hakuna matata

wow. i'm free. it hasn't really set in fully but i'm so glad i don't have to come back and hit the books anymore. for a few months haha:D but chem s wasn't fantastic lar. i shouldn't have spent so much time vacillating about which qn to do and end up leaving so many marks blank. sigh. and i should have done organic 1st instead of panicking at physical cos mind wasn't v clear to start with. hope everyth goes fine tho *prays v hard*

anyway had a few interesting discussions with eunice today while walking around trying to find mom's present. [unsuccessfully i might add]. like how sometimes u don't know if things u remember are just the snapshots that u took, or that u really remember wat u saw there in ur mind. i don't really know how to explain it. and sometimes when you have dreams that are so real, u start to wonder.. what is reality anyway? or i do sometimes at any rate.

and i was telling her that i feel so sorry for children today.. it's like all those pre-school nurturing classes and wat not.. and have to cultivate entrepreneurial spirit so they've to start doing stuff and come up with business ideas and all sorts of rubbish.. there's no joy in being a child! where's the fun gone? do children still know how to play? i mean i remember things like my mom letting me go visit my neighbour and play at her house for a while then must come back n do work later.. or going to the cc with my brother n neighbours to play badminton and stuff like tt.. it doesn't seem like pple do tt nowadays. [okay these i really remember, nothing to do with photos] and they're all stuck to computer games and wat not. but again since i don't have a younger sibiling or anything i wouldn't really know wats happening generally but the impression i get is really sad.

anyway. feels good to be free. i can finally sleep without worrying [hopefully] and wake up anytime i like! woohoo!~ i have been forcing myself to sleep less for these past few weeks i think. out of desperation. i really hope it pays off. sometimes i really think wat emilyn said is right: here, mediocrity is a sin.

ok lar shouldn't be so melancholic. ka [new show by cirque du soleil] opens today! woohoo!~ maybe that's a good sign for me:) i shall order their cd. or maybe i should make my bro buy for me haha perhaps shipping within usa is easier. anyway. happiness! for now anyway;)

argh. horrible biotech paper yesterday - i was laughing while thinking of how to explain for 3 marks how one colouring is extracted from a named organism. i think the girl sitting nxt to me frm 3e i think? must have thought i'd gone berserk. anyway i ended up writing something really vague about crushing cochineal beetles so maybe they'll be kind and gimme 2 marks for that? haha. crazy cambridge lar how'd u expect us to know.. maybe if we write something halfway sensible they'll be satisfied.

now for math s. sigh. i can't believe how stupid i was.. not to realise how to do integration by substitution until time was up. and forgetting mr chan's nicely-stapled paper on my stats assignment! crumbs.. tt'd have cost me like 5 marks or sth. this is not a time when one can afford to forget things, given i didn't do that many marks in the 1st place. anyway. i'm just praying i get an m at least.. sigh. shattered dreams. there's only chem s left to dream about. and work for.

so i've 4 more papers. and then i'm finally free! but there's physics to get thru 1st, bio to pull up my so far horrendous papers. aahh. disillusioned. i think i'm going to get constant nightmares about horrible results. which hopefully won't materialise. i'd prefer my results to be a pleasant surprise thanks very much.

but it was nice to see yongjeng today, been ages since i met choir j1s.. tho i kinda pity them for 5 o'clock pracs during holidays heh. but again they've the whole day to slack so why'm i being sympathetic? haha. and can go for supper aft tt somemore. k it's not such a bad deal aft all.

ohh i had this weird dream about choir 2 days back i think. j2s went back to join j1s and then din memorise songs properly so the lyrics all disappeared. it was quite terrible actually. and i thought ms low/mr toh were going to start scolding and then i can't remember wat else happened. and yest's weird dream was connected to the 7o'clock ch8 show. and somehow there were labrador/golden retriever puppies featured haha. sth like quill. very queer.. must be my overstressed mind.

hmm. i think i'm very harsh on myself. i was really really fuming at myself some time after the malay woman said no more writing.. cos i realised how stupid i was putting an obviously wrong answer for the zinc+acid thing. gah. then later whined to serene and fiona whined to me then felt bit better knowing i'm not the only one who screwed up. haha. anyway. last week! it's [to quote ser] a frightening week though. as it was yesterday i was suddenly thinking wat if nxt yr i go get results and end up with b's n c's then i'm done for. aiyah. everyth's worrying. just pray and pray and pray that everyth'll end up fine.

yeah. frightening week of bio paper 3 + phys paper 3 [i really hope these go better than the paper 2] + 2 s papers + phys design [i hope these go better than prelims if not i'm done for also] + bio mcq. sigh. i foresee a stressful week. at least after that we'll be free. in a way. haha. then i'll have to do berkeley apps already:s super last minute lar oh well wat to do.

and then i shall go buy myself lots of cds haha:D and new clothes and such. oh yes and i'll have to get myself to exercise if not i can't fit into my clothes anymore with all the snacking.

oh i heard the ben1 track frm sun yan zi's new cd on the advert.. it's a bit rockish or sth? i should really learn to differentiate btwn the genres. anyway it's so unlike her. but it's different. quite interesting.

ooh i've also decided i like songs frm musicals.. this is the moment frm dr jekyll n mr hyde! that taufik sang yesterday.. oh sly's performance of music of the night was really sad lar.. cannot make it lar go sing chinese pop.

okay since i haven't blogged since saturday here i am. wasn't planning to blog actually but nevermind. physics was rather nightmarish. okay it wasn't that bad but wasn't fantastic. maybe cos i didn't prepare v well hum. and was slightly panicky. and rusty. and therefore unsure of answers.

anyway like i always say, ignorance is bliss. how'd you know the majority's correct anyway? i think tt was my philosophy for o's and recently readopted thanks to weiying's advice haha:D to quote her she "always runs away after exams" so can't compare answers.

ahh. i want to go out. i decided peiying's way of looking at everyth is quite good haha. she told me while waiting for parents to come. there's only one week left! and after that we've 9 months before going back to school haha. [even tho i was predisposed to taking the gloomy view and telling her we've to do biotech n s papers this weekend]

yesterday was napping at 1+ [pm] and didn't wanna get up! so comfy:) and then it started raining later. hais. but i had to get up cos my physics was half baked. i'm not sure it isn't now sigh. it's such a joke sometimes all you learn for 2 years and they don't test u on half of it anyway. maybe they should come up with other ways besides exams to gauge abilities and i don't mean project work. i remember this essay in the gp bulletin about how exams aren't a true reflection of how well the student will be able to cope in the working world. so so true.

anyway enough of exams.. freedom! sigh. lucky candice's sister.. her last paper is tmr! incidentally it's also chem mcq. i think i'll always remember 26 nov. end of o levels in the afternoon. and now end of a levels in the evening too. of cos it's also candice[cheng]'s bday haha. haven't seen her in ages!

oh surprisingly i think i'll miss rj. kind of. and our crazy lessons n teachers n classmates n lecturers. not in that order though. i shall compile my quotes. oh here's one i found rather amusing [sorry ser:p]
in sec 4: bio teacher mrs lee asks "wat precautions should you take while counting bubbles?"
ser "don't blink"

lemme go dig out a few more to amuse myself
ohh here's another. during farewell assembly i was sitting with sarah n her bball fren then mr chan [math] walked past. n sarah's fren asked "Mr chan why checkered shirt today ah?" then he replied [quick as lightning i might add] "graph paper"
it was really apt cos it was a white shirt with black (or grey or sth) lines criss-crossing. ah basically it really did look like graph paper with huge squares haha.

one day during bio lect: ser "don't you think candice looks like a christmas tree in red (her sweater) and green (RJ skirt)?"
candice turns around "i HEARD that"
me "being angry won't make you look any less like a christmas tree" [at this pt fiona i think scolded me for being mean. but let me defend myself, i didn't agree with ser, i was just making a point:]

eunice while presenting current affairs about civet cats with SARS in china [this was last yr]
"you kill it while it's alive"

last one for the day.. mr chan [bio] 's view on our Mt Sinai campus being used for NUS High Sch or whoever it is.. "it's a mighty big school for 100 students.. you could literally stuff one student in each toilet!"

was extremely annoyed this morning.. i think i woke up at 6 and then 8 and finally 9.30. was terribly annoyed cos i couldn't sleep properly due to itchy mosquito bites.. got up.. my mom made me eat sweet potato for breakfast [and i absolutely hate it] and then i went to put on insect repellent to prevent repeat of the mosquito bites.. ended up getting some on my watch which caused part of the strap to dissolve.. which served to anger me further.. there's really nothing like waking up on the wrong side of the bed. anyway so i had to avoid touching anything plastic and was getting v paranoid abt stuff. and very frustrated.

at least i think i'm fine now after eating my ice cream n listening to some music [i shall go buy somemore cds aft a's! haha.. have just discovered nice new site - www.soothingmusic.com i haven't figured out wat the track playing is though]

aiyah! i'm so annoyed at math... can't believe i just assumed it was finding inverse instead of derivative and didn't realise even when wondering why the range was asked only later.. ugh.. sometimes i'm SO smart. bah. and bio was not nice. i figured i mite end up with 71 for the paper! groan. this is partly audry's fault for worrying and influencing me. haha.

yay i finally got lots of sleep for the first time in weeks, decided if i dun sleep i mite end up sick n tts certainly not good. i suddenly feel melancholic too haha. i want to buy all the cirque du soleil music cds. well maybe not all lar only those which are good:D

was listening to e piano concert cd frm eons ago.. such memories haha. okay wasn't eons lar but 3 yrs is quite a bit. i havent' played piano for months i realise.. better practise hard after a's haha. i think my fingers have lost any agility they ever possessed.. typing is just not the same.

alright better stop slacking. on monday night while mugging bio/math i suddenly felt like going shopping! haha. but then when i go shopping i'll be bored anyway. weird clar. and then last night i was reading excerpts frm gerald durrell on the nice food and started thinking i wanted to learn how to cook yummy things n told my mom then she sed i wudn't feel like cooking if it's just for myself so i should go be a chef. which is true so i think when i want nice food i'll just buy it haha. so lazy. oh well. but true it's not efficient to spend all the time/energy getting ingredients and cooking and having to wash up then only one person eats.

feel v restless. and my bill is going to be astronomical this month! augh. as it it i've passed the 300 mark and it's only 10th of nov. partly cos i get bored. haha. then suddenly i'll get sick of smsing. and then my phone buttons aren't responding properly particularly the 7 button. most annoying. time for new phone! after a's

aughhh i dont know wat i'm going to do if results're not good lar. sigh. and it's not like i'm not trying my best. i think? haha. dunno lar. and i miss everyone. how tragic.

