're any presidents of the divisions. haha. senseless names. like chris said.) so when pple happened to notice me sitting there, they'd make remarks to the secretary outside such as "(v/p) has shrunk" and "!! how come (v/p) became so small!" haha. i was most amused. so fun to surprise pple.

and then my direct boss (the guy whom i report to most of the time) took mc for the afternoon so i ended up in his office to write cds. haha. spend my last days occupying others' offices. but it's quite fun! haha:p anyway, after writing like 40 cds and spending 2.5hrs on that, i decided to manufacture an errand down to the 22nd floor to ask the computer technician if there was any way to speed up the writing and she was SO horrified when she heard i'd been writing the cds one by one. i felt silly. and cheated. oh well. secretary didn't know that there was a cd-writing machine downstairs which could do 5 at a time..

and then comp tech said i mite have spoilt my boss's computer/cd drive/watever oops. actually, i just realised something. once i started the 2nd batch (secretary started the 1st batch of 20 off for me, and said i could do 40 the next time and finish it off) i felt this nagging unease when the 1st cd took so long to burn. so i checked it on my own comp, but didn't think to open the files to check. sigh. how stupid can clar get. i thought as long as the files appeared they should be working. evidently my brain has atrophied. anyway, so i ended up wasting 20 cds (can't open the powerpoint files on some computers, queerly). yeah.

sometimes i think my mom's right about how i should listen to my intuition. and then sometimes i'll suspect everything's a farce. sounds schizophrenic huh. but again this not-checking-the-files-thing is an example of my own stupidity. i almost always open up the files to check.. don't know why i didn't do it this time.. thus my conclusion that my brain is gone. haha.

anyway, so i spent the last 2 hours checking the previously-burnt cds and doing the rest. but still have 10 left, so i'll finish them up tmr and go look for the lawyer to do his photocopying. oh! today i found out the name of the french guy who sits near the pantry. actually, he's the best looking one around (k i know i sound terribly desperate here, but one has to rely on one's own devices for amusement at work), probably he's the youngest i think? haha. anyway he's a trainee from france! i was rather surprised they'll send pple here to train. evidently i don't think much of my own country, this is terrible: but at least i think his name suits him haha.

alright i'm in a better mood now yay. blogging is cathartic. and also thanks to lijia for cheering me up:) it's really nice to know someone actually misses me. i think like lyd (and lijia too, just now) said, one gets very lonely at work unless u're working w friends like pying/joon/jiahui. and i just complained about being lonely last week i think. luckily i'm finishing work, will take lijia's place as the go-find-working-pple-to-lunch-with person. :) hope my headache goes away...

haha i think chris is right, working makes u get weird dreams. or maybe i'm over-worrying as usual about stuff. anyway, i was really really restless in the morning, luckily i found a way to direct my energy somewhere else! went to orchard library to find gerald durrell books.. and at first i didn't see any! then the librarian came past with the trolley and -taadaa- gerald durrell. so i grabbed it and then suddenly found a few more books on the shelf i didn't notice earlier. crazy clar.

ah anyway i had a good time laughing, haven't finished the book yet though. i had to work to keep from laughing out really loud in office:p at least it made me in a better mood yeah. in between scanning stuff. it's really amazing how mind-numbing/boring anything can get if you repeat it enough times. anyway, then i got to go to the vice president's office to delete emails! hahaha:D felt v powerful sitting in his room (and chair) haha. like. super dua pai. -gleeful- then one lady passed by and remarked "(v/p) changed ah? better looking eh" i couldn't stop laughing.
yay.. i shall do my work slowly tomorrow so i can xiang shou his office for a bit longer:p before he returns on thurs. as it is, in 2 hours i think i finished more than 1/3 of the stack already. sadly in a way:p oops. and yes, my work ends on friday. it depends on how i want to look at it, whether it's a gd thing or a bad thing. good: i get to do something else. different job lar. and, i get to spend some time doing my own stuff like visiting rg/rj (and also finally getting round to scholarship apps). bad part is i'll miss the place and the pple. for a while. it doesn't do to get too attached to things, i've learnt. like i said, depends on the individual.

okies i shall go enjoy my book! whee~

ah. got back frm watching neverland w fiona around 1/2h ago. the ending is so sad. i wish it wasn't so sad. but anyway, i don't really like kate winslet haha. and i think johnny depp's better as a pirate although his acting here is quite gd too.. it was like during the pirate ship scene.. totally reminded me of caribbean.. i think he's in his element there.. the best pirate i've ever seen! and the child actor is so cute:) and says the funniest things.. to burst barrie's bubble. haha. i think i shudn't have watched all the clips before watching the movie though. kind of takes away the fun. anyway, it was a good show:) tho bit short i think? at least it's not draggy like aviator. i couldn't believe it [aviator] was ~3hrs.

yeah.. next johnny depp show: willy wonka. k i sound like a groupie, as jan calls it. and my racing stripes movie. but i don't think that one will be worth $6.50. looks a bit frivolous/slapstick. i don't know. just an impression.

i also have this feeling my work won't be extended, therefore i'll be jobless by next week. oh well. means i can go back to rj and disturb aud n ser. and also disturb fiona one day:) and visit tchers in rg. haven't seen mrs kwan in ages. i hope she's at rg.

okay i don't know why i'm feeling blue. maybe cos it's monday. feeling rather pessimistic about results/unis at the moment. sigh. rather worrying, no interviews yet. okay this is like self pity time, i'd better stop it and go do something else. tmr will be a better day.

oh! lunch w lyd was fun:) haven't talked to her alone in ages. if that makes sense. i should meet pple more often. horrible kahli still hasn't confirmed dinner. grr.

ooh.. i found out his name! haha. by chance. and the lady whom i poured questions upon told me he's the -senior- manager of business dvpt. why the emphasis on "senior", i have no idea. but he was on leave today, how tragic haha:p and this other french guy talked to me! actually i also dunno how come he suddenly decided to talk to me but anyway. i asked him wat it was that he did and then he said he's a lawyer and i was stunned for a while. guess i just assumed everyone who sat in a room (or cubicle, as chris calls it? but cubicle sounds tiny) was either a manager or vice president of some division haha. but it was a nice and interesting albeit short conversation.

so, i'm now left wondering where the 3 weeks have gone. at first i thought short jobs were good, couldn't see how pple could tie themselves down for 6 months even before starting. but i guess long jobs are good as in u familiarise urself with everyth and all that. cos now, just as i'm getting into the rhythm of stuff and noticing other stuff, it's almost time to go! sigh. unless i get lucky and they extend it to end feb and i get to learn/do other stuff. but the thing is, once i leave, i probably won't think about it much unless i compare with my next job. well we'll see wat happens.

