hakuna matata

ooh happy day:) was actually quite worried about the booking thingy in the morning but turned out fine:) in fact the seats were really good!:) haha. considering i booked at like 1pm which i thought wasn't v early but well.

anyway. yes. troy was good. though some parts of the battles reminded me of lotr. but i guess there's a limit to how much difference one can have in battles. well. let me quote chris "no hot babes though" and "cinematography was good". the beach is so pretty. white sand and pure blue sea. and troy is gorgeous. somehow i like their architecture or something. oh yar and some parts are so explicit i thought they wud censor it b4 rating pg but hmm watever.

and saw trailers for harry potter 3! its quite terrible actually.. like a horror movie instead.. i didn't think the 3rd book was that sinister.. n differs frm wat i imagined dementors to look like. and a lot of other stuff. by the time they do book 4 n 5 it'll probably be way worse. and i thought the books were dark enough.

yeah tinky was telling us hilarious stories all the way.. i think we really noe how to smoke during bio tests.. its really funny actually heh. even though mr chan sed he wanted to vomit blood when catching a glimpse of some of our answers:p anyway yeah realised i really haven't seen tinky since like last yr or sth. missed u!:)

and then lyd came all dressed up as usual. the classy lydia:) and pam who was late as usual. but actually had enough money for once haha. and with her usual assortment of corny jokes. i think i've had an overdose though. tt gal is amazing.

yes. quite tired. tmr probably will be another long day. -stretches- time to sleep

yay! for a long while i haven't felt so relaxed. actually can go out n eat haha. sound seriously deprived. but the past few weeks have been crazy.

yeah bio test was hilarious. i've never felt this unprepared. and last night i was just so tired.. couldn't get anything much in.. and now i really understand why mr chan says one cannot chiong biotech last minute. but well. i think if i were marking the scripts i'll be laughing endlessly. esp the bacteriophage qn. like. haha. benzene ring n spaceship control centre n laser gun turrets? rofl. and i wrote down the grape name for wine instead of the microoorganism. man.

tumdeedum. although i've to do analogue tut by tmr. but feels good to not to be so busy. yeah. and i have concluded i've become a rather good stoner nowadays [fossil rite haha] i really must go watch land before time.. and see sarah the spoilt triceratops haha.

oh yes and nice movies are coming out:) like troy n shrek 2 n harry potter heh. oh yes and i must go eat icecream with lijia sometime:) and joon too! though i dun think either of them reads my blog hmm. but nvm. note to myself.

anyway. yay! no night prac on friday either. yeah. am in quite a happy state of mind cos tests for this week are over and i've a bit of time to chill. really need it:)

haha for once i think this is going to be a slightly more sane entry. anyway. yeah. kind of sad about yesterday. last concert! and the worst part was that now i look back at it i wasn't really feeling anything. which is quite pathetic. i think i just totally zoned out. oh yeah and on thurs nite/fri morn i was just thinking i'm like this balloon full of air. almost to bursting point. then once it pops there's only the 'skin' left.

anyway. yes. i was kind of sad that i didn't feel as much for the concert as i think i wud have if i hadn't sat 2 today. yeah. cos after the concert my one track mind immediately switched to sat 2 mode. like. okay. hurry up and get home n sleep/prep. yeah. so. just felt that it was rather a pity tt i chose to take sats today. but it's over.

yup was v glad to see all e pple at the concert:) thanks for coming! hope u all had a great time:)

now to whine about sat2. i think i was still like half awake. cos maybe i had to wake up at like 7. which is like normal school day. totally sucky. and then the writing topic was horrendous. "the twentieth century will be known as the ____ century." like. yay i have no idea wat big thing happened in the 1990's? so i wrote some rubbish. n i din realise how long it takes to write one paragraph. and i don't think my vocab was very varied.

yeah. not sure about some of the tenses and stuff. i tend to blame it on the spore system cos until like sec 1 or sth when i started learning french then i really knew wat a noun/object/adjective and all those words were. as in before that i'd just be using it and not knowing wat it was. and the name of the tenses. stuff like that. anyway. math was okay but i wasn't sure about 2 logic qns [i'm illogical yes] and one other qn.

ah. enough of that. can't get down to doing work. so unappealing. eeks. i want to watch my cirque du soleil dvds but doesn't seem like i'll get to until june hols or sth. welll..

and i can't believe u all went to fullerton last night! life is unfair. growl.

hums. yay! for the 1st time in like 2 weeks i'm actually home before 8. whee~ at least i can finally do some proper prepping for sats. anyway. like i was saying to lots of pple. my life currently consists of sleeping, singing and -trying- to prep for sats. the keyword there is trying. so being a student is part time. heh. haven't done tutorials for wat seems like ages.

i don't think i've ever gone to sleep with the intention of doing so for the past 2 weeks either. and then on tues nite i fell asleep with the lights on.. and then halfway somehow i thought it was day cos it seemed like it was quite bright so i woke up. to find tt it was 4am.

anyhow. yah. during assembly candice was flipping thru my diary. and we came to italy trip! mm. makes me remember all the french immersion stuff. hope it'll be as fun:) though i don't think we'll get as much free time as we did in france. the grp's like 3 times the size. but its a long long time till then. sprinkled with a few lecture tests/bio prac test in the weeks in between.

right. i think i'll go take a nap. the luxury of which i haven't had a for a long time! haha i wonder who'll get dunked on ora. quite funny. were trying to persuade mr chan today. who sed he had to go home n discuss with his wife. oh and raphael's corny jokes.. man.. well at least i stayed awake thruout chem lect. maybe also cos of the cold. heh.

very frustrated at the moment. headaches plus not being able to do math/chem s is not very comforting. and i haven't done sat 2 yet either. okay this sounds like a reiteration of the last post. but really. am feeling immensely pressurised somehow or other. lots of little things. please let my life improve after this week. heh. or during the week would be fine too. heh.

really. spent like 1/2hr trying to figure out some trigo crap thing. and then the stupid buffer thing and was getting negative values for concentration till i wanted to fling/hurl sth out of the window and was banging the table. i think i shall go back n bang somemore rofl.

am terrified of sat 2 essay writing component. its crazy to give u one quotation/statement n ask u to comment in 20mins. esp when the topics are so broad. n i haven't even tried. probably cos i'm scared of it. aarghhhh.

heh. its only been 3 late nights n i feel half dead. how i'm going to survive till nxt friday [and saturday] is a mystery to me. so mon was band concert.. was good:) but wat irked me was the cloakroom crap.. take so freaking long to get flowers n stuff. spastic rules. anyway. and then we were running all over the place.. rush frm math s to esplanade.. was joking in the cab tt sj [who just got 10.3 for shuttle run] should go sprint to the doors first.. then later during intermission we were looking for dinner [and didn't find it]

and tuesday.. comm meeting.. i don't really want to say much about it here. yeah. but anyway. when i got home i ended up falling asleep on the floor for a while. n aft waking up was doing sat 2 paper half asleep. but i guess the score wasn't too bad, considering. haha.

and today. fringe prac n choir prac. well. wat can i say. finished around 9, got back and also ended up falling asleep [but on the bed] haha at least i woke up. n managed to get some work done. though i think its quite sloppy. sigh. feel so jaded i can't be bothered for now. which is bad.

n i feel like my temper's getting shorter n shorter. which happens once in a while i guess. general malaise? heh. annoyed with anything n everything. watever. freaking scared for sats II cos i do not want to end up retaking. like. should do it once and do it well then it'll save me lots of trouble.

these days i wake up not wanting to go to school. interminable school days. but i shouldn't complain.. my timetable is actually quite okay except for mondays.

hmm. yay dad's back:) haha. have lots of nice things. though i wonder when i'll find time to watch my dvds. but at least i have them! actually i wonder wat i'll do if the real show comes to town. if i go watch it live as well it mite be like wasting money. o well. nvm. tt can come later:p

today's lunch was hilarious. kinda pitied the waiter.. was his 2nd day and he was so apologetic about everyth n kept saying "that's a gd question.." and went to ask his boss. anyway. first my dad ordered a pot of tea [share with mom] and then later the waiter came back saying "i'm v sorry but my boss has just informed me that they broke all the teapots" found it really funny.. either the pple there are v clumsy or the shelf collapsed or sth..

and then later dad's cup of tea came along.. first came the cup [with the tea] and the saucer.. then the spoon.. then the milk.. so my dad was like "why's it coming in bits n pieces" . i guess i was in quite an amused mood. was thinking "bits and pieces" was a v interesting way to describe it.

anyway.. dance night was good!:) albeit kind of short actually. but i guess they can't keep up dancing for that long hmm. wat else. there's band+chamber on monday.. am sure they'll be good too:)

k am getting chased off as usual. well. at least i cleared up my table today.. no longer relegated to the v sad state of having only a rectangle of space [where my foolscap is] to do my work while the rest of the table is piled up with stuff. heh.

yay. bio prac test and 2.4 = over! woohoo~ haha:) am totally going to flunk bio prac.. i dunno how i managed to take so much time doing the expt till i had no time to finish. well. am hoping to get double digits haha seems bit impossible though.

yeah. that's quite a load off my mind. given that i woke up on sunday morning with this sinking feeling that i'd have to run 2.4 the next day. and today was hilarious.. talk about moodswings. i was rather grumpy in the morning. then halfway thru chem tut i started making my ridiculous comments [haha] and the worst of it was that me ser n raphael are right in front in full sight so ms tan kept asking us wat was so funny..

phys i was trying to figure out some quantum thingy which i understood wrongly during the lect growl. and for once i sort of paid attention during bio lect. well at least i wasn't doing something else but somehow i don't remember much of wat she said. besides her "don't marinate 60 pieces of pork with 2 bowls of pineapple juice".

math was quite funny too. somehow dasheng started calling siewjin a goldfish. and making weird noises all the way. i really think he was suffering from junming withdrawal symptoms. but it was v funny;p *gloop gloop* haha. and i think we totally tried mrs lim's patience during gp until she had to bribe us with lollipops if we kept quiet. but later she changed it to a threat of doing a summary [somehow tt always works] and she looked so smug that she'd thought of a solution to shut us up;p

yeah. had a really good laugh today after all. probably cos i was crazy. but still. very amusing:)

oh rite and during bio prac we could hear dr chan shouting at 3g in the lab directly below.. he kept diaoing andrew fang [i think] and was like "good boy!" when he did something correctly. i think the one of the funny things abt bio prac is when everyone's quietly doing their work and then we can all hear dr chan really clearly.. n then we'll all start laughing and if mr chan happens to be around then he'll be like "chem speaks very loudly but bio is very soft" or sth like tt. the original context being that usually we mug more for chem than bio or sth n then bio will give u unexpected results.