ugh i seem to have a problem with my sleep pattern. nap in afternoon, spend one hr slacking b4 i sleep, end up waking up at 7.30 cos it's so freaking bright, get v angry n refuse to wake up so early, try to sleep until 9sth, wake up still v unhappy. i shall attempt to change that today if not i'll be annoyed the whole week. i mean, when one can't even sleep in peace it's time to do something about it.

i suppose i kind of slept my worries away but i think they' re going to come back today when i rediscover my incompetency in tackling a level problems. sigh. no matterin which subject. very tedious. being cooped up within 4 walls does things to you. and yes i know it's my fault for not wanting to exercise either haha well.

anyway so cool! yahoo has a special banner for halloween. if that's wat u call it. i saved the pic yay:D quite a funky gif.

i was just thinking about "o" by cirque du soleil. it is truly a work of art. and then i'm thinking why isn't it possible not to work and just enjoy. but i guess one'd get sick of it after a while. and i think my perceptions of work are too hollywood-based. the power of the media. and sometimes when i'm pessimistic it feels like happiness wasn't meant for me. but of cos tts only cos i'm stuck mugging for the nxt month as usual.

wat a train of disjointed thoughts. so what has 2 yrs of jc given me? i really wonder.. esp tt day i was reading my autographs. i think i've said it before though. i seem to have changed. and not necessarily for the better. so much for never-ending patience and such. or maybe pple just write things that sound nice. nowadays i get annoyed at the slightest things so easily. though i may not necessarily show it. well maybe i'll be fine after everyth is done with.

comment on spore idol: it's quite pathetic actually.. the judges are like solitary individuals sitting there.. they've no camaraderie so it's really boring when they're commenting. i mean the show's about the singers [who aren't actually that wonderful either haha sadly] but it's also about the host [who isn't fantastic but probably one of the best one can find here] and the judges and how they interact. big problem: they don't interact. in my opinion anyway. i was trying to figure out why idol gets stale. and the themes are boring/singers can't bring the style out v well.

okay i should stop complaining. i think chem prac gave me a headache.

i'm so dead. kinda like equate not finishing a paper to suicide, especially when it's a's. i hate double indicators.. didn't know where the end point was.. am just praying that i estimated correctly.. the 2 tables make up 15marks lar if my accuracy's gone i'm done for.. esp when i didnt' finish both designs.. which is like 8marks gone. and i dunno if my qa is correct, anyhow whacked.

alrite i feel a bit better after complaining to lots of pple. thanks everyone:)

blah. these few days i've not felt like waking up. just want to sleep and sleep and forget about all the nasty things. dont' feel like doing anything. maybe it'll disappear after monday.

but really after a's i'll be probably stuck at home doing uni apps/scholarship apps anyway. bleah. it'll never end. oh and yesterday i suddenly thought of the shops at metro stations overseas [actually it was specifically those in france] and missed france + immersion all over again. quite weird the way things just appear in my mind sometimes. i want a holiday again! heh. wishful thinking. there's a long way to go before holidays come. hais.

oh and i've been in the "i'm studying for prelims" mode for so long that i still keep thinking its prelims. although i think somewhere in the back of my mind i noe it's a's.. but the 1st thing tt comes to mind is still prelims.

the pure cinema chillout cd my dad got for free is quite nice!:D recognise some songs frm opera band/bond though.. the way they copy songs is scandalous. okay i suppose it's called modifying but watever it just seemed like copying to me at the moment.

i think i'm never satisfied. that's gd and bad. rowls. i've realised taking photos is actually quite fun.. memories and such? anyway the way baoyi posts all her pics on her blog is quite cool:)

bio prac was disastrous. i don't think i was thinking v clearly. if not i wudn't have drawn the wrong genetic diagram.. can't believe how stupid i was. and started panicking. this paper was kinda unexpected somehow.. only 1 slide. somehow feel like prelims were better. which is not good. esp cos this prac had a lot of open-ended qns, meaning there's a whole lot more room for deduction when u don't explain enough. which is v likely to happen given how i always miss out on main points/keywords.

yeah. and instead of drawing tissue map i drew in the nuclei as well.. forgot lar. totally screwed. let me see wat else.. my tube 4 didn't change colour so i faked a bit at the end. watever lar. not my problem it didn't wanna change. and then all the explanation things.. yeah.. possibly will minus quite a few marks. and that explaining why rice grains don't have same length. i forgot sec 4 work lar stuff abt how it's frm diff plants and wat not. just vaguely talked abt e minor genes and environmental conditions. totally sucky. sigh.

that just about sums it up, some parts of each qn are all screwed. yup. so lovely.

hum. i will learn to do things more in advance in the future. this always happens. but anyway farewell assembly was alright lar. not fantastic. tho i dunno wat i expected. it was so so hot in the hall.. boring.. and i was getting a headache towards the middle of the thing.. but john made a really gd speech though. at least my interest was held. or maybe i'm biased. but whatever it is i think he'll achieve a lot.

umm. yeah. spent the 1st part of the evening rushing about madly getting last minute uni app stuff done. and now i realised something else which might give me some problems. baah. pray for help. worries abound! what to do.

i hope my photos get developed soon. haha pity the one with the guys is in the new roll and won't be developed for some time.. hope it turns out nice! dunno if we moved when serene took the picture. and i think sarah sed me n mrs cheong look alike. humm. i suppose it's the ponytail haha.

today was a bit awkward actually. also partly cos i was sleepy [dunno how come though]. haven't talked to them for a long time so felt a bit weird. anyway i came home and slept a LOT. sigh. my energy level leaves much to be desired.

oh! i din noe smrt took over trans island oops. anyway. the doorbell or watever u call it on the bus was getting on my nerves.. its so loud and jangly and ummm cacophonous. dissonant! yeah that was is. here i was trying to sleep [the seat was rather uncomfortable too i shud bring a pillow w me everywhere i go haha] but every few stops i'd be rudely jarred awake. now tt doesn't sound grammatically correct but nvm. dinnertime. wish i hadn't slept so much if not maybe we'd had gone out to eat jap food. heh.

ahh. haven't found time to sit down and blog abt yesterday. apart from slightly screwing up sats and very uptight while doing the papers it was a nice day!:) whee~

mamma mia was wonderful!!! haha. -goes into ecstasies- come to think of it i can't really pinpoint wat was so good. but i dunno.. the energy level was v high.. e singers/actors were superb [altho i din like the guys playing the dads] and i figured esther hannaford played sophie cos it was matinee performance.. but her voice is nice! and she's a really gd dancer.. wud have liked to see kellie rode act too tho o well can't have everyth..

anyway like i was telling candice i was disillusioned by the cd! sigh. london cast doesn't sound as good as australian cast:( maybe cos of the way it's recorded or sth.. quite sad. but now i'm hooked on abba songs haha they're quite funky actually:D yay

thankew everyone for ur bday wishes!:) and presents! haha. clar is a v happy gal:) [apart frm worrying abt a's / uni apps]

ooh. pleasant surprises:) didn't expect half of my presents.. but thank you everybody:)

unfortunately i woke up worrying about my sat 2s cos i don't feel particularly well prepared for them and i cannot deprove from may sats. bleah. and then mrs lim says she's overloaded with recommendations and can't write for me. or rather, will only write if it's absolutely necessary. therefore i am in a fix. which is of cos, my fault as usual. and as usual, i regret a lot of things. really the amount of things i regret is innumerable. and now i'm wondering if amount is singular or plural.. aaargh.

nvm tmr i'm watching mamma mia! whee~:) n there's this dim sum thingy which i don't know when it will take place [somehow that sentence sounds grammatically incorrect to me too] i shouldn't be such a busy person.. oh well. wat to do. i should go and do something constructive. been sleeping the week away!

humm. i guess i'm satisfied. just pray they won't moderate such that my grades drop. yeah. of cos it would be nice if they moderate phys by a LOT. but i guess that isn't going to happen unless i'm really lucky. so well. i'm okay i guess. not fantastic but passable.

so. everything's done and its back to mugging. seems like we never had much of a break. but what can i say.. such is the life of any jc2 student right now i guess. i shall go swim. for once in dunno how many weeks. or months.

how now brown cow. i'm wondering wat a merit for chem s is now.. to miss it by 2 marks would be hell. if only i could transfer marks from math over to chem s/phys/chem in that order of increasing marks needed. so much for the math mark.. it doesn't seem to make up for everyth else. i don't know lar. tmr bio n math s. wat's betting i'll end up with another ungraded. it's so unfair. but what else did i expect come to think of it.

aiyah nvm i guess i'm just full of ill feeling. tho yes, it probably won't matter in the long run. but how'm i going to apply to uni like that? bleahhh. its not good to expect too much of urself sometimes. disappointment is too severe. fall down frm the clouds with a huge plop. the harsh sound of reality.

maybe i should go think about maths. but wat's the pt? aceing math c doesn't equal aceing math s. ah watever it's all decided already anyway. hopeless. watever. i'll go do something else. and am extremely tired n headachey. why in the world i chose to do sats this sat is a mystery to me. horrible bday week.

the aura of depression. i suppose my marks were actually quite okay but its more like wat else i'm going to see tmr. worried for phys and bio. and s papers:s i guess i can't really do anyth about them. but am really quite relieved for gp. n chem was. well. expected i suppose. given that i realise i spent most of my time on phys/bio. hope i do fine.

and there's something else which is bugging me. which i can't exactly blog. but well. i wonder if we really deserved that. i hope it doesn't affect my recommendations hmm not that they're going to be spectacular in the 1st place. dunno how also lar probably end up staying here n doing med/law at the rate everything is going.

had a fun time w lyd chris pam py yest:) luckily i don't think i'm burnt haha cream helps:D if not i'd end up with a red nose/cheeks/forehead today.. i wanted to see dolphins tho! oh well. but cost like $17.50 n i dun think anyone else wud've wanted to spend the $$. pity.

lyd's so cute.. cos we saw lots of dogs at siloso beach n i was delighted at seeing this v cute labrador in the water n she sed "i'm sorry u dun have a dog.. nxt time when i'm rich i'll buy u one.." something to that effect anyway. n candice thinks she should buy me one for my bday too. oh well. and there was the lyd-bullying-pam-into-buying-subway-cookie for us and lyd-whining-at-pam-to-buy-her-mango-pudding incident..

