wasn't really intending to blog but clicked wrongly n ended up here so i guess i'll blog anyway haha. woke up at like 10.30 (such a pig) went to sch to mug. woahhh my knowledge is sadly lacking.. feel it more acutely when i'm sitting nxt to yz who'll probably top the chem s paper with flying colours.. i told him i'd pay him to take my papers for me:D
i just can't apply knowledge. failure student. haha. so much for education in the correct sense. actually maybe i'm just too lazy to think. which is very probable. costs too much energy to exert myself. haha. okay i sound like a real pig. which i am sometimes. oh well. must switch.. where's my fairy godmother when i need one?
ohh. and pple are scary. restarting mugging so fast. when all i want to do is burn up all my files and never look at them anymore [unless its to compile quotes:p]. but i suppose when i get back my prelim papers i will have to mug whether i want to or not. sigh. an interminable 2 months [minus 2 days] left.
i need a change in attitude fast. how bout a break? i think tt'll work. just wait till thurs.. and sat! haha. gd ole lyd. so cute. let's go rollerblading! ok! and we're settled. i can't believe aud sed she has to get back by 12 to watch liu xing hua yuan tho. at least she isn't a fan of f4. reminds me of tt incredibly bad joke dr chan made last yr during chem prac abt "wat's half of f9?" or sth like that. if only i had such a gd memory for academics.
i think i want to eat waffles [w ice cream! haha bet cheukka will laugh she sed i'm such a little gal.. always wanting to eat ice cream. oh well. its nice wat:] on thursday.. ooh am listening to tracks frm candice's acapella cd. the harmony is so lovely.
alrite i have to go read organic chem again. my lack of knowledge is really appalling. and i really don't like inorganic chem. eew: =shudders=
oh. joke i found on my chem s bklet
eunice "i think i'm going nuts!"
raphael "then squirrels will love you"
haha. math s. wat a joke. i wanted to walk out of the hall at 9.30am/just give up. looked all the qns all can't do! how? also managed to make a whole lot of spastic mistakes n totally confused myself. well done clar. and surprisingly i managed to rush out the vectors qn in like 15mins and i think it's correct. *prays* most of my qns were half done. or less than half done for that matter. let's see. i finished the qn 1, 5 and 11. that's about it. yay.
i just hope i don't get ungraded.
now for chem s. the list of organic reactions is so long i regret not studying earlier. regret is a terrible feeling. which has been plagueing me since prelims started. wat a lesson to learn. at least s papers are slightly less stressful than main papers i think. hmm. tho very much harder such that even if you have the time it isn't always helpful
haha today's class was funny. i feel quite bad actually keep laughing and not listening properly. but i can figure out for myself wat he's trying to say. and i write down watever which makes sense/answers the qn. and then i dunno lar.. just don't like it when tchers don't prep properly b4 coming in and then end up with us all confused. okay to be fair i think he did his best but well just realised i get quite annoyed by inept tchers. i suppose at least if you try yr best that'll be the minimum to do.
anyway i really wonder if they didn't laugh that much last week. and if so because i wasn't around. oh well. but really.. it's not my fault eunice comes n tells us about her picture bible with the picture of the beam in a boy's eye a.k.a. a branch sticking out of the boy's eye with LEAVES! hahaha. daryl decided it'll be a tree. so i asked "where'll the roots go?" and they came up with all sorts of gruesome possibilities. like roots wrapping around the eyeball and all that. they're so cute. anyway the laughing put me in a gd mood haha so am happy now! now to attack math s. hais.
oh i suddenly dreamt of rg last nite must be cos of em's post. anyhow i miss mrs kwan so much. i think it's because she really cares. and she believes in you when you don't believe in yourself. which happens so many times in jc it's difficult to count. when everything comes crashing down. even tho we used to complain abt her nagging in rg now it's different. not that mrs cheong's not nice.. she's probably the best ct one could hope for:) oh n i miss laoshi too. all the times i had extra lessons with her heh.
anyway better take advantage of my good mood and go attack my math s with a vengeance. thanks to everyth who msged to tell me to take care! feel much much better and can eat properly liao tho still not v much:) which is also good. haha.
hmm. i wonder wat everyone's doing now. for at least half of my batchmates' prelims are over.. it doesn't feel like that to me. anyway. i must say i derived some sort of sadistic pleasure [for a while.. after tt it got too painful haha] frm seeing the numbers on my thermometer skip and wondering how far it would go. so the highest i reached was 39.1! fantastic huh. and half the time i don't even noe when i've a fever. most interesting. like i'll just be thinking "okay my head hurts wat's new" and then mom will come n touch my forehead and exclaim n make me take my temp.
oh yeah and wed nite was awfully torturous, stomach was so queasy i couldn't sleep properly.. for the 1st 4 hrs formulae were chasing themselves around my head.. dreamt tt i cudn't do my chem/math s prelims nxt week.. so finally woke up and ended up vomitting. spontaneous expulsion. and after that still couldn't sleep properly cos my feet were numb. weirdly. finally went to see doc the nxt morning cos i cudn't eat/drink anyth w/o vomitting..
injection helped, medicine did too. the wonders of medicine. within 15mins of taking the fever medicine my temp went down! ah. anyway. hope bio was alrite even tho i was still slightly woozy:s i spent most of yest sleeping i think. had to wake up early to study [with a headache again n didn't noe i had a fever until mom came along haha i'm quite hopeless]
spent most of yesterday and today sleeping. haha. such a pig. o well.
i wish i could just throw down everyth and go somewhere else. WHY does this have to happen.. i can practically see all the horrible grades now.. it also doesn't help that shaun told me tt paper 2 chem's spposed to be harder than paper 3. which was actually supposed to be easy. therefore i'm even more dead. and chem s? haha. forget about it. i can see why serene wanted to get into an accident b4 prelims haha.
biotech. it also wud have been okay if i'd looked thru industrial biotech last night instead of flipping thru this morning. n focussing so much on med last nite. cos i ended up mixing up the microorganisms. so my essay's totally screwed. and i din write abt disadvantages of enzyme immobilisation. but how else? i dunno if i cud have remembered 8m worth of seed bank or crap out 12m worth of ethics in biotech. maybe i cud. then there's another wrong decision. seem to have no lack of them nowadays.
i really dread the weeks after prelims. which equals to time to get back results. i can't bear to not improve frm last common tests but now it seems so impossible. talk about nightmares of all the worst case scenarios. n i'll still have to pull myself back to study for sats. actually if i get horrible results there won't be much point doing sats. hmm. waste $$ only. n i'm in desperate need of sleep.
this is not the 1st time i wish we cud fast foward to nxt yr sept in an ideal situation: time to go off to some nice uni.
bah. so far i think math was the only okay paper. now that i think about it, i've no idea wat i've been doing for the past 2(?) months. i thought i was revising but can't seem to remember much, everyth's so fuzzy.
chem was a disaster. was really in the depths of despair yesterday. bio wasn't much better. even though i thought it ought to have been better after all the time i spent catching up [and neglecting chem and i'm going to pay for that. a really high price. considering i conveniently forgot chem dept sets the most killer papers] my stupidity astounds me. i really don't noe wat's wrong.. maybe i didn't practise enough or sth. then wat've i been doing? don't know.
yeah and now time management problem is back. i thought i'd figured that out for the last 2 common tests but now its a whole new format and everyth's back where it began. last yr's common test. my prelim grades had better be much better than those grades though. it's like zhini said. u walk out of the exam hall and "rite. so that was a prelim paper." a.k.a. superbly dead. don't know what to do. all the papers seem so screwed up. n i still have 2.5 more weeks to go.
and s papers! haha. those i'm even more dead for. i really need divine intervention... wanna quit sch now
bah. don't feel particularly well yet my thermometer tells me i'm fine. general malaise. maybe it's the haze haha. everyone was sniffing today. well alot of pple anyway.
anyway i felt kind of sorry for bible class tcher today.. his 1st time teaching us and the lesson seemed to be turning into a joke. he was teaching on sin and suddenly came up with a proverb on how "you can't stop the bird from shitting on you but u can stop it frm building a nest on ur head". now what that was supposed to illustrate still eludes me, but it was really funny somehow. and i wonder where it originated from [if it is a true proverb hum] if anyone knows please enlighten me
and then later he started talking about how an egg has microscopic holes in the shell.. for wat? jasmine ventures an explanation : to respire? which set me off in a fit of silent laughter again. partly cos i didn't noe why he suddenly mentioned an egg, and partly bcos i suddenly visualised this egg living and breathing [excluding the embryo i mean]. sort of reminded me of tjh's qn in sec 4 abt whether babies had gills to breathe.
anyway so later one of my bible classmates remarked in an undertone "does he like birds a lot? just now talk abt birds, now talk abt eggs". helpless laughter. n e fren nxt to me [who happens to be called daryl haha] apologised for killing me [by making me laugh at various silly things such as complaining tt she was hungry aft he mentioned eggs and wanting to volunteer to read verses in a dramatic manner - apparently she's in drama club so hmm okay]
yeah i thought we weren't being v gd students. like. were laughing at his pronunciation sometimes which actually is kind of unfair but o dear cudn't help it. enticed became "enteesed" and such. feel quite bad abt it lar i cudn't stop laughing half the time. hopefully he didn't notice:s
oh yar and last week another tcher told us about how some pple have mysterious lord's supper. they apparently have lord's supper in a garden. they go and hide in the bushes. and run out and take the lord's supper and rush back into the bushes. cos last time christians were persecuted they had to hide in the caves [somewhere in hebrews] so they commemorate it or sth. his description was quite graphic. said they find it very exciting.
i guess my imagination was particularly graphic cos i was the most amused. i mean. thinking of pple crouched in the bushes, bright and beady-eyed like chipmunks waiting for their chance to steal nuts, scurrying out and back into the safety of the bushes.
okay i hope i didnt insult anyone here. one never knows.
ohh the french choir show was quite nice.. tho i thot they shud have gone for a competition like sister's act but well. yeah. kinda similar to sister's act actually. and when i heard the choir.. was swamped by this bout of choir-sickness. and the boy sop! ahh. i mean not perfect but so crystal clear.
hais. bio was actually an okay paper. if i'd prepared adequately for it. and read instructions properly. can't believe i didn't suspect something was wrong with the hydrogen peroxide-filter paper expt and ended up faking results. [faked wrongly sort of.. given that my timings were totally off] well maybe they'll give me sympathy marks.