yah. and jan was saying.. 8 pracs for concert [fringe item].. is tt enough? n i'm like hmm.. doesn't sound like it'll be.. sigh. super busy. and i still haven't started on sat 2 math. help:s

hmm. not entirely happy with pw but i guess i kinda expected it. heck. anyway had a great lunch with lyd:) miss her lots. and got to talk to joon today! on the way to bluemoo. yup. haha joon the rabbit. she says the most hilarious things. she and pingying are such an amusing pair.
i guess it is true that once u move on u don't have that much in common with yr old frens and u naturally grow apart. but like lyd sed at least u actually realise that u haven't seen each other for sometime and try to meet up. yeah. keeps it going anyway. better than just letting it go. though it happens v often. life consists of a lot of meetings and partings. hmm. something like that.

anyway just now i was thinking about it and decided i have very high expectations for all sorts of things and therefore get easily annoyed when things do not match up to wat i expect. which is bad.. kind of like a short temper. should just take it as a learning experience. my mood swings are really erratic. candice can probably testify to tt:p find that i only go mad with pple i'm really comfortable with. if not pple'll probably just look at me askance.

yeah. jan just reminded me its 2 weeks to ve and fringe is quite unready. means that i'm going to be super busy the nxt 2 weeks. sigh. wats new. hope we can put up a gd show:) we had better anyway.

listening to candice's sissel cd.. her voice is lovely:) i'm so glad i have my divine cd too haha:) and it was interesting finding out that jiahui likes enya and loreena mckennitt. the type i suddenly got interested in!:)

ugh. i've just spent like 4 hrs doing the programme stuff. the worst thing is that it just seems so easy. like. okay photos. cut out heads n stuff, dump them on the filmstrip, voila. u're done! yarrite. there's all the crap resizing and layers and stuff. i wonder if there's any better software besides adobe. and i'm not even halfway thru the individual strip. groan. 40 more heads to find. help. my head is spinning already frm staring at the comp and all the alignment. aargh.

anyway. don't noe why i was quite sian at the beginning of choir and was making all manner of spastic comments to candice:) haha. spouting nonsense would be more like it. and tiff can't count haha. she's hilarious:) glad she's nxt to me for competition arrangement! haha:) but i feel short. and got to watch dance night preview! so lovely:) makes me wish i'd taken ballet sometimes haha. anyway i foresee going broke soon. all the flowers to buy.

o yes and finally all the common test results are back. somehow after waiting for so long i feel kinda apathetic abt them already. well. i'm quite satisfied i guess. kind of kept to my goal since last yr haha. hopefully my end goal works out too:)

and there's this fri to look forward to! and nxt sat!:) yay.. happy time~ but 1st i've got to sort out this picture thingy groan. too tired to do anymore. even though i fell asleep on the floor for 2 hrs just now:) i guess a mattress would have been better. but was a gd rest:)

surprisingly i haven't fallen asleep [without intending to] this week. i think its reverse psychology. like when there's a lot of work due and stuff then i'll feel tired n end up sleeping. and when the stuff's not so pressing then more relaxed n less tired somehow. interesting huh.

o it was gd talking to lijia today:) should go venezia and mug with her n joon sometime again:)

ooh. tired. better make sure i don't get myself sick though. with serene n yonglai on either side of me coughing/sneezing/sniffing. its quite amazing how ser managed to pass her sickness to yonglai past me.

all our songs are so tiring.. i think i'm close to shouting half the time. like there's dravidian where me n poor candice have to sing running notes [the melody] for the whole song unlike the other parts cos they sometimes sing the notes which define the beat. and suite which is spposed to be fierce. and pseudo-yoik which requires high a. and solfeggio which has a super loud high f.
nvm. i shall be happy tt i've zhiyin n tiff beside me n candice in front of me during competition pracs:)

anyway. haha! i think choir gave me inspiration.. i did the 1st qn of chem s half before choir n half after it. hopefully its correct! whee~ o it was gd seeing chris on thurs n pam today:)

haha for the first time in a loong looong time i felt like getting up [frm bed] today:) yay! i think i slept 10hrs haha clar the pig. don't care already. anyways. there should be holidays every month. or every 3 weeks.

heh. the uni talk thing yesterday was actually quite interesting. just tt now i find myself wondering how i'm going to get into any us uni. ugh.

anyways can't think of anything else. i must go and plough on with complex numbers. i'm only here cos i got stuck on one of the first few qns bleargh.

yup still haven't figured out why i got so depressed just now. but nevermind. maybe its fine now. i don't know if its me being cranky but why do i keep flaring up suddenly. haha. maybe its stress huh. my impatience drives me nuts sometimes. n i can't do freaking complex numbers! ugh. very annoyed with it rowl growl. shall sleep soon enough. at least only monday is a long day for me. and thurs kind of.

well. somehow i was happier yesterday. so weird. though math was good:) v relieved. it was interesting sitting with aud too. fruitful discussion. yep. had another little run-in with my mom. i guess she's just worried for me sigh. but it blows over quite fast. like in the car i get annoyed. and after 1 or 2 hrs at home its okay again. well i guess tts good too. watever.

anyways i can't find v much to say. too full of thoughts [?] yeah. should go sort them out.

lalala. clar is on a high at the moment! very happy with physics. though considering the stupid mistakes i made.. or maybe if i see the percentage tmr i won't feel so wonderful but well.. feel like i redeemed myself from the terrible lect test haha. hope math will be fine. its so annoying having to wait so long for results. though if they're bad i dont' want them back heh.

ah anyways last night was hilarious:) poor poor jan haha. always the victim of everyone's diaoing huh.. nvm we still love u anyway:) wahaha:) though had a little run-in with parents over the dinner thing thanks to someone being 1.5hrs late heh. but it worked out fine i think. yup.

yeah. and it was nice talking to yunlei today:) sort of like catching up. haven't talked to lots of pple in a loong time. o yes n i find tt our math tutorials are hilarious.. mr chan never fails to say something funny..

haha yesterday when i was having dinner with my mom at al dente the menu had something called pizza primavera. very amusing. just after spending dunno how long singing io son la primavera. but its a lovely song:)

and its been so long since i had a full course [western] meal. like. since france. haha. just tt it didn't come course by course. and i don't think they drink soup very much. but i always feel super full after every meal. and remember kai-lyn n yunlei sharing their food. n cheukka with her silly comments:)

aargh. this part of a song is stuck in my head but i don't noe e rest of the song/title/artist! rar. yay!! i finally found it:)
anyway. we can still go for dance nite after all!:) *happy*

ooh. feel good. i sat down for 1h30 n did work. while listening to music. but i actually didn't get up for such a long time! haha. though it didn't seem like i did that much. but well. better than nothing i guess. and tmr's friday! yay:) and maybe i'll get to meet lyd n pam on sunday:) yay somemore:)

i think i can't put on the aircon straight away at night. if not i'll fall asleep [like the past 2 nights. bleargh. tues nite i fell asleep at 9 while studying chem prac n woke up at 4 to mug. yesterday i fell asleep at 10, heck cared, woke up n was almost late for sch].

yup. it was quite funny actually today during math lect aft the april fool's joke aud turned around n was like "do u remember last last yr when serene got us to hide in the toilet during a math" [i forgot exact words] and later i was telling chris tt i finally gave lyd her bday present n abt our april fool's joke.. then her reply "rmb in sec 4 where stupid ser choreographed tt toilet stunt to skip a math?" haha. fond memories huh rofl it was kinda spas but at least its sth funny to remember:p

n yeah. speaking of sec 4 class. quite impressed at 412's very successful class outing. hope we can have one too! haha. i want to see mrs kwan! blahh. maybe i can coax her into coming for choir concert:D plus ms ning n ms tan! wahaha:) it'll be fun.

i wish they'd hurry up with the rest of the common test results. somehow i don't like the waiting. like. the feeling of something unfinished. and i also hope i did fine. start feeling quite paranoid sometimes.

and sigh the fringe thingy. i think our songs are kind of boring. hmm. but for them to be more interesting need percut rite? aiyah. quite confused here. and i feel so tired everyday there doesn't seem to be any respite. feeling like i need my holiday again haha.

nvm i will go and sort myself out again.

oh! funny church thing heh. we were learning 1 Corinthians 15. so our tcher asked us to take 30 seconds to visualise wat our idea of heaven would be like. so the 1st person he picked to share with us was benjamin. who said his idea was a bed. can sleep. -amused- [so was the tcher]
so tcher went on to ask his sister jasmine who said "he wants a bed i want the pillows n the bolster" tt girl is always the joker:p
in which tcher sed tt we wake up just to go back to sleep [as in wake up on judgement day]
so amos said we must be watchful on earth wat so cannot sleep so go to heaven n sleep [or rest]

was quite hilarious:p we're all so lacking in sleep.

yes. well i remembered a few posts back serene [lee] said on her blog that something's missing in her life. and yesterday jm did too. and i realised i felt the same way. just tt, like they said. its just so easy to push it away when u're busy and have other stuff to do. like. oh i have sth else to finish forget it i'll think about it another time. and u never really go and figure out wat it is. which now come to think of it is actually quite important.

yes. well. anyways i figured something i'll enjoy doing and tts learning another language! haha. or doing sth abt my french anyway. quite rusty. but i still havent' figured out wat to do about the feeling-too-tired-to-talk-to-anybody part. today my excuse was tt after singing dravidian and suite de lorca my throat/voice = super tired. actually that happens quite a lot. like my mom will ask me stuff in the car n i wont' want to answer cos i'm really tired of using my voice haha.

oh yes. so i was sitting beside the pool thinking. and found sth i like to do! it was actually quite peaceful. nice windy night with the sound of running water. but i felt quite hermit-ish cos everyone else was in the clubhouse talking. well.

hmm. common tests are over. finally! i woke up feeling so happy:) but somehow after the paper i felt so sian. like. don't feel like doing anything. wat's there in the form of entertainment? movies? nothing nice that i really wanted to watch. though my girl was funny. but somehow i felt v sorry for the little guy. like being unhappy cos he was stuck with the gals. and not accepted into the gang. and having to hurt his best fren to get into the gang. maybe tts wats called heartwrenching.

anyways. to continue about my sianness. felt like tt even around my friends. and it wasn't just one particular group of pple. was just in general. which is really sad. maybe cos i was hot and sticky and tired. feel better after a bath anyway. maybe i need nice new songs. maybe i need sleep. or maybe like junming says, i need a vacation to go and find myself again. haha. sounds bit cheesy. but sounds like sth i need. and just aft lect tests i was thinking i needed a vacation but tts not v possible.