really silly. while me n chris had to listen to pam's silly taxi driver ghost story twice and peiying throwing her cherish tissue at pam. the cat-stuck-under-the-wardrobe story was funnier than the ghost story i think. i've a bunch of sec sch classmates as silly as i am haha:p nice feeling. pity joon n lijia n claire didn't come..

feeling rather out of sorts. lots to think about. i figured i only think when i'm sitting in the car actually. okay fine during journeys.

quote from church bulletin today. "those of great minds discuss ideas, people of mediocre minds discuss events and those of smaller minds discuss other people" frm god's psychiatry by dr charles allen. interesting isn't it. room for discussion alright.

let me go try cheer myself up. i think its the anticipation of my impending doom that has affected my mood. hmm.

hmm. finally free. and i don't feel any happier. worrying abt wat i'm going to get for chem s. and normal chem. feel like i left a whole lot more blanks than anyone else. dunno lar. and i forgot wat i studied. how typical. dread nxt week:(

anyway.. so went w eunice to town n had lunch.. haha i was spouting so much rubbish i bet she'll be complaining on mon to candice abt how crazy clar was :p oh well. post prelim stress. anyway was v tempted to buy a harp or a choral cd. but couldn't decide [wat's new] so gave up the idea.

hmm. okay i finally bought my hair stuff.. which i've been needing for months but never got round to it cos i've been cooped up at home. the only times i leave the house = sundays to go to church or to go to sch on exam days/mugging days.

quite bored actually. think reading will alleviate that. and for once i can watch whole of spore idol tonite! yeah!!:):) haha. i keep calling it american idol somehow.. dunno.. out of habit i sppose. oh well. i like daphne!:) she has a unique voice anyhow. hope she sings a nice song tonight:) maia n jeassea are funky too.

oh i saw the ad for shark tale! if that's the name hmm. it looks quite cute:) and i saw the storybook at borders.. but i wanted to see the pics more than read the story.. too wordy. haha. but it seems too much like monsters inc/finding nemo. dunno. will see how. i never intended to watch finding nemo until i read the review. oh i saw the quill vcd at kino!:) v happy:D haha. oh princess diaries 2 looks promising too. but i bet it'll come out during a's sigh will be stuck at home mugging AGAIN. so sick of it. but it doesn't seem like i've been doing much. so how? hais.

oh yeah and was talking to eunice on the bus.. figured that all the tv shows and movies are so formulaic nowadays. like. reality tv shows are the only things showing and i really hate them. besides idol. haha. and then shows like white chick. it's not the 1st time u've guys cross dressing.. now skin colour changes too. quite sick.. and pathetic toilet humour.. really doesn't cut it.

the most impt thing and i forgot!! i was utterly horrified today... at borders.. i really shouldn't wander around bookshops alone in sch u hmm.. anyway.. i was trying to look for some wodgehouse book to see wat's it all abt.. and then while staring at the bookshelf.. this face suddenly popped up in front of me and started singing. how absolutely ghastly. i was wondering why this psycho had to approach poor defenseless ME of all pple and looked around desperately for help. i had this vague idea tt maybe some assistant could get rid of this nutcase for me. but anyway.. after a while i recognised the tune of the sch song and therefore laughed politely and retreated back one/two steps. and this guy bombarded me with all sorts of qns :
"pre u wat?" "on scholarship?" "going to apply for scholarship?" "going to university?" "wat course?" "how many 1's for o's?"
he looked like around 50 to me.

wasn't really intending to blog but clicked wrongly n ended up here so i guess i'll blog anyway haha. woke up at like 10.30 (such a pig) went to sch to mug. woahhh my knowledge is sadly lacking.. feel it more acutely when i'm sitting nxt to yz who'll probably top the chem s paper with flying colours.. i told him i'd pay him to take my papers for me:D

i just can't apply knowledge. failure student. haha. so much for education in the correct sense. actually maybe i'm just too lazy to think. which is very probable. costs too much energy to exert myself. haha. okay i sound like a real pig. which i am sometimes. oh well. must switch.. where's my fairy godmother when i need one?

ohh. and pple are scary. restarting mugging so fast. when all i want to do is burn up all my files and never look at them anymore [unless its to compile quotes:p]. but i suppose when i get back my prelim papers i will have to mug whether i want to or not. sigh. an interminable 2 months [minus 2 days] left.

i need a change in attitude fast. how bout a break? i think tt'll work. just wait till thurs.. and sat! haha. gd ole lyd. so cute. let's go rollerblading! ok! and we're settled. i can't believe aud sed she has to get back by 12 to watch liu xing hua yuan tho. at least she isn't a fan of f4. reminds me of tt incredibly bad joke dr chan made last yr during chem prac abt "wat's half of f9?" or sth like that. if only i had such a gd memory for academics.

i think i want to eat waffles [w ice cream! haha bet cheukka will laugh she sed i'm such a little gal.. always wanting to eat ice cream. oh well. its nice wat:] on thursday.. ooh am listening to tracks frm candice's acapella cd. the harmony is so lovely.

alrite i have to go read organic chem again. my lack of knowledge is really appalling. and i really don't like inorganic chem. eew: =shudders=

oh. joke i found on my chem s bklet
eunice "i think i'm going nuts!"
raphael "then squirrels will love you"

haha. math s. wat a joke. i wanted to walk out of the hall at 9.30am/just give up. looked all the qns all can't do! how? also managed to make a whole lot of spastic mistakes n totally confused myself. well done clar. and surprisingly i managed to rush out the vectors qn in like 15mins and i think it's correct. *prays* most of my qns were half done. or less than half done for that matter. let's see. i finished the qn 1, 5 and 11. that's about it. yay.

i just hope i don't get ungraded.

now for chem s. the list of organic reactions is so long i regret not studying earlier. regret is a terrible feeling. which has been plagueing me since prelims started. wat a lesson to learn. at least s papers are slightly less stressful than main papers i think. hmm. tho very much harder such that even if you have the time it isn't always helpful

haha today's class was funny. i feel quite bad actually keep laughing and not listening properly. but i can figure out for myself wat he's trying to say. and i write down watever which makes sense/answers the qn. and then i dunno lar.. just don't like it when tchers don't prep properly b4 coming in and then end up with us all confused. okay to be fair i think he did his best but well just realised i get quite annoyed by inept tchers. i suppose at least if you try yr best that'll be the minimum to do.

anyway i really wonder if they didn't laugh that much last week. and if so because i wasn't around. oh well. but really.. it's not my fault eunice comes n tells us about her picture bible with the picture of the beam in a boy's eye a.k.a. a branch sticking out of the boy's eye with LEAVES! hahaha. daryl decided it'll be a tree. so i asked "where'll the roots go?" and they came up with all sorts of gruesome possibilities. like roots wrapping around the eyeball and all that. they're so cute. anyway the laughing put me in a gd mood haha so am happy now! now to attack math s. hais.

oh i suddenly dreamt of rg last nite must be cos of em's post. anyhow i miss mrs kwan so much. i think it's because she really cares. and she believes in you when you don't believe in yourself. which happens so many times in jc it's difficult to count. when everything comes crashing down. even tho we used to complain abt her nagging in rg now it's different. not that mrs cheong's not nice.. she's probably the best ct one could hope for:) oh n i miss laoshi too. all the times i had extra lessons with her heh.

anyway better take advantage of my good mood and go attack my math s with a vengeance. thanks to everyth who msged to tell me to take care! feel much much better and can eat properly liao tho still not v much:) which is also good. haha.

hmm. i wonder wat everyone's doing now. for at least half of my batchmates' prelims are over.. it doesn't feel like that to me. anyway. i must say i derived some sort of sadistic pleasure [for a while.. after tt it got too painful haha] frm seeing the numbers on my thermometer skip and wondering how far it would go. so the highest i reached was 39.1! fantastic huh. and half the time i don't even noe when i've a fever. most interesting. like i'll just be thinking "okay my head hurts wat's new" and then mom will come n touch my forehead and exclaim n make me take my temp.

oh yeah and wed nite was awfully torturous, stomach was so queasy i couldn't sleep properly.. for the 1st 4 hrs formulae were chasing themselves around my head.. dreamt tt i cudn't do my chem/math s prelims nxt week.. so finally woke up and ended up vomitting. spontaneous expulsion. and after that still couldn't sleep properly cos my feet were numb. weirdly. finally went to see doc the nxt morning cos i cudn't eat/drink anyth w/o vomitting..

injection helped, medicine did too. the wonders of medicine. within 15mins of taking the fever medicine my temp went down! ah. anyway. hope bio was alrite even tho i was still slightly woozy:s i spent most of yest sleeping i think. had to wake up early to study [with a headache again n didn't noe i had a fever until mom came along haha i'm quite hopeless]

spent most of yesterday and today sleeping. haha. such a pig. o well.

i wish i could just throw down everyth and go somewhere else. WHY does this have to happen.. i can practically see all the horrible grades now.. it also doesn't help that shaun told me tt paper 2 chem's spposed to be harder than paper 3. which was actually supposed to be easy. therefore i'm even more dead. and chem s? haha. forget about it. i can see why serene wanted to get into an accident b4 prelims haha.

biotech. it also wud have been okay if i'd looked thru industrial biotech last night instead of flipping thru this morning. n focussing so much on med last nite. cos i ended up mixing up the microorganisms. so my essay's totally screwed. and i din write abt disadvantages of enzyme immobilisation. but how else? i dunno if i cud have remembered 8m worth of seed bank or crap out 12m worth of ethics in biotech. maybe i cud. then there's another wrong decision. seem to have no lack of them nowadays.

i really dread the weeks after prelims. which equals to time to get back results. i can't bear to not improve frm last common tests but now it seems so impossible. talk about nightmares of all the worst case scenarios. n i'll still have to pull myself back to study for sats. actually if i get horrible results there won't be much point doing sats. hmm. waste $$ only. n i'm in desperate need of sleep.

this is not the 1st time i wish we cud fast foward to nxt yr sept in an ideal situation: time to go off to some nice uni.

bah. so far i think math was the only okay paper. now that i think about it, i've no idea wat i've been doing for the past 2(?) months. i thought i was revising but can't seem to remember much, everyth's so fuzzy.

chem was a disaster. was really in the depths of despair yesterday. bio wasn't much better. even though i thought it ought to have been better after all the time i spent catching up [and neglecting chem and i'm going to pay for that. a really high price. considering i conveniently forgot chem dept sets the most killer papers] my stupidity astounds me. i really don't noe wat's wrong.. maybe i didn't practise enough or sth. then wat've i been doing? don't know.