seem to be taking this as just a prep. but i can't do that! bcos it matters! which my bro was trying to drill into me that day. aagh. i shall go take a nap. cheukka's rite, prelims wun matter nxt time. but rite now it certainly doesn't seem like it. esp when i manage to screw up everyth possible.
its so funny how pple used to say they wish i had my self discipline/patience. i don't feel like i possess either of these attributes anymore. maybe i used to 2 years ago. but now? nvm.. off i go to sleep
haha. so it just gets worse and worse. did i actually expect otherwise? *hollow laughs* well done clar u're definitely staying in spore if this goes on.. i'll probably have to get full marks for the rest of my papers rofl. which is impossible. so i'm done for. haha. yay!
oh raphael was hilarious.. while we were waiting for our shift in the hall then he was saying sth abt committing suicide if he couldn't do the chem prac.. [i.e. can't get the gas] break the burette and slash his wrist.. then fiona sed drink hexane.. haha.. then raphael said he'll switch on the gas tap.. "if i can't do the chem prac nobody will!" then later he improvised and said after switching on the gas tap he'll light the lighter [if that's the correct word] and boom! haha. no more sch. yay:)
anyway. so i made a superbly stupid mistake which will cost me at least 6 marks unless there's e.c.f. which is quite unlikely. and didn't finish the qa design. i think she sed we weren't spposed to write no visible reaction but i had no idea wat else to write. so maybe that's more marks gone. and then dunno how to present properly for kinetics reaction. qa didn't fill up quite a few of the deductions cos dunno wat's going on.. i've never seen bright green ppt in my life.. i mean okay fine there's blue frm copper and then wat else?? i don't think i've ever felt so desperate in my life [unless it was during phys prac last fri] when i got n = 34.
freak. i'm so dead. time to celebrate.
hmm most interesting day. firefly purposely puts the talks on education on germany/japan/china 1st so pple're forced to listen to them.. and then psc has like a 1.5 h video plus "talk-show by scholars" thingy and oh we're left off to have tea [curry puff n eclairs]. the ironic thing is that they keep trying to persuade pple to go overseas. of cos everyone wants to go overseas its a question of who can get in/who can get the means to go there... sigh.
and didn't really get to know about wat they actually do in the psc or in their various depts. okay besides the police guy who was quite detailed. ah. anyway.
after firefly mom picked me up and informed me that this guy came to get his comp repaired [apparently dad responded to some qn on a forum.. this guy wanted spare parts for a psion or sth] and brought his family along w/o informing my dad prior to it. actually i found it rather amusing at 1st tt my mom was faced with 3 extra pple to entertain but tt certainly changed when i got home.
so. opened the door and found 4 strangers in my house. -mildly annoyed- i mean isn't it like basic courtesy to tell pple [esp pple u don't even noe] u're gonna bring 3 extra pple along.. i've never heard of people bringing their family along to a stranger's hse.
so here we have 2 little boys [4 n 10 yrs old] who have nothing to occupy themselves with and therefore argue about which tv channel to watch [and make a lot of noise in the process] and a mom sitting on the sofa reading newspapers and a dad sitting at the dining table fiddling around with his phone. my house has been successfully invaded.
and then there was nothing for them to eat or drink or watever cos my mom din noe they were coming. n heard one of the boys say he wanted to open the fridge and find something to eat. erps. rite. at least they went off to the playground for a while. ended up eating lunch in bro's room. bah. on a side note i realised the illiad is really kind of hard to plough through. the overall storyline seems easier to understand heh.
anyhow they finally disappeared. yay. haha i sound so unhospitable. but really.. this is too much. like violation of human rights haha. maybe that's not the right word but i can't think of it at the moment. maybe i feel too strongly about stuff.
oh and i noe why i thought abt cirque du soleil. its like performance at its finest. but of cos behind the scenes there're lots of problems too just that you don't noe when you watch the show. all you see is the final product that has been honed to perfection. something i remembered from when i watched the making of varekai.
okay i've blogged such a long entry like there're no prelims better stop soon. am reading the nat'l day rally online and boy is spore gd at acronyms.. i've found 4 acronyms which i don't noe what they stand for.. and i'm hardly halfway thru reading. gets kind of annoying sometimes.
talk about a disastrous prac.. nightmare!!! arggh. i don't think i've ever had a worse one. stupid pendulum.. spent 20mins trying to tie the stupid thing [while sweating profusely cos fan wasn't on cos it was oscillations] and couldn't so i gave up n drew the table 1st.. went back to attacking the string and such.. in the end made so many mistakes.. such that after i discovered them i wrote them down so i'll remember not to do such stupid things for a level pracs. sigh.
watever.. i hope i do decently.. my dreams seem to be slipping away already with one exam down. haha. well done clar. oh and like andrew said.. phys prac is usually spposed to be the easiest.. and they kill us for it.. wat're chem n bio pracs gonna be like? n i haven't studied yet. *hollow laughs*
but it was quite cool lar today while we were waiting in LT5 someone frm jane's class taped singapore idol [hmm i keep typing american idol somehow] last nite n we watched a bit of it b4 being released. somehow i was thinking abt cirque du soleil. run away and join the circus! haha.
suddenly feel like listening to my enigma songs again. there's sth abt the drums/bass beat or watever u call it. wish i knew more abt music. ah well. i musn't be distracted now. having already screwed up 1 paper. oh and the guys sitting behind me were most annoying.. every sentence had to be punctuated with f- this n f- tt. unless i was imagining it. anyway i was tempted to throw something at them. like cursing and swearing is so cool. most disgusted. maybe cos the gp video was full of swear words too. watever..
just when i thought i'd gotten over it mom had to come and remind me of everyth all over again.. said she talked to my bro. which is so true. i don't have much to offer n for that i kind of regret. maybe i should just resign myself to my fate haha. moral of story [man i was going to type morale.. too much of dr chan.. haha] make e most out of jc life n don't regret at the end of your 2 years. i've never realised that so acutely until it really matters and it's too late.
weird how a few months before i'd just think i'll have a go at it and hope for the best. and now it seems so impossible. delayed reaction. maybe cos the prelims are so near and i'm so unprepared. and i noe i've said u shouldn't give up b4 trying if not half the battle's lost b4 u even begin & i do believe tt but sometimes it's unbelievably difficult to put it in practice.
it's times like these when i really wish we could just fast forward to nxt yr sept or sth n we'll be happily going off to uni [assuming best scenario]. maybe it's not good to want something too badly cos you'll be doubly disappointed when you fail.
of course i hope i'm worrying unnecessarily. is it possible? to turn a dream into reality.
ugh right speaker isn't working! so weird to have music just coming out from the left side.
feel so sorry for li jia wei. newspapers are full of how she cried aft the match and apologised and blah. and really i don't think we're in much of a position to critique the games in detail just after watching a couple of games. if that makes sense. i don't noe why i was so affected either.. maybe cos i agree w wat the preacher said yesterday abt it's easy to say stuff when u're not playing and not feeling the pressure and all that.
it was gd seeing [tan] jh pam n lyd today tho:) miss them lots. n funnily enough seems like mugging w classmates leads to more bonding somehow. come out with all the interesting questions that u need to rack ur brain to find ans to. or clarifying concepts at least. quite good:) at least company makes mugging less dreary. guess wat ruijie said that day was right. at least if i can't go out w my frens i still can see them ard sch/mug w them. better than nothing.
at least there's friends tonight. shall go eat dinner maybe food therapy helps haha i dun like eating much nowadays. unless its dessert:p
and i just remembered the word is inadequacy. i mean i remembered it some time ago but am only online to check the table tennis finals results.. at least china won. haha. today's bronze match was really the sound of inevitability. okay maybe not the sound. but i just felt tt it was inevitable somehow. oh well. it's over.
haven't blogged for a while. sigh. suddenly i'm reminded of my inadequateness [if there's such a word]. how? can't snap out of it. unhappiness probably compounded by yesterday's semi-finals heh. its funny how i'm so affected by olympics. mom's v puzzled as to why i'm suddenly watching olympics all the time. i guess its kinda like the epitome of perfection in sport. n i appreciate perfection. and my quill show was so sad.. i mean the front was nice n cute n funny but the back parts were tragic: but now i feel like getting a puppy! haha. get it when its a little baby.. so cute:)
okay tt made me feel just a teeny bit better. phys prelim prac on friday. i think i need divine intervention.. every prac i manage to screw up something.. chem qa is a disaster.. phys i always manage to do some calculation carelessly or sth.. bio.. always cannot finish. and i think i'm sinking deeper into this abyss. main papers? haha. my revision is half done. and am forgetting everything.
nvm maybe music'll help. but only for a while. and reality will come crashing back down. rite. talk about self pity haha so pathetic. shall stop it. shall try n get back to work.
haha i think i must be too dazed frm the whole day or sth.. can't believe i looked at serene's earthquake tag and wondered how come there was an earthquake in bishan. [tremors from indonesia?? hahaha. and bishan's in the middle of spore somemore. i'm really insane.] oh dear. well just means i need sleep:p which i'm not gonna get cos i've to go send the 3 m's off tmr at like 7-sth. groan.
ah anyway. yesterday. was actually fun! haha. w junwan n lijia n pingying:) have various quotes stored in my phone. ohhh how bout this..
py doing her s6 on jw's insistence "u didn't tell me u need MF11!"
jw, triumphantly [and v helpfully] "u need MF11!"
and in swensen's when we were having lunch.. [yeah went swensen's again cos i wasn't satisfied din get to eat topless 5 the day b4 haha:p] jw decides we should eat 3 topless 5's to get our money's worth cos the usual topless 5 costs $7. so lijia says "i noe how we can get home! walk!" haha. to burn off all the calories. but anyway it was really fun n hilarious:)
yeah. and today. was not bad i guess. given that the whole time they [3 church frens frm canada] were here i didn't go out with them oops. and the beginning part when they just arrived was quite awkward since i haven't seen them for 2 years. but today was quite okay. yup. i liked reading sherman's lagoon comics at mph haha. lots of mirth:D until jason [church fren frm rj choir! 3 yrs ago or sth.] decided i shud go there more often to destress. haha. and the village was kinda freaky at some parts. eeks. but it isn't that bad lar.. contrary to wat i heard.