ah and as i was telling chris just now, somehow foreigners seem more interesting. probably cos they're different. it's interesting to observe all the different pple who come in. maybe only cos it's a regional office though. but still, i think a normal french company would be fun too. oh chris, if u happen to read this, thanks for calling, it was fun!:D haven't talked on the phone for quite a long time i think.

and i was so so so annoyed with the bus today. took like practically 20+mins for a horrible 171 to come la! grr. my feet were dying as it was. and i still have no idea wat bag to buy for serene. blah. but artiris is a really nice shop!:) i love the shirt designs.. but they're quite ex. but i suppose that's wat u pay for handpainted stuff. v pretty! but no dragonflies!:(

song stuck in my head today: all i know of love - barbra streisand & josh groban
usually it's yanni's for all seasons. it's such a fun upbeat song:)

anyway that's all for today. i have noticed something. i daydream a lot. and spin the most curious fantasies until night time before i collapse on my bed. then i sleep (and dream of the weirdest things sometimes) and wake up all sane again. and then the cycle repeats. but what would life be if one is always planted firmly in reality? i think i'm reading too much. haha.

ah. forgot to say that yesterday after lunch, at around 2, i finished all my graphs and was left with nothing to do! haha. i was most amused. (okay today i found out i forgot to put in one country but well, that's besides the point). so i walked around 23rd floor asking pple if they needed help, and none of them did! wahaha. so i went down to 22nd floor. (where my cute french guy is! haha) and this lady decided to give me a handphone to input phone numbers into. it's actually more tiring than computer i think. cos u only use ur thumbs. (quote lydia "this was a rather long sms conversation. my thumbs are tired")

anyway so i finished (had to rush a bit cos had to reach rj before 5 to get my stuff frm general office, luckily got a lift frm parents). and reached rj at like 4.50 or 55 haha. the person in the office was like "u come at the eleventh hour". that is so true. sigh. i always do things super last minute. but it wud be a bit too slack to ask to leave at 3 rite.. even if i have nothing to do.

wanted to visit frens in staffroom but they went home already (and i din noe aud was training! bah.) so went to visit choir juniors. and saw the j1s! suddenly everything's a bit more alien. i guess it's always like that. luckily reggie was there haha. fellow j3. decided i cudn't wait 1.5h for them to finish. and i think it wud've been quite awkward too anyway. went j8, attempted to find ser's present. rather unsuccessful, but it's alright. i think there's just sth with me.. it's like i can shop forever and not buy anything, but one day i'll just see sth and *snaps fingers* that's it! of course that doesn't always happen all the time so i'll just settle for second best.

lemme see, today everyone came back! haha so bustling again. i guess it's more fun having more pple around. but can't slack so much either. and i ended with more graphs and excel stuff to finish:s price to pay. oh well. and more pple come so i can look around more haha. it's more interesting when more pple appear. then can evaluate their looks. haha. making life more fun for myself, it's inevitable when you don't wish to stare at the comp all the time.

and i also figured that work is more about the pple than wat u're doing. i think. cos i think i'll miss my colleagues quite a bit.. even though i don't talk to them much lar but well. they're nice pple. like e french guy! haha. he's so cheerful and greets everyone. yeah. i guess it's cos he actually bothers to say hi to me sometimes. and he looks quite pleasant. haha. there's this other french guy who sits straight in line of the pantry so everytime i go to get my tea i'll have to open the door and will make some noise and end up disturbing him in a way. and the vice pres, who actually somehow reminds me of a bear. must be the deep growly voice.

and the secretary's so cute, in the morning she came in carrying a pot and i was like huh? is that a plant? and she proudly informed me how it's been 2 years ago or sth and the plant's thriving! it was from a fundraising event. and then there was this other time when 2 of the managers were "squabbling" about cutting queues cos 1st they both wanted to talk to the secretary about something, then they (again) both wanted to talk to another manager about something, and one of them accused the other of cutting queue twice.

oh and then today they were talking about the pirated vcds or dvds they brought back frm penang.. so funny:p one of them was saying she was so scared cos they do random checks and a few pple in front of her got singled out.. and then someone else was saying she got ocean's twelve! all the cute guys in there! haha. sth like jiahui saying her seniors (at work) were talking about movies today and then before meetings they'll be like "i sit w u k?" and go round asking who wants to sit with them.

yup. so my conclusion is that work is more about the people. unless u end up with some very technical/research-orientated job or sth. and all the managers are forever on the phone or discussing stuff w other pple and the doors are mostly open, so i've picked up the habit of just listening to the tone instead of the content. rather interesting. but sometimes i make wrong assumptions abt them since i don't know them v well.

i think it's v nice to have teachers who're likeable. in general. i mean, imagine having to learn stuff from someone u didn't (or couldn't) like. how sad. i think that happened for quite a few of my piano teachers previously. i remember going thru like 10 potential teachers before i settled on one for grade 8. and that was partly only cos i liked the studio:p picky clar huh. yeah i know.

anyway, wow, tmr's friday again. time flies when your days are packed. good and bad lar.
oh! wait. today i went for this lunchtime concert thingy at vch.. they played such showy pieces.. like wow. i've never seen a violin played like that. but again i don't go for that many concerts so haha. but still. rather amazing! n met wuiming and krishna, pleasant surprise! i had to rush back to work though:s was already late as it was.

so, hope i have a great day tmr! haha i have a new outlook on work so don't have to sympathise w me so much anymore. i shall make life interesting for myself. but that's probably cos the worst of the graph-excel-stuff is over. which is good. i need different things to do. i wouldn't mind continuing for a while if they'd give me a variety of stuff to do.. it's quite nice to have a half-french envt haha. and i think the office is in a superb location. but maybe i've said all that already. oh well.

wahaha today is really slacker fest cos next to nobody's around on my side of the office plus i've kind of finished my stuff. i mean, i guess i could draw more graphs but i'm not sure she wants them. haha. i'll do them later. must leave some work lar.

and i just walked around my office. for the first time. luckily no one else much was around.. seems like the whole 23rd floor houses managers! k that sounds weird but nvm. i shall go down to 22nd floor and walk around later haha. this is fun.

and yay! if the papers are correct chow yun fat will be in the sequel for pirates.. 2 fav actors in there whee! ok i'm going a bit mad. time for lunchy lunch soon:D and i shall go buy my stuff frm bras basah too.

ooh. just watched the thomas crown affair. cool show. rather exciting! haha. the way he confused all the police at the end was quite amusing.

anyway. i took a super long lunch break today oops:s and then i left 10mins early haha:p oops. but if i rush everyth today i'll have nothing to do tmr! not that i mind lar but well. have to leave =some= stuff to do;D maybe i'll sew my handphone pouch rofl. then i'm sure to get work from the rest. but well, the luxury of having all the managers off at the seminar. haha:D

and they changed my laptop to a huge computer today! i mean a normal pc but it's huge compared to the laptop. ah well. the only problem is that it obstructs my view. and i think the whole world can see my screen even more clearly now. not that i care.