yeah and now time management problem is back. i thought i'd figured that out for the last 2 common tests but now its a whole new format and everyth's back where it began. last yr's common test. my prelim grades had better be much better than those grades though. it's like zhini said. u walk out of the exam hall and "rite. so that was a prelim paper." a.k.a. superbly dead. don't know what to do. all the papers seem so screwed up. n i still have 2.5 more weeks to go.

and s papers! haha. those i'm even more dead for. i really need divine intervention... wanna quit sch now

bah. don't feel particularly well yet my thermometer tells me i'm fine. general malaise. maybe it's the haze haha. everyone was sniffing today. well alot of pple anyway.

anyway i felt kind of sorry for bible class tcher today.. his 1st time teaching us and the lesson seemed to be turning into a joke. he was teaching on sin and suddenly came up with a proverb on how "you can't stop the bird from shitting on you but u can stop it frm building a nest on ur head". now what that was supposed to illustrate still eludes me, but it was really funny somehow. and i wonder where it originated from [if it is a true proverb hum] if anyone knows please enlighten me

and then later he started talking about how an egg has microscopic holes in the shell.. for wat? jasmine ventures an explanation : to respire? which set me off in a fit of silent laughter again. partly cos i didn't noe why he suddenly mentioned an egg, and partly bcos i suddenly visualised this egg living and breathing [excluding the embryo i mean]. sort of reminded me of tjh's qn in sec 4 abt whether babies had gills to breathe.

anyway so later one of my bible classmates remarked in an undertone "does he like birds a lot? just now talk abt birds, now talk abt eggs". helpless laughter. n e fren nxt to me [who happens to be called daryl haha] apologised for killing me [by making me laugh at various silly things such as complaining tt she was hungry aft he mentioned eggs and wanting to volunteer to read verses in a dramatic manner - apparently she's in drama club so hmm okay]

yeah i thought we weren't being v gd students. like. were laughing at his pronunciation sometimes which actually is kind of unfair but o dear cudn't help it. enticed became "enteesed" and such. feel quite bad abt it lar i cudn't stop laughing half the time. hopefully he didn't notice:s

oh yar and last week another tcher told us about how some pple have mysterious lord's supper. they apparently have lord's supper in a garden. they go and hide in the bushes. and run out and take the lord's supper and rush back into the bushes. cos last time christians were persecuted they had to hide in the caves [somewhere in hebrews] so they commemorate it or sth. his description was quite graphic. said they find it very exciting.

i guess my imagination was particularly graphic cos i was the most amused. i mean. thinking of pple crouched in the bushes, bright and beady-eyed like chipmunks waiting for their chance to steal nuts, scurrying out and back into the safety of the bushes.

okay i hope i didnt insult anyone here. one never knows.

ohh the french choir show was quite nice.. tho i thot they shud have gone for a competition like sister's act but well. yeah. kinda similar to sister's act actually. and when i heard the choir.. was swamped by this bout of choir-sickness. and the boy sop! ahh. i mean not perfect but so crystal clear.

hais. bio was actually an okay paper. if i'd prepared adequately for it. and read instructions properly. can't believe i didn't suspect something was wrong with the hydrogen peroxide-filter paper expt and ended up faking results. [faked wrongly sort of.. given that my timings were totally off] well maybe they'll give me sympathy marks.

seem to be taking this as just a prep. but i can't do that! bcos it matters! which my bro was trying to drill into me that day. aagh. i shall go take a nap. cheukka's rite, prelims wun matter nxt time. but rite now it certainly doesn't seem like it. esp when i manage to screw up everyth possible.

its so funny how pple used to say they wish i had my self discipline/patience. i don't feel like i possess either of these attributes anymore. maybe i used to 2 years ago. but now? nvm.. off i go to sleep

haha. so it just gets worse and worse. did i actually expect otherwise? *hollow laughs* well done clar u're definitely staying in spore if this goes on.. i'll probably have to get full marks for the rest of my papers rofl. which is impossible. so i'm done for. haha. yay!

oh raphael was hilarious.. while we were waiting for our shift in the hall then he was saying sth abt committing suicide if he couldn't do the chem prac.. [i.e. can't get the gas] break the burette and slash his wrist.. then fiona sed drink hexane.. haha.. then raphael said he'll switch on the gas tap.. "if i can't do the chem prac nobody will!" then later he improvised and said after switching on the gas tap he'll light the lighter [if that's the correct word] and boom! haha. no more sch. yay:)

anyway. so i made a superbly stupid mistake which will cost me at least 6 marks unless there's e.c.f. which is quite unlikely. and didn't finish the qa design. i think she sed we weren't spposed to write no visible reaction but i had no idea wat else to write. so maybe that's more marks gone. and then dunno how to present properly for kinetics reaction. qa didn't fill up quite a few of the deductions cos dunno wat's going on.. i've never seen bright green ppt in my life.. i mean okay fine there's blue frm copper and then wat else?? i don't think i've ever felt so desperate in my life [unless it was during phys prac last fri] when i got n = 34.

freak. i'm so dead. time to celebrate.

hmm most interesting day. firefly purposely puts the talks on education on germany/japan/china 1st so pple're forced to listen to them.. and then psc has like a 1.5 h video plus "talk-show by scholars" thingy and oh we're left off to have tea [curry puff n eclairs]. the ironic thing is that they keep trying to persuade pple to go overseas. of cos everyone wants to go overseas its a question of who can get in/who can get the means to go there... sigh.

and didn't really get to know about wat they actually do in the psc or in their various depts. okay besides the police guy who was quite detailed. ah. anyway.

after firefly mom picked me up and informed me that this guy came to get his comp repaired [apparently dad responded to some qn on a forum.. this guy wanted spare parts for a psion or sth] and brought his family along w/o informing my dad prior to it. actually i found it rather amusing at 1st tt my mom was faced with 3 extra pple to entertain but tt certainly changed when i got home.

so. opened the door and found 4 strangers in my house. -mildly annoyed- i mean isn't it like basic courtesy to tell pple [esp pple u don't even noe] u're gonna bring 3 extra pple along.. i've never heard of people bringing their family along to a stranger's hse.

so here we have 2 little boys [4 n 10 yrs old] who have nothing to occupy themselves with and therefore argue about which tv channel to watch [and make a lot of noise in the process] and a mom sitting on the sofa reading newspapers and a dad sitting at the dining table fiddling around with his phone. my house has been successfully invaded.

and then there was nothing for them to eat or drink or watever cos my mom din noe they were coming. n heard one of the boys say he wanted to open the fridge and find something to eat. erps. rite. at least they went off to the playground for a while. ended up eating lunch in bro's room. bah. on a side note i realised the illiad is really kind of hard to plough through. the overall storyline seems easier to understand heh.

anyhow they finally disappeared. yay. haha i sound so unhospitable. but really.. this is too much. like violation of human rights haha. maybe that's not the right word but i can't think of it at the moment. maybe i feel too strongly about stuff.

oh and i noe why i thought abt cirque du soleil. its like performance at its finest. but of cos behind the scenes there're lots of problems too just that you don't noe when you watch the show. all you see is the final product that has been honed to perfection. something i remembered from when i watched the making of varekai.

okay i've blogged such a long entry like there're no prelims better stop soon. am reading the nat'l day rally online and boy is spore gd at acronyms.. i've found 4 acronyms which i don't noe what they stand for.. and i'm hardly halfway thru reading. gets kind of annoying sometimes.

talk about a disastrous prac.. nightmare!!! arggh. i don't think i've ever had a worse one. stupid pendulum.. spent 20mins trying to tie the stupid thing [while sweating profusely cos fan wasn't on cos it was oscillations] and couldn't so i gave up n drew the table 1st.. went back to attacking the string and such.. in the end made so many mistakes.. such that after i discovered them i wrote them down so i'll remember not to do such stupid things for a level pracs. sigh.

watever.. i hope i do decently.. my dreams seem to be slipping away already with one exam down. haha. well done clar. oh and like andrew said.. phys prac is usually spposed to be the easiest.. and they kill us for it.. wat're chem n bio pracs gonna be like? n i haven't studied yet. *hollow laughs*

but it was quite cool lar today while we were waiting in LT5 someone frm jane's class taped singapore idol [hmm i keep typing american idol somehow] last nite n we watched a bit of it b4 being released. somehow i was thinking abt cirque du soleil. run away and join the circus! haha.

suddenly feel like listening to my enigma songs again. there's sth abt the drums/bass beat or watever u call it. wish i knew more abt music. ah well. i musn't be distracted now. having already screwed up 1 paper. oh and the guys sitting behind me were most annoying.. every sentence had to be punctuated with f- this n f- tt. unless i was imagining it. anyway i was tempted to throw something at them. like cursing and swearing is so cool. most disgusted. maybe cos the gp video was full of swear words too. watever..

just when i thought i'd gotten over it mom had to come and remind me of everyth all over again.. said she talked to my bro. which is so true. i don't have much to offer n for that i kind of regret. maybe i should just resign myself to my fate haha. moral of story [man i was going to type morale.. too much of dr chan.. haha] make e most out of jc life n don't regret at the end of your 2 years. i've never realised that so acutely until it really matters and it's too late.

weird how a few months before i'd just think i'll have a go at it and hope for the best. and now it seems so impossible. delayed reaction. maybe cos the prelims are so near and i'm so unprepared. and i noe i've said u shouldn't give up b4 trying if not half the battle's lost b4 u even begin & i do believe tt but sometimes it's unbelievably difficult to put it in practice.

it's times like these when i really wish we could just fast forward to nxt yr sept or sth n we'll be happily going off to uni [assuming best scenario]. maybe it's not good to want something too badly cos you'll be doubly disappointed when you fail.

of course i hope i'm worrying unnecessarily. is it possible? to turn a dream into reality.

ugh right speaker isn't working! so weird to have music just coming out from the left side.
feel so sorry for li jia wei. newspapers are full of how she cried aft the match and apologised and blah. and really i don't think we're in much of a position to critique the games in detail just after watching a couple of games. if that makes sense. i don't noe why i was so affected either.. maybe cos i agree w wat the preacher said yesterday abt it's easy to say stuff when u're not playing and not feeling the pressure and all that.

it was gd seeing [tan] jh pam n lyd today tho:) miss them lots. n funnily enough seems like mugging w classmates leads to more bonding somehow. come out with all the interesting questions that u need to rack ur brain to find ans to. or clarifying concepts at least. quite good:) at least company makes mugging less dreary. guess wat ruijie said that day was right. at least if i can't go out w my frens i still can see them ard sch/mug w them. better than nothing.