oh yes i saw this movie advert at lido with this really really cute n sweet small lil puppy i shall watch the show!:) yay:) it's called quill or sth like that, coming out on 19th august. yippee~
just back. sigh i shudn't have called back so early.. then could have gone to eat icecream with the rest of them:) oh well.. another time. the food was quite good lar but the rest of the circumstances weren't. like. waiting for 1hr+ for food is not really something you expect.. and poor lijia n junwan. cold food and wrong order. hais. until don't feel like watching movie.. nvm hopefully the ice cream will cheer them up:)
anyway. i think the only thing good was extra-ing at lt3 with candice in the morning:) ditched our class gals to go watch them sing. and sang dravidian and tt swedish song [forgot the name liao but its quite a pretty song:] with them! haha. they're all so happy. so nice. kind of wistful. but it was lovely watching anyway:) on a side note, i really have no idea how my beaver got to darryl/jinjie and got sadly abused hmph.
oh pam carrying jh [my class not choir] on the way to holland v was funny:p reminds me of some other photo.. ohhh yes aud carrying a tracker i think. n i still owe chris saltimbanco oops.
haha mugging with jan around is always a hoot. she does such crazy things:p oh and yesterday when jan n jiahui were there it was even funnier.. jan drops her water bottle cap and flings it around and then decides its clean. jiahui "sometimes i wonder if u're a bio student" [sth to tt effect anyway].. since aft learning med biotech we shud noe how hard it is to get rid of bacteria n etc.
yeah. its quite fun i guess. albeit a bit noisy at the start usually. today also. jan's various antics. too bad we can't film everything. n the way she n alvin "quarrel"... and we could hear the j1s singing mayila n rasa sayang frm where we were sitting.. haha rasa sayang reminded me of all the times we sang in italy [esp in ethnic costumes]. bet val sitting in lt5 was laughing at the high "kang kong" parts. sounds like those clocks which have cuckoos inside which pop out and go "cuckoo!" oh and horrible darryl who said i was 2 yrs old *glare* if i'm 2 then u're 1 k
wonder if i should have tried applying to uk. after seeing all the pple who went for the talk at 3.15. oh well. wonder how many pple are applying to both. oh and wat mr chan was nagging at us today was like totally everyth i was telling myself last week. which is good advice. but whether i can follow it is another thing.
ah well friday should be a gd day yay:) 413 lunch! yeah!:) get to eat nice food:):):)
back frm grandma's bday dinner. there was live music! haha. quite funky lar. chinese singers and piano/double bass/sax accompaniment. and really, i think the nasal sound is so kteristic of chinese opera singers. if that makes sense. oh well. kind of reminded me of mayila haha:p
and college day. was so terribly boring. well besides kp being ridiculous haha. and i remember how i don't like waking up early on saturdays haha:p 6 days of sch a week mite not be so wonderful after all even if i get to sing. and i didn't noe sicheng's going stanford! aahh. sigh. can't help but imagine wat will happen nxt yr in march when a lvl results come out and in april [i think] when uni app results come out. but i guess tts still quite some time away shud bother abt prelims 1st groan. i need to stop being so lazy.
don't think i've felt out of sorts like that for a long time. since before italy i think. sorry if i was grumpy today.
wah. i think i just spent almost an hour talking to my bro. i'm v happy i have a bro haha:) well at least i think i have a better idea of uni stuff now. less clueless. though still need to decide quite a lot of things. hais this uni decision thing is so draining. talks and talks and talks. and thinking. abt wat course and wat uni.
and i got to see chernise n darryl n jinjie n kaiping just now! yay:) haha their names are consecutive in alphabets: cd n jk. anyway. miss them lots too. at least i get to mug with choir j2s now and then.. hardly get to talk to j1s.
law talk was interesting. though i think it sounds a bit dry to me. haha. wat ever sounds interesting anyway.. probably sth tt doesn't need memorising.. which probably doesn't exist. bleah. i think i shud have gone for medicine talk too darn. shall hafta go check out the website sometime..
been sleeping so much lately! or rather staying awake and not doing work. aargh. better make sure i prepare better for phys prac than i did for chem:s quite a disastrous test there. oh! for the 1st time i sort of listened during bio lect yay:D tho it was really really -really- cold. and raphael tells really spastic jokes [e.g. bio remediation is for pple who fail bio cts]. and morbid things like how to kill serene in the most gruesome ways possible. -shudders-
heh i feel like i'm living in a time warp or sth.. i still feel like its the 1st semester and find it so weird when i start hearing about signing up for ssef when it seems like its been just a few weeks or so since i went for/signed up for ssef.. yeah. just keep thinking its like maybe april or so and doesn't feel like the end of yr's coming so soon. maybe i'm like blocking out the dreaded prelims/a's. ugh. the way my mind managed to block out that 7mark qn for maths cts. bah. haha ok i noe i'm nuts for still remembering tt but well.
and i'm trying to write my gp essay and suddenly i realise that my examples are all half-baked. i kinda forget everyth after i read it. like maybe i find it interesting for the moment but if u ask me to use it to substantiate my points in an essay i'm a goner. hmm. not good. i really think i have a problem with details.
sigh well. after feeling guilty for happily wasting my weekend away i think i can start doing my work heh. esp when the new tuts just came in ugh:( and i have a prob with bio lectures too don't listen somehow. [serene its all ur fault :p haha]
haiyah i think bio cts were quite pathetic.. anyway various quotes from the post-mortem..
for qn on fermenter which had twigs inside [so bacteria can be immobilised on them]
Raphael : the twigs are to poke anyone who tries to enter the fermenter
the page with the biosensor qn
R: which ocean is found on this page?
ans: the specific (pacific) ocean
[i think its funnier if its asked and answered aloud tho. and if you see the paper.]
for essay on microorganism spoilage and how to prevent it
ms lee
- " some of you can heat milk at 95oC for 30mins.. can boil soup already.."
- " and you blow steam thru milk, not milk thru steam" [had this vague idea of a nozzle spraying milk through steam and wondering how they collect the milk after sterilising haha]
- " for canning you've to heat and then seal it, not seal before you heat! if not the factory will explode!" [r: we love exploding factories!]
ah maybe i just found them funny cos i was in a crazy mood but well. thanks to raphael for the amusement. and its also funny wat students can do out of desperation/stress:p i.e. maths/phys cts as well i think. can't remember.
n i realised its not so gd sitting in the back row for bio.. no. 1 cannot see wats on the board.. no. 2 its super cold. -furry purple jacket to the rescue!-
haha happy day!:) went to venezia w lijia n joon.. msged chris n got her to come along.. met tinky candice n sheila there who were ponning college day rehearsal [tsk] it was really fun tho like a mini 413 reunion:D yay!
and of cos the ice cream reminded me of italy. sigh.
talking abt uni/scholarship apps = superbly depressing. plus i don't noe wat i wanna do in uni either. very vague. nvm.
haha yesterday was fun too got to meet relatives i haven't seen in 8 years. or possibly more. and another cousin who's a scholar here. she's so cute:p n looks so much happier/prettier. its a wonder what taking off braces/putting on contacts does. haha.
din listen during bio lect at all! ahh. somehow its so easy to slack in the back row. although its super cold. thanks jan for the chocolate haha:p
okay in a crazy mood i ended up walking home from the mrt. instead of taking bus. i figured since i made a wrong decision [to take mrt home frm orchard inst of bus] i shall have to bear the consequences. okay that sounds ridiculous but nvm. and i figured i didn't want to take another bus/wait for the bus/still wud have to walk even after taking e bus. and i thought it wud take the same amount of time but boy was i wrong... overestimated myself/underestimated the distance.
nvm i am now very thankful for a car haha:p started regretting halfway when i realised there was still such a long way to go.. and when i had to walk up that slope.. ugh. haha. anyway.
farewell! it was really good seeing everyone again:) i was like 2nd last to go haha came back too tired to do anything. given tt i slept only 3 hrs the previous night cos i slept in the aftnoon and was writing my numerous notes at night. wanted to sleep as early as possible but i ended up rereading all my notes and the journal..
ahh yes denise's house is really lovely. i was wondering if i'd stepped into the wrong house or sth.. it looked so posh and like sth u'll see in a magazine.. words can't describe it.. and i was wondering where the doorstep is cos i cudn't see any shoes anywhere. haha.
anyway.. got there early.. talked to hk.. then pple started coming.. i realised i don't really noe the j1s v well.. except for a few:) sigh. later on the sharing session.. and the song.. the lyrics were so sad.. and it's such a beautiful song. and when hp started singing his solo part.. reminded me of so many things. oh and kp's piano playing.. 1st time i've seen him play a full song.. really impressive:) go take ur frsm la:p
yeah but really must thank the j1s for such a wonderful farewell:) i don't think we were that nice to our j2s last yr hmm also don't think we were as close to them though.. the trip really did a lot. thanks for the presents and the notes and all:)
watching the video brought back somemore memories.. and hearing the songs.. =big sigh= am glad i stayed for as long as possible anyway. somehow it seems so final once there's farewell. i dunno. hopefully not lar. anyway being me i'll probably crash a lot of pracs n be super extra haha
ah i better go do work finally.. haven't done work since wed this is so terrible:s
ahh. nice day:) nice enough anyway.. had lunch w choir pple.. missed italy plus choir all over again hais. but anyway it was a funny lunch.. jan's new fren is now her chai tow kway.. cos she was saying/doing sth stupid [i forgot wat it was.. anyone care to enlighten me?] so jh me n alvin all decided she wasn't our fren anymore so she sed she still had her chai tow kway.. so alvin was like yeah.. say hello to it and then it goes into ur mouth rite..
various silly things today.. while waiting for jan who was waiting for whui for her biotech bk she was calling whui i think n decided that i shud become her elbow rest.. so i've upgraded from being a pillow to an elbow rest hmm. or downgraded? and tiff being too lazy to go to the toilet to change.. and jan arguing w alvin over where tiff put the stuff she photostated..
and while mugging aft lunch.. jan "how many l's did i write? i can't see!" [she wrote "it'lll" n i took a photo of it with her phone haha:p]
and she was happily twirling my scrunchie with her pen.. likening scrunchies to doughnuts: "doughnut holes must be put there for a reason! its to twirl them!"
yeah well. it was fun:) and jan went to get her fav pencil back frm caroline.. so heard them practising the barber of seville overture.. its such a lovely song.. so unfair we dun get to do it! hmph. nvm. like chernise says must go for concert nxt yr then.
woo~ i love freedom. haha. just can't savour it enough. like yesterday i wasn't doing anything constructive at all [well except for that 2 hrs or so at night which gave me a neckache] ah. and finally i can take my time eating breakfast without worrying about what time i'm gonna start studying. yeah... n i still feel like playing pool.
anyway. haha. let me post hc's bio essay qns here. i'm so thankful our bio dept isn't that creative.