oh! there's this cute french guy in my company haha. not cute as in good-looking but boy-cute. he's always so happy and cheerful and polite. but i've no idea wat his name is. ah well.

okies i better go finish my forms and get more sleep. today i felt like sleeping at 3pm again. it must be inborn instinct. and i shall go design my pouch! whee~ making stuff is fun. haha. i think i must be a maniac. all the mood swings.

haha i think i must've complained too much on my blog. but thanks to everyone who sympathised with me abt hating my job lar haha. i feel loads better now! it must be the disney movie. i think disney movies have a feel good factor. k this sounds suspiciously like mr chan ty on our bio prelim paper but shuddup clar, no more things abt exams.

lala. k i have been asking pple to eat lunch/dinner w me. so i won't feel lonely anymore! k i sound super deprived. but anyway yeah miss pple loads.

this stupid lizard keeps coming out everyday and making me scream. it's as if it owns the house!grr. whack it. anyway, hopefully my good mood persists. or prolongs itself. whichever. lalala.

oh! i forgot to write about the eating-at-mrt station incident. actually there were 2 lar. once at eunos.. was waiting for aud ting pam to come and for jiahui to change.. and was eating dinner (bread) while looking at the map to figure out where the cc was so we'd noe how to walk there. then this attendant or watever u call him came up to me and said "no eating in the station" and told me to move to the entrance of the mrt (which was like maybe 3 metres away). super spastic. i'm sure i'm going to pluck off bits of bread and fling them around.

and then another day in the morning i was eating pineapple tarts in the car.. so i was still eating when i reached the bukit batok mrt.. so i stuffed the rest of the tart into my mouth and fished my wallet out and went in. and then unless i heard wrongly or sth, the guy told me to eat slowly. was rather amused:p

i think i've become a horrible person. hmm. or maybe over-perfectionistic. or over-critical. or over-demanding. yeah that sounds about right. anyway. i was thinking about this last night. or maybe this morning. dunno lar. suddenly remembered the quote (i have no idea where it's from) : eyes are the window to one's soul. really? i don't seem to agree. or maybe i'm just not discerning enough.

it's so weird. i feel like i haven't seen my friends in ages when i just met them on monday. hmm. and suddenly feel lonely. like nobody wants to talk to me. or i don't want to talk to pple. funny huh. maybe staying at home and sleeping 11hrs on both days does something to you.

i also think my lethargy has reached new levels. my determination seems to be at an all-time low! either that or work saps all my energy (convenient excuse huh). all i end up doing is lie on the bed and read and read and read. and i haven't finished half the books i read last year. aiyoh. wat a real pig.

oh! and my mom told me that my aunt and her colleagues say my hair's v untidy! they work 18 floors below me, and apparently can recognise me even though I only went to her office once. weird pple. oh wait there was this other time when they said i'm always smsing or sth. i'm really most bemused. the way people gossip is scandalous. i hope i don't do that. like gossip about pple i don't even know and criticise all sorts of things.

wonder what cny will be like this year. same old boring stuff. i wonder how my lil cousin's finding nygh haha. that'll be interesting at least. maybe she'll have some funny things to tell me:) somehow i think my family's quite isolated. or maybe that's just what i think.

and i dunno why i'm suddenly getting worried about results all over again. sigh. maybe it's the time to wallow in self misery so everyth that comes to mind is nothing happy.

oh yes and one night i had this super weird dream that i suddenly had another sister (slightly older than me) whom i knew next to nothing about, and was typing in her income data or sth into the computer. result of combination of work & listening to frens' stories abt rich pple.

mixed-up me. nevermind, maybe tmr'll be better if i don't have some other weird dream. haha. oh! i forgot if i sed this, i want to watch finding neverland! i hope it wins lots of awards haha. (and johnny depp of cos). raving johnny depp fan here. k lar i only like pirates and probably this show too but well. oh and racing stripes looks cute, but the voicing over seems quite.. dunno. doesn't really fit what I thought it would be like. from the clips i watched. nvm, having the horse-racing in is probably good enough haha.

warning: do not read if you don't want to hear me whine. a lot.

i'm busy wallowing in self pity now cos i hate my job. it's undescribably monotonous. and unbelievable mind-numbing (and finger-numbing too i might add). i have 5 more graphs to draw manually. and 2 more to do w the computer. i hate the sight of computers now. wails. and i couldn't find myself any nice and cheap food to eat!:( the curry puff wasn't nice. i must go find nicer curry puffs. i miss the rj muslim stall one:(

anyway, yes, and i am totally sick of excel files, and anything remotely to do with lubricants, whether automotive or industrial. and the HR manager seems to have this knack of walking out when I'm doing something not work-related. oops. heck, they had better pay me my 1000 bucks. or more, if i work more than a month. grr.

let me see what else i can complain about. and sick of doing formulas for summing stuff and taking weighted averages. and oh! yes. i'm quite convinced i got the carpal tunnel syndrome (okay lar today my right hand doesn't hurt so maybe i'm well already haha) thanks to their work. feel like sueing them. click click click click. growl.

and they don't even have nice things in the pantry. ah. my train of thought has derailed cos ser came online to save me haha. the only thing vaguely interesting i got to do was to do name tags haha. the cutting's actually quite fun:p k yeah i'm deprived, i noe. but really, when u're stuck with excel and graphs on powerpoint, you start to appreciate little things a lot more.

ah! yesterday i was v sad cos there was no bed and i wanted a nap. (sleeping at 2 doesn't really make u feel v awake in the afternoon) and then when i told my parents that last night they were so amused. but really! i was so tired and wanted to sleep and there was nowhere comfy:(

i think my brain cells are being depleted by this. more damages to claim. haha. if only.

k well back to stupid graphs. i keep forgetting wat i was going to say.

oh wait i just remembered sth. this office is so freaking cold it's like winter. if i stayed here any longer i'd become a snowman. or ice queen. crazy lar. dunno why they need the aircon to be so cold. i mean like fine, performances like cirque du soleil, the performers might sweat and that's quite dangerous so they need lower temps but here?? ....

quotes of the day from peiying. cos they're the only 2 i remembered

lyd talks about her pay, and how she spends it on clothes and all that.
peiying: nxt time when pple ask u where's your pay? answer = "i'm wearing it"

chris: oh.. u noe.. shining and her boyfren are in paris!
peiying: i don't know shining. but i know paris!