o yes and for anyone who hasn't heard about my screw-up.. realised at 9sth yesterday tt it was the deadline for registration for may sats.. so i rushed it.. and then after i registered they sed it'll be held on 8th may cos 1st may in spore is labour day. freak la. maybe tts the day after choir concert. how screwed. and then june sats is no better cos i'll come back frm italy on 3rd june and june sats are on 5th june. so basically quite screwed cos of choir. well. hope tmr will be a nice day.

oh i forgot to add. alvin's "feet jackets" [socks]; jiahui's weird dreams; hearing abt ben and his "why don't u put fren in the canal [kennel] n i think there's somemore. when i remember i'll add it in heh.

haha. today's mugging was quite funny. and as usual tiffy wasn't being sane. haha. i have this suspicion she only pretends to be sane normally:D and i also never realised how much jan gets diaoed by alvin. and vice versa. very interesting there. o yeah n jiahui started going crazy later on too.

hums. last nite of mugging! whee~ i was almost going to type the same thing as the end of the last post just that i realised in time. yes. tmr will be fun:) goody. seems like i've been stuck at home/mugging forever.

hums seems like math was okay after all. after checking numbers with serene. haha. hopefully we're both right. whee~ though i somehow felt tt i wasn't concentrating enough on the paper. maybe cos it was an afternoon paper. [and it was hot and humid and therefore annoying] then i freaked out after the paper when candice asked me about the volume thing but i think its correct after all! -whew-

ugh. i think i will go and sleep somemore. mom made me wake up at 8sth. and i was so groggy i couldn't do math properly anyway... got this p&c qn wrong n somehow couldn't think how the answer came about. but after napping i realised. so well.

and there were like 3 explanation questions! i didn't read the explanations as well as i thought i had so had to come up with some decent crap on the spot. hopefully it was correct. and the linear interpolation thing! cheat me. i thought it was in the notes but i forgot when actually the one in the notes is only for newton raphson. so had to formulate something on the spot anyway. o well. only 1 paper left! yay:) can almost taste freedom. some sort of freedom anyway haha.

heh. bio. wat can i say. oh well. i can't work up much enthusiasm to mug for bio somehow. shall have to rectify that. somehow. but tt can come later haha. now for math. at least math doesn't require mugging. as compared to chem/bio. ugh. anyways. agree with all of jireh's complaints about exams in the school hall. so so true. and i didn't realise there was drilling until today. but luckily it stopped after a while.

anyways. i was watching a bug's life taped from sunday. its so cute!:) haha. i like the circus bugs. but i don't like bugs in real life. and the bloopers were funny too. yay clar is happy:)

alrighty. poor clar is confused. was tt paper easy/ok/difficult? forget it. shouldn't bother thinking anymore its over. anyway its actually quite funny now tt i look back at it. but for C3 i stared at the first part n freaked out "how?? how to show its a weak acid??" and then looked down and realised "die if i can't do 1st part & the other 2 are linked then i'm dead" so i sat there n panicked until i squashed out an answer. and then the same thing happened for the pH thingy. thinks "i've seen that before! on saturday! in the notes! how come i can't do it now!" sat n panicked somemore until i realised. haha.

ah. okay. i just realised some mistakes thanks to hk haha. talk about rushing for time.. hopefully there aren't anymore.

anyways. i better go make sure i noe my stuff for bio. very scared of essays. n structured questions which i can't understand [as candice says]

bleah. sometimes i hate myself for sleeping in the afternoon. anyways. i realised i spent 5 hrs on homeostasis alone. maybe cos i was writing it out neatly and stuff. grrr. haven't done physics at all. freak. horrible studying.

anyways. i have rediscovered that instrumental music is nice! i don't really know wat its called actually cos i'm just koping soundtracks. new-age orchestra?? hmm. anyways. like frm pirates n lotr n finding nemo n anna n the king n monsters inc n x-men 2 haha. but each one is different. can't describe it somehow. elusive. or maybe my music vocab is just sucky haha. but i like tt type of music so i'm happy! whee~

oh i forgot to add the horse at disney on ice was so cute too:) cos its kinda hampered by the fact tt there're 2 people making up the horse [i think] so it has to move quite slowly.. very cute:D

back from disney on ice! the skating was lovely. am quite satisfied cos tts wat i went there to see. kind of. haha. tho i didn't like gaston so the parts centering around him were bit draggy. anyway yes. the skating. so fluid and graceful! like they never stop moving.. just slide round and round.. haha.. and then the pair skaters were so cool.. dunno how the guy can skate and hold up the gal at the same time..

yeah. i realised i only manage to appreciate such things now. cos my mom says she's been asking me to go n watch disney since time immemorial and i never wanted to.. then suddenly this yr i decide i want to. i guess its cos i don't like disney stories much.. but this yr i decided i wanted to go bcos i wanted to see the skating. cos like i think my dad asked us to go watch saltimbanco when it came in 99 but i didn't want.. then somehow i came to my senses in 01 n i went to watch alegria! yay:) and last yr 'o' in vegas:) somehow nowadays when i see any of those productions with showy music and dancing and stuff it reminds me of vegas:)

and then there's piano too.. i remember i really hated lessons when i was small [like 6 to 11 or so] and i'd hang around hoping that my tcher wud call and say she's not coming.. then i'd be so happy when the lesson was cancelled.. think i only really appreciated music when i went to jkms. and saw ms koh play. haha. talk about inspiration. yeah and then there's choir too. when i see all the zai music pple.

yeah. rather unproductive day though. maybe i should try to sleep less. haha. wat a lazy clar. shall go off n attempt to finish kidney.

ah. seem to feel rather productive today. but when i actually look at it maybe not. cos i've been awake since 8 and taking off like 1.5hrs for meals and 1/2h reading n 1/2h playing piano n 1/2h online. oh nevermind. feel sufficiently satisfied for now anyhow. at least i didn't feel sleepy in the afternoon like i usually do. maybe cos its hols. or cos i slept 10hrs at night. haha. i should stop falling asleep with the light on. which goes to show how lazy i am.

oh i just remembered something funny about last wed. someone [either one of the serenes i think. forgot] asked ms ning for her handphone number. and ms ning didn't noe. [typical blur ms ning haha:p] and so she scrolled down to "me" in her phone book where her number was stored. in which ms tan had nothing to say in her defence. quite amusing somehow. maybe its the way hannah informed us of the fact tt her number was stored under "ME" heh.

hmm. i don't think today was very productive either. for that matter i hardly ever seem to be productive! sigh. nothing seems to go in whether at home/in sch/outside. must think of new methods to study. hmm. and i was quite sleepy in the afternoon. i think if i'd been at home i'd have fallen asleep. as usual. but surprisingly as it got darker i got more awake. maybe its some reflex action heh.

bleah. i see long dreary hols in front of me. filled with mugging. hopefully it pays off man. horrible way to spend hols. feel like watching some movie but doesn't seem like there's anything much. oh i'm quite happy cos i bought 3 shirts at a go yesterday:D and given tt i'm so fussy its quite an accomplishment! haha.

man. tiring day yesterday. came to sch for 3h20 of physics [lect plus converted prac] and then gp was free block:) yay! lect was hilarious.. since i had pam behind me n raphael n candice on either side of me.. the amount of corny jokes pam n raphael came up with.. u couldn't imagine.. it was so painful.. anyway 2 samples here

on the mcq with the 4 diodes [for full-wave rectification]
courtesy of raphael
qn : why are the routes [taken by the current] like bus routes?
ans : because there're terminals

pam
qn : why are the routes dangerous for oats?
ans : because there are a lot of die-oats [diodes]

and raphael's winning joke for the board thingy was:
qn : why did the hot chocolate start to sing?
ans : because it was cocoa lee

yeah. well. oh yes and serene who is always so intelligent.
she was being annoying as usual and whining her head off. so i was saying "hmm.. i seem to hear a banshee around.." [obviously referring to her] and serene was like "really?? where?" tt was really classic

then our . ahem . learning journey to chinatown. haha. it was how sad. although a few pple weren't there. anyways we walked frm sch to mrt [in the hot sun at 2sth] frm mrt to chinatown. stood in the middle of the road deciding where to go. ended up at the food centre and ate and ate and ate. yes.

went to ben's house. haha i think his room door is very interesting.. it really looked like a wall to me.. then when mingze slid the panels apart i was like woah.. cool:) hehe. n now noe why ben's forever online.

bluemoo was good!:) =apologises for looking sian/bored/watever= it was really quite a tiring day for me.. not tt i was bored! haha somehow i thought nanu was nicer than budak pantai.. maybe cos they were doing pop songs and the lead singer sounded like one of those pop stars. but budak was funny:D they're like. comic genii.

anyways too lazy to go for open house today heh oops my house feels too comfy:p but yesterday was fun:) very amusing company:) btw jan somehow i never knew u squeaked so much haha:p u don't seem to get that agitated when its just the gals [or am i wrong?]

haha. finally ssef is over. didn't get anything. sigh. well. for the amount of effort we put in i guess that's kind of expected. and i guess our project wasn't good enough. o well.

anyways it was really quite horrible today.. so boring there.. luckily there was ting n ser n fiona n serene t around.. and lovely surprise! ms tan and ms ning came!:) haha so happy!:) made going there worth it man:D haha ms tan smacked me for not noticing them.. sed i was dao.. but i really didn't see them lar not my fault.. i think i was daoing ser n went back to my booth to do chem tut and then ms tan sed hi and -then- i realised. was really really good seeing them again;) ms tan's hilarious. and so cute!:) everyth she says she'll pat ms ning's shoulder n say "dui4 ma2?" n ms ning will nod. yeah. miss having them teach us.

yup. so me n serene coerced them into coming for choir concert. hopefully they'll keep 7th may night free:) haha i told ms tan it'll be her bday present then she stared at me and "its so far away!" n as usual was diaoing hannah abt putting chem s as 3rd choice for s papers. heh. o yeah n ms tan sed beh looks toot. and the poor guy sounded so pathetic when he told her "yeah i know lah her [serene's] classmates all think i'm ugly" haha:p

congrats to those who did well! and to those who're like me.. well.. it was a good experience:) quite interesting actually. and explaining it to pple is like quite challenging sometimes. wonder how choir went. haha.

gp common test was okay i guess. given tt i fell asleep at 9.30. sigh. getting too lazy. and tmr there's extra chem aft pe again. well. at least i'm almost done with my tut. but i can't stand her nitro notes. very messy.

right. so i've the night left to finish chem s tutorial n maths s [3 or 4 more questions] now why didnt' i finish them on friday.. sigh. seem to find chem s tutorials quite tedious. which is quite ridiculous because i chose to take it in the 1st place so i should be finding it interesting. which it is! but just being lazy i guess. as usual. don't seem to want to work for anything i want.

yesterday's dinner was fun fun fun! haha. even though -ahem- we spent 2 hrs waiting for pam. who, as usual, didn't have enough money. and lyd was so delighted with boxing gloves. and scolding pam for being unclassy when she herself wasn't being very classy;p and wistfully staring at all the sofa seats and was very satisfied when one table freed up and she finally got to sit on her darling sofa. yup. pity i couldn't stay longer... didn't have much time to catch up with them. lyd n pam together are hilarious. though we missed chris *glare* and jane *double glare*

ssef frm mon to wed. groan. hope it turns out fine. oh went to the career fair yesterday. wasn't particularly helpful to me like i told jan. except that i got to ask about the delf thingy. wonder if i'll actually go to france and study heh.

hmm. colorgenics is uncannily spot-on w.r.t. [haha diffn?] mood analysis. www.colorgenics.com! go try it! heh. though it kind of describes the whole week not so much just today. heh. like the way i feel cooped up. n how tired i feel. and the stress! the source of which i've no idea. bit scary the way its so accurate. more the last 3 paragraphs.