Q1a) "lala and her friends were crossing the road. suddenly, the green man turned red. lala decided to beat the red light. describe what happened all the way from when she saw the red light to when she ran across the road." [u're spposed to write about nervous system, how the signals get transmitted]
Q1b)"what if lala was on drugs which prevent neurotransmitter breakdown? what would happen?" [apparently some pple wrote she'll go on running forever, some wrote she'll go into convulsions]
Q2a) "tom dick and harry are good friends. they all go to a restaurant to eat. tom orders fish and chips. while harry orders a chocolate milkshake. describe how tom's body carries out cellular respiration after a meal of fish and chips."
Q2b) "harry is diabetic. do you think his choice of food is correct? if you are dick, what would you advise him to eat/do?"
am really thankful our qns are normally phrased and stuff.
yeah! last paper today! whee~ happy clar:) chem was okay i guess. really needed the revision last night tho i'd forgotten everyth in 3 days.. quite horrifying.. and i looked at the nmr qn "freak! why're there so many c's and h's! wat crazy cpd is tt?" but luckily i think it was alrite..
hmm.. walked around.. had lunch.. i really really want to see everyone's photos again! talked about italy for a bit:) oh when i read the article on the non-stop flight to new york and the place for passengers to gather i was thinking of our flights there n back.. we'll meet pple at the toilet actually. but sigh.
yeah went heeren n borders. wanted to buy cds but cudn't decide which one to buy so din buy. actually i dun even noe wat i want. quite confusing.
oh yeah spiderman was quite gd actually.. even though i dun really like spiderman. but yeah. little jokes everywhere.. a few cheesy lines though esp for mary jane.. and the theme was a bit cliched even if it may be true. overall not bad. yup.
oh!! on the way back.. this guy behind me was french.. it was like.. suddenly i hear a "t'es ou?" behind me and i turned around. super cool. reminded me of anne-laure's [my french corresp] house and everyth abt immersion. bcos of the slang i guess. yeah. it was nice tho:)
bio was okay for the amount i studied i guess.. at least i sort of knew wat they were asking.. it wasn't as bad as the lecture test anyway. which isn't saying a lot since i barely passed that one but well.
math! ugh!! i can't believe myself.. somehow my mind managed to fool me into thinking that i'd finished qn13.. like i just saw it as part of qn12 n i finished it already or sth.. so i went straight to qn 14 n din realise until time was up and they sed "arrange ur script in order of qn" and i saw "qn 12" then "qn 14" then huh? did i write wrongly? -truth dawns- crap. well. will teach me a lesson i guess.. ugh.. 7m wasted... stupid..
humms. didn't like physics. probably cos i can't do data analysis/am too lazy to think. its quite terrible. i remember looking at the qn and thinking "can i give up?" and then scolding myself for wanting to give up before trying. really. i think i need counselling. and then din learn the gold foil/spectral lines thingy so i was crapping on the spot. started panicking during mcq, can't remember why. ahh. i just hope i do fine.
and bio. feel like giving up too. its crazy.. i mean i noe the general idea but if u ask for details.. i'm a goner.. and bio is all about details if not u don't get marks. everything is "be specific!" and how do you "be specific!" if u've no content in ur brain! ugh. ... sorry to all those pple i whined to, thank you for putting up with me:)
haha i just got back frm mugging w jan chris tiff alvin mz. missed everyone lots esp cos of italy.. then when i was walking to macs i saw ronnie [aka chris' ex and jh's current] outside and cudn't stop laughing cos i remembered all the descriptions they gave to enlighten kp.. "in desperate need of a tan" and such.
surprisingly quite serious actually until after lunch we took a break and were crapping for a while.. and then tiff was whining abt not wanting to study so i told her to look at e giraffe on her animal-printed tissue paper [which chris kindly gave to us] and be happy.. then she realised there was no unicorn on hers [but there were 3 on mine so i offered to donate one to her] and started whining somemore haha. i like the tissue paper:) okay i sound quite demented here. oh yes n i had a surround-sound system cos on my right jan was singing and on my left mz was doing percut/singing.
oh yes i became jan's permanent pillow once again. quote her i'm "comfy". if i get another shoulder ache tmr i noe who to blame:p
and on the bus i fell asleep [reminds me of all the long bus journeys] and then almost missed my stop luckily e person nxt to me was getting off too haha:D if not i'd have to walk a looong way.
haha i was watching the bonus features for cirque yesterday and this is like the quote of the day frm one of the acrobats.. "its the best job in the world.. u get paid to kick ur bro's ass!" cos he n his bro are a pair doing this acrobatic stunt thingy.. he lies with his feet upwards on this special chair and the bro sits on his feet and does somersaults. okay its kinda hard to describe.
its the last week. i hope i finally get that firmly imprinted in my brain cos all my stuff is really half-baked. want to buy cds frm HMV! sigh.
right. i think i fell asleep at 9+ yesterday. wat a pig. therefore i effectively didn't do much work yesterday. hais. oh well.
anw. yesterday. bday lunch w peiying lijia n chris! [afterwards ting came] was fun meeting them again:) felt like sec 3/4 days. oh.. my new preferred mode of buying pple presents is to go shopping with them. haha:D advantage: pple get sth useful/sth they like. disadvantage: no surprise. well well.
and i went to run again heh:p maybe that plus walking around for 3 hrs made me v tired. though tt sounds quite pathetic.
dinner with bao n chris n tinky.. quite interesting.. all the reminiscing and bao's new anecdotes.. really funny:p can't believe mrs prama believed baoyi's explanation abt her dyed hair.. tt was really hilarious.. its amazing how she can crap up stuff on the spot like that. and hmm lou's giving stace math tuition tt's new..
mugging is so tiresome and boring. how i'm going to last until november is a mystery to me.
haha yesterday i had mushroom soup and was thinking of room 234. hais. and i was watching cirque du soleil! so lovely:) though actually i got a bit bored later on. but overall i think their shows let u bring something away from it. i haven't figured out wat. but anyway i think the reason why i like them so much is cos their performances are really seamless. like all the difficult stunts and all.. they make it seem so easy. and everything is really in unison. i bet their director is perfectionistic too haha. oh and i love their soundtracks!
hmm. i've never been that angry before in my life i think. at least i don't remember feeling that furious. like just sat there and could feel my temperature rising. very interesting. though on retrospect i wonder why i was that mad. hmm. maybe just keyed up or sth.
the good thing which came out of is that i got so frustrated [not just with one person/event but everyth on the whole cos the aircon pple came n my mom was arguing with them n making a whole freaking lot of noise] that i went to the gym:) haha. and ran. and ran. and ran. so i guess tt cleared my mind too. and gave me exercise. [which i rarely do]
am now slowly cooling off heh decided the fan makes me too cold! shall go bathe. and cool off somemore. have gotten a scolding for not doing much work the whole day.. sigh i never feel like waking up in the morning
hmm. just back frm class dinner. it was gd seeing everyone again.. pity lijia n pam weren't there tho:( and like the one of the 1st few times ser was actually around.. haha.. silhouette photos are fun! peiying n chris quick send me:)
oh and watched harry potter! the overall tone is quite dark. really wonder wat the show's going to be like by the 4th/5th books hmm. anyway.. i didn't really imagine dementors to be flying all over the place.. i thot they just glided on the floor. and the sucking thingy was overdramatic imo. found the image representing the soul interesting.
let me see wat else i din like.. oh lupin looks quite ugly. and the werewolf too. i thot werewolves look like real wolves hmm. this one looked like an overgrown gollum. k i shall stop complaining.. the show was quite okay.. maybe 3 or 3.5 stars yah ser:) oh yeah the patronus also din look like wat i thought. but anyway i guess i've learnt to take a step back frm my own imagination n appreciate wat the movie has. after LOTR. haha.
ah my aircon's finally working:) yay! kinda miss sleeping in my own room.. though surprisingly bro's room isn't that musty. okay i guess i haven't got that much to say so off i go
hmm. i think i'm romesick too. and was addicted to photos last night b4 sleeping. and today i was trying to get some stuff done but didn't succeed particularly well. :( at least tmr i get to see my sec 4 class:) plus one/two tchers:) and watch harry potter:) yay!
oh and i was watching e video my mom/dad took frm concert [though like half of it is kinda messy n cannot see faces] but can hear.. hais. i should really realise there's no more time left.
n i just koped this frm shenting's blog in a moment of boredom.. hilarious.. have a gd laugh.. haha.. its like everything i'm not..
C Charismatic L Legendary A Adventurous R Refined I Irresistible S Stunning S Spunky A Awesome
Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com
hmm.. went for the church singing thingy today.. was a far cry from chorale.. like duh rite but well.. i guess i'm conditioned to serious practices and high expectations from mr toh's drilling.. which i really am grateful for:)
anyway. i got my photos! woohoo~! yay yay yay:) was at the fujifilm shop and checking for anyth wrong cos of my screwy cam.. was so scared half the photos wouldn't turn out but but they all turned out fine! yay!!!:):):) yeah.. anyway so i was looking thru and laughing to myself.. the woman must have thought i'd gone mad.. o well:) lovely memories:) kinda regret not having taken more photos.. but got quite sick of it after a while.
the only problem was that the last few photos looked like they were taken by a contractor or someone who'd found sth wrong with their house toilet cos those photos were of room 234's crazy toilet:p [which jiahui tiff chris jan had to put up with.. any mushrooms growing yet? i'm sure spore's hot n humid climate is more conducive for mushroom growth rofl]
haha.. was just looking at all the photos pple uploaded.. feel happier somehow:) oh kudos to jan the gown looks really good:) but hope my photos turn out man.. stupid screwy camera:( and then i was looking at the photos chernise took for concert programme.. feels so weird to see choir pple in sch u after seeing them in long sleeves/jackets for the past week.
okay i kind of revived after sleeping a bit in the car on the way home. i have become v good at sleeping on moving vehicles [excluding planes] after going to italy. on boring bus journeys just end up sleeping. [and that happens quite a bit]
rather sad about everything. like. haha. coming home is supposed to be a happy thing n we ended up coming home crying. hais. that journal is really heartrending. esp when reading all the memories. n personal notes. so on the flight frm hongkong to spore when i read the book i started crying. n finally realised how everything is over. guess it didn't really seem that real until the last flight. and even though i kept telling myself that life is kind of full of meetings n partings n still has to go on it didn't work v well. just was wallowing in misery i guess.