at least there's friends tonight. shall go eat dinner maybe food therapy helps haha i dun like eating much nowadays. unless its dessert:p

and i just remembered the word is inadequacy. i mean i remembered it some time ago but am only online to check the table tennis finals results.. at least china won. haha. today's bronze match was really the sound of inevitability. okay maybe not the sound. but i just felt tt it was inevitable somehow. oh well. it's over.

haven't blogged for a while. sigh. suddenly i'm reminded of my inadequateness [if there's such a word]. how? can't snap out of it. unhappiness probably compounded by yesterday's semi-finals heh. its funny how i'm so affected by olympics. mom's v puzzled as to why i'm suddenly watching olympics all the time. i guess its kinda like the epitome of perfection in sport. n i appreciate perfection. and my quill show was so sad.. i mean the front was nice n cute n funny but the back parts were tragic: but now i feel like getting a puppy! haha. get it when its a little baby.. so cute:)

okay tt made me feel just a teeny bit better. phys prelim prac on friday. i think i need divine intervention.. every prac i manage to screw up something.. chem qa is a disaster.. phys i always manage to do some calculation carelessly or sth.. bio.. always cannot finish. and i think i'm sinking deeper into this abyss. main papers? haha. my revision is half done. and am forgetting everything.

nvm maybe music'll help. but only for a while. and reality will come crashing back down. rite. talk about self pity haha so pathetic. shall stop it. shall try n get back to work.

haha i think i must be too dazed frm the whole day or sth.. can't believe i looked at serene's earthquake tag and wondered how come there was an earthquake in bishan. [tremors from indonesia?? hahaha. and bishan's in the middle of spore somemore. i'm really insane.] oh dear. well just means i need sleep:p which i'm not gonna get cos i've to go send the 3 m's off tmr at like 7-sth. groan.

ah anyway. yesterday. was actually fun! haha. w junwan n lijia n pingying:) have various quotes stored in my phone. ohhh how bout this..
py doing her s6 on jw's insistence "u didn't tell me u need MF11!"
jw, triumphantly [and v helpfully] "u need MF11!"
and in swensen's when we were having lunch.. [yeah went swensen's again cos i wasn't satisfied din get to eat topless 5 the day b4 haha:p] jw decides we should eat 3 topless 5's to get our money's worth cos the usual topless 5 costs $7. so lijia says "i noe how we can get home! walk!" haha. to burn off all the calories. but anyway it was really fun n hilarious:)

yeah. and today. was not bad i guess. given that the whole time they [3 church frens frm canada] were here i didn't go out with them oops. and the beginning part when they just arrived was quite awkward since i haven't seen them for 2 years. but today was quite okay. yup. i liked reading sherman's lagoon comics at mph haha. lots of mirth:D until jason [church fren frm rj choir! 3 yrs ago or sth.] decided i shud go there more often to destress. haha. and the village was kinda freaky at some parts. eeks. but it isn't that bad lar.. contrary to wat i heard.

oh yes i saw this movie advert at lido with this really really cute n sweet small lil puppy i shall watch the show!:) yay:) it's called quill or sth like that, coming out on 19th august. yippee~

just back. sigh i shudn't have called back so early.. then could have gone to eat icecream with the rest of them:) oh well.. another time. the food was quite good lar but the rest of the circumstances weren't. like. waiting for 1hr+ for food is not really something you expect.. and poor lijia n junwan. cold food and wrong order. hais. until don't feel like watching movie.. nvm hopefully the ice cream will cheer them up:)

anyway. i think the only thing good was extra-ing at lt3 with candice in the morning:) ditched our class gals to go watch them sing. and sang dravidian and tt swedish song [forgot the name liao but its quite a pretty song:] with them! haha. they're all so happy. so nice. kind of wistful. but it was lovely watching anyway:) on a side note, i really have no idea how my beaver got to darryl/jinjie and got sadly abused hmph.

oh pam carrying jh [my class not choir] on the way to holland v was funny:p reminds me of some other photo.. ohhh yes aud carrying a tracker i think. n i still owe chris saltimbanco oops.

haha mugging with jan around is always a hoot. she does such crazy things:p oh and yesterday when jan n jiahui were there it was even funnier.. jan drops her water bottle cap and flings it around and then decides its clean. jiahui "sometimes i wonder if u're a bio student" [sth to tt effect anyway].. since aft learning med biotech we shud noe how hard it is to get rid of bacteria n etc.

yeah. its quite fun i guess. albeit a bit noisy at the start usually. today also. jan's various antics. too bad we can't film everything. n the way she n alvin "quarrel"... and we could hear the j1s singing mayila n rasa sayang frm where we were sitting.. haha rasa sayang reminded me of all the times we sang in italy [esp in ethnic costumes]. bet val sitting in lt5 was laughing at the high "kang kong" parts. sounds like those clocks which have cuckoos inside which pop out and go "cuckoo!" oh and horrible darryl who said i was 2 yrs old *glare* if i'm 2 then u're 1 k

wonder if i should have tried applying to uk. after seeing all the pple who went for the talk at 3.15. oh well. wonder how many pple are applying to both. oh and wat mr chan was nagging at us today was like totally everyth i was telling myself last week. which is good advice. but whether i can follow it is another thing.

ah well friday should be a gd day yay:) 413 lunch! yeah!:) get to eat nice food:):):)

back frm grandma's bday dinner. there was live music! haha. quite funky lar. chinese singers and piano/double bass/sax accompaniment. and really, i think the nasal sound is so kteristic of chinese opera singers. if that makes sense. oh well. kind of reminded me of mayila haha:p

and college day. was so terribly boring. well besides kp being ridiculous haha. and i remember how i don't like waking up early on saturdays haha:p 6 days of sch a week mite not be so wonderful after all even if i get to sing. and i didn't noe sicheng's going stanford! aahh. sigh. can't help but imagine wat will happen nxt yr in march when a lvl results come out and in april [i think] when uni app results come out. but i guess tts still quite some time away shud bother abt prelims 1st groan. i need to stop being so lazy.

don't think i've felt out of sorts like that for a long time. since before italy i think. sorry if i was grumpy today.

wah. i think i just spent almost an hour talking to my bro. i'm v happy i have a bro haha:) well at least i think i have a better idea of uni stuff now. less clueless. though still need to decide quite a lot of things. hais this uni decision thing is so draining. talks and talks and talks. and thinking. abt wat course and wat uni.

and i got to see chernise n darryl n jinjie n kaiping just now! yay:) haha their names are consecutive in alphabets: cd n jk. anyway. miss them lots too. at least i get to mug with choir j2s now and then.. hardly get to talk to j1s. 

law talk was interesting. though i think it sounds a bit dry to me. haha. wat ever sounds interesting anyway.. probably sth tt doesn't need memorising.. which probably doesn't exist. bleah. i think i shud have gone for medicine talk too darn. shall hafta go check out the website sometime..

been sleeping so much lately! or rather staying awake and not doing work. aargh. better make sure i prepare better for phys prac than i did for chem:s quite a disastrous test there. oh! for the 1st time i sort of listened during bio lect yay:D tho it was really really -really- cold. and raphael tells really spastic jokes [e.g. bio remediation is for pple who fail bio cts]. and morbid things like how to kill serene in the most gruesome ways possible. -shudders-

heh i feel like i'm living in a time warp or sth.. i still feel like its the 1st semester and find it so weird when i start hearing about signing up for ssef when it seems like its been just a few weeks or so since i went for/signed up for ssef.. yeah. just keep thinking its like maybe april or so and doesn't feel like the end of yr's coming so soon. maybe i'm like blocking out the dreaded prelims/a's. ugh. the way my mind managed to block out that 7mark qn for maths cts. bah. haha ok i noe i'm nuts for still remembering tt but well.

and i'm trying to write my gp essay and suddenly i realise that my examples are all half-baked. i kinda forget everyth after i read it. like maybe i find it interesting for the moment but if u ask me to use it to substantiate my points in an essay i'm a goner. hmm. not good. i really think i have a problem with details.

sigh well. after feeling guilty for happily wasting my weekend away i think i can start doing my work heh. esp when the new tuts just came in ugh:( and i have a prob with bio lectures too don't listen somehow. [serene its all ur fault :p haha]

haiyah i think bio cts were quite pathetic.. anyway various quotes from the post-mortem..
 
for qn on fermenter which had twigs inside [so bacteria can be immobilised on them]
Raphael : the twigs are to poke anyone who tries to enter the fermenter
 
the page with the biosensor qn
R: which ocean is found on this page?
ans: the specific (pacific) ocean
[i think its funnier if its asked and answered aloud tho. and if you see the paper.]
 
for essay on microorganism spoilage and how to prevent it
ms lee
- " some of you can heat milk at 95oC for 30mins.. can boil soup already.."
- " and you blow steam thru milk, not milk thru steam" [had this vague idea of a nozzle spraying milk through steam and wondering how they collect the milk after sterilising haha]
- " for canning you've to heat and then seal it, not seal before you heat!  if not the factory will explode!" [r: we love exploding factories!]
 
ah maybe i just found them funny cos i was in a crazy mood but well. thanks to raphael for the amusement. and its also funny wat students can do out of desperation/stress:p i.e. maths/phys cts as well i think. can't remember. 
 
n i realised its not so gd sitting in the back row for bio.. no. 1 cannot see wats on the board.. no. 2 its super cold. -furry purple jacket to the rescue!-

haha happy day!:) went to venezia w lijia n joon.. msged chris n got her to come along.. met tinky candice n sheila there who were ponning college day rehearsal [tsk] it was really fun tho like a mini 413 reunion:D yay!
and of cos the ice cream reminded me of italy. sigh.

talking abt uni/scholarship apps = superbly depressing. plus i don't noe wat i wanna do in uni either. very vague. nvm.

haha yesterday was fun too got to meet relatives i haven't seen in 8 years. or possibly more. and another cousin who's a scholar here. she's so cute:p n looks so much happier/prettier. its a wonder what taking off braces/putting on contacts does. haha.

din listen during bio lect at all! ahh. somehow its so easy to slack in the back row. although its super cold. thanks jan for the chocolate haha:p

okay in a crazy mood i ended up walking home from the mrt. instead of taking bus. i figured since i made a wrong decision [to take mrt home frm orchard inst of bus] i shall have to bear the consequences. okay that sounds ridiculous but nvm. and i figured i didn't want to take another bus/wait for the bus/still wud have to walk even after taking e bus. and i thought it wud take the same amount of time but boy was i wrong... overestimated myself/underestimated the distance.

nvm i am now very thankful for a car haha:p started regretting halfway when i realised there was still such a long way to go.. and when i had to walk up that slope.. ugh. haha. anyway.