Results:
You are longing for some love and affection at this time - not that you have been deprived of tender loving care - but there are times when everyone needs to try something new or to go 'somewhere' else to perhaps experience that little extra 'understanding'.

You are feeling very vulnerable at this time. Nothing seems to be going in the right direction - business wise, private-life wise, everything. You need some emotional security and an environment which could possibly provide fewer problems, but the way you are feeling you can't be bothered even to make the effort.

You feel tired - worn out and listless. The last thing that you want to do is to be in an open conflict with those around you that are forever tormenting you. What to do? That's the rub. You are feeling that you are being choked - unable to breathe.

Unacceptable restrictions have been forced upon you and this is resulting in severe frustration and stress. You are looking for independence and consequently you shy away from any restriction and avoid obligations of anything which might prove hampering. You are being subjected to considerable pressure and want to escape from it so that you can obtain what you need, but unfortunately at this particular moment in time you lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this.

Trying to cope with conditions which you think are beyond your capabilities has led to considerable anxiety and stress. You now feel that you are not capable of coping with this situation and indeed any situation which could arise from what you consider to be your personal inadequacy.

woah. very relieved:) and happy:) haha. after worrying. anyways it was quite funny mrs cheong was saying they can get it by 11.. then raphael n serene were like "clarissa's dying already" so she should go get it now.. so mrs cheong was like "huh?? really ah?! okay okay i'll go n get now" n she ran off:p so nice:)
yup congrats to all those who did well!:) n a level results.. like woah.. weiying!! haha.. and kelvin n sicheng n all..

quite scared. we'll be like them next year.. hopefully will be as happy haha. i think i'm kind of struggling at the moment.

anyways i forgot to mention something on monday during math s poor val was stuck between serene [who had her bf with her] and me.. and i was like raining insults on serene half the time and val was quite amused. n then i realised i only do that to serene haha quite poor thing.

rather tired now. don't know why. off to rest. quite worried about ssef.. poster is undone, haven't practised presentation since last nov.. i still hafta go back to sch for choir.. dunno how also. n i think my mom has got something on in the morning.

sigh. suddenly yesterday after all the tests i felt so drained [like peiying says, though i'm not sure its the same reason] and very fatigued. and so. cooped up. like i was complaining to fiona/hk.. i'm either at home/in school. and its always the same route home, blah blah blah. its so tiringly routine and boring. study for tests.. oh yay they're over.. time to catch up on tutorials.. i want a holiday.. a real holiday like french immersion/vegas/sth to just play. and relax.

haha. this is actually quite funny. i think i only felt this way occasionally after june [?] but definitely not 1st term. quite sad that it actually happens now and then. tho actually during syf period i was feeling quite desperate about lagging work. but that's different. from feeling sick and tired of everything.

anyways.. at least i think i've nice dinner on saturday to look forward to:) hopefully. might have to go to ntu in the morning to do ssef stuff though. means i might miss sectionals. hmm. speaking of which ssef means i'll miss 1 1/2days of school. not very good actually. sigh.

and ao results are out tmr too i think. i'm quite worried really. don't know why. maybe cos i din like the compre passage? can't remember already. and i noe i was one of the few who did the passe simple compo topic. hopefully am being paranoid and i'll get the grade i want. then can go out n celebrate:D heh. but the way i'm feeling u'd think i already know i didn't get wat i want. aaugh. help me. somehow seems like i don't care about it anymore though. cared much more about o level french than ao level.
anyways all the best to pple getting back chinese!:) hope u all do fine:)

o yeah and today's pe was. well. can't find a word to describe it. ms chan was making us doing some pilate [sp?] exercises or something like that and it was like choir breathing exercises. man. candice n me n jiahui were like. okay.

haha i looked at my previous post starting with "well well well" n reminded me of fiona's very pathetic joke. anyhow. band concert was gd! would have been better at a diff venue definitely.. couldn't see most of the players.. bah.. haha.. eunice as the newest member of the softball team was quite funny:p pity they didn't have ensembles though hmm. last yr's percussion one was good:)

and yesterday's mugging was hilarious.. i never knew tiff could be that mad:D rather amazing really haha. self-sufficiency by sleeping on ur own shoulder? and singing all sorts of songs n going crazy.. heh:p and jan was hilarious too.. she's really one for dropping food:) (and chairs haha) n when she scolded ben!! haha.. mingze's chipmunk imitation was v funny too:p can really imagine her when she's a mom getting all flustered over her little kids haha;p n alvin imitating mingze "guys... [followed by grammatically incorrect sentence]" n ben telling jiahui "u've done 7 GOOD qns!! 7 SOLID qns!" the look on jiahui's face was priceless:D haven't laughed that much in a long time. it was fun:).. even tho i don't noe any of them particularly well

well well well. i'm still wondering who told dr chan. dunno felt quite weird. anyway. i shall just forget about it. but haha. well. today's chem lect test. supposed to have 2 more white slips. i wonder. wat does he have against our class.

anyways. yes. screwed up test. plus e long ago screwed up class test. plus a substandard chem s tut. not gd. nvm i shall redeem myself in common tests hopefully. better make sure i do anyhow. n nxt weeks tests!

at least tmr's the band concert.. 1812!! haha:) wanna see eunice hitting the bass drum heh:p i wonder if i've d/led the mp3 before hmm.

sitting here eating junk food. haha. rather unhealthy but havent done that for quite some time. and reaching home before its dark! i seem to say the same thing every week but sometimes every day just seem so long ( or maybe cos i always fall asleep in the evenings :p )

tumdeedum. miss lyd n chris suddenly. and i wanna find new songs! or nice new cds to play at night so i won't fall asleep. but actually sometimes i wonder if they really help me or i'm just playing them for the sake of it.

i'm quite pissed off at the moment. actually i'm not very sure why. can't pinpoint the exact reason. let me recount the story of my 1st white slip. how lovely. it wasn't even a real break.. just decided to go to canteen and get something to eat. and then i met sharon. who said "wow u still dare to use string ah" and then after that candice said "how come eunice and the rest disappeared" and then dr chan called me. and then i realised. quite slow huh. considering sarah was looking at how guai1 she looked in the reflection frm the notice board glass before we stepped into the canteen.

was kinda surprised he remembered my name. but not good. anyways. and then he was like telling mrs tan and this other tcher [dunno name] "this is amerson's sister.. u noe?? amerson??" and i was thinking.. so wat if i'm his sister.. trying to say that he's so smart n successful n watever other crap n here i am breaking sch rules? maybe i'm being oversensitive or sth but anyway pity i couldn't say it [e so wat part]. if not i'd probably get another white slip for like audacity or disrespect or some crap. [okay somehow i don't think that would have happened but nvm] i think i kind of understand why leslie wud get pissed off when tchers confuse him with his bro.
interesting huh so many thoughts flitting thru while i was standing there.

anyways. and then siewjin also kenaed white slip frm him. cos e back of her blouse came untucked. i don't think it was very obvious in the 1st place. how stupid is that. jane informed me that she has taken to wearing her sweater everywhere. which is quite smart actually. just that its a bit hot. haha. and kahli says she gets e guys to buy food for her haha:p i find it most unreasonable because i think i still looked presentable. but of cos maybe i'm wrong. i guess i was kind of asking for it by not abiding by the sch rules but still am quite disgruntled to say the least.

oh it was quite a difference seeing mag with black hair haha:p i mean yeah, should wear nice and neat uniform and stuff but u don't have to overdo it.. like there was the other time i think lyd was telling me that someone got booked cos the tcher sed her blouse was too tucked out. n i think she herself got booked for a skirt that was slightly too short. that's really quite ridiculous. k i think i've ranted enough. and there're more things which i don't care to mention here.

anyways it was interesting going for lunch:) jane n crys n kahli n lynette. realised all of them take econs. don't feel like writing much more.

stupid chem s which i don't know how to do and am guessing blindly. feeling half tired and frustrated cos i've been sleeping so much [5 hr nap yesterday, 9 hrs at night, 2.5hr nap today.. who can sleep that much? only me] and therefore have tons of stuff to do. giving me crap abt science stuff again. it's always the same thing somehow. really gets on my nerves. it's not like i wanted it to be this way. totally screwed up.

to top if off yahoo is annoying me again with the extra side searching thing which is freaking spastic and extra and unnecessary.
bah. k feeling better after letting all tt steam off. tmr will be a better day. at least there's no math s haha. oh on a side note now our math tutorials are quite hilarious somehow the things mr chan says are v amusing:D

okay. its been a week! i guess i didn't have much to say. anyways. i think i'm almost recovered frm lack of sleep the past 2 nights. 5 hr nap! ugh. and a pile of work waiting for me. ugh somemore.

anyways i think i was too zoned out during the whole camp to actually evaluate it. but guess it was quite good:) after all the planning n executing stuff n helping with the logistics n food n everyth. n preparing for bfast at 1am haha:)

everyone was quite enthu abt e games [slightly surprising haha:] and then i think the j1 batch seems quite bonded. which is good:) though we didn't talk to them much oops:s but it was fun sitting in the altos' room listening to everyone. albeit a bit antisocial heh:p while poor zhiyin n jiahui were sitting around like vagrants cos they let everyone bathe 1st:p o yeah really appreciated the stuff frm ben n alvin n mingze... it was rather unexpected heh and e stuff frm jan too:) n fiona. n sarah. :)

e boardwalk was nice! kind of scenic n stuff. and the chalet was quite huge too. just not very clean. haha. and very ulu. such that we spent $11.70 on cab to parkway. well. n met mingjing n her sis n mom! quite cool. yeah. n we were really fortunate to get seats together [10 pple!] in the foodcourt it being kinda crowded. yup. had a good time in all. now. dinner!