just feels so weird to not have choir pple around anymore. that week didn't seem like a week at all.. more like a month. i don't know why though. maybe bcos each day was so packed full of stuff:) the 1st 4 days full of late night concerts when we were all falling asleep [but luckily not for the last night!] and the rome extension days when we took horrible public transport n the late nights in room 234:)
wish we had this trip in the early part of the year.. i think it did a whole lot for bonding that nothing else could have done.. so then i was thinking oh next time when we're having break outside lt4 it'll be more fun.. and then i realised.. those days are over. i've just grown so used to lt4 and choir it seems so weird that it's all over. i guess at least now's holidays.. so it won't be much of a difference.. but when sch reopens.
yeah. and i got to noe kaiping n darryl my dearest buddy whom i'm "super bad" to haha. n jinjie with his primary-coloured caterpillar with 2 heads:p they really provided a lot of amusement in rome:) spent a lot of time w tiff chris jan candice jiahui ben.. v amusing time:)
really hope my photos turn out fine. and we must make sure we bring photos to j2 farewell to order frm each other.. i'm quite sure there're quite a few photos tt i din bother taking with my lousy camera..
okay this is like a really mopey entry but can't help it. there's this sense of inevitability.. everything's over. and all we [j2s] have left is to mug the rest of the year.
oh i wanted to add something. which i suddenly forgot. bah. nvm. another time will do. oh i think our food is infinitely nicer than italian haha. everything is pasta/pizza. or maybe cos of wat we chose but o well. ohh! i remember now. it was like a retreat.. no internet n hardly any smsing.. okay. i shall finally bathe n sleep.
haha woo~ rugby won! well done! haha i don't think i've ever felt that happy.. was trying not to overdo the screaming though but i think everyone's going to end up not being able to sing properly tmr:p am really happy for them anyway:)
yeah. finally we're flying off tmr. seems like i've been waiting forever. anyway hope we've a good time there.. hope it'll be as fun as immersion [actually i already kind of have my doubts about that heh think immersion was quite different] nvm.. still can be fun. better go pack soon.
haha i'm quite happy i'm missing the qa test tmr;p seems like everyone's studying for it now. it sounds quite crazy.. 100 marks in dunno how many minutes. good luck to u pple heh.
i love the troy song.. remember me by josh groban. and the shrek song holding out for a hero. i think they illustrate wats happening in the movie v well.. somehow when i listen to them i think of achilles and shrek on mungo.
ooh. feel funky:) have watched 2 shows on the day they opened! wahaha:) troy n shrek 2. anyway.. shrek 2 was hilarious! i don't think i've ever laughed that much. though somehow i can't remember wat i was laughing about anymore.. anyway it was v enjoyable:) i mite be tempted to buy the shrek 2 dvd when it comes out:D though i wish the ogres weren't so ugly. not particularly nice to look at ugly kters throughout most of the movie:p
i think the soundtrack was quite cool.. must go check it out.
and grr the troy soundtrack! i want the last track by josh groban but somehow my downloaded versions don't seem to work and the cd isn't in spore yet:(
anyway it was good going out w lijia today:) always nice to catch up with old frens:) and eating and eating and eating. haha. feel so gluttonish. met siewjin at ps! haha:) it was quite unexpected.. i suddenly thought someone calling "clar" [or maybe lijia alerted me too] and then turned around n saw tricey waving madly at me:)
yes and i finally bought some of the v belated bday presents:S still got chris to shop for though. i hope i din forget anyone else hums.
yeah. somehow i think today made up for all the crap this week. dun think i had a v nice week. but today was great:) yay!
plus i realised tt i have hardly time left to get stuff done.. monday is 5.10 day plus nite prac, tues is 2.30 day plus sectionals plus chem s plus nite prac, wed is gp common test, thurs flying off. help! aah. well. hope trip will be fun.
okay. i finally have my sat 2 scores. so i can stop checking the collegeboard website. yeah. scores are decent but percentiles are not satisfying at all. nvm. anyway the website says its compared to last yr. clar the perfectionist here. and considering i was doing tt together with prep for concert. well. guess its quite gd:)
feel quite weird. like half tense half relaxed. partly cos of choir partly cos of scores. wat to think? ah nvm thinking is too tiring [haha u can quote me on that] watching shrek2 tmr!:) 8 days gave it 5 stars whee~
ooh happy day:) was actually quite worried about the booking thingy in the morning but turned out fine:) in fact the seats were really good!:) haha. considering i booked at like 1pm which i thought wasn't v early but well.
anyway. yes. troy was good. though some parts of the battles reminded me of lotr. but i guess there's a limit to how much difference one can have in battles. well. let me quote chris "no hot babes though" and "cinematography was good". the beach is so pretty. white sand and pure blue sea. and troy is gorgeous. somehow i like their architecture or something. oh yar and some parts are so explicit i thought they wud censor it b4 rating pg but hmm watever.
and saw trailers for harry potter 3! its quite terrible actually.. like a horror movie instead.. i didn't think the 3rd book was that sinister.. n differs frm wat i imagined dementors to look like. and a lot of other stuff. by the time they do book 4 n 5 it'll probably be way worse. and i thought the books were dark enough.
yeah tinky was telling us hilarious stories all the way.. i think we really noe how to smoke during bio tests.. its really funny actually heh. even though mr chan sed he wanted to vomit blood when catching a glimpse of some of our answers:p anyway yeah realised i really haven't seen tinky since like last yr or sth. missed u!:)
and then lyd came all dressed up as usual. the classy lydia:) and pam who was late as usual. but actually had enough money for once haha. and with her usual assortment of corny jokes. i think i've had an overdose though. tt gal is amazing.
yes. quite tired. tmr probably will be another long day. -stretches- time to sleep
yay! for a long while i haven't felt so relaxed. actually can go out n eat haha. sound seriously deprived. but the past few weeks have been crazy.
yeah bio test was hilarious. i've never felt this unprepared. and last night i was just so tired.. couldn't get anything much in.. and now i really understand why mr chan says one cannot chiong biotech last minute. but well. i think if i were marking the scripts i'll be laughing endlessly. esp the bacteriophage qn. like. haha. benzene ring n spaceship control centre n laser gun turrets? rofl. and i wrote down the grape name for wine instead of the microoorganism. man.
tumdeedum. although i've to do analogue tut by tmr. but feels good to not to be so busy. yeah. and i have concluded i've become a rather good stoner nowadays [fossil rite haha] i really must go watch land before time.. and see sarah the spoilt triceratops haha.
oh yes and nice movies are coming out:) like troy n shrek 2 n harry potter heh. oh yes and i must go eat icecream with lijia sometime:) and joon too! though i dun think either of them reads my blog hmm. but nvm. note to myself.
anyway. yay! no night prac on friday either. yeah. am in quite a happy state of mind cos tests for this week are over and i've a bit of time to chill. really need it:)
haha for once i think this is going to be a slightly more sane entry. anyway. yeah. kind of sad about yesterday. last concert! and the worst part was that now i look back at it i wasn't really feeling anything. which is quite pathetic. i think i just totally zoned out. oh yeah and on thurs nite/fri morn i was just thinking i'm like this balloon full of air. almost to bursting point. then once it pops there's only the 'skin' left.
anyway. yes. i was kind of sad that i didn't feel as much for the concert as i think i wud have if i hadn't sat 2 today. yeah. cos after the concert my one track mind immediately switched to sat 2 mode. like. okay. hurry up and get home n sleep/prep. yeah. so. just felt that it was rather a pity tt i chose to take sats today. but it's over.
yup was v glad to see all e pple at the concert:) thanks for coming! hope u all had a great time:)
now to whine about sat2. i think i was still like half awake. cos maybe i had to wake up at like 7. which is like normal school day. totally sucky. and then the writing topic was horrendous. "the twentieth century will be known as the ____ century." like. yay i have no idea wat big thing happened in the 1990's? so i wrote some rubbish. n i din realise how long it takes to write one paragraph. and i don't think my vocab was very varied.
yeah. not sure about some of the tenses and stuff. i tend to blame it on the spore system cos until like sec 1 or sth when i started learning french then i really knew wat a noun/object/adjective and all those words were. as in before that i'd just be using it and not knowing wat it was. and the name of the tenses. stuff like that. anyway. math was okay but i wasn't sure about 2 logic qns [i'm illogical yes] and one other qn.
ah. enough of that. can't get down to doing work. so unappealing. eeks. i want to watch my cirque du soleil dvds but doesn't seem like i'll get to until june hols or sth. welll..
and i can't believe u all went to fullerton last night! life is unfair. growl.
hums. yay! for the 1st time in like 2 weeks i'm actually home before 8. whee~ at least i can finally do some proper prepping for sats. anyway. like i was saying to lots of pple. my life currently consists of sleeping, singing and -trying- to prep for sats. the keyword there is trying. so being a student is part time. heh. haven't done tutorials for wat seems like ages.
i don't think i've ever gone to sleep with the intention of doing so for the past 2 weeks either. and then on tues nite i fell asleep with the lights on.. and then halfway somehow i thought it was day cos it seemed like it was quite bright so i woke up. to find tt it was 4am.
anyhow. yah. during assembly candice was flipping thru my diary. and we came to italy trip! mm. makes me remember all the french immersion stuff. hope it'll be as fun:) though i don't think we'll get as much free time as we did in france. the grp's like 3 times the size. but its a long long time till then. sprinkled with a few lecture tests/bio prac test in the weeks in between.
right. i think i'll go take a nap. the luxury of which i haven't had a for a long time! haha i wonder who'll get dunked on ora. quite funny. were trying to persuade mr chan today. who sed he had to go home n discuss with his wife. oh and raphael's corny jokes.. man.. well at least i stayed awake thruout chem lect. maybe also cos of the cold. heh.
very frustrated at the moment. headaches plus not being able to do math/chem s is not very comforting. and i haven't done sat 2 yet either. okay this sounds like a reiteration of the last post. but really. am feeling immensely pressurised somehow or other. lots of little things. please let my life improve after this week. heh. or during the week would be fine too. heh.
really. spent like 1/2hr trying to figure out some trigo crap thing. and then the stupid buffer thing and was getting negative values for concentration till i wanted to fling/hurl sth out of the window and was banging the table. i think i shall go back n bang somemore rofl.
am terrified of sat 2 essay writing component. its crazy to give u one quotation/statement n ask u to comment in 20mins. esp when the topics are so broad. n i haven't even tried. probably cos i'm scared of it. aarghhhh.