anyway, dinner was funny.. trust chris to dump the ice cream in knowing that the chocolate'd overflow.. shud've taken a photo of that haha. and also trust lydia to refuse anyth with the slightest trace of ice cream inside:p and lijia's peas on the table, and attempts to cover them using the paper/plate (oh no! the waitress cleared the plate!) and tissue. and the great overturning pizza. it was really good seeing everyone again:) smaller groups work better.

although i must admit i was in a terrible mood while i was walking there. everyone knew my phone wasn't working. yet at 7.15 i called chris, no answer. called joon. "we were waiting for u to call" "ur phone really can't call ah?" & before that "ok 7 at giordanos so u wun have any problems later". after i msged everyone and set the time and place and everything and at 7pm, nobody is to be seen. k i'm probably over-reacting as usual but anyway, at that moment i was quite annoyed. but, at least everyone else decided where to eat earlier if not we'd waste more time deciding. and i didn't say anyth at dinner cos i didn't want to spoil everyth. figured it's quite stupid to organise something and ruin it. plus it's hard to stay mad at such lovely pple haha. anyway, it's over. and not a big thing.. just that i wasn't in a gd mood to begin with so got rather grumpy.

oh yes, my phone! i wanted to lodge a complaint but apparently it's not really their fault either so i can't. darn. anyway, yes. finally, on saturday, after visiting samsung shop at centrepoint to check out why i can't enable wap, we found out i have to change my sim card. (here i'm already wondering wat kind of service singtel is giving but apparently a few pple had to change card too, so watever). so, went to the hello shop at westmall and the guy says, tuesday the new sim card will be activated.. around noon u can't use the old card to call out. so, fine, i'll just remember to bring the card on tues to change. but taadaa! today, at 12-sth, when i try to msg ser to ask her abt her bag, my phone doesn't work. -alarm bells go off-. well done, singtel. congratulations on your efficiency. but you have also succeeded in inconveniencing me for the rest of the day. i wouldn't have really cared if i were at home, just switch the card. but u wudn't expect me to carry the card around w me everywhere when they said tuesday!

anyway, on a happier note, i got my cd! wahaha:) haven't had time to listen yet though. and i finally settled two very long-belated bday presents:s now for the next 2 haha. i feel poor. where's my pay?? aah. time to sleep. so so tired.

ah.i should've followed my instincts on friday night and not gone. but again, it wasn't really instincts. i think? anyway pity we din get to kayak aft all cos fuzzy din call them earlier to ask or sth like tt.. and jiahui was still sick, and pam cancelled for dunno wat reason.

so ended up watching aviator. wasn't exactly my cup of tea (plus it was super long). n we shud've read the synopsis before going haha was a bit lost there. i did feel like watching a movie but nothing really appealed yest.

nvm, i've found nice movies to watch: finding neverland and racing stripes! haha it looks super cute.. saw it in australia:) i hope it's nice! lala. and actually i'm only watching finding neverland cos there's johnny depp haha. i sound like a groupie. and the show's supposed to be good anyway. and i shall get my cd tmr. once i can decide which cd and where to buy it from haha.

and i made konnyaku jelly today! a bit too sweet and a bit too soft.. nvm still got 2 more packets to experiment with haha. and drove today. illegally i mite add. but well i think i'm getting the hang of it. there's an awful lot of things to remember. why's it so tedious.. it goes for everything lar. except for maybe piano or sth, i dunno.

*yawns* i took a 2 hr nap and am still tired. i shud stop being so lazy:( nvm tmr's dinner should be gd:) yumyumyum .but i foresee feeling rather poorer aft that.

haha. 2nd day i have dinner at home. lala. i'm wondering if i shud go kayak tmr. mmm.

anyway. yeah let's complain about work a bit more. it's so stupid! haha. k i dunno why i suddenly became so anti-work.. but after i drew like 10 graphs manually i had enough. oh no! i drew 11! yes. got so angry and irritated. grumpy clar. but really.. temps do all the stupid things. like kahli told me today she had to "carry boxes. or key in millions of small data for them. i should sue them for eyesight damage". haha good old glad. anyway my sentiments exactly! bleah. as quoted frm her sms in the morning.

oh yes i had enough and i walked to bras basah to buy sth and took half an hour:D as it is i was in a bad enough mood. i wonder why. maybe it was cos i cudn't decide wat cd to buy haha (and still haven't decided even now heh). or it was bcos of lunch!

ah yes. lunch. they tried to cheat me lar! give promotion and then charge me the usual price.. i mean okay lar the usual price one is when u get green tea as well but how was i supposed to noe.. and then the guy making sushi kept bothering me when i was flipping thru the menu.. i was like i'll look at it myself already and he -still- asked "do u want udon? or rice? or .." i was super pissed off lar. partly because b4 he asked, the waitress already asked me the same qn and i sed i'll look at the menu. like hi, if i say something, maybe i actually mean it? man. anyway, apparently the waitress didn't write down the food number correctly so cashier made a mistake. ah yes and they were all looking very sulky. don't like to serve pple then go do sth else lar! ah i seem to complain a lot today. but it's friday lar, i've survived a full work week so can't blame me haha.

i was going to talk about something else.. oh! yes. i spend my mornings thinking about where i'm going to eat lunch and what i'm going to eat. mornings as in train ride plus some part of working time haha. it's actually quite fun lar. like i was telling candice, lunch = eat nice food of own choice + go nice place also of ur own choice + shop (in an attempt to justify myself because she accused me of "succumbing to serene's witchery"). and like ting sed, the highlight of the day haha. oh and today i walked into delifrance and bought myself a mushroom quiche. so yummy! they usually slice up the mushrooms so there're only bits left? but this one was like big juicy chunks.. mm.. and creamy haha. oops. but delicious!:D

ah yes and then my boss (e guy in charge of me), upon seeing my completed graphs, decided i had a bright future. because i can plot graphs? right. and then i spent the rest of the day (actually less than 2 hours cos i went for my short shopping trip wahaha) typing out pple's names. and cutting paper. haha actually cutting paper was fun lar just that it's quite dumb. i actually think working is just another way to torture oneself. for the money. but i think i've said that before so nvm..

alrite. so i'm going kayaking after all. let's hope i still can perform normal functions with my arms on sunday. nevermind, it's a sort of exercise anyway. and i hope i dun get those fibreglass thingies:s remember claire got some splinters during obs n it was terrible:

yeah k given that i'm probably going to have to wake up at 7 (wails! my only free day and i can't wake up late! i'm going to take leave on monday man..) to get to pasir ris. sigh.

right. 4th day of work and i'm finally home for dinner (just in time to catch last episode of double happiness. haha.)

anyway, i hope they don't think i spend too much time on the phone at work haha. like i called chris yesterday n talked for some time. and today was calling up to find out abt stuff. but that didn't take v long lar. just that i had to make quite a few calls:p oh well. let's hope they gimme a pay raise. everyone else seems to be earning more than i do! grr. oh quite funky they had three galettes des rois today. i found out the big boss is an englishman! weird. i always thought the french guy was the boss oops. cos he had his own secretary. if that's what she is.