nice funky jazzy songs today!:) haha. they sound quite fun:) think concert will be more varied. n probably more enjoyable.. groovy beat! haha. and the "if i can help help help somebody" tune is stuck in my head now. well. should get used to it huh. since it almost always happens. o well. alrite. ought not to be online given that i just watched ice age. its so cute! i like the mammoth. and the sabretooth tiger was actually quite nice too in the end. glad he didn't die. haha.

haha well its been a week. quite fast. also cos of hari raya holiday. felt quite slack this week cos i rushed horrible bio tutorial on mon. but again i'll have to go read the topic properly since i was just copying off. heh.

sigh. so now i'm a bit backlogged with maths s. so tempted to just leave parts undone n copy the answers on monday but will see how. i still can't get over how i can just spend time trying and trying n not succeeding.

haha and today's physics prac.. i think sometimes me n aud muddle each other up. but its quite funny actually we'll not understand this/that in dc circuits and aud will be like "i'm going to whine at her [mrs cheong] again!" but at least i think we understand in the end. hopefully. okay i just saw last fri's entry and almost the same thing happened. this has to be proof of how similar my fridays are. like the coming home early for once thing too. haha how sad.

o yes this week was 1st chem s session it was quite interesting actually. i mean i was more awake for it than math. maybe cos we discussed quite a bit and then everyone [okay well a few pple] ask questions n stuff. tho somehow i find that getting us to present then tcher present e given answers takes kind of long. but i guess its gd too seeing alternative solutions?

hmm. 1st time i'm back home early in a long looong while. it's been such a long time since i've seen the carpark empty and the sun still shining [well, behind the clouds] when i get home. today's weather was not bad! not as crazily cold as yesterday.. luckily:)

and phys prac was quite fun.. nice n slack;p and it was quite funny seeing audry whining. but anyway. audry asks v interesting questions. which are very good cos they make one think n understand the topic better. o yeah n thanks yaozong for helping me with chem s haha i'm like bugging him for every single little thing:s

yeah. at least last night the sing a song of sixpence weird rhythm tune part was out of my head. but there's tomorrow! aahh. well. i prefer pseudo yoik though its higher. oh yes now there're like 6 sop1s in all so i think i won't have to go up anymore. bit sad it was quite fun switching parts but i think its more comfortable now:D i wonder if he'll really give us that dunno-how-many-parts song to sing.. it'll be fun.. but challenging.

oh yeah. quote of yesterday would be junwan asking "what dropped?" when mr teo collapsed on the floor. couldn't stop laughing when pingying told me.. n "should i sprinkle some water?" n poking. n "is he still breathing?" but i guess it would have been rather scary:s hope he's all right.

yay! and tonight i think i can finally sleep before 1.. for the whole of the past week i've not slept before 1. except maybe last night which was 12.45 but well its almost 1 anyway. shall have to go n ponder over whether i feel like going to sch early to do bio prac. hmm. if he's going to give us another block to do it.. i won't bother! haha.

ahh. pe wasn't that bad surprisingly. n luckily she allowed us to take home gp to do. haha we were spposed to start on it in class but heck was doing maths s with ser instead. anyways it really makes more sense to have a proper timed exercise at home! ah anyway so pe was that trial napha test thingy which was so slack.. touch ur toes for 5 counts, at least 5 or 6 chin-ups, run ard 4.5rounds in 12mins, sbj. haha. yay!

maths s. woah. this is like the 2nd worst lecture.. after mammalian histology.. haha.. she was going like a shinkansen.. [i think for histo, ms teh was going like an airplane] and i was freezing and couldn't copy very fast. o well. wasn't that bad considering how i always nearly fell asleep in french last yr. guess it requires more brainwork. like i was telling val i wanted 2 pairs of ears [and another brain too haha]

okay! clar feels really really stupid. like chem halogen tutorial is so freaking hard. and chem s is definitely not much better. but 1st let me gripe abt halogens. i think i sat there for a few hrs per day for 3 days, thinking. or rather, staring at the tutorial and all the organic chem notes, wondering how in the world to get the answer. its so futile. given that [like my mom said] i don't even have much knowledge in the first place so thinking wouldn't help v much. which is actually quite funny in a pathetic sense:p

yeah. so i'll end up bugging yz/serene on sms/poor hannah online haha. and then when i find out the answer, its actually not that hard.. bahh.. this is really the first time i feel so so so pathetic! haha. interesting experience come to think of it.

-feels round- actually last night i felt rounder. but anyways.. ritz carlton! whoo~! i think its like posher than vegas.. probably cos of the art pieces n classical music. as compared to like casinos n smokers haha. service also seems better. or maybe its my memory:p

anyways it was a good dinner. cousin was amusing me with tales of nonsensical army stuff such as their xmas party and cny celebration. and we were talking abt choir stuff cos he was frm tpjc choir.

oh.. yes i was rather amused by my other cousin who came over in the morning.. she described her p5 teacher as "heartless" bcos she gave a lot of extra hw.. and then she was talking about her hamsters [which she used to be scared of handling, don't know about now] and saying "aiyah.. the sun always shines on them [their cage].. dunno whether they'll survive or not.. nvm lah if they die i don't want anymore.. so troublesome to keep.."

yeah. i love my cousin's grand piano. she's so lucky! with a huge house somemore. but like i said last dec i wudn't wanna live in it. and last night the sky was so clear! saw so many stars:) pretty starry night:)

bah. throat is still quite phlegmy. drink water!

hmm. rather sad reunion dinner. only realised the full extent of it when giving uncle n aunt a lift home and aunt was talking. yeah. rather a dysfunctional family my dad has. so the table was unusually empty and quiet.

yeah so the aunt whom we gave a lift to was like its so sad for grandpa cos he's so old and still got such problems.. supposed to enjoy old age and stuff but now like tt.. then i got all depressed too. well.

oh the dog's cute:) though actually i think its kinda ugly. and overactive. but it's still a nice loving dog. wish i had one! bleah. golden retriever! or a lab. or a mix.

yeah i'm quite tired now. left grandpa's hse [in tampines] at 9.20.. fetched aunt n uncle to woodlands and then went to pump petrol and then come back home. at 10.30. its like from west to east to north to west. sleep!!! haha.

yes i agree with serene tt doing s papers makes ur blanco-ing skills very polished. anyways. cny eve. quite uneventful really. 413 class lunch was quite good. haven't talked properly to puee n joon n pam in a long while:) pity everyone went off quite early though.

hmm. hope i won't be bored tonight. given that i can't speak dialect haha and its mostly adults there tonight. bleah. nvm there's still the dog to play with. hopefully.

ohh.. krishna n wuiming were really good today:) lovely! josh groban songs! ahh. i think i like foreign language songs. even though half the time i havent' the foggiest idea wat they're about.

thankew chris for lending me saltimbanco:) i was quite afraid u wudn't get my msg in time:p

hmm i remembered i wanted to write something but halfway i forgot. well. i'm at qn 8. seems okay for now but i still dunno how to do qn 1 n 3.

ohh! yes.. every monday mrs lim lets us off 10mins early cos we annoy her so much. its quite amusing:p kinda pity her i think we try her patience quite a bit. n luckily don't have to do the summary by tmr if not i'll just collapse;p

k i shall press on n finish maths s n finally feel accomplished

lovely. i'm half-sick and i have to finish my maths s tutorial by tmr so i can hand it up. ugh. and like the whole day pple have been going "haha u've to hand up".. thanks.. .... well. at least i think i won't have to hand it up for a loong time:D although it doesn't help tt i'm quite lousy at linear inequalities.

and looking at serene's/changmou's answers i feel extremely dumb and i'm like.. hmm.. how'm i ever gonna think of such things during exam.. i can't even do it now out of the exam hall.. bleargh. time to go redo the whole thing so it looks nice n presentable n mr chan won't kill me:p

clar thinks she is sick. after having a 5-hr nap [this must be the first time or at any rate it doesn't occur v often] and a sore throat and a blocked nose. ugh:( must hve been all the late nights plus not enough water. haha. well.

oh! i love "there for you" by sarah brightman and josh groban. should get like val n reginald to sing it haha. alright. i shall hafta go get somemore work done.

ah i decided i'd better not post it on my blog i'll tell u personally if u wanna noe the rest of it:)

hmm i must say 2nd auditions were really terribly boring. am very glad we escaped partway to go back n sing our last-yr songs:) it was really fun! haha and hilarious given that half the time we were laughing and i think mr toh would have vomitted blood if he heard us singing like that... but it was still fun:) miss the j3s a lot!! sigh. somehow singing those songs again bring back lots of memories. haha n poor val singing her coyote-part in iddemdem alone. and clara singing alone for crucifixus cos both christine n jan weren't around.

i hope i don't lose my voice. esp with pseudo-yoik. eeks. haha mr toh on singing an octave jump frm middle a to high a "don't u think its a v shiok sound?" or sth like tt.

hmm. clar feels slightly sick. probably lack of water again. n i don't feel like finishing my bfast. not good.

yesterday was hilarious.. junwan's classmates [namely jiaqing n pingying] are jokers.. and she's so blur n gullible!! ahahaha:D but she's v good tempered lah considering wat they did.. haha.. its the 1st time in a looong while i laughed that much:p anyways we were in kfc n then pingying had this coupon for free cone at mac's. so jiaqing gave it to junwan n sed "why don't u go redeem it at the counter?" junwan stared at it "are u sure its still valid?" ahh i'll finish it later gotta go to school to do bio prac n have choir. hmm.

ugh this sucks ssef partner just drove over to my house to get the forms and just before that i discovered that we didn't get dr raj to sign some other form. so there, someone [probably my partner cos he's submitting the form] has to go to ntu. and then he just asked me for a photo! which he didn't remind me abt b4hand so i forgot. lovely. ugh. i really thought it was just digital that was needed yeah the real photo slipped my mind and i thought he reminded me but i forgot. which wasn't the case.

yeah quite sucky. anyways on a happier note i auditioned someone frm jkms today! haha. yay. think she should be able to make it but depends.. o well. auditions are quite interesting:) and i hate using the keyboard! ugh.

haha i seem to find this staying-back-in-sch-till-late thingy quite fun somehow. but not for consecutive days i guess. i lost my treble-clef-metal-bookmark thing!! please tell me sam has it or sth.. or if not then i can find it in its proper condition tmr.. argh;(

hmm auditions were interesting. tho i must say most of them sound very airy which is to be expected but i guess after all the drilling mr toh's given us its kinda imprinted in my mind. like after i see pple like wuiming n other zai pple at jkms/concerts play piano then i can't settle for less

okay i'm kinda done with the jobshadowing report. ugh. i don't like doing reports. feel rather tired. and still got more souvenirs to do. and my fingers feel weird frm bending wire. ugh again. oh i was in quite a laughy mood today though:) which is good:)

choir today. i must say candice u're freaking me out quite a bit. anyways, besides that. got a horrendous scolding frm mr toh. in fact, 2 scoldings. once in the middle of prac and once at the end. basically the point was that we weren't passionate about making music, we had a sucky attitude and weren't bothering and therefore we should hurry up and change cos we're capable of better. and our reward should be enjoying the music.