heh. its only been 3 late nights n i feel half dead. how i'm going to survive till nxt friday [and saturday] is a mystery to me. so mon was band concert.. was good:) but wat irked me was the cloakroom crap.. take so freaking long to get flowers n stuff. spastic rules. anyway. and then we were running all over the place.. rush frm math s to esplanade.. was joking in the cab tt sj [who just got 10.3 for shuttle run] should go sprint to the doors first.. then later during intermission we were looking for dinner [and didn't find it]
and tuesday.. comm meeting.. i don't really want to say much about it here. yeah. but anyway. when i got home i ended up falling asleep on the floor for a while. n aft waking up was doing sat 2 paper half asleep. but i guess the score wasn't too bad, considering. haha.
and today. fringe prac n choir prac. well. wat can i say. finished around 9, got back and also ended up falling asleep [but on the bed] haha at least i woke up. n managed to get some work done. though i think its quite sloppy. sigh. feel so jaded i can't be bothered for now. which is bad.
n i feel like my temper's getting shorter n shorter. which happens once in a while i guess. general malaise? heh. annoyed with anything n everything. watever. freaking scared for sats II cos i do not want to end up retaking. like. should do it once and do it well then it'll save me lots of trouble.
these days i wake up not wanting to go to school. interminable school days. but i shouldn't complain.. my timetable is actually quite okay except for mondays.
hmm. yay dad's back:) haha. have lots of nice things. though i wonder when i'll find time to watch my dvds. but at least i have them! actually i wonder wat i'll do if the real show comes to town. if i go watch it live as well it mite be like wasting money. o well. nvm. tt can come later:p
today's lunch was hilarious. kinda pitied the waiter.. was his 2nd day and he was so apologetic about everyth n kept saying "that's a gd question.." and went to ask his boss. anyway. first my dad ordered a pot of tea [share with mom] and then later the waiter came back saying "i'm v sorry but my boss has just informed me that they broke all the teapots" found it really funny.. either the pple there are v clumsy or the shelf collapsed or sth..
and then later dad's cup of tea came along.. first came the cup [with the tea] and the saucer.. then the spoon.. then the milk.. so my dad was like "why's it coming in bits n pieces" . i guess i was in quite an amused mood. was thinking "bits and pieces" was a v interesting way to describe it.
anyway.. dance night was good!:) albeit kind of short actually. but i guess they can't keep up dancing for that long hmm. wat else. there's band+chamber on monday.. am sure they'll be good too:)
k am getting chased off as usual. well. at least i cleared up my table today.. no longer relegated to the v sad state of having only a rectangle of space [where my foolscap is] to do my work while the rest of the table is piled up with stuff. heh.
yay. bio prac test and 2.4 = over! woohoo~ haha:) am totally going to flunk bio prac.. i dunno how i managed to take so much time doing the expt till i had no time to finish. well. am hoping to get double digits haha seems bit impossible though.
yeah. that's quite a load off my mind. given that i woke up on sunday morning with this sinking feeling that i'd have to run 2.4 the next day. and today was hilarious.. talk about moodswings. i was rather grumpy in the morning. then halfway thru chem tut i started making my ridiculous comments [haha] and the worst of it was that me ser n raphael are right in front in full sight so ms tan kept asking us wat was so funny..
phys i was trying to figure out some quantum thingy which i understood wrongly during the lect growl. and for once i sort of paid attention during bio lect. well at least i wasn't doing something else but somehow i don't remember much of wat she said. besides her "don't marinate 60 pieces of pork with 2 bowls of pineapple juice".
math was quite funny too. somehow dasheng started calling siewjin a goldfish. and making weird noises all the way. i really think he was suffering from junming withdrawal symptoms. but it was v funny;p *gloop gloop* haha. and i think we totally tried mrs lim's patience during gp until she had to bribe us with lollipops if we kept quiet. but later she changed it to a threat of doing a summary [somehow tt always works] and she looked so smug that she'd thought of a solution to shut us up;p
yeah. had a really good laugh today after all. probably cos i was crazy. but still. very amusing:)
oh rite and during bio prac we could hear dr chan shouting at 3g in the lab directly below.. he kept diaoing andrew fang [i think] and was like "good boy!" when he did something correctly. i think the one of the funny things abt bio prac is when everyone's quietly doing their work and then we can all hear dr chan really clearly.. n then we'll all start laughing and if mr chan happens to be around then he'll be like "chem speaks very loudly but bio is very soft" or sth like tt. the original context being that usually we mug more for chem than bio or sth n then bio will give u unexpected results.
yah. and jan was saying.. 8 pracs for concert [fringe item].. is tt enough? n i'm like hmm.. doesn't sound like it'll be.. sigh. super busy. and i still haven't started on sat 2 math. help:s
hmm. not entirely happy with pw but i guess i kinda expected it. heck. anyway had a great lunch with lyd:) miss her lots. and got to talk to joon today! on the way to bluemoo. yup. haha joon the rabbit. she says the most hilarious things. she and pingying are such an amusing pair.
i guess it is true that once u move on u don't have that much in common with yr old frens and u naturally grow apart. but like lyd sed at least u actually realise that u haven't seen each other for sometime and try to meet up. yeah. keeps it going anyway. better than just letting it go. though it happens v often. life consists of a lot of meetings and partings. hmm. something like that.
anyway just now i was thinking about it and decided i have very high expectations for all sorts of things and therefore get easily annoyed when things do not match up to wat i expect. which is bad.. kind of like a short temper. should just take it as a learning experience. my mood swings are really erratic. candice can probably testify to tt:p find that i only go mad with pple i'm really comfortable with. if not pple'll probably just look at me askance.
yeah. jan just reminded me its 2 weeks to ve and fringe is quite unready. means that i'm going to be super busy the nxt 2 weeks. sigh. wats new. hope we can put up a gd show:) we had better anyway.
listening to candice's sissel cd.. her voice is lovely:) i'm so glad i have my divine cd too haha:) and it was interesting finding out that jiahui likes enya and loreena mckennitt. the type i suddenly got interested in!:)
ugh. i've just spent like 4 hrs doing the programme stuff. the worst thing is that it just seems so easy. like. okay photos. cut out heads n stuff, dump them on the filmstrip, voila. u're done! yarrite. there's all the crap resizing and layers and stuff. i wonder if there's any better software besides adobe. and i'm not even halfway thru the individual strip. groan. 40 more heads to find. help. my head is spinning already frm staring at the comp and all the alignment. aargh.
anyway. don't noe why i was quite sian at the beginning of choir and was making all manner of spastic comments to candice:) haha. spouting nonsense would be more like it. and tiff can't count haha. she's hilarious:) glad she's nxt to me for competition arrangement! haha:) but i feel short. and got to watch dance night preview! so lovely:) makes me wish i'd taken ballet sometimes haha. anyway i foresee going broke soon. all the flowers to buy.
o yes and finally all the common test results are back. somehow after waiting for so long i feel kinda apathetic abt them already. well. i'm quite satisfied i guess. kind of kept to my goal since last yr haha. hopefully my end goal works out too:)
and there's this fri to look forward to! and nxt sat!:) yay.. happy time~ but 1st i've got to sort out this picture thingy groan. too tired to do anymore. even though i fell asleep on the floor for 2 hrs just now:) i guess a mattress would have been better. but was a gd rest:)
surprisingly i haven't fallen asleep [without intending to] this week. i think its reverse psychology. like when there's a lot of work due and stuff then i'll feel tired n end up sleeping. and when the stuff's not so pressing then more relaxed n less tired somehow. interesting huh.
o it was gd talking to lijia today:) should go venezia and mug with her n joon sometime again:)
ooh. tired. better make sure i don't get myself sick though. with serene n yonglai on either side of me coughing/sneezing/sniffing. its quite amazing how ser managed to pass her sickness to yonglai past me.
all our songs are so tiring.. i think i'm close to shouting half the time. like there's dravidian where me n poor candice have to sing running notes [the melody] for the whole song unlike the other parts cos they sometimes sing the notes which define the beat. and suite which is spposed to be fierce. and pseudo-yoik which requires high a. and solfeggio which has a super loud high f.
nvm. i shall be happy tt i've zhiyin n tiff beside me n candice in front of me during competition pracs:)
anyway. haha! i think choir gave me inspiration.. i did the 1st qn of chem s half before choir n half after it. hopefully its correct! whee~ o it was gd seeing chris on thurs n pam today:)
haha for the first time in a loong looong time i felt like getting up [frm bed] today:) yay! i think i slept 10hrs haha clar the pig. don't care already. anyways. there should be holidays every month. or every 3 weeks.
heh. the uni talk thing yesterday was actually quite interesting. just tt now i find myself wondering how i'm going to get into any us uni. ugh.
anyways can't think of anything else. i must go and plough on with complex numbers. i'm only here cos i got stuck on one of the first few qns bleargh.
yup still haven't figured out why i got so depressed just now. but nevermind. maybe its fine now. i don't know if its me being cranky but why do i keep flaring up suddenly. haha. maybe its stress huh. my impatience drives me nuts sometimes. n i can't do freaking complex numbers! ugh. very annoyed with it rowl growl. shall sleep soon enough. at least only monday is a long day for me. and thurs kind of.
well. somehow i was happier yesterday. so weird. though math was good:) v relieved. it was interesting sitting with aud too. fruitful discussion. yep. had another little run-in with my mom. i guess she's just worried for me sigh. but it blows over quite fast. like in the car i get annoyed. and after 1 or 2 hrs at home its okay again. well i guess tts good too. watever.
anyways i can't find v much to say. too full of thoughts [?] yeah. should go sort them out.
lalala. clar is on a high at the moment! very happy with physics. though considering the stupid mistakes i made.. or maybe if i see the percentage tmr i won't feel so wonderful but well.. feel like i redeemed myself from the terrible lect test haha. hope math will be fine. its so annoying having to wait so long for results. though if they're bad i dont' want them back heh.
ah anyways last night was hilarious:) poor poor jan haha. always the victim of everyone's diaoing huh.. nvm we still love u anyway:) wahaha:) though had a little run-in with parents over the dinner thing thanks to someone being 1.5hrs late heh. but it worked out fine i think. yup.
yeah. and it was nice talking to yunlei today:) sort of like catching up. haven't talked to lots of pple in a loong time. o yes n i find tt our math tutorials are hilarious.. mr chan never fails to say something funny..