and i think temps have v sad jobs. all the boring tedious stuff gets dumped at them. but i can't imagine without a temp, they hafta do it themselves?? augh. i must really find a job that i'll like. i wonder why pple have to torture themselves like that. haha. self-inflicted misery. but again that's probably my pessimistic view. since my aunt actually enjoys her job cos she likes organising stuff.

oh actually my office has quite a good location:) btwn city hall and bugis! yeah. very convenient to buy stuff haha. just that i dun think raffles city is particularly gd for buying stuff sometimes. anyhow.. yeah.. everything's beginning.. hope my lessons are fun! and coaches are good of cos:) tho i still haven't gotten round to scholarship apps:s somehow i dunno how i'm going to get myself a scholarship. and uni apps how? :s better not to think liao ergh.

i'm so tempted to shop somemore. bleah. oh yes going to work leaves u with rather little time to do much else. rush rush rush. today's work was terrible lar. mind-numbing. at least that's done. and now i have i/o to do.. which will be worse cos there're more categories.. pray for my sanity please. and those graphs! i can't believe u've to do it manually? i must make sure i think of sth better. grr. manual graph-plotting is quite a waste of time. but maybe it's faster than thinking of alternative methods. bah. n i dun understand they refuse to gimme a log scale. none of my numbers are negative or zero! :(

oh!! yeah went back to rj to visit choir yesterday.. haha we spent like 15mins trying to find lt4! and it's really pathetic.. nobody knew where lt4 was lar. not even j2 councillors. haha. quite funny actually. ah well. anyway, talk about nostalgia. first, i remembered the music. then, i remembered the times when we had drilling and i got so sick of it. but i guess to reach the standard u hafta drill huh. hmm. i don't think i can sing anymore! no more abs:( haha.
anyway, was good to see juniors again:) silly darryl n kp.. one could video them and send it to america's funniest videos and perhaps win.. and jinjie, trying to look tanned?? i realised i hadn't seen chernise in ages.. like open house i saw most of them i think..

alrite.. let's hope tmr is a better day.. and thurs i'll get to see pam finally.. long time since i talked to that girl. and oh dear i think i was spposed to msg lyd abt dinner! oops. and i wonder when joon will decide to have dinner. heh.

woah. wat a week. or rather, end-of-week. friday's work was better i guess, but i suspect he's giving me extra stuff to do cos i'm so fast. haha. self-praise. k nvm maybe he just thought of the extra stuff that he forgot previously. but anyway, my supervisor, or watever u call him, is actually quite nice i guess. found out he has a son my age! wah. talk about coincidence.

then budak concert.. quite funny lar. and like i predicted, we saw mingze. with -someone-. haha. oh before that, i was going to look for some gift shop near the mrt entrance in plaza sing, and met chris n tiff! so didn't hafta call them after all:) yeah and jan gushing about her guitarist. well he is the best looking one in the bunch (which actually isn't saying much, but nvm:p) i managed to catch the bus! haha. luckily i was wearing flatter heels (actually my mom's) so could run. and the nice bus-driver kindly waited for me:) and met pingying! another coincidence! so cool:)

saturday.. i think i slept 12 hrs out of sheer lethargy. haha. i wud've woken up earlier just that i decided i deserved more rest and went back to sleep for another hour:p

and now sunday. haha i think i spent like $260 shopping in the evening. wat a record.. but i need work clothes. plus i hardly go shopping. quite funny actually, just grab stuff off the racks and try, try, try. well at least i think i'm settled for the next few months. i don't think i've ever bought so much stuff at one go. not bad! i must congratulate myself. and now i'm super tired again haha. back to work tmr. oh i got a pair of really comfy shoes!:D yay

i can well understand why pple who work don't exercise. i mean, stuck in office mon - fri, 9 - 6. who wud feel like exercising in the wee hours of the morning/at night when the sun has set? i mean like sch usually ends earlier and there's actually a track around and all that. now i wish i'd treasured sch life more, i think working life is much worse. no sch holidays! augh. whole year stuck in the office lar. i was trying to think of work which didn't involve being stuck in front of a computer/in an aircon office the whole day and pays well but nothing much came to mind. maybe i need more brainstorming sessions haha.

well.. 1st day of work.. haha i think i shud try and not yawn so much. maybe cos i'm not v used to waking up at 8 and a 45min journey to work bleargh. and some of the oil stuff was really boring.. and finance stuff was really boring.. but i'm quite thankful he explained it to me lar. he's quite a nice guy actually.. or maybe he's just nice cos i'm going to be around for a month haha. k i shudn't be so mean but i've learnt (from experience, sadly, or maybe luckily?) that one should always suspect the worst sometimes.

and actually i dun think i shud be staring at the computer somemore when i was staring at it for the whole of the afternoon (besides running off at 2.30 to pay a surprise visit to my aunt working 18 floors below me and running off again at 3.40 to get myself ice cream/fresh air.. i really felt sick k! stale aircon. bah.) and i got an extra long lunch break today haha cos my computer wasn't set up. but really, u cudn't expect me to sit around and do nothing and wait for an hour + for lunch break rite.. i could be doing more productive stuff like shopping. rofl. i need to find ser her bday present. and i still owe darryl his. oh dear.

i just remembered something and got really annoyed. there's that saying about elephants have long memories huh.. i shud be more forgiving and less like an elephant. but it's not that i didn't forgive or anyth, it's just a fact wat. its just. the injustice of someone saying something when the opposite is true. very indignant. but nevermind. hopefully it never repeats because that's something that really irked me. which hasn't happened for quite long, thankfully.

anyway, besides that. i'm kinda glad it's going to be saturday soon, i can wake up late again!:D i dunno how my dad can sleep at 2+ and still wake up at 8 in the morning and continue the cycle the next day.

i'm so tempted to bring a discman (ok, not that i possess one) to work and listen while i compile datasheets. better than getting distracted by pple talking on the phone. and tempted to buy more cds. sembawang music centre is really quite cheap, i realised. at least i think so unless hmv has a huge sale now

ow. poor feet. and eyes. my contacts don't seem to agree with my eyes v well. or maybe cos an eyelash dropped in just now.