haha then we all evacuated to the girls' toilet and then they were saying that he was having a bad day n stuff. but inspite of that i still think he made a point. though i think a lot of pple may not have thought so. and yeah so my main point like i was telling hk during the bus trip is that choir is a very classical thing. even though yes i think i wud enjoy "dessert pieces" too. and i think without having gone to jkms and doing grade 8 there plus trying for my dip i wudn't have understood that. bcos i really learnt a lot abt music and making true music there.

yeah forgot to add sth abt comparing choir sessions to my piano lessons. like when prepping for exam i usually just play exam pieces n that's it. so its like just working on classical stuff until aft exams then play more fun songs. and even then its not those pop song kind bcos honestly i think those u can just play e notes and sing along or sth n have fun on ur own.

okay i guess that's the end of my ruminations. could say lots more but nvm.

oh i also forgot to add that for once [i think?] ms tan said she missed us. however reluctant it was! haha. blooh so bored. still feel slacky

hmm. i just got back. o well. lunch at mac's with class [i shouldn't have sat with yonglai n chelsea yeah a bit bright] then back to rg w ser!:) so fun! but pity mrs kwan wasn't there. well. ms tan's lovely:) haha she was hilarious. n it was so interesting to hear abt her ex-ses n etc:D

haha chris i hope u read this: ms tan thinks tt either u/chim will settle down [ie get married 1st]. sth to do with ur personality. cudn't msg u on the spot cos my phone conked out! ah well:)

yeah.. she's so cute n funny. miss her lots. and my old class! all over again. haha. well. let me attempt to list everyone.
1steph 2puee 3xinmin 4shiqin 5candice [cheng] 6lyd 7chris 8aud 9ser 10hannah 11zhini 12woonteng 13claire 14michelle 15lijia 16peiying 17joon 18lou 19sheila 20chim 21ting 22pam 23jiahui 24jolie 25xuwen 26huichu 27amanda [seah]
yeah. i think that's all. plus me. should be correct.

but i feel bit bad for spending so much time out. and of cos dear ser was pouring out all her woes [probably like my umpteenth time listening to her rants] almost fell asleep haha sorry but yeah:p i wonder wat ms tan thought. well. like i was saying.. we're her 1st batch! and the closest, according to her.

so we saw ms hoo n chen lao shi n teoch [he's quite hilarious too] mrs see. ms ning's on maternity leave! 2nd kid = gal! so cute:) yeah i think that's about it. actually i must say i didn't really envision this when i was in sec 1. as in like especially for ms tan the way she talks to us now is so like a friend kinda thing. quite nice. u think so ser?

haha yup. so there's choir tmr. sigh. weiying quick return me my scores! haha. i wish we were learning new songs its more fun. n i lost my pseudo-yoik score! its a nice song:) hope we have a gd time tmr. haha....

yay i can load everyone's blog now!:) whee~
anyways clar is quite happy at the moment, saw my church junior and jkms studio junior. haha. and met junior class! i think they're v nice pple:) yay:) n somehow they seem like they're more talkative than we were last yr. pity couldn't stay longer to talk to them cos they had storyline. there're a pair of twins n a pair of cousins in my junior class! so fun!

hmm. yeah. am glad this week's tests are done. don't like tests. oh and there was poon pe today again. man. kinda as bad as monday's. ugh ugh! sigh. i've to get down to doing my jobshadowing report. finally;p should have done it during hols but sigh.

yay 12.30 tmr:) happy day! wonder wat i'll do. well.

there's something v wrong with my comp or sth i can't seem to load my own blog. o well. anyways to chris n peiying, clar's ends at 5.10 on mondays, 2.30 on tuesdays, 12.30 on wednesdays, 3.10 on thursdays and 12.30 on fridays! whee~:)

pe on mon was quite a horror esp when ms poon was leading us running all over the place and we hadn't the foggiest idea when we were gonna stop. i mean if you can see the end in sight its more bearable don't u think. and after all the situps and backraisers and squats and pushups i was joking w candice n eunice tt we'd be like invalid today.. can't move at all.. and candice was saying her bai ka will become crippled haha.

right. feel extremely slack. must go rectify that soon. auditions seem to be quite exciting! haha. like weiying said. but of cos they haven't really started yet -shrugs-
yeah at least today's chem test wasn't that bad. careless mistake. o well. considering i didn't prep v much for it.

oh. quote of yesterday frm ser "its those small little paper all cannot do one rite?" on our math tcher's notoriously hard "class tests" which are printed on half a4 paper [okay there's sth v wrong with that grammatically but i'm too lazy to figure out] as in the qns are not the run-of-the-mill kind. as jane probably can testify? i think:)

ah i HATE my comp. stupid adsl connection keeps switching itself off when it feels like it.
so i've to type everyth all over again.

1st thief : Oh ! The police is here. Quick! Jump out of the window!
2nd thief : But this is the 13th floor.
1st thief : Hurry! this is no time for superstitions.

Teacher : Correct the sentence,"A bull and a cow is grazing in the field"
Student : A cow and a bull is grazing in the field.
Teacher : How?
Student : Ladies first.

haha:) my favourites out of this email that my french immersion fren sent. miss being in france come to think of it. esp when i was talking to clara just now.

finally got to watch love me if you dare. or jeux d'enfants. e french title is much nicer. anyways it was hilarious sometimes, vulgar sometimes, plain weird sometimes.. typically french! haha. don't noe wat to think of it. but. i got to watch it. that's the main thing! haha.

and today was interesting. even though we took 1.5h to audition 3 pple. and i really admire val n hk cos i don't think i wud have had the patience to do wat they did. yup. now that's a virtue which i do not yet posses and need to cultivate. which is surprising given that i've spent so much time waiting all over the place e.g. terp and choir stuff like today.

okay i shall hope that my connection doesn't cut me off again.

ooh cool church junior has aud n tim yap for ogls! too bad didn't see her today though would have been fun:) i don't remember much of orientation anymore actually. just that it didn't seem like 1 yr ago.

i guess i'm quite thankful for my timetable:) though i bet a lot of pple have better ones still [e.g. double math ppl grr:p] was good to see pple tho e.g. missed pam so much. tt horrible gal still owes me an outing [which i suspect will not materialise unless its a lets-go-study-thing] somehow i see her so rarely. like peiying in the morning b4 assembly.. lijia at lectures cos her class is mostly in front of mine.. lyd after school.. come to think of it i don't see jiahui v often either hmph. this has to be a council thing. o well.

ugh it is so hard to go watch love me if you dare. :( anyways clar is feeling out of sorts and lazy now [wats new] don't feel like doing anyth at all! ultimate. more like i want to do sth but dunno wat to do.

i went to look at job attachment reports in the library. they're horrifyingly long! ugh. i can't remember half of wat i saw/did there. okay wait i didn't do anyth there. well. the pple were all so detailed n stuff. help!:S

oh yes i have figured something out. i prefer going out in small grps than large ones. its easier to talk. in general. like today. when our class thing dwindled to 5 pple haha. and like my last post. that's sth very impt tt i just figured out. haha slow huh o well.

anyways. being j2 is freaky. and i've absolutely no idea wat to do in uni/where to apply to/whether i can get a scholarship [which determines whether i can go overseas in the 1st place]. ugh.

hmm. yesterday really wasn't my day. today? hmm. not that much better. had to climb 6 flights of stairs twice! due to 1) lift under maintenance 2)lousy memory. nvm at least i'll still get my 200bucks haha:D

yesterday e bus ride was quite funny. esp when conrad [i think] was complaining abt how our body should have been engineered to last for longer time in good condition so hk [i think] sed he should be an elephant instead. (do they live v long? ah watever.) so remembering finding nemo i was saying why doesn't he go be a sea turtle instead. in which conrad replied tt sea turtles didn't do anyth but swim around. can't eat or do anyth. so either hk/mz sed when u're a sea turtle u don't ask for much. which was rather amusing:)
n i didn't noe tt many pple who play soccer get the same problem as my pore bro. hopefully e pig's amusing him haha. oink oink wriggle wriggle.

oh and today. terp partner sam was telling me abt going to the volcano park. so i was like wondering are the volcanos still active.. so i asked him wat if they blow up while u all are visiting? so he sed very matter-of-factly "then we all die loh". how very optimistic.

and sam was telling me abt having an ice cream party at the place where he had his sc attachment and i was being idiotic n questioning the cleanliness of the spoons in the kitchen. so he was like "oh i'm sure they do experiments in the kitchen u noe.. like.. take 2 teaspoons of oil and add to [sth] and see if they explode!" haha:p
kinda reminds me of the way anna used to talk:) miss her lots! bah.

right. i should go get hol hw done ugh. and sigh even tho i wasn't in spore for 10days i still can exceed my sms limit. underestimation is always bad. ooh there's johnny depp on cna tonight haha. let me quote liangsi "sounds so groupie"

alrighty now i shall post all my grouses abt lotr [haha] that should be ample warning. esp when i nitpick a lot. and i mean a lot. cos when i read the book i don't imagine the kters/places to look like wat they did in the movies. so if u don't wish to get annoyed by me, don't read:)

haha my fren's busy pointing out to me all the blunders in the 3 shows. -very amused-


frodo
he's quite okay actually. looks alright:) n acts quite well too for tt matter

sam
haha i really can't stand the way sam looks. and he's spposed to be nice n respectful n loyal to frodo which he certainly wasn't in the 1st 2 [or maybe only the 1st] but for rotk he was quite good
merry n pippin look a bit weird too

gollum
haha he's good. quite gross tho

gandalf
he doesn't resemble the gandalf on chris' book [haha] and somehow not as nice as the book kter. he sed quite a few sarcastic things in the book. bushy white eyebrows? hmm..

saruman
not bad actually. i thot denethor should look like him. speaking of which let me quote chris "he looks plain evil" which wasnt' spposed to be the case.

aragorn
ah i actually like him:) tho at the end when he was crowned king he started looking a bit diff somehow. n i thot it was absolutely inappropriate for the king to lunge at arwen. although i guess aft such a long absence.. but still.. he's the king! ah nvm. o yes n he doesn't look v good in real life either.

legolas
haha i was really quite amused at the way they just focus on him so much for no reason at all save to let pple enjoy eyecandy. and there was one scene he just sed 2 words n it was =so= extra. but he really looks quite good as an elf. but in real life/in pirates of caribbean, terrible. ah but i liked the scene where he climbed on the oliphaunt n started killing off pple it was v cool:) n then aft tt gimli was like "that's only counted as 1" tt was hilarious:D in fact the pair of them are hilarious. and his shooting arrows are v nice too:)

gimli
nice dwarf. v amusing:)

boromir
looks a bit weird. n faramir too. n not really very tall/proud/distinguished or watever.