farewell! it was really good seeing everyone again:) i was like 2nd last to go haha came back too tired to do anything. given tt i slept only 3 hrs the previous night cos i slept in the aftnoon and was writing my numerous notes at night. wanted to sleep as early as possible but i ended up rereading all my notes and the journal..

ahh yes denise's house is really lovely. i was wondering if i'd stepped into the wrong house or sth.. it looked so posh and like sth u'll see in a magazine.. words can't describe it.. and i was wondering where the doorstep is cos i cudn't see any shoes anywhere. haha.

anyway.. got there early.. talked to hk.. then pple started coming.. i realised i don't really noe the j1s v well.. except for a few:) sigh. later on the sharing session.. and the song.. the lyrics were so sad.. and it's such a beautiful song. and when hp started singing his solo part.. reminded me of so many things. oh and kp's piano playing.. 1st time i've seen him play a full song.. really impressive:) go take ur frsm la:p

yeah but really must thank the j1s for such a wonderful farewell:) i don't think we were that nice to our j2s last yr hmm also don't think we were as close to them though.. the trip really did a lot. thanks for the presents and the notes and all:)

watching the video brought back somemore memories.. and hearing the songs.. =big sigh= am glad i stayed for as long as possible anyway. somehow it seems so final once there's farewell. i dunno. hopefully not lar. anyway being me i'll probably crash a lot of pracs n be super extra haha

ah i better go do work finally.. haven't done work since wed this is so terrible:s

ahh. nice day:) nice enough anyway.. had lunch w choir pple.. missed italy plus choir all over again hais. but anyway it was a funny lunch.. jan's new fren is now her chai tow kway.. cos she was saying/doing sth stupid [i forgot wat it was.. anyone care to enlighten me?] so jh me n alvin all decided she wasn't our fren anymore so she sed she still had her chai tow kway.. so alvin was like yeah.. say hello to it and then it goes into ur mouth rite..

various silly things today.. while waiting for jan who was waiting for whui for her biotech bk she was calling whui i think n decided that i shud become her elbow rest.. so i've upgraded from being a pillow to an elbow rest hmm. or downgraded? and tiff being too lazy to go to the toilet to change.. and jan arguing w alvin over where tiff put the stuff she photostated..

and while mugging aft lunch.. jan "how many l's did i write? i can't see!" [she wrote "it'lll" n i took a photo of it with her phone haha:p]
and she was happily twirling my scrunchie with her pen.. likening scrunchies to doughnuts: "doughnut holes must be put there for a reason! its to twirl them!"

yeah well. it was fun:) and jan went to get her fav pencil back frm caroline.. so heard them practising the barber of seville overture.. its such a lovely song.. so unfair we dun get to do it! hmph. nvm. like chernise says must go for concert nxt yr then.

woo~ i love freedom. haha. just can't savour it enough. like yesterday i wasn't doing anything constructive at all [well except for that 2 hrs or so at night which gave me a neckache] ah. and finally i can take my time eating breakfast without worrying about what time i'm gonna start studying. yeah... n i still feel like playing pool.

anyway. haha. let me post hc's bio essay qns here. i'm so thankful our bio dept isn't that creative.

Q1a) "lala and her friends were crossing the road. suddenly, the green man turned red. lala decided to beat the red light. describe what happened all the way from when she saw the red light to when she ran across the road." [u're spposed to write about nervous system, how the signals get transmitted]

Q1b)"what if lala was on drugs which prevent neurotransmitter breakdown? what would happen?" [apparently some pple wrote she'll go on running forever, some wrote she'll go into convulsions]

Q2a) "tom dick and harry are good friends. they all go to a restaurant to eat. tom orders fish and chips. while harry orders a chocolate milkshake. describe how tom's body carries out cellular respiration after a meal of fish and chips."

Q2b) "harry is diabetic. do you think his choice of food is correct? if you are dick, what would you advise him to eat/do?"


am really thankful our qns are normally phrased and stuff.

yeah! last paper today! whee~ happy clar:) chem was okay i guess. really needed the revision last night tho i'd forgotten everyth in 3 days.. quite horrifying.. and i looked at the nmr qn "freak! why're there so many c's and h's! wat crazy cpd is tt?" but luckily i think it was alrite..

hmm.. walked around.. had lunch.. i really really want to see everyone's photos again! talked about italy for a bit:) oh when i read the article on the non-stop flight to new york and the place for passengers to gather i was thinking of our flights there n back.. we'll meet pple at the toilet actually. but sigh.

yeah went heeren n borders. wanted to buy cds but cudn't decide which one to buy so din buy. actually i dun even noe wat i want. quite confusing.

oh yeah spiderman was quite gd actually.. even though i dun really like spiderman. but yeah. little jokes everywhere.. a few cheesy lines though esp for mary jane.. and the theme was a bit cliched even if it may be true. overall not bad. yup.

oh!! on the way back.. this guy behind me was french.. it was like.. suddenly i hear a "t'es ou?" behind me and i turned around. super cool. reminded me of anne-laure's [my french corresp] house and everyth abt immersion. bcos of the slang i guess. yeah. it was nice tho:)

bio was okay for the amount i studied i guess.. at least i sort of knew wat they were asking.. it wasn't as bad as the lecture test anyway. which isn't saying a lot since i barely passed that one but well.

math! ugh!! i can't believe myself.. somehow my mind managed to fool me into thinking that i'd finished qn13.. like i just saw it as part of qn12 n i finished it already or sth.. so i went straight to qn 14 n din realise until time was up and they sed "arrange ur script in order of qn" and i saw "qn 12" then "qn 14" then huh? did i write wrongly? -truth dawns- crap. well. will teach me a lesson i guess.. ugh.. 7m wasted... stupid..

humms. didn't like physics. probably cos i can't do data analysis/am too lazy to think. its quite terrible. i remember looking at the qn and thinking "can i give up?" and then scolding myself for wanting to give up before trying. really. i think i need counselling. and then din learn the gold foil/spectral lines thingy so i was crapping on the spot. started panicking during mcq, can't remember why. ahh. i just hope i do fine.

and bio. feel like giving up too. its crazy.. i mean i noe the general idea but if u ask for details.. i'm a goner.. and bio is all about details if not u don't get marks. everything is "be specific!" and how do you "be specific!" if u've no content in ur brain! ugh. ... sorry to all those pple i whined to, thank you for putting up with me:)

haha i just got back frm mugging w jan chris tiff alvin mz. missed everyone lots esp cos of italy.. then when i was walking to macs i saw ronnie [aka chris' ex and jh's current] outside and cudn't stop laughing cos i remembered all the descriptions they gave to enlighten kp.. "in desperate need of a tan" and such.

surprisingly quite serious actually until after lunch we took a break and were crapping for a while.. and then tiff was whining abt not wanting to study so i told her to look at e giraffe on her animal-printed tissue paper [which chris kindly gave to us] and be happy.. then she realised there was no unicorn on hers [but there were 3 on mine so i offered to donate one to her] and started whining somemore haha. i like the tissue paper:) okay i sound quite demented here. oh yes n i had a surround-sound system cos on my right jan was singing and on my left mz was doing percut/singing.

oh yes i became jan's permanent pillow once again. quote her i'm "comfy". if i get another shoulder ache tmr i noe who to blame:p

and on the bus i fell asleep [reminds me of all the long bus journeys] and then almost missed my stop luckily e person nxt to me was getting off too haha:D if not i'd have to walk a looong way.

haha i was watching the bonus features for cirque yesterday and this is like the quote of the day frm one of the acrobats.. "its the best job in the world.. u get paid to kick ur bro's ass!" cos he n his bro are a pair doing this acrobatic stunt thingy.. he lies with his feet upwards on this special chair and the bro sits on his feet and does somersaults. okay its kinda hard to describe.

its the last week. i hope i finally get that firmly imprinted in my brain cos all my stuff is really half-baked. want to buy cds frm HMV! sigh.

right. i think i fell asleep at 9+ yesterday. wat a pig. therefore i effectively didn't do much work yesterday. hais. oh well.

anw. yesterday. bday lunch w peiying lijia n chris! [afterwards ting came] was fun meeting them again:) felt like sec 3/4 days. oh.. my new preferred mode of buying pple presents is to go shopping with them. haha:D advantage: pple get sth useful/sth they like. disadvantage: no surprise. well well.

and i went to run again heh:p maybe that plus walking around for 3 hrs made me v tired. though tt sounds quite pathetic.

dinner with bao n chris n tinky.. quite interesting.. all the reminiscing and bao's new anecdotes.. really funny:p can't believe mrs prama believed baoyi's explanation abt her dyed hair.. tt was really hilarious.. its amazing how she can crap up stuff on the spot like that. and hmm lou's giving stace math tuition tt's new..

mugging is so tiresome and boring. how i'm going to last until november is a mystery to me.

haha yesterday i had mushroom soup and was thinking of room 234. hais. and i was watching cirque du soleil! so lovely:) though actually i got a bit bored later on. but overall i think their shows let u bring something away from it. i haven't figured out wat. but anyway i think the reason why i like them so much is cos their performances are really seamless. like all the difficult stunts and all.. they make it seem so easy. and everything is really in unison. i bet their director is perfectionistic too haha. oh and i love their soundtracks!

hmm. i've never been that angry before in my life i think. at least i don't remember feeling that furious. like just sat there and could feel my temperature rising. very interesting. though on retrospect i wonder why i was that mad. hmm. maybe just keyed up or sth.

the good thing which came out of is that i got so frustrated [not just with one person/event but everyth on the whole cos the aircon pple came n my mom was arguing with them n making a whole freaking lot of noise] that i went to the gym:) haha. and ran. and ran. and ran. so i guess tt cleared my mind too. and gave me exercise. [which i rarely do]

am now slowly cooling off heh decided the fan makes me too cold! shall go bathe. and cool off somemore. have gotten a scolding for not doing much work the whole day.. sigh i never feel like waking up in the morning

hmm. just back frm class dinner. it was gd seeing everyone again.. pity lijia n pam weren't there tho:( and like the one of the 1st few times ser was actually around.. haha.. silhouette photos are fun! peiying n chris quick send me:)

oh and watched harry potter! the overall tone is quite dark. really wonder wat the show's going to be like by the 4th/5th books hmm. anyway.. i didn't really imagine dementors to be flying all over the place.. i thot they just glided on the floor. and the sucking thingy was overdramatic imo. found the image representing the soul interesting.

let me see wat else i din like.. oh lupin looks quite ugly. and the werewolf too. i thot werewolves look like real wolves hmm. this one looked like an overgrown gollum. k i shall stop complaining.. the show was quite okay.. maybe 3 or 3.5 stars yah ser:) oh yeah the patronus also din look like wat i thought. but anyway i guess i've learnt to take a step back frm my own imagination n appreciate wat the movie has. after LOTR. haha.

ah my aircon's finally working:) yay! kinda miss sleeping in my own room.. though surprisingly bro's room isn't that musty. okay i guess i haven't got that much to say so off i go

hmm. i think i'm romesick too. and was addicted to photos last night b4 sleeping. and today i was trying to get some stuff done but didn't succeed particularly well. :( at least tmr i get to see my sec 4 class:) plus one/two tchers:) and watch harry potter:) yay!

oh and i was watching e video my mom/dad took frm concert [though like half of it is kinda messy n cannot see faces] but can hear.. hais. i should really realise there's no more time left.

n i just koped this frm shenting's blog in a moment of boredom.. hilarious.. have a gd laugh.. haha.. its like everything i'm not..