anyway. long day tmr! sigh. actually, for the next month. i don't know why i'm getting myself into this.. i guess i feel too poor for my own comfort haha. i guess it wasn't good to be late on the 1st meeting. but at least i called up to inform them earlier rite?? augh. k. my fault. anyway, the guy in charge of me looks so stone. and looked so disapproving/sulky when i sed i was frm both raffles schs. e.g. of scenario:

guy: so.. just to understand ur situation.. u're waiting for a level results rite.. where were u from?
me: rj
guy looks slightly sulky and continues: and.. before that?
me: rgs
guy looks even more sulky

okay lar maybe i may have miscontrued his facial expressions. but he didn't look v friendly to me aft hearing those two schools. and then later when i was requesting a higher pay. but seriously! i looked at the adds and heard frm pple and all n they mostly seem to get like 6 per hour at least? ah watever.. he looked even more displeased when i was asking about it haha. too bad. it really seems bit unfair wat.

and really, i can't believe they paid poly students only $400 for the same job.. that is like exploitation. or abuse of workers. or cruelty to workers. watever. almost wanted to tell the HR manager that but luckily i shut up in time. will not do to be impolite. but my mom said i shud've told them off. haha. but that's my mom so nvm..

owch there's really sth wrong w my nose, keeps running and i keep sneezing. phantom was not bad i guess but i think musical wud be better w live music.. now it sounds a tad tweaked by the computer.. voice editing or sth? i dunno. and i also thought they exploited the sensual part a bit but maybe that's just me too.

anyway i had better get to sleep soon. foresee a super tired clar for the next month. plus i've to figure out weird powerpt graphs and dunno wat else. working doesn't seem v appealing after all. have to contend w all sorts of problems. nvm.. shall see what happens.

wow. long time since i blogged. but didn't feel like writing anything much. anyway sigh! for one glorious moment i thought i could live my dream. but that doesn't seem so possible now huh. bleah. not that i could have done anything else actually. maybe i'll still get to live it for 6 months? haha. i gave up the idea a long time ago, but when the opportunity resurfaced.. woah.. but now dunno how.

and am sadly unemployed! i figured whatever i apply for, i'll still end up doing teaching/data-entry/waitressing or something equally mundane. so what was i expecting anyway...
i think i learn too much from my brother. have started to feel very poor now. partly thanks to his influence, partly cos everyone else is working, partly cos now have to pay adult fare (groan). well at least i foresee myself being less spendthrift, hopefully. why can't i just fly? haha. dream on girl..

but on a brighter note, i think i'll get to learn loads of things in these 8 months. also hopefully. (and end up spending a lot too actually but nvm haha)

and yesterday was absolutely depressing, realised just how inept i am, maybe i was just wasting a whole lot of money applying.. how? :(
now i also don't think i have any chance of a scholarship either. what an absolutely wonderful state to be in..

ah yes sleeping beauty on ice was so good.. set, costumes, performance, music. everything! but of cos after a (long) while the routines get a teeny bit repetitive. BUT the guy playing catalabutte is superb.. i've never seen a gymnast like that! (okay maybe cirque du soleil's acrobats can rival him) and i wish they could take photos of the production on the spot and dump them in the program but i guess that's asking for the impossible. i always do. anyway the reason for that's cos the pictures in the program -never- look like what you see on stage.. the same way the mamma mia cd didn't sound like what i heard on stage either. blah.

i think i'm too idealistic.

anyway, why isn't kA's CD out? not that i could buy it actually. unless i get them to ship to my bro and ... maybe one day i'll go back to vegas just to watch another one of cirque's resident shows:) but the static in LV is horrible. augh.

oh yes one last thought, i shouldn't get so many pple hooked on pool haha. my mom doesn't even approve of me pooling in the first place. or playing cards. oops. i wish i were as pro as dasheng/shaun.

alritey. am really rested. haha. almost 12 hrs!! ugh. can't believe myself. i woke up at 8.30 initially but thought i'll sleep 1 hour more and ended up waking up at 12.15. well well. wat to do.

anyway ahh i just forgot wat i was going to say. it was something about australia though. hums. ohh!! yes sydney opera house. it isn't that wonderful really, i think esplanade is more impressive. esp the concert hall. sydney opera hse's concert hall isn't very awe-inspiring. it was quite funny though when the 2nd half started and the orchestra players all came out wearing tinsel/attaching tinsel to various parts of their instruments, and the lady behind us exclaimed very loudly between chuckles "they're being rather silly!" haha. the soprano was awesome though. first time i've ever heard actually. but yeah. wow.

and i'm so sorry to admit to abusing one of the wombats at the featherdale wildlife park to make it come out. i felt quite bad about it lar. but i really wanted to see it walk around! gah. and it still didn't come out of its hole. so i guess we din do it much harm. fat lazy things. they're supposed to graze in the day quite often even though they're nocturnal. but the echidnas were really cute though haha waddle around like sea slugs on the seabed. okay that doesn't sound v nice but when my bro sends it over to me everyone will see wat i mean.

and the koala that had bad aiming! haha. it was feeding time so the koalas were scrambling towards the eucalyptus leaves.. and one of them, when jumping from one branch to another, almost fell over. quite funny:p

saw a lot of amazing things there. mostly animal-related though haha. i should go do something related to animals huh. my dad was saying last yr i was so enchanted by the dolphins at siegfried n roy's secret garden that i wanted to bring one home, and now i want to bring a wombat home. haha. but it's so cute and fat. wish i'd been able to see a platypus though. we did get to see it in the movie but it's different when it's right in front of your face i guess.

lemme see. yes. the cow which tricked me into walking into a cobweb. the farmstay! so i was standing on the verandah and then suddenly this cow which was grazing looked up and stared at me. so i wanted to walk closer and stare at it and then ended up walking into a cobweb. grr.

and feeding the farm animals! haha. hungry cows galloping was hilarious. my brother couldn't stop laughing at their greediness. and was so appalled when the big bull licked his hand. and then brucie the pig who put her two front feet into the food trough while eating. (and then this lady who was watching told her husband "don't talk to me abt table manners nxt time!") and then brucie somehow ended up losing her balance/decided to lie down and overturned the food trough (its round-bottomed, made up of a barrel cut longitudinally) so the food spilled onto the ground.

i saw alpacas! pity they were shaved the day before we arrived though. i have a pillow at home which is made from their wool/fur/watever u call it. bought frm vegas last yr.

umm. oh i really liked the house tt we stayed on at the farm. it's so tastefully decorated. maybe cos its new.. 1 yr old only. but i got the pink room! haha. took lots of photos of the rooms cos they're all colour-themed, really pretty:) and it so happens the pink room had a queen bed so i got the whole bed to myself. but the other rooms had queen beds too lar so not much diff anyway.

the only problem was the abundance of insects around. in the houses and outside. so many flies!! ugh. got so annoyed. dirty things. and i've gone off horse-riding a bit. maybe cos i forgot most of wat i learnt last time.. got to take lessons again maybe. or maybe need the correct footwear haha.

okay i better hurry up with my uni app forms.