elrond
i think they shudn't have gotten hugh weaving to do it. looks absolutely weird. esp aft agent smith like chris sed.

galadriel
haha. spposed to be one of the most beautiful pple. which is. sadly not the case. and she has a weird way of talking. like she has a problem. sounds spasticated really.

arwen
hmm not bad i guess she actually looks kinda elf-like. but not exactly the most beautiful either. and they purposely played up her role [like legolas haha]

eowyn
she looks positively weird too. maybe the narrowly set eyes. but also not "fair" and watever not. n i don't think she was spposed to be looking terrified when facing the lord of the nazgul.

eomer
looks kinda weird somehow. the nose or sth. but otherwise okay.

theoden
not exactly very tall either. n doesn't look v kingly.

rosie cotton looks absolutely old. i can't remember any more kters at the moment so i guess that will suffice.

and they changed quite some parts of the story. which i mind. quite a bit. like the beacons were already on fire when gandalf was riding to gondor. n they didn't need to persuade theoden to help gondor. n smeagol didn't turn frodo against sam. ah too many to list.

but i think their settings were good. tho i didn't imagine a lot of places to look like wat they were like in the movie. n the elves didn't go help them at helm's deep. tho i really like the elf archers:) way cool:) gondor either. but tt was really grand. n interesting. oh n the nazgul. i thot their steeds wud look more like birds. not dragons. although i just realised upon checking the book tt they were spposed to look a bit like bats.
mm the shire was good. very pretty:) looks rather other-worldly

oh the ents! somehow they looked a bit fragile to me. cos they were so thin n stuff. but then again on reflection they're spposed to look like trees like the birch n chesnut n watever which i sppose aren't particularly large in girth. so. sigh. resigned.

ah anyways the fight scenes were good. give them credit for those. esp when they make up the bulk of the 3 movies. ah the sam-frodo-gollum scenes are so draggy. n i don't like those parts in the book either. 3 1/2 hrs! i'll nv watch it again.

i'm actually quite tired and wondering wat i'm doing online. anyways i was having regrets abt ssef n nsts [as usual] but on reading my prof's v cheery reply to my email abt meeting to discuss those 2 things it doesn't seem so bad for now haha.

anyways. rotk! i shall critique it tmr. haha just ask chris i have so many criticisms to make. i guess i always prefer my imagination. but there're always gd things abt e movie. time to sleep!

ah i forgot to add. the static in LV is horrible! horrible horrible horrible! i hate getting electric shocks! bah. oh yes and its refreshingly cooling here in spore aft being over-cold in vegas n japan. alritey back to writing my journal [yes i decided to somehow, procrastinating with regards to hw:p]
and also i've found my lovely song! carol of the bells!:) yay! thanks to the bellagio website.. grateful for a good website haha:D

ahh. am trying to look for this christmas song which i've heard soo many times but can't put a name to. choral one. terribly frustrating!

anyways its so early.. only cos i slept at 9.30 haha. 1st thing i appreciated was spore's greenery when i got back. LV is like a real desert.. there's practically no greenery at all save the palm trees they planted for aesthetic purposes.. and they're everywhere.. but that's still kinda diff in the end.. its still artificial.. and in the outskirts its really all little grey shrubs and cacti. really ugly to me but parents didn't think so.

the hotels. well. when we first drove into aladdin i was like whoa.. its so grand.. and inside.. the decor and stuff.. but actually after a while the grandeur wore off. and seeing the hotels consisted of like visiting the casinos [haha] cos they always make u walk thru the casino to get to wherever you wanna go. my dad was saying its their ploy to make u spend money before you get to yr destination.. cos everytime we go for buffets [which was really rather often i must say] we'd to go thru this whole long walk

oh yes and i also appreciate spore's rules abt smoking.. they can just smoke anywhere in vegas.. even in aircon areas.. which is totally sucky. and that happens sometimes in france too.

so now i can name most of the big hotels. like in alphabetical order. anyways each hotel had shopping, casino and sometimes attractions like shark reef n stuff. so everytime i went to the shark reef/secret garden/dolphin habitat n etc i'd want a tiger/lion/dolphin n so on. the dolphins were really sweet tho:) n they're so smart!

okay i feel kinda robotic now. but anyway. there was horse riding too [happily;] western! i don't think i've ridden western before. major was a good horse but he didn't seem to like me very much. v easy to get him to trot:) and cheyenne [i think its a v nice name but it'll just proly get mispronounced all the time] was absolutely naughty. refused to stop! horrible mare. hmph. she'd like turn her head ard n stare at me. somehow she felt quite lazy at the beginning. and at the end she'd keep trotting. just to annoy me. cos she's not spposed to.

o yes v glad my bro came along:) he's hilarious.. he said he watched pirates of the carribean at least 10times thruout finals week.. just put it on replay and listened to the dialogue. and then he was imitating johnny depp occasionally it was quite amusing:)

ohhhh!! the shows! okay free shows were fun but the 2 others i watched were way cool:) cirque du soleil's 'o' [thanks to jane:] and the magic of rick thomas [whom my bro sed reminded him of chow yun fat] i wanted to go watch mystere at treasure island too but i guess hafta be a hse guest to get the gd seats n stuff. sigh. 2 resident shows at LV! how cool is tt. n i can never figure out how magicians perform their stuff.. he was quite funny tho kept saying he hated birds although he was working with them.

o yeah and its like on 13 dec leann rimes was performing at aladdin [while i was still on the plane grr] and then 20 dec mariah carey was performing at aladdin while celine dion was performing at caesar's palace.. actually not that i wud have watched them [i think] but just think there're so many pop concerts in vegas it really lives up to its name of entertainment city

okays am at this yahoo cafe which is free! woohoo~ at japan airport waiting for flight back. haha i found it quite amusing we go to vegas with 2 pieces of luggage and one bag each, come back with 2 luggages, 1 box, 2 bags each. anyways this jap keyboard is a leetle bit weird. therefore cant figure out the punctuation and this looks like the way jiahui smses haha:)

too lazy to type anyth more at the moment so.. shall wait till when i get home and am super bored

i decided the flight here's really tiring. and finally get to sleep on a real bed. lovely. i have a [queen size? dunno] all to myself!:) hahaha
and the comp's really well controlled there's like nothing else besides internet explorer and i can't load icq2go [hardly anyone uses icq anymore methinks] and i don't think d/ling msn wud work. so well. heck.

hotels are really really grand. but the grandeur wore off after a bit heh. having some problems finding nice show to watch crap should have booked for cirque du soleil long loong time ago:( our fault. bah. its really tiring walking around from hotel to hotel.. they're seriously huge.. and one can hardly find fastfood or cafes or stuff. mostly restaurants. dinner buffet was good tho:) luckily didn't eat lunch today.

i wanna go ride horse!:) haha. with good conditions n all. it isn't too cold yet thankfully. i forgot wat else i wanted to say so o well. shall go sleep if possible its like 1am+ here i think. can't be bothered to change watch time.

just visited my uncle's house and feel very poor. its a huge house! with rustic charm and all. and all the little nooks and crannies [sp?] which are so cute:) and fun to stick around in. decor's lovely etc. sigh. and this mini swimming pool. the architecture is wonderful!! yeah like this little thatched hse which is actually quite grand. anyways yeah i can't say enough words don't do justice.
o wait i forgot to talk abt e bad pts there're quite a few mosquitoes and LOTS of stairs so i wudn't actually want to live in it but its just really pretty:)

ugh out of 6 pple on msn 4 of them aren't replying. just wanted to tell u guys bye.. o well.. hopefully they'll hurry up n reply i've like 4 hrs left to flying off. and 2 hrs to going to airport. better remember to pack everyth.

oh i forgot the funniest thing. in the morning i was standing around novena and then this person who was working at tan tock seng stopped, looked at my sch u [wearing tt cos i'd to do metro cip later] and asked "u're from ri issit?" [i think she was from the old era when ri was a mixed sch since my mom's fren was frm there] "they're still abusing u like tt ah?" and "since you're a rafflesian i'll support u:)" it was quite amusing.. her terming comm service as abuse..

ah b4 i forget again. my 2 upper limbs are suffering from tremendous aches. sorry lyd but i am -never- ever going to help youth challenge thanks.

whole day of cip! ugh. my feet are numb. and my hands were trembling after holding that stupid heavy box [for youth challenge cip] for like 2-3hrs.. the nurses etc at tan tock seng were so unhelpful! bah.. guess they're sick of old pple..

and i hate the way pple just ignore u when u're talking to them.. i mean.. like hello i'm talking to u would u mind looking at me or at least saying something.. geez. most of the time i was trailing off in mid-sentence cos pple just walked off. that really sucks lah.

anyways the youth challenge thing was really crap. 1st of all i wudn't sell those spastic feather pens. 2ndly u tell us to meet at 8.30 and only start the stupid freaking briefing at 9.30 and waste a whole lot of time till 10+ to make sure everyone's there.. and then give us hrs only starting frm 10am.. at least for me anyway sucks.

thought metro was better. at least there're vouchers so maybe tt'll induce pple to donate haha. and i decided tt when i sound happier pple are more likely to donate. and pple frm the cosmetics/make-up area are more likely to donate too. observations from one day. which might/might not be true. anyhow.

must record the 3 funny incidents b4 i forget!
1. there were 2 ladies. one donated 1st. and gave e lucky draw thingy to hk [btw thanks for coming if not i think i'd have been really bored] and then the other one donated, gave to the 1st lady, who dumped it in the collection box and then realised her mistake.

2. another lady who said to hk "i come here everyday" so i was thinking.. how weird is that u come to metro everyday to buy stuff? not like the stuff's gonna change rite.. as if new stock comes in everyday..