haha yesterday when i was having dinner with my mom at al dente the menu had something called pizza primavera. very amusing. just after spending dunno how long singing io son la primavera. but its a lovely song:)
and its been so long since i had a full course [western] meal. like. since france. haha. just tt it didn't come course by course. and i don't think they drink soup very much. but i always feel super full after every meal. and remember kai-lyn n yunlei sharing their food. n cheukka with her silly comments:)
aargh. this part of a song is stuck in my head but i don't noe e rest of the song/title/artist! rar. yay!! i finally found it:)
anyway. we can still go for dance nite after all!:) *happy*
ooh. feel good. i sat down for 1h30 n did work. while listening to music. but i actually didn't get up for such a long time! haha. though it didn't seem like i did that much. but well. better than nothing i guess. and tmr's friday! yay:) and maybe i'll get to meet lyd n pam on sunday:) yay somemore:)
i think i can't put on the aircon straight away at night. if not i'll fall asleep [like the past 2 nights. bleargh. tues nite i fell asleep at 9 while studying chem prac n woke up at 4 to mug. yesterday i fell asleep at 10, heck cared, woke up n was almost late for sch].
yup. it was quite funny actually today during math lect aft the april fool's joke aud turned around n was like "do u remember last last yr when serene got us to hide in the toilet during a math" [i forgot exact words] and later i was telling chris tt i finally gave lyd her bday present n abt our april fool's joke.. then her reply "rmb in sec 4 where stupid ser choreographed tt toilet stunt to skip a math?" haha. fond memories huh rofl it was kinda spas but at least its sth funny to remember:p
n yeah. speaking of sec 4 class. quite impressed at 412's very successful class outing. hope we can have one too! haha. i want to see mrs kwan! blahh. maybe i can coax her into coming for choir concert:D plus ms ning n ms tan! wahaha:) it'll be fun.
i wish they'd hurry up with the rest of the common test results. somehow i don't like the waiting. like. the feeling of something unfinished. and i also hope i did fine. start feeling quite paranoid sometimes.
and sigh the fringe thingy. i think our songs are kind of boring. hmm. but for them to be more interesting need percut rite? aiyah. quite confused here. and i feel so tired everyday there doesn't seem to be any respite. feeling like i need my holiday again haha.
nvm i will go and sort myself out again.
oh! funny church thing heh. we were learning 1 Corinthians 15. so our tcher asked us to take 30 seconds to visualise wat our idea of heaven would be like. so the 1st person he picked to share with us was benjamin. who said his idea was a bed. can sleep. -amused- [so was the tcher]
so tcher went on to ask his sister jasmine who said "he wants a bed i want the pillows n the bolster" tt girl is always the joker:p
in which tcher sed tt we wake up just to go back to sleep [as in wake up on judgement day]
so amos said we must be watchful on earth wat so cannot sleep so go to heaven n sleep [or rest]
was quite hilarious:p we're all so lacking in sleep.
yes. well i remembered a few posts back serene [lee] said on her blog that something's missing in her life. and yesterday jm did too. and i realised i felt the same way. just tt, like they said. its just so easy to push it away when u're busy and have other stuff to do. like. oh i have sth else to finish forget it i'll think about it another time. and u never really go and figure out wat it is. which now come to think of it is actually quite important.
yes. well. anyways i figured something i'll enjoy doing and tts learning another language! haha. or doing sth abt my french anyway. quite rusty. but i still havent' figured out wat to do about the feeling-too-tired-to-talk-to-anybody part. today my excuse was tt after singing dravidian and suite de lorca my throat/voice = super tired. actually that happens quite a lot. like my mom will ask me stuff in the car n i wont' want to answer cos i'm really tired of using my voice haha.
oh yes. so i was sitting beside the pool thinking. and found sth i like to do! it was actually quite peaceful. nice windy night with the sound of running water. but i felt quite hermit-ish cos everyone else was in the clubhouse talking. well.
hmm. common tests are over. finally! i woke up feeling so happy:) but somehow after the paper i felt so sian. like. don't feel like doing anything. wat's there in the form of entertainment? movies? nothing nice that i really wanted to watch. though my girl was funny. but somehow i felt v sorry for the little guy. like being unhappy cos he was stuck with the gals. and not accepted into the gang. and having to hurt his best fren to get into the gang. maybe tts wats called heartwrenching.
anyways. to continue about my sianness. felt like tt even around my friends. and it wasn't just one particular group of pple. was just in general. which is really sad. maybe cos i was hot and sticky and tired. feel better after a bath anyway. maybe i need nice new songs. maybe i need sleep. or maybe like junming says, i need a vacation to go and find myself again. haha. sounds bit cheesy. but sounds like sth i need. and just aft lect tests i was thinking i needed a vacation but tts not v possible.
o yes and for anyone who hasn't heard about my screw-up.. realised at 9sth yesterday tt it was the deadline for registration for may sats.. so i rushed it.. and then after i registered they sed it'll be held on 8th may cos 1st may in spore is labour day. freak la. maybe tts the day after choir concert. how screwed. and then june sats is no better cos i'll come back frm italy on 3rd june and june sats are on 5th june. so basically quite screwed cos of choir. well. hope tmr will be a nice day.
oh i forgot to add. alvin's "feet jackets" [socks]; jiahui's weird dreams; hearing abt ben and his "why don't u put fren in the canal [kennel] n i think there's somemore. when i remember i'll add it in heh.
haha. today's mugging was quite funny. and as usual tiffy wasn't being sane. haha. i have this suspicion she only pretends to be sane normally:D and i also never realised how much jan gets diaoed by alvin. and vice versa. very interesting there. o yeah n jiahui started going crazy later on too.
hums. last nite of mugging! whee~ i was almost going to type the same thing as the end of the last post just that i realised in time. yes. tmr will be fun:) goody. seems like i've been stuck at home/mugging forever.
hums seems like math was okay after all. after checking numbers with serene. haha. hopefully we're both right. whee~ though i somehow felt tt i wasn't concentrating enough on the paper. maybe cos it was an afternoon paper. [and it was hot and humid and therefore annoying] then i freaked out after the paper when candice asked me about the volume thing but i think its correct after all! -whew-
ugh. i think i will go and sleep somemore. mom made me wake up at 8sth. and i was so groggy i couldn't do math properly anyway... got this p&c qn wrong n somehow couldn't think how the answer came about. but after napping i realised. so well.
and there were like 3 explanation questions! i didn't read the explanations as well as i thought i had so had to come up with some decent crap on the spot. hopefully it was correct. and the linear interpolation thing! cheat me. i thought it was in the notes but i forgot when actually the one in the notes is only for newton raphson. so had to formulate something on the spot anyway. o well. only 1 paper left! yay:) can almost taste freedom. some sort of freedom anyway haha.
heh. bio. wat can i say. oh well. i can't work up much enthusiasm to mug for bio somehow. shall have to rectify that. somehow. but tt can come later haha. now for math. at least math doesn't require mugging. as compared to chem/bio. ugh. anyways. agree with all of jireh's complaints about exams in the school hall. so so true. and i didn't realise there was drilling until today. but luckily it stopped after a while.
anyways. i was watching a bug's life taped from sunday. its so cute!:) haha. i like the circus bugs. but i don't like bugs in real life. and the bloopers were funny too. yay clar is happy:)
alrighty. poor clar is confused. was tt paper easy/ok/difficult? forget it. shouldn't bother thinking anymore its over. anyway its actually quite funny now tt i look back at it. but for C3 i stared at the first part n freaked out "how?? how to show its a weak acid??" and then looked down and realised "die if i can't do 1st part & the other 2 are linked then i'm dead" so i sat there n panicked until i squashed out an answer. and then the same thing happened for the pH thingy. thinks "i've seen that before! on saturday! in the notes! how come i can't do it now!" sat n panicked somemore until i realised. haha.
ah. okay. i just realised some mistakes thanks to hk haha. talk about rushing for time.. hopefully there aren't anymore.
anyways. i better go make sure i noe my stuff for bio. very scared of essays. n structured questions which i can't understand [as candice says]
bleah. sometimes i hate myself for sleeping in the afternoon. anyways. i realised i spent 5 hrs on homeostasis alone. maybe cos i was writing it out neatly and stuff. grrr. haven't done physics at all. freak. horrible studying.
anyways. i have rediscovered that instrumental music is nice! i don't really know wat its called actually cos i'm just koping soundtracks. new-age orchestra?? hmm. anyways. like frm pirates n lotr n finding nemo n anna n the king n monsters inc n x-men 2 haha. but each one is different. can't describe it somehow. elusive. or maybe my music vocab is just sucky haha. but i like tt type of music so i'm happy! whee~
oh i forgot to add the horse at disney on ice was so cute too:) cos its kinda hampered by the fact tt there're 2 people making up the horse [i think] so it has to move quite slowly.. very cute:D
back from disney on ice! the skating was lovely. am quite satisfied cos tts wat i went there to see. kind of. haha. tho i didn't like gaston so the parts centering around him were bit draggy. anyway yes. the skating. so fluid and graceful! like they never stop moving.. just slide round and round.. haha.. and then the pair skaters were so cool.. dunno how the guy can skate and hold up the gal at the same time..
yeah. i realised i only manage to appreciate such things now. cos my mom says she's been asking me to go n watch disney since time immemorial and i never wanted to.. then suddenly this yr i decide i want to. i guess its cos i don't like disney stories much.. but this yr i decided i wanted to go bcos i wanted to see the skating. cos like i think my dad asked us to go watch saltimbanco when it came in 99 but i didn't want.. then somehow i came to my senses in 01 n i went to watch alegria! yay:) and last yr 'o' in vegas:) somehow nowadays when i see any of those productions with showy music and dancing and stuff it reminds me of vegas:)
and then there's piano too.. i remember i really hated lessons when i was small [like 6 to 11 or so] and i'd hang around hoping that my tcher wud call and say she's not coming.. then i'd be so happy when the lesson was cancelled.. think i only really appreciated music when i went to jkms. and saw ms koh play. haha. talk about inspiration. yeah and then there's choir too. when i see all the zai music pple.
yeah. rather unproductive day though. maybe i should try to sleep less. haha. wat a lazy clar. shall go off n attempt to finish kidney.
ah. seem to feel rather productive today. but when i actually look at it maybe not. cos i've been awake since 8 and taking off like 1.5hrs for meals and 1/2h reading n 1/2h playing piano n 1/2h online. oh nevermind. feel sufficiently satisfied for now anyhow. at least i didn't feel sleepy in the afternoon like i usually do. maybe cos its hols. or cos i slept 10hrs at night. haha. i should stop falling asleep with the light on. which goes to show how lazy i am.