C	Charismatic
L	Legendary
A	Adventurous
R	Refined
I	Irresistible
S	Stunning
S	Spunky
A	Awesome

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hmm.. went for the church singing thingy today.. was a far cry from chorale.. like duh rite but well.. i guess i'm conditioned to serious practices and high expectations from mr toh's drilling.. which i really am grateful for:)

anyway. i got my photos! woohoo~! yay yay yay:) was at the fujifilm shop and checking for anyth wrong cos of my screwy cam.. was so scared half the photos wouldn't turn out but but they all turned out fine! yay!!!:):):) yeah.. anyway so i was looking thru and laughing to myself.. the woman must have thought i'd gone mad.. o well:) lovely memories:) kinda regret not having taken more photos.. but got quite sick of it after a while.

the only problem was that the last few photos looked like they were taken by a contractor or someone who'd found sth wrong with their house toilet cos those photos were of room 234's crazy toilet:p [which jiahui tiff chris jan had to put up with.. any mushrooms growing yet? i'm sure spore's hot n humid climate is more conducive for mushroom growth rofl]

haha.. was just looking at all the photos pple uploaded.. feel happier somehow:) oh kudos to jan the gown looks really good:) but hope my photos turn out man.. stupid screwy camera:( and then i was looking at the photos chernise took for concert programme.. feels so weird to see choir pple in sch u after seeing them in long sleeves/jackets for the past week.

okay i kind of revived after sleeping a bit in the car on the way home. i have become v good at sleeping on moving vehicles [excluding planes] after going to italy. on boring bus journeys just end up sleeping. [and that happens quite a bit]

rather sad about everything. like. haha. coming home is supposed to be a happy thing n we ended up coming home crying. hais. that journal is really heartrending. esp when reading all the memories. n personal notes. so on the flight frm hongkong to spore when i read the book i started crying. n finally realised how everything is over. guess it didn't really seem that real until the last flight. and even though i kept telling myself that life is kind of full of meetings n partings n still has to go on it didn't work v well. just was wallowing in misery i guess.

just feels so weird to not have choir pple around anymore. that week didn't seem like a week at all.. more like a month. i don't know why though. maybe bcos each day was so packed full of stuff:) the 1st 4 days full of late night concerts when we were all falling asleep [but luckily not for the last night!] and the rome extension days when we took horrible public transport n the late nights in room 234:)

wish we had this trip in the early part of the year.. i think it did a whole lot for bonding that nothing else could have done.. so then i was thinking oh next time when we're having break outside lt4 it'll be more fun.. and then i realised.. those days are over. i've just grown so used to lt4 and choir it seems so weird that it's all over. i guess at least now's holidays.. so it won't be much of a difference.. but when sch reopens.

yeah. and i got to noe kaiping n darryl my dearest buddy whom i'm "super bad" to haha. n jinjie with his primary-coloured caterpillar with 2 heads:p they really provided a lot of amusement in rome:) spent a lot of time w tiff chris jan candice jiahui ben.. v amusing time:)

really hope my photos turn out fine. and we must make sure we bring photos to j2 farewell to order frm each other.. i'm quite sure there're quite a few photos tt i din bother taking with my lousy camera..

okay this is like a really mopey entry but can't help it. there's this sense of inevitability.. everything's over. and all we [j2s] have left is to mug the rest of the year.

oh i wanted to add something. which i suddenly forgot. bah. nvm. another time will do. oh i think our food is infinitely nicer than italian haha. everything is pasta/pizza. or maybe cos of wat we chose but o well. ohh! i remember now. it was like a retreat.. no internet n hardly any smsing.. okay. i shall finally bathe n sleep.

haha woo~ rugby won! well done! haha i don't think i've ever felt that happy.. was trying not to overdo the screaming though but i think everyone's going to end up not being able to sing properly tmr:p am really happy for them anyway:)

yeah. finally we're flying off tmr. seems like i've been waiting forever. anyway hope we've a good time there.. hope it'll be as fun as immersion [actually i already kind of have my doubts about that heh think immersion was quite different] nvm.. still can be fun. better go pack soon.

haha i'm quite happy i'm missing the qa test tmr;p seems like everyone's studying for it now. it sounds quite crazy.. 100 marks in dunno how many minutes. good luck to u pple heh.

i love the troy song.. remember me by josh groban. and the shrek song holding out for a hero. i think they illustrate wats happening in the movie v well.. somehow when i listen to them i think of achilles and shrek on mungo.

ooh. feel funky:) have watched 2 shows on the day they opened! wahaha:) troy n shrek 2. anyway.. shrek 2 was hilarious! i don't think i've ever laughed that much. though somehow i can't remember wat i was laughing about anymore.. anyway it was v enjoyable:) i mite be tempted to buy the shrek 2 dvd when it comes out:D though i wish the ogres weren't so ugly. not particularly nice to look at ugly kters throughout most of the movie:p

i think the soundtrack was quite cool.. must go check it out.
and grr the troy soundtrack! i want the last track by josh groban but somehow my downloaded versions don't seem to work and the cd isn't in spore yet:(

anyway it was good going out w lijia today:) always nice to catch up with old frens:) and eating and eating and eating. haha. feel so gluttonish. met siewjin at ps! haha:) it was quite unexpected.. i suddenly thought someone calling "clar" [or maybe lijia alerted me too] and then turned around n saw tricey waving madly at me:)

yes and i finally bought some of the v belated bday presents:S still got chris to shop for though. i hope i din forget anyone else hums.

yeah. somehow i think today made up for all the crap this week. dun think i had a v nice week. but today was great:) yay!

plus i realised tt i have hardly time left to get stuff done.. monday is 5.10 day plus nite prac, tues is 2.30 day plus sectionals plus chem s plus nite prac, wed is gp common test, thurs flying off. help! aah. well. hope trip will be fun.

okay. i finally have my sat 2 scores. so i can stop checking the collegeboard website. yeah. scores are decent but percentiles are not satisfying at all. nvm. anyway the website says its compared to last yr. clar the perfectionist here. and considering i was doing tt together with prep for concert. well. guess its quite gd:)

feel quite weird. like half tense half relaxed. partly cos of choir partly cos of scores. wat to think? ah nvm thinking is too tiring [haha u can quote me on that] watching shrek2 tmr!:) 8 days gave it 5 stars whee~

ooh happy day:) was actually quite worried about the booking thingy in the morning but turned out fine:) in fact the seats were really good!:) haha. considering i booked at like 1pm which i thought wasn't v early but well.

anyway. yes. troy was good. though some parts of the battles reminded me of lotr. but i guess there's a limit to how much difference one can have in battles. well. let me quote chris "no hot babes though" and "cinematography was good". the beach is so pretty. white sand and pure blue sea. and troy is gorgeous. somehow i like their architecture or something. oh yar and some parts are so explicit i thought they wud censor it b4 rating pg but hmm watever.

and saw trailers for harry potter 3! its quite terrible actually.. like a horror movie instead.. i didn't think the 3rd book was that sinister.. n differs frm wat i imagined dementors to look like. and a lot of other stuff. by the time they do book 4 n 5 it'll probably be way worse. and i thought the books were dark enough.

yeah tinky was telling us hilarious stories all the way.. i think we really noe how to smoke during bio tests.. its really funny actually heh. even though mr chan sed he wanted to vomit blood when catching a glimpse of some of our answers:p anyway yeah realised i really haven't seen tinky since like last yr or sth. missed u!:)

and then lyd came all dressed up as usual. the classy lydia:) and pam who was late as usual. but actually had enough money for once haha. and with her usual assortment of corny jokes. i think i've had an overdose though. tt gal is amazing.

yes. quite tired. tmr probably will be another long day. -stretches- time to sleep

yay! for a long while i haven't felt so relaxed. actually can go out n eat haha. sound seriously deprived. but the past few weeks have been crazy.

yeah bio test was hilarious. i've never felt this unprepared. and last night i was just so tired.. couldn't get anything much in.. and now i really understand why mr chan says one cannot chiong biotech last minute. but well. i think if i were marking the scripts i'll be laughing endlessly. esp the bacteriophage qn. like. haha. benzene ring n spaceship control centre n laser gun turrets? rofl. and i wrote down the grape name for wine instead of the microoorganism. man.

tumdeedum. although i've to do analogue tut by tmr. but feels good to not to be so busy. yeah. and i have concluded i've become a rather good stoner nowadays [fossil rite haha] i really must go watch land before time.. and see sarah the spoilt triceratops haha.

oh yes and nice movies are coming out:) like troy n shrek 2 n harry potter heh. oh yes and i must go eat icecream with lijia sometime:) and joon too! though i dun think either of them reads my blog hmm. but nvm. note to myself.

anyway. yay! no night prac on friday either. yeah. am in quite a happy state of mind cos tests for this week are over and i've a bit of time to chill. really need it:)

haha for once i think this is going to be a slightly more sane entry. anyway. yeah. kind of sad about yesterday. last concert! and the worst part was that now i look back at it i wasn't really feeling anything. which is quite pathetic. i think i just totally zoned out. oh yeah and on thurs nite/fri morn i was just thinking i'm like this balloon full of air. almost to bursting point. then once it pops there's only the 'skin' left.

anyway. yes. i was kind of sad that i didn't feel as much for the concert as i think i wud have if i hadn't sat 2 today. yeah. cos after the concert my one track mind immediately switched to sat 2 mode. like. okay. hurry up and get home n sleep/prep. yeah. so. just felt that it was rather a pity tt i chose to take sats today. but it's over.