3. one lady whom on hearing that $5 wud be gd for donation [since dick sed tt was spposed to be the limit for the coupon bklet], got her husband to find change cos she only had 2 $50 notes.. so btwn e 2 of them they came up with $4 in coins for me and the lady dumped it in my hands and refused the coupon bklet. i was really quite amused. but at least she was nice:)

think i've had enough. i hate asking pple for donations.

yay going to stay with jane in vegas!:) 2 or 3 nights? anyways woohoo~! :) haha jane if u stand me up on this one i'll kill u:p

oh i decided my hols have been very enriching but not so much in e area of academics haha. like terp and work attachment and church camp and rda cip. hmm. actually tts not a lot but well. time really flies

just back frm church camp. and like a 4.5h nap. cos i slept ~4hrs this morning. wasn't spposed to sleep but it really got quite boring.. there were like just 6 of us playing cards and then aft tt liesl wanted to watch e soccer match.

anyway.. on e whole.. it was good!:) yay:) actually felt quite comfy with them. and i've found fellow bridge fanatics:p haha okay not really fanatics but.. hm.. bridge-lovers? jasmine's hilarious.. and the guys.. haha.. jonathan and timotheus "i'm the indonesian maid!" [i can't remember wat jonathan said on e phone to merit that though unfortunately] and hans who gets quite impatient sometimes. can't remember much else at e moment. oh anyways i learnt to appreciate n count my blessings better. esp after jason was talking abt his army experiences i was quite horrified. poor thing!:S

and sigh i've just realised how fast time passes. tmr i'll be spending e whole day doing cip and then sat i'm flying off! and i haven't done v much hol hw or anyth. gah. which means i'll have to chao piah when i come back.. there's like jobshadowing report to be done.. and probably choir comm meetings too and stuff. and other stuff tt i planned to do. hols are too short!:S oh and terp! ugh. will have to go back to ntu

ah. ri concert was. hmm. not particularly very good i think. esp the finale. wat a horror. it was a complete fiasco. and i was like hmm how come i can't hear any of the sops besides either tiff/weiying who was behind me..
and the chord thingy for deck the hall! i'm quite horrified.. why didn't he tell us beforehand tt we'd have to play the chord ourselves ugh there was like this interminable silence when mr toh mouthed at the sops f-sharp major and no one moved and val was like "clar i can't play!" [or sth like tt] and i temporarily blanked out and then after tt then realised wat an f-sharp major chord was. argh. terrible. i bet the audience knew how unprepared we were just frm tt. oh but at least they laughed haha hopefully tt was kinda a saving grace.

and the very very long waiting. but the talking was quite interesting:) besides the fact that it kinda got into quite a bit of a bitching fest for a while. and seeing emilyn!:) happy. haven't seen her in ages.
oh and i must thank jan lots for doing my make-up:) saved me. anyways then they all started saying i looked like a doll. then i remembered how serene kept persisting in calling me a furby last time. [grr]

RDA today. i think Dunedin is a v pretty horse!:) if i ever get to buy one i want something like him:) haha. bay. nice eyes:D and he's got character the last time the rider got off him he gave [the rider] a nuzzle:) like a kiss! haha anyways it was very cute:) and Fraggle was so naughty today. i could just see the balefulness in his look. think he didn't like me very much as a sidewalker.

oh and sandra's cocker spaniel's so cute and friendly its tail kept wagging n wagging n it was very excited n curious abt everyone. and its furrier than the horses. haha. i have a penchant for furry things.

clar's verdict on herself: she is very unfit.
i just spent ~1h40mins playing squash. oh wait let me rephrase that. -attempting- to play would be more accurate, haven't the foggiest idea how it's spposed to be played so just whacked e ball around btwn e 2 lines on e wall. now i can hardly type properly. and i must admit i spent half the time picking up the ball haha:p

plus e racket's kinda old so the grip's falling apart n i ended up with black hands *big sigh* don't think i can hold a pen for a while haha this sounds like when we were doing tennis for pe module. i wonder how effective this "exercising" was hmm must try more often n hope for results.

besides that. last day of attachment. kinda sad la won't go to the clinic anymore. i hope they liked e presents tho:S or their kids for tt matter haha. and i finally realised that one of the nurses' name was hooi nee not winnie. cos i kept wondering who hooi nee was and whether she quit or sth then i finally realised aft like 5 days *shakes head* v pathetic clar.

anyways. the op was quite gross. didn't noe had to cut thru so many layers of flesh [more like fat.. could see the yellow and stuff gross huh bet candice will love this] and muscles [?] and wat not. and used so many pieces of gauze to mop up the blood [okay it wasn't that much i think caesarian probably wud have more since its a baby and all]

took out e woman's uterus bcos she had adenomyosis. [forgot wat it is shall hafta go check it out.. but i noe it resembles a fibroid. man i was going to type ressembler as in french -groan-]

anyhow for once i was looking at e real thing instead of at the screen w e help of e laparoscope. very interesting. his sewing is so neat haha. quite cool actually. i always wonder how he figures out wat is wat. and then he pulled out a bit of the large intestine to show me haha. gross huh. and stuffed it back in. okay so this description really doesn't do justice to wat he was doing but ah tts the essence of it:p

the uterus looks really tiny. like maybe just slightly bigger than the huge fibroid frm e german lady on wednesday. anyway surprisingly it wasn't so cold in e op theatre today dunno why.

i figured anasthetists have a lot to say during ops to doctors. and they seem quite slack. just sit around and be "back-seat drivers" as on monday. quite amusing. but conversation is interesting. today they were complaining abt sumiko tan. and the anasthetist was saying tt tomatoes are gd for the prostate. and one of them was thinking maybe that's why italians are so horny.
another day they were talking abt finding nemo. and the anasthetist was saying in e tearoom tt she likes watching spongebob squarepants. with no trace of embarrassment or anyth. admirable!:D hardly find adults saying such stuff i think.

hmm i seem to have ready fingers when i start typing. [variation of the "have a ready pen when i start writing"] okies time for dinner soon yay sushi!:)

totally zoned out today dunno why either. like walking in a dream. [not tt it was a very gd dream/bad dream just didn't noe wat i was doing] and i hate standing in front cos i keep getting picked on and i miss weiying! [quick be honoured if u read this] hahahaha. rite.
surprisingly enough i now prefer "have urself a merry lil xmas" to "what sweeter music" when at 1st it was the other way round. bleargh. well.

don't know what to say. thus am eating honeydew. doesn't make sense as usual. oh i was just thinking socialising is so tiring. wat a lazy clar.

hrms. this is 3rd day of work attachment.
3 major things. 1st abortion. hmm. quite horrifying.. he just sucked everyth out with this vacuum curette thingy. and then at the end all tt was left of the 5-week-old [i dunno wat u call it.. embryo?] was this jar of red liquidish stuff.

2nd yay i got to see a delivery! haha. there wasn't that much blood. i thought the whole floor was going to be full of it or sth cos he was wearing sth like wellingtons but well it was quite under control. interesting seeing the way he stitches tho. amazing how he can see wat he's doing cos i'd no idea wat was happening until the end-product was in sight n it was really neat and looked v normal. and the baby was so tiny:) happy parents tho.

3rd operation. the theatre was freezing cold. and had to change into the green garb [as candice calls it] which was freaking thin. so yeah i was standing around freezing for 1/2hr+ at least it wasn't too long.

laproscopy i think it was called? hmm website spells it as laparoscopy anyways for sure its keyhole surgery. and got to see everyth inside like intestines [i think:] e uterus n ovaries n stuff.

tho the cyst was quite gross. lemme try remember e name.. ah just checked. dermoid cyst. like it had hair and pus and stuff. ugh. was quite surprised that the doc just had to tear it frm the ovary.. only one part had to be cut with this instrument [forgot e name] and this woman kept standing rite in front of me n blocking my view.

afternoon. hmm. saw a 134.5kg pregnant lady. she's like.. 3 times my weight or sth. this little boy was so cute he was fascinated with me n offered me a sweet that the nurse gave him. and there was one cancer case which was very depressing.

came home in a rather bad mood dunno why mom is trying to pry some reason out of me so i told her i was hungry [true to an extent] wonder if i shud have decided to go RDA tmr. hmm. or go on fri for the leader workshop. but on fri so many pple signed up! i think they have an excess of volunteers. and they still welcome somemore. sigh.

i want to buy a horse and a dog [preferably a golden retriever/lab or a mix or anyth tt i like haha] but 1st i'd have to be rich. hais. feel jaded. don't feel like doing anyth. n i hate the way half the books i bought have to have vulgarities. maybe i shud get desensitised. sucky crap.

oh. last fri. this couple came in. doc "how long have u been married for?" [femme was 3 mths pregnant] couple "we're getting married tmr" i was so shocked esp when the doc cud just calmly go on with his questioning/congratulating/watever.

k dinner. hopefully i'll be happier aft eating haha:D

clar is super tired. like. really cannot take it anymore. but i got a leetle bit more energetic upon switching on e comp haha. anyways i gotta charge my phone for a while, don't really like e thought of leaving charging for the whole night. yeah.

anyways. yes. i realised today's gala premiere brother bear was quite similar to le papillon. and also to finding nemo. like journey with one crabby guy looking for a destination and then a spastic companion who annoys the crabby guy. yup. very similar. just the characters that they use. like bear, human, fish. haha. quite cute actually. i was even thinking they should go and do a horse one when i remember spirit stallion of the [simarillion?? tt sounds like tolkien's book] anyways i can't remember e exact name but yeah. haven't watched it yet tho.

i must try n remember some quotes frm kai n cheukka frm yesterday. tho actually today lyd was quite silly [as usual;p] forcing poor joon to finish every bit of pasta and admonishing her for every morsel left behind on e plate. hilarious:D -stomachache frm laughing- joon too.

ah. attachment. too tired to type very detailed stuff. ultrasound's cool but a lot of stuff gets quite routine aft a while cos pple either fall under the fibroid/normal check-up [look at uterus/ovaries] or the pregnancy category. which reminds me there was this very cute couple who were so happy over the pregnancy which made me v happy for them too:) and another couple [husb frm rj, wife frm nj] who were absolutely hilarious. e wife sed her husb was nuts and pathetically squeamish and kept making a whole lot of crazy comments.

kk my eyes have been red for quite a while and i'm dead tired so off to bed! -relief-

ooh poor clar's legs are freaking tired. walking frm cine to fish&co glass hse is quite hmm. plus stops at centrepoint and plaza sing. glad i got mommy's pressie hope she likes it:)

woah backgrd is super noisy. father is trying to help resolve some family conflict its quite funny actually if u look at it lightheartedly.. like.. dysfunctional? i dunno. haha he's like taking charge like he's the boss. wielding all e power.

well dinner was quite hilarious. little foursome was so fun:) lovely memories. and silly pple like us:p oww left foot is having pins n needles. anyways papillon was quite funny but heartwarming to an extent too. felt it could have been longer tho.

ah i'll post my complaints abt lotr sometime soon i guess. tho i think lotsa pple will be after my neck hehe:p time to watch my french show on central! whee~

clar is in a rather bad mood. haha like rollercoaster. cos while i'm blogging i see my last post which says clar is v happy. anyhow. i don't know. cumulation of little crap. sigh hopefully tmr's dinner will make it all fine:) =looking foward= yay:) -temporarily happier-

wat to do? quoi faire. je pense que j'ai peur de trop. mais ce n'est pas vraiment juste si je le fais. haha oh dear i forgot the french word for worry! the SE verb. crap. i think angoisser is. but the other one. ah! s'inquieter. just checked haha how sad! je m'inquiete trop aussi.