alright. am back. and really tired. i woke up at the singapore equivalent of 5am. augh. and watched like 3 movies in a row on the plane. SIA movie selection is really good.. plus the music.. u'll never be bored.. but not good for eyes yeah.

christine's house is so so so nice!! can compare with denise's liao. just that she doesn't have a pool table haha

i dun think my brain is working v well at the moment so i shan't attempt to say much abt my trip. besides the fact tt i'm sick of hot sun and looong drives. and that it's so fun seeing kangaroos on the road! haha. and i always appreciate spore much better aft holidays abroad heh. and it was hilarious with my crazy bro around. nobody'd believe he's 22 and i'm 18. even i don't believe it most of the time.

anyway, since serene so kindly reminded me, here is the story of the emergency lever. which i don't doubt she has told most of the world, seeing that I always find out about how she's told the whole world various events which I don't remember telling many pple.
check-in counter
guy asks my mom : how old is ur daughter?
mom : 18? why?
guy : oh.. its okay.. underaged children aren't supposed to sit next to the emergency door
mom starts getting worried : 18 isn't underage rite?
guy laughs : no.. its just that some stewardesses don't allow.. they're afraid they (children) will play with the lever..
i'm in a state of disbelief and shock. sarcastically : rite.. so i'm going to start playing with the lever later..

when i'm more free i will type more quotes. like how my bro was so fascinated by the accent that hong kong pple have when they speak english. esp the guy who was explaining opals to us.

alright. off to australia tonight.. back on 27th night. i don't suppose anyone will be writing xmas cards this year rite haha maybe i'll write new year cards or sth hmm.

heh i'm here doing last minute essays n my parents are doing last minute planning for holiday. yay.. the last minute lin family. anyway they keep talking about "coomba" which sounds so much like "kumar" haha. which reminds me he still owes me my 3 SAT books. i forgot this classic quote from the french movie on sunday.. may not be v accurate though i don't remember exactly wat happened

gal hears squeaking and scratching at night : what's tt?? -huddles in bed-
guy : i don't know, i'm not an expert on animal noises
squeaking resumes
gal gets more frightened : can u get up and see wat is it??
guy doesn't want to, wants to sleep : mouse, rat, giant roach, ...
gal shrieks in fright
guy sighs in resignation and gets up and checks under the bed : nothing. it's beneath the floorboards
gal, v agitated : but wat IS it??
guy, annoyed : bambi
gal is stunned : wat?
guy : bambi! since u want a name, i'm giving u a name..

so i was just thinking of a fawn in the floorboards. most amusing haha.

haha lunch was fun. cheukka and her "softshell crab isn't crab wat!" "oh. i thought it was something like crayfish" various other things which i forgot.. and kai with her silly jokes.. whereby the only thing that is funny about them is her laughter after every joke.

and the movie was.. well.. unexpected. i didn't know there was going to be singing in there but i was v happy haha:D opera singer! woah. so cool.. tho the actress was really fat. but that camille deveux or watever her name was looks really good.. plus good voice too.. unless that was dubbed. in which i'll feel so disillusioned.

ooh i like my new phone haha. tho i felt rather guilty buying it. hope it'll serve me (and my bro, i assume) well. explorer has conked out on me. grr. now for essays. esp stanford. aargh

ah. 5 hour sleep. but somehow it was a little fragmented. and woke up feeling a bit achey. anyway.. chalet was quite fun. though a lot of stuff could have been done better lar could've thought about food and etc beforehand? but really must thank andrew for coordinating everyth.. esp when u've a class which is as laidback as ours. maybe not laidback but hmm can't be bothered? think slightly more than half the class appeared which is not bad. now to wonder when to have that combined bbq.. aahh. maybe i'll call everyone and ask when they're free. quite difficult lar sigh

anyway ohh yeah pity the weather only cleared up today morning.. past two days was like light drizzle all the time.. quite cold. okay. cool. so ended up playing a lot of bridge. must get changmou to teach more card games.. just that i wun remember how to play them if he's not around haha. that sheepheads thing or watever was really confusing tho i dun blame siewjin for needing a calculator to keep track of points cos i needed one too haha:p maybe dinos are lousy at mental calculations oops

hmm let's see.. oh pool on monday night was rather sad haha kept fouling all over the place.. was really horrendous. at least i think i redeemed myself on tues. i suppose i've gd and bad days. anyway the charge was really crazy.. i wun have gone on monday actually but since everyone went then just go lar.. then second night dun care about the charge already. shud really learn to spend $$ more wisely. n i shud've learnt frm chorale camp that food always gets left over. ah well will try to remember nxt time.

pity didn't get to swim.. apparently the jacuzzi was v nice. and it was nice rooming with aud:) and funny when i woke siewjin up for her soccer match. she mumbled some stuff which i cudn't hear. and i was so puzzled. and ended up asking me " 4 1 2?" or sth like that. was most queer. and amusing.

wait i was going to say sth.. ohh yes really pity shaun haha come to chalet just to get diaoed by all the guys -and- ser. i think the latter is the worst. dasheng probably will agree haha. and we met ms jeanne tan in the downtown east carpark. her take on it? "i thought i saw familiar faces but the guys were acting so childishly so i wasn't sure.." haha.

various quotes. i can't remember other various funny things dasheng said tho.
ser "every morning i eat a piece of milk"
ser on m dremaux her sec 4 french tcher "ses oreilles bleues" [his blue ears. she meant to say his blue eyes]

dasheng, explaining why he was still quite awake at 2sth am even tho he only slept 2 hrs the night before "took a shower then okay already lor"
and apparently he wasn't supposed to sleep yesterday night
so candice suggested he take 40 minute interval showers
dasheng "wah then i'll become a prune lar"

oh and the cat invading our compound. i bet it thought we were trepassing on its territory. so dasheng threatened to strangle it. so when i told mrs cheong she sed "tell dasheng that he may not be able to pay for dead cat" haha. cos he has nets card and was supposed to pay for any damages. rather amusing.

ah i think this is long enough already. shall start worrying about essays again. it was nice to forget abt all that for a while and just slack:) days of mugging seem far behind. tho possibly unforgettable anyway.

i think i've less than an hour before i've to go off again. haha. and my eyes are still half closed. don't think i'll wear contacts today liao. so tired:s now i realise having stayovers consecutively isn't a v smart idea.. oh well. but was quite fun lar haha lots of amusement..

wah and yesterday full day frm 9am to almost 12 is really too much. and still went out walking around aft tt couldn't walk straight anymore. ohh the food at the tea session was the best yet haha. tho i'm still not v tempted to apply to join saf. it was good seeing cheukka tho:p although the hair was shocking. and found 2 nice shops at raffles city! tho i probably can't afford/bear to buy anyth frm there actually. but well. nice to look at.