oh i just remembered something funny about last wed. someone [either one of the serenes i think. forgot] asked ms ning for her handphone number. and ms ning didn't noe. [typical blur ms ning haha:p] and so she scrolled down to "me" in her phone book where her number was stored. in which ms tan had nothing to say in her defence. quite amusing somehow. maybe its the way hannah informed us of the fact tt her number was stored under "ME" heh.
hmm. i don't think today was very productive either. for that matter i hardly ever seem to be productive! sigh. nothing seems to go in whether at home/in sch/outside. must think of new methods to study. hmm. and i was quite sleepy in the afternoon. i think if i'd been at home i'd have fallen asleep. as usual. but surprisingly as it got darker i got more awake. maybe its some reflex action heh.
bleah. i see long dreary hols in front of me. filled with mugging. hopefully it pays off man. horrible way to spend hols. feel like watching some movie but doesn't seem like there's anything much. oh i'm quite happy cos i bought 3 shirts at a go yesterday:D and given tt i'm so fussy its quite an accomplishment! haha.
man. tiring day yesterday. came to sch for 3h20 of physics [lect plus converted prac] and then gp was free block:) yay! lect was hilarious.. since i had pam behind me n raphael n candice on either side of me.. the amount of corny jokes pam n raphael came up with.. u couldn't imagine.. it was so painful.. anyway 2 samples here
on the mcq with the 4 diodes [for full-wave rectification]
courtesy of raphael
qn : why are the routes [taken by the current] like bus routes?
ans : because there're terminals
pam
qn : why are the routes dangerous for oats?
ans : because there are a lot of die-oats [diodes]
and raphael's winning joke for the board thingy was:
qn : why did the hot chocolate start to sing?
ans : because it was cocoa lee
yeah. well. oh yes and serene who is always so intelligent.
she was being annoying as usual and whining her head off. so i was saying "hmm.. i seem to hear a banshee around.." [obviously referring to her] and serene was like "really?? where?" tt was really classic
then our . ahem . learning journey to chinatown. haha. it was how sad. although a few pple weren't there. anyways we walked frm sch to mrt [in the hot sun at 2sth] frm mrt to chinatown. stood in the middle of the road deciding where to go. ended up at the food centre and ate and ate and ate. yes.
went to ben's house. haha i think his room door is very interesting.. it really looked like a wall to me.. then when mingze slid the panels apart i was like woah.. cool:) hehe. n now noe why ben's forever online.
bluemoo was good!:) =apologises for looking sian/bored/watever= it was really quite a tiring day for me.. not tt i was bored! haha somehow i thought nanu was nicer than budak pantai.. maybe cos they were doing pop songs and the lead singer sounded like one of those pop stars. but budak was funny:D they're like. comic genii.
anyways too lazy to go for open house today heh oops my house feels too comfy:p but yesterday was fun:) very amusing company:) btw jan somehow i never knew u squeaked so much haha:p u don't seem to get that agitated when its just the gals [or am i wrong?]
haha. finally ssef is over. didn't get anything. sigh. well. for the amount of effort we put in i guess that's kind of expected. and i guess our project wasn't good enough. o well.
anyways it was really quite horrible today.. so boring there.. luckily there was ting n ser n fiona n serene t around.. and lovely surprise! ms tan and ms ning came!:) haha so happy!:) made going there worth it man:D haha ms tan smacked me for not noticing them.. sed i was dao.. but i really didn't see them lar not my fault.. i think i was daoing ser n went back to my booth to do chem tut and then ms tan sed hi and -then- i realised. was really really good seeing them again;) ms tan's hilarious. and so cute!:) everyth she says she'll pat ms ning's shoulder n say "dui4 ma2?" n ms ning will nod. yeah. miss having them teach us.
yup. so me n serene coerced them into coming for choir concert. hopefully they'll keep 7th may night free:) haha i told ms tan it'll be her bday present then she stared at me and "its so far away!" n as usual was diaoing hannah abt putting chem s as 3rd choice for s papers. heh. o yeah n ms tan sed beh looks toot. and the poor guy sounded so pathetic when he told her "yeah i know lah her [serene's] classmates all think i'm ugly" haha:p
congrats to those who did well! and to those who're like me.. well.. it was a good experience:) quite interesting actually. and explaining it to pple is like quite challenging sometimes. wonder how choir went. haha.
gp common test was okay i guess. given tt i fell asleep at 9.30. sigh. getting too lazy. and tmr there's extra chem aft pe again. well. at least i'm almost done with my tut. but i can't stand her nitro notes. very messy.
right. so i've the night left to finish chem s tutorial n maths s [3 or 4 more questions] now why didnt' i finish them on friday.. sigh. seem to find chem s tutorials quite tedious. which is quite ridiculous because i chose to take it in the 1st place so i should be finding it interesting. which it is! but just being lazy i guess. as usual. don't seem to want to work for anything i want.
yesterday's dinner was fun fun fun! haha. even though -ahem- we spent 2 hrs waiting for pam. who, as usual, didn't have enough money. and lyd was so delighted with boxing gloves. and scolding pam for being unclassy when she herself wasn't being very classy;p and wistfully staring at all the sofa seats and was very satisfied when one table freed up and she finally got to sit on her darling sofa. yup. pity i couldn't stay longer... didn't have much time to catch up with them. lyd n pam together are hilarious. though we missed chris *glare* and jane *double glare*
ssef frm mon to wed. groan. hope it turns out fine. oh went to the career fair yesterday. wasn't particularly helpful to me like i told jan. except that i got to ask about the delf thingy. wonder if i'll actually go to france and study heh.
hmm. colorgenics is uncannily spot-on w.r.t. [haha diffn?] mood analysis. www.colorgenics.com! go try it! heh. though it kind of describes the whole week not so much just today. heh. like the way i feel cooped up. n how tired i feel. and the stress! the source of which i've no idea. bit scary the way its so accurate. more the last 3 paragraphs.
Results:
You are longing for some love and affection at this time - not that you have been deprived of tender loving care - but there are times when everyone needs to try something new or to go 'somewhere' else to perhaps experience that little extra 'understanding'.
You are feeling very vulnerable at this time. Nothing seems to be going in the right direction - business wise, private-life wise, everything. You need some emotional security and an environment which could possibly provide fewer problems, but the way you are feeling you can't be bothered even to make the effort.
You feel tired - worn out and listless. The last thing that you want to do is to be in an open conflict with those around you that are forever tormenting you. What to do? That's the rub. You are feeling that you are being choked - unable to breathe.
Unacceptable restrictions have been forced upon you and this is resulting in severe frustration and stress. You are looking for independence and consequently you shy away from any restriction and avoid obligations of anything which might prove hampering. You are being subjected to considerable pressure and want to escape from it so that you can obtain what you need, but unfortunately at this particular moment in time you lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this.
Trying to cope with conditions which you think are beyond your capabilities has led to considerable anxiety and stress. You now feel that you are not capable of coping with this situation and indeed any situation which could arise from what you consider to be your personal inadequacy.
woah. very relieved:) and happy:) haha. after worrying. anyways it was quite funny mrs cheong was saying they can get it by 11.. then raphael n serene were like "clarissa's dying already" so she should go get it now.. so mrs cheong was like "huh?? really ah?! okay okay i'll go n get now" n she ran off:p so nice:)
yup congrats to all those who did well!:) n a level results.. like woah.. weiying!! haha.. and kelvin n sicheng n all..
quite scared. we'll be like them next year.. hopefully will be as happy haha. i think i'm kind of struggling at the moment.
anyways i forgot to mention something on monday during math s poor val was stuck between serene [who had her bf with her] and me.. and i was like raining insults on serene half the time and val was quite amused. n then i realised i only do that to serene haha quite poor thing.
rather tired now. don't know why. off to rest. quite worried about ssef.. poster is undone, haven't practised presentation since last nov.. i still hafta go back to sch for choir.. dunno how also. n i think my mom has got something on in the morning.
sigh. suddenly yesterday after all the tests i felt so drained [like peiying says, though i'm not sure its the same reason] and very fatigued. and so. cooped up. like i was complaining to fiona/hk.. i'm either at home/in school. and its always the same route home, blah blah blah. its so tiringly routine and boring. study for tests.. oh yay they're over.. time to catch up on tutorials.. i want a holiday.. a real holiday like french immersion/vegas/sth to just play. and relax.
haha. this is actually quite funny. i think i only felt this way occasionally after june [?] but definitely not 1st term. quite sad that it actually happens now and then. tho actually during syf period i was feeling quite desperate about lagging work. but that's different. from feeling sick and tired of everything.
anyways.. at least i think i've nice dinner on saturday to look forward to:) hopefully. might have to go to ntu in the morning to do ssef stuff though. means i might miss sectionals. hmm. speaking of which ssef means i'll miss 1 1/2days of school. not very good actually. sigh.
and ao results are out tmr too i think. i'm quite worried really. don't know why. maybe cos i din like the compre passage? can't remember already. and i noe i was one of the few who did the passe simple compo topic. hopefully am being paranoid and i'll get the grade i want. then can go out n celebrate:D heh. but the way i'm feeling u'd think i already know i didn't get wat i want. aaugh. help me. somehow seems like i don't care about it anymore though. cared much more about o level french than ao level.
anyways all the best to pple getting back chinese!:) hope u all do fine:)
o yeah and today's pe was. well. can't find a word to describe it. ms chan was making us doing some pilate [sp?] exercises or something like that and it was like choir breathing exercises. man. candice n me n jiahui were like. okay.
haha i looked at my previous post starting with "well well well" n reminded me of fiona's very pathetic joke. anyhow. band concert was gd! would have been better at a diff venue definitely.. couldn't see most of the players.. bah.. haha.. eunice as the newest member of the softball team was quite funny:p pity they didn't have ensembles though hmm. last yr's percussion one was good:)
and yesterday's mugging was hilarious.. i never knew tiff could be that mad:D rather amazing really haha. self-sufficiency by sleeping on ur own shoulder? and singing all sorts of songs n going crazy.. heh:p and jan was hilarious too.. she's really one for dropping food:) (and chairs haha) n when she scolded ben!! haha.. mingze's chipmunk imitation was v funny too:p can really imagine her when she's a mom getting all flustered over her little kids haha;p n alvin imitating mingze "guys... [followed by grammatically incorrect sentence]" n ben telling jiahui "u've done 7 GOOD qns!! 7 SOLID qns!" the look on jiahui's face was priceless:D haven't laughed that much in a long time. it was fun:).. even tho i don't noe any of them particularly well