yup was v glad to see all e pple at the concert:) thanks for coming! hope u all had a great time:)

now to whine about sat2. i think i was still like half awake. cos maybe i had to wake up at like 7. which is like normal school day. totally sucky. and then the writing topic was horrendous. "the twentieth century will be known as the ____ century." like. yay i have no idea wat big thing happened in the 1990's? so i wrote some rubbish. n i din realise how long it takes to write one paragraph. and i don't think my vocab was very varied.

yeah. not sure about some of the tenses and stuff. i tend to blame it on the spore system cos until like sec 1 or sth when i started learning french then i really knew wat a noun/object/adjective and all those words were. as in before that i'd just be using it and not knowing wat it was. and the name of the tenses. stuff like that. anyway. math was okay but i wasn't sure about 2 logic qns [i'm illogical yes] and one other qn.

ah. enough of that. can't get down to doing work. so unappealing. eeks. i want to watch my cirque du soleil dvds but doesn't seem like i'll get to until june hols or sth. welll..

and i can't believe u all went to fullerton last night! life is unfair. growl.

hums. yay! for the 1st time in like 2 weeks i'm actually home before 8. whee~ at least i can finally do some proper prepping for sats. anyway. like i was saying to lots of pple. my life currently consists of sleeping, singing and -trying- to prep for sats. the keyword there is trying. so being a student is part time. heh. haven't done tutorials for wat seems like ages.

i don't think i've ever gone to sleep with the intention of doing so for the past 2 weeks either. and then on tues nite i fell asleep with the lights on.. and then halfway somehow i thought it was day cos it seemed like it was quite bright so i woke up. to find tt it was 4am.

anyhow. yah. during assembly candice was flipping thru my diary. and we came to italy trip! mm. makes me remember all the french immersion stuff. hope it'll be as fun:) though i don't think we'll get as much free time as we did in france. the grp's like 3 times the size. but its a long long time till then. sprinkled with a few lecture tests/bio prac test in the weeks in between.

right. i think i'll go take a nap. the luxury of which i haven't had a for a long time! haha i wonder who'll get dunked on ora. quite funny. were trying to persuade mr chan today. who sed he had to go home n discuss with his wife. oh and raphael's corny jokes.. man.. well at least i stayed awake thruout chem lect. maybe also cos of the cold. heh.

very frustrated at the moment. headaches plus not being able to do math/chem s is not very comforting. and i haven't done sat 2 yet either. okay this sounds like a reiteration of the last post. but really. am feeling immensely pressurised somehow or other. lots of little things. please let my life improve after this week. heh. or during the week would be fine too. heh.

really. spent like 1/2hr trying to figure out some trigo crap thing. and then the stupid buffer thing and was getting negative values for concentration till i wanted to fling/hurl sth out of the window and was banging the table. i think i shall go back n bang somemore rofl.

am terrified of sat 2 essay writing component. its crazy to give u one quotation/statement n ask u to comment in 20mins. esp when the topics are so broad. n i haven't even tried. probably cos i'm scared of it. aarghhhh.

heh. its only been 3 late nights n i feel half dead. how i'm going to survive till nxt friday [and saturday] is a mystery to me. so mon was band concert.. was good:) but wat irked me was the cloakroom crap.. take so freaking long to get flowers n stuff. spastic rules. anyway. and then we were running all over the place.. rush frm math s to esplanade.. was joking in the cab tt sj [who just got 10.3 for shuttle run] should go sprint to the doors first.. then later during intermission we were looking for dinner [and didn't find it]

and tuesday.. comm meeting.. i don't really want to say much about it here. yeah. but anyway. when i got home i ended up falling asleep on the floor for a while. n aft waking up was doing sat 2 paper half asleep. but i guess the score wasn't too bad, considering. haha.

and today. fringe prac n choir prac. well. wat can i say. finished around 9, got back and also ended up falling asleep [but on the bed] haha at least i woke up. n managed to get some work done. though i think its quite sloppy. sigh. feel so jaded i can't be bothered for now. which is bad.

n i feel like my temper's getting shorter n shorter. which happens once in a while i guess. general malaise? heh. annoyed with anything n everything. watever. freaking scared for sats II cos i do not want to end up retaking. like. should do it once and do it well then it'll save me lots of trouble.

these days i wake up not wanting to go to school. interminable school days. but i shouldn't complain.. my timetable is actually quite okay except for mondays.

hmm. yay dad's back:) haha. have lots of nice things. though i wonder when i'll find time to watch my dvds. but at least i have them! actually i wonder wat i'll do if the real show comes to town. if i go watch it live as well it mite be like wasting money. o well. nvm. tt can come later:p

today's lunch was hilarious. kinda pitied the waiter.. was his 2nd day and he was so apologetic about everyth n kept saying "that's a gd question.." and went to ask his boss. anyway. first my dad ordered a pot of tea [share with mom] and then later the waiter came back saying "i'm v sorry but my boss has just informed me that they broke all the teapots" found it really funny.. either the pple there are v clumsy or the shelf collapsed or sth..

and then later dad's cup of tea came along.. first came the cup [with the tea] and the saucer.. then the spoon.. then the milk.. so my dad was like "why's it coming in bits n pieces" . i guess i was in quite an amused mood. was thinking "bits and pieces" was a v interesting way to describe it.

anyway.. dance night was good!:) albeit kind of short actually. but i guess they can't keep up dancing for that long hmm. wat else. there's band+chamber on monday.. am sure they'll be good too:)

k am getting chased off as usual. well. at least i cleared up my table today.. no longer relegated to the v sad state of having only a rectangle of space [where my foolscap is] to do my work while the rest of the table is piled up with stuff. heh.

yay. bio prac test and 2.4 = over! woohoo~ haha:) am totally going to flunk bio prac.. i dunno how i managed to take so much time doing the expt till i had no time to finish. well. am hoping to get double digits haha seems bit impossible though.

yeah. that's quite a load off my mind. given that i woke up on sunday morning with this sinking feeling that i'd have to run 2.4 the next day. and today was hilarious.. talk about moodswings. i was rather grumpy in the morning. then halfway thru chem tut i started making my ridiculous comments [haha] and the worst of it was that me ser n raphael are right in front in full sight so ms tan kept asking us wat was so funny..

phys i was trying to figure out some quantum thingy which i understood wrongly during the lect growl. and for once i sort of paid attention during bio lect. well at least i wasn't doing something else but somehow i don't remember much of wat she said. besides her "don't marinate 60 pieces of pork with 2 bowls of pineapple juice".

math was quite funny too. somehow dasheng started calling siewjin a goldfish. and making weird noises all the way. i really think he was suffering from junming withdrawal symptoms. but it was v funny;p *gloop gloop* haha. and i think we totally tried mrs lim's patience during gp until she had to bribe us with lollipops if we kept quiet. but later she changed it to a threat of doing a summary [somehow tt always works] and she looked so smug that she'd thought of a solution to shut us up;p

yeah. had a really good laugh today after all. probably cos i was crazy. but still. very amusing:)

oh rite and during bio prac we could hear dr chan shouting at 3g in the lab directly below.. he kept diaoing andrew fang [i think] and was like "good boy!" when he did something correctly. i think the one of the funny things abt bio prac is when everyone's quietly doing their work and then we can all hear dr chan really clearly.. n then we'll all start laughing and if mr chan happens to be around then he'll be like "chem speaks very loudly but bio is very soft" or sth like tt. the original context being that usually we mug more for chem than bio or sth n then bio will give u unexpected results.

yah. and jan was saying.. 8 pracs for concert [fringe item].. is tt enough? n i'm like hmm.. doesn't sound like it'll be.. sigh. super busy. and i still haven't started on sat 2 math. help:s

hmm. not entirely happy with pw but i guess i kinda expected it. heck. anyway had a great lunch with lyd:) miss her lots. and got to talk to joon today! on the way to bluemoo. yup. haha joon the rabbit. she says the most hilarious things. she and pingying are such an amusing pair.
i guess it is true that once u move on u don't have that much in common with yr old frens and u naturally grow apart. but like lyd sed at least u actually realise that u haven't seen each other for sometime and try to meet up. yeah. keeps it going anyway. better than just letting it go. though it happens v often. life consists of a lot of meetings and partings. hmm. something like that.

anyway just now i was thinking about it and decided i have very high expectations for all sorts of things and therefore get easily annoyed when things do not match up to wat i expect. which is bad.. kind of like a short temper. should just take it as a learning experience. my mood swings are really erratic. candice can probably testify to tt:p find that i only go mad with pple i'm really comfortable with. if not pple'll probably just look at me askance.

yeah. jan just reminded me its 2 weeks to ve and fringe is quite unready. means that i'm going to be super busy the nxt 2 weeks. sigh. wats new. hope we can put up a gd show:) we had better anyway.

listening to candice's sissel cd.. her voice is lovely:) i'm so glad i have my divine cd too haha:) and it was interesting finding out that jiahui likes enya and loreena mckennitt. the type i suddenly got interested in!:)

ugh. i've just spent like 4 hrs doing the programme stuff. the worst thing is that it just seems so easy. like. okay photos. cut out heads n stuff, dump them on the filmstrip, voila. u're done! yarrite. there's all the crap resizing and layers and stuff. i wonder if there's any better software besides adobe. and i'm not even halfway thru the individual strip. groan. 40 more heads to find. help. my head is spinning already frm staring at the comp and all the alignment. aargh.

anyway. don't noe why i was quite sian at the beginning of choir and was making all manner of spastic comments to candice:) haha. spouting nonsense would be more like it. and tiff can't count haha. she's hilarious:) glad she's nxt to me for competition arrangement! haha:) but i feel short. and got to watch dance night preview! so lovely:) makes me wish i'd taken ballet sometimes haha. anyway i foresee going broke soon. all the flowers to buy.

o yes and finally all the common test results are back. somehow after waiting for so long i feel kinda apathetic abt them already. well. i'm quite satisfied i guess. kind of kept to my goal since last yr haha. hopefully my end goal works out too:)

and there's this fri to look forward to! and nxt sat!:) yay.. happy time~ but 1st i've got to sort out this picture thingy groan. too tired to do anymore. even though i fell asleep on the floor for 2 hrs just now:) i guess a mattress would have been better. but was a gd rest:)

surprisingly i haven't fallen asleep [without intending to] this week. i think its reverse psychology. like when there's a lot of work due and stuff then i'll feel tired n end up sleeping. and when the stuff's not so pressing then more relaxed n less tired somehow. interesting huh.

o it was gd talking to lijia today:) should go venezia and mug with her n joon sometime again:)