then grad nite. haha i'm so glad pam was prom queen:) tho now she'd better treat me n chris for standing us up partly to sew her gown. and everyone looked so glad. i half wished i went to do my hair properly too but actually no time also.. i like tiff's curls! haha. but they've disappeared already so sad. and it was quite surprising i ended up taking photos w pple i haven't spoken to for the past 2 years but at least we did lar. quite nice after all. food was okay didn't really like it that much.. but i'm picky. and the deejay's not bad. albeit mean at times. quite happening..

ah i'm too tired to type anymore and i've to pack. and think of wat to get mrs cheong. i hope there's no more mascara left *frowns* although i think i've washed my face like 5 times. the trouble with make-up.

ohh! i forgot to talk about incredibles on .. saturday. haha jack jack is so funny. at the end of the show he scared the bad guy and the family all din noe wat was going on. i was saying violet's lucky cos she has 2 powers [and they seem to be the more useful ones] while the rest have only 1 but maybe tts to make up for her self-esteem heh. and it's somewhat like x-men. powers and fighting bad guys who have powers too. and the machine thingy is like the octavarian guy or watever his name is in spiderman 2. but besides tt it was quite fun:)

arrh i think i'll fall asleep in the car on the way there. gnite zzzzzzzzz.

wahh. poor tired clar. and i really should learn my lesson about doing last minute things. today ate dinner at like 10+ because had to do last minute shopping. at least i've finally gotten all my stuff. one day before the prom? haha. well done clar.

lunch was hilarious.. was really glad lyd came:) provided much amusement. and jane u've the funniest comments/actions. and i finally returned poor chris her saltimbanco vcd [thanks for being so patient:p] always comfortable to be around gd frens:) yayyy happy day. tho bad pam didn't come hmph i will scold her tmr.

anyway. i have to go dig out the quotes from my phone.. here're some i remember anyway
lyd wants bread
jane "u should go to olio dome"
lyd didn't hear her properly "wat?" -bread skids off the tray- "oops". -uses tongs to put bread back-
jane "u should go to olio dome"
lyd looks bemused "but i'm here!"

lyd suggests giving chris an iron for her housewarming
chris "why?"
lyd "aren't u spposed to give useful things for the house at housewarmings?"
chris "oh. i thought u were u insinuating my clothes were crumpled"

haha. so cute. my dearest sec 4 classmates [okay fine jane's not a classmate but as good as lar]
i must organise another outing just for lydia before she whacks me again the next time i meet her.

alright better go pack and everyth. tmr's one busy day.. hope we'll have a fun time. and my uni essays are still half past six/not done.

haha i just browsed thru my blog archives and found that I wrote this on 16 June : “mugging is so tiresome and boring. how i'm going to last until november is a mystery to me.” and it's the start of december already. how time flies. it always seems like forever until it's over and then where has the time gone?

how do i find something unique about myself? sometimes i don't even feel like i know myself. okay these are quite useless questions haha time to think.

haha i just watched save um's on playhouse disney for fun and discovered the show was on a dirty baby dino! haha was most amused. baby dino played in mud and then got all dirty and unhappy.. so its baby sitters had to call the save um's for help. after some fruitless scrubbing, baby dino cried and its tears washed its face clean so yippee they realised water makes dirt turn to mud so its easier to clean off! haha. it was really funny lar. i think i'm deprived k nvm. light amusement.

aiyah. i feel so unoriginal and cliched when i'm writing my essays. i need a better brain. so much for instilling creativity i don't feel like i've any in me. grr. maybe if i buy myself an opal and stare at it the changing colours will inspire me haha. pathetic excuses.

ooh. finally got berkeley app done [terribly last minute i must say, like a lot of things i do:s] and got my gown! haha. i really have expensive taste *shakes head* but was quite funky lar the designer was there and advised on how to wear the gown and stuff like that.. for the moment i felt so rich and pampered haha got personal advisor.. anyway i still have to get necklace and i think i'm done! yay..

anyway. i must say i really don't like last minute thingys. i remember waking up and feeling this horror at the fact that i'd have to get up and face my essay [which is still unsatisfactory actually] AGAIN. oh well at least it's done.. hopefully it got in on time and everyth'll be fine n i didn't waste my money.

and i was the latest for a*star oops. at least i went. better late than never? i hope so anyway. and hardly saw many pple i knew.. looks like most pple are interested in firefly/psc rather than a*star huh. but they're really very sciencey. n tt gal ended up telling us abt illinois instead of a*star.. like trying to promote US education.. like anyone needs to do tt.. everyone wants to go already. i think i've said that b4. oh well. and then i was thinking they really don't bother much about leadership stuff.. some of their presenters were SO soft.. could hardly hear them speaking lar. which makes quite a change from the normal scholarship requirements.

ah i'm so glad taufik won:) he's really versatile. and his voice control is terrific! heh. i thought the show focussed too much on the 2 of them tho i was getting really bored of seeing them only.. wanted to see more of the final 11.. i mean like we've been seeing these 2 for 6 months and the rest for maybe 3 only or so? on average. was nice to see all 11 take to the stage though. miss jeassea and beverly and david. they're really good lar. besides the fact that beverly doesn't seem v gd with public relations heh. anyway i thought jeassea n bev did the independent woman song quite well..

owch. neckache. i shall do more essays tmr. and i shall break the cycle of sleeping past 1am tonight hopefully

ooh. tired. i've been out 3 consecutive days [well, half days?] and i'm quite tired. will be just glad to stay at home tomorrow n sort out my stuff.. and get rest.. haha..

anyway.. planning movie outings is so difficult!! sigh.. okay lar its prob cos i went to sign up for all manner of scholarship tea sessions n got stuff on n etc tts why. no lar actually the fri outing was quite okay. partly cos lijia helped me msg py n joon:) and nxt fri was quite easy too just call all 3. but now i dun even noe if the movie's showing aiyoh:s nvm lar we'll still have fun bumming around:) the good old french immersion days.. scotch-tape cutting skills anybody? ah but none of them read my blog so nvm..

today ah.. ooh i liked lunch loads haha:p it was good eating w everyone:) too bad aud, candice n chelsea weren't around.. wud've been more complete in a way. umm lemme see well pool was funny.. my aiming a bit off today tho heh must be the lack of practice. i wish i had a table like denise [choong]. haha. and her wonderful resort house. but that's out of point. fiona's so cute haha. and ser u're actually quite okay wat i dun see why u keep saying u're lousy.

anyway. yay. tmr is a day at home finally. so funny.. nvm i shall attempt to compile my quotes hopefully. and have a nice slackish time. aiyah am not thinking already.. somehow writing uni app thingies is interesting in a way but tedious in other ways.. i guess it's been a long time since i sat down and wrote non-gp essays haha.